Journey Of The Ascending Masculine: Sometimes You Have To Be The ‘Bad Guy’ In Order To Be The ‘Real Guy’

A man’s emotional maturation and spiritual journey inevitably comes to a crossroad with his relationship to his mother.

I write about this today because I was recently contacted by my own mother and could feel the old energies of guilt and shame that underlied the old dynamic between us and within her. These were very subtle and yet not so subtle energies.

On the outside, or from another consciousness, one would view me as an awful son for drawing my boundaries I did years ago and choosing not to communicate unless we were in a similar transactional frequency. This recent message was a clear indicator that nothing much has changed.

The timing was auspicious as well as I had just had a process not just a few days ago where I felt more residual energies in my emotional and psychic bodies in regards to my mother and how her wounding affected me as a young boy and have lived in me through my inner child and inner teenager.

These frequencies of guilt and shame are huge energetic anchors that serve no one’s growth yet are portals into that very thing. The process was to say no more to those frequencies and to feel the part of me that needed to be a bit matter of fact about how it all made him feel growing up.

This is a big part of any man’s journey. Saying no more to what has lived between us and our mothers that has not been healthy. These can be really subtle the more you keep going in, especially when you are in an intimate, romantic relationship with a woman. There is stuff that has a very long shelf life unless we keep up the conscious exploration within.

The dichotomy of a man’s journey is that he needs to seek individuation from mom while entering The Mother at the same time. Moving from one womb to another. This can be a bit of a maddening process and one that I want women to have a perspective on to understand what this is like for the men in their lives. Not and excuse, mind you, just an understanding.

Sometimes this individuation process can come while in proximal relationship to our mothers, and other times it is just not possible. Some of the triggered responses can be how we could do such a thing to someone who did all they could for us and gave birth to us. Therein lies the trap. The guilt and shame.

I am grateful for all my mother did for me, and even in this process, continues to do so. However, birthing does not give permission to retain a free pass into my emotional body. It prevents any of us from arising into the man we ARE and having the kinds of sacred unions with women that no longer perpetuate this dynamic.

Sometimes you have to be the ‘bad guy’ in order to be the ‘real guy’.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Finding Real Love When You Come Undone

Our hearts and souls are entangled. Of course they are. We are One. But I can feel deeply, and receive guidance about the nature of our entanglement. We are seeking how to authentically love ourselves as the Divine loves Itself. We have chosen Entanglement to work so many edges and polarities of the human and celestial experience.

First you come to an awareness of entanglement either with a family member, a lover, a mate, a belief system, a conditioning, an addiction, your ego, and the plethora of psychic energies and entities that exist in this multiverse. It is mind blowing the number of entanglements we have chosen to enter into in order to fully understand the nature and embodied experience of Love.

When seen from this place, the part of you that may punish you for getting into these entanglements can start to be felt for what is truly wanting and needing to be felt. It is the fear of becoming Undone. Unseen, Unloved.

Parts of us have become so accustomed to the energy of the entanglement. It actually feels like home to them. It is known and knowable even if it isn’t healthy or if it is limiting. These parts can go on ad infinitum until one day You decide You can’t. Then the unraveling begins.

The unraveling can be a scary place to be. However, it is the most real place and the most alive. In the unraveling you are held. The degree of that truth is really up to you. It does not have to be some traumatic event that takes you into an intense Dark Night experience. It can actually be held as a birth. A process over time.

The Dark Night experience is a fusion to the part/parts of you that feel separation, void, and abandonment. This is very real to them and yet can also be mid-wifed into a new reality by the You that was never entangled in the first place. Feeling that You arises simultaneously from the disentanglement. It is a sacred paradox. Your Phoenix rising.

As you allow yourself to become Undone, with love, compassion, space, and time, a magical alchemy happens from within. You feel the parts of you that have been in hiding, scared, in trauma, as well as the protected parts that are still in joy, in magic, and in love because they were sequestered and guarded by your Inner Proctector. This process of disentanglement does not start without them. Feeling their fears and concerns first and having a relationship with them is what greases those wheels.

