‘Qualifying’ To Serve Love Starts Within

by Kalayna Colibri

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Artwork: Small Seeds Of Love by Outi Harma

In the service of love, it’s not a certification or a weekend retreat that qualifies you to offer healing to others. Methodologies, practices, therapies of all kinds, can be helpful, yes, yet true service starts within. It starts with your heart, through feeling and healing parts of you. It begins with the ever-humbling process of looking inward, feeling deeply, breathing into wounds both fresh and festered. It begins with soberly taking in reflections from Love itself, that can come through Guides and teachers, yet especially life as the ultimate teacher, healer, facilitator. It is your lived-in life and love experience that ultimately qualifies you, ‘certifies’ you, brings you the people who you are meant to serve!

True heart and soul-based service of love, comes from your lived-in and walked-out experience of life AND love, too. It comes from finding and feeling deeper depths of love on the other side of some tough processes where you felt as if you or parts of you were crawling through shards of glass. It comes from BEing in life, inhabiting your humanity, exploring your spirituality through that precious heart of yours. It comes from questions, from humbly realizing there cannot be any ultimate answers, yet strong feelings and intuitions based on your experience. No theorizing or conceptualizing can get you here, yet opening up these doors of exploration can and likely will bring you the real-life application of them, where you can really feel what parts of you ‘think’ you are learning.

The service of love in its truest and deepest sense has no requirements but openness and humility, which Love itself will remind you of with every challenge you find and move through, as it also continues to remind you that you ARE love and are loved, too. Serving love can happen at any time, with anyone you interact with, and if the nourishment can transact and move from you to them and them to you, then this is where it clicks into place and the most profound awakenings in the name of Infinite, incredible love are found.

Nothing and nobody can qualify you to be in this, as this is what you are worth, what you are being called to have and BE and eventually to offer consciously to others, too. ❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

 

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Lift The Inner Veil Through Self Permission To Feel, Be And See Beyond 3D

by Kalayna Colibri

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When you close your eyes in this moment, what images come to you?

Each closing of the thin veil of our eyelids calls to something in our subconscious, gives it permission to come forward and be with us.

What is the first thing that you see? What is the first feeling that you feel?

There’s a keen self-permission required in wondering this way. In curiosity of the self. In being still for even a moment, to see what your subconscious wants to tell you. Maybe it wants to show you in symbols, feeling tones, colours, scenes, the parts of you that most need you now. Maybe it wants to give you hints of your soul, what its gifts and wounds are, both. Maybe it wants to give you glimpse, a hint, of the map of your life that only your soul can know about in any real detail.

Going within can be this quick, this simple, this easy. Of course, it doesn’t always feel this way. Parts of us that aren’t sure about it all, that are confused because 3D conditioning has told them that only what they can literally see and feel and hear without any need for interpretation or reading between the lines is worth taking in on any level. This can be existential too, as there could be lifetimes in your Metasoul of experiencing ridicule, persecution, excommunication, death, because of being willing to really see, really feel, really communicate even what might go against the norm.

So much has dulled our natural senses of a need to go inward, to be with ourselves, to get to know our hearts and our souls, to heal from the inside, out. So much has dulled our chance of experiencing something that takes us far beyond our typical daily experience. So much abuse, so much pain, so much necessary numbing-out and downplaying of our emotions, that really are an important aspect of our imagination, and our imagination is the most crucial aspect of our access to intuition, to soul gifts, to something well beyond the scope of 3D life.

Maybe today might be your first day of closing your eyes with the genuine intent of feeling what is beyond or could be beyond the veil of your 3D life… this precious and sacred veil that has been needed until now, or until any Now of your choosing. At any moment you can give yourself permission to close your eyes and BE, breathe, feel, see, experience, let in… let yourself and your parts in. Let in that you ARE here, NOW… that you ARE needed, wanted, loved… that you ARE who you ARE and that this ‘mess’ of how life has been has been necessary so you could get to this point of reading and taking in these words, of beginning or continuing your journey inward that somehow you trust will transform everything you experience outward.

