Seeing Ourselves In The Ascension Process With Gaia

By Jelelle Awen
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Transitioning to more light body, opening through healing our heart, integrating our 3D self, merging with our multidimensional selves and aspects/higher self as we are ever more sacred human….ascension. Not an attained state, as much as an ongoing, spiraling, and ever deepening process that we are ALL invited to engage with, come along, and join in a consciously collaborative way. We can look to Gaia as an outer reflection of how this ascension process is also happening within us.
Gaia in Her seemingly denser 3D Earth state, so much happening ‘to’ Her, humans damaging Her, against Her, disconnected, abusing Her. Global warming, oil spills, weather changes as a consequence of so much human waste and disregard. Or so it can seem from the overly polarized 3D lens of five sense reality filtering that doesn’t see beyond the physical eyes or feel much beyond reactions and triggers and fixates on what it kNOws rather than trusting what is possible in the kNOW.
 
Yet, Gaia, moving into 4D consciousness is a sentient, ALIVE, sovereign and conscious energy in the FORM of a planet. She is a Planetary consciousness that is in collaboration with all that happens to Her. As She is realizing this then She can make choices. She can become the all powerful creatoress that She IS, reclaiming Her power. She chooses then to purge, to off gas, to release, to be unpredictable in the form of fiery storms, raging fires, swirling tornadoes, lashing out hurricanes. This is the mess that clears out, that has aftermath and consequences…that can bring death and loss.
 
Rebirth comes out of these ashes and ruins…for Gaia AND for us. As She claims Her own power back, She offers the same invitation to us. The losses can be devastating OR they can be the beginning of something brand NEW, an opportunity or a defeat. Life is no longer happening to us as our consciousness expands in ascension to 4D and higher. We are happening with life. Gaia cannot be geoengineered without Her consent on a higher level by anyone. Just as we cannot be either. No one is doing anything to Her ‘against her will’ just as nothing can truly be done against ours on the soul level.
 
The alchemical purgatory of 4D is soul blood returning to numbed out limbs, whether human or planetary. It is ALIVE even as it is messy. We can see ourselves in this too. Parts of our 3D self and their own thrashes and crashes and our inevitable storms. We realize our own power along the way and how it was never really lost to us. Those souls that it seemed abused us and were against us offering often the biggest gifts of growth and learning. We stop pushing against all of this and begin to let Divine forgiveness and compassion into our hearts for ourselves and for them.
 
I feel this in Gaia when I connect with Her as a planetary consciousness. I feel Her forgiveness of what we have ‘done to Her’ during this 3D experiment as She deepens in trust around the overall process and all its phases and stages. I feel Her compassion for so many souls sense of powerlessness ‘against’ Her. I feel Her deep abiding love for us and, also, Her changing boundaries too as She ascends. I feel Her in the face and forms of Kali, Mother Mary, Divine Feminine Mama. She is offering us a reminder of our previously disowned power that we can now claim again. She is a reflection of our beauty, our gloriousness, our magnificent landscapes. She is inviting us into a NEW alchemy of creation of a NEW Golden Earth consciousness where we are connected to our power even AS we surrender to the Divine and our ultimate purpose of serving love here. We create this state and place, in the now, and going ‘forward’…together.
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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

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SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: Healing The Patriarchy From Within

It’s the release of our weekly museletter, offering ALL of our writings, videos, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week!  Go here to read or click on the image below:

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In this week’s featured article, SoulFullHeart facilitator Gabriel Heartman reflects on his relationship with his father and the energies he took in as a template for masculinity. He shares how he had to separate from his family, in order to feel these influences and heal them to create a sense of his own form of masculinity and heal the patriarchy within. This allows for a more balanced energy that flows with the formerly suppressed feminine energy within:

“But in the unearthing and untangling of the inner father, you find the reasons for it all. There is no bad guy in the process of healing and integrating. Going into my own inner father wounds, I could feel the grander heart of the Masculine at large. The power of sovereignty and compassionate truth-telling. The desire to end the war within and be in collaborative balance with the feminine. I could feel the the edges of my unworthiness and the real fear of surrendering to what needs to be reflected back at me as part of my growth and opening heart.”

