The Quest Of Sacred Knighthood

There is a sacred Knighthood that lives among the hearts of men. A Kighthood that needs to be revisited in our souls to heal the division amongst us so that we may once again find a unity within us.

We were once called to a Higher code of vision and purpose before being hijacked in our hearts. We all agreed to this. We chose it to work out something inside and out. I am being called to be one of many that wish to see this Order to be reestablished and embodied once again.

An Order that is committed to self-healing and Divine expression. One that looks beyond the machinations of the System and derives its sovereign authority from Love Itself.

It is an Order devoted to committing itself to vulnerable leadership, community-building, and sacred union/intimacy within mateship. Co-creating and co-leading with the feminine inside and out.

This is dismantling the old orders of warriors and nice guys. They are integrated into a more wholistic and sacred service of creation not bound by fear, hate, domination, and guilt. This a call that starts not by fixing or transcending, but by feeling and courageous embodiment of what is clear and aligned with Love.

That is the new Quest I have been called to participate in alongside Raphael Awen. The new Call to Arms which means going into the heart. Into the soul to find where we left Love’s Grace and to reinstall it back into our Being and back into Consciousness. A new order of Knighthood that leads us back to our one true Kingdom of Heaven on Earth.

For more information on being a part of this quest, I offer a free 45 min. introductory call. Visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info.

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

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SoulFullHeart Avalon Updates: Issue 11

Blessed Easter weekend to you!

Today we shared our latest Avalon Update, featuring a piece by Jelelle Awen in which she talks about the ‘hijacked’ womb that has been influenced by what she refers to the “Ursula Consciounsness” or a false feminine/wounded matriarchal overlay.

As sensitive empaths and star seeds, there is a tendency to take this Ursula energy within us and try to transmute it to love again. There is often a soul contract/agreement as well with family members that we will serve this role within the family line, bringing light to the darkness of the ancestral wounding. However, this unconscious taking in and ‘holding’ within our wombs of this toxic energy has a cost to us, creating cycles of physical chronic illnesses (including PMS and menopausal symptoms), codependency/abuse in relationships, suppressed sexuality/sexual desire, avoidance of relationships and ‘lone wolf’, disempowerment in expression of soul gifts/struggles with manifestation/alchemy, and more.

Jelelle and Kasha Rokshana also talk about their upcoming Women’s Call on the same topic happening tomorrow at 5pm London time. More info in the update.

There are many new writings to take in from Gabriel, Kasha, and Raphael. New upcoming events are listed as well.

To take in the full Avalon Update, go here.

Much love from all of us!

~ The SoulFullHeart Community

The Over-holding Of Others In Our Wombs

by Kasha Rokshana

Connection with our wombs on a daily basis is so important to our health and well-being on all levels as women, especially right now.

My womb, ‘Vesica’, showed me this morning how much she has been holding… and I know she is not the only womb holding much more than she needs to.

In her, I found and felt the cries of the world; the cries of those I love that are going through a challenging time; images of what’s moving in my soul and heart lately; desires that are peaking and perking up; needs that are going unmet at times; feelings of my depth and capacity to hold and offer love to myself and others.

My heart-shaped rose quartz crystal ended up laying on her without me consciously choosing to place it there.
“I need clearing”, Vesica said to me, “I’m holding too much. I’m not designed to hold as much as I have been. You’ll feel clearer if I’m cleared and you’ll feel calmer too. I’m not designed to hold any human being beyond gestation and so I cannot hold all of the people/souls that are in me right now”.

This struck me as a deep reminder of how much we need to be aware of what we’re holding and to move energy out of our wombs… from the collective of which we are a part yet not responsible for; from the beloveds in our lives whose soul-destinies we cannot ‘know’ or control for them; from any fears that parts of us hold about our well-being and our path in our life (or death); from the Matrices (3D and 4D) that still have a foothold on our wombs and what moves into and through them and decide how they’ll be ‘used’ too.


To connect with your womb deeply can take time and much clearing. There are parts of you that are protective of her, and rightfully so, depending on what you’ve been through in this lifetime and others too. To truly connect to the stillness and beauty that IS your womb space takes a dedication and deep desire for her to be free and to arise in her essence within you.

On Sunday April 4th at 5pm BST, Jelelle Awen and I will be offering our second womb-consciousness-based women’s group mediation call, this time focused on freeing the womb from the Matrix. There’s a darkness to this shadow exploration and a depth to it too, yet it’s truly amazing what our wombs can and DO transmute when given the proper care, attention, and love. More info here: soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

Much love from my womb to yours!

