Seeing Yourself As The Divine Does – Day 8: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day Eight of my 33 Days Metamorphosis series, I share one of my most popular writings as offered from Metatron and the Divine:

I wish you could SEE yourself as I do. That you could SEE your light that wants to glow, show, come through every living cell. A star in human form, walking around star shine BEAMING, and star dust stuff in your every molecule of DNA.

I wish you could FEEL yourself as I can. That you could feel your precious human heart that is the JEWEL of your species, that which makes you a beacon in all the Universes. Every tear containing the codes to unlock compassion, gratitude, forgiveness, and empathy. So many levels and layers to each feeling!

I wish you could BE yourself as I perceive you to BE. That you could be authentic without hiding, conforming, shrinking, or denying to anyone or anything. Your self consciousness or self judgement held by parts of you could be released and healed and your TRUE self FREE to BE in all moments.

I wish you could REMEMBER yourself as I remember you. That you could remember you are a reflection of Divine Source, that you ARE Infinite Love in human form. Your reclaiming of your birthright around this embodiment providing waves of trust and support as you undergo your journey of awakening and remembering.

I wish you could SERVE yourself as I serve you. That you could serve love TO yourself and all the parts of you that need your compassion, care, and re-parenting. That you could serve love to all the soul aspects from your Metasoul that are hurting, in trauma, suffering, all alone, existing in many timelines. ~

(You can read the rest here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/i-wish-you-could-see-yours…/)

I talk about how this message is an invitation to your 5D Self to show up and see yourself as these higher dimensional BEings and the Divine does. This message is an invitation for you to share and serve love TO you and parts of you AND from that overflow, then, WITH others.

Parts of you start changing how they see themselves because of the mirror you show them, which is in more alignment with how the Divine sees you. I talk about the Inner Punisher part of you that may flatten desires, dreams, and filters your ability to see and feel your own bigness. This part is created due to our 3D culture that judges, contends, criticizes, and compares. Often the inner judging/punishing is a defense and protection that is going on inside of you and these energies are internalized to ‘put you down first’ before someone else can.

So much projection can be put onto God, the Divine, Angels, etc. that comes from a punishing energy inside that is projected onto the outside, saying that you need to be saved, redeemed, etc in order to be worthy of connection and access to these BEings. The message I’ve received and share here is about how big you really ARE, not broken, not needing fixing, and that the Divine wants to celebrate you remembering this. This message doesn’t have a punisher in it, doesn’t make parts of you feel shame; it is something that is based in love.

I also talk about transactabilty and relationality with the Divine and Guides and how much they want to ‘land’ and have their message go out. The gifts go both ways without anyone ‘losing, without a cost or with someone as the victim or ‘something bad’ happening. In 5D relationships, no one loses anymore and everyone (and every BEing) gains love!

Thank you for joining me on this eighth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphois energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos:https://www.youtube.com/playlist

You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog athttps://soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos:https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

 

Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart 

My new book Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension and the book I mention in this video Keep Waking Up! is available for purchase at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books.

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

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Moving From Caterpillar To Cocoon To Butterfly – Day 7: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

By Jelelle Awen

I didn’t know this would be my topic today, but I had a lot of fun going full into a metaphor for the awakening process with the analogy of the caterpillar becoming a butterfly! In today’s video, Day Seven of my 33 Days Metamorphosis series, I talk about Metamorphosis – the process of transformation during Ascension. I compare the caterpillar to the 3D self, with its destiny just spring loaded inside to become a Butterfly, as it is in our DNA to become what we are meant to be as sacred humanity.

Your 3D Self caterpillar goes into the cocoon to bake in soul juices and soul frequencies. This creates the 4D Self…this is often experienced as a Lone Wolf Phase, cozy cave, and going into the void…..it can be a consciousness of frustration, wanting more than you currently have. 4D is not just a peaceful cocoon; it is also a mess and thrash, death and rebirth.

Cocoon phases can look and feel very different for everyone. Some are experienced within sacred union and community, as I have signed up and designed for myself. Or, it could be very important for you to be alone and in more isolation as you pull away from 3D relationships. 3D relationships are about comfort, safety, familiarity, and playing roles with each other. Staying in ‘locked in’ reality, not a lot of ‘play’ or to room to arise into anything new. Your Protector aspect may actually be ready for something new in relationship, while your Inner Teenager could be holding on.

