The Gift Of Feeling Pain &Trauma

By Deva Yasmin

There are so many ways I can see, of how parts of me can push beyond feeling pain in order to attain or achieve certain experiences. The spiritual search for a long time was a search for a place free of pain for me, the attainment of bliss states and higher consciousness feeling so much more superior and desirable, than acknowledging the pain and suffering parts of me were experiencing. I still see it playing out for parts of me, especially as we taste more of the bliss, joy and contentment that is arising, they desire to stay there, but as Embodied Divine Humans, that is not our purpose to remain there it feels like.

The thing is these states are actually arising, from me being willing to acknowledge, feel and listen to the pain and trauma my parts have experienced, not from any pushing away of, or striving towards, a particular state, this actually blocks bliss. It feels like the reason I can experience these more joyful feelings is because, as I deeply know the experience of the opposite, I can appreciate the true simplicity of what joy truly is. This is a constant circling between the both for me and my parts, there is no end place and yet there is a place of experiencing more and more goodness coming in, only as I am willing to let go of what is not loving or bringing feeling of goodness.

This is the cost it feels like, to experience the fullness of who we are, and what this life and universe has to offer us as Divine Humans. Through feeling the pain and trauma, I am liberating parts of me from the prisons and Matrices they have learnt to call home, but to leave the only home they have known is painful too. To leave behind what they felt was nurturing, loving and resonant for so long, to go towards the more that I feel is available, brings up so much for them to digest. To realize how much of what they felt was Love, has actually been toxic and kept them inside the prison walls, is painful, tender, vulnerable and raw.

There is a time, and a self loving paced, organic-ness to being ready to soberly look into the reality of the life that was known for so long. As parts are felt and validated in what they have experienced; first by others in sessions, which then templates how we can valid ourselves, more space opens inside of us. As I am deepen in this process, I experience how this space becomes available for higher dimensional aspects of myself, as well as Divine beings to come in and support my continued exploration with my parts.

The ones we have been longing for, the parts of us who have the higher wisdom we have been seeking for, and the Beings of Love who we have been calling for, for so long, forgetting how close they have always been, come in to us. It feels like our commitment to keep showing up for ourselves, is a beacon, as we become more attuned to feeling, we become more sensitive to the higher frequencies all around us. This for me is so much more embodied, which brings a visceral confirmation of what is real and the Love that is always here.

When I have pushed to attain a certain state, the higher frequencies can feel ‘floaty’ or ‘wishy-washy’, they cannot ground and actually be beneficial in my everyday life. My parts cannot let it deeply in, in the ways that is needed for them to feel, heal and integrate their past experiences. They cannot rest within me if they cannot FEEL, the stable presence of the safety these higher frequencies and Divine Beings are offering them, especially I feel Divine Mother. She feels so significant to my parts process right now, as I digest with parts of me who have never felt held or nurtured.

It feels like if we keep pushing beyond pain as it is arising, not being sensitive to the subtle contractions, we keep ourselves in the prison of feeling alone and in pain, we keep ourselves in the suffering loops. As I write this, I feel how I am learning to be really present to the subtleties of all this, this no longer has to be a process of digging and trying to unearth pain or trauma, the pain arises organically in response to just BEing in life, being available to the healing life is offering us in every moment. As there is more and more goodness arising, it can be quite the process as well to let that in, I feel many of us who have been on this journey for a while will resonate with the striving and pushing for healing, or the over focusing on what is wrong, it can feel quite addictive to parts who are so used to the frequencies of abuse and trauma, to want to stay there it feels like.

I feel I am entering into more of a space of flow with the process, and an availability for what is real in the moment, letting life and what is in my heart lead my process. This feels to me what it means to be embodied. Parts of me no longer want to get out of the body to find home, or out of feeling pain, because they are realizing more and more from experience, that their true home, their higher frequency origins and their Divine nature activates and arises from within, as they feel and clear the pain and trauma they have held onto for so long, because that is what has felt like home.

The empty space that is opening up within me and within my life, through my willingness to feel pain and no longer hold onto places, people & patterns in my life that cause more pain, can feel both completely full of potential and completely void. So many questions, and so much time to explore them, so much to digest, and so much clarity to be birthed in me too, A space of feeling, healing and becoming.

I find myself in the moment honoring a very tender process with my younger parts as they let go of relationships that have been abusive and toxic, non of this is easy, but it is real and honest, and that is what my Soul longs for. This is what my woman’s heart longs for, and as my parts learn to trust me, and they experience the beauty and goodness living life lead from a tender, vulnerable, open heart brings, feeling pain becomes SO worth it and SO valuable, as it becomes the Inner Compass guiding us home, always, to LOVE.

Much Love,

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

 

Feeling The Inner Masculine To Move from Surviving To Thriving

By Deva Yasmin

I have been noticing for some time a certain pattern or habit within me. I have been feeling and exploring this much deeper these past days as I adjust to a new way of being, it feels like. As I transition from dream space to waking space, I notice anxiety coming up, this automatic pattern that has been there for so long to get up, get doing, get working. Already in my dream space I sense a chaotic-ness as I am stirring into conscious reality.

I felt yesterday a part of me called ‘David’, my Inner Masculine I have been working with for a while. As we felt together I felt how long he has been in this way of life, getting straight up out of bed, straight into work/survival mode; to move into my day from a place of rest and stillness felt so alien to him. That is the invitation and opportunity now it feels like, as I no longer have work to go to, as many of us are experiencing. I feel that this is also an invitation into a new way of being for us all, of moving into more thriving than only surviving this life. I feel inside me the growing desire to move in all areas of my life from a place of inner peace and stillness.

David expressed to me that it was new to not have to go into the day from a place of stress and to-do lists, but that he also does enjoy the practical aspects of life. I felt him not so anxious about it, rather desiring to be acknowledged as the part that is here to provide for me and my parts practically. This felt so lovely and soothing to other parts of me, to feel I have David here to help with those things as they are needed. He then transitioned to becoming my Inner Father which opened some touching healing between him and Yazzy, my Inner Child.