Kasha ♥️

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Healing The Legacy Of Fatherhood To Access Our True Power, Adequacy, And Vulnerability

Today I have been feeling how much my leadership and relationality is rooted in the legacy of my birth father. My relationship to Power, Adequacy, and Vulnerability come in large part from my modelling of it from him. I am not blaming, I am noting, realizing, and taking responsibility for that. I get to change the course on that one by feeling and owning where it lives in me.

What also lives in me are the ways in which he modelled something healthy and true. None of us are all good or all bad. We have qualities we have a sense of ‘mastery’ over and other qualities we don’t. When I have felt that ‘not so good’ feeling about myself or my place in the world, I know there is something rooted in what I was steeped in as a child, as well as the collective and the soul.

As I have continued to step more into my worth, mission, and leadership, I can feel the ways in which I am healing that legacy within me. The shadow and the wounding get to come front and center and I can be with that in a compassionate way, not as it being a ‘part of the problem’. My father gave birth to my own version of ‘father’ that is now coming online as a leader, space-holder, and way-shower.

My own Fatherhood is about feeling my own empowerment (worth), care for others (compassion), and directness (truth-telling). These all come from a process around Power, Adequacy, and Vulnerability. It brings what lies in the Shadow into the Light not to be analysed or judged, but felt, seen, and integrated. I have a new relationship to these three portals now that I can feel how both my birth father and my inner father have related to and experienced them.

We don’t need to be, or haven’t needed to be, a father in this life to feel where this energy lies within each of us. When we go into these doorways, we are taking one step further into not just our own healing but the healing of the collective and the planet. The Patriarchy is rooted in Disempowerment, Inadequacy, and Invulnerability. It doesn’t feel good about itself. Actually, it feels like shit about itself. It is also existentially afraid of its own shadow. This lives in our own inner patriarchs/fathers. The wheel will continue to spin unless we address these things. No amount of suppressing and non-feeling will get us there. It may be a messy process at times, but so very needed.

If you are resonating or curious about this for yourself, Raphael Awen and I are hosting a Men’s Group Call on this very thing this Saturday, March 27 at 5pm GMT (London Time). It will be a two-hour call with a guided meditation to meet an Inner Protector aspect (possibly your inner father) that holds the keys to these doorways. It will be over Zoom for a donation of any amount. Go to this link for more info and how to donate:

www.soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls

We both look forward to connecting with men that are feeling the struggle yet desire for healing and perspective around these emotions and energies with compassion and hopefully offer some going-on places as well.



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Aurius Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Spring Equinox Energies: Invitation To Feel Peaking Inner Polarities

by Kasha Rokshana

Equinox.

Equilibrium and balance.

There’s such a strong pull to polarities, especially this past year. This is necessary, though it’s been a dark passageway and we are still in it. The poultice of C-vid and every opinion/consciousness surrounding it has been backlighting our need to heal some very dark, very stark aspects of our humanity and spirituality. It’s been so challenging to see all of this coming up and out, purging out violently and aggressively in moments energetically and physically… And it’s even more challenging (and understandably so) to truly be willing to FEEL it all and feel the cries of the aching and awakening world within and without.

We all want change for the better, yet we are also all on a sacred mission to be on our own sovereign journeys around that. And, there can be no real ‘change for the better’ without feeling where there’s a push-pull toward being in the process of healing toward that. There’s much to heal, own, and acknowledge and it’s all rather sobering.

The tendency to pull away, turn our backs on each other, set boundaries without love leading, has been strongly coming up. If we are to find our way to another way of feeling through this necessary and uncomfortable phase of conflict, we need to show up for where this tendency lives inside of us, from part to part, from us to the Divine, and then we can better feel where and how it expresses between ourselves and others.

The invitation into equilibrium is about finding more unity, especially within, between light and dark, masculine and feminine. They don’t need to merge and become one energy, but they do get to offer each other gifts as you feel too where and how they’ve been at odds.

We also get to explore this finding of equilibrium without losing our individuality inside of pair-bond/sacred union/twin flame relationships, where each being has their own experiences of life and lifetimes to bring to the bond. Each being has its own polarities to reconcile between fear and love. I feel this coming into balance more within me and that then extends to Aurius and also my beloveds and the women I facilitate too, though the journey of reconciling the light and darkness within is ongoing and always unfolding.

