Narrowing Energetic Corridor Offers Movement Into The New

By Jelelle Awen
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All night long during my brief conscious moments and during sleep too, I was walking down this corridor….a long hallway. The ceiling was getting tighter and the floor rising up to meet it. Not a pleasant feeling…this ‘narrowing’ passageway feeling. Yet, also, I could feel there was LOVE in this movement somehow and that at the ‘end’ of the hallway were wide, OPEN spaces filled with Infinite Possibilities.

As I digest this in the now moment, it feels like a pretty good metaphor for what is happening energetically on the inner and outer cosmic levels. In this now called “August 2017” is a ‘mega month’ of energy activities…eclipses and the lion’s gate opening that peaks in a week on August 8th. There are many writings about this cosmic activity and its impact, messages, and what it is offering us during the ascension process on sites such as Lovehaswon.org. My focus and soul purpose service of love is about bridging the emotional body with the spiritual and soul awakening process while being aware of how what is happening in the cosmos may be impacting this ongoing process, specifically from a parts work and Metasoul aspect perspective. I am actually surprised that so many souls seem to resonate with this perspective as it is certainly different, yet perhaps also deeply needed and been a ‘missing’ piece in the ascension picture.

The narrowing corridor I was shown feels like the old life and the previous versions, the 3D self versions and masks and personas, are being ‘pressed down’ in order to move them along. It is becoming increasingly uncomfortable and cramped to be less than who you are and you are feeling it more acutely now on all levels. The physical body is releasing pain and resistance in the form of ascension body symptoms such as ringing in the ears, changing sleeping patterns, dizzyness, nausea, appetite changes, body aches, hot flashes, etc. Some of this is resistance and some of this is just transition and adjustment to so much more light coming into every cell and igniting previously sleepy DNA.

It is becoming increasingly uncomfortable too within relationships where previously you were the ‘big fish in the little pond’ or the ‘tall one in the rooms with shorter ceilings.’ What this means is that the settings, relationships, and careers where parts of you feel VERY comfortable within your comfort zone are now feeling cramped and confining. Your soul self (higher self coming into the body and healthy emotional body) wants to fly, wants growth, wants to be challenged, wants mirrors to see yourself, wants to stand tall, and is ok to be the big fish in the big pond with other big fish.

There could be a feeling of crawling right now as you travel down the corridor of this old, feeling your way through as previously suppressed pains and wounds from your emotional body and Metasoul greet you and come up. Crawling is ok though, as is pausing and just sitting still and BEing with the discomfort. Crying the tears that need to come up. BEing with the fears too. All this is temporary….a pressure cooker, compression point, narrowing corridor reality that invites you to keep choosing love in every moment in order to keep moving through it.

Some souls will become immobilized, stuck, or choose to leave their bodies. Even those who are more awakened or newly awakened may lash out with fear and retreat….going back down their hallway and into their comfort zone and safety again. In this case, all you can really do and BE is compassionate love for them, invite them to come with you and keep going forward yourself. If you try to ‘go back’ for them or stay with them, you will lower your vibrational frequency to fear and potentially ‘fuse’ to parts of you that will put you back to sleep again. There is heightened temptation to do this as the fear-based energies reach out in a ‘last grasp attempt’ at our trailing edges of BEing.

There is actually something at stake and at risk in relationships right now. It is probably the stickiest ground when it comes to the ascension process. ‘Going down’ with someone in order to ‘save them’ is a trap that could keep you looping in suffering and co-dependent patterns. Clinging on to ‘capacity’ rather than being real about transactability can keep you hanging on to others, staying stuck, and even parts of you in delusion, such as what happens often in the Twin Flame paradigm. Really asking yourself what you want in relationships of all kinds, what is healthy and nourishing for you, who is a healthy mirror of you and being open to feel all that comes up in parts of you that cling and why can help you navigate this sticky ground.

Better to mourn the completion of these lower frequency relationships, let go, and keep BEing the light that you are, feeling yourself and your own healing as your first priority. This choosing of yourself and your own heart creates a beacon that draws the souls that are in your soul family tribe to join you and your TRUE sacred union mate as well. You may be walking, crawling, and BEing alone for a phase though as you truly leave behind your previous life to enter your new one.

It is a time of choosing love over fear in every moment in ways both subtle and perhaps very dramatic and profound. It is a time of change…both on a very personal level and as a collective. It is a time of a waking up on a grander scale then we have seen before since choosing our collective slumber and amnesia. At the end of each of our hallways is VAST, open space filled with Infinite Love and Infinite Possibilities. The Divine waits there to embrace us in Love again even as It is with us always in every moment as we crawl and find and arise into the love that we ARE.

