By Raphael Awen
‘You can have whatever you want’.
These words come to me as I stare into the setting bright orange sun last night as it dips slowly below the ocean horizon and lights up the underside of the cloud cover in a stunning display of color. I feel the voice is from Metatron who is a favoured guide. I awake the next morning and the words are still fresh and here, still lingering audibly in my space.
Do I really believe that? Could this be true? I can have whatever I want. My mind takes it on first. If my friend owns a bakery and I drop by and he generously says ‘have whatever you want’, that’s easy and linear to grasp. He owns the bakery and I’m welcome to simply take a handful or two of whatever I want.
But it’s not that straightforward to apply when my higher self or a spiritual guide tells me to ‘have whatever I want’ and to feel how that translates to, say, a trip to the auto dealership for a desired new car.
It doesn’t compute. There’s obviously some missing pieces here, some more to the story, or, I’m just off into some nonsense and need to return to reality.
I chose to return to what I heard in the sunset. ‘I can have whatever I want.’ I ask ‘Metatron, can you help we with the missing pieces that my mind will need to be able to feel this with you and what you are trying to get over to me?’
Metatron waxes metaphysical and my heart and ears open:
‘Your desires and your ‘wanter’ is something that is tied to the center of your being and the center of the universe. There isn’t actually any difference between the two. They are one and the same. When you really own a desire and purify that desire inside of yourself to where it is really true, that pure desire is all you need to manifest that desire into the dimension you wish to experience that in. In fact, this is already true, you just find it difficult to see. Your life as you presently know it is a manifestation of your desires. Desire has created your present reality.’
My mind begins to reel with his expansive words and energy that he is juicing me with. Questions arise in a whole bunch of directions. I’m hesitant to focus on a single question when there are so many. I sit in the juice he is vibing and silently invite him to continue when he feels I’m ready. We sit together in the expansive silence and then he continues where he left off.
‘What you really want is the most sacred thing about you. It’s the secret that’s been manifesting your life as you know it. You just haven’t been as conscious of it up till now. As you find the courage to accept this truth, this secret becomes a normal everyday working practical knowledge that you can apply to your life. Now, you can begin to see where your wants have been in conflict, and what you have manifested is something between the two. This is still however a perfect manifestation, providing you with a sacred learning ground of coming to terms with what it is that you really want, especially in the presence of conflicting desires.
If this resonates for you and feels true for you, then the mind’s resistances of ‘that’s just not possible’ change to ‘I don’t quite understand it yet, but I feel it to be true.’ This is you accepting responsibility for the present creation of your life. This is you maturing into your next phase of consciousness awakening.
As you feel this as your reality more and more, your mind will come to track it all plainly, but the mind is only a tracker of reality, not the creator of reality. The mind’s refusal to accept a new reality is a barrier to that new reality arising, but the mind is here only resistively acting as the agent and protector of the heart. It is from the heart that courage flows to let in a new reality, to live into a new culture of reality. It is your heart that is your center of being, your center of reality, powerfully shaping your experience of life. Let the heart take the lead and the mind will follow’.
I pause to refill my tea, and to let in more of Metatron’s heart and energy. The questions are still here, but they don’t feel as clamorous for attention somehow. There is a trust that the questions are sacred and they will all be answered in time, a necessary part of this process of incubating a new reality. I consider how I am being offered a process over some kind of instant transformation into a new reality, yet the new reality is already here at the same time. Wow. Lots of ‘wow’ actually. I turn my attention back to Metatron knowing that I’m near full, but that he usually has one more thing to say to help containerize all the goodies he’s just given me.
‘Raphael, share this with others. Find others who are ready and wanting to shift their reality into new and arising places. Beacon it out. This isn’t a Lone Ranger deal. You will make this your reality more and more as you give it away while you embrace it. These new realities don’t belong to any one person, other than the one person that you all are. It’s held and arises and shines IN commUNITY. Plant the seeds you have, and then you’ll get the next batch of seeds to plant and live into’.
Okay, wow, thank you Metatron. I’ve got my heartwork cut out for me again. I can have whatever I want… I want more of this!
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.