The Veils Are Thin: Feeling The Hell Within

A few weeks ago I was invited to move from being a SoulFullHeart facilitant to become a facilitator of this work and was offered to become an Apprentice Facilitator by Jelelle as there was interest expressed in sessions by people who are not fluent enough in English and need a German/language or cultural bridge. Yet also because it felt like it was time in my process and the embodiment of the process/lifestyle after all these years of applying it inside and out is there too. I was invited to step into my bigness, soul purpose and leadership.

I didn‘t have a reaction to this at all when she first asked me how I would feel about it and I actually felt very calm, centered and that it was time to step up and claim my next place of service, growth and my hard earned bigness and also to move from receiving to giving back and sharing what I had learned and how it served and changed me. That was a sign for me that the timing was right for this.

Then the time came and I got my first two facilitants and sessions and I had major rumbles happening inside of myself that wreaked havoc in my entire being and soul. The themes have been mainly not being good/advanced/knowledgeable enough which has felt extremely disempowering, crippling even, I have been experiencing a heightened state of reactivity, perfectionism and a core unworth being pushed up and dominating my experience of life and I have been feeling like I wasn‘t able to access and feel my heart either.

I have felt a total block of my intuitions, my mental clarity and ability to make intuitive connections and of my clairs and overall spiritual and emotional capacity. I could feel a suction and seducing into 3D money earning vs. moving into soul purpose and an activation of the lower 4D matrix within myself as well, bleeding through with abduction memories accompanied by feelings of panic & terror and migraines.

It was all a big quagmire of reactions, blocks, waves of self-doubt, inner fusions/enhancement of trauma-bonds between parts, a feeling of being lost, confused and hopeless and a thick blanket of forgetfulness/amnesia put on top of it all.

At the same time I was also realizing and feeling that the ‘old’ ways didn‘t work for me any more either and haven‘t for a while. The independent freelance online teaching job that has been so empowering and freedom-giving, financially and personally, that comes as little 3D anchored as possible and has allowed me to build a life that is very sovereign and abundant in many ways, yet ultimately isn‘t fulfilling my heart or soul and is not my purpose this life.

Or my beloved TV shows that I like to watch, that have provided me with a sense of friendship and family when I had none and even belonging, particularly in my Lone Wolf phase. Yet realizing that I had outgrown them and that they actually serve to cap me on how deeply (or not) I can let in actual beings in my life/(soul) family that I live in close proximity to.

This leadership activation moved me into deeper layers of mourning and grieving the old ways and bits and pieces of the old world that I had lived in for so long this life that haven‘t been grieved before and now needed to be felt in order to move on and up.

I started feeling too that there was a big part inside of me that does not yet believe in a world that is not a hell. That part has unplugged from the 3D and lower 4D matrix significantly, yet hasn’t quite turned the corner on actually being settled and home in an inner heaven and I could feel there’s still more unplugging left to do.

That part has been living in a void space for a very long time and it needs the bridging and time it needs to feel through all that. That turning the corner part of the process, the moving from hell to heaven, felt very significant for me to feel into as I want to be able to offer that ‘turnaround’ in session space as well and only my authentic felt through and lived in experience can provide that.

Recently I have been feeling how all of these themes that I mentioned above have been trickling in inside of myself, leaking like an open matrix leak right into my inner world and flooding it, giving me tastes of pieces that need healing, yet not letting me into them and actually feel them and thus heal them and poisoning myself and my parts. That‘s when I knew it was my Gatekeeper aspect and I needed to connect with her directly.

The Gatekeeper aspect can be a very elusive and hard to track energy inside of yourself, even insidious, a part wants to say. They just sneak into your consciousness, infiltrate it and you don‘t even realize it’s them as they can ‘come through‘ other parts, masking and veiling themselves. They can be a sorceress that way.

But only when connecting directly with them and feeling things directly with them, instead of feeling them through other parts, can they actually be helped.

