Though Chapters Complete, Connections Remain

by Kalayna Solais

You can complete a chapter with someone/something, but you can’t complete a soul connection… nothing ‘ends’, it just changes form.

And in that new form, something has arisen from the ashes.

I feel this in my relationship to Gabriel now that it’s been a year since we completed our marriage and sacred union bond, looking back at everything we’ve been through and feeling how connected we still are, only now in deep and genuine friendship.

I feel this in my relationship with SoulFullHeart and the necessary phases of separation that have always led me deeper into me and then, blessedly, deeper into the community and into soul and heart-based leadership.

I feel this in relationship to my parts… the ones I’ve had to set boundaries with in order to have them arise anew again for me/with me.

Soul draw and resonance cannot be truly collapsed, though our more protective parts of us may want that, as deeper soul connections are catalytic, and at times there may be phases of needing space on both sides. They will always push the necessary buttons for our growth, gently or otherwise. And, if we’re meant to experience that growth together and not only in physical separation from each other, we will.

Love wants us to have all of the growth we can imagine.

Love wants us to have as much of that growth while together in the same room, if possible. And, even though sometimes it isn’t possible, love reminds us of the connection that true soul love really IS and that it can never ‘go away’.

Photo by yours truly, of a beautiful tree I was connecting with the other day…. ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Feeling The Inner Masculine To Move from Surviving To Thriving

By Deva Yasmin

I have been noticing for some time a certain pattern or habit within me. I have been feeling and exploring this much deeper these past days as I adjust to a new way of being, it feels like. As I transition from dream space to waking space, I notice anxiety coming up, this automatic pattern that has been there for so long to get up, get doing, get working. Already in my dream space I sense a chaotic-ness as I am stirring into conscious reality.

I felt yesterday a part of me called ‘David’, my Inner Masculine I have been working with for a while. As we felt together I felt how long he has been in this way of life, getting straight up out of bed, straight into work/survival mode; to move into my day from a place of rest and stillness felt so alien to him. That is the invitation and opportunity now it feels like, as I no longer have work to go to, as many of us are experiencing. I feel that this is also an invitation into a new way of being for us all, of moving into more thriving than only surviving this life. I feel inside me the growing desire to move in all areas of my life from a place of inner peace and stillness.

David expressed to me that it was new to not have to go into the day from a place of stress and to-do lists, but that he also does enjoy the practical aspects of life. I felt him not so anxious about it, rather desiring to be acknowledged as the part that is here to provide for me and my parts practically. This felt so lovely and soothing to other parts of me, to feel I have David here to help with those things as they are needed. He then transitioned to becoming my Inner Father which opened some touching healing between him and Yazzy, my Inner Child.

It was interesting to me then to feel the same anxiety arising as I woke this morning, and when checking in I could no longer feel David but a new part coming through who was very anxious about having no work. I felt a lot of fear around how we will support ourselves financially and feed ourselves too. As I felt deeper, this part revealed himself to me as ‘John’, a Metasoul brother it feels like, in a timeline of starvation and poverty. He was very concerned, he felt taking time in the morning to ease into the day was frivolous, something he could not afford to do. I could feel him being the sole provider for his family, a wife and two small children, who were all starving and dying as were many people around them, it felt like. He told me how he had to feed his children, feeding them before himself, his fear so triggered by me no longer having work, as well as my new geography in London it feels like, and me now desiring to step into a new way of earning money, rather than the old way of employment that my parts are used to.

I was able to acknowledge his experience and his feelings, although I could not do anything to change his reality. I helped him feel that starvation and poverty are no longer a part of my life now, even as I live on less money and eat less too. My relationship to food is not coming from a poverty mindset, but rather from years of transitioning to feeling what I actually need versus overeating as a cover over to not feel my emotions. Feeling John so explains why I have had a fear based connection to food this life, feeling him starving in his. I supported him to feel the reality of his situation, soberly feeling the outcome, that him and his family may possibly die yet he did not have to suffer. He had the choice to be present with his children, love them, soothe them, rather than keep panicking about what to do. This softened something for him as I felt him moving into being in what is, and with his beloveds while he still could.

