VIPKid/PalFish: Teaching ESL Online w/ Kalayna Solais & Raianna Shai

 

by Kalayna Solais

We’re living in uncertain times, and both Raianna and Shai and I are deeply grateful for our online jobs that are sustaining us and have sustained us for years now. We felt to introduce them to YOU as a possibility for you to feel into if you’re feeling insecure about money or just want to feel into a job that allows for a lot more flexibility in your daily life yet also pays really well! This makes it ideal for anyone who is transitioning to heart and soul purpose work or wants more space to focus on their own healing without also having a day job that takes up a lot of energy and ‘time’ and is feeling less and less aligned with who you ARE at your core as you heal, evolve, and ascend.

In some ways, you could say that teaching ESL online has been a ‘best-kept secret’ for a few of us in the SoulFullHeart community, though not really a ‘secret’ since we’ve mentioned it a few times in other videos too! It’s been a blessing since it’s supported us to serve love through the SoulFullHeart process, whether holding space for ourselves/parts of us or others, without any stress or pressure on SoulFullHeart itself to provide for all of our needs (though this is the ideal dream for sure).

Raianna and I share about our experiences with teaching on different ESL platforms called VIPKid and PalFish. We want to offer a series of videos on this topic, giving you some tips if you do decide to apply for either (or both) companies and also offering a sense of what it’s been like to work for them, what the perks are, and how to get yourself going in this job. We also discuss the requirements and qualifications needed for the job, the hours you’ll likely be working, etc.

Please do ask us any questions you wish about these jobs! We are open books and your questions will also help to inform and inspire our next videos about this topic! 🙂

You can leave your questions as comments or email us:

kalaynasolais@gmail.com
raianna.tydeman@gmail.com

Our referral codes/links are here if you choose to apply:

Raianna (PalFish): dpwIfu (input for ‘inviter’ on your application)

Kalayna (VIPKid): https://www.vipkid.com/mkt/landing/personal?referralToken=982b50009780833d2bc09c5f6dee5fbe&refereeId=6235218
KATHL0045 (my legal name is Kathleen Calder, so if you see that name when you use my code/link you’ll know why :))

Much love!

Kalayna & Raianna

Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant & collaborative assistant, soul scribe, and poetess. Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

SoulFullHeart Museletter: We Are The Creative Force Of Death & Rebirth

Welcome to another weekly edition of our Museletter! We’ve had so much content we’ve been creating lately in response to current events, that we’re releasing our Museletter weekly again instead of bi-weekly! We truly want this weekly collection of articles, videos, and event announcements to be relevant to you and to what the collective is moving through right now.

And so, here’s another week of digestions regarding COVID-19/Coronavirus reactions and events, as well as the 3D Matrix switch-over that’s going on behind-the-scenes.

You can read this week’s Museletter here.

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Our featured article this week is from Raphael Awen, who invites us to feel the reactions of our different parts during this time, whatever they may be feeling and moving through around it all. He also invites us to feel how all of us have co-created the events we’re facing now, fully in our power, and that it’s up to us how we respond to it, especially from within:

 “The Coronavirus, whether the virus itself or the scenarios created by our layers of reaction to it answered a call we didn’t even know we were making. Playing victim to the virus and the circumstances may be the phase many are necessarily in, as they need a bringer of death to life as they’ve known it, but can’t admit it. Others with awakening consciousness see and feel that the changes and deaths are what they and life itself called out for. We are in a funeral and a birth canal at the same time. Life as we’ve known it will not be the same in so many ways.

This is the creative force of death and rebirth that we actually are. This is our next phase of consciousness evolution lapping at our shores. Holding and feeling yourself in this transition is your service to others and is your highest calling.”

We have an exciting NEW event to announce this week!

Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be holding a weekly group call series, every Wednesday for 6 weeks starting April 1st!

We are excited to offer Free To Be: Navigating the 3D Matrix Switch Over To New Earth Transition, a six-week group call experience over Zoom every Wednesday at 10:00am PDT starting on April 1st. Attend live and/or receive the recording by offering a donation at paypal.me/jelelleawen.

