The Sacred Wound Of Intimacy And Vulnerability

Intimacy and vulnerability are the benchmarks of our sacred humanity. Without them we are avoiding our whole being, shadow and light alike. These are by far the most difficult parts of the healing process in my personal experience. Parts of us feel more comfortable on their own, with animals, or connecting to the stars than they do with other human beings. Given our vast soul stories, it is easy to understand why.

Authentic and conscious feeling is something that we have been conditioned and protected from doing. In feeling and owning what is real, there is a fear of being seen, of losing everything we have built up around us, or of getting swallowed up in the pain, and maybe even ecstacy! Being vulnerable is bringing to the surface that which is uncomfortable and/or sensitive.

At the core of this fear is a sacred wound that many of us are being drawn to heal. At the soul, or Higher Self level, we may find ourselves drawing situations that are meant to bring us to the precipice of this wound for in order to truly grown and evolve we are meant to face these wounds/fears once and for all. For me this is what has brought me into deep community with SoulFullHeart.

As I have moved back into closer proximity and soon heading off to Glastonbury with everyone, I am reminded that this is not just spiritual tourism. It is an opportunity to heal my intimacy wound as well as the Metasoul lives that are still in play in the 4D geography of the UK. What other lifetimes exist within me that struggle with intimacy? Being ‘on location’ brings me closer, more intimate, with these lifetimes and Metasoul brothers and sisters.

This becomes a prime example of how each moment is a portal into our sacred humanity if we chose it to be. We have access to so much inside of us yet we chose to acknowledge just a thin slice. Again, for very good reason. The true courage is not in the solving or the fighting, but in the feeling. The human heart is the first and final frontier. It is the doorway to our soul. The thing is, it has been through a lot of shit. A lot of fucked up experiences. It may still be. Yet, its healing IS our salvation, not the ignorance of it.

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Over the next two weeks in the last of the Free To Be 5D group call series, we will be addressing the Sacred Wound. The very thing that brings us around and around until we gain the courage and will to finally meet it where it is at. If this resonates with you, I encourage you to join us by offering a donation at soulfullheart.org/shop to get the link to the call if you have not done so already. I also offer a free 45 minute consultation call to see how and if the SoulFullHeart process is right for you to support you in this sacred wound exploration and healing. You can go to soulfullheart.org/sessions for more information.

Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Full Moon Illuminates The Need To Be An Ambassador Of Love To The Dark

Last night’s full moon drew me out of bed in the wee hours. It was obscured but oh so mesmerizing as always.

I was reflecting on a session I just had with someone in the afternoon, where we met an ‘entity’ that has been in her room for a few months, usually connected to in sleep. It has not been necessarily foreboding, but a bit of a trickster, yet some understandable fear from the inner child.
She was offered to have it ‘removed’ by someone, and that didn’t quite land square with her heart. Nor mine when I felt it. Many times these energies are seeking to be felt and connected with, they just don’t have a good sense of how to make that happen. Plus parts of us get fear triggers and that can distort the need as well.

We were able to feel together how this being was actually a part of another life dynamic that was connected to another Metasoul sister of hers in another timeline. He was actually seeking forgiveness and needed an ambassador of love to bridge to this timeline and her.
By looking through the lens of love and compassion, something new illuminated. Where once this foreboding figure seemed dark, somewhat scary, and mysterious, it now felt very human and very tender.

This felt to reflect so much of how parts of us see and react to the world around us. In fear, we light and dark. In love, we actually see varying shades of possibility, potential, and compassion with curiosity. We get to choose how we want to relate to that which we either don’t understand or that which we have a deep reaction to.

We are creators within the One Great Creator. Ultimately the Creator Itself experiencing Itself through our consciousness. With all the darkness coming to Light, I wanted this to be a reminder of what we can choose to see and feel about everything around us and in us. Therein lies the true north of our deepest desire to be in Love, with Love, as Love.

