Ending The Money Madness With Wayne and Yeshua- Day 19: Money Is Actually Chasing You

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You weren’t born to chase money. You were born to be. From being and rest and stillness was meant to arise your power and trust and true work. Feeling is what returns you to your natural state of being, rest and stillness. Being, rest and stillness moves you naturally towards giving your deepest gifts where gift exchange naturally supports you and your needs in the world. Money is actually seeking you, you were not meant to seek money.

Wayne – Bit of an emergency meeting here, Yeshua, if we can.

Yeshua – Of course we can. What’s up?

W – I know we said we were going to wrap or pause our series on money in order to integrate all that we covered already, and it’s only been a few days, but I miss you….

Y – I miss you too…

W – And I feel a bit of a panic, a small panic, as Jillian and I looked at our money situation yesterday, some new bills came into the picture and it feels tight inside again.

Y – How can I help?

W – I always feel lately how it’s mostly an old conditioning coming from a part of me that is wrestling with what gets kicked up around a money pressure. I’m glad to feel less fusion and more separation between me and that feeling. That helps a lot. But I still want to help this part of me not suffer so much in the journey I’m taking in making choices and changes that directly affect our money flow. I also feel to transparent this too for others who resonate to follow.

Y – Hmmmm…

W – I also want to have more clarity and guidance for any actions that I need to be taking.

Y – What comes to me first is something I’ve learned from you actually.

W – Really, I could use a reminder.

Y – Anything that you encounter in life that triggers a strong feeling reaction simply needs to be felt. Having a feeling felt instead of just having a feeling is the digestion and healing point.

W – Don’t let me stop you…

Y – Let’s go personal instead of mental.

W – Okay.

Y – Tell me what does the money tightness feeling feel like for this part of you?

W – Well, It feels tight, …squeezed, like some of the goodness of life as we know it is seriously threatened to be taken away. The things that I/we like and feel attached too, especially after all the downsizing we’ve recently done. There’s a fear of being forced into difficult or hard circumstances.

Y – Can you just enter the room of this part of you who still feels these reactions and just be in its reality to actually feel this fear, the textures of it, the powerlessness of it, the hurt and pain of the threat of loss? Can you do that right now?

W – As I just let in this parts’ reality to have real time entry into my consciousness and not to be suppressed by any other part of me who would medicate that pain down, I can feel how the powerless feeling is actually connected to my powerful feeling. I can feel a digestion and a moving of the intensity. It’s been moving some overnight, but I needed to be with it consciously and with your input. I can feel this part of me opening out into trust and relaxation and also an arising empowerment.

Y –  This is the real work, Wayne. Chasing money to support a lifestyle that’s been constructed to keep anyone too busy to feel is just that….a medication to not feel. Working for money is a wimp’s way, someone who has been disempowered to navigate their feelings, their choices, and their life.

W – I’m liking the feeling of what you are saying, but I need a contrasting statement to help me fully embrace it. What would an empowered picture look like?

Y – Choosing to be in life where feeling is job number one reconstructs and deconstructs your lifestyle into movement towards your authentic self’s reason and true purpose for being in life. You do the feeling……life and the divine and your authentic self will bring you the choice points and movements that it has been aching for you to take. You weren’t born to chase money. You were born to be. From being and rest and stillness was meant to arise your power and trust and true work. Feeling is what returns you to your natural state of being, rest, and stillness. Being, rest, and stillness moves you naturally towards giving your deepest gifts where gift exchange naturally supports you and your needs in the world. Money is actually seeking you; you were not meant to seek money.

W – Money was meant to find me…

Y – Money was meant to be a means of value exchange. If you are giving your best value to life itself, life is going to keep short accounts and keep them settled. Money is just a handy way of exchanging value. Now money has been so invested with unfelt feelings of scarcity and powerlessness that its utility as a value exchange is being greatly reduced. But all of that is a collective death and rebirth of what having a life really is.

Y – There’s been so much work ethic piled on to the false structures around money that most are simply too busy to feel and be. Life is relentless though in its invitation to feel and be regardless of the stage of anyone’s disconnect.

W – Wow, so being and feeling is what wins out.

Y – You’ve certainly witnessed this time and time again.

W – I know, but old conditioning is done when it’s done I find.

Y – Feel the leading edge of your being holding and feeling the farthest reaches of your trailing edge. Nothing is more rewarding work. Nothing sorts out your relationship to money like it.

W – I think that gives me the Yeshua juice I needed today.

Y – That was easy.

W – You say so much in one way and so little in another, and somehow it all feels held and addressed.

Y – All part of living an earning.

W – Living an earning…?

Y – I live what I’ve earned. I keep doing the heart and feeling work. It rewards me with a consciousness and ability to be in life in surprising ways, and gives me plenty of goodies to trade to get my needs met too.

W – WWYD?

Y – WWWD.

W – 🙂

Y – 🙂

In this blog series, Ending The Money Madness, Wayne Vriend shares his unedited and vulnerable journal conversation with Yeshua, who he experiences as an ascended teacher energy available to everyone.These blogs offer an exploration of money, what it is, how to relate to it, the financial collapse and transition to yin-based currency, the false self system created around money, etc. Visit www.soulfullheart.com for more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life and read 90 Days With Yeshua: Modern Message From An Ascended Teacher for more enlightening conversations between Wayne and Yeshua.

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Ending The Money Madness With Wayne and Yeshua- Day 18: Pressed Out Of The Nest

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Pressed, moved, changed. Everyone, bar none, is entering a time of unprecedented pressure and big movement. Kicked or pressed, you decide. You have a lot of say though in where that pressure will take you if your appetite is aligned with the desire of the universe.

Wayne – Good Morning, Yeshua.

Yeshua – Good Morning.

W – Yeshua, I’m wondering if we’ve covered where we needed to go for now, as in pausing soon?

Y – I can definitely feel you digesting a whole bunch and shape-shifting your way into this.

W – I can too. I have an internal experience of a man being between two worlds at times.

Y – How is that for you?

W – Well, it’s a tension for sure. I feel my old orientation and conditioning towards life and money arise, but it’s like an elevator that doesn’t reach the top like it used to. I feel impulses to act in certain directions and then I feel an acknowledgment that I just don’t have the same energy for the particular undertaking,…am I making any sense?

Y – I’m tracking…so what happens next?

W – Well, I rest and breathe some more, which might be busy and active in some ways, but I let the itch bake a while longer. In this new reality, I feel a good kind of rest and peace particularly in the rearview mirror, but looking ahead is where the tension still comes up.

Y – And then there’s what’s actually happening in the present, that you aren’t efforting or orchestrating to your conscious mental knowledge, but YOU are taking the tension of the unknown, insecurities, taking them into your heart where they are transmuted into your soul purpose and calling.

W – I feel that’s true, and yet I feel I want more of that in my conscious reality. Trusting it. Resting in it.

Y – You always want more. I like that about you,… a lot. But I need to remind you of the need to do the outbreath too where you let in the growth you’ve already experienced.

W – An outbreath in order to make room to let in.

Y – Our whole discussion around a new reality in currency and money is one that arises in you and it only grounds into your or anyone else’s life by living their way into it, from the ground of their life as they know it now, including their money circumstances and all of their conditioning around money. It wouldn’t have any traction if it wasn’t being lived into consciousness. That includes feeling the pressure and conflict between an emerging consciousness pressing against an old conditioning. This pressure point, and it living in you, is where the alchemy of change is occurring. It includes then a willingness to feel the part of you who feels powerless as you move towards deeper engagement with your true power. You’ve proven that willingness, Wayne. It’s felt a bit lonely, but that loneliness is the alchemy of leadership that creates the space for others to join in.

W – Okay, that touched me, hearing that last part. Thank you.

Y – Wayne, in your heart, you know you have touched, felt, tried and proven a way of living that is new, alive and aches for its reality to land in others’ hearts. That doesn’t change when you feel an anxiety arise or a pressure point from your older consciousness. Am I right?