We will be diving into some deeper waters to provide both a context and a grounding to navigate this VERY transitional and momentous time in our human history! We also wanted to provide a much needed resonant community connection through the group calls and our private FB group as well. It is by donation (whatever you feel to give) so we hope you can join us!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/freetobe for more info.

SoulFullHeart Divine Feminine Teacher/Facilitator and Ascension Guide Jelelle Awen hosted a live Q&A, energy update, and guided meditation that originally aired March 17th, 2020. She answers questions, responds to comments and digests the coronavirus/COVID-19 outbreak and the 3D Matrix dismantling that she feels is going on behind-the-scenes of it for which the virus is being used as a smokescreen.

You can watch this video on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel.

You can watch all of our podcast episodes on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel or listen to the audio on the SoulFullHeart Soundcloud channel or iTunes channel.

We have many new articles and audio blogs this week from Raphael and Jelelle Awen, Kalayna Solais, and Deva Yasmin. These writings include energy updates, ways to look and digest current events, and some bridging into how to feel different parts/aspects of you during this time.

Check out our ‘Quotes of The Week’ section for some quote cards you can save and share! If you can, please do tag us whenever possible.

Raphael and Jelelle Awen are available for 1:1 sessions to support you and your ongoing process. Raphael works with men and women and Jelelle works with women only. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Healing!

You can become a patron of SoulFullHeart through a one-time or monthly donation via our patreon page.

Check out the latest Museletter here.

 

 

Feeling & Processing Current Events With The Inner Child

by Kalayna Solais

As I went into meditation this morning, members of my Star Family were right there waiting for me and for a very precious part of me, especially.

I’ve been closest with my Star Family aspects from Sirius over the last few years. I think in some ways this is because, well, they are feline and look like “lion-people” so that makes them easier to let in for my young parts especially, but also, they are among the groups that have been working the closest with humanity. You may especially feel them nearby, energizing love and support to you around “Lion’s Gate” every August 8th. They’re also accessible because they’ve been where we are now and they understand the Ascension process well from their own experience of it and of the sacred yet often ‘bliss-messy’ steps along the way.

My Sirian-Lyran (that’s a sort of ‘star being name’ I’ve been offered to call them as it encompasses their origins) aspect named Ineerah and her masculine counterpart named Ortho wanted to connect with me and with my Inner Child, Lilly. They have been feeling her and MANY Inner Children a lot lately with everything going on. The Inner Child seems to be THE seat of sensitivity and deep reactions to what is going on right now, alongside the deep soul rumbles that everyone is feeling as the ‘collapse’ happening around us in different ways is very reminiscent of other timelines our souls all know very well (which our Inner Children are also impacted by to some degree).

Ineerah and Ortho wanted to connect with Lilly and feel her in this heightened sensitivity to the world. She is (as they always seem to be) very empathic and even a deep layer of all of us who feel we are ‘healers’ in some way.

Just yesterday I felt deep tears with her about the ‘meanness’ of others, not just towards her, but towards each other. She doesn’t like the judgements everyone has of one another and the harshness too. She doesn’t like how intense parts of people can be about ‘rules’ and ‘health regulations’, especially while she feels all of this is about SO MUCH MORE than a ‘virus’. She hasn’t felt much about what’s happening/not happening in our world right now and is actually quite happy to hear that animals are returning to places like Venice and that China’s skies are clearing. She hopes for a better future, just like all of our Inner Children do. And in that, they need presence, especially OUR presence. And, they need a voice. But, their voice cannot be heard, let alone land, in a world that remains as chaotic and out-of-touch with the real heart of things and their own individual hearts too, as has been true up ’til now.

This is what my Sirian-Lyran Star Family told her this morning, in light of this,

“Lilly,  the world is going through what it needs to right now so that you and parts like you can come out and feel safer. You WILL feel free to love and let in love in new ways as has been very unimaginable sometimes beyond your soul family connections. We know how much you ache to love and to have it be as simple as that… adult relationships, as you’ve noticed, are so complicated sometimes, but in a world where you get to be you, in all of the magic that’s within you, you get to be part of the celebration of what’s coming. You and all other parts like you are a light at the end of a very long, dark tunnel! And there’s nothing you need to DO to BE this, you just simply ARE this.”