Many of the articles this week reflect on the recent events of disclosure, overviewed by SoulFullHeart faciliator Kalayna Colibri and co-creator Jelelle Awen. Included in this is a digestion of the recent news of pedophilia by a well-known Hollywood producer and the #metoo campaign that came out as a response, felt by both co-creators Jelelle and Raphael Awen. Many of these writings have been turned into audio blogs for you to either listen to or read along with our voices.

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Energy Update: Collective And Personal Disclosure Process Underway Offering Important Mirror To Us All

By Jelelle Awen

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The disclosure process is underway. All of what seems like a BIG mess happening on the global stage, world events, and even weather patterns is all an important aspect of ascension. This disclosure process is happening on both the collective level (conscious and unconscious, awakening souls and NOT awakened yet) and the very personal, intimate level too. What has previously been hidden in any way becomes exposed as Gaia continues Her climb, transition, moving into New Earth, New And Improved Gaia-ness. Higher vibration frequencies and energies can’t cover over….they are like the sun seeking out the shadows. They shine their love light bright to illuminate what has been in the dark and reveal what has been shrouded.

So many awakening souls have been looking for signs of disclosure beginning. They have been waiting for the curtain of the 3D matrix ‘out there’ to be pulled back and the ‘real’ to be exposed and shown. Maybe you have claimed your role in this collective disclosure process too…as an advocate, truth teller, and waySHOWer. The corruption, manipulation, power games of the wounded masculine in both men and women have found roots of expression, serving as a mostly invisible ungirding for much of the 3D world. These roots are starting to be dug up now, names being named as the reigns of the false kings and queens and their empires start to fall, and those who were previously ‘kept’ quiet finding their voice.

The collective disclosure process has much to run out and through, many layers to reveal and heal. It will be a shocking and traumatic experience for those souls connected and attached to the 3D matrix as it begins to crumble, dissolve, and collapse in front of them. The ‘world’ that their 3D self has invested in will be declaring bankruptcy in the currencies that matter the most in New Earth: transparency, integrity, and authenticity. It feels unfortunately likely that some souls will leave their bodies, unable to handle and adjust to the shifts and changes. Some will go this way and perhaps they will be offered an alternative timeline and planet to play out the rest of the growth experience needed in 3D reality. I don’t get a sense of a definitive split happening here into two parts or bifurcation, as others have offered. It just feels like there are too many variables here with so many individual free will choices to be made by so many souls. The ultimate choices of love over fear in every moment lead to the highest timeline playouts is what I have been offered around this. ‘Highest timeline’ is both different for each of us AND unity consciousness draws us like magnets to each other to form soul family communities based on 5D or New Earth frequencies.

As collective disclosure happens, you can gauge your own inner disclosure off of it. What reactions come up in parts of you to what is exposed and revealed ‘out there’? What needs your compassion, and feeling of it? What has been formed in your shadow out of necessity that is difficult to see and be with, yet deserves your attention? Because we are ultimately ALL connected to each other, it may be surprising to you the reactions that come up in your emotional body to what happens collectively, even if you have known and been awakened to the 3D matrix for awhile. The disclosure process is MEANT to be both collective and personal. It is meant to shake UP and shake out. You might need to track the news (finding sources that work for you at an energetic level) so that you have some sense of what is happening as it offers a mirror for what is happening within you too. Many of us stopped connecting to ‘mainstream’ news as a necessary choice to unplug and to pull out of the false presentation there. However, now, mainstream is shifting into a transitional stream and some connection with it may serve you in feeling yourself and feeling others too.