Full moon blessings and illumination to you.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Energy Update: Lion’s Gate ‘Roar’ Of Clearing & Truth Moving Through

by Kasha Rokshana

The ‘Roar’ energy of Lion’s Gate is here and deepening too. It’s clearing the way for so much truth. In the wake of that clearing is the process we’re in now, of feeling the suffering cries of the children who have been trafficked who reflect to us a lost innocence INside too. It’s a process too of feeling the suffering of the perpetual ‘battle’ energy that has been necessary to energize for a phase yet we are always invited to move BEYOND it, especially within where the battles are often the most challenging to face, own, and heal. The ‘Roar’ is not a declaration of war but a declaration of the end of war and heralds the deepening of that process.

As more information comes out about child-trafficking and the horrors of it, it reflects to us humanity’s lost innocence that is in recovery. These children and their precious souls, hearts, bodies, have been subjected to unspeakable acts, yes, yet, to only be outraged by this doesn’t take into account the whole picture of what their souls signed up to be a part of and doesn’t encourage us to be accountable for our own reactions to it either.

Humanity cannot change at its core through outrage, shaming, blaming, chaos. Only once these frequencies have come home to our hearts through the tears and remorse of how in some ways we’ve all been a part of this unfolding narrative, can we start to feel what this has all really been about… reclaiming our own innocence and discovering the layers within us that have pushed away or suppressed it for the sake of ‘survival’ in 3D and even 4D; supporting the parts of us that have been victims to different life circumstances to move more into healing and genuine, vulnerable empowerment and even forgiveness/amnesty. It’s a VERY sobering time to be on this planet and we are all being invited into deep humility where we can admit we do not have all the answers but are doing the inner work necessary to feel and heal in many unfolding steps and layers with LOVE.

The ‘Roar’ energy of Lion’s Gate invites us to see and feel the deeper truths and process the reactions not just become them.

The ‘Roar’ is about the illumination and possible completion (if we truly choose it in our sovereignty) of suffering cycles inside and out.

The ‘Roar’ blows off any masks you’ve held in place, that have represented a fear of revealing the real you beyond any over-identification in parts of you with the trauma they’ve experienced.

The ‘Roar’ is here to ultimately support YOU and your ‘Divine Self’ that is waiting for you to ask for it to come in more, to find the context you need in order to process the ‘content’ moving within and in your life.

Your sacred process around all of this is yours to be in and hold. You are the Lion/Lioness ‘King/Queen’ of your inner Queen/Kingdom and all of our Sirian-Lyran counterparts, our humanoid lion(ess) members of our Star Family, are here and accessible especially through this Lion’s Gate passage. Their energies are available as a support for finding and embodying your own ‘Roar’ right now. They’ve been where we are now in their own Ascension process and have so much to offer, I’ve found.

There’s a lot to feel and process at this time… yet there’s even more to fall in deep love with, especially within you, with each sobering yet alive revelation.

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Quantum Healing With Your Gatekeeper: Video with Raphael & Jelelle Awen

SoulFullHeart co-creators and Teachers, Raphael and Jelelle Awen, share about the Metasoul, the veil of amnesia, Metasoul Aspect connections, and the opportunities for quantum healing of multiple lifetimes of soul pattern wounding at this time of Matrix collapse during these excerpts from a group call originally recorded on June 17, 2020. Our Gatekeeper is an aspect of our soul that remains ‘outside’ of the incarnation cycle and is the keeper of the veil of amnesia around other lifetime experiences and aspects.

In the video, Raphael goes into a ‘drop-in’ with his Gatekeeper facilitated by Jelelle to get a deeper understanding of the Gatekeeper Realm and their relationship to the human soul they have co-contracted to guide and help heal and ascend.

SoulFullHeart Facilitators Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Solais also share in the video about their process of their experiences with the guided meditation and their connections with their Gatekeepers.

You can purchase the FULL recording of this group call recorded on June 17 (which includes 40 MORE minutes of teachings, two guided meditations and full sharings from Gabriel and Kalayna) and receive the recordings of all remaining calls (or zoom link to attend them live) in the series through offering a donation at: https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop or http://paypal.me/jelelleawen

Here is information about joining live and/or receiving the recordings for our next group call series Free To Be 5D: Navigating Ascension From The Inside Out beginning July 15: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.org/freetobe5dgroupcallseries

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Energy Update: Dark Mother/Kali Energies Guiding Us Through Death/Rebirth Cycles

by Kalayna Solais

There are two (maybe more) new worlds/realities dawning now and they are both powerful. One is a dystopia and the other a utopia (or with great potential to become this!). One moves farther away from love and into denser and denser consciousness grounds and suffering loops, while the other moves consciously and passionately towards love and everything that means… all that needs to be looked and felt within, especially, to be able to let love in.