We have so much to feel and heal, to face and confront and come to terms with, while holding it all with love and compassion, especially on the inside. This Equinox is certainly empowering all of us to take our next steps with that process!

Much love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Womb Is A Portal To The Experience Of Womanhood In All Lifetimes

by Kasha Rokshana

As women, all of our lifetimes of experience of being able to BE a woman or not, in every sense of the word, lives in our wombs. There’s a powerful portal within each of our wombs that connects us to these lifetimes where we may have experienced immense power, yet at a cost. This portal can also open us up to lifetimes of remembering what it was like to be a mother, mate, sister, and daughter, who was treasured and loved… or used and abused, victimized, and maybe even held captive for being female.

Such is the mix for the feminine in her depths of healing. So deep is the legacy we each carry within us of our need to heal and offer healing to others too from the depths of our femininity that has been hijacked sometimes and honoured/revered other times.

I often connect with this beautiful egg stone (in the featured photo), which my beloveds and I call the ‘Mother Stone’ at Glastonbury Abbey, ever since landing here in Avalon when we arrived 6 months ago, and I’ve been on a profound inner journey of awakening and healing (supported also by Her) that I couldn’t have done without the energies here. I feel in so many ways like a totally different woman and even a whole new sort of Priestess now than I could have felt like or truly claimed before. And, I feel how all of this journeying has come from my womb and returns back to my womb for integration.

Our wombs hold and house our truest soul and heart bigness. To clear her and activate her, means to meet with what has left her rather congested and full of frequencies she is no longer meant to hold. So vast and deep is the feminine pain heard and felt around the world for centuries, that these cries live in her too. To truly hear, feel, and transmute this pain on behalf of women everywhere is to dive into it from within, from the chalice of our own soul’s experience and need for this healing.

Join Jelelle Awen and I on Sunday March 7th at 5pm GMT for a sacred time of teaching and meditation and deep womb connection. Jelelle led a call like this recently for those of us who are deep in the SoulFullHeart process and community and we all felt this tender connection to and feeling of each other that I know is still going in… we both fully welcome you, dear soul sister, to this next sacred circle which you can donate any amount to be a part of.

You can donate to Jelelle’s PayPal here: paypal.me/jelelleawen or visit our shop: soulfullheart.org/shop

More info on the event can be found here: http://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls ❤️🌹

Love!
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Mirror Of Sacred Sisterhood

By Deya Shekinah

Spending real, intimate time with women is such a gift to my heart and soul. I am recognising that there has been so much in the way of deeper bonds with women my whole life; competition, insecurity, unworthiness and jealousy being some of them. I feel how hard that has been on me and my parts, even more so now as I feel how deep the need for union with women really is. The uniqueness of the connection between women is so special and I feel how we do really need each other in a way that is different to our need for and with men.

I always feel so inspired and enlivened after deep union with women and deeply nourished by where women can go together when they feel safe and can rest and lean into one another. We understand and feel each other so deeply in wordless spaces and ways, which is something I feel I have looked for in my relationships with men my whole life and has brought a deep dissatisfaction to parts of me. Only now am I recognising how men are not really meant to fulfill our need for each other as women.

There is healing that needs to happen to let women in and trust women again after all the years and lifetimes of competition and hurt that has been experienced between us. I feel the pain of having had to turn away from one another to survive in a world where we are led to believe that we cannot do it without a man. How dangerous it has been at times to be a woman and still is for many women in the world today, and I can feel what that has led and does lead us to do to one another to just get through it.

I feel how the need for connection with women is so deeply buried under a lot of pain and distrust that it can be hard to recognise that need is even there. I am being invited daily as part of life within the SoulFullHeart community to feel my needs and desires that have been deeply buried in order to survive, and then invited to reach out to ask for what I want. It can feel terribly vulnerable for parts of me to even acknowledge that they need others, especially women, and I am still not quite sure why that is. As I do this though, I am getting to experience something new with women that is so deeply nourishing and healing in ways I cannot mentally track but I feel it as it ripples through my body and creates a deep rest and sigh of relief within my womb. 

I feel so deeply blessed to have wonderful women in my life and for all the women who have helped me prepare to let all this love in that I am experiencing now with my closest Sisters. Everytime I meet in deep, real, intimate connection with women, I am changed, and I remember more of who I am and more about why I am here.