Holding space for the inner reactions, feeling where they come from and why, seeking out support and guidance when needed….these things can help navigate the rumbles that come from your deepest inner grounds becoming exposed. As we become more porous and attuned to higher vibrational frequencies, we actually become much MORE sensitive to collective energies. This means we feel more compassion in a personal way related to what others are going through as we feel it more for ourselves at the same time. Feeling compassion at this level (beyond empathy….we need a new word for this) is a sort-of merging sense. Merging with other to feel what they are feeling WHILE still remaining an individual consciousness.

I have come to call this, ‘conscious duality’. I experience this deepening as I gain more access to my multidimensional, higher frequency aspects and their access to unity consciousness downloads to me…..and through many years of working with my emotional body through integration of my 3D self and 4D self aspects too such as Inner Protector, Inner Punisher, Inner Child, Soul Guardian, Metasoul/other lifetime aspects, etc. As I know myself at such deeper levels can I then FEEL and know others at these deeper levels. This is the process that we offer in SoulFullHeart through sessions and it offers deep healing, transformation and necessary navigational support through these intense times of disclosure. More information about a free intro session here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

We are meant to FEEL what is happening here with the disclosure process, especially as it relates to our own. There is so much opportunity for growth and learning in this, which is why we are here on Gaia…even as this can be difficult to remember for the parts of you that experience suffering to be here. Leaning into Divine support, we are invited to feel trust and surrender in the overall process that is happening and that it is ALL leading to the disclosure of what is real and for which ALL is actually made: Love.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

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‘Me Too’ Naming And Claiming An Opportunity For Compassion

By Jelelle Awen
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The naming and claiming of ‘me too’ status here on FB or twitter as someone who has experienced sexual abuse, harrassment, etc. can be such a big step for some souls…a coming out of something that had been hidden, that maybe parts of them felt great shame around or even denial. For many souls, especially those still attached to 3D life, the naming can be an advocacy for starting the process of healing from the wounded patriarchy from within that it seems likely we ALL have inside from our 3D experience here.
 
For others, the ‘me too’ may be a kick out in anger, in outrage, at injustice….it may come from pain that bursts in this stage of feeling it as it moves eventually into the deeper hurt that wants to be felt and the wounds that remain undigested until it is time to feel them. More vulnerability, softness, and even acceptance comes over time it seems as this digests more and is felt by compassionate others.
 
It feels like each soul has their own process here around the naming and claiming of what has happened to them…to label ALL of it as just victim mentality (as some are doing) or that it is ONLY empowered action doesn’t allow for the very individual experience that all processing of experience ultimately is.
 
I do feel that ultimately we chose all on a soul level what we experience here (some souls signed up for SO much!) and the remembering of this can be a very empowering thing as we reconnect to our power as a fractal from Divine Source. Offering this isn’t meant to diminish the very real anguish and pain that is experienced on a 3D level though. Parts of us may need a phase of saying we were hurt and harmed too. The invitation is to move through this to make different choices, to end toxic patterns, to no longer draw abuse or violence from the outside as we have healed the INNER abuse and violence going on from one part of us to the other. Our unhealed inner violence no longer draws the outer violent circumstances as it no longer needs to.
 
I feel compassion for all those ‘me toos’ and the cycles of abuse and violence expressed by the wounded masculine in both women and men…as I’ve felt for my own experiences too and the parts of me that have needed me. All of us ARE ultimately much bigger than these shadow playouts, yet we are in the process of healing, feeling, being real, remembering our way to this and, in the meantime, it can get and IS messy. Yet, it is ALL held in love and by love for us to ultimately return, again, to the love that we ARE in our essence beyond what we have experienced that might tell us otherwise.
 
Jelelle Awen
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Pedogate: Reconciling Our Deepest Darkness

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By Raphael Awen

There’s no greater crime imaginable to us than the sexual abuse, rape and torture of innocent children, and then when you add in that it’s an interwoven part of governmental and religious power structures on top of all that, it’s completely insane.