Much love to you…

Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

 

Message From Mother Gaia: Heal The ‘Pollution’ From INside

by Kalayna Colibri

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Painting: For The Love Of Gaia by Jassy Watson

 

Plenty of heart-opening experiences to go around lately! Especially in connection to Gaia in various ways, which I only just realized this morning when drawn into meditation with Her. There is an ongoing invitation I can feel for all of us to continue connecting with Her, as she is reaching out to connect to us as our deepest Mother experience on this planet through her profound and effortless life-giving and love-offering arms.

I felt something begin while at the beach yesterday afternoon, taking in light codes through the sun here in Mexico, and very much connecting with the sounds of the ocean and the birds nearby. I have not had many non-dual experiences yet, but I found myself having moments of ‘woah!’ and ‘WOW!’ while taking in my surroundings and feeling them take ME in, too. I dug my toes and fingers in the sand, letting a young part of me play while an ancient-feeling part of me placed her palms firmly on the ground, giving love to Gaia and taking in love, too. It was an eloquent grounding experience and another new opening for me to feel this, to be reminded of access to Earth magic, which really we ALL have access to.

So perhaps it wasn’t surprising that I was drawn today to meditation music that connects you to the Schumann Resonance, and thus, Mama Gaia Herself. I felt myself pass through a waterfall, cleansing of old energies and unanchoring from anything 3D in my field. On the other side, I sat on a wooden bench, placed beside a beautiful pool of water fed by the waterfall, teeming with colourful fish. Archangel Metatron appeared on my right and placed his giant, fatherly-feeling hand on my upper back, while Sophia appeared on my left to offer me her hand placed on the back of my neck. It was sweet and good to feel them, to feel their support and guidance, which sometimes seems to come mostly without words. A young part of me that used to hold so much outrage about environmental issues came up then, and I could feel tears surfacing for reasons I couldn’t quite name yet felt to sincerely let them flow. They were the tears that earlier on in my process were felt to be about feeling ‘Gaia’s pain’ inflicted upon Her by us, us humans.  Yet this time, I could feel they were something different…

Mother Gaia appeared in front of me then, first energetically as if expressing as part of the breeze or wind, but then she took a form I have felt and seen Her take before, as a tall, beautiful woman with skin and form like a great, ancient tree. She knelt below me, before me, addressing this young part of me as a mother would a child.

She offered in Her tender, deep and melodic voice, “You are feeling pain from the All… you are helping to move it. Not because you have to, but because your heart wants to. I do not need you to feel it, yet I feel you allowing it move through your heart. There has been MUCH pain moving through humanity from all of the changes happening with me, all of the fires, floods, devastation, death… you are feeling how everyone has been affected. This is part of connecting to the Schumann Resonance, as you are through this music now… you are connecting to everyone, all beloved humans everywhere…”

Letting in again that Gaia does not ‘need’ anchoring or any direct ‘help’ from us, though this work can be sweet in its own way, felt nourishing and also sad for this part of me, who has wanted to be part of a great solution for so long!

Feeling this without me needing to say much, Mother Gaia then said to me, “you ARE helping, Kalayna! The greatest ‘pollutant’ is the one that comes from inside… the one that comes from ‘polluted’, fearful hearts… hearts that try not to feel, that have forgotten that true healing starts within. You are, in your way and on your beloved path, healing the Collective through healing your own heart, and thus you are healing the root of the outer-pollution! This is all I ask of anyone, to continue feeling THIS!”

I let this into my heart and felt a humble glow from inside. I know it’s not up to ME to heal the Collective or Gaia Herself, as this is an outward focus and one that I could never hope to control or manage. Rather, healing and ascending alongside Gaia is about healing from the inside, out… healing in my own camp, my own Self, which is a tall enough order for anyone. I strongly felt Her wanting me to share this with you today, as this invitation is for you, as much as for me, to continue feeling this point more and more and more, letting it in deeper and deeper and deeper.