They’re emphasizing to me now to share that our Inner Children are not a ‘solution’, but they are a ‘result’. Meaning, they are not (though sometimes this happens) meant to be actively ‘used’ as a means to an end by other parts of us to ‘solve’ issues on this planet or in our relationships, pressing on and using their hurt and pain somehow instead of healing it, which can only happen if/when we scoop them up and hold them close as us, ourselves. Their ideal alignment is with love and deep soul and heart freedom and they are freed up by the work you do with other parts of you and within your soul healing as well. They are not the labour pains of birthing the new reality, yet they ARE a new reality, especially as their essence of innocence, empathy, and trust in the Divine get to be re-discovered and unearthed.

In all of the sensitivity arising in just about everyone right now, whether it’s showing up mostly as fear, or sadness, or even excitement about what’s possible after all of this is over, it feels important to remember that this sensitivity was always there, just buried in busyness, which is now falling away. The real feelings of the heart can no longer be medicated or hidden in the same ways now that the outer world has been ‘locked down’. This can lead each of us into many deep processes yet these feelings are all meant to bring us into our truest anchoring from within of the New Earth that is in the middle of birthing into our reality.

If you feel ready to try and be with or even meet your own sweet Inner Child, you can try this meditation from Jelelle Awen to help you get in touch with them: https://youtu.be/L_bpgyIuYds

And, as always, my beloveds Jelelle and Raphael are available for 1:1 sessions if you would like to receive some mega-hearted love and support at this time: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions ❤

Much love from my heart and parts, and Star Family too, to yours!

Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

SoulFullHeart Museletter: Coronavirus As A Smokescreen For Major Reboots

This week we decided to release another issue of our Museletter, featuring all of our digestions of the Coronavirus/COVID-19 ‘outbreak’, having placed our hearts on the pulse of what seems to be happening on multiple levels, both individually and collectively.

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Featured this week is a major energy update from Jelelle Awen, digesting what could very well be happening ‘behind the scenes’ of the ‘outbreak’:

“What I’ve been offered about this virus and what feels true to me is that it is actually a smokescreen. Its purpose is to create diversion so that the next phase and stages of collapse of the 3D Matrix can be implemented without creating even MORE fear and mass panic in the 3D collective. China has an important role in the next phases of rebirth, especially to lead the emerging out of the old money systems (debt based to a new world currency to eventually service-based exchange).”

Jelelle also talks about how this is such a vital time for all of us who have been doing much inner work to bridge from our more centered heart and soul spaces to others who need us and who are just now going through some major waves of awakening. She shares a link to recent guided meditation video she created as well, where you can feel your parts and start to move into your own personal bridge to 5D consciousness reality, which is very apt for the bigger picture transition going on at this time.

Our next virtual event is a women’s call with Jelelle.

The focus of this group on Sunday, March 29, 2020 at 10:00am PDT (Vancouver Canada) over Zoom will be on healing the mother wound that lives in our this-life and other lifetime experiences with women. Jelelle will talk in the call about what our relationships with our birth mothers (and other female caregivers) may be mirroring and reflecting to us.

For more info on this and other SoulFullHeart events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

We also decided this week to share Jelelle’s guided meditation for connecting with your Light Body, which could be very helpful and comforting to you at this time.

We have new articles and audio blogs for you this week. There is a new poem from Kalayna Solais as well as an energy update, a personal process digestion from Deva Yasmin that encompasses what has emerged for her to feel in her Metasoul regarding the times we are now in, as well as energy updates from Jelelle and a digestion from Raphael.

We have begun to share some ‘Quotes Of The Week’ that have recently been posted on our Instagram! These quotes can be shared by you as well, and they are intended to clarify, uplift, and inspire.