 

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 Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
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Redefining Family From The Heart Up

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Today is the day that my daughter, Shai, comes to join us in SoulFullHeart community.  It is almost surreal, to be honest, even though she was here in February and we have been in contact quite a bit.  It is surreal because it will be her coming in her full authority and self-choice to be a part of this healing path and community.  Admittedly, she knows all of us and that makes it an easier choice but this was not always the case.

When we all decided to leave Canada nearly 3 years ago, Shai was firmly planted in her Vancouver world.  She had no desire to join us and go into the healing journey.  She was in a construction phase.  A time to individuate herself from us.  It is actually the way it really needs to be for someone in their late teens.  The difference is that we would not be in contact because the energy of our worlds would be so different and nearly impossible to relate to.  We both needed to go all into our worlds and lives and trust that if we were meant to be in healing and community together we would.  It was a very difficult process to be with as it is so not the norm in terms what is “normal” from our societal and familial conditioning.

My inner Dad had so many concerns and judgments about “leaving her behind”.  All the voices of my personal family and the collective family.  It was a codependency to self-image and also soul legacies of abandoning and being abandoned.  This provided a HUGE growth ground for both us.  She learned to navigate life on her own terms and being with her own challenges.  I got to feel very wounded aspects of myself that would be medicated with care-taking.  I got to feel myself as “not Dad”, but as a man on a journey to self-discovery.

Through our space apart we eventually got back in touch with each other sometime last year, but I couldn’t tell you how.  If we are all meant to be together in a soul family, the hows and whens just seem to arise.  We had touching and tear-laden conversations of reconnection and she began a process with Kalayna as she had been feeling a fairly empty emotional and spiritual life in Canada.  Being raised in SoulFullHeart like she was, makes it hard to really relate to a world that has a hard time feeling its own emotions, and she admitted it was hard for her to feel hers.

She eventually began to feel parts and was opening up a whole new world inside her that was not based on pleasing Mom or Dad, but about her own growth and bigness. Now, there are undoubtedly mom and dad pieces that we will be feeling together, but this is something she is taking on in  her own right.  It is a truly remarkable choice for someone at her age of 22.  She is a leader of a generation, along with Kalayna, and that is such a gift to us and the world.

Now we get to reinvent ourselves as father and adult daughter.  We get to heal the old dynamic to make way for a new more genuine one that is between two souls on a path together.  It is about teacher/student (of which she will be my teacher on many occasions), being mirrors to each other, and being in close intimacy as two human beings in reverence and soul bond.  We get to explore metasoul places together and I get to be a recipient of all her gifts, and she mine.  None of these were possible in the old ground as we were both capped in roles that we placed on each other.

This is a grand experiment as she will be reunited with her birth mother and father in a totally new dimension of experience.  Where does this happen on this planet?  It is so damn compelling and one that I am really excited to see where it leads.  There will be much to feel between us and that is what we are ready for.  Shai represents a new start for the SoulFullHeart community even as it too is all unknown how it will all develop. This is about redefining family from the heart up.   This a template for what could be for all birth families as each individual finds their own way and trusts the bond that exists to bring each back into more authentic heart and soul space if that is what is meant to be.

Much more to come in this new chapter of SoulFullHeart! Stay heart tuned.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Leaving The Family Dinner Table To Experience The Nourishment Of Love

By Jelelle Awen

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The family dinner table….you adjust to the awkwardness, the things left unsaid. You learn to hide the REAL feelings that come up as you pass the ‘this’ and the ‘that’. You ignore the tensions that ride and glide under every unspoken truth. You hope to remain unseen and safe in an effort to just ‘get through.’

So much you cannot share here…..as there is no room! You put it back in the closet then, far away, as it has no ‘place’. Your truth, your essence cannot be worn or shown. The food has more room then you do as it serves to distract from the disconnect that seems to season everything with flatness.

No wonder parts of you struggle to digest and to eat! No wonder you never really feel full! No wonder you are left wanting SO MUCH more than what you received! No wonder parts of doubt if you will EVER really get what you most want and really need!

So many meals left with rumbling heart still aching for the food of LOVE. So many meals sat with unexpressed fears and unshed tears. So many meals started with hopes and desires only to be left disappointed. So many meals with unacknowledged elephants sitting in the chairs.

Conforming and ‘fitting in’, putting on the mask and learn to wear it well…..avoiding anything ‘deep’ or ‘too heavy’, helping to steer the conversation away from the real or the true or the difficult to say out loud. Parts of you become experts at this dance and this ‘game’ because they HAVE HAD to be. This is survival of the ‘fittest’, those who can perform in this play acting out, those who can BE on this stage….. have the best chance of ‘making it’ and ‘succeeding.’