I offer in the video an invitation for you to look at your awakening and all seven areas of life (emotional, spiritual, mental, social, physical, financial, and environmental) related to if you are being more of a caterpillar (3D self), cocoon (4D self), or the butterfly (5D self). We offer a similar assessment for you connected to the 3D/4D/5D self here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions

Moving out of the cocoon phase and more into your Butterfly self happens not through force but through love in the form of soul family support, your Higher Self/aspects, the Divine, getting to know parts of you yourself, and you too!

This video today reminds me of a writing that I shared last month about becoming your Butterfly self!

“You are outgrowing that previously necessary cocoon. That safety place to bake, to ache, to create. That place removed, sometimes isolated, sometimes feeling dark void space. No longer able to be in a lesser 3D ground where others may be more comfortable meeting you there, even as you are growing taller than their imaginations can imagine yet.
You have been surrendering to the process of BEing the transforming caterpillar until now. Tucked into the birthing space, sometimes gestating, sometimes thrashing, sometimes searching for a deeper and wider understanding. Sometimes missing your precious forms, shapes, and ways that were in the known. You are becoming more comfortable in the unknown and in the space where Infinite Possibilities pose no obvious limits.
You are BEing created as you are creating the life and timeline that you most want and desire. The timeline shimmers like a mirage in the distance, yet it comes ever closer with every choice of love. With every choice to love even fear, even darkness, even denser, even differences. The timeline of your highest purpose to serve love comes closer with every shift of heart from comparison to inspiration; from judging to compassion; from taking to sharing; from polarization to unification.
You are BEing created as your Butterfly Self….to eventually emerge, to burst out of any kind of safety or limits, to always be growing. You are BEing the metamorphosis into your arising Sacred Human in fleshy form. You are ready to be born. You are ready to spread your wings. Now, you are ready to FLY!”

Thank you for joining me on this seventh day of 33….as we move into Metamorphois energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos:https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

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You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at Soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.

Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart 

My new book Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension and the book I mention in this video Keep Waking Up! is available for purchase at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books.

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Metatron/Sophia & Your Protector Guided Meditation – Day 6: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day Six of my 33 Days Metamorphosis series, I talk more about the process of working with, connecting with, and recognizing different aspects of self or parts or subpersonalities that we offer in SoulFullHeart. The benefits and gifts that I have received from engaging in this process myself with SO many wonderful, amazing, and BEloved energies/aspects/parts of myself over the last 13 years has been just incredible. I have changed SO much. My life has changed SO much. This is the way that has allowed me to navigate the changes and opportunities offered by the Ascension process. I also offer that session space with me or one of our facilitators is the BEST way to differentiate and deepen this process, more information about sessions here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

I’ve been sharing in my other videos about the primary 3D Self part, which we feel is the Protector aspect of us. They are a masculine feeling energy, warrior-like, guarded, vigilant, and loyal, in general.

Today, I guide you in a meditation at 11 minutes to meet this part of yourself. We get the help and support of Archangel Metatron and Goddess Sophia. Their high frequencies of Divine wisdom, Divine Masculine and Feminine, Love, and help with the Ascension process opens up your heart space and supports your 5D Self. I guide you to connect with, visualize, feel, talk with your Protector in this meditation. Whatever you experience is PERFECT and meant just for YOU!

Thank you for joining me on this fifth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphois energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos:https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

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Check out our other video series about the seven areas of life covered in SoulFullHeart with Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

This is the group call and guided meditation about the Inner Protector that I mention and there are others on our SoulFullHeart Experience Youtube Channel:https://youtu.be/yP0OmxcSScc

More information about our group call on January 13th is here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at Soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.

Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart 

My new book Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension is available for purchase at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books.

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Supermoon Energies And Divine Feminine Meditation – Day 2: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

By Jelelle Awen

 

Supermoon and Divine Feminine energies coming through beautifully today during Day Two of Metamorphosis, my 33 Day video series that started yesterday on January 1st and completing on February 2nd!