Raphael and Jelelle Awen are available for 1:1 sessions to support you and your ongoing process. Raphael works with men and women and Jelelle works with women only. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Healing!

You can become a patron of SoulFullHeart through a one-time or monthly donation via our patreon page.

Check out the latest Museletter here.

 

 

 

Energy Update: Ripe Time For Awakenings, Deeper Connection With The Divine And Within

by Kalayna Solais

Yesterday, I paused to feel the panic moving through the collective, how it could easily echo something that needs me inside of me, yet doesn’t seem to at this time…. At least not in the same way as it seems to be for others.

It rippled and ripped around where I stood. It told me, asked me, to keep being as still as I can, to keep holding space for it, to keep being a beacon of love and surrender during a dark time.

Having been through dark times in this life and many others, I know I can do this. I can be the lighthouse on the dark and stormy waters, whether the ships can see me or not.

My soul knows the solace, the solitude, the loneliness too, of being a ‘healer’ in the midst of chaos. My soul also knows the beauty of the beaconing, the beckoning towards brighter shores of possibility and deeper connection within and with the Divine during such times as these when the death knoll (literal and figurative) sounds and there is an added poignancy and consciousness/awareness in our daily interactions and activities that we couldn’t get to otherwise.

My heart knows that this is all leading us to deeper connections to each other and ourselves as well as our beloved Gaia, as what is rebooting completes its reset cycle, bringing the collective into many different strands and strata of awakening.

All lenses are valid, all viewpoints need acknowledging. None are ‘wrong’ and none are absolutely ’right’, for this world is not now nor could ever be black and white.

I think the deepest gift we can offer ourselves if we choose to isolate, to pull back and out from ‘work’ or from ‘social’ as a precaution is to go inward and feel. The world is on a sort of ‘pause until further notice’ which is extremely rare. This is an opportunity to see what’s been brewing and moving on the inside of each of us. Where is the stagnancy and stubbornness toward love and surrender? Where is there a poignant fear of death or loss or both? These are existential questions, I know. Not everyone will be able to ask themselves or parts of themselves these just yet, but the invitation is there as always. And, as always, the Divine is here holding us all in whatever explorations we’re having inside and out and in whatever it is we are discovering about ourselves and our worlds, both inner and outer.

We are being invited to see our capacity to create the life we actually DO want and how this all comes from inside of each of us… from these places of panic and worry that are rooted far deeper than simply just being what ‘is’ and therefore accepted as only what ‘is’. There is SO much that needs our LOVE in these places. There are so many parts feeling their beloved 3D world being shaken up and so many Metasoul aspects in other lifetimes feeling a recapitulation of what they’re going through as well. Indeed, there are MANY layers all happening at once, so the need to pull it all back inward and make space for feeling it all is very, very real.

In all of this… there is nothing to ‘vanquish’ but there is a lot to be with and love UP.

It’s from this inward place that it can all change for the better, starting with the chaotic INNER world, the one that tends to get brushed aside or buried far too often.

Much love to you all and everything inside of you that may be in deep reaction at this time….

Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Embracing Lillith: A Poem Of Feminine Self-Discovery

by Kalayna Solais

Easing in
To me
To Her…
The softness gathers ‘round
In flowing birthing waters
To hold and to move
To alter and to cleanse
What has been
To prepare for
What will be.

She waits in her garden
My garden within
Of inner workings
In billowing dresses
Of white satins
And lace.

She invites
And it lands deeper now
Than it ever could
When the stakes of feeling deeper
Needed more space to be felt.

With her hands
She takes mine

With her heart
She holds mine

And with Her
I stand now taller
With the grace of a thousand lifetimes
Cultivated
Both mine and never ‘mine’
Collective and personal
Feminine and Masculine.

By Her
I am supported
In all explorations
That remind me

I won’t EVER give up on love.

In the balance made
By the unknowns
Now becoming known
She awaits the phase
When our lifeblood’s
Heart muscle
Beats out the rhythm
Of new creations
From the very core
Of what has made us
Both souls and humans
With every bridge possible
In between.