It was interesting to me then to feel the same anxiety arising as I woke this morning, and when checking in I could no longer feel David but a new part coming through who was very anxious about having no work. I felt a lot of fear around how we will support ourselves financially and feed ourselves too. As I felt deeper, this part revealed himself to me as ‘John’, a Metasoul brother it feels like, in a timeline of starvation and poverty. He was very concerned, he felt taking time in the morning to ease into the day was frivolous, something he could not afford to do. I could feel him being the sole provider for his family, a wife and two small children, who were all starving and dying as were many people around them, it felt like. He told me how he had to feed his children, feeding them before himself, his fear so triggered by me no longer having work, as well as my new geography in London it feels like, and me now desiring to step into a new way of earning money, rather than the old way of employment that my parts are used to.

I was able to acknowledge his experience and his feelings, although I could not do anything to change his reality. I helped him feel that starvation and poverty are no longer a part of my life now, even as I live on less money and eat less too. My relationship to food is not coming from a poverty mindset, but rather from years of transitioning to feeling what I actually need versus overeating as a cover over to not feel my emotions. Feeling John so explains why I have had a fear based connection to food this life, feeling him starving in his. I supported him to feel the reality of his situation, soberly feeling the outcome, that him and his family may possibly die yet he did not have to suffer. He had the choice to be present with his children, love them, soothe them, rather than keep panicking about what to do. This softened something for him as I felt him moving into being in what is, and with his beloveds while he still could.

Feeling John I felt so much gratitude for what I do have in the moment, the food I have even if it is not the amount parts of me have been used too, grateful to feel that starvation isn’t part of my timeline now although I know it is for so many. I sense how much I have held onto because of the fear of survival, feeling how unhappy it has made me to stay in jobs I do not like and how even relationships too can be a way of covering over the fear. I feel how society can make women feel like they need a man to provide and survive and I am sure men have their own version of this too.

For me right now I have let go of so many things that have made me feel safe, as I have chosen to move towards my desires for more resonance and purpose in my life. I have a feeling of how I wish my life to feel, so I am having to meet all the fear of moving towards it. I feel how I have been in this transition for some time especially around money, having struggled to manage full-time employment. I had to question how much I actually needed. Feeling how much energy and inner resources it takes to maintain work that is not my passion, I no longer wanted to do it and with the exchange of money no longer being a big enough draw for me either, I now desire to thrive not only survive.

Exploring what it feels like to thrive is a new exploration ground, feeling through the transition of having less money to truly feel what thriving feels and looks like. It feels like a transition we will all have to go through at some stage in our Awakening. For me, thriving does not mean the same thing as success; thriving is not solely based on financial abundance but can include that too. To thrive for me feels like TIME, to have time to actually live, to enjoy the world around me, to breath it all in. To be grateful for the simplest of things, vulnerability, connection, intimacy, honesty, and service of Love to others and self. Feeling balance in all areas of your life and to be leading from love, peace and lots of joy rather than lack and fear. These are not things that can be maintained or even experienced when we are so overly focused on the 3D survival matrix paradigm, as I have just remembered, again, after needing to go into full-time employment that is not my passion or Soul purpose once more, to finally be able now to leave it behind.

I feel an empty space between where parts have been focused for so long on 3D, to where we are heading in 5D/Golden Earth Reality as I checked in with Enu, my Pleaidian aspect around this. Also, to feel where I am now as I explore how to transition personally. Enu told me that in her world, they do not work with the energy of money, that it is an Earth experience/challenge and frequency, part of human life only, it feels like. I feel her holding the picture of energy exchange, of freely offering our gifts to one another when needed, of sharing with others and of not being scared of asking for help when it is needed either, that all resources are shared in her timeline. Abundance means so many things in her world, whereas here on Earth it can so often be felt or seen as only money equals abundance. They are also deeply connected to their creativity and gifts which gives them life, as well as living on prana too, rather than physical food as we do. They absorb life force from the world around them, through breath.

This feels so much like what I have been longing to experience and am on my way towards especially joining SoulFullHeart as a Collaborator, with the desire to be a Facilitator in the future, as well as one day living together in community. It is what I moved towards more, moving into my new place in London too, with beautiful resonant souls, a choice that was financially risky after losing my job but that David navigated and manifested financial support for me around too. Now I have the space to breathe and question what I want to bring into the world, what is my passion and the creativity/wisdom and healing I have to offer to others through my own healing. I feel the desire and LOVE in my heart switching on to be of service to others, for which I will need to continue to feel the parts in fear around all of this.

Feeling the higher timelines available does soothe my parts and helps me be more in the moment around everything, keeping my vision alive and burning, anchoring me in my commitment to keep going IN and feeling all the difficult reactions and timelines within my Soul. Feeling with sobriety when things are not working, when things have become stagnant and when we need to move in a different direction is SO hard. Feeling when there is nothing to do, but to feel the pain, sadness, grief, trusting that that is what will move us forward when the time is right, and the Divine knows the timings here not us.

Learning to trust the perfection of this life, this universe, comes to me through being able to sit in, be in, and feel everything that is moving within me. Feeling the Love growing for myself, feeds my truest desires and gives me the courage to keep moving towards NEW Earth, even though the way through is in the Valley of the Shadow of Death. This does not have to be a scary transition anymore though, as more and more resources from within our Soul are activated as we feel the lifetimes/timelines where we have been training and preparing for these times for so long. Everything we need for these transitions is within us.

Love,

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

 

 

 

 

 

‘Free To Be’ Series Digestions & Reflections

By Deva Yasmin

I could sense that the ‘Free To Be series’ was going to be a huge portal for me and my parts, I knew I was being invited into BIG shifts if I was ready to jump in. Sometimes there is only a sense of something that draws or calls you in, a knowing, this is going to be HUGE. The topics of each week somehow felt like they were designed to support me through what was next, the Divine knowing what was coming even as me and my parts did not. I did not want to miss the opportunity of expansion that I know continuously comes through the SoulFullHeart process, or being in the circle of BIG Souls that it draws too.