W – A hundred percent, …most of the time. 🙂

Y – Being THAT, in real life, however that looks or manifests, but simply letting it continue to manifest in the way that it wants to, by facing all of your choice points, by feeling all there is to feel, and by pausing to appreciate the ground you’ve covered is what takes you to your destiny, which incidentally is figuring itself out too as you go. This is the human experience. This is the real human currency……..the point of being here. The exchanges and transactions inside of you are filled with abundance, appetite, and satisfaction. They then in turn shape and recreate the transactions outside of you, with others. That’s the new economy.

W – I like everything you just said, but I feel an undercurrent of being kicked out of a nest, the nest of our dialogue, and being pressed back into my life.

Y – Kicked?

W – Okay, that came from a more fearful and afraid place. Pressed is more accurate.

Y – Pressed, moved, changed. Everyone, bar none, is entering a time of unprecedented pressure and big movement. Kicked or pressed, you decide. You have a lot of say though in where that pressure will take you if your appetite is aligned with the desire of the universe.

W – Which is…?

Y – What is it to you, Wayne?

W – It is being in a place where I feel myself continually being remembered back into love, feeling and knowing embrace, comfort and peace. Deep self love, deep God love, deep love with others.

Y – That’s a pretty good description of the real energy and need underlying everyone’s relationship with money. The need is so profound that left unsatisfied, it turns up the shit of greed. Both the need and the greed though point us back to our shared essence which is being at home in love.

W – Where we can never be homeless or go without.

Y – Where even if you lacked shelter, or went hungry, you wouldn’t ever doubt that you were and are loved and deeply cared for, and that every experience that came into your life is guiding you to more of your real you.

W – And an experience that I needed, and that my soul chose, and Okayed….

Y – Yup.

W – Feels like a solemn ending, or pause place for us.

Y – All of this includes light and fun for sure, but heart open and solemn choice and guts is required. It feels like a good note to conclude on or pause on for now, because anyone’s embrace of this is a point of deep choice. Life always brings around choice points, It’s up to us to check the bus schedule and show up.

W – Thank you, Yeshua, for showing up so exquisitely for this series together.

Y – Let’s find other shit to talk about soon.

W – Totally!

In this blog series, Ending The Money Madness, Wayne Vriend shares his unedited and vulnerable journal conversation with Yeshua, who he experiences as an ascended teacher energy available to everyone.These blogs offer an exploration of money, what it is, how to relate to it, the financial collapse and transition to yin-based currency, the false self system created around money, etc. Visit www.soulfullheart.com for more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life and read 90 Days With Yeshua: Modern Message From An Ascended Teacher for more enlightening conversations between Wayne and Yeshua.

Ending The Money Madness With Wayne and Yeshua- Day 17: You don’t go through money; Money goes through you

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Transactions in this currency would not in any way harm or deplete either party, or the environment. The currency itself would be about managing abundance and co-creativity, rather than a currency designed to reinforce the current chosen picture of scarcity. Instead of having your life grounded in deep dissatisfaction and despair, simple hunger and desire would lead to expending our energy for what so deeply rewards and satisfies, moves through you and a natural hunger for more returns.

Wayne – Good Morning again, Yeshua.

Yeshua – Yeah, good morning to you. You seem to like mornings.

W – Always have for some reason.

Y – Are you feeling any better?

W – Yes, I so am. It’s back to the gym today and chasing Jillian.

Y – Sweet, I’m glad for you. Illness may actually be a good thing, but it’s also a good thing to be done with.

W – Not a clue where we might go today, but feeling so juiced from our recent conversations, I thought I’d check in, connect, and see again where we might end up.

Y – I love how we are approaching this, freeform, feeling, following after desire. If you feel your desire today, what does it tell you?

W – I feel its appetite whetted by all that we’ve opened out and I feel an impatience too to embody deeper what we’ve been discussing. There’s a definite impatience created by our dialogue. Part of me looks at my way with my currency and my relationship with money and judges that I am part of the old and part of the new. That part wants to expedite the getting rid of the old.

Y – Yeah, I so get that feeling too. Desire and impatience is prodding and pressing while nature says, I’ll be done when I’m done. All movement in your life is sacred, and movement needs the old as part of the picture. And you need the space to feel how the old held you, was such a deep part of you, what it gave to you. All of that is part of the precipitation of letting go and letting arise what is so powerfully and naturally and unstoppably arising in you by virtue of your desire and permission. This is actually the magic you crave to be in. It’s right now. It doesn’t need a future picture to be valid.

W – Back to that sunglasses thing where we need to dim the power and goodness of the moment because it’s too much to bear…..

Y – If your greatest need is love and there is no shortage of that love, then something else must be at play that creates the picture of your needs not being met, and fear of loss.

W – We choke on abundance. I so get that, Yeshua. We’ve created a money system it seems to reinforce this false reality of scarcity upon ourselves in our every exchange. But why would we do such a thing?

Y – If love really is so vast and fulfillment so infinite, then any deeper level of its experience also lets in a capacity to feel its absence.

W – But you said it’s not absent in reality?

Y – But you only long for what you haven’t yet embodied. You know something more is there, you open yourself to it, you grant it permission to enter your life and then you wait as it at arises more desire and process and movement in you. Its absence is self created and so is its manifesting presence.

W – Wow, Yeshua, I guess I’m just a bit of a change hog. I like change, and I can, of course, feel where I resist it too and fear it actually.

Y – Being in this tension between two is the sweet spot of being in life with desire and love holding you in what can feel like an insanity. You feel the old tugging on you as you enter new territory of your souls’ essence.

W – So what would currency and money look like, Yeshua, that was created in this new arising territory?

Y – Asking for a definitive prophetic picture of what the future will look like can be a resistance to letting the magic of the process simply take you there. Many aspects of that picture will only be known as they are known. It doesn’t begin with knowing where you are going as in having a map to guide you there. You are going somewhere undiscovered and unmapped.

W – We’ll know it when we see it?

Y – You’re knowing it internally, by feeling it and moving with the flow of your life’s calling and purpose. That gives you a signature sense of ‘this is that’ in the moment.

W – Sounds like real adventure.

Y – Totally and now that I’ve made my point of being in the unknown, there are some knowns we can speak of.

W – I’m all ears.

Y – Transactions in this currency would not in any way harm or deplete either party, or the environment. The currency itself would be about managing abundance and co-creativity, rather than a currency designed to reinforce the current chosen picture of scarcity. Instead of having your life grounded in deep dissatisfaction and despair, simple hunger and desire would lead to expending our energy for what so deeply rewards and satisfies, moves through you and a natural hunger for more returns.

W – Complete with really good bowel movements.

Y – Life moving through you instead of you moving through life.

W – Whoa, that thought and feeling keeps expanding and expanding.

Y – Yeah, if you’re looking for a map, that’s probably the best one I could give you.

W – Man, you’re hot.

Y – Life moves through me.

W – Life wants to move through me today.

Y – That should help with the patience conundrum too. Having life move through you is fulfilling regardless of what perceived stage you may be at.

W – Is there a similar statement we could say about money?

Y – Let’s see: …Currency is something that moves through you instead of……..help me out here, Wayne

W – Currency is something that wants to move through me instead of something …currency wants to increase its flow through me….hmmm

Y – How about this: You don’t go through money. Money goes through you.

W – Bingo. That got it.

Y – I’m hot stuff.

W – You’re sexy and you know it.

Y – I know what’s moving through you. Better go find yourself some.

W – Thanks again, Yeshua.

In this blog series, Ending The Money Madness, Wayne Vriend shares his unedited and vulnerable journal conversation with Yeshua, who he experiences as an ascended teacher energy available to everyone.These blogs offer an exploration of money, what it is, how to relate to it, the financial collapse and transition to yin-based currency, the false self system created around money, etc. Visit www.soulfullheart.com for more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life and read 90 Days With Yeshua: Modern Message From An Ascended Teacher for more enlightening conversations between Wayne and Yeshua.