Arising in Her midst
I arrive in ME
Maiden
Priestess
Magdalene
Sacred Feminine Bridge
Inviting others
Into Her dance
Of Oneness within
Extending without
Yet, always grounded
In the timelessness
Of the Higher Heart
And ever-expanding
Soul.

Embodied for now
In a dance of human-made
Female flesh
Flushed with goodness
Singing with Ascension
And breathing with the ecstasy
Of a heart healing and rediscovered
Within the softening bedrock
Of a countenance
Never really forgotten
Only set aside.

I sense the exquisite timing
Of Her rebirth
Bringing with tender lushness
The bourgeoning new Now
Of the age being born
Within the context of ever-deepening
Divinely human
Ever-galactic

Love.

A love I won’t EVER give up on.

…as if I ever even could.

***

Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

SoulFullHeart Museletter: Sacred Woman, You Are Arising!

It’s the latest release of our Museletter! Offering ALL of our most recent writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs. Our Museletter is now released every other Monday. Go read it here!

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In this issue, we celebrate the Sacred Feminine that arises from deep within the heart and soul of every healing woman, in honour of International Women’s Day and beyond too. Jelelle and the Magdalenes lead the way with a piece that truly evokes this sense of celebration and a deep reclaiming of the feminine within too:

“You are arising….from the deep sleep of not being seen or heard or recognized in your authentic feminine powerful leadership, now BEing woken up to your soul purpose here. Transitioning from your slumbering sleeping beauty state to your co-leading reign with your beloved mate OR alone as solo Queen for a phase. Your slumber has been necessary, yet so painful at times, I know, and I have been compassionate witness to it ALL.”

The next women’s group call will be on March 29th at 10am PDT. The focus of this group will be on healing the mother wound that lives in our this-life and other lifetime experiences with women. Jelelle will talk in the call about what our relationships with our birth mothers (and other female caregivers) may be mirroring and reflecting to us. You can visit our website or the Facebook event for more information: https://www.facebook.com/events/503010207290966

For more information on all of our events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Jelelle Awen continues her video series “Deepen 2020”. This series will be offered on an arising basis, rather than every day for a set period of time, and will be responsive to current events/cosmic energies/personal & collective process, etc. Every Deepen 2020 video will offer a teaching and a guided meditation. You can watch these on her Facebook page or our YouTube channel.

In this ninth video of Deepen 2020, Jelelle talks about the current collective and personal energies being amplified by the Supermoon energies and ongoingly as well. These energies are activating our higher heart spaces, connected to the collective fear and painful experience of separation from the Divine, masculine and feminine, and from within us.

There are several new articles/audio blogs to share with you this week from Jelelle, Raphael, along with Facilitants Kalayna Solais and Deva Yasmin, who all offer different energy updates, bridges from their personal processes to yours, and some important context and air around current events and issues that are alive in the collective at the moment.

Raphael, a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for men and women, is now offering FREE 30-45 minute intro calls over Zoom to see how the SFH process and ongoing 1:1 sessions may support you on your healing and Ascension journey. Jelelle Awen works with women only, also in 1:1 bridging sessions. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life!

You can become a patron of SoulFullHeart through a one-time or monthly donation via our patreon page.

Check out the latest Museletter here

Taking A Day To Be With Your Inner Child

By Kalayna Solais

Dedicating a day to be with your Inner Child or any other part of you is hugely rewarding and such a deep way to express love for yourself. Connecting with parts of you and aspects of your Metasoul in other lifetimes as well is a huge way to really connect in deeply with this frequency of loving and appreciating who and where you are in your journey as it is right now.

