Birthdays – SoulFullHeart Experience

Celebrating Pre-50th Birthday W/Beloveds

Published on May 28, 2022June 23, 2022 by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

After quite a full day of responding to the responses to my post yesterday, welcoming dozens of new followers and friends to my page, setting up some intros and sessions…I THEN got to go to a pre- 50th birthday celebration party with my beloveds!

My birthday is actually next Wednesday, June 1st, but we celebrated early as a group because Raphael and I will be out of town on vacation next week to visit the coastal town of Nazere, Portugal. We haven’t been to the ocean since October, so we are def looking forward to taking in the negative ions and ocean codes there, plus just spending some sacred time alone together to bond and connect. Nazere has the highest and biggest waves in the world, although not this time of year!

It was so lovely to be honored last night by such an intimate circle of souls who resonate and know me SO well. Every gift, whether material or not, was just so perfect. My daughter Raianna Shai made me one of her stunning macrame creations that I proudly put on immediately! Bey Magdalene gave me a beautiful pashima scarf and other sweet items.

The highlight was Gabriel and Kasha singing me a song that they wrote about me! My goodness that was a lot to let in, I cried through most of it and then felt a flood of love afterwards as well. Letting in, breathing, letting in, crying some more to let in.

I really feel like I am rebirthing into a New me, esp with this ongoing fasting that I am doing that seems to be purifying my whole being and opening my heart up quite wide. Cellular cleansing and rewiring is going on, along with necessary detox too as my body upgrades.

I feel truly blessed and grateful for my life and those beings in it! And for YOU too, taking in these words and images, and celebrating along with me!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

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Birthday Love Exchange Celebration

Published on July 8, 2020 by Kasha Rokshana2 Comments

by Kalayna Solais

I am still in SO much glow this morning after celebrating my birthday with my beloveds yesterday. Actually, it wasn’t JUST with my beloveds here in the flesh… it was also with all of you who wished me a happy day from your hearts. ❤

Every year, my birthday tends to bring with it a birth canal or even a series of birth canals, in the plural, for me to move through in order to keep becoming the being that I most desire to be, in the relationships I most desire to hold dear, and in the purest energy of service of love possible. Last year, my marriage and longterm relationship with my dearest soulmate so far completed and that whole process was bringing up SO much for me to feel every single day. This year was actually the most celebratory for me, as I wasn’t moving through ‘loss’ so much as deep inner ‘gain’ and feeling how much more capacity I now have to let that IN.

Jelelle reflected to me yesterday that in previous years, it felt like no matter what they ‘gave’ me, for parts of me it was never quite enough. Entitlement on some level was covering over deep unworthiness to let in love. And that’s true. Yet I never felt it as ‘not enough’ coming toward me. I actually distinctly remember feeling that I couldn’t let it in, especially the positive reflections of who I am that my beloveds tried to share with me. Their love couldn’t land because I couldn’t land inside of myself and my parts could barely, even after years of working with them, let ME in, let alone my nearest and dearest.

This year… I’ve been moving more into a flow of letting go and letting be while also letting in. I’ve still needed to set boundaries with others, letting go of explorations and connections so that they can arise again anew someday if they’re meant to, yet the sadness of this is flowing alongside a new sense of inner peace with myself, as I am now, even in all of my learning curves and imperfections. There’s a new conviction about who I am and what I’m here to offer, yet also a softness in my heart that though healthfully protected, remains open and in self-love overflow and compassion towards others that seems to grow every day.

This is new. And while I’m letting in such deep appreciation for myself and my own journey that has led me here, I’m letting in those who I can exchange deep and meaningful love and resonance with more than ever before, knowing that this is really all I need. It’s a tall order relationally to show up for on all sides, but it’s worth it to be in the journey of letting it in, not settling for what isn’t this (yet) and trusting that everything and everyone you need right NOW is with you and within you too. ❤

Thank you to everyone who celebrated with me/us yesterday, in person and in energy. Your hearts all land in mine in big ways.