Yet, oh how WEARY of this are the parts of you that have shrunk to this place for so long! The masks are slipping off, half gone, one side unstrung and hanging loose. Your soul bright light is starting to SHINE through. Your truth is starting to BURST forward. You don’t want to be passed around so lightly any more You don’t want to be passed over. To be disregarded or seen without curiousity is becoming no longer interesting to you.

You are pushing away from this family dinner table. You are reaching your hand out to help parts of you leave it too that are ‘stuck’ there, even if it has been many years ago. You are opening your heart to hold the fears and tensions and anxieties that come up from leaving the ‘safety’ of this game. You are letting go of reacting to what other’s judge or think or feel about you.

You are open, now, to finding the table of your soul tribe. To taking in the meals of nourishing love in every bite, every exchange, every moment of BEing in the real. All is spoken out, revealed, and shared as THAT is what is most nourishing and, ultimately, most natural. Curiosity and reverence are passed around as the currency that spends between this family. All parts of you come forward to be seen, to be felt, and to be acknowledged.

THIS is the new earth experience of ‘family dinner’, of the gathering together where we offer new energy to a common ritual. THIS is the transition from the old and what so many of us have known and INTO the NEW, where realness is the spice and love flavors every bite.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

You Are Scattered, Yet You Are Coming Together: Message With Archangel Metatron

By Jelelle Awen with Archangel Metatron

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You are scattered, yes. You’ve needed to be displaced and scattered. You’ve been like a spilled bag of marbles, rolling and spinning away from each other, going in all different directions. Colorful fragments split off from the One Source of All, fragmented yet still connected.

In every one of those marbles of individual soul consciousness is a magnet. This magnet is your heart. The magnetic magnificence of your hearts BRING you back together. It creates a tug and a pull that cannot be denied.

As you strengthen the vibration of your heart’s frequency, as you RISE it UP through letting in and serving love….your draw increases, your magnetic pull becomes stronger. Those hearts and souls that vibrate in the same frequencies as you FIND you and you FIND them.

Clink…you come together, you join together again. Clink……two halves finding a whole. Yes, in romance this happens. Yes, in sacred friendship this happens. In ‘from birth’ connections this can happen and in brand ‘new’ connections too. Two halves finding a wholeness, a completion in the other that wasn’t possible alone.

As more and more clinks and coming together magnetic draws happen between souls in the same group and in the same circles…..their draw expands, exponentially, going out quantum to the Web of Life and to the All That Is. The radius of their love signal widens, broader and broader, deeper and deeper, further and further. This happens with two; this happens with three; this happens with four; this happens with more.

The more resonance and connection, the more just ‘getting each other’ and ‘being on the same page’, the stronger the influence OUT to and on the collective. So, it is better to wait for the STRONG pull and the deep resonance rather than settle for the lesser and the connections that work ‘only sometimes’ or ‘used to work and don’t anymore.’

Continuing in a coming together relationship where the pull isn’t strong like this and you don’t feel that Clink just delays the process of completeness. You are occupied then and your space taken up by the lesser connections and the NEW can’t come in as strongly. Sometimes you need the NEW to be coming in so that you can let go of the old. This can happen in the same time space, layering on top of each other, confusing your mind in a good way, yet opening your heart and soul.

ALL this is sacred and supported and blessed. The clinking and the pinging of two halves discovering the Universal HUM together. The clashing and the crashing too of falling away.

You have been scattered, yes, yet more of you are aching for unity again and to integrate the frequencies of your individuality with the collective. To find and discover your ‘me’ in the ‘we’.

BEing in the unknown of the process, trusting and surrendering to it AS a process is the support we offer you now. Feel how you are BEing loved in both the scattering and the returning. Feel how there are gifts, blessings, joys, miracles in this process…..even as they are difficulties, pains, lessons, and much learning.

You will all return eventually back to each other, back to the ultimate source of Divine love, be folded back into the love that you ARE again and BEcome ONE again. It is the natural cycle.

The how’s, where’s, and what’s are the mystery that unfolds. Even the Divine is a curious witness. THIS mystery is what makes life interesting and the reason for the split off from Divine Source in the ‘beginning,’ so to become this experiment in NEW experience of separation and returning back together again.~

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Peek-A-Boo You Coming Out Of Hiding During Awakening

By Jelelle Awen

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Peek-a-boo you….. you can come out of hiding, you can open your eyes beyond the edges of fleshy covering-up-full-view fingers.