Jelelle Awen and Kasha Rokshana will be holding this month’s SoulFullHeart Women’s Group Call this Sunday 7th March at 5pm (London time) This month’s call is about healing and activating the Womb, work that is very close to my heart and I feel so supports this deeper healing between us as women. This women’s group is open to the public and to all women over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant & Community Member. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Great Reconiliation

My, there is a lot moving and shaking going on in consciousness right now! I feel this Great Reconciliation between the Heart and the Head, the Masculine and the Feminine, the Dark and the Light going on right now. In that process of Reconciliation it appears that there is a great polarity being drawn to the surface to look at and determine where we want to go with that.

There was a great polarity happening here amongst us as a family/community that has taken each of us to new places inside that have had unforeseen, yet not surprising, results such as reunion and deepening between souls and the Divine Beloved Itself.

The veils and/or compartments that have been holding Truth and Love at bay are starting to crumble. I can feel how parts of me have identified with those veils and walls. The crumble can create a rumble inside. It takes more effort to suppress that to express now. If that is the case, more Truth will come to the surface all over and that can be messy and scary.

I feel how the Masculine polarity has held a large swath of territory in consciousness. With the Feminine pole coming into balance, it can feel to the masculine that it is being sieged or devoured. Losing its control hold and its identity in a way. Yet what I feel from the Feminine is an Embracing. An Invitation back into Wholeness. It can look like a devouring from a certain perspective. But this whole process is inevitable. It IS happening…

I feel a brotherhood of men that are wanting to be a part of the Great Reconciliation inside and out. There are Knights and Kings of Heart that are seeking to balance these energies inside even if they are not consciously aware of it. This may be coming out in depression, anxiety, or frustration. He doesn’t know what the fuck is up and the default consciousness may be fear or violence toward self and other.
In this process, I feel the Feminine can assist by claiming her own needs, follow her own heart’s desires and intuition, and heal the polarity of the Masculine within. The bond with the Beloved is the shelter in the storm of the rumbles for us all. It takes us to the other side of the other side.

I am here to offer my heart to those that are feeling that desire for inner reconciliation and a return to Balance and Wholeness within. I feel compassion and care for all men that are struggling with so many emotions and circumstances. There is a path to health and inner prosperity and joy. Please do keep me bookmarked in your heart as someone who wants to help. I have been through many Dark Nights and rounds of addictions and despair.

Sending much love to all humanity in this process of Reconciliation.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Letting Go Of Illusions To See And Feel What’s REAL Inside And Out

by Kasha Rokshana

Illusion must dissolve so reality can resolve.

These are the words that come to me as I feel my own ongoing process of healing, Ascension, and service, yet also as I feel the global process happening now for the same.

The illusions dissolving for parts of me are so multi-layered and multi-dimensional too. I feel facades melting down from how my feminine parts have related to the masculine and to romance and even to their own spirituality. For them and for me, this is a whole other level of growth, of fading childhood and moving into true womanhood from the inside out. I feel my masculine parts seeing and feeling how they’ve related to my feminine ones, either with some sort of suppression and punishment-type frequencies, or, even with caretaking/enabling instead of genuinely caring for and feeling them.

These inner dynamics are reflected in my outer reality, in my relationship with men AND women, and what moves between myself and those I’m closest to or even those I’m meeting for the first time. Sometimes the reflections are subtle and sometimes they are so big that it takes a while to really look at all of the machinations involved!

I feel all of my parts having deep and precious realizations of how they’ve related to life itself too, the different levels of emotional and spiritual immaturity that is moving away from being bubbled-off about actual reality now. I don’t feel any self-judgement as I name and own this ‘immaturity’, as it feels like we all have that and are working it, just at different levels and in unique phases of growth too.

Without a doubt, we’re ALL being faced with our own immaturity now. We’re experiencing outcomes and consequences that come directly from what we haven’t been ready or able to SEE let alone FEEL inside of ourselves, let alone in the systems and ways of life that we have allowed to continue and live through us. It’s quite a shift we’re experiencing into an underbelly of humanity’s shadow that has always been there, yet while enamoured and involved with the illusion overlaying this underbelly, we haven’t been able to truly see and bring love to what has been true all along.