Yesterday’s group call felt like a tipping point for me personally, as a whole way of being has fallen away in the short 4 weeks this series has been going: a job, relationships including the one with my beloved mate (the best I have ever known), and a home, all being released to make way for more resonance in my life. It has been an intense few weeks and as I land in my NEW timeline, I sense the digestion of these recent events in my personal life are going to take some time to be understood and felt.

There are so many parts having various reactions, feelings and responses to what has happened, so many paradoxes being held. A theme that has run throughout the series; how we can all hold so many polarities and feelings within us at the same time, despair & desire, resonance & dissonance, death & rebirth…

As these themes have been felt, it has become so much clearer to feel the parts in push/pull within, and noticing how dynamics on the outside have been there for a while, trying to reflect to me the inner dissonance. There is a pace to this work that although very gentle especially when navigating trauma, accelerates our growth edges too. A pace that can seem intense at times to parts of us, which feels connected to the accelerated times of Earth we all find ourselves in. As more parts are felt, more clarity arises. As more is healed and cleared, more space for feeling desire is opened, and this feels SO new for my parts, feeling their desires – What???? Really!!! Being felt in what they desire, validated in their wants and needs through sessions, makes it very hard to stay in places that are no longer offering what they need in the same ways. This process can push up all that has gone unfelt as well, in order to maintain something that felt resonant for a time, or that held much resonance but is not transacting in all areas.

I was touched by the theme of dissonance/resonance in relationships, it felt so true for me that what I am moving towards is more resonance in relationships, in ALL areas. It was hard to track all that was offered, as my parts are so very much in the grief process of the breakdown of so much known and loved. I feel like I am now in a phase of needing to feel and digest why I have stayed in, be drawn to, and been in dissonance throughout my life.

This morning I felt in a deeper way my younger parts, Yazzy and Yasmin, how they are navigating the changes in our relationships. I could sense my Inner Mother coming in more to be felt too. I felt the dissonance between these parts, feeling how Yasmin my Inner Teenager does not trust my Inner Mother, feeling how she actually felt like the ‘Mother’ of Yazzy, my Inner Child, who needed to grow up quite early as a way of protection. To feel this dissonance within me is new ground for me, as I sense how much of that dissonance has been projected out onto my relationships, making it difficult to maintain resonance. I feel how I have actually been this dissonance, so how could I draw more resonance, even as parts of me have so wanted to.

It feels like certain dynamics in relationships keep these dynamics inside set in place with little space for other parts to be let in and met. It feels like this work offers such a solid, stable ground for parts to be felt and to move into the NEW, a process I could not have navigated this without. It feels like I have tried before, but without the integrity of feeling or the ability to draw on the gifts of these different parts of me to support me through the transition, it has been hard to move into the new.

I feel how my younger parts have been the ones holding so much responsibility that was never really theirs, trying to navigate and lead my life, work and relationships. I sense the growing connection with my Inner Mother. Feeling the disempowerment of not having her voice heard or validated will support me to let in NEW ways of being in relationship and drawing more resonance.

She feels like a key part actually, that will help Yazzy feel safe enough to let in all she actually desires. As I feel her tenderness and vulnerability around letting new relationships and timelines in, I feel her needing the maternal space-holding from within to feel safe. I feel the Inner Child and Teenager knowing the beauty they desire to let in, as they have the sensitivity to feel the vibrational frequencies of resonance that we have been longing for, it feels like. I feel how the pain of the old paradigm of being in relationships created the conditioning of accepting dissonance, staying in some kind of safety that breeds more of it rather than being taught ways to feel the INNER sanctuary of safety that can be created through the SoulFullHeart process. This anchors parts, giving the solid foundation within to mature and thrive, helping them step towards resonance in a world that can make parts feel so ungrateful for wanting more or judged for being ‘too much’.

When really these parts have never been ‘too much’ or asked for too much, they have just always felt that resonance is our birthright, to be with others who feel us, see us, get us. We have until now lived in a world that has wanted to keep our capacity for dreaming, visioning and joy to a minimum, it feels like, in case we became too FREE. As I write this it feels so perfect, so Divinely orchestrated that the current SoulFullHeart series is called ‘Free To Be’ as that is where I find myself at the moment, free to be, whoever and whatever I so desire, and dare to dream into reality. It is interesting to feel how scared some parts can feel of so much freedom that at the same time they deeply long for… another paradox.

Through this process full of paradoxes, Life is becoming a rainbow, a light spectrum of possibilities, of new experiences and timelines available to us all of more resonance. No longer does life have to be lived through the black or white lens we have been so used to.

This NEW magical, multi-faceted, multi-dimensional way of life is the frequency of resonance I am now ready to draw and am drawing through this process of parts work. It brings such a new richness to feeling ALL experiences, even the most painful and challenging ones such as relationships ending.

You can still join the ‘Free To Be’ series and purchase the recordings of the groups call so far here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe

Much Love to you all in these times of navigating so much change and letting go.

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

Sailing The Seas Of Change Through 3D/4D/5D

By Deva Yasmin

I feel like I am on a boat sailing and navigating so many different kinds of seas, sometimes stormy where I have to hunker down and hope for the best, sometimes I am able to hold onto the wheel just enough to navigate through, and other times I am just plain sailing, on turquoise blue oceans surrounded by beauty, relaxed and in bliss, surrendering to her motions. 

I feel how these seas are a representation of the 3D/4D/5D transitions we are in, how we are moving in a constant flux between dimensions right now. Some days I find myself wanting and needing to allow myself to be in 3D and it can feel really uncomfortable when I cannot deeply connect to or understand what I am feeling. In 3D it feels like parts of me are needing some old comforts, finding shelter for a time in feeling as though nothing is changing. In some spirituality this can be shamed as a way of bypassing, but I am feeling it more and more as a place parts of me need to be until they no longer do… until their desire organically grows to live in greater alignment with who they are becoming. I feel how the ocean constantly changes, how I will always, eventually, be washed into 4D again, as and when parts of me feel ready to navigate it.

In 4D I feel like I am able to take in more information, to feel more deeply, as my parts desire to share with me and let me in. There feels like no answers or certainties in 4D, rather it feels like an exploration and digestion space, where healing and change become possible. It is uncomfortable here too at times, as all the emotions, pains and traumas come to the surface to be felt. In 4D, parts are awakening to questioning what is real, what is really going on and why it is happening. 