I feel myself disentangling from others this life and other lives as well. It is an ongoing process until it isn’t anymore. No judgement, just understanding, remorse, responsibility, and compassion. Loss, grief, and fear eventually transmute into trust, self-love, and clarity. Next stop is flow, joy, and the blissful mystery. Sometimes you need help, other times you just need You.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Letting Go Of Serving/Community, To Serve, Love, And Commune With Myself

by Kalayna Solais

“The energy released through the act of Confrontation is the resource from which the new self is created. To be sure, it takes great courage to look within, but the universe will not present to you what you are not ready to see… we will never be given a burden greater than our ability to carry.” — from Avalon Within by Jhenah Telyndru

Lately, I’ve been in a process of really diving deep within to confront anything and everything that has been keeping me from leading to my fullest capacity and deeply inhabiting service…. which is also everything that’s been keeping me from ME, from loving myself in a deeper and fuller way, and also loving others in the deep way they deserve without energies of comparison and intense projections of all kinds.

I’ve been having to take space from my community and them from me during this ongoing process… and that also means not facilitating or offering intro calls to others. I’ll also not be leading the SAFE calls for women with Jelelle, like the one tomorrow.

I feel surrendered and sad. Hopeful and remorseful. I’m mourning the old timelines that are collapsing but grateful that it’s time for something new to arise from the ashes. I feel the tenderness, unknown, and even insecurity that comes up in claiming this space for myself but the alchemy and opportunities in this too, to finally uproot and HEAL what’s been allowed to live inside of me for so long, well beyond this life. This is the business of deep soul shadow work and I’m grateful for the degree of trust I have around it, even though it’s so challenging sometimes to hold it all. In moments, it feels like I’m going to implode. But even then… once the waves that feel like they’re going to drown me ebb again, a grace comes through, something bigger than the ‘me’ I’ve been, holding me. And that I’m leaning into as a vital part of my own personal healing and Ascension journey that I can’t put off anymore and that needs my intense sobriety and focus.

I highly recommend having a free 30-45min intro call with Raphael Awen or Gabriel Heartman… both are heart open, wonderful men that can be deeply trusted and they are so ready to show up for you and all parts/Metasoul aspects of you. 

Also, if you are a woman, I very much recommend checking out Jelelle Awen’s SAFE call tomorrow. Even if you can’t make it live, you can purchase the recording. It’s $15 CAD to attend/receive the recording. Jelelle’s energies of Divine Feminine/Mother are gentle yet catalytic and I have benefitted greatly from everything she has ever offered me in session space and beyond.  More info on the event tomorrow here: https://www.facebook.com/events/939184226480490/

Much love to you and with you,
Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, a healing healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Gatekeepers, Protectors, and Teenagers, Oh My!

I just got off my first Intro Call with a very multidimensional individual who has had deep feelings of being trapped or stuck in their current situation. They are currently assisting a parent with life circumstances. This can be very challenging if there is an emotional and spiritual dissonance, and a deep empathic sensitivity.

One of the things that I felt was the presence of a Gatekeeper who is very active and present in our awakening whenever they occur. For some, this can mean a widened and deepened view of what is occurring beyond our 5-sense reality. We can be overwhelmed by the power of this sight and felt reality. It is a reflection of how big we really are.

But it can also come with a hefty price tag if/when darker energies make their way into the lightness of being. They are like moths drawn to the flame. This can be all part of a larger karmic playout that can be very difficult to integrate in our human, earthly bodies.

The Gatekeeper can go into protection mode and shut is all down, or severely limit it. This can be really hard to deal with and is why they feel like they are “trapped in these denser frequencies”. That is because they are. They are not meant to do work here in this dimension. They are a 4D energy that is meant to be accessed and related to. They are not meant to do human work. You are.

This energy can also extend itself to our more ‘this life’ parts such as the Inner Child and/or Inner Teenager. They can get very activated through fear and frustration as to what to do with it all. This is where taking some time and space to feel all of these energies through helps to sort out what to address, heal, and integrate.

While this initially seems a bit complicated and overwhelming it is just a map of your inner emotospiritual geography that we get to explore together to unravel the mysteries and heal the cycles of trauma and unworth that lead to self-love, self-awareness, and service to others.

Right now it may feel like a lot, and it is, but with consistency and compassion, these parts of you get to lean into the You that arises out of the sorting out and feeling. It is a journey unlike any other that offers a new way of feeling yourself in this great big world of Heart and Soul you signed up for.

I would be honored to be a co-explorer and reflector for you on that journey. For more information on our free Intro Call and how the SoulFullHeart process can support you in it, click on the link below or you can PM me as well.