Ending The Money Madness With Wayne and Yeshua- Day 16: Accepting The Terms Of Life As Change And Metamorphosis

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In nature, life never ends. Death is not an end, but only a change. When an illness comes into your body, it is seeking to bring change. Life is not trying to make good on a promise of security and safety that it didn’t ever make to anyone. When you entered into your life contract, you knew that. You agreed to that. You actually wanted that. Aliveness only gets it qualities from accepting the terms of life which is change and metamorphosis.

Wayne – Good Morning, Yeshua.

Yeshua – Good Morning, Wayne.

W – I feel a desire to connect again with you today though I’m a bit ‘under the weather’, as we say.

Y – Where would you like to go?

W – I’ve been feeling my resilience to sickness for most of my life. I only got a cold every few years it seemed and then only a mild one. I was kind of proud of it. I figured it had to do with my self employment thing. No one else is going to show up for me. It had a passion and strength about it for sure, but now I’m not so sure of how I had it all wired up. I had a money urgency behind it all too.

Y – What feels different now?

W – Now I’m feeling how when the body calls for downtime and enters what we call a sickness that this is actually a sacred movement of the body, that we either surrender to, or resist, or even negotiate for something in between.

Y – How could I help?

W – I’m curious about your perspective on illness. I feel a big tie to that around our personal currency, but I can’t get to the deeper perspective on it.

Y – Nature’s forces are seen as opposing when really they are the gift of all life to us. An earthquake that destroys a city and takes many lives is actually a huge gift of cleansing and metamorphosis and change. Life never offered to anyone any guarantee of safety. Only false life structures promise guarantee in this way. People who are set on only partially being in life seek out false assurances of safety and play victim to and set up an oppositional relationship to nature.

W – It’s hard to feel a huge and sudden loss of life as a gift.

Y – In nature, life never ends. Death is not an end, but only a change. When an illness comes into your body, it is seeking to bring change. Life is not trying to make good on a promise of security and safety that it didn’t ever make to anyone. When you entered into your life contract this life, you knew that. You agreed to that. You actually wanted that. Aliveness only gets it qualities from accepting the terms of life which is change and metamorphosis.

W – It seems like money and currency is all about the security and safety side of things. If I get the money, then I can be in life in this more adventurous way. Maybe then I  will express my deeper gifts.

Y – When really life is asking you every day ‘Why are you here?’ ‘What do you really want?’ and ‘when will you reach for it?’ The anemic and false and safety oriented self seeks to hold life in a safety pattern where life can be expected to look tomorrow like it looks today.

W – Which makes it kind of interesting then how I did decades of engaged self employment largely escaping even cold symptoms for so long.

Y – The pursuit of safety can look very passionate and engaged. You had this ‘I will overcome nature itself’ kind of resolve to you which was admirable to many, but now you are moving to a place of moving with nature instead of being in resistance to it.

W – What does being in life on nature’s terms look like? Can you say more?

Y – Well, it’s really about feeling this piece about surrender to change. As you let that in and are present to it, that creates a reverence for the opportunity that is in this moment, whether it be a seed time, harvest, or anything before or between those. The money systems we’ve created were an attempt to overcome the cycles of nature, to find a domain where continual harvest could occur, where metamorphosis is overcome.

W – Even in this moment, I can feel my brain only engaging so far with the symptoms in my body. Even receiving what you are saying feels a bit foggy, but I felt I wanted to connect with your energy from this place too, to feel what’s real.

Y – What’s real, Wayne, is that life itself moves you. You don’t need to make life work.

W – I sure related to my money world as one big efficiency game. An efficiency of my body’s energy, staying healthy in order to produce more; my psyche efficiency, liking what I am doing and being liked by the people hiring me. Where it lost ground for me though was feeling how I was more and more overcoming something, fighting something. I had it all wrapped up in a feeling of ‘I just need to get ahead.’

Y – I just need to get ahead of what?

W – I just need to get ahead of the demand.

Y – What demand?

W – The demand of the bills. Whether the literal bills in the mailbox, or the bills of keeping up with maintaining my self image to the people in my life.

Y – What if part of you made up that demand as one big negotiated way of being in life?

W – I so get that. But why? Is it really all about safety?

Y – Being in life is being embodied. Embodiment is the acceptance of having needs and wants. Feeling your vulnerability to your needs and wants is being alive. Responding to your needs and wants is alive, and surrender to being in life. Making an enemy of these needs and wants is the fundamental offer in your money systems. I will get enough money so that my needs and wants won’t be an issue.

W – But needs and wants aren’t comfortable in the deadness of false guarantee, so they make themselves ever larger is how it seemed to me.

Y – Till an earthquake rumbled through to address the imbalance.

W – So, Yeshua, what does the new world look like then of surrender to my needs, having meaningful and fulfilling exchanges, coming out from under the yoke of safety and guarantee?

Y – If I described it adequately, would that make you willing to buy into it some more?

W – Well, a sales brochure wouldn’t be such a bad thing, would it?

Y – The offer, the magic, the result, the fulfillment, the meaning, the orgasm of it all is offered to you and anyone in any moment of your choosing. Connecting with the vulnerability of your real needs and wants brings you to the place where your divinity and humanity are not at odds. The experiences that arise from here profoundly and cumulatively change the trajectory and conditioning of your life at a rate and pace that you can self lovingly bear. Each person will need their own confirmation of that and it’s their birthright to have that.

W – Mine by right of my birth. I like that. I’d like to have my needs tied more and more to that, than to the false treadmill that I gave so much of my life to.

Y – Life actually does promise safety or security, but its security and safety is rooted in the reality of feeling loved and held in the midst of never ending change, rather than an exemption from change.

W – Well, if this illness I’m in the midst of is helping to rewire me for that, then I accept the gifts it brings me.

Y – Many of life’s deepest gifts can only come to you in your stillness.

W – Thanks, Yeshua, I’m needing to rest now again.

Y – Thank you.

In this blog series, Ending The Money Madness, Wayne Vriend shares his unedited and vulnerable journal conversation with Yeshua, who he experiences as an ascended teacher energy available to everyone.These blogs offer an exploration of money, what it is, how to relate to it, the financial collapse and transition to yin-based currency, the false self system created around money, etc. Visit www.soulfullheart.com for more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life and read 90 Days With Yeshua: Modern Message From An Ascended Teacher for more enlightening conversations between Wayne and Yeshua.

Ending The Money Madness With Wayne and Yeshua- Day 15: Being Transparent About Your Inner Polarities

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What’s eroding is not the integrous self, but the false and impure self structures in people and governments founded on corruption. It masqueraded successfully for a long time hiding its incongruence. What’s arising now is an integration of transparency that doesn’t dissolve the false self, but rather illuminates it into consciousness where its needs can be felt and loved and honored for the service it gave.

Wayne – Good Morning, Yeshua. Are you up for another round today?

Yeshua – I am if you are.

W – Well, it’s a full day of stuff to do, but I do feel a desire to hold our track. It’s so moving and changing me and everyone I know of that is following our dialogue is reporting profound shifts inside of them too.

Y – I like the seriousness with which you hold this, Wayne. I wouldn’t show up with my share for a half commitment. Half in, half out is the plague of our times.

W – I was minded to ask you about taxes and governments, but already I feel you moving in another direction.

Y – We’re often of the same mind, Wayne. Let’s go where we go. We may find they intersect powerfully.

W – You were saying about the plague of our times…….

Y – Yeah, half in-half out. Everywhere. Politicians want to soapbox about the common good of all that their system and values uphold, but many people can now smell the falseness a mile away and feel the part of them that feels opposite to what they are speaking. This is the dis-integrated self. It claims to be one, when it is in fact two or more opposites. This renders everything they do and say false. And of course they need to keep the curtains drawn and private for this house of cards self to maintain some level of crippled function. It’s the essence of corruption.

W – Okay, that’s a lot to digest right there, Yeshua…

Y – Only because you are so ripe with it, Wayne. You are. So many are. Whole societies are for that matter. The collective is shifting.