The healing path I am a part of and offer to others in SoulFullHeart, is one of healing in this manner, focusing on inward healing as the number one priority that can’t help to shift life on the outside! If we continue to merge in with Collective Consciousness around needing to look outward, we miss the boat on where the most powerful healing frequencies can and must come from – a nurtured, nourished, and profoundly healing heart WITHIN. ❤

If you wish to learn more about SoulFullHeart and what we offer, you can visit http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess. My beloveds and I would love to serve you, genuinely and with full hearts, too. ❤


If you would like to listen to the music I took in during this meditation today, you can find it here: https://youtu.be/-Ql_a8SKUrU


I created this meditation called Reuniting With Mother Gaia about a year ago. It quite powerfully offers a way to visualize and connect with the energy of Mother Gaia and feel deeply your relationship with Her: https://youtu.be/pBmywUP8GvI


My beloved mate Gabriel Heartman and me, are offering an ongoing vlog series on Practical Ascension: The 7 Key Areas Of Life, which are foundational to the work we do in SoulFullHeart. You can check out the videos we’ve done so far on our playlist, here

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Activations And Integrations – Day 13: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, And Kalayna (Video)

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 13 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, we share our previously scheduled monthly group call teachings and sharings. You are seeing the first 35 minutes of the call with sharings from Raphael Awen and I, plus SoulFullHeart Facilitators Kalayna Colibri and Gabriel Heartman. The rest of the two hour call that the participants experienced offered a guided meditation plus space for individual sharings.

In this video, I talk about the 1:11 codes/information/uploads/downloads/activations that are still coming in to support your ongoing metamorphosis process. I feel that the Divine feminine energies represented by the two Supermoons this month at the beginning and the end. I offer more about the caterpillar/cocoon/butterfly versions of yourself as a model of what is happening during transformation. I talk more about this in this video from Day Seven: https://youtu.be/f-jVLpkU9LI?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

Then, Raphael shares about the ongoing disclosure process with star BEings and what it might bring to our personal metamorphosis processes and how much it will change our daily lives. He also talks about his current process of accessing Guides, Metasoul/other lifetime aspects and the integration of these energies that feels very real to me.

Kalayna and Gabriel then both share about the current ascension energies, integration of these energies to activate their highest timeline service of love, and their processes with parts of themselves and with each other in sacred union. They connect how they experience life from the SoulFullHeart perspective.

Thank you for joining us on this thirteenth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Here is more information about joining our group calls, the next one is on February 11th: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at https://soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.

Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

3D Protector And 4D Gatekeeper – Day 12: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen & Kalayna Colibri (Video)

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 12 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, SoulFullHeart Facilitator Kalayna Colibri joins me to talk about the SoulFullHeart process and how it has been for her to navigate for the last six years, especially as someone who is 30. Kalayna works with women under 30 in SoulFullHeart sessions and shares about some things she has seen in that work in terms of their pain and challenges. We discuss the feelings of abandonment and not belonging in 3D, such as not wanting a career/family/mortgage that are common to her generation.

Kalayna also shares about her process working with her Protector in different forms, names, and energies over the years that were quite masculine in the beginning of her process. This part has eventually turned into the 4D Gatekeeper named Angelica that is more feminine. Work with the Protector reveals the Inner Child which then uncovers the Star Seed Child, which is the wonder being ‘from the stars’ energy inside of us all. More about these parts here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
 
The Gatekeeper is a multidimensional aspect of our soul that is guarding and protecting access to our remembrance and access to our other timelines/lifetimes. Access to your Metasoul becomes more fluid as you work with the Gatekeeper. This is the article I mention in the video about Gatekeepers, which are more about protecting your Metasoul/other lifetime aspects and your soul than connected to 3D life concerns: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeepers
 
To see more videos with Kalayna, along with SoulFullHeart Gabriel, talking about the seven areas of life we address in SoulFullHeart is here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvInP1AB__TzXykZythfad8i
 
Thank you for joining us on this twelve day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!
 
Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI
 
You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at https://soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

1:11 Portal Illuminates Imminent Timelines And Personal Growth Choices

by Kalayna Colibri

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Tapping into the portal energies today was easier than part of me was expecting! I went inward to connect within, to see which of my guides wanted to come forward to help answer the question of ‘what are these portal energies offering that Love would like me to talk about and share today?’

As soon as my eyes were closed, I felt a warm illumination coming up from behind me as if I were standing directly in front of the sun, and the sun was beaming over my whole being. Enjoying the warmth on this rather cool morning here in Mexico, I asked what these codes I was seeing and receiving were about. Soon I felt and saw the hand of Archangel Metatron grasping my right hand and Sophia grasping my left. It was touching to see and feel them both within reach in such a visceral way and their tender yet very powerful love energies moved into and through me like a warm wave of light.