Much love to you at this time of our evolution and involution.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Feeling And Healing The Inner Punisher In Service Of Love

When you are in a profession such as medical, education, business, etc. you are in a constant state of learning the new data, trends, and practices that will keep you up to date and on the leading edge of the field.

As a healer and a light/shadow worker it is very similar. I am in constant ‘professional development’ to better serve myself first and then in overflow to my facilitants/clients. Without me keeping dibs on my emotospiritual needs, I run the risk of a kind of malpractice in a way. This is not a form of shadow hunting, just being keenly aware of what my next steps are.

I came to hold space for a deeper layer of what we call the Inner Punisher. My current facilitants have had this show up for them at the same time, so it felt like a reflection to feel in myself. This is part of the development. Of becoming aware of what we may still be unaware of. The signs are right there in front of us when we are open and willing to see them, even if it feels uncomfortable.

This lead to a deep process with what we also call the Inner Father. These two energies were both merged as I had a lot of early childhood trauma with my biological father. There was a legacy of harshness and rage that had been handed down to the males in my family tree. It can’t help to be transferred from one son to the next. However, for me, this inner critical voice was internalized and expressed as self-punishment.

As I held this as a part of me, an Inner Father that wanted me to be normal and successful, I began to feel the vulnerability set in. I asked many questions to unearth what was at the root of his rage and anxiety. Once we got there, the tears began to flow for all that he felt like he had become as a mirror of my outer father.

He called himself Sarge like a Sergeant in the army. Both my father and grandfather were Marines and this was imprinted in my DNA. It has many Metasoul connections as well. I felt my compassion for him and even offered him forgiveness. That was hard for him to let in.

This is a deep energy that takes time, through rounds of healing and feeling, to get to the core of where the punishment comes from and how it has played out in so many ways. When it is coupled with a mother or father imprint it can pack a lot of energy but also a lot of healing. Our birth families offer us a lot of fodder for growth and transformation.

I have not been in contact with my father for many years. However, I could feel his higher self with me, offering remorse for what he was unable to offer me this life. That lead to another deep healing inside of me. I felt his old energy leave my field and felt a newer one integrate inside of me.

This has been years in the making and I feel a renewed sense of my own Gabrielness for lack of a better term. It is this Gabrielness that is the heart of my Service to Other. It is what lets me upgrade my system in order to let in more Light and Love to hold space and guide with compassion. I offer that space to you as well if you feel the desire to get to the core of this critical energy or any other energy you feel is keeping you in a lowered state of frequency of being. This is the reason I am here and the reason I continue to heal.

Gabriel Heartman
soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

We offer a free 30-45 minute intro call via Zoom to see how the SoulFullHeart process may serve you in your healing and growth. Click the above link for more info or you can PM me. 🙂

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Healing Karmic Soul Patterns W/Your Metasoul In The Quantum Field

By Jelelle Awen

Processes have been going DEEP lately, much more into the quantum space beyond where traditional therapies and spiritual practices have been able to go before. Deeper, previously more subconscious layers of wounding and traumas, layers beyond the veil, are being accessed for healing….both personally and collectively.

The quantum love field is expanding all the time to support this next level healing in response to our evolving sacred humanity. This is healing that is possible not just in your current lifetime timeline, yet in ALL of the timelines/lifetimes that your soul has been fractured into as well from the original, individuated soul source of your Metasoul/Monad.

This depth, this deep dive, becomes more possible as the trust in your soul/Higher Self grows to hold the space for it. Your soul ‘takes over’ from your analytical mind and the parts of you that may want to control and manage the process. You more and more unanchor from 3D and even lower 4D matrix reality and into the higher dimensional, quantum frequency field of your Metasoul.

Connected to this field, you don’t have to access every lifetime/timeline in order to heal it. You don’t have to ‘relive and feel’ every trauma that your soul has ever experienced in every lifetime. You don’t have to ‘regress’ into ‘past lives’ right into the most traumatic moments, which often leads to MORE trauma to process (this happens often in past life regressions & soul retrieval as well). You don’t actually need anyone else to put you in a hypnotic state either or any kind of drug or plant to access these other lifetimes. 