It’s a time of great PURGatory before the healing and reconciliation of these two realities can really land. This healing has already begun and is actually helping to fuel this phase we’re still in of tensions and emotional breaking points.


Energies of war, battling, needing to be right, needing to prove, needing to scorn, needing to oppose, needing to hate, are coming UP and OUT like ooze. Like the worst hangover imaginable after so many years of medicating and denying the rage (which is really uninitiated passion) that needs to move through and also the medicating that has put away the need for self-love and self-loving decisions that are practical yet also spiritual and consciously felt through. This is sacred ground and there is MUCH to realize but even more to feel.

There’s been a sense of ‘hold on to the handrails!’ lately while SO many storms move through. We’re invited, always, into our own pacing that feels right to us about how many personal choices for the sake of our growth, ascension, and deepening self-love we are ready to make and when…. yet too, this is a powerful time with many Kali/Dark Mother energies inviting us into Her loving yet unsentimental LOVE furnace of death and rebirth. She invites us all into our soul bigness, our holding of ourselves and our inner realities, while we navigate the currently choppy waters swirling around and through us.

As always in times of great purgation and change, these storm-dances are necessary to help us all awaken and grow. We are NOT meant to suffer in these grounds, but to keep choosing love over fear, compassion over comparison, vulnerability over fighting, honesty over strategizing.

The new and most desired world possible HAS to come up from within each of us individually. It won’t be handed to us by anyone but our sovereign and growing Divine selves and our sacred learning process of what it means to embody that.

Every moment there are new choices to make. And there’s no perfect way to make them, but to be so sacredly in the process we are all in individually and collectively. Love is guiding the way through the tensions, heartbreaks, and openings too and it knows that we are all finding our way through the darkness of what has been as we stumble into our most natural and sincere Greatness as Sacred Humans remembering. ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Waves Of Awakening Into Love With Love

by Kalayna Solais

Love pops you open sometimes.
You cry tears you didn’t know were there.
You lose track of what your mind once thought was important.
You start feeling more than efforting anything.


The flow begins and the changes take hold.
The choices made bring you closer to what your soul has wanted all along,
Even in the karma trauma that comes up to be felt between yourself and others.

When love pops you open
You know it’s love because you feel held
You feel like shit but you feel like you’re finding your way
Even in some small way.

And then you feel,
Slowly but surely,
How much more you now have to offer yourself and the world
Because you weren’t afraid of love popping you open.

And so,
Love thanks you.
Love celebrates all of it with you.
And you bring in more conscious connections of real love,
Held and expressed with others
Who have experienced the same.

Together, then
You flow and feel
And heal
And offer healing
And in all of this
There is always more to experience of love’s expansive gifts
And the forever of being Divine without force, bypassing,
Or overly giving to others while forgetting
And even celebrating
your own deep desires
And love-supported needs.

Love,
Kalayna Solais

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

In The Darkness The Queen Is Born

By Deya Shekinah

It’s hard to share and write as much when I am in the depths of feeling darker emotions and shadow aspects of myself. It feels so vulnerable for my parts to show the depth of grief, unworthiness, self loathing and entitlement they are feeling. For younger parts it can feel dangerous to show these feelings, as they are so conditioned to be good, nice and keep quiet. Yet to show up as the woman I know I am, this process of welcoming, owning and revealing the darkness feels like a key part of maturation and embodiment.

As I danced this morning with the darkness, I could feel how alive and juicy it feels to dance, feel and express these darker emotions. There is a power within them, that feels so connected to embodying and stepping into my Queen. To push intensity and darkness away, to hide from it and make it ‘not ok’, I feel like I am pushing away essential parts of myself as a woman. My passion, my pleasure, my joy, my purpose are all being suppressed along with them. 

