I have been in the orbit and a part of SoulFullHeart for three years now, though I initially calibrated for six months before I had my first session with Jelelle. One day she just showed up on my Facebook and taking in one post after the other, I quickly became convinced she was speaking directly about me and to me at the same time. Over the years I’ve had the unique opportunity and experience of being facilitated by every single Facilitator in SoulFullHeart. It was very clear from the beginning that “this” was “it” for me. I finally found what I had been looking for all my life. In just how many ways that is true, I’m learning now every day as a part of the community in the physical.
I joined Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, and Kasha to live with them on a campground in northern Portugal at the beginning of August this year. About a month and a half ago, we moved to central Portugal, to quite a remote little village called Folques. While the campground was sort of a ‘honeymoon phase’ and sniffing each other out, the new phase brought a lot of intense initiations for me, inner and outer, which I bravely walked out and am now getting to the other side of. A week and a half ago, Raianna, who has been connected to SoulFullHeart for many years, joined us all here in Portugal too after completing her life in Canada. For Halloween, we dressed up and had a little gathering.
The veils are thin right now and for me personally, I particularly feel that in my ongoing process of differentiating from my persona-based ‘Bianca part’, as the current energies push up so much illumination of her and support for me to keep differentiating. For a number of years now I have been doing ‘parts work’ with SoulFullHeart and working with parts of the self. Over the years I have discovered and felt many parts of myself, differentiated from them and integrated them. This has led me to a new and deeper layer of this work, held by the soul family container and the relationship with myself. It has led me to recognize that ‘Bianca’, my birth name, had become a part herself, and a corresponding new energy had been discovered and cultured through all this inner work. This new energy/being is able to hold all parts of myself, soul explorations/metasoul aspects, soul family community, and life choices. I have decided to call this new arising energy, ‘Bey Magdalene’. One version of the name ‘Bianca’, which is Italian and means white/pure/bright light, is ‘Beyonca’ (same pronunciation) and I am feeling to go with the short version of it, Bey (pronounced like ‘bee’) for now and claim it as a transitory name until a soul name comes through. The surname ‘Magdalene’ I have chosen in honor of my soul family origins and connection to the Magdalene/Essene lineage in honor and humble claim of my connection to my beloved Soul Family in SoulFullHeart. It feels important to let go of the entire waveform of my former name as it holds all of the birth family relationships/biography/woundings, social and romantic relationships, job navigations, and life as I have known it really, in order to keep arising into the New.
Differentiating from this persona-based part and everything she has been holding, including her relationship to this life, the process itself, and others, is a deep service to and honoring of me, her, and others too who feel drawn to this work and community as well.
It REALLY is NOT easy to feel everything that is going on inside in every moment, move through it, and come out the other side of it. And sometimes, all we can do is fuse to the emotional world of our parts. Yet ALL of this process is sacred and held, supported and guided by the Soul and the Divine Self, if you choose this path of utmost soul growth and deeply nourishing and resonant soul family community. I am feeling, after all these years of dedicated inner work, a deep trust in this process and myself and that it all is truly perfect as it unfolds and keeps unfolding. And to me, trust in oneself is the hottest currency out there, especially right now in these volatile and intense times.
Bey Magdalene is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant and Community Member. For more information on community, videos, group calls, and 1:1 sessions with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator, visit soulfullheart.org.