Quantum connection happens as you negotiate with your Gatekeeper aspect, who is guarding your veil of amnesia and the timelines/lifetimes of your Metasoul that are happening in the Now. Negotiation and connection with your Gatekeeper allows you to become conscious of the lifetimes that MOST need your attention…..the lifetimes that you’ll get the most ‘bang for your buck’ if you access them. The lifetimes that are most vibrating in fear, pain and trauma (usually associated with killing frequencies). The lifetimes that offer the most reward and gifts if you heal them. 

As you ‘drop into’ and travel to those lifetimes with your Gatekeeper, you are meeting/connecting with your Metasoul sister/brother that is living in them. You form an ongoing relationship with the Metas sister/brother, just like having a bond with a sibling. In this ongoing connection, you exchange soul gifts with each other, you help them heal from traumas experienced in their lifetime, you are able to identify and see karmic soul patterns too. You support them to make more self loving and empowered choices that actually CHANGE the outcome of their timeline from tragic to redemptive. This then changes YOUR lifetime too as you gain access to more of your Metasoul’s pure frequencies.

As you engage in this work with your Metasoul brother/sisters in other lifetimes, you are actually able to identify and then complete karmic soul patterns and themes. This means that you NO LONGER need to incarnate as a soul into 3D and lower 4D timelines to play them out in order to heal them. I’ve been offered that many of us choose to come into this current timeline during Ascension in order to have this opportunity to no longer incarnate into denser realties. In this way, it may be our ‘last’ time of choosing this.

I am seeing this capacity to identify, dive into, and heal karmic patterns in sessions with women that I’ve been working with for longer term now and on a regular basis (weekly or bi-weekly). In the consistent space holding for the SoulFullHeart process, the Inner Protector and Gatekeeper is able to start relaxing and resting more. I feel the SoulFullHeart process and approach to karmic healing is completely unique, powerful, and held with a loving and collaborative energy WITH you.

I highly recommend beginning 1:1 sessions on a regular basis with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator if you are drawn to the kind of quantum healing opportunity that I am sharing about here. SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen, Gabriel Heartman, and Kalayna Solais all have space in their schedules and a deep desire to work with new clients. They are currently offering a free 30-45 minute intro call over Zoom to answer any of your questions about the process, etc. More info here about that: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Love is holding the space for the completion of karmic, suffering cycles. Now is the time to experience the power of what love can heal!

There is more in this video about Metasoul timeline portal access and healing with teaching and guided meditation with me: https://youtu.be/9jWgpQbXTZo

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

 

Energy Update: Powerful September Codes Ready To Be Let IN

By Jelelle Awen

As this powerful energy month of September comes to a completion, there may be much to digest and integrate into your physical/emotional/mental/spiritual/energy bodies. The 9/9/9 portal gateway provided more access to the 4D matrix and karmic healing through lifting of the collective and personal veils. We also experienced the palindrome (same backwards as forwards) codes for over a week, a Harvest Full Moon on Friday the 13th, September 11th collective disclosure/digestion, and the Equinox gateway.

September is always a strong geomagnetic month due to cracks in Gaia’s magnetic field during Equinox that cause fissures that allow solar winds to pour through….leading to some really beautiful Aurora codes. Today, September 27, we are in the beginning of another G1 to G2 strength geomagnetic storm now with solar wind speeds already up beyond 500 km/sec. As always with geomagnetic storms, you may be experiencing disrupted sleep patterns, vision/clarities coming through, light headedness, etc. Grounding in nature and in meditative space can help with navigating these higher geomagnetics, as can sound healing.

We also had a Gaia/Schumman spike last week that went up to 99HZ for several hours with some fluctuations upwards in little pockets since then. You can read all my energy updates for September here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/category/by-jelelle-awen/energy-updates-with-jelelle-awen/

After doing remote/virtual work primarily with women over the last three years, it was amazing to get the opportunity to do emotional/physical/energy work with some of them this weekend at our Equinox Gathering. Being in the physical, I was able to stand in their auric fields, in their chakra vortices, and really feel/see what was going on with them related to these Ascension energies coming in and the deep emotional/soul work we’ve been doing together through the SoulFullHeart process. I negotiated with the Protectors/Gatekeepers that I have come to know in sessions to collaborate on what was needed now for digestion on an energetic/physical level. Even as SO much can move in the virtual (since we ARE energy after all), there is nothing quite like being in physical proximity to offer exponential healing.