The three of us began walking forward together. I noticed that the sun shining from behind me was illuminating the way forward, inviting trust in the unknown of where exactly we were heading.

“This light is assuring you and all beings of a bright future,” offered Metatron, “even though there is plenty of pain to continue to feel through as Gaia continues Her ascension”.

“Is there anything specific I can offer others in writing about that today?” I ask him, pleased to be receiving a message from him into my heart and letting in the warmth of it and of his presence into my mind, heart and soul.

He offered then, “offer that higher timelines are becoming more apparent, that the way forward into them is indeed being illumined now by this great portal and the ever-strengthening, growing Sun energies and codes.”

“Offer that the way through is IN”, added Sophia, speaking in her warm tone that is motherly and teacherly, both. “The goodness of each person, each Sacred Human, is alive and well inside of all, underneath the defenses that try and keep love out. This time, this phase of ascension and portal openings, are a calling into the highest paths that truly align with love within and share love without”.

Their messages land in my heart even more as I write them now. They feel as if they are vibing that within each of us lies the seed of everything we could ever need. Each Sacred Human seed inside of every single arising Sacred Human, is already encoded with all activations and upgrades, all needed and necessary gifts, all alignments with service of love callings and invitations. There can be no real ‘lack’ in any one of us, as we already have and ARE everything we need, yet the soil in which this seed must grow, unravel, unfurl, and become its biggest potential, is where the deepest choice points are for each of us and are the gauge for how much of this potential, how many of these gifts, can truly bloom and arise for us and others. In other words, we must choose the relationships, the geography, the food, the spiritual and emotional healing practices that are the most appropriate for each stage of our seed’s growth within. We are naturally drawn to that which we need, though parts of us may not be ready to say ‘yes’ yet, and perhaps these parts need to say ‘no’ more and more, even to that which COULD be most nourishing, before they can truly find a ‘yes’ that is deeply surrendered to the growth and healing and LOVE at hand.

Today’s portal opening and the unfolding of 2018 energies overall, are all asking us to be heartful of what is ahead of us, of what we feel we are reaching for, and they are inviting us as well to continue reaching from within, from a place of self-curiosity that has opened us out to deep investigations and ongoing healing too. Our highest timeline possibilities are in front of and around us, yet even more so within us, waiting to sprout up and out, as we continue to open out from deep within. ❤

If you’re feeling much about this portal or any other dawning and incoming energies, Raphael and Jelelle Awen are going to be offering a SoulFullHeart Group Call this coming Saturday, in which they will offer teachings, a guided meditation as well as space for those on the call to share what is unfolding for them. More details here on soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events and also on the Facebook event: https://www.facebook.com/events/1783574521666832/

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

The Leading And Trailing Edges Of Our Awakenings

by Kalayna Colibri

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Each and every time you have an awakening experience, though they are coveted and desired and often long-awaited and worked for, these experiences also carry you into a greater unknown. The whole idea of awakening is to shake something up inside, whether it moves your frequency up or drops back in inward into parts of you that need you more than ever. Sometimes awakening experiences bring us both in tandem. Sometimes we call this, ‘leading edge’ and ‘trailing edge’ in SoulFullHeart. ‘Leading edge’ is the experience of true and pure love awakening and deepening inside and feeling your actions, words, expression of you coming from a higher, less reactive and more expansive place, and ‘trailing edge’ is the opposite, or what can feel like the opposite; the parts of you coming up in reaction to the expansion, trying to close the gap between it and them, sometimes flooding you with their lower frequency wounding and reality. The main bridge between the two is consciousness, awareness that this can and will happen and that your job as an arising authentic self is to be an ambassador between the two, not negating or dismissing one or the other, yet bringing them together somehow and letting the newfound expansiveness inside to become the bigger container for the smallness, the pain, the existential terror.