When I connected with her in meditation space directly this morning (as I had grown tired of this immense suffering loop inside of myself and the lack of care from her towards me and my parts), I was able to feel her directly in her pain and suffering. A pain that sometimes can’t even be named, just felt. But upon providing that space for her and also inviting Divine Mother into it, as I could feel I needed help with this one and felt that I was a bit out of my depth with her too, she was able to unravel into that space and really let me feel with her the source of her pain.

There was a question of ‘Why even bother and go into all these dark and painful places that need healing when it could be that we come here again and have to do it all over again?’ I was feeling with her the feeling of gaining Love, living it, getting used to it and then losing it all again in the blink of an eye.

And the realization of the overwhelming darkness she has been used to and living in that has been her whole world and not being able to see the light, the love, the goodness, the safety, the empowerment.

That darkness HAS been her entire world. Not having a bigger picture sense of what the world could be beyond that darkness and already IS is a deep ground of suffering for that part. In a way, it’s more painful for parts to move out of the darkness and into love if there’s a chance of losing it again. So they do everything to keep you in the darkness, in the pain, in the suffering and block your growth, your bigness and the love and intimacy you have in your life.

That felt like one deep source of all those reactions and blocks I had experienced. That explained the resistance to announcing my facilitation offer, to even feel into it for myself and what and who I can and want to serve and to out myself more through writings and videos. If that is the fear of part of me, then it will do everything to keep me from stepping into my bigness and carrying this healing offer into the world because this work has the capacity to move you from hell to heaven.

I have come to realize that one of the antidotes to this is feeling your own true desires and intentions. That is what has the capacity to pierce through thick veils of suffering like that, and claiming those desires over and over again, along with your bigness of heart and soul. Yet, make no mistake, you will be tested on those! You will have to fight through thick layers of crazy-making self-doubt, self-judgment and self-punishment, over and over again, and claim your power and bigness of heart and soul over and over and over again. Recognizing strategy after strategy and realizing, yes, this part IS doing that, even if it wants to keep you in the dark and self-doubt about that too. But then also realizing it is done out of a deep fear and to have compassion for that yet it can also have tones of not caring for you and your parts and they need your protection, especially the younger ones.

Finding a balance between setting boundaries, compassion and truth finding and telling with that aspect has been the way to navigate this for me.

Another antidote has been sharing my heart with my close circle of beloveds that I live in close proximity to whenever I felt to retract or when self-doubt was eating me alive. The reflections/mirrors of my bigness and value and appreciation for me and my process from soul family has been a crucial aspect for me in moving through all this and in keeping to move through ongoingly. And now not only to share within the circle of my beloveds but ‘publicly’ too, feels like, to template transparent and vulnerable leadership.

Even though I did not have an answer for her in that moment this morning and all I could do was sit with her and Mother in that feeling, without doubting it or wanting to make it better or perhaps even feeling not being able to make it better, that feeling space alone was so powerful to move her out of that stuck place she was in and move her a bit more into trust, hope and possibility, and I could even feel her own desire perk up a little bit. Quite quickly I was able to feel Mother’s love swooshing in and taking over the space, a space that was filled with doubt and suffering before. Through feeling through that doubt and that painful feeling/question, that space got freed up to now be claimed by and through Love and the Divine.

That would be another antidote, I’m just feeling, to fully receive one part’s truth, feel it fully with that part, totally receiving it in your heart and just feeling all the textures it comes with, without trying to have an answer or wanting to mitigate it somehow. Acknowledging where that part is, being ok with that and not feeling like it ‘should’ be in a place it’s not. LET it BE TRUE.

This does not mean that this ‘issue’ is healed now, that question is still not ‘answered’ and it feels like it‘s going to be an ongoing exploration. But I can feel some more air inside of myself now, a trust that has grown inside, a bit more Love moved in inside and more energy and clarity freed up about next choices and how to navigate them. Plus I feel more intimate with and connected to this part of me now that has been making life choices and navigation really difficult for me so far. I have gotten more intimate with myself today and this part, which then can express more on the outside as well.