I am feeling drawn more to alternative news streams in 4D, to take in more possibilities than what is offered through the mainstream. Parts of me in 4D feel a greater responsibility to do so, although both can push up more fear, anxiety, uncertainty to feel.  I feel how some of the alternative streams are still only offering a picture of more ‘us versus them’ energies, which is important to feel as it is offered to wake us up out of a 3D reality where we blindly follow and believe without question, governments, news, people with lots of money and power, and the Cabal. SoulFullHeart has offered a lot to feel and explore around this topic.  As we expand and open to more possibilities through 4D, I feel how we can begin to see some of the goodness this time is bringing forth too, more possibilities of higher timelines, that some of the alternative streams do not seem to be offering more of at the moment.

I feel this is where the beauty and uniqueness of SoulFullHeart lies, inviting us to feel what is beyond all of the battling energies, rather coming to feel, know and remember Love, the true navigator of Life, that is holding it all. SoulFullHeart welcomes and acknowledges the full spectrum of who we are, including the more 3D/egoic parts that have been so shamed in other paradigms of spirituality, feeling it all as our humanness, a very Divine aspect of Awakening.

5D can feel like a hard reality for parts to let in, especially when the turbulent waves through 3D and 4D can feel so dark, bleak and heavy. As we breathe through the waves, opening to, listening and honoring ALL the parts that can still be plugged into these denser realities, we start to feel and attune to higher frequencies, our parts that are always safely anchored in the golden turquoise bays of New Earth/5D reality, relishing in the Love, Bliss, and Beauty that radiates through everything, the clear sunrise after the stormy night at sea.

Here in 5D, we start to sink into rest, surrendering to all of the motions and outcomes, here we can BE in and receive all the supportive energies that Gaia is always offering us. It feels like 5D is where we find our sea legs, our ability to be, to rest in ok-ness. As we dip in and out of the 3D/4D timelines, the trust grows as we begin to recognize we always find our way home to our bay, to Love.

It can feel like only a quick rest before we are pulled out to sea again, this is very much my process right now. Sailing the seas, getting caught in the waves, surrendering to where, what and who I need to feel, then falling into the bliss. Having no control of the timing and pace, not even being able to make plans for any future, although I can feel all the possibilities of potential outcomes and timelines, giving me more to feel and digest, in preparation to know the path towards my highest timeline, when it presents itself.

This way of life humbles me, teaching me of the qualities of gratitude and compassion. When there is no way out of feeling pain and fear, it takes so much courage for parts to keep trusting the leading edges of the Soul, as it embraces more of life in the Unknown. It takes so much commitment to the greater vision of serving Love, to keep being in the feelings and at times allowing ourselves to just be in the mess of it all too.
In this moment, I feel to offer the goodness that this is bringing to many: those who will not have to take exams, those who are losing the jobs they didn’t like anyway, those who are getting to spend more time with loved ones, all things that at the same time bring up so much fear for parts. I offer this as a bridge to feeling where your parts are in push/pull around your circumstances. To feel the possibility that parts of you are residing in so many different realities, in this ONE NOW.

 In these times the SoulFullHeart process and community are a lighthouse, a beacon of light supporting all of those who resonate, to navigate and support these transitions. That are always, ultimately leading us home, to our inner bay of Love, anchored in New Earth.  

Much Love,

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

Starseed Activation & Golden Earth Support Through The Portal Of Discomfort and Grief

By Deva Yasmin

As we all journey through these death/rebirth cycles it can feel like we are being squeezed through the birth canal. It feels like we are going through multiple death/rebirth cycles in many lives and dimensions. This is the invitation of possibilities to feel right now, as in times of being squeezed it can feel dark, scary and that we are at the complete mercy of the Unknown. It is an invitation again to surrender to rather than continue to fight the Unknown.

Surrender is not a doing; it is a way of BEing. A BEing IN, guided by ALL of the feelings that are arising in response to our current situations, as experiences, life choices, and traumas from this lifetime and others are being pushed up for healing. BEing in and feeling every moment of discomfort as our Soul feels through the lessons that we are learning now, calling on all the wisdom of our Soul and Soul origins that are supporting us in the higher dimensions. This wisdom has been waiting for this time to activate.

Parts of us can feel like they are going crazy, in a kind of in-between worlds feeling, that can make it hard to relate to a world where they have found so much comfort until now. They can also feel rumbles in relationships, as what we need and desire is becoming clearer. It can feel excruciating as those leading the new way touch the longings in our heart, the knowings that parts may still be struggling to access, integrate or move into, as they are still needing to BE in and feel the fear of leaving the comfort behind, still unsure of how the arising new feels, or what it holds for them.

I have been feeling with part of me named Yasmin so much discomfort, acknowledging the depth of unhappiness she has experienced. Feeling sadness as she has felt so alone, a Soul theme of mine, of not remembering or being connected to why she is here or why she chose these uncomfortable lessons to grow through. I feel how this unhappiness has been projected into all areas of my life especially work and relationships, which has created much tension, chaos, and pain for her and to others at times too. In my recent session with Jelelle Awen, giving Yasmin space to feel her unhappiness began to open out her connection to her 5D/Golden Earth reality. This access is allowing me to have more air around what she feels and to explore the whys.

Tears came as we felt the frequency of Golden Earth, as she felt where she has longed to be her whole life and has actually always been here inside, a place she forgot in a world that projects what is real-ity only to be this 3D one. We felt our Star Family reaching out, my Pleiades Aspect, Enu offering so much Love. This is what I am choosing to call her as her vibration and language is hard to translate into ours. I feel her Language of Light being remembered too, although in the moment we speak telepathically.

I felt how in Golden Earth, we are connected to everything, telepathically we can communicate with the animals, the planets, the Earth and the water. The water feels SO important in the moment, to allow Her to hold us in this gestation period as She held us in our Mother’s womb. It feels like many of us right now maybe feeling the need to eat lighter, desiring to drink more water, this feels connected to us being able to let in Golden Earth and Star Being frequencies to support us through this transition.