Feeling John I felt so much gratitude for what I do have in the moment, the food I have even if it is not the amount parts of me have been used too, grateful to feel that starvation isn’t part of my timeline now although I know it is for so many. I sense how much I have held onto because of the fear of survival, feeling how unhappy it has made me to stay in jobs I do not like and how even relationships too can be a way of covering over the fear. I feel how society can make women feel like they need a man to provide and survive and I am sure men have their own version of this too.

For me right now I have let go of so many things that have made me feel safe, as I have chosen to move towards my desires for more resonance and purpose in my life. I have a feeling of how I wish my life to feel, so I am having to meet all the fear of moving towards it. I feel how I have been in this transition for some time especially around money, having struggled to manage full-time employment. I had to question how much I actually needed. Feeling how much energy and inner resources it takes to maintain work that is not my passion, I no longer wanted to do it and with the exchange of money no longer being a big enough draw for me either, I now desire to thrive not only survive.

Exploring what it feels like to thrive is a new exploration ground, feeling through the transition of having less money to truly feel what thriving feels and looks like. It feels like a transition we will all have to go through at some stage in our Awakening. For me, thriving does not mean the same thing as success; thriving is not solely based on financial abundance but can include that too. To thrive for me feels like TIME, to have time to actually live, to enjoy the world around me, to breath it all in. To be grateful for the simplest of things, vulnerability, connection, intimacy, honesty, and service of Love to others and self. Feeling balance in all areas of your life and to be leading from love, peace and lots of joy rather than lack and fear. These are not things that can be maintained or even experienced when we are so overly focused on the 3D survival matrix paradigm, as I have just remembered, again, after needing to go into full-time employment that is not my passion or Soul purpose once more, to finally be able now to leave it behind.

I feel an empty space between where parts have been focused for so long on 3D, to where we are heading in 5D/Golden Earth Reality as I checked in with Enu, my Pleaidian aspect around this. Also, to feel where I am now as I explore how to transition personally. Enu told me that in her world, they do not work with the energy of money, that it is an Earth experience/challenge and frequency, part of human life only, it feels like. I feel her holding the picture of energy exchange, of freely offering our gifts to one another when needed, of sharing with others and of not being scared of asking for help when it is needed either, that all resources are shared in her timeline. Abundance means so many things in her world, whereas here on Earth it can so often be felt or seen as only money equals abundance. They are also deeply connected to their creativity and gifts which gives them life, as well as living on prana too, rather than physical food as we do. They absorb life force from the world around them, through breath.

This feels so much like what I have been longing to experience and am on my way towards especially joining SoulFullHeart as a Collaborator, with the desire to be a Facilitator in the future, as well as one day living together in community. It is what I moved towards more, moving into my new place in London too, with beautiful resonant souls, a choice that was financially risky after losing my job but that David navigated and manifested financial support for me around too. Now I have the space to breathe and question what I want to bring into the world, what is my passion and the creativity/wisdom and healing I have to offer to others through my own healing. I feel the desire and LOVE in my heart switching on to be of service to others, for which I will need to continue to feel the parts in fear around all of this.

Feeling the higher timelines available does soothe my parts and helps me be more in the moment around everything, keeping my vision alive and burning, anchoring me in my commitment to keep going IN and feeling all the difficult reactions and timelines within my Soul. Feeling with sobriety when things are not working, when things have become stagnant and when we need to move in a different direction is SO hard. Feeling when there is nothing to do, but to feel the pain, sadness, grief, trusting that that is what will move us forward when the time is right, and the Divine knows the timings here not us.

Learning to trust the perfection of this life, this universe, comes to me through being able to sit in, be in, and feel everything that is moving within me. Feeling the Love growing for myself, feeds my truest desires and gives me the courage to keep moving towards NEW Earth, even though the way through is in the Valley of the Shadow of Death. This does not have to be a scary transition anymore though, as more and more resources from within our Soul are activated as we feel the lifetimes/timelines where we have been training and preparing for these times for so long. Everything we need for these transitions is within us.