It’s so off the charts that it elicits the strongest of our right/wrong reactions where we want justice, we want punishment. We want the ‘perpetrator’ to be ‘paid back’ and made to feel the horror they caused by their actions.

In all of this however, we are caught up in the same punisher-shame cycle that created the abhorrent behaviour. Pedophilia, along with the abuse of power, is not created in a vacuum, and it won’t be resolved in a vacuum. It’s going to take many more of us to open our hearts to really feel what’s going on here and why to shift this reality.

The behaviour is not okay and it needs to stop, but all the punishment and shaming energy that we project onto the perpetrators only serves to insure the underlying problem is left intact, leaving more children to suffer, while we rage at the insanity of it.

If a sinner can balance the scales through penitence and remorse, and paying society back, or paying God back, then the account is settled. …right? Wrong!

What the universe is now asking us to feel is how everything from swatting a fly, to ‘raising’ a pig in a meat factory, to grooming young children for sexual abuse and torture is all something we are being asked to raise our consciousness about. It is the taking of life without feeling is what is not okay. Feigning care when there is no care is what is not okay. Love is what is offended here.

But, the reason we are disinclined from feeling this, is that when you do open your heart to how much we crave and need love, we come to weep deep tears for not just the acts of the nastiest outright abuse, but for harsh words and edgy sarcasm, and missed opportunities that all are offenses to the reality of love, that we experienced and perpetrated. We come to see that any offense to the immensity of love cannot be graded, or even begun to be ‘paid back’.

There’s a deep penitence that we are all afraid of feeling, that it will somehow consume us and leave us no more and so we seek to escape this by finding a worse offender to project out onto.

We are being invited to feel what it feels like to be denied love and to feel what it feels like also to be the denier of love. There really isn’t a separation here. Love is equally offended.

This is the only place where any true change (I can’t bring myself to use that soiled word ‘rehabilitation’) happens.

What if all this 3D reality of this heightened duality is all something we set up to rediscover what love is and isn’t? We needed the backdrop of extremes, and of gradients, of things so horrible as pedophilia, a beautiful word meaning the love of children, turned on its head, to mean the opposite.

We created this reality and it is ours now to un-create and recreate, if we’ve gotten what we needed to get from it.

If we leave the domain of 3D perceived reality, we can feel parts of ourselves in other lifetimes who have played the perpetrator. The ones we are seeking the resolution for is ourselves, collectively and personally.

Now, we are about to dial up the public awareness of our greatest and most unimaginable sins thrown in our face as a society and what an opportunity this will be to truly shift the pain and horror to its intended purpose and awakening!

We are wanting to find a new ground based in real love for the society of self and the society of others, where we truly are all one. If one of us comes free, we all come free. If one of us suffers, we all suffer.

Only here will there be a true payback for the unimaginable suffering of innocent children offered up on the altar of us all discovering our essence in and of love, from the worst of us to the best of us.

(Audio of this blog can be found here: https://youtu.be/6GBk31A_Dl4)

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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Choosing Your Own Timeline During This Phase Of Disclosure And Change

By Jelelle Awen
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It’s a ‘choose your own timeline’ kind of reality in this now of so much transition and change. Choosing the timeline of 3D reality where life goes on as usual, with routine, without self or outer inquiry, with acceptance of what has been presented as truth without question….this is a choice that many souls are making for their own reasons, connected to their journeys here. Choosing the timeline of waking up into soul awareness, questioning what you have been taught and sold and conditioned into by 3D reality, reconciling what you have been programmed to be (by your soul’s choice) and who you REALLY are….this is the awakening choice that MANY more souls are making as the collective ascension process moves forward.