What I noticed during my energy work with them was that there were ‘codes’ floating around in their crown chakra vortex, which extends far out beyond the top of the head to include the Personal Sun chakra (about two feet above your head), the Soul Star Chakra (about one foot), and the Causal Chakra (back of the head.) These codes were there ‘waiting’ to be downloaded and let in, very often to clear blockages and any disease/illness in the physical body. They were also there to support ongoing detox and activation of their light bodies. I was guided by their Star Family/guides to bring the codes ‘in’ to their crown for integration by doing a sweeping motion through their crown vortex, gathering them up, and offering them back to them.

Whatever codes you are most needing right now are very personal to you. They appear in whatever shapes, forms, colors, words, sounds, images that most work for you and your DNA/cellular/energy systems. For some people, codes float around in the field in the form of sacred geometry. For others they look like streams of numeric code like in the Matrix movie. Identifying what your codes are and what is ready to brought in (with help from your Protector/Gatekeeper and Star Family) can be very helpful to the activation of your higher timeline and embodiment of your Higher Self.

My sense is that there were many codes offered in the last two months….during the powerful geomagnetics and portals of September and the Lion’s Gateway of August. These codes seemed to offer a range of upgrades related to deeper embodiment of our sacred femininity and sacred masculinity (and healing of the wounded expressions of these); activation of our galactic DNA and healing of our Star Seed child; and clarities/visions plus experiences of our Higher Timeline self and life.

This is a guided meditation with me to help with bringing in the codes that are available to you. I will also be offering one soon specifically for this purpose: https://youtu.be/59PdVsp0TGw

As we move now into October, we can allow the codes offered in September to light us up, to inform us, and to support us. We can bring more consciously into our awareness all the support systems that are available to us….both in physical space holders, soul family, soul mates, and in etheric connections with Metasoul aspects, guides, Star Family and the Divine. As we become more and more conscious of what is being offered to us, we can let in the opportunity that is available in this NOW to truly become divinity in our human bodies.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Join me for a women’s call over zoom on Sunday, September 29th at 10:00am PDT for two hours. We will explore sacred feminine arising through teaching, transmission, and guided meditation….plus group sharing. This women’s group is open to the public and to all women over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of $15 CAD (about $11 USD). You can purchase the zoom link here to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email – https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/…/sacred…

Or you can purchase it here through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen
and we will send you the zoom link via email. Please make a note that you are purchasing the September 29 women’s group and that your email is current.

Here is more info:
https://www.facebook.com/events/933962383622792/

 

Taken by Alan Dyer on September 8, 2019 @ Yellowknife, NWT

 

 

Inner Climate Change Starts With Choosing Love

There are times when our inner climate just shifts and we are left with a thunderous and heavy downpour of thick energy that seems to fill every fiber of our being. It can feel as if the light has just vanished and joy has taken a permanent vacation.

This has been my recent emotional and spiritual experience. If I wanted to lose everything I had worked so hard for then I just needed to stay put and the universe would have seen to that in quick order. But fortunately I have had enough connection to myself, my community, and a deeper desire to experience life in a brand new way that has almost seemed antithetical and impossible to the darker side of my Metasoul.

Turning the tables on the darkness and engaging it as an aspect of me and not ALL of me, I immediately began a process of bringing in more light. Illumination. Understanding. Connection. This aspect of me gets to be seen and felt within a larger container other than its own.

What feels unholy inside of us is not evil but just not part of the whole…it is, in other words, un-whole-y. It feels detached and unhinged. Isolated and separate. Once we start to write down a word, make a mark on canvas, or speak it aloud, we transform the dynamic into two instead of one. In the two, the other gets to be held, loved.

This doesn’t end the process but rather offers it a beginning place. Today I am feeling new life emerge from many places as this energy is given a home in my heart and is no longer taking over. I did not exorcise it because I want to get to know it. To love it and heal it. That is what helps turn my inner climatology into something new that will help if/when this part is triggered again. I have a bit more of my Higher Self in the room to hold it.

This is a gift of the process of parts work. We are not just given the fish, but we are learning how to fish. To cultivate and harvest our Service Of Love Self. These are the moments when you can see a whole new Now and whole new future.

Amen.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

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Harvesting The Fruitful Darkness Into Love

The last few days have been quite a slug for me as I have been revisited by an energy that has ebbed and flowed in my field since I was in my early 20s. It is a very despairing energy that can be triggered in many ways, most notably in relationship to 3D money needs and intimacy.

