Last week I was teaching an online English class with other adults from around the world. A woman from the Ukraine came in first and I asked her how she was doing. She said she was still in a state of disbelief, confusion, and fear. I could see it in her eyes and feel it from her energetically. My heart sank in that moment for all of my human brothers and sisters. It felt odd to continue a lesson that seemed so far removed from what was going on, but she was there to get away from it all, to have an hour where she could be among others holding care for her and sending her love via the Heart and having a ‘normal’ conversation even as if nothing was normal around her.
After the class I sank into a sacred sadness for all of humanity, not just on one side of a geopolitical/cabalistic conflict. In that moment I could feel the depth to which our planet of humans has been infiltrated by a dark force. A machine and a spell. It is also a veil to what lies deep inside each one of us that can change the course of the world forever…Care.
In the not so distant past, I would feel this collective pain and want to help solve it or assuage it with information. Something to alleviate the guilt and pain that was swirling around. Be some kind of beacon of Hope for others to lean into as well as my inner world. However, this never dropped me fully into the state of Care, for that requires to fully feel the pain that lies underneath it. This pain is thick and global. If we have our own pain that resonates inside it becomes too much to bear and needs understandable relief. That is actually self-care.
Yet over the years I have been healing my own inner pain, suffering, and guilt to feel a genuine and authentic Care that takes me to this feeling place without being swallowed up by it. I am Jonah in the Whale emanating Love from within.
I found myself searching news and taking in others’ posts about it. Many trying to offer historical context, corruption analysis, enemy patterning, as well as a “hell, no!” to fear-mongering and information manipulation. I then dropped it all and let myself just feel. Feel the anger, feel the rage, feel the fear, the sadness, the grief, the helplessness, and the hopelessness of everything that this world is being asked to contend with beyond just the Ukraine.
This is where my human heart opens and just IS. No strategy, no fixing, no mentalizing. Just feeling Care. In this place I feel closer to humanity. I feel a service beyond action, beyond words. It is etheric, psychic, emotive, and quantum. Does it solve the issue at hand this very moment? No. The bombs still fly, the injections still occur, the lives still lost. There is still work to be done, but not in the way we have been programmed it should.
We must grow out of our politics and out of our information gathering and go into our hearts and souls. This is where we find true Care to be the Cure. Care for ourselves, care for our intimates, and care for our human brothers and sisters. This is not easy for many to do. What may seem like care may just be a layer of diversion from fully feeling whatever that feeling is, even if it leads you back to yourself. Maybe that is where you are meant to go.
I am realizing how much Care is a spiritual initiation, not just some four-letter word that makes us feel better about ourselves. It is the tie that binds us all together in Holy Humanity. It is that which brings us to new levels of growth and change inside and out. It is our way back to reclaiming and remembering our greatest gift to each other.
The gift of Love.
Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.