There have been times these past weeks where my parts feel like they are drowning in the darkness, like they will never find their way through. To be honest that can still feel like the only reality as I, Deya, am still growing my capacity as a space-holder for my parts, and am still becoming the container that they can rest into and feel held within, rather than becoming them.

I don’t think I have ever felt so shaky in my life. Even as I feel a strength in sharing these words in the moment, once they are out in the world, the unworthiness, fear and anxiety will surely arise as they keep doing. The more I am choosing to step up and shine, to be more authentic, to follow my desire to be in service to Love and to be in intimacy with others, the more these shadows are being revealed.

It feels like there are now no other options, no more hiding places; there is no way to go but IN. To be authentic, to serve and to live in joy includes all of the uncomfortable emotions, to Love and be in intimacy with myself, with life and with others includes them all too. To be a Queen means being willing and brave enough to face the shadows. To be a Queen means to lead by example with a loving, empathetic heart to the feelings of others, because she is in a deep, real and intimate relationship with her own and knows the challenges that will be faced on this journey through her own lived experience.

Love,

Deya x

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

Humanity’s Return To Innocence

by Kalayna Solais

Believe it or not… and I’ll bet parts of you feel skeptical (and reasonably so) right now. Yet, I’ve been offered that a huge aspect of the process we’re in right now on Gaia is a great ‘Return to Innocence’. It’s not a simple process by any means. Yet laid out for us, it is. And invited into it deeper, we are.

This ‘innocence’ means seeing and feeling the world through the eyes of wonder and trust, even though there may be tears sometimes when you feel what is burning away in your own life and in the lives of others. Actually, this innocence means there is a renewed sense of your own heart’s purity, which despite the trauma you’ve experienced, remains deep within you. This is what you return to when you’ve healed through so many of the defences parts of you have needed throughout your life. This is the place you interact with others from more than ever before when the younger parts of you who are now much wiser because of life experience but not bitter (anymore) are able to feel this innocence within themselves.

Even all of the purging going on with Cabal, illuminating collective darkness and shadow so that we can dig deeper and move away from this timeline of suppression of love and truth (which can’t ultimately BE suppressed really), is leading us back to our innocence. These darker energies that have influenced and held the larger spaces of politics and fame and even spirituality, are loosening their grip and returning to their own reconciliation within. To meet and match these energies and defend against them as well, parts (especially your Inner Protector) and Metasoul aspects in other timelines have had to adapt and defend, become fiercer than they truly are or want to be, and forget about their realest vulnerabilities and the core of their heart’s desires. This is leading us through a BIG detox of what has NOT been us, individually and collectively, and is challenging us to feel our hearts again.

It may seem sometimes during this purging process that things are getting worse… but when it comes to toxicity, quite often things get worse before they get better. Storms happen before rainbows. And even rainbows happen sometimes while the sky is still clearing of rain and clouds. So it is that our innocence, our Divine Child light, can still find ways to shine through, even though there is still so much churning in the world.

It’s a deep, many-layered process. As I feel my own empowerment in my own process to feel all of this emerging in my own being, I feel how much work it’s taken to get to a space of feeling more of my innocence again. More of the desire to genuinely and heartfully connect, to bring vulnerability even when it feels iffy to do so, is able to emerge now. I can feel this as a new form of leadership that gets to arise now from within me and invite others to find the same within. It’s worth all of the shadow processing to get here and I trust too that this feeling of my own ‘Return To Innocence’ will help hold the space for any more shadow explorations that follow.

And so it can and will be for you… if you keep choosing the curiosity, the inner work, and the desire to hold space for yourself and others as we continue this transition to the most ALIVE-feeling life that we could ever have imagined.

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

SoulFullHeart Museletter: Metasoul/Karmic Healing Brings Clarity To Your NOW

Another ‘week’ has completed now, with so many more fluctuations and movements happening in the individual and collective emotional bodies and spirituality too. This week’s Museletter has a range of digestions in it, supporting all of our continued movements into the new NOW. Check out the latest Museletter here.