There was a day this week that I decided to spend with this deeper aspect of my own Inner Child that has emerged recently. I’ve done so much work, feeling aspects of me like her in many different layers and expressions over the years, that she feels not only like an ‘Inner Child’ but also like she vibrates at a core place inside of my ‘healer’ and ’empath’ too. The sun codes were vibrating and a local park, a personal favourite place to BE in this city where I live, was calling us out to be in it, hanging out with our beloved duck, squirrel, and tree friends. We even brought along our little ‘duckie’ stuffy to ‘introduce’ to the REAL ducks there! 🙂

When I met this part of me, she had been living ‘alone’ in her world until I connected with her in a recent session with Jelelle. Connecting directly with me is new for her and it’s her first time really letting in intimacy. She has some social trauma to keep feeling with her, which all started when I was very little. She is very sensitive and empathic (as Inner Children tend to be) and she is learning how to let others in in a deeper way, with my help, and not assume that others don’t like her or to find reasons to stay in her world all alone, isolating herself from relationships of all kinds.

Discovering her has been a huge, HUGE gift to me, as she is helping me feel the deeper core disconnect from others that has been a habit for me my whole life this life, and where this disconnect has come from all along. She is a big part of my healer’s heart and desire to serve love, so helping her move into a new space in deeper connection with me and also with others I am in relationship with will really help ME step more into my soul purpose work with more self-love overflow and an expanded capacity to hold space for others.

As we spend ‘time’ with these precious parts of us, we are offered a very powerful portal into ourselves. As they become less afraid of ‘getting in trouble’ for what they’ve hidden from us when it comes to who they are and why they’ve reacted in the ways they have to life and relationships too, they can quite quickly shift into their more magical, joyful frequencies, which seems to really free up our hearts in new and arising ways that maybe weren’t exactly expected!

Much love, from my parts to yours. ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

The Process Of Healing ‘Sisterhood’ Inside and Out

by Kalayna Solais

Letting in REAL sisterhood… the kind where you aren’t calling each other ‘sister’ because of blood or because somehow spirituality has told you that you ‘should’ in order to honour oneness and acknowledge, even just on the surface, our equality.

Real sisterhood is about calling each other ‘sister’ from the depths of our healing hearts as women. It becomes a declaration of love coming from the sisterhood inside, healing between parts within us who have been against each other for different reasons, and making space for this same frequency and depth of healing to happen between souls we are connected to on the outside.

This is new. This isn’t a process for which the depths of it have really been acknowledged. It’s challenging to look at how deep and often unconscious the competitiveness, comparison, and fear of each other lives and breathes within each of us as women. Simply starting to call each other ‘sister’ only reaches so deep. It so easily becomes a label without a heartbeat and without genuine care about each other.

To care about each other as sisters in soul and heart requires an awful lot of letting ourselves in, of feeling how and why it’s been hard to have deep intimacy with other women both in this life and in other lifetimes too and the karmic binds alive in them. It’s easy enough to let parts of us claim that this is a result of our conditioning and the messages in the media alone… yet, when we bring this inward, we can feel how yes, the outside influences have been there for a very long time, yet where the looping of this conditioning can finally close and heal is on the inside and this is where those lifetimes of persecution and pain can finally heal too.

Since the latest women’s call last weekend and for a few weeks beforehand, I’ve been letting in resonant relationships with other young women around my age who are doing the same SoulFullHeart process work that I’ve been doing for years now. We are taking the space to connect together, sometimes for several hours at a time over video call since we don’t live in the same country at the moment and can’t connect in person. We update each other on our personal processes and feel them together while we also clear anything that needs to be felt and cleared between us, feeling our hearts in the space and the desire to become closer. We feel our soul resonance and soul sisterhood on a deep level wanting to become more of a felt reality between us. This is not something I’ve experienced very often, especially with women my age, and that’s been so painful that parts of me in the past have shut down the desire for it altogether.

This is all an expansion of what I’ve experienced moving in me for years now with Raianna and Jelelle as part of this process too… but to be experiencing this with young women in my actual ‘peer’ group is a whole other thing, not surprisingly!