I feel how stomach problems and issues with digestion right now can be linked to our struggle to feel and digest our past experiences which stop us from letting Love in. That this is possibly a good time to check in with how we relate to food and begin to feel into what nourishment our bodies are calling for. Food has always been a way for Yasmin to soothe, comfort and cover what she feels. As she moves more into Golden Earth, I feel me being able to offer comfort and nourishment in New ways.

When parts of us have been deeply unhappy, even depressed, in this life…when they have always struggled to find belonging or purpose, I feel how connected this is to our disconnection from our higher timeline realities. As Yasmin lets this in, I feel the fog of unhappiness being lifted, as the MORE she has always felt existed becomes more REAL. Real because she feels it, as she feels it there no longer is a need for the validation of whether it is real or even a need to know what is real. All that matters to her is she remembers NOW, an inner sanctuary where all the pain and struggle can be soothed and transmuted back home to LOVE. A place to surrender to ALL of the LOVE in this Universe that is waiting to come into us, so we can return to our natural flow state in Life.

Enu is offering to me that for those of us who resonate with being a Starseed, there is much support available to you NOW, a portal is open to remember your origins, with the recent conjunction of the Pleiades star system and Venus helping us feel this too.

Enu offers: ‘In these times it can feel hard for Starseeds to understand what their part in all of this is. With such a deep care and reverence for ALL life on Earth, we feel how frustrated you can feel, when you are not out there taking action to protect this Life on Earth. For those of the highly sensitive Starseeds beginning to Awaken to our frequency, this is a time of nourishing and opening to more of your Soul, Starseed self. Filling yourself with your highest frequency of Love so you can inspire others through your radiance, beauty and inner peace, in these times of outer chaos.

You need this time of rest, of BEing alone, Being quiet and in nature too, especially taking in any Sun Codes that are available to you. Meet with the water in your inner realms, drop deep into the ocean. You can BE there, breathe there even, it is so quiet. Many of our allies are there too, the Dolphins and Whales offering a bridge to you to attune to our frequencies on Pleiades and in Golden Earth.

There is nothing you need to do, only listen and feel the cues of your physical and emotional body as they offer you much guidance in this time through the pain and discomfort. This can feel overwhelming, but you have much support and Love all around you, if you so wish to enter and receive. This will take time, as you learn to trust your inner realms and the parts, and aspects of you who have known and never forgotten these higher timelines and wisdom.

You are being informed by You, empowered and taught through your own inner realities. There are BEings who can support you on the outside but ultimately this is YOUR journey and YOUR choice to go into the parts and places of yourself that know what you need and where you need to go. We are here always whatever your choices are and whatever you are ready for in this moment, We love you, tender Souls.’

As Yasmin rests and explores Golden Earth, I feel ME, arising, growing into my leadership, the one who can listen and trusts my inner world and parts, to inform and guide my outer experience. I feel the collective being offered this choice too, as we transition from 3D to 5D Golden Earth. This will take time, healing and feeling for us ALL but as we let in MORE of our Soul and Star Family support, we feel more and more that we are always being supported and these transitions are being informed by and moved by intelligence that some may parts not be ready to feel yet, though some may be SO ready to let it all in.

We can never know anything as truth it feels like, in this ever-evolving, expanding and contracting universe. We can only FEEL what is REAL within ourselves and offer that to those who may resonate. Those who can feel the frequency of LOVE that is being offered through words even if the words make no sense or trigger reactions for parts, that this Love is here to offer support in a time of great fear and pain, personally and collectively.

In this 3D reality, everything can feel so dense and separate. In Golden Earth, we are One, we are Light and we are never alone.

Here is a guided meditation by Jelelle Awen to support you to feel and connect with Star Being Family, https://youtu.be/ubrPcH09X6s

Much Love,

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Awakening To Purpose With Lilith

By Deva Yasmin

Lilith is coming very close to me right now, I feel her presence wanting to be known in these times. She is the form of Divine Mother who serves us to find stability in the shadows of the unknown, to feel safety in the darkness between worlds, anchoring us in the moment between death and rebirth, the place of all Life. 

Lilith is the activating force of the feminine, helping us create, when we do not know what for, or why, or even if we have anything to share that will be of service to others. She helps us trust the feminine and surrender to the outcome of our service. She knows we all hold in our hearts different parts of the Awakening puzzle that will reach where they need to go IN.

She also serves, as a soothing balm to our masculine. In times when his abilities to pursue, to take action and to know the way forth are less called for, Lilith helps him rest. Reminding him to conserve his energy for the moments when his driving force to move ahead is really needed. 

These complimentary forces are being offered healing NOW, especially through relationships, as we may be feeling rumbles in our time of separation from each other or being together more than usual. I feel this as an opportunity to feel how these forces have been in opposition or suppression of each other, how they have longed for but can be scared of each other at the same time. An opportunity to heal what is needed on the inside, to move more into collaboration between the Feminine and Masculine.

In relationships with others, especially intimate ones, I feel this to be the inner work needed to support the outer union and its empowered collaboration. It feels like the work to feel what is real between us, if there is still ground to transact together so we can move forward united, honoring, respecting and prepared to listen to one another, and if not, it may perhaps be time to move on, to honor the inner union more. This is something myself and James have been navigating since being together more at home. This time is gifting us so much healing, as we have felt what has gone unnoticed or pushed aside in the general busyness of day to day life and the ways parts of us have not been working together.

Lilith’s honesty is supporting me to navigate what is needing to change in my life, I feel her offering to hold my hand as parts of me still have fear of hurting others or being judged by others when being true to myself. This has held me back for a long time and she has come now to support me to move into true alignment with my Soul’s purpose. She is here to guide and activate in us ALL, the knowing that when we are called towards service of Divine Love, at times we will be asked to make hard choices that may impact others. Some will not understand but that does NOT mean you are doing anything wrong or a bad person.

As children it feels like our choices, if not in alignment with the beliefs of our care givers, can be seen as ‘wrong’ when we know what we want but that creates tension in our care givers or hinders their own schedules, and we can be called ‘bad’ or ‘naughty’. This was not the truth. We knew as children we did not come here to fit in, we came here with a purpose.  But we had to take part in the suppression because that was part of our assignment on Earth, to be conditioned and forget so we could learn, awakening through the pains of being human. This has been our school so we could grow into the embodiment of Love and compassion, allowing Life to serve through us when the time came and NOW is that time.