W – And I so feel the half in, half out thing as an erosion of our personal currency. Our word and our bond being one.

Y – What’s eroding is not the integrous self, but the false and impure self structures in people and governments founded on corruption. It masqueraded successfully for a long time hiding its incongruence. What’s arising now is an integration of transparency that doesn’t dissolve the false self, but rather illuminates it into consciousness where its needs can be felt and loved and honored for the service it gave.

W – I think I’m tracking…well, I feel a whole bunch being tweaked in a few directions at the same time. Not sure which one to pick up on.

Y – You might say it comes down to the definition of impure……if we were to get a bit more mental here.

W – Please, my mental could use a leg up.

Y – Impure has been defined to mean of some lower moral quality from what is being agreed upon as morally superior. In the puritan tradition, a man had impure thoughts if he looked on a woman with sexual thoughts. Which was and is a major pretzel for that man’s cock. Wow. All of the big three reigning religions share this same cock in a knot way of life.

W – It hurts when you just say that. Ouch.

Y – What impure is really about is a substance claiming to be one substance when it is in fact two or more. The fault is not the two or more part. The fault, or the falseness, is the claim that it’s only one when it’s in fact more than one. The falseness is the hiding.

W – Suppressing some essence of who I am, especially the things that feel incongruent, that I haven’t reconciled, where both sides of the ledger can’t find a balance…

Y – Brings up two sets of books. One book for the half in part and one book for the half out part. Both parts remain at war with the other and suffer as there is no one at home to make reconciliation of the two.

W – When I feel it, it feels like all the suffering in my life could be summed up in what you just said.

Y – And it doesn’t take much to see how money is just a playout of this deep and pervasive split between our humanity and our divinity, between our essence and our image. Money and how it works will naturally just trail effortlessly behind us reflecting our inner movements. It’s just another agreement, a working hypothesis if you will for what we are currently experimenting with. We’re just about done with an entire phase of consciousness. Whole new things are about to be coined into consciousness.

W – But it’s a bit of a major hell in the meantime, Yeshua, wouldn’t you say? You seem…

Y – A bit out of touch with the reality on the ground?

W – To part of me, yes.

Y – See right there, you got an opportunity to bring your half in and half out reality to what I’m saying. You like it, but you don’t.

W – Part of me buys in deeply and resounds with a yes, but I can so feel a part of me, going ‘but, but……..’

Y – That’s the transformation right there. It’s about no longer needing to parade around as one.

W – With my cock in a knot.

Y – Exactly. Even sexuality and gender is not one but two. Polarity creates attraction. Sameness creates boredom. You are not one until you are. The pressure comes off when the efforts to hide and cloak are abandoned. Transparency is your friend and saviour.

W – That feels like the price of admission right there.

Y – Now, back to this part of you who’s saying a ‘get real’ to all of this. First, thank you for your truth. Don’t ever play pretend of going along with something when you aren’t. You will only hurt and harm in the process. The painful reality on the ground you mention needs to be seen in the context of the soul’s journey and humanity’s journey into knowing and discovering itself. Pain and death from a soul’s perspective are not what they feel like to the human playing victim to being embodied as a human. The soul will gladly give its life as it knows it never dies, but only moves its essence through inextinguishable realities seeking to know itself and make the return to love. Every single one of you are expending your life as we speak. It’s about the consciousness you bring to that expense that makes for a different experience that transforms suffering into growth and abundance.

W – We’ve avoided our suffering at all costs.

Y – …putting your money into a bag with holes.

W – Can you help tie this into my tax and governments query?

Y – It’s the great shift I am speaking to that is bringing to light a corruption that has been there all along. As souls, you are no longer willing to give the amount of effort that you did before to the hiding. The shit that is hitting the fan is a long and negotiated allowance for the worlds to now collide. In the playout of that, there is personal choices to make and to negotiate that that feel big, but it really boils down to a choice to keep bringing forth your own reconciliation to all parts of yourself that you discover along the way. One system letting go makes way for the new one to arise. Civilizations have risen and fallen since the beginning of time. Come into the civility of your own heart and let the collective reflect its own discoveries. The collective is now about to be following the individual, instead of the other way around that it’s been up till now. It should be pretty cool to watch unfold.

W – Corruption, reconciliation, impurities, transparency as my saviour…wow.

Y – And the end of the hiding.

W – Thanks again, Yeshua.

Y – You’re welcome Wayne.

In this blog series, Ending The Money Madness, Wayne Vriend shares his unedited and vulnerable journal conversation with Yeshua, who he experiences as an ascended teacher energy available to everyone.These blogs offer an exploration of money, what it is, how to relate to it, the financial collapse and transition to yin-based currency, the false self system created around money, etc. Visit www.soulfullheart.com for more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life and read 90 Days With Yeshua: Modern Message From An Ascended Teacher for more enlightening conversations between Wayne and Yeshua.

Ending The Money Madness With Wayne and Yeshua- Day 14: Joining The Wild Cult Of The Life You Haven’t Yet Known

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Feeling something as something you need to keep up with, as if it depends on you to make happen, is just a common form of resistance, making the case to justify keeping things the same. It’s joining the wild cult of the life you haven’t yet known and leaving the tame cult of safe predictability and calibrated boredom and managed deadness.

Taming that wild is about managing my fears without knowing my tears. I am as unknowable as the divine, both aching to partner in never ending discovery.

Wayne – You’re a lot to keep up with, Yeshua.

Yeshua – Am I going too fast?

W – That’s hard to say actually. I’ve been a maniac for growth and learning this life, but when I hang with you, it goes kind of wild….on overdrive.

Y – Wild, I like that word…

W – Yeah, it’s like there’s this background feeling of not knowing where the controls are or being able to predict what’s coming next. I can feel a part of mine’s life navigation system on a bit of a reboot, …again.

Y – I like what you’ve said about ‘manageable nervous breakdowns.’ Is this one of those?

W – When I take that in mentally, and feel all we’ve been discussing around money and our security and currency in the world, it so gets to the bedrock of our being. Sometimes it rumbles, sometimes melts, and it eventually causes collapses in our way of being in the world.

Y – And it always aligns with real life relationships and situations. That’s the way it gets grounded. People who didn’t think they had much relationship with synchronicity always get tickled with the ‘you can’t make this shit up’ experiences that start picking up in their lives.

W – I love that. I love seeing it in myself and witnessing it unfolding for others. It makes me feel less crazy.

Y – Everyone’s life is this really cool story, wanting to unfold, but the main character always has a say in the rate and pace of the unfolding. Most people though are so deep in their state of half-life that they aren’t even ready to begin to accept that about their lives.

W – So their lives are…

Y – …a carefully managed set of knowns carefully held in place to keep life from moving in its fuller ranges. Tamed.

W- That’s a lot of care…

Y – And it’s a losing battle ultimately, no matter how well heeled it looks. Life is by nature wild and spring loaded to bring us our growth, again and again and again.

W – What is it, Yeshua, that creates that significant move for people to change the trajectory of their lives…….where they move from resisting life to letting in their bounty?

Y – That’s such a big question, Wayne. I wonder about it too. I like the space the question itself creates in me, because I ask how I may be right now tripping on some aspect of widening life. And if life is ever widening, then I am in the same boat as everyone. The only thing I can claim is that I’ve done a few more rounds. But for most people, well, really for all of us, I’d say it has to do with simply being done with a phase of learning. Something seems to pop out of no where. It really is unstoppable at this point because the soul has negotiated all the resistances around it. It’s what you’ve been going through personally and globally too. Did that answer your question?

W – Not really…

Y – Good, then my answer didn’t diminish or satisfy the question. Why don’t you share an example or two from your own life…quester?

W – Why do you want me to share?

Y – Because I feel you need to.

W – Why?

Y – Because, Mr. staller, you can hide your light behind our magical conversation and wait around for something, which ends up being a resistance to your own bigness, pausing for more favorable weather.

