Feeling The Inner Masculine To Move from Surviving To Thriving

By Deva Yasmin

I have been noticing for some time a certain pattern or habit within me. I have been feeling and exploring this much deeper these past days as I adjust to a new way of being, it feels like. As I transition from dream space to waking space, I notice anxiety coming up, this automatic pattern that has been there for so long to get up, get doing, get working. Already in my dream space I sense a chaotic-ness as I am stirring into conscious reality.

I felt yesterday a part of me called ‘David’, my Inner Masculine I have been working with for a while. As we felt together I felt how long he has been in this way of life, getting straight up out of bed, straight into work/survival mode; to move into my day from a place of rest and stillness felt so alien to him. That is the invitation and opportunity now it feels like, as I no longer have work to go to, as many of us are experiencing. I feel that this is also an invitation into a new way of being for us all, of moving into more thriving than only surviving this life. I feel inside me the growing desire to move in all areas of my life from a place of inner peace and stillness.

David expressed to me that it was new to not have to go into the day from a place of stress and to-do lists, but that he also does enjoy the practical aspects of life. I felt him not so anxious about it, rather desiring to be acknowledged as the part that is here to provide for me and my parts practically. This felt so lovely and soothing to other parts of me, to feel I have David here to help with those things as they are needed. He then transitioned to becoming my Inner Father which opened some touching healing between him and Yazzy, my Inner Child.

It was interesting to me then to feel the same anxiety arising as I woke this morning, and when checking in I could no longer feel David but a new part coming through who was very anxious about having no work. I felt a lot of fear around how we will support ourselves financially and feed ourselves too. As I felt deeper, this part revealed himself to me as ‘John’, a Metasoul brother it feels like, in a timeline of starvation and poverty. He was very concerned, he felt taking time in the morning to ease into the day was frivolous, something he could not afford to do. I could feel him being the sole provider for his family, a wife and two small children, who were all starving and dying as were many people around them, it felt like. He told me how he had to feed his children, feeding them before himself, his fear so triggered by me no longer having work, as well as my new geography in London it feels like, and me now desiring to step into a new way of earning money, rather than the old way of employment that my parts are used to.

I was able to acknowledge his experience and his feelings, although I could not do anything to change his reality. I helped him feel that starvation and poverty are no longer a part of my life now, even as I live on less money and eat less too. My relationship to food is not coming from a poverty mindset, but rather from years of transitioning to feeling what I actually need versus overeating as a cover over to not feel my emotions. Feeling John so explains why I have had a fear based connection to food this life, feeling him starving in his. I supported him to feel the reality of his situation, soberly feeling the outcome, that him and his family may possibly die yet he did not have to suffer. He had the choice to be present with his children, love them, soothe them, rather than keep panicking about what to do. This softened something for him as I felt him moving into being in what is, and with his beloveds while he still could.

Feeling John I felt so much gratitude for what I do have in the moment, the food I have even if it is not the amount parts of me have been used too, grateful to feel that starvation isn’t part of my timeline now although I know it is for so many. I sense how much I have held onto because of the fear of survival, feeling how unhappy it has made me to stay in jobs I do not like and how even relationships too can be a way of covering over the fear. I feel how society can make women feel like they need a man to provide and survive and I am sure men have their own version of this too.

For me right now I have let go of so many things that have made me feel safe, as I have chosen to move towards my desires for more resonance and purpose in my life. I have a feeling of how I wish my life to feel, so I am having to meet all the fear of moving towards it. I feel how I have been in this transition for some time especially around money, having struggled to manage full-time employment. I had to question how much I actually needed. Feeling how much energy and inner resources it takes to maintain work that is not my passion, I no longer wanted to do it and with the exchange of money no longer being a big enough draw for me either, I now desire to thrive not only survive.