Love,

Bey Magdalene

I offer 1:1 sessions in German and English. If you feel drawn to explore the possibility of working with me, I do offer a free intro call as well where we can talk about the process and how it may serve you and if it is the right time and approach for you. You can book a free intro here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

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*** Bey Magdalene is a SoulFullHeart Apprentice Facilitator and Community Member. She offers sessions in German and English. For more information on community, videos, group calls, and 1:1 sessions with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator, visit soulfullheart.org.

Ode To The 3D Self

I have been feeling recently my 3D Self emerging out of the intensity of the 10/10 portal and eclipse passage. She is represented by the entire waveform of my birth name, Bianca Gieber, and has come out of the peaking of/immersion in the 3D/4D matrix that I had been feeling inside of myself that I shared about in my last post. Besides her, I have also been feeling my Reptilian aspect again, as both these aspects are actually intertwined with each other and I could feel that wrapping up in each other when feeling both of them. Feels like these two energies have been behind my Gatekeeper aspect that I had been sharing about and she had been protecting my 3D Self all along, with so much care for her.

When I started feeling my 3D Self, I felt a lot of shame/self-hatred, a filtering of life through the lens of it not being good/safe, self-doubt, unworth and that there is no goodness in life, that life is difficult and everything has to be fought for and that she has always been alone, left alone, especially by the Divine. That way, being a huge aspect of my Lone Wolf that was reflected in corresponding life choices. With that filter applied, the goodness that had been in my life, was not able to be received and seen as such but rather made into something bad or rather not real. A very painful mechanism.

I have been feeling with her the legacy of my birth name, particularly the last name, that is carrying all these frequencies and she has worn them like a very thick coat. But I could also feel that all of those frequencies/layers are not really her, her true essence.

I was able to feel with her her own rich and deep connection to the Divine, and specifically to Mother Mary, who she and my entire soul seem to have a special connection with.

In her connection with Mary, she came through as clearly and deeply as never before, yet in such a real and grounded way and with authentic emotions. The experience I’m having now with Mary is much more personal and intimate. The connection I have had before with her, as Bey Magdalene, was a bit more airy/lofty, but my 3D Self feels like is the uplink to a real and grounded embodiment of Mother.

Through her struggle of not feeling the goodness in life and feeling almost in a quandary about her loyalty to that feeling, the very clear and visceral message/intuitive feeling came through that Mother IS an aspect of me as well and deserves to be felt just as much as it is necessary to feel the difficult things.

The reunion between her and Mother was very deep and teary, both weeping over having missed each other and finally having found each other again. My 3D Self was claimed as a Divine Daughter and Mary apologized to her too that it has been so difficult for her and that she wasn‘t able to feel her and connect with her, even though she has been right there all along, all my life.

The forgiveness frequencies between these two have been so powerful and have had a powerful impact on my spiritual and emotional well-being.

Her question and lament, why she had been plugged in so deeply into the matrix, has been answered inside of myself too. Along with the pain that, despite being a 3D Self, she never really felt that she was particularly good at it/equipped for it. It seems that she is needed as an ambassor to those in similar circumstances and if she would have been really good at navigating 3D life, she might not have awoken. Yet I could feel with her how this dimension/reality has always felt strange to her and that she didn’t really believe it herself.

A deep filtering of life through compartmentalization is falling away as a result as well as a need to ‘be by the book’ and a new flow and responding to every moment is coming online and ready to be embodied.

I can feel her letting in that reframe and new Divine/Soul purpose and how it is helping her heal her relationship to the matrix, her family and geographical origins that were both VERY dense as well as heal her relationship to the Divine.

I could feel so much care coming online in her that she has always had, yet had to numb because it was too painful to care and there hasn‘t been a container/energy to be able to digest all this care with up until now.

This care coming online now and my heart coming online through it in a much deeper way is such a gift that I‘m getting from and through her that I‘m so grateful for and that is so needed too as I have been wanting to feel my care for the world and humanity in these unprecedented times that we have never seen before. Yet a care that is grounded in and answered by the Divine inside of myself, to be able to digest and hold the pain too that comes with this care.