W – Okay. I’ll try to do this without that hiding tone. I feel some reaction about storytelling as I set out, that overindulging thing that bores people.

Y – That energy comes from where people haven’t been able to feel themselves and are asking to be felt without being direct about it. That isn’t you, my friend.

W – Okay. Here goes. My life has been the most surprising turn of events since just over 8 years ago, when I made what appeared to be an out of the blue shift. I told my wife of 23 years that I wasn’t willing to remain in our bond. I told my astonished Christian pastor who came shortly to visit that I no longer held Jesus as my personal saviour. I told my best friend whose mother died that same week that I wanted to end the false aspects of our connection, and that I wouldn’t be attending the funeral. I was so done with something, an entire lifetime of investment, and really, in many ways, I was surprised more than anyone in my life. Life gave me a definite going on place at the same time and I was travelling once a month for a ten hour drive to what only looked like I’d joined some cult. And of course, I’d done just that in another way. I switched cults. Cults are what we sign up for everyday and just aren’t willing to admit. Three years later, the leader of that cult, who I esteemed more than any man on the planet, sent me packing. I managed to rob the vault just before I left though, and taunted him with it too. Jillian and I connected. Another huge soul journey place of moving on. It took a series of clearing the decks, being in the ‘emptiness,’ and letting life again move me, move me through my wounding. One of my biggest achievements in this life is being fluid with my own tears. I went through deep phases of deep tears. They weren’t victim’s tears of powerlessness, but transformative tears of feeling my real pains and layer after layer of false ways of relating in life letting go. I felt the pains of every part of me that naturally came up for me. I was finally big enough to feel. This all of course was held by continuing to make emotionally conscious choices in all of my relationships in life, even so far as not being a part of my two daughters’ weddings, or even in their lives at present. I guess you could say that my currency doesn’t flow between us, at least not transactionally right now. I know my heart and soul has deep love for them and feels at rest and peace with what, to most, feels like a completely crazy choice, given the good man and exemplary father that I was. Many times, Yeshua, it was simply finding the courage to say no to what I knew I wasn’t. That wasn’t slamming and locking a door to relationships, it was a new boundary, along with a door, yes, but with an invitation and an unlocked door is how I’d say it. I left the cult of unconditional love and entered the one of conditional love. All you need to be in my life is to be curious about me and willing to see me for who I am now, and then we can find our way whatever that way may be. How’d I do?

Y – That was a pretty good run, Wayne. I so feel and honor every part of you that you’ve felt through deep tears. There’s an undeniable substance to that, a power, a fwump in the third and fourth chakra that is undeniable. I get why you’d have some difficulty figuring where to point that loaded heart shotgun. Remember when I said that piece about not hiding your light under a bushel basket or that a city on a hill cannot be hid?

W – Yeah, I sure do…

Y – That’s the ‘a lot to keep up with’ feeling you’re going through at the moment. All you need to do is find new permission, willingness. You don’t need to keep up with anything or make anything happen. Feeling something as something you need to keep up with, as if it depends on you to make happen, is just a common form of resistance, making the case to justify keeping things the same. It’s joining the wild cult of the life you haven’t yet known and leaving the tame cult of safe predictability and calibrated boredom, and managed deadness.

W – Hehehe, so I can either manage my nervous breakdowns or manage my deadness?

Y – What would you say about that?

W – This gets again to the bedrock currency of my life. My natural state is wild. Taming that wild is about managing my fears without knowing my tears. I am as unknowable as the divine, both aching to partner in never ending discovery. I will if you will…. I will if you won’t. I will through you. Thy will be done. My will be done. Both sacred.

Y – So what is your will choosing right now?

W – I knew you weren’t quite done….hmmm, right now I am choosing to say yes to arising choices and circumstances with a yes to my own bigness, an acknowledgment of my own bigness, my call to lead, and a surrender to my own followers, those who authorize and certify me to serve their sovereign being with the things I’ve learned and earned.

Y – That’s getting pretty clear, Wayne. Clearer than I‘ve ever heard you. Get ready for more them ‘you can’t make this shit up’ synchros. You are aligning your life with an essential wild flow of nature itself. Life extends that offer to everyone by virtue of their life. To anyone who wants to and is willing, I say ‘come.’

W – You’re still a lot to keep up with, Yeshua.

Y – Don’t project that onto me, man. I need today just to get ready for you again.

W – You might need two. 🙂

Y – I just might. I have all the time in the world.

W – I’m with you.

In this blog series, Ending The Money Madness, Wayne Vriend shares his unedited and vulnerable journal conversation with Yeshua, who he experiences as an ascended teacher energy available to everyone.These blogs offer an exploration of money, what it is, how to relate to it, the financial collapse and transition to yin-based currency, the false self system created around money, etc. Visit www.soulfullheart.com for more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life and read 90 Days With Yeshua: Modern Message From An Ascended Teacher for more enlightening conversations between Wayne and Yeshua.

Ending The Money Madness With Wayne and Yeshua- Day 13: Spending From Your Existential Trust Account

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Deep existential trust is coming to know and feel your well being, your wealth, your worth, that your investments are safe, that you will never and can never be outside of being held in this trust.

Wayne – Good Morning again, Yeshua. I’m curious where we might go today.

Yeshua – You know, Wayne, most days I don’t know either until we do. It takes two to channel. My sense is we’ll keep going until we feel it’s complete, for now at least.

W – I like your senses. 🙂

Y – Thank you. Any sense of where we might go today?

W – I am feeling something this morning about people taking in our words and writing deeply and them feeling despair around the gap between what we’re discussing and where they’re at.

Y – When you say that, Wayne, I get two things: one is a feeling of an old caretaking vibe in you, where you made it your job to help people like a nice Christian pastor would and then I also get your ache to have people join you in this new reality. Does that feel accurate?

W – There you go with those senses again. Yes, that pretty much captures it.

Y – Well, my ‘sense’ is this….People need their despair, often times to be left alone in it, to bake in it. Despair is what eventually moves them. Caretaking nice guys come along and seek to get ahead by helping people bleed the pressure for people of their very alchemical despair with some nice solutions. Christianity fits real well in that, so does most all of what’s called, ‘spirituality’ today. How are people to get any leverage on their soul’s life lessons when nice guys come along and offer them a little relief?

W – But how does that fit with our energy in sharing these downloads we’ve been doing together?

Y – This stuff goes to whom it’s been given to…. to those with ears ready to hear. They’ve earned their way here, over plenty more than just this life.

W – So then, how’s this not an elite and special chosen one’s game?

Y – Holding your worth, your real worth, doesn’t need any glamour or public recognition to make it real. Glamour and public recognition is usually a sign that it’s been corrupted into a self unworthiness game. Real worth just is, and real worth is imputed and conveyed upon the bearer by the one willing to pay. You paid your way into this. You earned it. You are deserving of it. It’s yours and no one can take it away.

W – If I contrast your energy just now with my question, I get how my elite question is usually a defensive part of us making a case for staying stuck because it is afraid of inhabiting our real power.

Y – The collective is full of endeared values and beliefs that are warming blankets to staying stuck. You share in the collective energy. It holds you in your despair until you are ready to launch your marked journey out of it.

W – With a rocket ship strapped to your ass, it feels like.

Y – Well, it’s back pressured, no doubt. These are soul lessons you’ve been aching to pop for a long time. It’s crazy, the pace of it, no doubt, and yet there’s grace to walk out the steps of it too. Your soul and the divine co-create this stuff while you thought you were just sleeping.

W – There’s so much autonomous power in our essence, I’m feeling. It doesn’t feel real at all to the nice guy who goes about swapping niceties, or the guy who bullshits at the bar swapping densities.

Y – And Wayne….this is the bedrock of currency in your life…deeper and deeper coming to terms with your power, coming to terms with your LIFE, coming to terms with your worth, your essence and your despair…all of it…that makes changes to what you do for money, how you draw money. Poverty and abundance are both of the heart. Both get their permission and backing from the heart. They are both a made up agreement between you and you.