There is a whole upgrade needed in human consciousness that is still being worked and isn’t actually a given, at least not en masse, yet it’s the reason why we’re here and why we’re being invited to soberly see what’s real. A big part of this is definitely the need to feel the value of deep inner work and allowing love to support us in that. This is a bit of a thing for the parts of us who have worked so hard to stay above board and somewhat bubbled-off from what the reality around us is constantly offering us all. They, especially the Inner Protector, have often had to do this in order to protect the preciousness, purity of essence, and innocence within that can be so greatly impacted by seeing and feeling the world in the state it’s in currently… and our roles within that.

This is what changes our inner worlds as much as our outer one, through the deepening of our inner intimacy and self-love and overflowing that to our relationships and encounters on the outside. This is what shifts and heals the inner Matrix so that any attachment to the one(s) on the outside can move into something new and our experience of it can change for the better as well. It’s not a process that can really be taken on with much lightness at times yet it IS held with so much love, always, and the support we need is right here with us to move us fully into the NEW.

The good news is that unless we were ready to start seeing reality for what it is and has been, we wouldn’t be in the place we are now. Where we are now, even in the thick of the pain of it all, is a necessary step to our evolution, our true Ascension, and our reunion with the Divine within and without. We’re living through a time of tidal waves that are bringing so much to the surface, as they are meant to do. It’s up to each of us how we choose to relate to the process of being with the Disclosure that has been unfolding and will continue to unfold well into the future, feels like.

We are all in this together, though at times we feel so very separate. For that separation too is a powerful illusion that is up to us to move through, back into the reality of love and unity, from deep within.

Illusion must dissolve so reality can resolve… by letting what’s real open up the heart to feel.

Love,

Kasha ❤

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I am once again offering free 45min intro calls for women who are interested in the SoulFullHeart process/way of life/community and how it may serve you at this sacred time. I also offer paid 90min sessions for women who feel ready to dive deep into their inner worlds: soulfullheart.org/sessions

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Welcoming All The Challenges Of 2021 As a Part Of Our Return To Love

By Deya Shekinah

This time last year I came to Glastonbury and planted a seed, an intention to spend more time here in 2020. Initially that seed was planted with a beloved but as the year unfurled that romance came to an end. The most intimate and loving relationship I have ever experienced coming to an end has been my biggest teacher this year, with the grief of that loss opening my heart to the grief of all of the losses I have ever experienced, which continues to unravel moment to moment.

I feel how we have all, in our own ways this year, experienced doors and chapters of our lives closing and ways of being dissolving. Uncertainty has become a more visible reality that we have to learn to walk with every day in new ways and that has been tough.

Yet as I land here now in Avalon/Glastonbury with a new dawn arising for 2021, full of possibilities and potential for more growth, more love, and more challenges, I feel more held in trust than ever before because of my own personal journey this year to get here. This year has forced us all in many ways to face some of our biggest fears: loneliness, grief, loss, and death. It is my experience, by feeling all of these places inside, that there is a tremendous amount of courage, adaptability and strength inside all of us to keep finding new ways to thrive, to love and to connect, and that however restricted or lost parts of us may feel, that is never the whole truth.

Letting in the beauty of all the challenges and the lockdowns may not be easy, but it is in feeling the empty, lockdowned spaces within that we are being reborn, even when we cannot see it or feel it. 

As much goodness is flowing into my life at this moment, I feel the fruition of listening to this invitation of turning deeply inwards towards myself during these times of lockdown. I will move into my own place on New Year’s Day here in Avalon and it is the first time I will have ever lived alone which I am excited about, and finally, after three years, I am with my beloved SoulFullHeart community in the physical. It feels like my seed from last New Year’s is beginning to sprout, although the beloved is inwards now rather than on the outside. 

As the new challenges for 2021 are already arising, I feel us all able to hold them and ourselves more lovingly after all we have learnt in 2020. 

2021 feels to me like a year to keep embracing the beauty and the tensions of the duality that we came here to experience, to allow the fullness of the human experience that is always working for us to humble us and re-sensitize us to the simple, subtle joys of being embodied and alive. As another year ends and a new one begins, I am reminded that endings and beginnings co-exist and are a constant in our daily lives not just on New Year’s Eve… and that feels ever more present in where we are in our humanity right now.

As we all continue to move through life’s death and rebirth cycles, from my heart in the Heart Chakra of the Earth, I send you so much love and many New Year’s blessings. May we continue to remember and uncover the goodness, innocence and love that is who we are, and learn to radiate the light that is in our hearts so we can continue to guide each other towards New Earth.

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant & Community Member. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.