I can also feel an interesting relationship between my Inner Teenager and my 3D Self that is just starting to get a bit clearer. It feels like she has been a bit of a reluctant parent to her, yet also protecting her out of care for her. I have been wondering why I hadn‘t been more rebellious as a teenager, yet my 3D Self offered that it just was too dangerous to do that, with such a dark and abusive birth mother, whose energies and transmissions she had been taking in and absorbing over the years, shaping her, ‚messing her up‘ to quote her. So she felt it was much safer to comply, even if it was very begrudgingly.

I feel my 3D Self came in/was formed in my early teenage years as well, as a response to those very challenging and dense energies on the outside. That was also around the age my 3D Self had started to reach for alcohol to numb that darkness and abuse that came her way in order to numb it/cope with it. Yet only feeling that pain and answering it with Divine Love, will actually bring healing to it while anything else just covers it up.

Now that she has been felt and freed up more and her presence/existence deeply acknowledged and recognized as very much needed in order to complete me, miraculous shifts have been occurring inside of myself, as she is an important aspect of myself that had been anchored in 3D and thus was resisting to move into soul purpose with me and partake in the goodness frequencies in my life so far. Only through connecting with these aspects of us that feel they cannot partake in the goodness, the spirituality, the soul purpose expression is how we are actually able to do and embody that.

She is an ambassador in her own rights and we already started that journey in meditation space this morning when she and Mary organized an apparition in my hometown in Austria that is so dense, in so much pain and that doesn’t seem to have a lot of hope and Divine Inspiration. Casting those beautiful Divine frequencies over my hometown felt so healing and felt like it inspired something in its residents and at least planted a seed in them. A remembrance of their own Divinity.

Here is a meditation to connect with your 3D Self.

I’m so curious to go more into her relationship to my Reptilian as well as my Inner Teenager as I can feel it is a very rich ground. Some of that will be covered in today’s group call, I’m sure, that will be about the Inner Teenager. I can already feel more teenage sass coming online through connecting with my 3D Self and healing all the layers of pain that have been guarding her heart. I feel her off to the Galactic too, being a galactic ambassor and Galaxy trotter, with the Cosmos being her home.

Here is a guided meditation video to begin the connection to your Inner Teenager.

Raphael and Jelelle will be exploring the world of the Inner Teenager in our group call today at 5:00pm GMT/London/Lisbon & Noon EST. We will also offer a guided meditation to connect with your Inner Teenager, deepen the healing between you, opening up the bond that is just ‘waiting’ for you. More info to offer donation to attend on our website or on Facebook

Love,

Bey Magdalene

*** Bey Magdalene is a SoulFullHeart Apprentice Facilitator and Community Member. She offers sessions in German and English. For more information on community, videos, group calls, and 1:1 sessions with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator, visit soulfullheart.org.

Energy Update: Travelling Through The Dimensional Tunnel & Anchoring In A Higher Frequency

We have been immersed in the matrix reality for a long time, for all this life and others too. We have inhaled, ingested, eaten up and lived in and for 3D matrix entertainment, food, music, school, jobs, relationships, families, geographies. The recent eclipse passage really highlighted that and brought it up and out even more, helping it peak for us to see, feel, heal and let go of, organically.

The subsequent 11/11 Portal that we are still riding the waves of, brought in and out Divine connection and support to balance out the matrix peaking, bringing with it waves of goodness, Love and an illumination of your bigness, worth and courage. It is a confirmation of everything you have held, felt, said no to and moved into. A presentation, recognition and validation of all the choices you have made that brought you to where you are today and really letting in that courage it took to make these choices and to let in the internal and external goodness they brought.

It is illuminating your bigness and inviting you to see it, feel it, trust it, claim it, own it. It is highlighting your journey this life (and others), your inner process and healing and inviting you to feel into it for yourself and really feel and acknowledge how far you have come and the qualities you are embodying now that used to be desirable for you and you set out to ‚achieve‘ all those years ago.