Featured this week is a piece by Facilitator, Gabriel Heartman. Gabriel highlights the importance of feeling the Metasoul/karmic timelines at play here and now for each individual soul, in order to keep healing in our current timelines and usher in the new:

“By feeling your personal soul relationship to any external circumstance whether it be global, social, or intimate, it can bring a whole new consciousness around the pain, fears, and reactions to so many things. It has been a huge gift to me on my journey and has really helped to get that Star Being’s-eye view as well as a grounded relationship (roots) to what my needs, desires, and clarities are.”

We have the fifth group call in the 6-week ‘Free To Be Two series’ happening this week.

This week’s theme is ‘Quantum Healing Of Karmic Patterns From Other Lifetimes w/ your Gatekeeper’. Jelelle & Raphael will share about the Metasoul, the veil of amnesia, Metasoul Aspect connections, and the opportunities for quantum healing of multiple lifetimes of soul pattern wounding at this time of Matrix collapse. The guided meditation will offer you connection with your Gatekeeper and whichever timeline they feel is most usual for you to feel and connect with at this time.

You do not need to have attended or listened to the six group calls from our first Free To Be Series that ran from April to May, 2020 before coming to this second one. Although, we do highly recommend listening to the recordings from the first Free To Be series, which you can purchase at our shop or via paypal by offering a donation: paypal.me/jelelleawen

Visit soulfullheart.org/freetobe2 for more info.

We have some new articles and audio blogs this week from Raphael Awen, Jelelle Awen, Kalayna Solais, Gabriel Heartman, and Deya Shekinah. These include digestions of the Star Seed theme that emerged this past week, transitioning to living on Prana, and offerings of more context for what’s been shaking up in the world, both inner and outer.

We have some quotes to share as well, which you can feel free to share or keep for yourself! Please do tag SoulFullHeart whenever/wherever you can, if you do share them.

If you are interested in a session, we begin with a free consultation for 30-45 minutes over Zoom with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for you to learn more about the SoulFullHeart Process, what happens in sessions, mutually determine if the process is a fit for you at this time, and if so, which Facilitator to work with in sessions. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more information.

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Healing!

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Check out the latest Museletter here.

Metasoul/Karmic Healing Brings Clarity To Your NOW

There are so many timelines that are in play right now. Taking a Star Being’s-eye view, it almost looks like the multitude of tree branches coming out from a central trunk.
That trunk feels like our essential unity. The core of who and what we are in our nature. Our Divine/Galactic connection. Yet there are multiple offshoots all leading to an eventual termination point.

These can be seen and felt as Metasoul timelines that have a varied impact on the Now. These timelines have an effect on what is happening both inside of you and outside. All these personal soul narratives coalescing and merging into one powerful human lower 4D soup.

To feel these timelines, or Metasoul aspects, it gives you a personalized relationship to what is happening on the world’s stage, and the turmoil that it may be causing within. When ‘this life’ trauma and reaction are coupled with ‘other life’ trauma and reaction, there is a large personal power suck that happens.

It is like the energy from the trunk gets moved to the branches rather than the supportive core itself. The trunk loses itself and its holding power, and then can collapse by the energetic weight of the branches.When your branches (parts and Metasoul aspects) are brought inward, toward your trunk (our higher heart and soul expression), the energy can then be transmuted and integrated into your core. This more solid You can then begin to see and feel what is authentically yours and how you want to authentically respond and act.

In our next Free To Be 2 group call, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be talking about the Metasoul, Karmic healing, and the Gatekeeper. They will provide a guided meditation to help you meet your Gatekeeper, who is akin to your personal guardian and guide of your Metasoul. The Gatekeeper is an important aspect to become acquainted with when desiring to do a deep dive into soul karma, trauma, and pattering.

By feeling your personal soul relationship to any external circumstance whether it be global, social, or intimate, it can bring a whole new consciousness around the pain, fears, and reactions to so many things. It has been a huge gift to me on my journey and has really helped to get that Star Being’s-eye view as well as a grounded relationship (roots) to what my needs, desires, and clarities are.
For more information please visit: soulfullheart.org/freetobe2.

If you are interested in a free consult with myself, Raphael, or Kalayna you can go to soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info as well.

Much love to you during these trying times.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.