We Have Boarded A Boat

By  Raphael Awen

We have boarded a boat and we are making a long journey.

Things don’t quite feel right or easy, even as much as we’d like to attempt to relax and take in the changes and newness unfolding before us.

Parts of us are not only asking, but also afraid about the new world we are entering. Will it be good? Will I find pleasure and fulfillment?

Make no mistake, we are in the midst of the biggest changes in our world, certainly during our lifetimes, if not ever.

As much as we feel like a good camper, or a seasoned traveller, we are still admittedly in a culture shock.

Watching people in the new land willingly and even want to cover their nose and mouth and breathe in their own waste gasses instead of unfiltered fresh air for fear of a hearsay thing they don’t understand in order to protect their health, is a shocking, strange and weird mindfuck, and something so beyond any language barrier we may have tried to allow for.

Many of you are in the midst of deep life changes and would concur that we are mid voyage, no longer moored to the old norms. But even the many who might be able to argue that their life as they know it hasn’t changed, as they attempt to live and work and live life pretty much as they always have are also feeling the rumble rumbling underneath their known world. It’s for sure not on auto pilot in the way it once was.

Whether we resist change or attempt to embrace change, we are doing it from a place of wanting to ensure our wellbeing and our outcome, which proves that life isn’t static. It’s always changing.

I know I sure do that when packing for a trip, whether it’s packing a familiar food or drink, or some other creature comfort. We try to predict the outcome and to avoid as much regret as possible.

But prior to embarking, each of us must settle on the amount of luggage we’re taking, according to our means and desires, whether it’s a single backpack or an overseas storage container, it still only fits so much.

How much will be enough? Will you even need, want or like the things you bring with you into the new world when you get there?

You have to admit, we’re all a bit strange and uneasy when it comes to change, even as we are, in the core of our being, change in motion.

When you consider that life is in its essence, infinite, this helps relate to the uneasiness we find within. Infinite is just plain scary. How do you choose one thing amidst an infinite number of others that by choosing, you are saying no to?

Infinity for the most part freaks us out. It explains why we all settle into crafting false finite gods of our own making for as long as we do, whether an overt religion, or choose to go along with any of the ready made lifestyles (deathstyles) we find all around us that promise to take us somewhere good if we just sign up.

I believe and I hope that the voyage we are now on is one of those really deep game changers, that ‘changes everything’. Admittedly, I still have packed away and have a dwindling supply of some of the old familiarities in case of disappointment as part of my preparation, which evidences how unbelievable and almost unimaginable the new world is that we dared to want and chose to sail for.

What choices are you facing in the unfolding change? How much courage do you have to choose? Where and how could you find the courage if part of you admittedly just doesn’t have it, and refuses to budge?

Will you simply let life and circumstance have its way allowing you to play the victim card?

You may well find one or more parts of you that have had enough, that simply don’t want to face any changes. I know I sure have. The changes these parts of us have faced haven’t panned out to anything good in their experience. Why should this be any different? If you can’t show up for these parts of you and their pain, you are choosing to wind things down, which is also known as suicide, whether immediate or in slow motion. 

Is this a wrap then on your soul’s mission this life? Only you can decide that.

It makes sense that these hesitant and resistant parts of you don’t feel ready for the infinite world, and don’t feel like they would like it there. They’re probably right in that they don’t feel fitted to the new world. They’re best not falsely coaxed into any shallow advice of looking on the bright side.

What if instead, you could enter their world, get to know them, thank them for the shit and conditioning they’ve had to hold to manage making the old world survivable? They are the ones who’ve brought you to this moment of rebirth. They deserve to be felt and honoured, not paved over with some positive emotional management techniques. That’s all part of the shit that’s collapsing. These parts of you are wanting and needing to truly collapse.

Let them collapse into your open heart of love, acceptance and curiosity. Allow their despair and needs to inform the set of your sails now as you navigate your inner relationSHIP taking them with you, leaving no one behind.

May we each find our sacred way in these deep and profound and uniquely personal changes we are in the midst of.

Raphael Awen

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The pic below is me this week pondering the new world we’ve arrived in, in a little village called Folques, in Portugal. Note the luggage and possessions – a thermal mug, beach chairs for two, and a side table. Where will you go and what will you bring?

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

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