Love,

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

 

 

 

 

 

‘Free To Be’ Series Digestions & Reflections

By Deva Yasmin

I could sense that the ‘Free To Be series’ was going to be a huge portal for me and my parts, I knew I was being invited into BIG shifts if I was ready to jump in. Sometimes there is only a sense of something that draws or calls you in, a knowing, this is going to be HUGE. The topics of each week somehow felt like they were designed to support me through what was next, the Divine knowing what was coming even as me and my parts did not. I did not want to miss the opportunity of expansion that I know continuously comes through the SoulFullHeart process, or being in the circle of BIG Souls that it draws too.

Yesterday’s group call felt like a tipping point for me personally, as a whole way of being has fallen away in the short 4 weeks this series has been going: a job, relationships including the one with my beloved mate (the best I have ever known), and a home, all being released to make way for more resonance in my life. It has been an intense few weeks and as I land in my NEW timeline, I sense the digestion of these recent events in my personal life are going to take some time to be understood and felt.

There are so many parts having various reactions, feelings and responses to what has happened, so many paradoxes being held. A theme that has run throughout the series; how we can all hold so many polarities and feelings within us at the same time, despair & desire, resonance & dissonance, death & rebirth…

As these themes have been felt, it has become so much clearer to feel the parts in push/pull within, and noticing how dynamics on the outside have been there for a while, trying to reflect to me the inner dissonance. There is a pace to this work that although very gentle especially when navigating trauma, accelerates our growth edges too. A pace that can seem intense at times to parts of us, which feels connected to the accelerated times of Earth we all find ourselves in. As more parts are felt, more clarity arises. As more is healed and cleared, more space for feeling desire is opened, and this feels SO new for my parts, feeling their desires – What???? Really!!! Being felt in what they desire, validated in their wants and needs through sessions, makes it very hard to stay in places that are no longer offering what they need in the same ways. This process can push up all that has gone unfelt as well, in order to maintain something that felt resonant for a time, or that held much resonance but is not transacting in all areas.

I was touched by the theme of dissonance/resonance in relationships, it felt so true for me that what I am moving towards is more resonance in relationships, in ALL areas. It was hard to track all that was offered, as my parts are so very much in the grief process of the breakdown of so much known and loved. I feel like I am now in a phase of needing to feel and digest why I have stayed in, be drawn to, and been in dissonance throughout my life.

This morning I felt in a deeper way my younger parts, Yazzy and Yasmin, how they are navigating the changes in our relationships. I could sense my Inner Mother coming in more to be felt too. I felt the dissonance between these parts, feeling how Yasmin my Inner Teenager does not trust my Inner Mother, feeling how she actually felt like the ‘Mother’ of Yazzy, my Inner Child, who needed to grow up quite early as a way of protection. To feel this dissonance within me is new ground for me, as I sense how much of that dissonance has been projected out onto my relationships, making it difficult to maintain resonance. I feel how I have actually been this dissonance, so how could I draw more resonance, even as parts of me have so wanted to.

It feels like certain dynamics in relationships keep these dynamics inside set in place with little space for other parts to be let in and met. It feels like this work offers such a solid, stable ground for parts to be felt and to move into the NEW, a process I could not have navigated this without. It feels like I have tried before, but without the integrity of feeling or the ability to draw on the gifts of these different parts of me to support me through the transition, it has been hard to move into the new.

I feel how my younger parts have been the ones holding so much responsibility that was never really theirs, trying to navigate and lead my life, work and relationships. I sense the growing connection with my Inner Mother. Feeling the disempowerment of not having her voice heard or validated will support me to let in NEW ways of being in relationship and drawing more resonance.

She feels like a key part actually, that will help Yazzy feel safe enough to let in all she actually desires. As I feel her tenderness and vulnerability around letting new relationships and timelines in, I feel her needing the maternal space-holding from within to feel safe. I feel the Inner Child and Teenager knowing the beauty they desire to let in, as they have the sensitivity to feel the vibrational frequencies of resonance that we have been longing for, it feels like. I feel how the pain of the old paradigm of being in relationships created the conditioning of accepting dissonance, staying in some kind of safety that breeds more of it rather than being taught ways to feel the INNER sanctuary of safety that can be created through the SoulFullHeart process. This anchors parts, giving the solid foundation within to mature and thrive, helping them step towards resonance in a world that can make parts feel so ungrateful for wanting more or judged for being ‘too much’.