In this day two video, I invite you to connect with the Divine Feminine frequencies that are coming up and being offered through the Supermoon and throughout January with ANOTHER Supermoon at the end of the month, plus a lunar eclipse. These energies ARE personal, not just cosmic, and provide a mirror to you for feeling, exploring, and BEing. I share my awakening to Divine Feminine frequencies back in 2010, which came after becoming Reiki attuned. I experienced a deeply touching connection with four Divine Feminine forms of Kuan Yin, Magdalena, Mother Mary, and Dark Mother/Kali. My experience of Her energies since then has just deepened and expanded into a very personal and nurturing experience.

I then guide you in a meditation to connect with Divine Feminine/Mother energies through whitish-pink energies, sitting a circle, and letting in lots of love through the heart chakra. You may see and feel Divine Mother quite clearly, or get a sense of your Inner Protector – a masculine energy that guards and protects the feminine experience from both inside and out. Here is more about the Inner Protector: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Mother’s energies were touching as they came through today and I hope they provide some comfort to you as we continue this INtense transition into the new!

Thank you for joining on this second day of 33….as we move into Metamorphois energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos:

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

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You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at Soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance. An organically arising community may form out of the shared experience and energy of taking in the series….a love-based group Merkabah!

Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

January Supermoon Amplifying Energies

By Jelelle Awen

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Supermoon energies yesterday and continuing into today….wow! Maybe it was the collective ‘hangover’ energy yesterday on New Year’s Day bringing up edges and some irritation….but there was definite amplification of whatever energies were around and coming out. Hangovers can be about more than too much alcohol and for those of us sensitive to energy and who don’t drink…they are usually about taking in frequencies that we are not used to…..lower, denser, more 3D, more dissonant.

This hangover feeling can be felt on the collective level, even if you stayed at home, even if you didn’t engage AT ALL in the 3D ‘celebrations’ of the New Year. As you awaken, you become more and more a receiver of collective frequencies…..as you are meant to receive and transmute them on some level as you expand into Unity Consciousness. Transmuting them happens through the Higher Heart/Christ Consciousness Heart….it is the BEST place to move energies as its capacity for compassion and connection to Unity Consciousness can transform without as much personal blowback (other than what we are meant to see and feel mirrored to us).

Our Higher Heart becomes congested and covered over by unfelt traumas in our emotional bodies from 3D life and also in our Metasoul from karma traumas playing out in other lifetimes/timelines. Covered over by false god loyalties and subsequent disillusions. Covered over by shame, unworthiness, abandonment that live in parts of us until they are connected with directly and felt. Covered over by distrust and disconnect from parts of us that have suffered and still are. Covered over by anchors to 3D life that still settle, shrink, and conform. The Higher Heart becomes uncovered and revealed and healed as we feel the parts of us that hold these woundings…..loving and BEing with them.

It may have been a TALL order yesterday to just BE in your own feeling spaces around the digestion of 2017 completing, growing INtentions and desires around 2018, AND the collective hangover energies too….all of this amplified by the Divine Feminine moon that invites us into feeling. I also felt a surge upward of lower vibrational fear frequencies related to false god-based and abusive leaders in spirituality. The Divine Mother is calling us even deeper into heart discernment about who we trust to temporarily guide and support us on this Ascension journey if we feel that we need that…..Kalayna writes so clearly and beautifully about this here:https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/2018-energies-invite-disce…/ This flush out of shadow leadership is happening on the governmental and political levels too of course with the collective disclosure process amping UP.

Physical pain may have manifested for you too….especially if you took in lower energy frequencies, toxic stuff, denser foods, conflict or tensions that you are not used to on New Year’s Eve. Pain and tension in the head, neck, and shoulders areas is a place where the collective energies can be ‘stored’ (as they mirror something in your emotional body or soul/auric field) and also can be a sign of drawing fear-based energies and entities. The pain moves with self love, holding space for the process and being open to what it is showing and telling you.

I’ll be sharing much more about Supermoon energies and leading a guided meditation to connect with Divine Feminine frequencies today in my Day Two – Metamorphosis 33 Days Video Series if you’d like to take that in as I will be sharing it on this blog later.

Love and blessing to you in this NEW Earth year of INtention and transition!  

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Photo is a ‘supermoon’ full moon rising behind the guard tower on the 17th century San Salvatore Bastion in Pieta, Malta, January 1, 2018. © Darrin Zammit Lupi / Reuter

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more! 