Peek-a-boo you…..you can BE without masks, you can feel the air of the real on your unobstructed face.

Peek-a-boo you…..you can venture out of the closet, you can let your soul’s light open ALL the doors that have previously felt closed.

Peek-a-boo you….you can open your heart to intimacy in moments with others as you claim it with yourself.

Peek-a-boo you….you can take it ALL in without fear of being consumed or doomed or shamed as you learn to receive and to give.

They taught you to hide yourself because they felt more comfortable in the hiding. They gave you a mask to wear because they were safely tugged away behind their own. They transmitted energies of fear to you because that is what they inherited. They wanted you to close your heart down because theirs had been shut.

Yet, none of this is who or what they OR you really ARE. It is what has been taught and sought, sold and trained in the 3D world experiment. The currency of fear, non-vulnerability, protection, suppression is NOT the actual gold of anyone’s true capacity as a sacred human.

Seeing life with full vision. Feeling life with an opening heart. Awakening to life with your beaconing soul. This is YOU beyond the peek-a-boo games with life that ask you to hide. This is YOU beyond the masks that everyone seems to wear. This is you face-to-face, heart-to-heart, soul-to-soul, raw to life, and taking it ALL in without layers or false skins. This is you AS love without anything in the way of your experience of experience….this is you BEing the love that you ARE.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Moving Out Of Comfort Zones In Relationships And Livelihood/Jobs/Careers