Exploring what it feels like to thrive is a new exploration ground, feeling through the transition of having less money to truly feel what thriving feels and looks like. It feels like a transition we will all have to go through at some stage in our Awakening. For me, thriving does not mean the same thing as success; thriving is not solely based on financial abundance but can include that too. To thrive for me feels like TIME, to have time to actually live, to enjoy the world around me, to breath it all in. To be grateful for the simplest of things, vulnerability, connection, intimacy, honesty, and service of Love to others and self. Feeling balance in all areas of your life and to be leading from love, peace and lots of joy rather than lack and fear. These are not things that can be maintained or even experienced when we are so overly focused on the 3D survival matrix paradigm, as I have just remembered, again, after needing to go into full-time employment that is not my passion or Soul purpose once more, to finally be able now to leave it behind.

I feel an empty space between where parts have been focused for so long on 3D, to where we are heading in 5D/Golden Earth Reality as I checked in with Enu, my Pleaidian aspect around this. Also, to feel where I am now as I explore how to transition personally. Enu told me that in her world, they do not work with the energy of money, that it is an Earth experience/challenge and frequency, part of human life only, it feels like. I feel her holding the picture of energy exchange, of freely offering our gifts to one another when needed, of sharing with others and of not being scared of asking for help when it is needed either, that all resources are shared in her timeline. Abundance means so many things in her world, whereas here on Earth it can so often be felt or seen as only money equals abundance. They are also deeply connected to their creativity and gifts which gives them life, as well as living on prana too, rather than physical food as we do. They absorb life force from the world around them, through breath.

This feels so much like what I have been longing to experience and am on my way towards especially joining SoulFullHeart as a Collaborator, with the desire to be a Facilitator in the future, as well as one day living together in community. It is what I moved towards more, moving into my new place in London too, with beautiful resonant souls, a choice that was financially risky after losing my job but that David navigated and manifested financial support for me around too. Now I have the space to breathe and question what I want to bring into the world, what is my passion and the creativity/wisdom and healing I have to offer to others through my own healing. I feel the desire and LOVE in my heart switching on to be of service to others, for which I will need to continue to feel the parts in fear around all of this.

Feeling the higher timelines available does soothe my parts and helps me be more in the moment around everything, keeping my vision alive and burning, anchoring me in my commitment to keep going IN and feeling all the difficult reactions and timelines within my Soul. Feeling with sobriety when things are not working, when things have become stagnant and when we need to move in a different direction is SO hard. Feeling when there is nothing to do, but to feel the pain, sadness, grief, trusting that that is what will move us forward when the time is right, and the Divine knows the timings here not us.

Learning to trust the perfection of this life, this universe, comes to me through being able to sit in, be in, and feel everything that is moving within me. Feeling the Love growing for myself, feeds my truest desires and gives me the courage to keep moving towards NEW Earth, even though the way through is in the Valley of the Shadow of Death. This does not have to be a scary transition anymore though, as more and more resources from within our Soul are activated as we feel the lifetimes/timelines where we have been training and preparing for these times for so long. Everything we need for these transitions is within us.

Love,

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

 

 

 

 

 

Starseed Activation & Golden Earth Support Through The Portal Of Discomfort and Grief

By Deva Yasmin

As we all journey through these death/rebirth cycles it can feel like we are being squeezed through the birth canal. It feels like we are going through multiple death/rebirth cycles in many lives and dimensions. This is the invitation of possibilities to feel right now, as in times of being squeezed it can feel dark, scary and that we are at the complete mercy of the Unknown. It is an invitation again to surrender to rather than continue to fight the Unknown.

Surrender is not a doing; it is a way of BEing. A BEing IN, guided by ALL of the feelings that are arising in response to our current situations, as experiences, life choices, and traumas from this lifetime and others are being pushed up for healing. BEing in and feeling every moment of discomfort as our Soul feels through the lessons that we are learning now, calling on all the wisdom of our Soul and Soul origins that are supporting us in the higher dimensions. This wisdom has been waiting for this time to activate.

Parts of us can feel like they are going crazy, in a kind of in-between worlds feeling, that can make it hard to relate to a world where they have found so much comfort until now. They can also feel rumbles in relationships, as what we need and desire is becoming clearer. It can feel excruciating as those leading the new way touch the longings in our heart, the knowings that parts may still be struggling to access, integrate or move into, as they are still needing to BE in and feel the fear of leaving the comfort behind, still unsure of how the arising new feels, or what it holds for them.