I remember being quite young and awakening to angelic frequencies and love. My birth mother had given me a gift that Christmas of my first deck of Angel cards. They were simple yet sweet, not created by any well-known author or speaker. I was in my early teens at that time, or just about anyways. I remember playing with them, exploring them, reading the little book they came with. I did as the book instructed and asked a question I believe, or simply asked for guidance. I did a little spread of the cards and picked them up to read the other side. The messages that came through hit a chord of resonance inside my heart and soul, both. I felt a rush of energy move through me and suddenly felt Angels, what I called ‘my’ Angels, surrounding and encouraging me. The love I felt was so exquisite, I believe I even had tears… I remember too, that the book suggested dowsing as another method of reading the cards. I grabbed a necklace of mine with a small ring on it – a ring that had a nickname of mine etched into it and was too small for me to wear, so I had put it on the chain instead. I held it out in front of me, above my palm, to ‘tune it in’, asking it which direction it would turn in to mean ‘yes’ and which way would mean ‘no’. To my surprise, oh my God, it MOVED!! Woah!! The rush of adrenaline and excitement that followed I can’t explain in words, but it felt so powerful and I felt so powerful to be holding this tool in my hand!

After this happened, I ran to tell my mother and sister about what I had experienced. Part of me felt a bit shy about sharing, slightly worried about it being invalidated, but too excited to let that in at the time. I shared with them and my heart sank… there was an ounce of validation from my mother, who was exploring some areas of spirituality outside of the Catholic church I grew up in along with me, yet she couldn’t let it in deeply and didn’t ask any questions about it. My sister just sort of looked at me, I recall. I think she said something like, ‘that’s cool’. As my first experience of an awakening, without having much knowledge of what awakenings even were at the time, this sort of set the tone for any of my other awakenings that followed. I do not fault either of them for their reactions… their parts weren’t sure what to do with any of this and they probably both had fear and maybe even comparison come up. What I was doing was not ‘normal’ and I think it actually reflected their own capacities back to them, which of course parts, especially Inner Protectors/Gatekeepers who are busy trying to navigate the dense 3D world, tend to have big reactions to, as it isn’t exactly safe to be outside the norm in most cases.

Nonetheless, this birthed a whole world of spirituality for me. It validated so much of what I had begun to read about in different books by spiritual authors. I feel a young part of me sharing all of this, as she was the one who primarily ‘drove the bus’ on my spiritual adventures for many years of my life. Eventually, this part and I needed to separate from birth family and many other relationships altogether, as the lack of resonance hurt and also wasn’t serving my continued openings and my desire to deeply heal.

What followed was many years of seeking and searching. Being very naturally emotional and reactive and not having a container for it, no matter what spiritual path I/part of me tried on for size. I came close to some version of ‘parts work’ through one particular author and speaker who I even studied with for a while and this path was what then led me to SoulFullHeart, which I now teach and facilitate today. It took me a long time to realize that I needed to bridge to my emotional world, not try to put it away. And in truth, my parts weren’t ever going to let me do that anyway!

Every awakening I’ve had has been a mixed experience of up and down, sometimes at the same time, as I can feel my emotional body and also the wounding in my soul trying to catch up with the higher frequencies pouring in and watering my heart with so much love and dawning awareness. I invite you to feel where and how your own emotional body needs to catch up to your own awakenings and openings… to feel how your relationships currently surrounding you serve or don’t serve you along the way is an essential part of awakening and growing and healing. Every new vista invites us all to feel deeper where and who we are as well as who we want and need to become. And, they also invite us deeper into love, so we can better serve love, especially to others who truly want and need us to and are ready to let in their own capacity for the same!

Love to you in each and every moment of your awakening journey… know that my love and the love of many go into these places WITH you! ❤


Come explore the 7 Key Areas Of Life with Gabriel Heartman and me in our new vlog series called Practical Ascension! The playlist of all of our videos so far can be found here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvInP1AB__TzXykZythfad8i

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Filling Up And Serving From The Love-Well Within

by Kalayna Colibri

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To love fully, we must be self-filled, not self-less… this can a hard one to wrap our heads and hearts around, as parts of us tend to be very conditioned to the idea that in order love someone ‘the right way’, this often means sacrificing or over-compromising on many things, including but not limited to, our sense of spirituality, our emotional reality, our lifestyle, etc. It often means that parts of us have been OK with ‘shrinking to fit’ in order to maintain certain relationships, even if these relationships aren’t deeply resonant or nourishing, leaving us feeling drained, depressed, maybe even very ill.