W – Okay, now we’re tweaking some stuff again.

Y – What’s tweaking in you?

W – This is a whole new world, Yeshua. Most folks aren’t interested in that. They just want a fix for the one they’ve got.

Y – And, my god, don’t spend your life giving them a little pill to pop to help them manage. Affording them relief from symptoms that they are in fact choosing is interfering with their autonomy and power. Let the dead bury the dead. You go on into the life you have chosen. Live it. breathe it. Hold it like the king you are. Make no apology, Wayne. Love ‘em and leave ‘em.

W – I don’t feel you saying that lightly.

Y – And you know this if anyone does, Wayne. Truly loving and leaving someone because of shifting values is a respect for them and you that goes far deeper and takes way more heart to bear. It recognizes that your transactions and exchanges are complete on one level and now move to a different level. You can never really separate from anyone, on another level, as you are all connected, but you can and must choose how, when, and why you interact with anyone. You get to do this because of your interconnectedness with all things. Your life and relationships are a currency. It is always changing to express what is moving or current in you.

W – In fact, on a soul level, staying connected with someone when you are in fact complete with them is to actually be in a mutual harm pact with them.

Y – All wired up around unfelt existential terror that hasn’t been digested yet.

W – Sometimes, I don’t know whether to ask you to stop or keep going…

Y – I don’t need or want a moderator.

W – And I want to host the people’s interest reading this.

Y – Feel into what’s your job here, Wayne. People to whom this is given will have no problem receiving it. People to whom it is not given won’t likely have even found this writing or made their way this far. This is real currency….finding people who like the color of your cash. Your currency will not spend with everyone and it isn’t meant to. It comes from a different world. It flows among its own members.

W – And how does it effectively draw new members?

Y – It does that powerfully and effortlessly when you are ready to be you and not some half version of you, stuck between worlds, being nice, relateable and relevant.

W – Yeshua, I am so wanting this old structure in me to let go.

Y – Then get ready for the shift because LIFE is wanting to bring it to you. Your soul’s despair is moving from a phase where it was used to keep you small while that was what you needed and choose, to a phase where your despair is healing into a trust allowing you now to both experience and lead deep soul trust.

W – Wow, trust…..the stuff money and currency is made of…

Y – Deep existential trust is coming to know and feel your well being, your wealth, your worth, that your investments are safe, that you will never and can never be outside of being held in this trust.

W – Write a few checks on that account, huh?

Y – And see how they spend in heart and soul transactability in everyday interactions with people and money. Your everyday choices are always expressions of this. They have a one-to-one correlation with what’s true on your inside.

W – You know, Yeshua, I think a lot more folks might be looking for a radical new world than the one we’ve built so far. This one seems to be coming apart at the seams like there’s no tomorrow.

Y – The new world is emerging, Wayne, and you’ve just been ready to ride on the wave.

W – Thanks for helping me with your intensity around not shrinking back…

Y – You’ve come to far to go back, Wayne.

W – You’re right, I have. 🙂

In this blog series, Ending The Money Madness, Wayne Vriend shares his unedited and vulnerable journal conversation with Yeshua, who he experiences as an ascended teacher energy available to everyone.These blogs offer an exploration of money, what it is, how to relate to it, the financial collapse and transition to yin-based currency, the false self system created around money, etc. Visit www.soulfullheart.com for more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life and read 90 Days With Yeshua: Modern Message From An Ascended Teacher for more enlightening conversations between Wayne and Yeshua.

Ending The Money Madness With Wayne and Yeshua- Day 12: The Currency Of Transparent Truthtelling

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Money as most know it today is coined to deaden the human hearts’ capacity to both take in abundance as well as give it out. This transparency of truth telling in all interactions is sourced in the world where the false split between spirit and matter is no longer holding sway. The currency that you are issuing is both backed by and the expression of this new sovereign nation that you are citizen of, called YOU.

Wayne – Today I feel eager to talk, Yeshua. Not sure why, you must have something good up your sleeve.

Yeshua – Maybe it’s you that has something good up your sleeve and I’m just going to take it in and rest today?

W – What I get that’s cool is that we need each other to alchemize the conversation and heart space to get to something we otherwise couldn’t.

Y – We are a bit codependent that way, aren’t we?

W – More like co-independent, I’d call it, or maybe we could call it coin-dependent to make up another world…funny, I meant to say ‘word’ just now and ‘world’ showed up.

Y – Where you going, man? Not makin’ much sense …co-independent world?

W – Not sure either, Yeshua. I’m just free associating a bit here, because I can. This is my writing. It is my offering. It’s my calling. Readers can take it or leave it. They can close their browser the same way they opened it.

Y – Gotta offend some folks if you ever hope to help any folks, for sure. This deal of being liked in order to gain influence is the phoniest deal going right now on the planet. It’s reaching epic proportions on the world superpower stage. Weakness can only masquerade as power for so long as it is diminished in every transaction it undertakes.

W – I’m at such a turning point in my own heart and life, Yeshua. I know you know that. Thanks for pressing the issue. I’ve learned how to express power in the written word, even the spoken word, but where I’ve had the bigger struggle is face to face. I’ve tended towards efforting or maintaining people liking me.

Y – Why do you suspect you’ve done that?

W – Well, from a pure needs analysis, I know I want to be liked and loved like anyone else. My wounding just has this particular way of going about it. But from a heart and calling sense, I feel my soul has been wrestling through some issues around doing no harm with the power I’ve been afraid to manifest in my life, but that I know is there…..waiting.

Y – Without the risk of offending another person, there is only withholding, falsity and impotence. This is the alchemy of true conversation that mutually converts both. Without the transparency, it’s rendered impotent.

W – Unconverted and away from God…

Y – Hidden away from the god that you are, from the intimacy that god seeks with you and through you, and hides you from being the god you in fact are to and with others. Counterfeit. Parading as something less that you are.

W – We’re onto something here that though we haven’t directly mentioned money or currency yet today, it is what we’re talking about.

Y – Yes. We’re talking about a current between two that can either be modulated down to impotence or a much more powerful exchange where neither is left unchanged. Money as most know it today is coined to deaden the human hearts’ capacity to both take in abundance as well as give it out. This transparency of truth telling in all interactions is sourced in the world where the false split between spirit and matter is no longer holding sway. The currency that you are issuing is both backed by and the expression of this new sovereign nation that you are a citizen of, called YOU.

W – That I am being re-membered back into…

Y – In every exchange, in every moment, you to you, you to other, you to your body, you to your planet. It’s all one. No counterfeiting going on here. You so need to take this new reality for a spin. It will solve and answer every quandary your soul has struggled with, Wayne, about being in your full power and that likeability thing.

W – I might be liked beyond my wildest dreams.

Y – It’s worked that way with you and Jillian. The universe has given you one big nudge of confidence that it’s betting on you to take to the max.

W – Pretty good problem to be stuck with, really, and yet it can be a hell too at times, to let go into, to find the vulnerability needed to find our next openings. But all so very worth the struggle.

Y – The fruits of intimacy and the fruits of finding every barrier inside of you to love, is a universe apart from what most people call unconditional love…that redressed bandied about whore. Of course real love has conditions. I am having this conversation with you out of the real kind of love where my needs being met are conditional to me participating. Where did we ever think we could exclude our self interest?

W – Only in that universe where the self is bad and where self is to be diminished by spiritual practice.

Y – And where you need to add sin to sin to hide the falsity of it all. How money works and doesn’t work is where this universal love lesson is being played out, personally and globally.

W – So then, if I’m not hiding the power of my real truth, and I’ve given up on being liked over being real, and I add to that letting go of pretending that I am unconditionally loving…I am broadcasting in a very different frequency, which is my bedrock currency…

Y – …which will have a huge affect on how you find food and shelter and what you want and desire. You enter the domain where money is then your recreation.

W – Money as fun, and creation…Yeshua, this is so far removed from the fear domains, that I get I can only take in as I walk into it more and more. I need to walk into it to feel the heart and sense of it, to let it in.