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Drawing Fear From Others; Transmuting It Into Love

By Jelelle Awen

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Maybe you are drawing fear from others right now. This especially can happen during collective events such as the Holiday season when there is so much expectation, conditioning, and conforming to 3D going on. Drawing fear can show up as sudden and intense outbursts from others, being energetically kicked, being ‘insulted’, being judged and pointed fingers at, being unfairly misunderstood, being projected upon without awareness, being excluded. This can seem to happen ‘out of nowhere’ or is the result of increasing advocacy you’ve been doing for more connection and soul resonance with others (as I wrote about yesterday).

Drawing fear from others can happen because parts of them can feel you feeling AND loving your own fears. Because they feel you stepping into your soul purpose and truly being yourself in more authentic ways. Because they want your light to illuminate and transform them too, yet parts of them don’t know how to be vulnerable in this or just ask for it. It can be a sign of YOUR bigness rising actually and increasing capacity to be a transformer and alchemizer of fear into love…for which others are recognizing on some level (even if it is still subconscious to them).

Sometimes drawing fear from others is about seeing something in your own shadow, your Metasoul legacy showing up as karmic patterns, within a part of you that needs you. Sometimes it is the only way to see this aspect, energy, or part of yourself.

It may be difficult to digest for parts of you the drawing of this fear from others. It can bring up feelings of being inadequate, unworthy, ‘crazy’, and wrong. Their judgements may trigger the parts of you that judge you (what we call the Inner Punisher), who forms defense mechanisms during 3D life based on judging you first before others can. Their anger may trigger parts of you to be angry back too and defensive and wanting to state your ‘case’.

The drawing of fear also is happening in the collective as it NEEDS to come up and out. Those leading the way with love and healing their fear into love serve on a quantum way to heal others. Your process around this may feel very personal, yet, your capacity to digest fear and ultimately find compassion for yourself and others, to eventually and authentically feel forgiveness, serves the ALL. BEing with the parts of you that are in reaction to this, who feel sad and confused and lonely, allows the energies to digest in YOUR heart and move into love again.

Holding space for yourself and parts of you not going too much to analyzing, thrashing, and picking apart others (another defense that has been needed in 3D) can allow the energies to move through and out as well. The Divine Feminine especially offers a beautiful, real, and catalytic space for the digestion of these kinds of experiences, which can have deep roots in your Metasoul too (especially if you have been a leader, wayshower, forerunner, in many timelines/lifetimes, etc.)

The drawing of fear is ultimately temporary, a mirror as you still need it, and, sometimes, a deep form of service to yourself, your parts, and to others. Held with self love and self worth, strong boundary setting (to not allow repeating patterns of abuse with others), it can be navigated and even appreciated for the growth it brings and the love it eventually exposes!

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more! 

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Going Yin: Birthing Through A Gateway

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Photo by Autumn Skye Morrison

Enjoying some rest time today. I was guided to just BE in quiet yinner space and let my heart guide me. Feel what needs connecting with inside. Then I recalled it was 12/12 today. A significant gateway into a higher timeline. I have been feeling a feminine container around me this last week or so even during occasional masculine production modes. I can actually feel Her during these times. She is wrapping something around me to guide me, and maybe more specifically, an aspect of me into a new ground of balanced creativeness. When I feel the more pressing or pushing energy, I know I hit the wall of Her womb gently inviting me back inward.

It is far less than it used to be in the past, but when it arises it is becoming much more recognizable. So it felt important to take this Yin space and feel this with my parts, more specifically my Gatekeeper, or soul guardian, for whom I am in deepening relationship with. He was feeling how the energy to produce can come from a need to fill a lack or void within. Something that is not being felt from a You-to-You space. It is the void space that holds some of our deepest fears. Fears of rejection, abandonment, and inadequacy. So much doing and achieving can be used to fill and cover this hole yet still not feel Whole.

This is a very kinetic feeling inside. An upward swing of temporal euphoria, like a subtle brush across the forehead that symbolizes a relief that a part avoided the void once again. The reality of course is that no matter what we throw into it or try and cover it with, it will always be there until we feel that part of us that is working overtime and not getting paid for it…meaning it is not feeling the deeper pain and being held in it with love.