Lilith wants to help us release the limitations of the conditioning that has been placed on us, revealing to us what has been keeping us stuck in the shadows. She comes to ALL of those who are ready NOW to move into service, even if that is deeply serving ourselves in a NEW way. Both serving ourselves and serving others is serving the Whole, but serving others without truly serving ourselves first, is a part of our conditioning. The belief that self-care or considering the needs of yourself is selfish, is not true. If we had learned to deeply care for ourselves, I wonder how the world would have looked? 

Service led by Love, this is the possibility that is becoming available to us more and more. As the invitation in New Earth is to serve Love to Love from Love, rather than fear serving more fear. 

Thank you for being here and for all that you are, which is already a huge service to Love. This Life would not be possible without you in it, your unique individuality is a gift and there is no one who can play the part you do. 

Much Love,

Deva and Lilith.

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

 

 

Inner Child Rising Up In Times Of Less Doing

By Deva Yasmin

Sometimes the quietest parts of us hold the keys to our deepest wisdom. These parts can feel like they had to give up at some stage of trying to be heard, instead dimming and downplaying their wisdom, as it was not valued in this 3D world. I have always felt a curiosity and care of this world and its people, which I can now feel is the natural essence of the Inner Child. Their soft, gentle innocence becomes subdued over time, covered over by the intensity of a world that programs them not to question anything.

My Inner Child would try to bring her thirst for learning to the world, which would get lost in the sea of debates and arguments of right and wrongs. The adults she looked to for knowledge were already too plugged into the program themselves. This left no space for a curious, creative, playful inquiry into life, which feels to my Inner Child a more exciting, organic way to connect and learn.

I feel this transition we are in right now is creating more space for us to spend time with and feel our Inner Child. We now have time to BE, and are being called to BE, more curious and creative with our time. Our logic and problem solving is not needed or serving us in the same way right now.

I feel this time giving the Inner Child opportunity to Rise up, no longer needing to Roar to be heard, as we have more quiet time to listen. I feel their sensitivity and simplicity being valued, feeling the gift that they are, and how soothing it is to parts of us to connect with them, feeling their gentleness and openness. How healing it is, taking time to look at the world through their eyes, seeing the awe in EVERYTHING around us, in Love and in Joy with the whole of existence.

As we sink into rest and reset, we have space to feel how other parts of us striving for success and purpose have been driven by the pain of the Inner Child. They have been driven from the lack of validation and genuine care they received in a 3D world that has not been considerate of their sensitivity and imagination, causing them to seek to be something or someone more than they already were. They were molded from a young age to live life in the striving-for-survival Matrix, where they are never enough and can never get enough.

I feel Yasmin, an aspect of my Inner Child, trying so hard to be heard and, when that didn’t work, she shutdown. She decided to listen instead, but as she disagreed with so much of what she heard, she numbed out. Trying anything she could find that was loud enough or toxic enough to quiet not only her pain, but the beating, aliveness and deep desire to create a new world that was echoing and calling in her heart.

I feel many of us being asked to feel, heal, and let go of the ways in which we numb out to not feel pain held by the Inner Child and other parts that have learnt these kinds of coping mechanisms. With daily life on lockdown, now is the perfect opportunity.

As we enter into curious, loving inquiry with these young parts, as they feel more relaxed and feel safe, they can lean in more. This helps us to STEP more fully into our king or queen essence, a simple, calm, confidence growing enabling us to respond in a new way to times of chaos in the world and in others. Instead of being reactive, we can stay grounded, taking self-responsibility for the things that support us to do so, enabling us to offer a stable presence in the world and with others.

Our ability and courage to speak up for what we believe in and share our visions of a New Earth, is no longer offered from a place of needing validation but from a genuine Love and care, for ourselves, our parts, and our kingdom. Remembering our Life’s service is to serve the rebirth of the inner and outer worlds.

We no longer need to be successful or powerful to be validated. We can lead by loving example of how TRUE power honors that which is in relationship with and including our sensitivity, our gentleness, our need for play and rest, and our innocence. The world many of us felt possible as children feels like it is coming more into being now, through these reboots we are going through. Feeling our parts and Inner Child is our service towards creating Balance, Peace, Love and Unity on our planet and is a way of supporting ourselves through these intense times on Earth.

This is why we came here and the reason why we have experienced so much of what we have.  Life teaching us of pain so we can know Love; teaching us of suffering so we can know compassion; teaching us of loneliness so we can truly know togetherness; and teaching us of separation so that we can truly value innocence and simplicity as we are being returned to it.

Much Love,

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

 

 

What We Are Experiencing Now Is Not New To The Soul

By Deva Yasmin

It has been impossible, it feels this week, to not have been touched or affected by all the talk of the virus. Being sensitive I am aware of and feeling the rumbles of fear and panic in the collective. I have felt confused at times as people begin to go into lockdown. Going to the local supermarket and walking the streets in my local town a few days ago felt eerie and very strange with less people around and so many bare shelves.

Having the anchor of feeling my parts really is supporting me to navigate what is going on within me in response to the events that are happening. Feeling the reactions in my parts also bridges me to feeling what my soul knows, has experienced and may still be experiencing of health epidemics/pandemics and civilization collapse in other timelines.

In times like this in the collective, I have felt many times an aspect of myself that feels anxiety and helplessness. Connecting in and feeling this today, I met a new part called Cayalisia, who is currently in an Atlantis timeline. I could feel with her, how her experience of Atlantis is bleeding through into what I am experiencing in my timeline. Both of us watching and feeling people scared and in panic, as life as we have known it, rumbles, crumbles and shifts throwing us ALL into the unknown.

I could feel how her inner work had given her a greater capacity to be in the unknown, although she needed support to deeply feel her own reactions to it all. She felt sad for people and how they were being affected, helplessness too as she inquired into how she could serve people opening and hearing the message to support the possibility of moving into the New. This is something I too feel often, but especially in times like these. This is the gift of feeling these aspects of our soul, they help us feel into our deeper responses, reactions, emotions and knowings, as our timelines all happen in the NOW, serving, merging and impacting one another.

