During my time in Lisbon last week, I came to realize something big for myself that may resonate with others as well. When I came home, it took a few days for the buzzing feeling in my body to recede back to its more native and natural state. It was like the city vibration had taken a hold inside of me. I have had this before when Kasha and I lived in Porto for a month last year so it has been awhile, yet I knew prior to our trip that it was going to be interesting to see how it would all transpire.
What I experienced in the city was a sensitivity that I have taken for granted most of my life. Coupled with eating much lighter and cleaner, I felt like an unsheathed nerve ending by the time I came back. I didn’t have a bad time at all, but I definitely had an overwhelm that I felt was being a bit glossed over due to a part of me really wanting to explore and get the ‘most’ out of our time. A very masculine kind of energy.
I am not judging that energy as it was very excited and curious, yet there was also a real-time part of me that was feeling pushed, maybe my more feminine side. My flow state and body were a bit ignored at times. This led me to realize how much my masculine side has operated from this place of ‘getting through’ or ‘getting over’ something to achieve a goal or outcome. I also felt control and anxiety come up at times, navigating a very busy and populated city.
By our return to the tranquility of our rural village, I could feel my nervous system and mental body a bit frazzled. I felt some judgment about not being able to deal with the intensities of the city as much as a part of me thought it could. In retrospect, I am amazed as to what many other people have conditioned themselves to be able to deal with in these kinds of environments. This where the smoking, eating, intense exercise, sex, and other forms of medications help to create an energetic buffer and wall to all the vibrations.
Since I was in more of a porous state in my energetic body, I realized I was also feeling all the things that were in the collective field wherever we went yet wasn’t as present to its effects due to my past density and ability to pack it away somewhere else. This is why I would always get sick in my early days and then follow it with the reintroduction of past addictions and medications.
There was a definite feeling deep inside me of something collapsing in relation to the mental and protective bodies. There has been such an attachment to these that I feel parts of me have identified with those. Then I realized that this may be true for most men, or the masculine in us all.
As Gaia continues to move into and through this increased photonic energy field, and the more we each continue our healing and body detoxes, the more the veil to all that we have identified with and suppressed are coming to the surface. This will make for a bit of crazy-making, especially for the masculine, and men in particular.
I needed the mirror and messiness of intimacy with Kasha to help me see and feel this. I feel the feminine is more intimate and in flow with this death and rebirth process. This is why this is the sacred feminine time to rise and help the masculine to be born into the New. This is not to suggest that the feminine is responsible for the masculine, but there is a bigger context to see and feel here.
The Feminine is increasingly feeling the need to heal and be in alignment with herself and with the Divine. The Masculine is in deep death and rebirth around all that has felt true to him for millenia. It is coming to recognize his own sensitivity and need to be more real with his own truth and needs. This will butt up against the Matrix-hijacked version of himself in the 3D and lower 4D frequencies of robot, soldier, warrior, and shadow king/magician.
I am getting how messy this process is and will be, yet it is all held in the loving embrace of the Divine Mother and Father. The Divine Feminine will act as the midwife to this ongoing birthing and ascension process. We need Her to help the Divine Masculine arise into His most humbled and worthy role as co-creator of New Earth. We need other men to take the mantle of this difficult yet necessary disentanglement from the Old Guard and the collective masculine conditioning.
This is not about doing it alone either yet there may need to be a period of necessary cocooning. We men have been more alone than we realize in our worlds. We have hidden ourselves away from our true sensitivities and needs. We have created walls where we need to be building bridges connected to our hearts, not just our minds and souls. This is our coming of age story. Our true Hero’s Journey. The one that leads us to intimacy with self and others as well as the Divine in both the Mother and Father.
It does not make us more weak or dependent, but rather stronger and more whole in our Being and Presence. It is where we truly begin our work as co-creators or co-rememberers of our Original Union with the Feminine, inside and out.
I feel I learned something profound in my time in the city that relates to the bigger picture for all of us on our journeys during these volatile and uncertain times. We can bring more certainty into The Field when we begin to shed Light and offer Love to all of that which has been forgotten and hidden inside of us. It is time for us to remember how sensitive we are as well as how strong we are as sacred human expressions of the Divine.
Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.