I could feel the deeper layers of Noel needing connection with me. Needing help navigating this birthing into being and meaning. So used to being in the shadows, hiding and protecting. Being fused to the more wounded need for being loved by what you do and don’t say rather than who you are and what your truth is. Not being fully aware of what Love truly is wanting him to feel about himself as a part of a bigger picture of service and surrender.

This is where the infusion of divine feminine energy is helping to birth both of us into a new timeline of leadership and expanding vulnerability. Purpose and meaning. The space between motion and rest. There is a great balancing act occurring in my world today as I surrender to it. That feels like the key into this next gateway. Surrendering to the feelings inside that are inside the covered void. Creating a Yin day for yourself and the parts of you that need your love and attention. This is what is offered in SoulFullHeart as a means to feel the deeper layers of your being to allow for more arising of your authentic and glorious creative You.
I feel how the masculine in us all, both male and female, benefits from this rest and going yin time. Not as a means to check out, but a way to feel the next pieces to move into a higher vibration of joy and BEing that makes us whole again.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Energy Update: 12:12 Gateway Offers Divine Feminine Integration W/Metatron And Sophia

By Jelelle Awen w/Archangel Metatron and Sophia

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They stand at the gateway, which shimmers with lit up, golden and red sparkles of light. We are in front of a literal gateway for 12:12, which is not necessary what I am expecting and yet I’ve learned to be open to the unknown. Archangel Metatron is here in his fatherly form, radiating wise kindness. Goddess Sophia is here in her softness… brown waves of silky hair, sweetly and powerfully wise. They are greeting me here, representing Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine Wisdom, guides for us during the Ascension process, creating bridges for us to experience the remembrance and embodiment of our TRUE selves.

We walk through the gateway together and I feel how they are a metaphor, really…..all these Gateways and Portals and Star Gates. They represent humanity’s desires for adventures, for change, to be brought to the New, to be teleported beyond our wildest dreams to Heaven, which actually lives inside of us. These things are not as much existing in the Cosmos or in space as they are within each of us, representing our rediscovery of our Galactic origins and reconnection to Star BEing Unity Consciousness.

“Do these things actually exist?” I ask them as we ‘sit’ somewhere on the other side of the gateway with puffy, floating clouds forming the floor and the ceiling and the walls. “These Portals, Gateways, and Star Gates? I’m feeling them as also metaphors for humanity’s deepest desires to experience Heaven from within again. Do the dates of 12/12 or 11/11 or 1/11 or 1/1 really MEAN anything since time is a 3D illusion?”

Metatron smiles at me, a blast and flash of pearly bright whiteness. “Everything that lives in your heart exists and has meaning, Jelelle. You give emotional meaning to these events, to these dates, to time and, so, they exist. You give emotional meaning to these portals and gateways and so, yes, they teleport you where your heart wishes to go.”

“The most meaningful questions that come up next for us to ask ourselves seem to be, ‘What do these things mean to me? What do they mean to my life, to serving my purpose of love here? What is the relationship that parts of me have with them?” I say.

Sophia smiles at me and nods. “We do not want to just give you answers. So many souls come seeking us for guidance and answers, to hear and feel wisdoms outside of themselves. Many times, our answers do not land anyway as the heart that is receiving them is not ready to receive them as their own truth too, which is what resonance is. What you call ‘the emotional body’ is not cleared enough of hurts and pains to transact with worthiness. This time, this ascension for your collective, is the realization of your OWN answers and your own meanings that arise as you heal your hearts to access them. And, to eventually come to feel that we ARE you and you ARE us.”

This certainly resonates with me and what I have received as clarities for myself and with others as well. “And, then, to feel where those answers come from. To sort through, with the heart leading, what part of you is holding these answers and wisdoms,” I add.

“Yes, your parts work process is quite clever at sorting this through,” Metatron responds. “It is a sort of inner tracking and guidance system that can sort through what has come from 3D and how it lives and breathes within you. And, what is originating from your Metasoul too, which I am particularly fond of as I helped to name it!” He laughs brightly.

Sophia beams at me, saying, “All in the purpose to return to wholeness, of course. We are glad you are bringing this process forward as you are, Jelelle, and living it out for yourself – and your BEloveds too – as your hearts become then clearer channels to share and serve Divine love, yet still remaining grounded in being human. Honoring your humanity as sacred while you embody transcendent frequencies from within….”