By Jelelle Awen

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Time to move out of comfort zones…. Comfort zones are those places that have become familiar and perhaps beloved to parts of you and, so, are limited to offer the growth that you need and desire. Settling into a place that you feel comfortable CAN be about an ease, a sense of just being ‘you’ and seeing that reflected back to you. It also CAN be about shrinking yourself to fit in with your environment, relationships, jobs, the energies around you. This is more what I mean about ‘moving out of comfort zones.’ Shrinking yourself INside in order to feel more comfortable with the frequencies that you are experiencing on the outside is a sign of being in a comfort zone.
One of the biggest ways staying in comfort zones shows up is in relationships, especially with birth family, long-term romances and friendships. You may have an awareness of a ‘role’ you are playing, a mask you are putting on, an energy that comes up from inside in order to respond to these relationships. You may notice that you are hiding or obscuring or maybe even lying about your budding awakenings, spiritual perspectives shifting, emotional body realizations. It is like you are in the ‘closet’ and parts of you just aren’t ready to come out yet, as this closet has become a comfort zone. You may avoid conflict or confrontation with others who are becoming no longer resonant with you in order to stay in a comfortable place on both sides.
A comfort zone can also be about staying in a lone wolf phase rather than moving into more experience of resonant and supportive commUNITY. Parts of you become comfortable with being on your own, especially if you have disconnected from 3D-based relationships with family and friends. This phase may be a sacred and necessary one for you and yet, also, the deeper desires for resonant soul tribe commUNITY can be buried under the sense of comfort and safety that sets in from being and doing life alone.
In romantic relationships, there can be the deepest ties and binds of comfort zone relating. Even if there is a lot of conflict and tension in the relationship, THIS can become comfortable and familiar to parts of you. This seems to especially be true if these were the frequencies your parents’ relationship was in and you became used to it. Or, maybe in the relationship you have settled into a brother and sister connection where the hotness, body talk, soul resonance, mentally stimulating each other, hearts vulnerably sharing….all these frequencies have been shut down or greatly modulated or maybe never really were transactable in the relationship. Staying in a long-term romantic relationship for which you no longer feel in love with your partner in ALL domains of body, mind, soul and heart is one of the BIGGEST ways that shrinking into a comfort zone can manifest. Feeling the parts of you that are in the relationship and why can help to identify the deeper reasons and motivations for staying in it rather than moving on.
During the flash and crash of the Dark Night stages of awakening, it may become VERY obvious to you what has become a comfort zone for parts of you and what needs to be changed around that in relationships. The clashes start happening when parts of you can no longer show up for the make believe dance with others or hide what you are really feeling. You may burst out suddenly with your truth, long suppressed, and create shock waves in your world. Or, you may cut off suddenly with newly energized boundaries that may be long overdue. Or, you find a soul family group that supports your authentic self and seem to suddenly ‘overnight’ come out of the spiritual closet to all your friends and family.
In whatever ways this unveiling and moving out of the comfort zone in relationship happens, it seems to be a sacred and necessary aspect of the ascension process. As you ‘walk out’ of the old frequencies with others, you are actually inviting them into the NEW with your movements through the heart chord you share with them. The boundaries that you need to set become a compassionate and merciful invitation to ALL for exploration into a healthier and more mature ground of resonant connection. You are inviting them into the REAL and to be REAL about what they feel along with you, whether they can or are meant to show up for this or not. Your movement into this moves ALL as we are ALL connected in the Web of Life.
Higher vibrational relationships based in soul and heart resonance are not about getting comfortable and staying stuck there. They encourage and inspire you to keep growing, to keep arising, to keep BEing who you most authentically are. They are mirrors providing you with a sense of desire to share love, be vulnerable, go into deeper places of intimacy. They encourage emotional risk taking and do not ask you to shrink who you really are to ‘fit’ them. There is a sense of reverence in every moment about them and they are not ‘taken for granted’ or just assumed they will always be there. They arise anew as YOU arise anew or they complete when and if the ground of transaction runs out.
Another area where comfort zones can develop and limit your growth is in careers, businesses…whatever means you earn your livelihood from….. Even living off of disability or financial support from others (whether former spouses, parents, or the government) can indicate a shrinking going on and settling into a comfort zone. Because money can bring up so much anxiety for parts of us and lack of trust, they can cling at whatever means provide a steady stream to assuage that anxiety. Long-term careers and businesses that are more based in 3D frequencies are maybe obvious to you and you may even be consciously unhappy or unfilled in them with desires to change them. However, even spiritually-based income earnings for which you are sharing your gifts can become comfort zones if they are not challenging you anymore to grow and it is more ‘part of you’ that is doing and performing them rather than your authentic self.
Not earning any money or very little and being supported by others (especially if this requires you to shrink to keep the spiritually non-resonant relationship going) is another way this can show up. There is a sense of being disempowered to support your own needs and a deep codependency can develop here, especially for those souls who need to ‘move back home to live with parents’ for a phase. It is challenging in this situation to FEEL and BEcome your authentic self and embody more your higher self as you may be constantly feeling capped by a sense of now being dependent. Even if you don’t consciously feel this, it might be worth it to dig deeper to connect with the parts of you that no longer want to be in this situation and feel ‘capped’ by it. You might even decide to go ‘get a job’ just so you can move out on your own again or into resonant soul tribe commUNITY and on to the next phase of your growth.
As you FEEL what your soul purpose is here to serve love and you trust more that ALL your needs will get met in serving this purpose, you begin to feel how the previous ways and means of supporting yourself financially may be comfort zones that require you to shrink. Money is love energy so whatever way you are receiving it, that energy impacts you and your ascension/awakening process. Higher vibrational livelihood comes from aligning with your soul purpose to serve love here. Feeling in an abundant overflow of love from inside that overflows then in what you experience as outside abundance. Serving your soul’s vocation and sharing your soul gifts rather than ‘doing an occupation’ is a shift into higher vibrational expression that leads to much more joy, fulfillment, and growth.
The HIGH frequencies of love and light that are washing, flooding, and coursing into Gaia’s and our inner atmospheres are supporting these movements out of our comfort zones. The higher frequencies just can’t MOVE in the denser energies of codependence or shrinking to fit 3D vibrations. We aren’t meant to be in zones as those are just another form of compartment and our INFINITE LOVE energy wants to spread, to fly, to soar, to MOVE, to BE without limits. All of the zones that parts of us have created eventually become flooded with love, inviting us to move into our next places of challenge, risk, and growth….over and over until it is more about responding with the leading edge of our BEing to the next growth place rather than needing to move out of a previously trailing edge one based in a comfort zone.

 

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

Awakening, Releasing, and Rising

By Jelelle Awen

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Waking up and the shadows can SEEM longer, thicker, darker at first. It seems they are hiding everywhere…in the wars, the violence, the contentions, the fighting, both INNER and in the world. The outrage comes up in bubble bursts of tearful exclamations and you LEARN and SEE with new mind and new heart what is REALLY happening in the world. You draw the shades UP, pull the curtain aside….see the quaking man behind the big Oz show. You feel his fear that underlies everything he is offering and selling to you. You no longer want what he is offering; you begin to say, ‘no.’

It seems then you are saying ‘no’ more than you are saying, ‘yes’, as you have to release SO MUCH of what isn’t you anymore. Relationships go through dark nights of rumbles, crashings and burnings, quiet completings and concludings, drifting aways and falling outs. Every aftermath offers the possibility of a NEW You expression even as the mourning of the previous can be almost overwhelming to parts of you at times.