It feels like timelines such as Atlantis, Ancient Egypt, etc. can be reminisced about, painted in a kind of Utopian way. As I kept feeling I could feel how any world especially on Earth has shadow. How aspects of our Metasoul have experienced in many timelines, many times, transitions through collapse, disaster, disease and destruction, and what we are experiencing now is not new to the Soul.

I feel in my Soul and in many other Souls, a longing to return to more simple ways of life, feeling this as an answer for how we can change the world, or for some parts, hide from it. The more simple life feels true and very much a part of my higher timeline vision and yet, as I checked in with Anna (grandmother of Jesus) she was open and honest about how the shadow aspects cannot be run away from anywhere, that the shadows of being human in a body on Earth, were very much alive in the Magdalenes and in their timelines of communal, nature-based living. They lived very simply and this DID support a more balanced, healthier way of life in alignment with our Earth Mother but that they struggled to bridge that to a larger portion of Humanity, which is what has always been needed if we are to truly transition into NEW Earth reality.

She offered that we are in a unique moment in time on Earth, a time that other civilizations have evolved to but have not succeeded in transitioning to yet. A time where it feels very possible for us to bridge and connect the sacred and the mundane, the heart and the mind, the conscious and unconscious, the scientific and spiritual. To create harmony and restore balance between our inner and outer worlds. We have the tools, the technologies, the opportunities to share our wisdom with one another. Through the internet, more people can bridge the new to MORE souls than ever before. This did not feel possible in Atlantis, a timeline that feels to me like it was more about individual Awakening, as I am sure there are many more timelines in our Souls of this theme.

This is a time of Awakening, Serving, Co-Creating the NEW, Together. We have only ever gotten so far trying to change alone. I could feel this anxiety, helplessness, and sadness connected to so many beings who are desiring to know and live into their purpose. Not yet realizing we are stepping into a time of joint purpose, of remembering our Interconnectedness and showing up for the healing inside that it takes in order to truly let others in.

That NOW is a time of letting go of considering only what is good for me, what I can get for me and how I can keep me safe. This is a hard place to feel and navigate, as I feel how many times what I have thought of as working and being with others has actually been about what I can get from others and what best serves my interests, coming from a Fear of being alone. Through parts work, I feel the new way of being with others being bridged, as it is inevitable that my inner experience of Union flows into the outer layers of my life. An experience our Soul knows and feels deeply, that can be remembered through the excavation of our healing hearts.

It does not matter who you are, where you are or what your beliefs are, all that matters is if there is a burning desire in your heart and Soul for change, and a distant knowing of something More. If you feel reactions and fear arising in response to current events, You are NOT alone, all your parts are waiting and willing to connect with you, feel with you, heal with you and serve with you.

And, there are so many others here with you too, ready to walk hand in hand. A huge gift of our time is the internet, which can bridge time and space for those of us who have felt responsible for holding the torch into the NEW alone, in this life and for so many lifetimes.

Jelelle and Raphael Awen offer one-to-one sessions in the SoulFullHeart process. These sessions bridge to feeling how your parts are experiencing life, how they are navigating relationships and letting in what you deeply desire for your life and humanity.

SoulFullHeart is also a bridge to navigating and co-creating a NEW Earth Together. I feel so many of our Souls waiting for and wanting to BE with each other. I feel aspects of our Metasouls needing to know they no longer have to walk these death/rebirth cycles out alone, as they may be experiencing. Offering them the healing heart space to feel what they feel, opens an exchanging of gifts that can support both of us as we transition in and through the Unknown.

Much Love to you and your parts as we continue to navigate all there is to feel in response to Coronavirus.

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

Inner Community Healing, Paving The Way For 5D CommUNITY With Others

By Deva Yasmin

To be in community is a deep desire and calling in my heart, the desire started to burn for this more as I opened to spirituality. I can feel how this desire for community has run deep my whole life, it feels like it was the reason I spent many years working in the Hospitality industry, as there is a sense of togetherness that comes when working so closely and intensely with a group of people in a restaurant. It feels like the longing for community has also been my greatest pain, especially growing up in an environment and society where I felt I never fitted in. Right now, I am feeling with my parts the extent of this pain as I continue to unravel myself from it.

One of the draws for me to re-enter sessions with SoulFullHeart was the community. I had sessions for 6 months in 2017. It feels like I had to take a step back and explore other things to really let in what SoulFullHeart is offering. Even though I wasn’t engaged in sessions, I was witnessing through social media and within the group something very unique. I feel that what I have longed for within community, SoulFullHeart are on the leading edge of. Beings who are committed to showing up for their own inner healing and Ascension whilst at the same time learning to bridge that into relationships, through parts work.

As I expressed this desire for community in my session with Jelelle Awen, she invited me into a NEW way of feeling and letting in community, beginning first on the inside. This has been massively liberating for parts of me because within this deep desire for community with others has been a deeper longing and pain of not belonging and of feeling unsafe. Something parts of me could actually not find anywhere else, because all along they had needed to find that within ME. With these parts leading the way I feel how they drew souls who kept reflecting and confirming to me that I could not find what they were seeking outside. This caused much pain.

I see now how this also led these parts to continue and stay in unhealthy relationships for too long, to feel some sense of security and safety. This is a deeply vulnerable and at times painful process I am navigating right now, which I will reveal more about in time as my parts stabilize and ground in the safety of Infinite Love. That IS coming through even more as I turn my desire towards nurturing and tending my inner community, rather than overly focusing on, tending to or care taking others in exchange for a sense of belonging, Love and purpose.

I feel I am getting right to the core of what has been holding my parts in pain and with us all now feeling each other, there is a new level of honesty that is transmuting and transforming places I have felt stuck in for so long. This feels possible because I am learning through the SoulFullHeart process how to feel the inner dynamics and relationships of parts and aspects of myself.