SO much love,
Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Being In My Personal ‘Intertidal Zone’

Published on July 8, 2019July 13, 2019 by Kasha Rokshana1 Comment

By Kalayna Solais

Spending some time with myself and my parts today, taking in the ocean and sunshine from Father Sun, walking amongst the trees, looking for owls (didn’t see one today but now I know where I can find them!), and just BEing… it’s been a ride this past month, what with the completion with Gabriel and becoming another ‘year’ older, which in this case feels like a year of deep rebirth that is only just beginning as so many phases inside of me seem to be ending.

We celebrated my ‘birthday’ last night as a community, making a delicious vegan dinner together and enjoying the time spent even though it’s understandably bittersweet for Gabriel and me at this time. I received gifts I did NOT expect even though part of me has been VERY vocal about wanting a few things lately, especially a new glass water bottle with a rose quartz in it to charge the water, and a big, beautiful tapestry that I can’t wait to find a home for as I settle into the room Gabriel will be vacating when he moves out at the end of the month.

Yeah… bittersweet. Goodness and sadness. Letting in and letting go.

Sometimes it feels as if I’m living like a starfish in an intertidal zone. Learning to breathe and live with the waves, the grief, the openings within and with others, the feeling of ALL possibilities in ALL areas of my life that seem to be offering new doors to open and walk through…

Well, isn’t this what’s true for all of us as Ascension waves move through, ignite us and activate us, then invite us to take space to integrate, to feel, to re-orient back inside after a phase of serving or grounding on the outside? Sometimes parts of you may feel a bit dried out by having to find a way through another layer of 3D conditioning or even 4D growing pains. Sometimes you may feel drenched by tidal waves of LOVE pouring in in ways you weren’t expecting or maybe even ready for. It’s all a part of the birth contractions of the NEW… what we came here to embody and inhabit on a deep level inside of us and with each other.

With much LOVE from my awakening and healing heart-space to yours… ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Letting In The Fullness Of Love On My Birthday

Published on June 13, 2019June 28, 2019 by Raphael Awen2 Comments

By Raphael

Thank you everyone for the amazing birthday wishes, today on social media! I’m with my beloved, Jelelle, for a few days away on the west coast of Vancouver Island. We’re taking in a ton of nature and feeling its nurture. You can see photos of our trip on my facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/raphaelawen1

I feel such a deep invitation to really let in the fullness of love that so surrounds each of us, but yet that requires our negotiation and navigation to participate in.

These coastal areas have a deep feeling of death and rebirth, here where land meets sea. The rock looks lava like and carries a feeling of being born out of calamity, which makes feeling the loss of Lemuria very apparent. Then the sun and the very resilient trees and plants offer deep reconnections with Lemuria and even deeper connections with the soul source that we all share and not only originated from (past tense) but origin from in every moment.

I was moved to tears hugging what’s said to be an 800 year old tree, as I felt it channel to me a big bear hug and deep reassurance of being loved and rooted in love.

Gaia is us and we are her!

We’re off today to go visit Long Beach here a few miles north today and take in the vast sandy beaches to see what they want to tell us.

Much love overflow,

Raphael

Soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions is our portal into a new way of being and it’s my offer to you if it calls to you. Heart hugs! 💚

For Raianna: Happy 24th Birthday!

Published on February 10, 2019 by Kasha RokshanaLeave a comment

Dearest Raianna

The sweet goodness of your young woman’s heart

Blossoms and blooms more into a Queen’s countenance

With every step you make inward.

Your natural compassion and love for all

Inspires even the parts of me that still have some jadedness, however subtle.

You are a deep template for something that is as yet pretty unknown in this world

As it goes through its pangs of rebirth

And you navigate your own too…

It’s an honour to serve love WITH you

And feel how much that service serves me too.