Our 3D selves, often made up of many different parts of us, like our Inner Teenager, Inner Mother/Father (or Matriarch/Patriarch), Inner Punisher, and Inner Protector, seem to have a way of expressing ‘love’ that often compromises even their own deeply held beliefs and feelings. Love then becomes a game of disowning and dishonoring our authentic emotional reality for the sake of others as well as being very self-sacrificial and often martyrs, too. Over-giving becomes the norm and choosing YOU over anyone else becomes a ground for self-punishment and beratement instead of a feeling of needing to fill up the inner love-tank so that you only have MORE to give and receive, too. Chances are that if you are wired-up to live in this more outbound way, you often find yourself drained energetically, emotionally and even spiritually.

I hear many empaths staking the claim that everyone around them ‘drains’ them, painting a picture that their gift of being empathic is actually a burden, which it can certainly feel like to parts of us, especially while this dynamic of over-giving to others and under-giving to yourself is going on. The truth that I have felt and experienced, is that our need to go within is a strong one that shows itself in so many ways… and that the gift of being here to serve love means serving from an overflow of SELF love; a steady stream created within by the waters of self care and creating a sacred space for yourself, your parts, your Metasoul Aspects to land in.

Taking the space necessary in order to find this deep inner overflow is tricky while surrounded by others who do not value this space for themselves. The love we have and want to offer each other will always be there in some form, yet without space to feel and BE in our own hearts and healing processes, means that we are serving water from a dry or drying-out well that needs replenishment which must start from within. It is as important to be with ourselves as it is to be surrounded by others who offer nourishment on all levels of being and in all areas of our lives and that want to support us in taking care of us as well as being supportive towards them.

This felt like an important point to share today, especially as Gabriel Heartman and I have been digesting and sharing a lot about the social area of life in our vlog series, Practical Ascension. If you are curious to take in more about our experience of healing in this area of life and what we offer through the SoulFullHeart lens, you can find our videos on Youtube on the SoulFullHeart Experience channel and on this playlist: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvInP1AB__TzXykZythfad8i

Filling up within can be one of the hardest things to imagine doing for different parts of us, depending on the configuration of our lives, yet it is so important, especially during these times of intense awakenings and upgrades happening on all levels and the increasing depth of our own Ascension processes! Nothing draws the relationships with others that we truly desire, more than being willing to say ‘no’ when necessary, to say ‘yes’ when it feels nourishing and alive, and to find a relationship with ourselves that is truly loving, unconditional and infinite.  ❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Supermoon Frequencies Offer Energized Alchemy AND Rest, Too!

by Kalayna Colibri
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Rumbling, rambling, restless, restfulness!
 
OK, that’s the first thing that comes to my mind and heart when I ask myself what I’m feeling during this Supermoon and the frequencies it is relaying onto and into us. I feel the ebb and flow of energized alchemy. There is not too much that can really be ‘done’ over the course of a day as the rest is necessary and deeply desired while detox from the previous ‘year’ continues on in order to make room for the new ‘year’… yet, the heart and soul-based projects calleth and beckon us into their flow nonetheless and evermore…
 
It’s a yummy time for self-discovery and fullness within. A new tide of falling in love with yourself as you and your parts are invited to start to fall in love with life all over again after a time of much upheaval, change, burning away of the old. It is challenging to be in the moment and yet the moment is what calls the most. It is a time of rumbles and shifts and yet a settling into the flow of the ‘new’ that naturally energizes you as you dive into it.
 
Many ironies, I can feel that! I can feel how the preparation to serve and BE love comes hot on the heels of and sometimes simultaneously with personal healing processes… I feel these rumblings and want to offer them through writing, yet too I am feeling them within, feeling what foundations they may be trying to shake up inside of me as I continue to feel them outside of me, too. I feel the shifts in geography and relationship configurations (or simply additions of NEW relationships to replace the OLD) that are coming in 2018 for all of us as we continue moving into deeper territory within, feeling our desires, baking in them, and letting them quake through our lives to bring us into our next places, our next steps closer toward them.
 