If you are choosing to relearn or really newly learn the conditions of the world and the power structures that are operating in the shadows….this can be a heartbreaking process to your 3D self to learn that the previously trusted leaders and government are playing out so much shadow, mostly coming from deeply fear-based and oppressive frequencies. REAL shock sets in as your eyes, heart, and mind open to the realities that mainstream everything has hidden from you. This is a phase of awakening, this truly WAKING up phase, and conscious disconnect from the collective fear-based matrix. It is messy with purges of OUTrage coming up and out, needing to be expressed, finding a voice for the parts of you that feel suppressed. This is a 4D phase as well and souls are also choosing to serve as leaders/healers/teachers during this ‘wake up and shake up’ to help others to integrate what they are learning.

As more global disclosure happens to reveal the shadow side of the 3D ‘power’ structures and also the Star BEing alliances that exist on many levels, more souls will be invited to move from 3D into 4D. They will be invited into the clashes of awakening, smashing against the ‘rocks’ of conditioned reality, and potentially guided out into the open ocean of their own sovereignty again. The Divine will be THERE to guide them, love them, feel all the parts of them that are in turmoil, disbelief, shock, shut down. Souls like me, my beloveds, and others will be there to hold space for the transition that we too have been through and are going through still…serving as guides, beacons, and support to navigate the reactions in the emotional, physical, mental, and spiritual bodies.

It IS a messy time ‘out there’. I experienced a touching piece of global ambassadorship work yesterday as I etherically connected to the ‘frontlines’ of what we could call the Cabal (fear-based power structure) versus the Alliance (previously fear-based power structure that wants to change, wants redemption.) I don’t feel there are any really ‘versus’ or ‘against’, yet this is the shadowy aspects of duality that we have been playing out for so long that to exit it is to go through it. There was the sense of much activity on the ‘frontlines’…no direct violent action, yet much tension between the two ‘sides’ as they sort through how to proceed with a disclosure process to a public that ranges from completely asleep to newly outraged to long disclosed.

I offered love, forgiveness, and bridge of peace to the leaders of these energies (their higher selves mostly) and felt some of it go in. I can’t kNOw that these etheric efforts ‘do’ much of anything but my heart felt lighter to have offered love even to the darkest of energies. When I have engaged in ambassadorship like this, always do the BEings/souls ask for forgiveness for their fear-based, violent actions.

The Divine response I feel inside to them is that they are ALREADY forgiven. I remind them that they are just carrying out their very difficult role amongst the grand playout and they’ve forgotten that they made this agreement. ALL of it has been negotiated on the soul level and they have chosen, for their own growth, to ‘play the role’ of the ‘bad guy’. It is profound to feel this message go into them, usually bringing up rare tears, and also out and through me as it always helps to ease any fear that might come up inside of me.

Whatever our choices during this time of intense transition, ultimately we ARE forgiven for them. We are always invited to choose the higher timeline, the love-based choice, and, yet, we all have our own soul journeys to go on. If you are called to serve love as your highest purpose during this time, know that you are DEEPLY needed right now. This service of love can come through most strongly when there is an overflow of self love from your healing heart/soul/body/mind. Choosing your own healing AS a service of love is also much needed and does seem to impact positively the collective too.

We are being offered the choosing of our own timelines…..I choose serving love. How about YOU?

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc.

Under The Ash Lies Our Truest Self: Death And Rebirth After The Unexpected

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I am from a smaller city in Northern California called Santa Rosa. I was not born there, but a part of me was. It was my heart home for nearly 20 years. Currently it has been experiencing an unlikely event of a spreading wildfire dropping into its core. The speed and breadth of the fire caused last minute evacuations as it rumbled and sparked its way across a major freeway and into residential neighborhoods that would have just as soon seen pigs fly as have a wildfire touchdown into their midst.

It is a scene that makes the mind reel and the heart sink. I feel connected because there is a sense of community that exists there and even though it has been 5 years since I have lived there, part of my heart still has a love for it and those that I experienced life with. I feel the giant collective, “What the f#$k just happened?”.  The 3D anchors of one’s life just went down in flames and the resounding question is “What now? I lost everything.”