From day one of holding space for you

I have felt nourished too

Because connecting to a soul and heart like yours

Is a precious opportunity

And a profound mirror

Of my own goodness

And a reminder

That empathy and care

Can be like breathing.

Thank you for all you’ve taught me and continue to teach me, even as I help you learn and see your own spirituality, your own parts, your own soul… your own gifts.

Your presence in my life

Is a gift that keeps on giving

And I treasure every single moment spent with YOU.

I love you!! 💖

Happy Birthday precious one!

Love,

Kalayna ❤️

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

A Celebration Of Your Rebirthing Guided Meditation – DAY 22: 33 DAYS DEEPEN W/JELELLE AWEN & Gabriel Heartman (VIDEO)

Published on January 22, 2019 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

DAY TWENTY-TWO: DEEPEN 33 Day Video Series – A Celebration Of Your Rebirthing! Guided Meditation W/Gabriel Heartman & Jelelle Awen

This is day twenty-two of 33 in my daily video series called Deepen. In today’s video, SoulFullHeart Facilitator Gabriel Heartman joins me. Gabriel is joining us on his birthday!! He shares about how that feels for him and parts of him. He talks about a significant birthday six years ago when he was letting go of many 3D timelines and moving more into his higher one.

Gabriel and Jelelle share about how awakening and the SoulFullHeart process invites a series of deaths and rebirths/renewals as aspects/parts of you ‘die’ to certain denser frequencies and rebirth into higher ones. Every moment is a birthing in this way as your soul frequencies become more of who you are and parts of you integrate into your 4D/5D self.

In the meditation today, Gabriel leads you into a celebration hosted by your parts, Metasoul aspects, Divine Masculine and Feminine guides, and Star Family. Your family celebrates YOU in a courtyard in your inner castle/essence. You receive their appreciation and gratitude and extend it in return. You also lit and blow out candles to represent the death and rebirth phases of your awakening and make wishes and desires for your new timeline.

Thank you for joining us on this twenty-second day of 33….as we move into Deepening energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

More about parts/Metasoul aspects here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

You can watch each video in the Deepen playlist on my SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

I will be hosting a group session over Zoom to digest your experience during this series for a $11 USD minimum. The next one will be on Saturday, February 2nd at 11:00am PST. More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/2189383564650970/

You are welcome to share your experiences of this guided meditation here on FB and I will respond to your sharings.

Jelelle Awen
1:1 bridging and ongoing sessions available with me for women over 25 and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators (Gabriel and Raphael with women/men and Kalayna with woman 25 and under) to deepen this connection with your Protector, Inner Child, Lemurian, and other precious parts/Metasoul aspects! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Gabriel: Rebirthing And Arising King Of Heart… Happy Birthday!

Published on January 22, 2019January 22, 2019 by Kasha RokshanaLeave a comment

by Kalayna Colibri

I don’t think we will ever fully understand this unraveling mystery of us… our connection that somehow keeps opening out, even with moments of tension, fear, and remembering the poignancy of what we have together. We have walked out many crucibles individually and as a couple too, including years of moving through different forms and depths of connection in our relationship together.

I feel how far we’ve come… how far you’ve come as a leader, a King-man, a lover, and heartist, and how that keeps everything alive! You’re in a new phase of really wearing your crown and showing up as the WayShower through the shadowland that you ARE. I have never met anyone who loves their shadow more than you, beloved. You have been so courageous and willing to keep going in and not faltering in that quest. I deeply admire and love you. I feel my parts appreciating your light and your encouragement, overflowing from the ways in you love love and encourage your own parts to keep showing up and keep feeling. Your beacon is lighting up… your inner space is broadening to let in more of those you’re meant to serve through this being that you are and keep becoming more of every single day.

For you… ❤️

Built on impermanent sands this castle is

Phase after glorious phase

With frolicking roses and the tallest trees,

Fertile ground for fruitful bounty

Of where lovers hearts can go together.