“Thank you so much,” This goes in and touches me. I take a moment to let this in. Then I say, “I did want to talk with you both about the current Ascension energies and what I am feeling about them. I have felt a shift since the 11:11 portal especially and definitely since the Super Moon into more Divine Feminine frequencies. I’m feeling like this will continue through January too as there is a lot of moon energy transmission happening then. Two Super moons and an eclipse, I believe. Less activations and upgrades, which I have associated with masculine energy, and more feminine frequencies of holding, receiving, BEing in stillness, letting in.”

“Yes, this is so,” answers Sophia. “The Great Cosmic Sun has been releasing love, beaming light, and activating much since the start of your 2017 year. All this masculine activation needs the grounding now of the feminine. The feminine holds the space for the INtegration of all these energies into the body’s every living cell, into the emotional body, into the chakras, into the mind. The feminine has the patience to gestate the birth of your sacred humanity. She waits. She rests. She mourns. She feels. Her holding this way allows for less pain and suffering too.”

I feel this in my heart as She offers it. I have experienced this in my own process, of course, over and over through many phases and stages of death and rebirth; birthing and creating and letting go; being so attached to CREATE it and then….set it free. The souls that we serve love with through SoulFullHeart sessions are undergoing this process too, sometimes this is showing up for them in dramatic life changes and relationship shiftings….and for others it is more an internal process of reformation and recreation.

“You all can become Divine Feminine midwives for this process. For humanity’s death and rebirthing process. For your own processes too. To remain in the room as the labor pains happen and to TRUST that all of it is leading to the birth of something new,” She smiles again, although now I notice there are tears on her cheeks. “We feel for humanity in this process. It is so challenging. You are so brave. You are so courageous.”

“We have so much love for you,” Metatron adds. And, I am crying then, feeling that love, feeling their trust, feeling that the answers and clarities and guidances from them don’t matter as much as this LOVE they remind us of, that they have in overflowingly ready supply for us whenever we want and need it.

They both embrace me then and it is amazing to let in as I feel them AS separate and AS me too, MY feminine and masculine wisdom unifying together in love and to offer love. Soaking this in as I am writing it to you, in this moment, as my heart communicates in the language of love.

“This love is possible for any soul who asks for it. Who wants it. Who is open to feel where parts of them don’t feel worthy to receive it. And to ask for these parts to feel it especially,” Sophia says gently, wiping the tears from my cheeks and Her own. “We can support the arising of a wise and compassionate parent inside of you all. We can provide a template for you as you all grow into your own.”

I take in how She is offering a template and respecting our bigness, sovereignty, free will choices in the same moment. This is the essence of how Ascension is held, I feel….as an invitation from the Divine that invites us to lean even as it honors our bigness…. for which every one of us can accept or reject; pull in close or push away.

My heart is full as I complete these words for now and the direct transmissions of their energies through me, although I know the love with them will move through for a while, to be shared in the sessions that I have later today.

On this 12:12 and ongoingly through January, access to the Divine Feminine from within feels like it will be closer, more intimate, ready and waiting for your receiving, your remembering, and your embracing. Ready to support you in the INtegration process. Ready to support your choices of love!

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This writing, it turns out, is the last one to be featured in my NEW book Bliss Mess, which will be available on January 1st to purchase!  

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Jelelle Awen is a Soul Scribe, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

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BEing In The Process Of Ascension

By Jelelle Awen

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I’m not seeing the Ascension picture of a big burst of solar flare and we are all ‘saved’, raised, and redeemed in that instant without pain, adjustment, or a process at all. What I keep being shown and living out myself as Ascension is the process of it, the cycles and the loops and the patterns of it. The Divine Feminine particularly offers this as She kNOWs about gestation. She kNOWS about the patience that it takes to surrender to a process of birthing long-term rather than wanting to be saved/born/arrive in an instant. She kNOWS that the labor pains make the rewards that much more worth it.

This seems to be Ascension then….the process of being born in 3D….the choosing, the conditioning, the programming, the conforming, the adjusting, the living it out because it was what we needed and wanted to experience. We became turtles in shells, needing that safe home container and the occasional moments to stretch our limbs.