At this time, Jelelle Awen is offering an ongoing vlog series called Metamorphosis, which is intended to help you navigate these shifts as she navigates her own in real time as well. Also, Gabriel Heartman and I are entering a new phase of our Sacred Union in offering a vlog series called Practical Ascension: 7 Key Areas of Life, which is already bringing us to new places within AND as a couple, while we serve love with you! Plus, Raphael Awen is offering an ongoing blog series called ‘Journal to the Demiurge’ which is beyond epic and is also opening portals to major healing left, right and centre… all of this and MORE are being offered by all of us now and only MORE will come too, as we continue our journeys individually and together.
 
It IS a time for alchemical itches to be scratched and lived into. It IS a time for personal shifts that allow in more space for the service of love and the arising of Sacred Humanity.
 
If you would like to know more about us and what we are offering ongoingly, you can visit: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess for more information.
 
Big LOVE to you on these Supermoon-energized days and the ongoing intense yet loving energies of 2018 and beyond… ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

2018 Energies Invite Discernment, Reflections On Your Healing Path

by Kalayna Colibri

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There are many understandable qualms and queries that a wide array of souls have about letting in ‘new’ teachings and perspectives. There’s a way that in a sense, many of us have said ‘yes’ to being a part of abusive groups and leaders – political, spiritual, etc. Perhaps that’s why resonance can be a scary thing for parts and Metasoul Aspects of us, who have been ‘burned’ before, who have walked out (and may still be walking out) abusive relationships on many levels with those who they were once convinced truly loved and accepted them ‘unconditionally’ – which is perhaps one of the biggest hooks of them all and speaks to so much of our collective and personal wounding…

Today, after doing some research into different spiritual leaders and groups, I feel a collective pain and it feels like it pierces and echoes quite strongly. It’s a sense of some heavy influence and infiltration (which was signed-up for and allowed in for good and necessary reasons) from what can be called ‘Archonic’ energies and whispers, which really in a way just feels like the whispers of heavily unowned or outright disowned shadow. To find ourselves in abusive relationships on any blatant or subtle levels reflects an abuse which perpetuates inside of us and the suppression of our own shadows; what has been held in the dark and not only what could be considered ‘dark’ or low vibration. Taking this in as a piece for collective healing is important, yet the more important and power-filled choice is to take it back inward, to find our personal contribution to it, starting from us to us.

The degree to which there is denial that ALL, even the most precious, beloved and highly regarded gurus of our time and beyond also have ‘shadow’ to work and aren’t perfect or above being the human they signed up to be in their life and timeline, is the degree to which it is often suppressed and disregarded within too. We want to blame the others who fall from grace, yet so often there are parts of us, ESPECIALLY Metasoul Aspects of us, that have experienced this themselves in their own timelines and are afraid to face the shadow within that matched and made OK the unowned shadow in the other in THIS timeline.

That might be a lot to digest, yet it feels of great importance if we are truly to ‘clean house’ in this new ‘year’ called ‘2018’, which, it feels like, IS the invitation when it comes to Disclosure’s current unfolding that cannot be avoided personally as it happens globally.

To make the choice to lean into a new offering, such as what we talk about and share in SoulFullHeart, likely brings up quite a bit for some of you who feel resonance and yet feel a need to balk and take it this work in in small doses. This is understandable and actually feels necessary too. There is a need now to truly discern where a teacher, author, guru, speaker, etc is coming from and to vibe-in with their particular views of love and spirituality, to see if they truly work for you at this time. There is an enormous capacity in all of us to let in and lean in and there is a vast amount of distrust that comes with that too, embodied in a part of you that we call the Inner Protector and also the Gatekeeper. Bless this part of each of us for the filtering, the necessary judgments and push-aways, the incredible job they have done and had to do. To be truly led by your deepest heart into healing paths that will not offer abuse but instead continually give you back to you as you find the power of your naked heart and soul again without need of a Protector, is perhaps one of the most profound gifts coming to you this year and beyond and it is definitely my own wish for ALL of us as we continue arising and rearising into our Sacred Humanity, that is powerful, soulful, and above all heartful. ❤

If you wish to feel more into SoulFullHeart, perhaps with your Inner Protector/Gatekeeper held consciously in your heart while doing so, you can visit http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess to learn and feel more about what we offer and how we offer it, and ready much about who we are as well in other parts of our website and on our blog. ❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.