Your reflection keeps shifting, yet your soul’s frequencies are filling in the vacancies that come available……booking the rooms of your life with more SOUL clarities, SOUL purpose, SOUL essence, SOUL connections. Compartments between this area of your life from that area of your life flood with your SOUL’s desires. Hiding from ANYTHING, especially yourself, becomes uninteresting and, eventually, impossible.

You are turning on, lighting UP, going in. You are separating from the energies that drag and tug, from an externally focused world, and are FREED up from the inertia that this has created in you. As you rise, so do you shine and share, drawing others who are moving UP with you. You twirl into the stars of Infinite Possibilities together, creating a NEW world out of the bravery that comes from letting go and the beauty of a soul and heart that can truly let in LOVE. ~

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Living In Conscious Community: Teachings And Guided Meditation (Group Call Video)

By Jelelle Awen

Conscious Community…I have said, written, taught about this more in the last couple of months then I have in many years. Although I was living in it myself and offering it to others, the interest level to hear about conscious community didn’t seem to be there, or at least I wasn’t drawing it. Many souls seemed comfortable in their own separate lives, sometimes living in insolation with often buried deep feelings of loneliness. This seems to be a necessary and sacred lone wolf phase for some souls, as they let go of birth family conditioning, 3D-based relationships, and find then that they ARE alone when the dust clears. In this, they would rather be alone then experience a sense of shrinking or conforming to others. And, they perhaps need the space and time to discover themselves again, who they are and who they aren’t with their soul frequencies returning to help them remember.

The DESIRE for commUNITY seems to be growing though, which is also fueled by the UNITY energies available to us that are thinning the veils as we remember more what it is like to BE in unity consciousness as souls, Star BEing aspects, Angelic aspects, etc. Our connection to the Web Of Life and ALLness with each other is becoming more visceral to our consciousness in this density, where we chose as souls to forget it so we could experience what it is truly like to be individual consciousnesses.

I realized as I was teaching yesterday about this during our group call (recording above) is that the KEY piece to experiencing the higher vibrational frequencies of love and intimacy that are possible in community is through healing, awakening, and transformation of your INNER community through the maturation and healing of the emotional body. How can you have a NEW experience with others until you have had a NEW one with yourself with whole NEW levels of healthy heart frequencies becoming freed up in the process? We feel the inner community (in our SoulFullHeart way of life and process) to be aspects of parts of ourselves that are formed through undigested and unmoved energies in our emotional bodies. Personas, masks, layers are formed, consisting of tones of protection, performance, control, anxiety and many other frequencies that were modeled to us.

As you connect with your INNER community, so do you find yourself drawn to share with more self love overflow in community with others. There is more available inside you, less lack, fewer places of scarcity, and you want to SHARE this with others. At some point in your journey too, you realize that you need the mirror offered by others in soul resonant intimacy in order to SEE yourself and FEEL yourself. The opportunities for healing within community are exponential, along with the potential to serve love.

It feels like so many spiritual communities ‘fail’ or have many conflicts, issues, as the emotional body is not addressed directly and so wounded playouts are happening between the members. Unhealed father/mother projections, shame and unworthiness, control and manipulation from the leaders….all these dynamics can be present along with outright sexual, physical, and emotional abuse. Communities (just as sacred unions and relationships of ALL kinds) can SO push up our deepest shadow frequencies for healing, as they are MEANT to. If we haven’t engaged in our own process of connecting and healing these shadow places, then they come out in community in many ways as we don’t have the ability to transact in an emotionally conscious way.

Raphael Awen, Kalayna Colibri, and Gabriel Heartman have been my BEloved commUNITY for a few years now and I am so grateful and blessed for the mirror of ME that they offer of both leading and trailing edges. As I’ve mentioned before, we don’t experience conflicts, gossip, power plays, abuses or other shadow expressions playing out with each other as we are consciously connecting in ourselves to these frequencies, healing them, and also clearing these dynamics consciously as a group. We have ‘taken space’ from each other too when needed to heal any codependent grabs and also just to allow for more ‘me’ space. This feels idealistic perhaps, yet it IS our reality on an everyday basis and really does become the NEW normal. We are growing now as a community, drawing two others in the next few weeks to come live and BE with us, so NOW we get to feel what it is like to expand out in our love offerings with others and the whole new things that will be pushed up by this are exciting to feel.

Above is the recording of the group call from yesterday where I teach and share about conscious community, moving from codependence to interdependence, inner community healing, and my experience of conscious community. The others share as well about their experience in SoulFullHeart community, along with sharings from two other souls who are joining us here soon, and the process they went through in coming to that decision, letting go of birth family, relationships, geographies to follow their desires for community.