Our entire being is upgraded at the moment, travelling through a dimensional tunnel, from one dimension/frequency/reality to a higher one. This is affecting the physical, emotional, energetic and spiritual body.

It can be accompanied by feelings of dizziness/lightheadedness and a clearing of a fogginess but can also push up and flush out detox reactions like headaches/migraines, nausea and other physical pains and unease.

On an emotional level, it can bring up and out old ways of relating to things, relationships, money, careers and yourself. This is where I feel the main focus is on at the moment, the self and our relationship to ourselves, invited by the current energies.

Spiritually, previously thick and tight veils are lifting which can even be felt viscerally while they dissolve, matrix plugs and chakra coils are loosening and falling out, consciousness caps are coming off, slowly being felt through and opening out new vistas of seeing, feeling and understanding the world.

Energetically, you might feel an aversion/sensitivity to any kind of 3D/mainstream energies, situations, foods and entertainment.

Current energies are also inviting us to feel important questions for ourselves – How do we see ourselves? What does the esteem of ourselves look and feel like? How do we relate to our shadow? And even more interestingly, how do we relate to our light, our bigness, our purpose? Are we ready to claim it and move on and up in life with our bigness of heart and soul, our connection to the Divine and our self-worth as basis for it? Can we allow our bigness to come into the space, lean into it and lead the way for us?

We can bridge to the parts and aspects of us that can‘t quite claim and let in that bigness yet and perhaps even feel a loyalty to the smallness, the struggles, old ways of seeing themselves and you/others/the world, old ways of relating and being in life. To these parts, an upgrade like that can be really jarring, life-threatening and so they resist it. But with Love and care and through choosing and feeling them, and with Divine support, they can come with you, into their own higher individual expression and anchor in a new reality as well. A reality of possibilities, support, safety, love, self-worth and purpose.

It is the death of 3D consciousness, represented and broadcast by our 3D Selves and the 3D/lower 4D matrix. It is an awakening to yourself and rebirth as a Divine Being with purpose, which all of your struggles, questions, intuitions, (self-) doubts, your journey and process are a part of and essential to it.

There are many souls who are choosing a physical body death at this time as well as it is a mercy to their consciousness expression/bandwidth.

I, along with my parts and aspects, went throught the dimensional tunnel myself yesterday morning in meditation/check-in which I could feel as a visceral journey through it. Coming out the other side, I felt anchored in trust and Divine connection and lingering doubts and fears had disappeared.

Through that, I was able to connect to my 3D Self this morning in a much clearer way as there was a very palpable differentiation between her and I and I could really be there for her, talk with her, feel her and offer reflections and guidance. She had been anchored in a sort of matrix desert/void as she had been holding space for so many strong/intense lower 4D parts and aspects over the years and through that got anchored in that dimensioin as well.

Through broadcasting my heart, my love for her and Divine Mother’s Love, the fog/amnesia/spell/veil around her head that caused her to feel very far away from me and like she couldn’t reach me, even though she could hear me from afar, dissolved and she could feel me and my heart and move into it. From that place, any kind of digestion that is needed, can happen in a transmutative, safe and effective way.

Another aspect of the current energies seems to be that if you have been and are really digging deep into your shadow, are not afraid of it and don‘t ignore it, but tend to it with patience, care, curiosity and boundaries, now is the time where the Divine will just scoop you up as a result of that too and claim you and not let you go back into your smallness, if that is your intention and desire. It is helping you anchor in a higher consciousness, from which you then can venture out into the shadow, but at the end of the day, come back to that home base of Divine connection and garden within you.

While my parts had been more anchored in lower 4D frequencies over the course of my process, I can now feel a re-anchoring in and reclaiming of the Divine connection and garden within me. I can feel a ready-ing for soul purpose that even has different expressions, feels like. One expression feels to be a Galactic ambassadorship to different kinds of species and races, like the inventors/creators of the blueprint for the false med narrative/agenda, amongst others. Along with the matrix ambassadorship that arose organically in my process over the years.