There are moments of caution that arise in these connections. On my side, I feel where this comes from is how often parts of me have felt ignored or unwanted by other women. The social pain of this continues to be flushed out, as even this morning I felt with a part of me that I’m calling my ‘Inner Sister’, how foreign it feels to really be ‘seen’ in my gifts by women my age and to SEE them in theirs too without feeling jealousy or defensiveness first. There are concerns for this part of me that we are/she is the ‘problem’, always, in every connection that goes sideways or when painful reflections are sometimes offered about how we’ve impacted others when connecting with them. Feeling shame takes over for feeling compassion for where the other person is coming from. This is all so much about intimacy though, and having a deep and real connection with other women needs to just feel strange and foreign and unknown until it becomes the new normal to be in these sort of ‘catalytic’ (not ‘catty’) relationships that get to expand the healing and growth on both sides. And, ultimately, the feelings of shame and being ‘the problem’ live inside of me between parts of me and this is the only place where these reactions and projections can fully heal.

We truly cannot place expectations on other women around us to become ‘sisters’ in a deep way without acknowledging the work that needs to be done within and between each other. This process though is so worth every moment of tension and expansion, because it IS what seeds the ‘reLOVEution’ we’ve been wanting to experience in how we relate to and treat one another, especially as feminine energies who are all here to be in our bigger soul purpose work and Divine Feminine LOVE ambassadorship!

Much love,

Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Incoming Spring Sun Codes Remind Us To Be ‘Gentle’ Within

by Kalayna Solais

In this hemisphere, we are now skirting the edges of the awakening of spring time, which supports us all to do our ‘spring cleaning’ on ALL layers and levels of our BEing. I walked home from my day job yesterday to take in the sunshine, feeling intuitively that I needed it as support for my own personal transitions and upgrades right now.

 

What I seemed to capture in the photos I took were some powerful codes that continually encourage emergence from this last winter’s sometimes very intense inward time. I also felt them lighting a spark within. A spark of burgeoning clarity but also of the motivation to keep going, keep feeling, keep letting in the next growth edges and phases while letting in love too.

It’s that ‘while letting in love’ part of it though, that still trips up so many, it feels like. You can be a ‘maniac’ for personal growth and still find it challenging to let in that love is ultimately holding the space for it all, encouraging and supporting you to keep going but to do so with self-love and care too, even gentleness with yourself, which shadow explorations especially need since they have often been so long met with angst and anguish or completely ignored instead.

Sometimes I have to remind parts of me, as desirous as they are to keep experiencing their own healing, that any energies of self-punishment on our way there won’t work anymore… this was especially challenging during my separation from SoulFullHeart this past year. I was reminded by another brilliant, bright soul who is doing this work and living this process that I needed to remember to ‘be gentle’. When she offered me that, I realized how much I, Kalayna, was not holding the process waves coming through but that it was other parts of me, mostly masculine in energy, that were being very hard on themselves to try and ‘get through’ what we were trying much to hard to dive into and feel through. I’ll never forget the impact those words ‘be gentle’ had on me…

And so, here I am, offering them to YOU now…

“Remember to be gentle.”

Maybe this is one of the big messages from the incoming energies right now. As they intensify, actually, we’re left with little choice BUT to discover what being gentle toward ourselves actually means for us individually. The ‘old’ ways of shadow-hunting, of finding ourselves in processes inspired solely by tough and hammering ‘triggers’, of saying ‘yes’ to social situations or going outside of ourselves when what we really need is a bubble bath and some ‘me’ time, are being invited to be felt deeper as we let in and honour the parts of us that have held our/their processes in this way, thinking that they need to stay in their suffering loops in order to experience ultimate healing… in order to ‘deserve’ it/feel ‘worthy’ of it.

There’s so much to tenderly feel with these parts/aspects, however/whenever you can… there are many beautiful guided meditations from Jelelle Awen on our Youtube channel: SoulFullHeart Experience, that can help you start to feel them and bring them into your opening up heart space.

Much love to you, today, and always, during this time of transition into a new internal and external ‘season’ and beyond!

Love,
Kalayna Solais

Raphael and Jelelle Awen are exquisite space holders who are incredible at supporting you in your ongoing personal process. 1:1 sessions with them are available as well as monthly virtual group calls: soulfullheartwayoflife.com

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.