I have felt both a masculine and a feminine energy in that despair. A feeling of not feeling like things are ever going to get off the ground and into abundance and flow. A feeling that I am not deserving or worthy of a lofty and joyous place. A seemingly inescapable condition of self-judgement and criticism. It is like a rolling snowball downhill that expands as gravity has its way.

This energy in me calls itself DC which stands for Dark Cloud or Don’t Care. It is a primordial energy that is quite ancient and collective. It lives in a very dark world yet in that darkness there is a deep need to be felt and heard even if it doesn’t admit to it. Forging a relationship to it helps to create the space for compassion and love to enter the space even as it feels hard to do so.

I have admittedly given it way too much power in my life. It has been a work in progress and is much different than it used to be. I have come to know this as an aspect of my soul but I needed some external reflection to really let that into my heart. This is a fusion that we know we are in but just need an outside mirror and lever to tilt it back into the Higher Heart and Consciousness.

I feel how these ongoing energies are ramping up that which is still embedded in our soul and is taking up residence in our bodies. It leaves little vacancy for our Higher Self to come into the space until we chose to relate to it on a personal level.

In our continued journey to wholeness, we are also healing the collective and that can be quite a chore. It is a process of personalizing the energy that takes it out of that well and into your own heart space. It loses some of its intensity and density and becomes more open to feeling in its own time.

Today’s Harvest Full Moon is another opportunity to harvest the fruit from this darkness and finally get to the root of what keeps us from truly embodying all that we are meant and desire to be. We get to do this together through our sharing and our connection. We may even seek the space of another to help transmute it back into Love from whence it came, it just has forgotten and felt forsaken.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

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Unanchor From Being In Pain: Message From A Local Oak Tree

by Kalayna Solais

I wanted to take in some nature the other day, to connect in with myself more after some pretty deep emotional detox waves moved through this last week. There were several huge tidal waves of emotional and existential pieces I hadn’t felt so deeply in a very long time and it turned out that much of the pain I was feeling had to do with several Metasoul brothers who were awakening, stirred up, and needed me. They embody themes of betrayal, nobody wanting to listen to them, inadequacy, comparison to others, not fitting in, disempowerment, banishment, etc. I’ve only felt two specific ‘brothers’ so far, but I feel like there are more.

The veil being so thin right now seems to of course bring with it more opportunities to reconcile other lifetimes. I’ve even recently felt an ‘abusive husband’ archetype in my own Metasoul and that was a huge one to deeply let in and feel. This reminds me that during these times of the veil being quite thin, there are these opportunities to feel deep-seated soul themes that still need our hearts to hold them and our Divine love connection to help forgive and heal them. These darker themes can’t emerge within us unless we are ready for them to, so I always take this as a reflection of my progress even though it may feel absolutely crazy-making to walk out.

It’s also SO important to actually go into and feel these lifetimes when they do come forward, because it does help us understand WHY these themes are so alive today not only inside of us but inside of so many others who express/embody them, usually unconsciously, in different ways.

While connecting within and with nature today, I felt to sit underneath a beautiful, wise oak tree. I touched her trunk, connecting with my heart, wondering about sitting below her and leaning in for a while. The immediate warmth I felt was so inviting that I did just that. I felt rest and safety as I sat down in the tall grass and leaned into her sturdiness. I consciously reminded my parts and my Metasoul aspects to let in the love exchange.

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The oak tree told me,

“It’s time to un-anchor from being in pain”.

I felt this message not just for me but for a collective that seems to be moving through so much right now and always.

I could feel the truth of how this has been an undercurrent throughout my process over the years and how it’s steadily and surely been healing. I feel how this is the invitation for everyone who consciously chooses to keep going inward to clean house, to refine and redefine what it means to love yourself and also to love and serve others. We get to find our own finesse with our ongoing process, to be able to let in as much arising joy as we do arising woundedness. It does feel SO critical that we ALL begin to consciously hold our processes this way if we aren’t already!

There is definitely a balance between the transcendence or bypassing of soul and heart pain and the staying anchored in it.

We get to create a NEW ‘normal’. A new baseline frequency and sense of self, life, and how love moves within us. This is a very personal journey for each of us and for each part of us along with each Metasoul Aspect too. 

My beloveds and I are passionate about not just doing this within but supporting your own journey, should you feel resonant with what we offer! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.