While the stun and daze find their way into anger and despair, there is a moment where life is offering us something in a story. An event. What our 3D part has held so dear as a reflection of its normalcy, its safety, and comfort, are very fragile and temporal. This construction on the outside is just that, an edifice to something much deeper than the surface itself. The houses, the stores, the landmarks. When they just vanish like they did in an instant, the 3D self finds itself staring into an abyss of its world.  A matrix in shock.

If there were a more 4D consciousness that found its way into the din of the details, you might find a period of collective reflection. If the immediate needs of those effected were taken care of they could feel the deeper pain of this extraordinary occurrence and see what may lie underneath the rubble and ash. Gaia and the Divine just came with a powerful message and it transmits at the core of the heart. There is actually a gift in it that can only be felt when one is ready to let it in to that deepening place.  The one where Love is wanting us to go into.

Life is not meant to stay stable and constant. It is ever-shifting, ever-changing. The longer we continue to keep it the same, someway, somehow, the Phoenix finds us. I am taking that in in this moment. All that I “have” before me is not really mine. They only reflect a dimension within myself. They are not my ultimately reality. But to my 3D self they are. This is where we can arise in our 4D self and hold the death and rebirth process for our 3D self and let the fire of its alchemy take us to new depths inside of us. In the case of Santa Rosa, both individually and as a community.

I feel the devastation that is coursing through. My heart goes out to all that lost all that they have worked so hard to create and maintain.  To the lives that were lost tragically. The scene is being reported as feeling apocalyptic and while that seems surreal it feels like the most real thing imaginable.  What is truly real lies in this space before it all gets rebuilt and recovered. I hope that this is a moment for many that shifts something profound. It has done that for me with my personal connection. It is a huge reminder that what exists inside of us IS the essence of our being and the rest is an act of letting go in order to feel the truth of that.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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10/10: Offering Rebirth Coming Out Of Chaos

By Jelelle Awen
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My consciousness is not always connected to the calendar….or days of the week or hours of the day even. When essence is really flowing and I am in what I call ‘loose brain’ mode, I can’t even track what day it is and certainly not dates of the month. For the things I DO need to track in a linear way (such as sessions with people), I use google calendar to remind me. The more you experience time as not being linear (and not actually existing at all), the less your lifestyle seems to connect to linear time. More and more, it is arising and truly in the moment even when it is scheduled through mutual agreement that in THIS moment we will come together for something.
 
I did get a nudge from my guides/aspects that today is October 10th….10/10….they seem to like that one. It has felt a particularly flowing day today….the energies arising to a high vibration even though I spent most of it shopping at the mall. Yet, this is walking around high frequencies, walking and talking joy states that aren’t really conditional and just arise. It is the feeling of Christmas coming or Christmas already here and the sense of receiving many gifts.
 
10/10 feels like that….a wholeness, a ‘completeness’ of a phase of letting go and much death and rebirth. It feels like hope and Infinite Possibilities somehow that comes from completing some tough and painful things. Since the total eclipse in August, our highest timelines have been shimmering like a mirage in the sometimes feeling deserts of ebbs and flows of awakening. Maybe you are nearer to yours, you can see it more clearly, you are starting to live it out. Or it is still just a dream with some of the pieces starting to solidify more.
 
10/10 is a sign that even though you can SEE chaos everywhere if you want to….you can also see progress. I choose to accept the chaos as an aspect of the necessary death and rebirth process. Even in all these intense weather events. Temporary chaos to bring down what isn’t working anymore and needs to go. And, then, comes the rebirth…always. Because our seeds want to sprout and will, eventually. The soil always has to be tilled first and prepared by removing that which doesn’t allow for the bud to bloom.
 
10/10 is a marker in our experience of experience that offers a pause to feel what has already happened and the possibilities of what is to come. A personal check in…and what you might find is MORE joy, more love than you realized and even the pain offered a pathway in to finding more.
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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc.