Also, at about 34 minutes, I lead a guided meditation with Archangel Metatron to introduce you to your 13 ascension chakras and your 5D sacred human ‘violetprint’ (higher frequency blueprint). You also journey to Gaia’s orbit to take in the NEW 5D grids over Gaia and to experience swimming in the Web of Life and Oneness AS you connect to your individuality as well. This is to help you create a bridge from your ‘I’ consciousness to the collective one.

Our next group call is on Sunday, July 9th at 11:11am and is focused on Sacred Union, with Raphael and I offering teachings and a guided meditation about Sacred Union with self AND with a mate. Here’s more info if you would like to join us:https://www.facebook.com/events/275463096260878

Here is more about the process of awakening and healing that we offer in SoulFullHeart through private sessions, group calls, and BEing in community together: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Forming Interconnected Grids Of Love

By Jelelle Awen with Metatron

 

 

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Imagine living in DEEP connection and WITH/NEAR BEloveds who resonate with you on so many levels, whether with one or with many. Feel how it would be to connect to conscious commUNITY together for which every soul is an “I” yet also part of the whole. Breathe in this sense of being seen, felt, responded to, nothing to hide, BEing truly yourself and authentic WITH others in every moment.

Our souls KNOW this is possible as we have BEEN in this unified consciousness more than the 3D one. As we integrate and access our karma experiences from other lifetimes, our soul frequency aligns to the Divine vibration that LIVES in us all.

Our hearts FEEL this is possible as our desire for connection, intimacy, bonded-ness beats and pulses there. As we heal and integrate wounded aspects within our emotional body, our heart frequency aligns to the Divine vibration that BEATS in us all.

Our minds THINK this is possible when they are deconditioned from a 3D world that teaches disconnection, separation, being overly independent and overly self sufficient too. As our minds expand and let our hearts and soul lead more and more, our mental frequencies align to the Divine Vibration that EXISTS in us all.

Merkabahs, light vehicles, are created from this energy of unifying yet independent awakening souls coming together. These group Merkabahs are a powerful force for change and transformation. These group Merkabahs allow for the transportation to OTHER dimensional consciousnesses, merging more with our star roots and origins of One Mind. They energize the New Earth commUNITY possibilities as we arise into our sacred humanity. They offer the living out experiment of choosing love over fear and serving love from this place.

The possibilities for healing go quantum and exponential as each desirous heart and soul bright light networks with another and another, forming an interconnected grid of LOVE. A vibration of resonance travels out into the Web Of Life, drawing, inviting OTHERS to respond to the call. Those that are meant to and are ready respond to this grid of LOVE, overcoming fears that may be there as they tap into the source of collective support and draw!

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Coming Together: Living in Conscious Community, Soul Family Reunions, And Forming of Soul Purpose Networks

By Jelelle Awen

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Urges toward unification and to be in community with other souls may be coming up for you lately as it seems to be increasing in so many of us it seems. Reunions with soul family members in which you feel like you’ve known each other for a very long time or through many lifetimes is happening much more frequently and rapidly, leading to fast unions and life changing geography shifts. Networks are forming based on frequencies of serving love that most match and fit each soul, as synchronistic events and connections bring those together who are meant to find each other.

These gloriously high energies of PURE love and light available to us now offer us a reminder of our galactic origins of collective, shared mind, and communal living experiences. We have spent much more of our soul’s existence within a unified consciousness then in the separated one that we experience in 3D reality, which we chose on the soul level to experience. We chose to experience the forgetting of telepathic and non-dualistic forms of communication, even as it is most natural for our souls. We chose to put a veil of amnesia over our remembering of Star BEing family, where fluid access of information and experience is available to ALL as a collective one mind download.

After living and existing separately and in insolation in so many ways, we are being invited to feel what ‘conscious community’ might look like and BE. To allow our desires for this to come up and out. To feel the fears that may come in parts of us to imagine this possibility. Our 3D conditioning is to remain self sufficient, taking care of our own needs, and our immediate families needs to the exclusion of anyone else. 3D living has supported the illusion of separation, especially with the 3D economic system of separate incomes, with many souls needing to work very hard in order to provide their own livelihood.

More and more bright light souls are gathering together and coming together is the picture that I was shown today during meditation with Metatron. He pointed out the bright beacons of energy (that looked like glowing dots on a map) that are vibrating from the grids over Gaia. These bright lights represent soul groups finding each other and living in as much PURE love as possible as they are also growing, learning, and awakening still as humans, especially related to emotional body maturity in relationships. He showed me the vortexes of energy created by these soul groups networking with each other, whether they are in local geography together (very BRIGHT energy then) or connecting virtually for now. These groups radiate a grid of unity out to the local surroundings around them and also out into the collective consciousness Web of Life, as he called it. We forget in our 3D amnesia that we are connected to the Web of Life WITH each other in all ways at all times, until we raise our consciousness enough to BE this more and more.