Y – This is the coin of the new world, Wayne. It spends in entirely new and powerful ways, where neither is diminished in transaction, where abundance is let in, fostered and responded to.

W – You’ve got me full up. I know when to pull up to the table and when I’m full…

Y – No room for dessert?

W – Whad’ya mean?

Y – The dessert is just that….what you deserve as the sacred being you are, in real time, in life, in transaction, go find room to let that in. 🙂

W – And give that out.

Y – I like it, I love it, I want some more of it.

In this blog series, Ending The Money Madness, Wayne Vriend shares his unedited and vulnerable journal conversation with Yeshua, who he experiences as an ascended teacher energy available to everyone.These blogs offer an exploration of money, what it is, how to relate to it, the financial collapse and transition to yin-based currency, the false self system created around money, etc. Visit www.soulfullheart.com for more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life and read 90 Days With Yeshua: Modern Message From An Ascended Teacher for more enlightening conversations between Wayne and Yeshua.

Ending The Money Madness With Wayne and Yeshua- Day 11: Money As A University In Falseness

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The money of anonymity, which is what your fiat currencies are, are designed that way. They are a university in falseness. You don’t need to know the person or entity you are transacting with because the money is sacred over knowing and feeling the real intentions of the person, or their real needs. This is the currency of not being known. Incognito. I don’t ever care to need or know you. I’ve paid you, or, you need to pay me, end of story. It fundamentally denies our interconnectedness and our being. I’d say that’s pretty false to what a human being is.

Wayne – Good Morning again, Yeshua.

Yeshua – Good Morning, Wayne, what’s up? I can always tell when something is up.

W – I was feeling how our money that we claim makes the world go around actually is what makes a very false world go around…

Y – Now, I know that hasn’t dawned on you just now. What’s pressing you about it now?

W – I’m feeling that how we bow and serve our money needs in the world is like entering a university and getting a degree in being a false self.

Y – Now, that’s a strong statement. I think the readers are going to need a little more convincing to jump on board with that one…

W – If that’s the worthy goal here…

Y – Keep going, I’m liking the sound of this.

W – Well, for someone who is not feeling or wrestling with any sense of falseness in themselves around their participation in the money world, I don’t really want the task of convincing them.

Y – So then what’s the point of publishing this dialogue?

W – You’re playing dumb right now, aren’t you?

Y – Me? … Okay, I’m just questing with the questions, Wayne. Probing, seeking, to get to the bottom of things.

W – Actually Yeshua, you’re naming a push-pull inside of me. I like to patiently teach for a while and then when I feel people’s resistance and disinterest to their own healing, especially the folks who claim to want healing, I’d like to scream. People had you sized up for being a patient teacher back in your day, but then again, you could be just plain confrontive of people too. I’m at a point of needing some help. I know this ties into money too.

Y – What if you’ve just come up against a layer of your own falseness?

W – See what I mean about you being confrontive?

Y – Confrontive, yes, but not mean.

W – Thank you. I feel that. I do feel my participation in the realm of earning a living as a painter has fostered in me a politeness, a reasonableness, a trustworthiness, and a functionality picture that was designed to work, more than it was to bring my honest feelings to the situation. It wasn’t about being transparent. It was about being liked and gaining the advantage, and depositing the check. And, yes, that feels like a layer of falseness to me today that I’m getting really close to being done with.

Y – The money of anonymity, which is what your fiat currencies are, are designed that way. They are a university in falseness. You don’t need to know the person or entity you are transacting with because the money is sacred over knowing and feeling the real intentions of the person, or their real needs. This is the currency of not being known. Incognito. I don’t ever care to need or know you. I’ve paid you, or, you need to pay me, end of story. It fundamentally denies our interconnectedness and our being. I’d say that’s pretty false to what a human being is.

W – Well, I agree, but what if I bring some deeper sentiments to the exchange, some more care and love?

Y – That’s what made this stinking system bearable for as long as it has, but it still stinks, and it still is at root for most people’s falseness in the world.

W – Fiat Currency is at root for most people’s falseness in the world…

Y – That’s what I said. Your money system breeds falseness.

W – What is the falseness we are referring to?

Y – You tell me.

W – I’d say it has to do with the acceptable form of lying we are given to every day in our society where we conceal what we are really feeling or needing in any given situation and offer some other face on the situation.

Y – And why would anyone do such a thing?

W – Because they are convinced that is the way to get their needs met.

Y – And how is it working?

W – Well, it was working sort of fine, but only while we kept much deeper needs of ours off of our radar. The need to be real. The need to offer our deepest gifts in the world and be in exchange for that. The need to be human instead of a cog in a false system that enriches others with a false enrichment at the expense of ourselves and the planet. It’s a big subconscious shit pile that I hope to God is nearing the end of its life cycle.

Y – I love you.

W – Why?

Y – For lots of reasons, but in this moment. I love you for calling a spade a spade.

W – Thank you.

Y – See that. We exchanged some truth. Real needs were met, and we both were added to, not taken away from.

W – I like that. I’d like to get on with more of that in my money dealings world.

Y  – Was that a request for advice?

W – Yes.

Y – Why didn’t you just ask?

W – Sometimes you don’t like questions blocking feeling.

Y – That was yesterday. Today, I don’t like the lack of questions blocking feeling.

W – Good, yes, I’d love some advice. I’ve got some practical learning to do in this domain that feels like it’s gonna get real tense if I don’t.

Y – Okay, so here’s my advice. Take whatever situation involving money, or an exchange of currency of any kind, it could be an exchange of words, and feel where you feel a fear pressure to hide what you are really wanting or needing in the exchange. See if you can pause the exchange in real time long enough to bring your truth, quandary or question or need into the picture, into the decision, into the exchange. This raises the frequency big time to the exchange and invites the other involved to meet you there, to transact with you on that level.

W – And what if they can’t find their own courage to participate in the transparency?

Y – Well, you have still raised your frequency from fear to abundance and that by itself is huge. You haven’t harmed or diminished yourself by how you approached the transaction. Remember, any harm being done to another person always involves harm to yourself. But, what you may find, and this is cool to watch, is that your courage and its overflow can spark a courage response in them to follow your lead, if they’re ready for that. They’re going to need to do their own homework to follow that through ultimately, but they can get a boost from you to get them started.

W – You should write an advice column.

Y – How’s this landing in you?

W – It feels really big inside of me in one way, and a formidable challenge, and yet it might just be a natural not so big next step too. One of those ‘both are true’ situations. When I pretend or conceal my truth in some way that has a basis in fear, I pave over some genuine need in that moment and feel diminished and malnourished as a result. I didn’t actually get what I really needed. I kept some of my most basic needs out of the picture, like my need to not hide.

Y – Can you imagine the world you’ll create going forward just test driving this more and more?

W – More steps out of the jungle.

Y – Yes and so much more. You’d move from earning a dying to earning a real living. And this living wouldn’t be limited to your survival needs of shelter and food, but your thrival needs of being seen and truly seeing others.

W – And the earning wouldn’t be work, but energized play.

Y – Totally.

W – You really think my food and shelter needs can get met this way? Part of me still finds this unbelievable.

Y – Really?

W – Well, it must be, Yeshua, or I wouldn’t be struggling with this lesson…

Y – Fair enough, but don’t be too hard on yourself. Trusting abundance is one of those never graduating classes. It’s infinite learning. All you can do is work on letting it in more and more.

W – That’s what’s up for me today. Thanks again, Yeshua.

Y – You’re always welcome.

In this blog series, Ending The Money Madness, Wayne Vriend shares his unedited and vulnerable journal conversation with Yeshua, who he experiences as an ascended teacher energy available to everyone.These blogs offer an exploration of money, what it is, how to relate to it, the financial collapse and transition to yin-based currency, the false self system created around money, etc. Visit www.soulfullheart.com for more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life and read 90 Days With Yeshua: Modern Message From An Ascended Teacher for more enlightening conversations between Wayne and Yeshua.