When really these parts have never been ‘too much’ or asked for too much, they have just always felt that resonance is our birthright, to be with others who feel us, see us, get us. We have until now lived in a world that has wanted to keep our capacity for dreaming, visioning and joy to a minimum, it feels like, in case we became too FREE. As I write this it feels so perfect, so Divinely orchestrated that the current SoulFullHeart series is called ‘Free To Be’ as that is where I find myself at the moment, free to be, whoever and whatever I so desire, and dare to dream into reality. It is interesting to feel how scared some parts can feel of so much freedom that at the same time they deeply long for… another paradox.

Through this process full of paradoxes, Life is becoming a rainbow, a light spectrum of possibilities, of new experiences and timelines available to us all of more resonance. No longer does life have to be lived through the black or white lens we have been so used to.

This NEW magical, multi-faceted, multi-dimensional way of life is the frequency of resonance I am now ready to draw and am drawing through this process of parts work. It brings such a new richness to feeling ALL experiences, even the most painful and challenging ones such as relationships ending.

You can still join the ‘Free To Be’ series and purchase the recordings of the groups call so far here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe

Much Love to you all in these times of navigating so much change and letting go.

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

‘Sacred Sisterhood’ Is Emerging More As Part Of ‘New/5D Earth’ Transition

by Kalayna Solais

I wrote down some feelings of Sacred Sisterhood a few months ago when a new wave of ‘sacred sisters’ was just emerging onto my shores, in my heart and soul field, and in the flesh no less! This was not just about my growing INNER sisterhood, though that is always deepening and being felt more and more… this was about feeling the resonance of other women around my age and beyond that too, feeling us coming together more in realness, uniqueness, yet also a desire to heal and be healed and not leave any part of us or Metasoul aspect behind in the process.

I’m feeling something today about women learning to actually see each other and love each other deeply and how this seems to be happening within my beloved SoulFullHeart community and possibly elsewhere too. There is something to be said for the ‘restriction’ of not being able to go outward and do many outward things right now and feeling, then, the new portals to going inward – going YINward – that I feel is helping us all go to our next levels of feeling why we’ve had a hard time holding deeper friendships and being with other women as women. We’ve been invited to continue the journey of looking within and seeing each other as sacred mirrors of the continued inner work. We’ve been invited to feel the triggers yet actually find some stillness around them too, feeling the parts and Metasoul aspects in other timelines where they could be coming from, which then leads to a more open heart towards each other.

I hear women claiming ‘realness’ when they’re being harsh and even abusive, fusing to their Inner Punishers or other energies in their soul timelines and lashing out as a way to off-gas what actually isn’t about the other person at all. I hear women claim ‘Well, I am just direct and blunt’ when I can’t feel how this directness has heart or care in it for the other person. When I hear words like these, I can feel their Inner Matriarch who is in pain about never being met with actual realness, vulnerability, and care themselves and quite often they’ve also taken in these abusive frequencies, even from the maternal line in their birth families. Underneath this is often a pain of being the biggest soul in the room, who hasn’t ever felt truly initiated into their soul gifts or deeply seen for them either. It’s also an energy that covers over the more vulnerable energies and parts inside that just want to love and want the battles to be over so they can play and connect more with others, like with the Inner Child or even the Teenager once she has finally had some air.

In my deepening relationships with women in my life who have been very consciously working and feeling all this and more within themselves, what becomes new is the way in which it can all be shared… all the nuances of feelings and reactions. These parts don’t have to be any less ‘real’ or even more vulnerable and open than they’re ready for yet, yet they do get to be held now and seen in a new way, acknowledging that these energies they hold that often feel competitive and push away at the deeper love and intimacy that’s possible are NOT their whole story or all that they have within them.