The process, then, of our soul coming in as our consciousness transitions to 4D….the awakening, the blood coming back to these limbs, the ups, the down, the Dark Nights, the Light Days, the blisses, the messes because it is the alchemical process for which all of life is created and arises. We start remembering then that we are actually Angels and of/from the Divine.

The process of feeling and healing all that 3D experience of pain, suffering, isolation, separation AND the grounded and good stuff too of 3D living….both. BEing with the parts of us that have done their duty, been on guard, formed the necessary armor for our ‘tour of duty’ here in 3D. This process of unmasking, putting down ‘arms’, dropping the previously necessary weapons, discarding the shells, letting our wings unfurl and have some room.

So, we arise in all this letting go. We rebirth and are reborn as the layers of what we no longer need and never actually WERE fall away. The feminine within us and the Divine Mother too hold the space for this process, even the masculine impatience at times to just ‘get it over with it’ or ‘have it done.’ She smiles; She comforts; and, sometimes, She lights the match on what needs to burn.

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Jelelle Awen (with Sophia, Divine Feminine Wisdom)
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THIS is such an intense time…there is no need to ‘go’ it alone anymore. We offer support through sessions, group calls, and resonant community connection….. very unique heart and soul empowering support for the arising of YOUR bigness into your BEing and into your life!

Sunset Codes Available For Sacred Union Activations & Healing The Wounded Feminine

By Jelelle Awen

These Sacred Union codes activating since the Super Moon last Sunday are amazing, soft, like a ‘spa day’ to let in….especially during sunset and with your partner if you are with one. Or if not, to let in to all parts of you. Christiel and Magdalena serve as Sacred Union guides to balance the Divine masculine and feminine withIN first and primarily. You may also experience them as ‘pushing up oil’ from the emotional body, especially related to emotional wounding connected to your gender expression, relationships, sexual abuse, etc. THIS ground is so ripe and in collective need of healing!

I was able to take these codes in yesterday at the beach during sunset for the first time in a few days as I have been so passionately focused on serving in sessions everyday, various SoulFullHeart projects, and birthing/putting together my new book baby, Bliss Mess: Wonders and Challenges of Ascension (to be released on January 1st, 2018). It has also been the time before my moon/menstrual cycle and these codes seem to be INtensifying the premenstrual symptoms. I have felt this before; how the codes amplify hormones and also the cellular clearing continues of the all years of ‘pain’ associated with our monthly cycles. There is something so importantly and quintessentially feminine about our moon cycles though and surrendering to the experience of it all (even the discomfort) brings in this new kind of stillness, rest, and often, I find, huge bursts of creativity.

During session space with women recently, I’ve been feeling and digesting and transmuting with them of the wounded feminine in more intensity, the playouts of this in this life choices (stemming usually from Metasoul other lifetimes/timelines and karmic binds) of sexual abuse and/or repeated patterns of toxicity in relationships with men, plus the subsequent blocking/filtering of feminine sexuality to keep it ‘safe and preserved.’ In our SoulFullHeart process, we start with the Inner Protector, a masculine part that has HAD to come in to protect and form shields and preserve the inner feminine (and in men too). Negotiation with this Protector opens up access to the TRUE feminine to arise, often through connection with the Inner Teenager part, who holds so much of our budding sexuality, romantic fantasy, passion, and creativity. More about these parts here:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

My heart, my womb, my yoni just FEELS the heaviness and sadness playouts of all this wounded feminine gender expression. I feel her cries, her preciousness, her desires. I feel GREAT compassion for it as I have walked (and continue to walk and hold) this ground within myself and my Metasoul. This work of healing the wounded feminine so She can arise is SO important. Not to just transcend or bypass into priestess frequencies or feminine warrior. Yet, to BE with the sensitive, the vulnerable, and the precious. I am honored to serve it through a process that works to transform and heal her. I am honored to Be her. I am honored to Be in a sacred union where my feminine is watered so consistently and lovingly so I can share from the overflow!!

Raphael and I will be sharing tomorrow about these sacred union codes, the inner union and sacred union, connection with your Protector, Teenager, and other parts, and more during our monthly group call at 11:11am.Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri (pictured in their USness glow below) will also be teaching and sharing! Go here for more info:https://www.facebook.com/events/813881412132524/

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Jelelle Awen is a Soul Scribe, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.