I‘m also feeling a re-balancing for myself of light and darkness within, like scales that are bouncing up and down and eventually coming together in the middle. It is an in and out of the old consciousness and constant claim of my Divine connection and nature. There‘s still a bit of a power struggle/grab going on inside by aspects who want to keep me safe by keeping me small and in doubt/fog which in turn calls for more Divine connection to keep having a bigger energy in the room that is humbling to these aspects.

Love,

Bey Magdalene

I offer 1:1 sessions with women in German and English.

Raphael and Jelelle held a livestream on Facebook the other day about what‘s currently moving in the world in regards to the false med narrative and how we digest it in the SoulFullHeart community:

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*** Bey Magdalene is a SoulFullHeart Apprentice Facilitator and Community Member. She offers sessions in German and English. For more information on community, videos, group calls, and 1:1 sessions with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator, visit soulfullheart.org.

Homecoming: The SoulFullHeart Equinox Gathering

We just completed a 5 day gathering here in Portugal with 8 very beautiful and very unique souls. A gathering that is turning out to be a Homecoming. A Homecoming to the true self, to community of heart and soul and to the Divine.

At the pristine waters of Fraga da Pena

This Equinox portal is a significant one, I feel, bringing into balance what has seeked to come into balance for so long inside and out. I’m feeling so many significant movements and shifts inside of myself, big and small and everything in between.

I feel an expansion of heart and feeling of my and with my heart‘s true essence. The heart expanding to be able to let in the love that has been here all along but can only be felt now by the heart’s true essence. The heart expanding to be able to be more Love, share it and receive it. And just as I type this, the Youtube playlist the algorithm created for me based on my music preferences dials in ‘Song for a Pure Heart’ by Mei-lan.

I am seeing with new eyes as I have claimed my light, my true essence, my true self over and over again in the midst of darkness. Seeing the same things with different eyes makes the same things feel very different which is beautiful, exciting, new and trippy at times.

I see the Dark coming into balance with the Light, dancing, coalescing, flowing into and with each other. Both are needed and none of them can be denied any more, battled or resisted, just seen, felt, loved, claimed.

I am accessing my true desires and my Queen’s true frequencies that are just moving into the space now, effortlessly, gracefully, easily. No labour or self-discipline needed. Just an ongoing sorting out and through what and who I really am and what I’m not, what is of the matrix (in lack of a better description) is falling away.

I am witnessing a moving from detail to the bigger picture, from smallness to bigness, from Masculine to Feminine, from hell to heaven, from muddy and murky waters within to clarities and seeing clearly, from self-focus / self-centeredness / privacy to connection and sharing with others, leaving the necessary cocoon/incubator space to open up and unfold like a blossoming flower to share and receive.

Everything I have consciously felt over the last few years and looked at inside of myself, part after part, layer after layer, is coming together in my heart space, finding a home within, integrating and moving into a higher consciousness.

There is an opening up to and receiving of higher frequencies, wanting them, needing them, desiring them and feeling worthy of them, even as bits and pieces of unworth are still leaving my being.

It is a remembering of and homecoming to my true Feminine’s essence and embodying of it. Flow, sensuality, creativity and inspiration moving in.

A new maturity uncovered that isn’t really new, just had been covered over before, revealing patience, wisdom and a connection to a deep womb space and feminine presence.

Where we went together as a community in the gathering were the realest and most vulnerable places we have gone to so far and it felt like such nourishing food for me. I love every single soul for their brave, real and heart-felt contribution and presence. So much healing exchanged between all of us and quantumly. We need each other. I will be unpacking the gifts from this for days and weeks to come.