I have been feeling with part of me named Yasmin so much discomfort, acknowledging the depth of unhappiness she has experienced. Feeling sadness as she has felt so alone, a Soul theme of mine, of not remembering or being connected to why she is here or why she chose these uncomfortable lessons to grow through. I feel how this unhappiness has been projected into all areas of my life especially work and relationships, which has created much tension, chaos, and pain for her and to others at times too. In my recent session with Jelelle Awen, giving Yasmin space to feel her unhappiness began to open out her connection to her 5D/Golden Earth reality. This access is allowing me to have more air around what she feels and to explore the whys.

Tears came as we felt the frequency of Golden Earth, as she felt where she has longed to be her whole life and has actually always been here inside, a place she forgot in a world that projects what is real-ity only to be this 3D one. We felt our Star Family reaching out, my Pleiades Aspect, Enu offering so much Love. This is what I am choosing to call her as her vibration and language is hard to translate into ours. I feel her Language of Light being remembered too, although in the moment we speak telepathically.

I felt how in Golden Earth, we are connected to everything, telepathically we can communicate with the animals, the planets, the Earth and the water. The water feels SO important in the moment, to allow Her to hold us in this gestation period as She held us in our Mother’s womb. It feels like many of us right now maybe feeling the need to eat lighter, desiring to drink more water, this feels connected to us being able to let in Golden Earth and Star Being frequencies to support us through this transition.

I feel how stomach problems and issues with digestion right now can be linked to our struggle to feel and digest our past experiences which stop us from letting Love in. That this is possibly a good time to check in with how we relate to food and begin to feel into what nourishment our bodies are calling for. Food has always been a way for Yasmin to soothe, comfort and cover what she feels. As she moves more into Golden Earth, I feel me being able to offer comfort and nourishment in New ways.

When parts of us have been deeply unhappy, even depressed, in this life…when they have always struggled to find belonging or purpose, I feel how connected this is to our disconnection from our higher timeline realities. As Yasmin lets this in, I feel the fog of unhappiness being lifted, as the MORE she has always felt existed becomes more REAL. Real because she feels it, as she feels it there no longer is a need for the validation of whether it is real or even a need to know what is real. All that matters to her is she remembers NOW, an inner sanctuary where all the pain and struggle can be soothed and transmuted back home to LOVE. A place to surrender to ALL of the LOVE in this Universe that is waiting to come into us, so we can return to our natural flow state in Life.

Enu is offering to me that for those of us who resonate with being a Starseed, there is much support available to you NOW, a portal is open to remember your origins, with the recent conjunction of the Pleiades star system and Venus helping us feel this too.

Enu offers: ‘In these times it can feel hard for Starseeds to understand what their part in all of this is. With such a deep care and reverence for ALL life on Earth, we feel how frustrated you can feel, when you are not out there taking action to protect this Life on Earth. For those of the highly sensitive Starseeds beginning to Awaken to our frequency, this is a time of nourishing and opening to more of your Soul, Starseed self. Filling yourself with your highest frequency of Love so you can inspire others through your radiance, beauty and inner peace, in these times of outer chaos.

You need this time of rest, of BEing alone, Being quiet and in nature too, especially taking in any Sun Codes that are available to you. Meet with the water in your inner realms, drop deep into the ocean. You can BE there, breathe there even, it is so quiet. Many of our allies are there too, the Dolphins and Whales offering a bridge to you to attune to our frequencies on Pleiades and in Golden Earth.

There is nothing you need to do, only listen and feel the cues of your physical and emotional body as they offer you much guidance in this time through the pain and discomfort. This can feel overwhelming, but you have much support and Love all around you, if you so wish to enter and receive. This will take time, as you learn to trust your inner realms and the parts, and aspects of you who have known and never forgotten these higher timelines and wisdom.