Foraging love from each bush and channel

Each shadowed branch

From seeds unknown

Brings new mystery to this USness

We have only just discovered

Has more depth

Than we could have known

In previous lifetimes in THIS lifetime!

With expanding wings,

glistening crown,

And elaborate shell,

Your eagle King

And turtle monk

Serve love with you

In all moments

And each turn of your heart-light

Toward the new and renewed.

I am honoured

And in deep admiration

Of the man that is you…

Thank you…

For all you are

All you will be

And all you call for me to see in me too.

I love you! ❤️🔥

Happy Birthday!

Love,

Kalayna

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Feeling Appreciative On My Birthday – 10/10 Magical Portal Blessings to You!

Published on October 10, 2018 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

Feeling so appreciative for the birthday wishes I’ve received today, especially on my facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen!

Letting in the love & offering it to you too on this magical 10/10 Portal Day! It can be A LOT to let in what comes to us on our birthday….parts of us can go almost ‘numb’ to it. Opening up my higher heart EVEN wider is helping!

Here are some beautiful birthday cards and VERY touching words from my BEloveds that I wanted to share with you!

What a day this day is, Jelelle Awen…

Though some parts of me have needed to normalize being with you to be able to tone down the beauty and bounty a little, so as to not walk around with a weird grin in every moment, that weird grin really is there all the time.

I feel the magic in any moment that I’m wanting and willing to breathe it in deeply. It’s like escaping to a fantasy world, except that the fantasy is real, where all time feels like the first time, and strangely too, like the last time.

You so arise anew, again and again and again. I desire for you on this day of remembrance, a deep and full letting-in of the magic that you are, of the gifts you bring to life and to love, by being you.

I love you down to my toes. I miss you even when I’m with you. I long for the next time, even when we’re barely done the last time. Time with you is time with time, time with the Beloved, and time with all beloveds.

Happy Birthday, beloved….

Raphael

Sending huge waves of love today to Jelelle Awenon her birthing day into this dimension! She is a gift to all of us seeking to feel and know ourselves in a way that is beyond what we could ever imagine. Her wisdom and purity of heart are what sets her apart in my opinion and long history with her.

I have known her for close to 30 years and she has been a big part of my growth as a healer, a man, and bridging the galactic into my consciousness and body. Her passion for service and ambassadorship is an inspiration. There are very few beings that my inner parts have trusted to guide me/them out of the old and into the new, even if there was, and can be, resistance to what is being offered.

I am honored and blessed to have had Jelelle a part of my life and send her all the love and gratitude that she deserves on this day and all that follow.

Happy Birthday Jelelle! I created this mandala in your honor,

Gabriel

For Jelelle Awen on her birthday…

I had to write you something new this year. I was going to go find the poem I wrote for you before, but because you and I are both in such brand new phases right now, I wanted to write something that reflects our re-arising and reNEWing relationship, while honouring all of our phases together so far over the last few years and all of the challenges we have faced in ourselves and in our bond too.

I am truly, deeply honoured by your powerful presence in my life and the ongoing love and support you ripple out to me in many levels both subtle and obvious.

I have witnessed your growth and healing as you’ve witnessed and helped facilitate my own. I am blessed to call you both “friend” and “teacher” and take neither honour for granted.

It’s not just another trip around the sun
It’s a further dip into the waves of your personal sun
The one that shines brightly
And beacons us all homeward
To our unique heart-homes withIN.

You serve love through the YINspiration
You’ve cultivated,
Worked for,
Planted within your heart and soul bed
Of growth
and dynamic leavings and enterings, both.

You YINspire my own trajectories
And adventures
Inside
And within the love flow between us
Which reflects and informs
All other relationships
I could ever have and do have
In my life and heart today.

You are the continued template
Even as you always give me back to me
And encourage my own uniqueness to shine
And evolve
And grow.