I’ve been so pleasantly surprised (and not!) to feel how much deeper my relationships with these other women can go once we have done the work to be able to hold realness, feel reactions, share them, and also acknowledge the impact of this in every moment. The result of these exchanges is more love, not less, that gets to be shared; more seeing of each other and each other’s uniqueness and gifts; more compassion than was transactable between us before, for now we know more about each other’s backgrounds, stories, and ongoing processes.

This, to me, is a sacred template emerging for Sacred Sisterhood. It’s always in exploration. There are no rules and sometimes messes are made. Abuse is a thing of the past, though sometimes exchanges are intense if necessary. There’s a personal sense of accountability for your own energies and process and there’s a desire to be transparent and deepen the intimacy ground.

This all feels to me like the new ground going forward that’s possible in ALL relationships of all kinds if the time and space are taken to go inward, to lean into work such as this, to dig into those deeper wounds and find gold, and to begin, ultimately, to seed the ground of what New Earth/Golden Earth/5D Earth relationships get to look and feel like! There can only be BLISS as this moves and deepens our healing and the yield of 5D Earth/Sacred Human consciousness within you and in your relationships makes it all worth it. The practice ground for this is always within, yet when these sacred friendships emerge on your radar, this is a chance to really apply all you’ve realized and seek out all you’ve most wanted to experience but were afraid to ask for with another.

Much love!

Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

 

Inner Community Healing, Paving The Way For 5D CommUNITY With Others

By Deva Yasmin

To be in community is a deep desire and calling in my heart, the desire started to burn for this more as I opened to spirituality. I can feel how this desire for community has run deep my whole life, it feels like it was the reason I spent many years working in the Hospitality industry, as there is a sense of togetherness that comes when working so closely and intensely with a group of people in a restaurant. It feels like the longing for community has also been my greatest pain, especially growing up in an environment and society where I felt I never fitted in. Right now, I am feeling with my parts the extent of this pain as I continue to unravel myself from it.

One of the draws for me to re-enter sessions with SoulFullHeart was the community. I had sessions for 6 months in 2017. It feels like I had to take a step back and explore other things to really let in what SoulFullHeart is offering. Even though I wasn’t engaged in sessions, I was witnessing through social media and within the group something very unique. I feel that what I have longed for within community, SoulFullHeart are on the leading edge of. Beings who are committed to showing up for their own inner healing and Ascension whilst at the same time learning to bridge that into relationships, through parts work.

As I expressed this desire for community in my session with Jelelle Awen, she invited me into a NEW way of feeling and letting in community, beginning first on the inside. This has been massively liberating for parts of me because within this deep desire for community with others has been a deeper longing and pain of not belonging and of feeling unsafe. Something parts of me could actually not find anywhere else, because all along they had needed to find that within ME. With these parts leading the way I feel how they drew souls who kept reflecting and confirming to me that I could not find what they were seeking outside. This caused much pain.

I see now how this also led these parts to continue and stay in unhealthy relationships for too long, to feel some sense of security and safety. This is a deeply vulnerable and at times painful process I am navigating right now, which I will reveal more about in time as my parts stabilize and ground in the safety of Infinite Love. That IS coming through even more as I turn my desire towards nurturing and tending my inner community, rather than overly focusing on, tending to or care taking others in exchange for a sense of belonging, Love and purpose.

I feel I am getting right to the core of what has been holding my parts in pain and with us all now feeling each other, there is a new level of honesty that is transmuting and transforming places I have felt stuck in for so long. This feels possible because I am learning through the SoulFullHeart process how to feel the inner dynamics and relationships of parts and aspects of myself.

As my parts are digesting and healing their experiences with me, they are beginning to receive the Love and acceptance they have always longed for. This is helping ME find the courage to BE and express more of who I AM, as a Soul. I find my way of being in life shifting as I calibrate to the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. The process is becoming more about receiving Love and support from within. Then responding to the parts AS they show up, that still do not know how to receive, feel unworthy of receiving or are still distrustful of Love because of the trauma they have experienced in the past, in this life and others.

This is rumbling throughout my life, as I am now feeling what it feels like to BE loved, to BE validated and to BE heard. My desire for this on the outside is growing, meaning it is becoming harder to continue what parts of me have until now accepted as love and connection with other. It’s a really challenging time, as I collapse the compartments of my life, to restore balance and wholeness to my inner and outer realities. It is surprising me at times how quickly this process is shifting things just from feeling how parts have lived and why.

