Who and what are you really to me?
How to I authentically and honestly relate to you?
What lures me and repels me so?
So many questions that can only lead me on a quest.
A quest to open the doors that remain closed to you.
I have experience you flood my house
Set my world on fire
And send me to the moon.
I remember how you have broken me open
And invited me to see what I really didn’t really want to see
You have felt like a bully, a beacon, an enemy, and a teacher
To the varied parts of me that have their own relationship to you
But how do I Gabriel see you?
What does this man’s heart want and need from you?
I want to see you how you see me
I want to feel the breath of your wildness down my spine
I want to hear the whispers and the shouts
That guide me to places previously feared
I want to touch your sesuality and ecstasy
And taste the sweetness and realness
Of that which that courses through you
I need to stop playing games of hide and seek
And walk upon your secret garden
And sow my seed upon your fertile ground
The seeds of my desire, my purpose, my joy
I need your help to shine the light upon the places
You have not been permitted to enter
To open up those up so I can let in the love that is meant to find me
To see the world and myself through those very eyes
I feel ready to be consumed by you
Ready to be seen by you
To be transformed and moved by you
Even as I feel a quake when I say that
This is my meditation
My daily prayer
My devotion to your embodied promotion
Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
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