Metatron offered that even if it is only two souls coming together in sacred union or sacred friendship, their connection when based on higher frequencies of healthier love transaction, has an exponential impact on the Web of Life and the collective unconscious. And, of course, the MORE souls that unify in soul purpose, the MORE love energy is able to be radiated out as they support and enliven each other. He then offered the flower of life figure from sacred geometry as an example of this. A central source of LOVE radiating out at different degrees and angles, with all of it ultimately interconnected. This is also what he has offered to me previously about Divine Source radiating out from the center of the ‘flower’, with the Archangels as the next degree of closeness out from it, then the angels, then spirit guides/Ethereal Beings, then us, etc. I could more FEEL what this meant than I am able to explain it to you in the moment through words……if you meditate on the flower of life symbol, you will probably be able to feel what was being offered as it LIVES in our DNA to be connected in this way to each other and is the blueprint of our original birthing as a fragment out of Divine Source.

The desire to live in like-mindedness, like-heartedness, like-soulness IS growing as more souls move out of a necessary lone wolf phase and into higher frequency desires for intimacy. As you awaken and go through the process of sorting through your relationships and healing birth family woundings in your emotional body, you become more drawn to higher consciousness relationships based on soul resonance and heart vulnerability. Intimacy with yourself then leads to a desire for intimacy with others that is just as nourishing, not less. You are just not as drawn to the traumas and dramas, codependent cycles, games and manipulations, etc. that are a 3D-based reality in relationships of all kinds. You would rather be alone than in ANY of that and, so, maybe you were OR still are. This may have been a very sacred lone wolf phase for you as you let go of what WASN’T you in your social body (which I feel represents our ultimate connection to unity consciousness) and could then feel the emotional body connections and wounded hookups that were playing out. The ultimate healing and growth opportunities in community are exponential, however, when compared to being alone as so many new triggers and reactions get pushed up in a new way.

In the now, we are being invited to feel into NEW EARTH commUNITIES and what these may look and feel like. Beyond the wounded frequencies of settle and shrink in so many of our birth family experiences, we can imagine and experience now too more health, more resonance, more mutual growth, AND more service of love when we come together and join our lives with each other in deepening ways. Serving love is the ultimate purpose of all this coming together in community and if it isn’t, then it is coming from a lower vibrational frequency of understandable codependence. At our most leading edge, our species is evolving from codependence to interdependence, where each “I” is respected in their sovereignty and individual will, even as they lean into intimacy with others. Our capacity to mature and heal our emotional bodies, where the deepest roots of codependency exist, seems to be KEY to experiencing this sense of being together yet not clinging to each other; bonded yet not bound; claimed yet not caught.

I have lived in this kind of community for many years and it has been a crucial and vital aspect of my awakening journey, even when it was just Raphael and I in sacred union mateship. In SoulFullHeart, we live in commUNITY together and interact many times on a daily basis with each other. We live in the same apartment building in the moment, yet in separate units as we’ve found this allows for individual autonomy WITH community experience. We have shared a ‘pool’ of community money with the four of us (soon to be six!) for a few years now, and individual income goes into this pool. This helps hugely with anxieties and tensions about money as we hold the decisions and choice points around money together in community decision making. We are connected and united by the values, way of life, and process ground of SoulFullHeart and serving this to others and this allows us to have a very common ground and resonance with each other, a matched vibrational frequency that comes from this process. There are no unresolved conflicts, problems, fights, gossiping…all is brought out and vulnerably as needed. It is still an experiment for us, of course, and as our community grows as other souls are drawn to join us (at whatever degree and depth they do), NEW issues will come up needing to be responded to and resolved. This feels like SUCH an interesting crucible to me, though, and I am very excited to live into more of the community co-leader aspect of my soul expression here.

Coming together in community to heal the family wounds, to remember our unity origins, to network in support, and to SERVE LOVE is a sacred phase of our journey here into embodying our sacred humanity and one that we are being greatly supported to go into, live out……FEELing and HEALing as we go!

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We will be talking more about the SoulFullHeart way of life, community, process, etc. during a group call with ALL of us this Saturday at 11:11am CST. This is a wonderful opportunity to get a taste of us as a community if you feel drawn to what we are offering: https://www.facebook.com/events/1888602498020451

Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.