You are being informed by You, empowered and taught through your own inner realities. There are BEings who can support you on the outside but ultimately this is YOUR journey and YOUR choice to go into the parts and places of yourself that know what you need and where you need to go. We are here always whatever your choices are and whatever you are ready for in this moment, We love you, tender Souls.’

As Yasmin rests and explores Golden Earth, I feel ME, arising, growing into my leadership, the one who can listen and trusts my inner world and parts, to inform and guide my outer experience. I feel the collective being offered this choice too, as we transition from 3D to 5D Golden Earth. This will take time, healing and feeling for us ALL but as we let in MORE of our Soul and Star Family support, we feel more and more that we are always being supported and these transitions are being informed by and moved by intelligence that some may parts not be ready to feel yet, though some may be SO ready to let it all in.

We can never know anything as truth it feels like, in this ever-evolving, expanding and contracting universe. We can only FEEL what is REAL within ourselves and offer that to those who may resonate. Those who can feel the frequency of LOVE that is being offered through words even if the words make no sense or trigger reactions for parts, that this Love is here to offer support in a time of great fear and pain, personally and collectively.

In this 3D reality, everything can feel so dense and separate. In Golden Earth, we are One, we are Light and we are never alone.

Here is a guided meditation by Jelelle Awen to support you to feel and connect with Star Being Family, https://youtu.be/ubrPcH09X6s

Much Love,

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Experiencing Bliss States While Living On More Prana, Less Food: Personal Update

By Jelelle Awen

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It was one of those days yesterday where my soul and my heart are so lit up that I feel like I am going to burst out of my skin! Walking around feeling the magic of everything, of my inside glow matching the outside feeling state of goodness. This ‘matching’ of the inside bliss that is able to arise when we clear out more of the old, dense, and toxic is just amazing. It so makes the feeling of the tears and the fears worth it that come up during and after powerful energy gateways like Lion’s Gate and high speed solar storms.

Raphael and I spent an absolute perfect almost Fall day here in a high vibration park in Victoria called Beacon Hill and shopping downtown together. Our hearts, bodies, and souls felt like they were beaconing too…glowing and beaming out from newly cleansed vessels and recent afterglow from amazing lovemaking. After a few weeks of intense focus on detoxing and activating our bodies through fasting and transitioning to living more & more on prana, yesterday was a celebration day of what we have let go of in order to let in MORE of the good things.

Now over two weeks into a liquid fast (no solid food) with five days of a water only fast too, I am amazed at how much more heightened ALL my senses are. The liquids I do consume (blended soups, smoothies, and juice) are full and abundant with flavor. Tastes like drinking heaven and I don’t need much. Everything is turned UP in terms of sight, sound, feel, and smell….so there is a sense of being more sensitive yet more able to appreciate and let in goodness too.

I HIGHLY recommend fasting if you haven’t before or you feel it’s time to do it again….even starting with only fruit for a day or only liquids or only water (if you feel ready for that, it can bring up some body detox symptoms such as decreased energy, muscle cramps, lightheadedness, weight loss (that can be a good one depending on what you are wanting). The physical symptoms of ‘being hungry’ or ‘being full’ are gone for me right now as I consciously bring in more and more prana/chi/life force energy through meditation, connection with Kuan Yin, Chi Gong/Tai Chi, the crystal singing bowls, yoga, and salt baths.

Food feels optional in the sense of not being driven by the planning, preparation and eating of it in the same ‘three meals a day’ way that we’ve been conditioned in 3D. I DO feel this is where we are headed as we move into deeper embodiment of our light bodies. The fuel they (and we) most need is Love, is Light, and is our connection with them.

Here is a guided meditation to activate light body: https://youtu.be/-OhIwSUYTN8

love,
Jelelle Awen
Join Raphael and I next Saturday, September 14th for our monthly group transmission over zoom, starting at 10:00am PDT. We will teach about and guide you in a meditative space in which you can connect to your Gatekeeper aspect, visit the Lower 4D Matrix, begin the process of unplugging from it, and learn how to open up portals to other lifetimes/timelines that need karmic healing. More info to join us for a $15 CAD donation here: https://www.facebook.com/events/1340021326164133/

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.