We will have our next gathering in December for the Winter solstice, as well as ongoingly every equinox/solstice, and are inviting souls who feel drawn to regular sessions with one of our facilitators. We could all feel ’empty’ seats in the room reserved for souls joining us in the very near future. If that is you, do get in touch with one of us and claim your seat ❤️

Love, Bey

Bey Magdalene is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant, Facilitator-In-Training, and Community Member. For more information on community, videos, group calls, and 1:1 sessions with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator, visit soulfullheart.org

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Jelelle and Kasha building housing for the pixies

Introducing Bey Magdalene: SoulFullHeart Community Member and Facilitant

A fun and joyful day out in Coimbra, a sweet and lively university town near us

I have been in the orbit and a part of SoulFullHeart for three years now, though I initially calibrated for six months before I had my first session with Jelelle. One day she just showed up on my Facebook and taking in one post after the other, I quickly became convinced she was speaking directly about me and to me at the same time. Over the years I’ve had the unique opportunity and experience of being facilitated by every single Facilitator in SoulFullHeart. It was very clear from the beginning that “this” was “it” for me. I finally found what I had been looking for all my life. In just how many ways that is true, I’m learning now every day as a part of the community in the physical.

Raianna dressed up at Halloween

I joined Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, and Kasha to live with them on a campground in northern Portugal at the beginning of August this year. About a month and a half ago, we moved to central Portugal, to quite a remote little village called Folques. While the campground was sort of a ‘honeymoon phase’ and sniffing each other out, the new phase brought a lot of intense initiations for me, inner and outer, which I bravely walked out and am now getting to the other side of. A week and a half ago, Raianna, who has been connected to SoulFullHeart for many years, joined us all here in Portugal too after completing her life in Canada. For Halloween, we dressed up and had a little gathering.

Gabriel & Kasha dressed up for Halloween

The veils are thin right now and for me personally, I particularly feel that in my ongoing process of differentiating from my persona-based ‘Bianca part’, as the current energies push up so much illumination of her and support for me to keep differentiating. For a number of years now I have been doing ‘parts work’ with SoulFullHeart and working with parts of the self. Over the years I have discovered and felt many parts of myself, differentiated from them and integrated them. This has led me to a new and deeper layer of this work, held by the soul family container and the relationship with myself. It has led me to recognize that ‘Bianca’, my birth name, had become a part herself, and a corresponding new energy had been discovered and cultured through all this inner work. This new energy/being is able to hold all parts of myself, soul explorations/metasoul aspects, soul family community, and life choices. I have decided to call this new arising energy, ‘Bey Magdalene’. One version of the name ‘Bianca’, which is Italian and means white/pure/bright light, is ‘Beyonca’ (same pronunciation) and I am feeling to go with the short version of it, Bey (pronounced like ‘bee’) for now and claim it as a transitory name until a soul name comes through. The surname ‘Magdalene’ I have chosen in honor of my soul family origins and connection to the Magdalene/Essene lineage in honor and humble claim of my connection to my beloved Soul Family in SoulFullHeart. It feels important to let go of the entire waveform of my former name as it holds all of the birth family relationships/biography/woundings, social and romantic relationships, job navigations, and life as I have known it really, in order to keep arising into the New.

Priestess energies coming through for Halloween

Differentiating from this persona-based part and everything she has been holding, including her relationship to this life, the process itself, and others, is a deep service to and honoring of me, her, and others too who feel drawn to this work and community as well.

It REALLY is NOT easy to feel everything that is going on inside in every moment, move through it, and come out the other side of it. And sometimes, all we can do is fuse to the emotional world of our parts. Yet ALL of this process is sacred and held, supported and guided by the Soul and the Divine Self, if you choose this path of utmost soul growth and deeply nourishing and resonant soul family community. I am feeling, after all these years of dedicated inner work, a deep trust in this process and myself and that it all is truly perfect as it unfolds and keeps unfolding. And to me, trust in oneself is the hottest currency out there, especially right now in these volatile and intense times.

Much Love,

Bey Magdalene

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Bey Magdalene is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant and Community Member. For more information on community, videos, group calls, and 1:1 sessions with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator, visit soulfullheart.org.