It is in deep intimacy with self and with others that we can truly see and feel ourselves. It is where we were hurt and where we can heal and grow. It provides us with the next layers to meet inside and out.
When I was a teenager I was in a back-and-forth, in-and-out relationship that was quite dramatic many times. A karmic tornado in a way. I was working my own insecurities and uncertainties of a teenage boy.
I eventually found myself in a healthier and more intimate union with my former wife, Jelelle. She showed me the gifts of true intimacy and how it can show us things about ourselves we may have never been willing to see until we truly trusted someone enough to do so.
We both found ourselves on different paths at some point yet somehow still connected in heart and soul. It was at this point that I went into a solo phase and felt a resistance to going into romance again. It is where some of my old patterns re-emerged and played out some of my former teenage consciousness that needed to run out before I found myself again.
After some unfortunate yet illuminating events, I set myself on a journey to heal my self-worth and find my true purpose here on this planet. Not so much time passed and I met Kasha on the same path. We were very different in many ways yet also connected in our souls. We found ourselves in a swirl of a romance at first that led to me leaving California and then moving to Canada.
From there we found ourselves on a years-long journey together where we have seen, felt, and moved through many shadow and karmic places together, both in romance and out. I have learned how much I have resisted real and deepening intimacy with myself and others, especially that of a sacred union.
I didn’t even really understand what that meant when I began this journey. I knew I wanted to know myself and feel better about myself but this sacred union journey as lead me to so much more. So much more challenging, scary, and yet alive and magical. I am not anywhere near the same human I was 10 years ago. Nor will I be the same in 10 more.
A year ago today, I crossed the space to offer my heart to Kasha after a long period of separation. It was a risk after what we had been through over the past, yet my heart and soul could only ever see and feel her as the one I wanted and needed to continue this ongoing journey. It was a leap of Love that I had been given another chance to take. Yet this time with more sobriety, realness, courage, and sacredness.
She has experienced myself at my most vulnerable and has showed up with a trust and her own worth to keep us both on sacred and deepening ground as well as the need to fly and unify. This is where I have learned that sacred intimacy IS a way of life and an ongoing process to show up to every single moment. It is the way of the Magdalenes. It is the way of this heart and soul lineage.
I feel all the 2’s this month signifying this Sacred Union path and lineage. It is found within and deepened with Other. I am blessed to have Kasha as my Queen and sacred mate. She leads me to my King, my Lover, and my Sage. She leads me to my most real and powerful self that I could not truly see or feel without her. For that I am eternally grateful.
It is intimacy that is the sacred ground we walk on with those in this community and will continue to espouse, exemplify, and explore. As a man, I know the difficulties to just even loving yourself, let alone another in a mature, healthy, and real way. That self-love is where it all starts and sacred union is where it all leads.
Thank you, Kasha, for this past year, the past years, and all the years that are meant to follow. I am ready for what we are meant to serve and create together as Magdalene mates and Divine Lovers and Leaders.
Happy anniversary, beloved. I love you…❤️🔥🌹
Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.