In The Aftermath Of Violence: Continuing To Personally Choose Love Over Fear

By Jelelle Awen

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More underbelly it seems of 3D human consciousness coming up to seen, felt, experienced…to move from and out of the shadows into the light. During this transitional phase, this death and rebirth…there is loss, there is pain, there is chaos…..as we have known this for so long and it is stored in our collective consciousness, it has to come up to purge, to move, to be reshaped and reformed with and into love.

This is when and why the choices of love over fear means so much…on a personal level, very personal, and in every moment. To love the fear that comes in response to the violence on the outside (that always stems from the inside). To offer love to the parts of you that have been baked in this violence and are just so USED to it that it has somehow become a form of love. To love the violence inside so that it will transform into love…this is the personal act of BEing that shifts the world too.

The outer terror-ism is sourced in the inner terror-ism…the emotional states inside fueled by undigested shame, trauma, self punishment; and the soul states in the Metasoul of unintegrated shadow, karmic binds, other timelines playing out of suppression, dominance, war, battles. Consciousness states of terror that can live in the most innocent of places inside of us…not causing it, yet experiencing it, and ultimately deciding to learn from it and move beyond it.

It can be hard to see in the aftermath of violence that every soul signed up to experience it and had a ‘role’ to play. Difficult to reconcile that each soul is in the process of learning and growing and, this, is their journey of ascension.

With compassionate heart, we can feel how difficult this choice is, yet, honor, that all are powerful creators of these play outs. All will return to their love essence eventually. All will return to Divine Source ultimately. All will chose love inevitably.  

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc.

The Desire For Love Underneath It All

by Kalayna Colibri

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Beneath the desire to predict, to plan for, to kNOw ‘what’s next’… is the desire for love.

Beneath the shadowy figures of men and women at the helm of leadership, who desire battles, who embody tremendous self-righteousness, who abuse and accuse others… is the desire for love.

Beneath the shut-outs, the push-aways, the cling-to-forevers…. is a desire for love.

Beneath your resistance to love, as expressed outwardly and inwardly, in words, in energy, in self-harm, in harm of others… is a desire for love.

And in that desire, all of the answers to questions of ‘why’ can be illuminated. And so much more can be felt, heard, seen, healed… loved.

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It often feels as if the 3D world really doesn’t want love. Some might even say outright that they don’t want love, claiming that love really isn’t the answer, or that love is only for the fortunate. Deep unworthiness to receive and let in love in the truest, deepest sense, is surfacing more and more now. There is deep unworthiness in our leaders. Deep unworthiness in fear and war-mongering. Deep unworthiness, pain, sadness, woundedness, in our patriarchal expressions as men and women, in relationships, in ourselves, at work, at home, out in the world. In all ‘fights’ we choose to instigate or be a part of in some way, we are expressing resistance to love… and where love wants to move us, what it wants to illuminate for us, what it wants to remind us that we ALL are… LOVE, embodied, ever-present.

Sometimes love is even resisted with love… it is resisted in the sense of what it wants to bring you about your wounding, which can sometimes be most easily found by going into your shadow. It is resisted by the ‘twin flame’ picture, that offers more suffering than goodness, more clinging than letting go. It is resisted in all of the ways parts of you would rather not feel. Love cannot transform or move you to new heights unless a certain facade is allowed to be cracked.

The 3D world wants love, yet is afraid of what love really is. A catalyst, a river, a cliff, a flashlight in the dark, a path less travelled or never travelled before… and an end to the depths of human suffering, starting within.

My beloveds and I offer a process of becoming reacquainted with love in a real sense of it… feeling parts of you that are resistant to truly letting it in and letting it move you in a new direction. If this appeals to you, you can read more about the process here: www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Also, Gabriel Heartman and Raphael Awen will be hosting a live stream on Facebook and Youtube this coming Sunday, where they will talk more about this process and way of life. You can go here for more details: https://www.facebook.com/events/1529926353733589

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.