Ending The Money Madness With Wayne and Yeshua- Day 10: Harming Others As A Way to Self Gain is Never True Gain

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Harming others as a way to self gain is never and can never be a true gain. One of the party’s genuine needs were not met in the exchange, and so what one perceived as a gain in the moment proves to be not backed by anything ‘real’ or truly relational.

Wayne – Good Morning, Yeshua.

Yeshua – Good Morning, Wayne.

W – I open my heart to our connection, to you, to myself.

Y – As do I.

W – That was me needing a few words of intention and ceremony to enter in.

Y – Choice, intention, awareness, and ceremony if need be, born in the heart and the imagination, is what literally makes the world go around.

W – You always tweak me when you use that word, ‘literally.’

Y – Yes, because you take it so literally.

W – Now, you’re messing with me. And I’m still waking up.

Y – I know you have parts of you who wonder where you even get our conversation from. I know you have parts of you who fear the judgment of others who’d write it off as, ‘kooky’.

W – I do, and yet mostly I trust it. I guess both are true at times.

Y – I can tell you where you get it from if you’d like me to.

W – I’d love you to.

Y – You get it from the your own self permission. These are the authorized writings of Wayne and Yeshua, authorized by Wayne.

W – Sounds heady.

Y – Not really…..when you feel it. Constantine’s version of scripture was the real heady one. Scripture by external authorization and decree that changed the course of history big time. What we’re doing is the internal version and anyone who wants to can do the same thing. Scripture by internal permission and imagination. Way more fun, powerful, and without all the bloodshed.

W – But, but, but. people would say, ‘You just made that up. You’re not really talking with Yeshua.’

Y – I could say the same thing about any conversation that you have with anyone. Of course it’s ‘made up.’ In fact, you obscure the making up of it to yourselves in such a way that you no longer feel the profoundness of every exchange of conversation. What you call ‘real’ or ‘literal’ is a dumbed down version of life designed (in the imagination no less) to manage the pace and rate at which you can let in wonder and creation and change.

W – I’ve always craved really great conversations. In my past, these conversations felt so random sometimes, but so amazing when they happened. Something aligned in me and in the other person, and a whole new world arose. I would try and find the magic button to make that happen again, but it usually eluded me.

Y – So you resorted to talking to me instead.

W – Well, yes, and along with others too. My odds have improved a lot since then. Jillian and I can talk for three hours straight at times still, and that’s five years into this marriage, which we are celebrating this week. Christopher and I are getting good at it too.

Y – Whoa, that is so cool, Wayne. Relationality. There’s another word for currency.

W – Like flow and exchange.

Y – And feeling is king in all of this. That’s what’s been off the radar or tried to be kept off the radar. Exchange is always born in trust. Trust is a feeling. It is all about the heart. The mind computes the logistics, but it’s the heart that leads. Trust is based on knowing and feeling someone. Knowing and feeling is dependent on the person being transparent to adequate degree to foster that trust. That’s all relationality.

W – And it’s relating around needs and desires.

Y – And fears and vulnerabilities too. You have some of what you need, but you never have all of what you need. This leaves you vulnerable. It is your vulnerability that leads you to relationality and trust.

W – I get that. Even corruption as a means of exchange and flow utilizes trust and human vulnerability to make it go around. Wow…..corruption functions because of genuine human need???

Y – Sure it does. It’s heavy on the fear side of the equation. It uses fear actually to not feel the reality that, ‘what you do unto others you do unto yourself.’ Harming others as a way to self gain is never and can never be a true gain. One of the party’s genuine needs were not met in the exchange, and so what one perceived as a gain in the moment proves to be not backed by anything ‘real’ or truly relational.

W – Where the perceived windfall can’t actually meet any genuine needs for the person because it didn’t on the other end of the exchange…

Y – Bingo. That’s flow. That’s current.

W – Whoa, there’s a new concept. If it turns sour or was harmful on the others’ end of the deal, then I can’t actually get my own genuine needs met either. But I still may be able to boast a great profit.

Y – And while that profit picture still has currency because there is enough fear and scarcity to back it, itwill still spend or exchange or impress others, but it’s ultimately rotten.

W – Another whoa, are you saying that we are running out of fear and scarcity?

Y – I so hope to god we are, my man. We are sure using it up like there’s no tomorrow. It’s what the current dominant system runs on.

W – Whoa, I get that. Leaders in the false system need to whip up fresh batches of fear and scarcity or the whole thing comes down.

Y – And they crap their drawers when one person consciously digests and feels their fear, instead of following its drumbeat.

W – Because when one changes, we all change.

Y – I feel that to be true, or more truer than anything we’ve understood until now. If we are in fact on a circular journey back to love, then that makes sense. And wouldn’t it be just like love to afford us a process and participation and choice instead of a decree and an imposition?

W – Okay, I feel my practical side calling me just now.

Y – You saying I’m not practical?

W – No hold on, maybe you’re in fact too practical. What I mean is, my head needs some help about how to embrace this from the collective swamp that I’ve been participating in and some guidance for how to walk out of the swamp.

Y – Okay. Let’s feel that some. That’s step one. Feel. Feel with your heart. I’m talking about the day you are entering into. You are going to be exchanging and in flow situations whether you greet someone, buy something, whatever you do that involves an ‘other.’ And of course, I can’t say this one enough, feel how you yourself are made up of ‘others’ or parts. When a part of you gains by harming another part of you, this is not a gain at all. Not for you, not for the harming part, not for the harmed part. ‘What you do unto parts of yourselves, you do unto others.’ Wayne, this is way more feeling-based than it is step-by-step-based. Let in your heart and the steps will come, and I mean very grounded, practical and transparent and accountable steps.

W – Can you say more about what it looks like though in any given moment?

Y – I can try.

W – Please.

Y – Okay, so you’ve engaged an ‘other.’ Whether inside of you or outside of you. It’s called a transaction. Needs, desires, fears, and vulnerabilities are dancing on both sides of the transaction, whether they are being consciously felt or not. See if you can feel your deeper needs underneath the exchange and see if you can back the currency with your heart of gold, both for yourself and for the other. See if you can feel how integrative the self love is that takes in and gives out in abundance. Can you name your deeper needs to yourself and to the other adequately to host an abundance based exchange of value?

W – So how does that look at the grocery store for instance?

Y – I don’t know if I want to dumb this down right now. I’m asking you to feel. I’m asking those reading to feel. Go in through the heart door. Let the mind follow instead of lead. Your heart will give you grounded step by step guidance. Not someone else’s decree. You leave the swamp the same way you entered, by living your way out. Each felt choice where you raise the frequency to a higher frequency of love in any transaction gives birth to the next choice and transaction. String all the transactions together and you have significant change. The measurable change is not one bit more sacred than any one of the single multitude of steps it took to create that change. The universe is infinitely patient, even when it doesn’t look like it is.

W – I’m getting that the making sense of all of this that you are offering can only come into me deeper as I walk it out. I can’t know what it will look like in the grocery store or anywhere else but through experiencing it. Life is way more sacred than knowledge or knowing. Life always changes what we claim to know. And I get too that the fear-based frequencies that I have been steeped in by my participation in the fear-based system have created a resonance factor that I can only thin out, that sometimes melts, sometimes falls away in chunks as it makes way for abundance and love-based transactions.

Y – Feels like our pause point there, Wayne.

W – You’re telling me, I don’t know when to stop sometimes.

Y – Maniac.

W – Thank you for the compliment. 🙂

In this blog series, Ending The Money Madness, Wayne Vriend shares his unedited and vulnerable journal conversation with Yeshua, who he experiences as an ascended teacher energy available to everyone.These blogs offer an exploration of money, what it is, how to relate to it, the financial collapse and transition to yin-based currency, the false self system created around money, etc. Visit www.soulfullheart.com for more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life and read 90 Days With Yeshua: Modern Message From An Ascended Teacher for more enlightening conversations between Wayne and Yeshua.