To say I’ve learned a ton from you
Would understate the value
Of everything you’ve led
And continue to lead
With the strength of a lioness
And the softness of a swan.

I love you!!

Kalayna

This year I feel “mama” as a different energy. You are my mother in the way that you guide, support, love and see me. You are kind to the parts of me that have yearned for love. You are real when it feels so hard to be so. You lead with so much integrity that I really feel seen through love’s eyes, not through a filter.

We are embarking on a new journey and phase in the next few days and if this last month represents the kind of alchemy and catalytic energy that’s to come then I am buckling up for full speed ahead!!

I can’t wait to see what blossoms and grows in your Canadian garden and how many souls will be touched by you in the coming months and years.

Thank you for all the work you have done, all that you have provided for others and all the parts that have broken down in tears just feeling your open and precious heart.

You are epic in soul, expansive in heart and as real as any one human can get. I would not be this much of who I am today if it weren’t for you and this process.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Jelelle!!! Nova and I love you so dearly 💕🎈😍

Raianna

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For Jelelle Awen On Her Birthday, With So Much Love And Gratitude

Published on October 10, 2018 by Kasha RokshanaLeave a comment

By Kalayna Colibri

For Jelelle Awen on her birthday…

I am truly, deeply honoured by your powerful presence in my life and the ongoing love and support you ripple out to me in many levels both subtle and obvious.

I have witnessed your growth and healing as you’ve witnessed and helped facilitate my own. I am blessed to call you both “friend” and “teacher” and take neither honour for granted.

It’s not just another trip around the sun

It’s a further dip into the waves of your personal sun

The one that shines brightly

And beacons us all homeward

To our unique heart-homes withIN.

You serve love through the YINspiration

You’ve cultivated,

Worked for,

Planted within your heart and soul bed

Of growth

and dynamic leavings and enterings, both.

You YINspire my own trajectories

And adventures

Inside

And within the love flow between us

Which reflects and informs

All other relationships

I could ever have and do have

In my life and heart today.

You are the continued template

Even as you always give me back to me

And encourage my own uniqueness to shine

And evolve

And grow.

To say I’ve learned a ton from you

Would understate the value

Of everything you’ve led

And continue to lead

With the strength of a lioness

And the softness of a swan.

I love you!!

***

Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Frequent Ascension Live Streams On Facebook/YouTube W/Raphael & Jelelle

Published on June 13, 2018July 6, 2018 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

Raphael Awen and I feel inspired to offer regular livestreams on Facebook to connect with you in an organic way with whatever is arising to respond to from our hearts and yours. It will probably be at least three times a week and maybe more. The broadcasts may be only a few minutes (probably not likely once we get started talking lol) or much longer depending on what your questions/comments are and what comes UP.

We will be talking about current ascension energies, emotional and spiritual healing, our powerful and unique SoulFullHeart parts work/Metasoul aspect connection process/way of life/community, light body transition, sacred union/scared union relationships, and much more. We will also be sharing transparently about our current processes with parts of ourselves and with each other. We will also be offering in the moment guided meditations when inspired to!

The livestreams will usually be around 10:00am CST and we’ll give you at least two hours notice on the days we are offering them so you can watch it live. We also broadcast live at the same time on our SoulFullHeart Experience Youtube Channel and all of the recordings are shared there: https://www.youtube.com/…/www.you…/c/SoulFullHeartExperience

Posted on youtube now is our livestream together from this week where we talked about 5D higher timeline manifestation shiftings (personally for us and collectively a bit), feminine/masculine balance, parts work and MUCH more! Or you can watch it here: https://youtu.be/FkbWU-5cZUE

Today, June 13th, we’ll be offering a livestream at 10:00am CST responding to these two questions that we didn’t get to yesterday: “After I awakened why do I attract so many souls with such low self esteem? Is it like a transmutation or something?”

“In relationship, how can the feminine best support the masculine through this current healing?”

AND we will be celebrating Raphael’s birthday tomorrow too !