As my parts are digesting and healing their experiences with me, they are beginning to receive the Love and acceptance they have always longed for. This is helping ME find the courage to BE and express more of who I AM, as a Soul. I find my way of being in life shifting as I calibrate to the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. The process is becoming more about receiving Love and support from within. Then responding to the parts AS they show up, that still do not know how to receive, feel unworthy of receiving or are still distrustful of Love because of the trauma they have experienced in the past, in this life and others.

This is rumbling throughout my life, as I am now feeling what it feels like to BE loved, to BE validated and to BE heard. My desire for this on the outside is growing, meaning it is becoming harder to continue what parts of me have until now accepted as love and connection with other. It’s a really challenging time, as I collapse the compartments of my life, to restore balance and wholeness to my inner and outer realities. It is surprising me at times how quickly this process is shifting things just from feeling how parts have lived and why.

There is an empowerment happening it feels of my Soul Bigness, my 4D/5D selves and all the aspects of me who KNOW what Love and commUNITY are truly meant to be already. As I feel and heal my 3D parts and experiences, more space is opening out for these higher aspects to come in to my awareness, my body and my life, supporting me to move into alignment with my Soul Expression and Service in this life.

Working with parts is guiding me towards and opening me to higher timeline possibilities that have felt impossible until now and hard to manifest. I have known since before I can remember that this 3D way of life is too limited, it has never felt like the path I came here to settle in. Now I know it is because I came here to create rumbles in it and be part of Ascension on Earth Now. Though I have tried many times to step into something NEW, without all my parts consciously co creating and on board, I have had to circle back in, to feel them and integrate, so I can walk with them across the bridge into the NEW with Love, rather than jumping off the cliff where the unknown can feel like an abyss. This making the death/rebirth cycles we all go through more chaotic than catalytic.

This feels like a continuous, multi layered, multi dimensional experience of Ascending within 3D, not getting out of it. Bridging and weaving Fifth Dimensional Consciousness into the fabric of it, shifting our individual and collective consciousness from the INside, out.

We explored walking gracefully across the bridge into the NEW rather than jumping off the cliff in yesterday’s monthly group call . These calls are a huge highlight of my month, along with my sessions and the monthly Women’s call. I feel the co-creation that is happening between our souls, how the joint desire for Golden Earth is creating the reality I feel so many of us Knowing and Longing for.

If you’d like to purchase the recording of this call, you can through https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/12-yeshua-magdalene-consciousness-activation-raphael-jelelle-awen or offer $15 CAD via paypal.me/jelelleawen

Much Love

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Feeling New Possibilities to Soothe Anger and Fear, as the Matrix Systems Collapse

By Deva Yasmin

After a few nights unsettled dreams, of interrupted sleep and feeling anger, agitation and frustration throughout the day yesterday, I felt myself this morning and felt guided to Jelelle Awen’s invitation to feel INto what is going on in the lower 4D/Reptilian timeline. As I let in, instantly I felt relief as more light and air expanded in my heart space.

As I tracked the anger last night, I could only really honor it being there in the moment, as I no longer wish to try and fix or alter my parts’ experiences. Being in the feeling, I could see lots of trivial things in my immediate reality that could be triggering it. I could also feel parts of me that would happily cause drama, especially in relationships, to create a reason for what I was feeling, but none of this softened the edges of it. Opening to feel and let in on the lower 4D level and the collective offered much MORE soothing and liberation of the feelings.

As I checked in with my Reptilian aspect, Solan, I could feel and see with her how there is a lot of anger coming up at the Matrix systems that have been in place, keeping us quiet, asleep and controlled, happening NOW. I could feel how so MANY more are awaken from this NOW, through the feelings of anger, frustration and aggression at times. And how these systems are in ways blowing up, creating rumbles through all realities.

The lower 4D world feels like an overlay, interconnected, rippling through and impacting our current 3D lives. I could feel that what is happening in 4D is also happening in our 3D reality too.

I can feel this in my personal life and in the collective, with so many of us waking up and starting to say, ‘No’ to what no longer works for us. I see and feel this collectively in politics, climate action, all outdated institutions. I see and feel it in our personal relationships, work expressions, etc. too.

It feels like the Reptilians are awakening along with us. In their world as they have been wired to control us, I feel so many of them saying NO, now wanting to move out of their role in the 3D matrix and work with us in these transition times to higher timelines, realities, Unity consciousness, and more Love.

Anger and Fear play really key roles in our liberation, Awakening and Ascension. They are sacred doorways that we all must enter into and through. Offering bridges to different aspects of ourselves and what they may be feeling and experiencing in the NOW, that impacts our lives in very real ways.

Feeling fear, even as you read this perhaps, feels necessary, normal and VERY welcome. Fear is our discernment and held by very important aspects of ourselves like the inner protector.

In THIS moment. I invite you into a new way, of being curious to fear, rather than fused to it, as is what the SoulFullHeart process is offering through parts work.

I feel many of us on the awakening journey moving into a NEW phase of feeling the possibility of more and healing more at the soul level. I feel in my own process that at times, the shifts do not occur if I am only feeling what I have experienced this life, yet more expansion and space to breathe opens, through feeling the possibilities of what is moving in my soul and this Universe.

I do trust and strongly advocate for the organic-ness of it all though. I do not feel it to be true to leave our bodies to access other realities rather it feels true and of utmost importance that this journey is led from and through our hearts.

That our human experience and emotions lead us to where we next need to go. Our heart’s knowing the timing and when we are a big enough container to hold these new pieces of the puzzle, with loving, compassionate, curious inclusivity of all parts and all perspectives.

To consider and respect our parts’ limitations and the pace we need to go, so this exploration is moved from a place of embodied, whole, loving presence rather than pushing, striving, and from unconscious beliefs held around not being enough.

To do this, if you so choose and feel ready and curious, the Inner Protectors are vital to feeling fear and possible anger, as our lives, worlds, realities shift. They stand guard of our hearts for which we need to access, to enter through, to feel MORE possibilities, Letting in this multi dimensional reality and way of BEing if that feels true for you. 


Here is a guided meditation with Jelelle Awen to meet your Inner Protector, a good place to start: https://youtu.be/2FzBzK5vgck

Much Love,

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc