The advent of the adventure is coming, and in most people’s life structures and especially relationships, they have literally engineered their lives to control and minimize change and newness. The craving for adventure though remains because at heart, they are human, and the human being in all of it’s levels, body, soul and spirit, if it is anything at it’s essence, it is adventure. Risk, unknown, desire, curiosity, experimentation, trial, error, discovery, pleasure beyond your wildest imagination, but not without pain.
Wayne – Happy New Year, Yeshua!
Yeshua – Amen brother!
W – We don’t sound all that convincing. I was in bed by 8 last night.
Y – With all you’ve got going on, I get that. How is it going?
W – Well, I’ve been up and down and all over the place most days the past few weeks, but I always seem to come back around to feeling supported, loved and guided, usually all in the course of the same day.
Y – And you can’t buy that anywhere or new year’s resolute your way there either.
W – Buy what?
Y – The adventure.
W – That feels like it might be a big word for 2014 on a lot of levels. Can you say more about it?
Y – The advent of the adventure is coming, and in most people’s life structures and especially relationships, they have literally engineered their lives to control and minimize change and newness. The craving for adventure though remains because at heart, they are human, and the human being in all of its levels, body, soul and spirit, if it is anything at its essence, it is adventure. Risk, unknown, desire, curiosity, experimentation, trial, error, discovery, pleasure beyond your wildest imagination, but not without pain.
W – Yeshua, why would we cheat ourselves of our own birthright, our own essence? This feels so tragic when you lay it out there like that.
Y – The fuel that the human being cannot be without is love. Real love that is experienced, known and felt in the heart. Only love in this way can give the being enough heart juice to naturally let go into the spring loaded essence of adventure that life is. Without it, there is a dialing back of the adventure to a safety level where it feels manageable and digestible.
W – So all of us have a backed up store of unexplored adventure that we haven’t negotiated our way into yet?
Y – Pretty different from the ‘get a life’ picture, huh? It’s not ‘get a life,’ it’s ‘let in the life you are.’
W – Wow, so you’re saying that the nuts and bolts of my life is infused with adventure and ‘godness’ as it is. That includes all of my emotional reactions; that includes all of my current relationships and what is or isn’t happening in them; that embraces my history; that honours my aches and desires for the future; Wow, what did I miss?
Y – It includes EVERYTHING, man. It’s all sacred, even the shit and especially the shit someone is trudging through. It’s all YOUR GRAND ADVENTURE that you CAME here to live and love into.
W – When we pry the crusty lid off how we normally feel about life to look at from your angle, it seems so surreal. It feels like an alter reality.
Y – I get that. Feel for a moment though how all reality is created. Some realities are closer and more resonant with natural reality. The reality you create can be closer or further away from natural reality. Just because a reality is everywhere around you and looks to have the upper hand doesn’t mean it’s rooted in essence or heart.
W – So there’s like a war of realities going on?
Y – Oh, god, NO. Let’s don’t start another pretext for control and empire and canonized deadness with that war language. There isn’t anything to fight here. Fighting is what people use to ensure that the perception of a war holds it’s place as another control dial on their own sacred adventure that they aren’t ready for yet, even though they are, I would add.
W – So the ‘hereby resolve’ stuff of new year’s is what?
Y – A great way to address your unfulfilled longings and desires while still at the same time planning on changing nothing.
W – Yeshua, that still feels like we’re pretty fucked. Not?
Y – Old systems are fucked, not people, they’re running out of the fossil fuels that they used to run impressively on. They used to work, but ADVENT is here, like it or not. If it wasn’t for the heart, yes, you’d be fucked, and I’d call it a day too. BUT, with the heart, and its need for security grounded in felt love, you will be so surprised by what adventure keeps on rolling out of your sacred life.
W – Jillian and I are moving into our 24’ long 1983 RV tomorrow after selling off our household. It still feels some surreal, but I’ve been amazed how guided and held we have felt. And that didn’t preclude feeling anxious or frustrated in the process. I might in fact be feeling tight and contracted an hour after writing this.
Y – And…
W – And I feel so grateful for my life, that it has an internal guidance system, that it has the ability to draw and digest all the love I need, that it’s anything but meaningless. Meaninglessness is only something I’ve toyed within the past to manage my comfort zone with the ADVENTURE.
Y – This is the real ‘getting into shape’ that wants to be the forefront. All other concerns about body health, or financial health, or social health, all come back to this relationship with yourself. It’s time to pop the hood and feel the condition of the heart, and let its spring loaded essence unfold aliveness back into your life.
W – Man, I’ve missed you the last few weeks!
Y – A little hide and seek just keeps it all alive…MAN. You just keep finding your way back to you.
W – I want to do this with more people, Yeshua. I’m so happy to be doing it with the few people I am doing it with, but I want it to unfold.
Y – Your heart knows this and nothing can stop it really.
W – Well, it sure seems like it gets pause buttoned a lot though…
Y – The good news is that it’s going to keep taking more and more falseness and deadness to keep the heart from naturally arising.
W – Kind of like how computer chips halve in price and double in capacity every two years?
Y – Exactly, this is the force of the heart. It’s an unstoppable momentum that is being so dialed up in this time. Embrace it with everything in you!
W – Yeshua. You’ve given me so much in these 95 days. The fire and passion still feels like the most of it is on the ‘to be digested’ list, and yet maybe that is just my mind trying to track and analyze something so unexplainable and powerful that has changed and is changing the trajectory yet again of my life.
Y – And mine as well. Who knew, huh? I‘m having a big heart orgasm of so much too in this moment. Thank you is only part of it.
W – I love feeling how in this moment, our eyes, eye to eye, our hearts, heart to heart, our tears so natural completes a project we agreed to, and yet, it is a completion and big opening in the same moment. Thank you, Yeshua.
Y – Couldn’t have said it or energized it any better…
W – I feel Marvin, and Luther, and Reuben in my heart who want a hug and feel sooo much gratitude for this all too. They are feeling a lot about the ADVENT-ure.
Y – Marvin, Luther, and Reuben. You taught me so much, and I am forever changed by YOU. There are things in me that I know I can never heal any other way than by getting heart to heart and intimate with parts of myself. You held my hand through that and even let me feel you. It was me who was really being helped. It’s going to take life for me to walk out and digest what you gave to me. Thank you. And Flamethrower, who I feel in the moment inside of me wants to also say a big thank you.
W – Flamethrower. Wow. Thank you for your arising, and for your burning down the house, but mostly for your heart and feeling.
Y – Wayne, I feel the intense changes that are coming in 2014. It’s only the heart that can truly prepare. It’s only the heart that can make any sense of it. The heart is able to navigate it. You’ve shown me that.
W – Yumm, I was thinking a couple weeks back that I’d like to do a series with you about money. I think we started in on that a few days back, didn’t we?
Y – Feels like that’s what’s coming next for us. We are having too much fun to leave this alone for too long huh?
W – My funometer and phenomumeter are giving me a big yes.
Y – Well, let’s do it then.
W – Isn’t there a closing hymn or doxology or something?
Y – There’s millions of them and more being written everyday!
W – Endings mixed with beginnings.
Y – Arrivals and departures.
W – Till we meet Yeshua.
Y – Till we meet Wayne.
In this blog series, 90 Days With Yeshua, I share my daily, unedited, journal conversation between myself, Wayne Vriend, and Yeshua. Yeshua is the hebrew and native name for Jesus. The journals cover my journey this life in Christianity, leaving it, and beyond. I left Christianity as a religion several years ago but my ache and desire for a connection with Yeshua remained. How the blog series came about is explained in this first post. The first 30 days of entries in the 90 Days With Yeshua series are now available to read in a compiled format, as are days 31-60. Visit www.soulfullheart.com for more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.