There is an empowerment happening it feels of my Soul Bigness, my 4D/5D selves and all the aspects of me who KNOW what Love and commUNITY are truly meant to be already. As I feel and heal my 3D parts and experiences, more space is opening out for these higher aspects to come in to my awareness, my body and my life, supporting me to move into alignment with my Soul Expression and Service in this life.

Working with parts is guiding me towards and opening me to higher timeline possibilities that have felt impossible until now and hard to manifest. I have known since before I can remember that this 3D way of life is too limited, it has never felt like the path I came here to settle in. Now I know it is because I came here to create rumbles in it and be part of Ascension on Earth Now. Though I have tried many times to step into something NEW, without all my parts consciously co creating and on board, I have had to circle back in, to feel them and integrate, so I can walk with them across the bridge into the NEW with Love, rather than jumping off the cliff where the unknown can feel like an abyss. This making the death/rebirth cycles we all go through more chaotic than catalytic.

This feels like a continuous, multi layered, multi dimensional experience of Ascending within 3D, not getting out of it. Bridging and weaving Fifth Dimensional Consciousness into the fabric of it, shifting our individual and collective consciousness from the INside, out.

We explored walking gracefully across the bridge into the NEW rather than jumping off the cliff in yesterday’s monthly group call . These calls are a huge highlight of my month, along with my sessions and the monthly Women’s call. I feel the co-creation that is happening between our souls, how the joint desire for Golden Earth is creating the reality I feel so many of us Knowing and Longing for.

If you’d like to purchase the recording of this call, you can through https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/12-yeshua-magdalene-consciousness-activation-raphael-jelelle-awen or offer $15 CAD via paypal.me/jelelleawen

Much Love

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Honouring Your Own Unique And Very Personal Journey Of Ascension

By Kalayna Solais

Feeling behind. Feeling as if we are risking being ‘left behind’ if we aren’t able to tune into what everyone else that shares awareness of Ascension is tuning into and feeling personally. Fearing that we aren’t going to be enough to ‘ascend’ or to be ‘chosen’ TO ascend, perhaps.

These are feelings that I think so many of us can resonate with on some level. These fears feel existential and like they live in our Metasoul aspects in other timelines who HAVE been ‘left behind’ by others and on a deeper level still, there’s more to feel about ‘abandonment’ by the Divine too… maybe also in this life parts of you have trauma from the ‘competition’ conditioning, from growing up in a culture where you are always striving to be THE best, not YOUR best or even just where you are at and having that be ok. There are so many layers to this and for me, I’m still discovering many of them personally and how deep they go.

I’m a part of a highly catalytic process and soul family community that we always say is on a ‘moving conveyor’. The more work you do within you, the more your outer world changes and the more shifts you feel invited to take of your own volition too. The more parts of you that you feel in their traumas and begin to have a relationship with, the more you realize the changes you need to make in your life in ALL areas of your life.

This means that at any time, one of us could decide unilaterally that there is something we need to address, move on from or move toward, and that could be a big thing or a small thing. There are always next and next and next steps too as the inner awakening and openings deepen. There are new discoveries and new strata of consciousness that begin to open up and out. New relationships are drawn. New alchemy on all levels. All of these are sacred journey markers that are very individual and a result of the individual journey. It look and feel like pure ‘magic’ and it really is, but it’s also worked very hard for.

When you have conditioning in your soul’s timelines and the heart of your parts from this lifetime that there is something always to envy in others for the sake of feeling badly or ‘not good enough’ inside of yourself, this isn’t that easy to digest all the time. Jealousy can be kicked up. A feeling that you must be lacking something or have something ‘wrong with you’ if you aren’t experiencing what they are experiencing. This is one of the major reasons why I needed the break I did…. so that this comparison dance and suffering loop could be deeply felt into by me, so that I could arise for myself with more respect and self-love. This could only happen if I got big enough for my most intense and self-punishing parts/aspects to lean into me. This was the crux of my process at times in relationship to the lives of others around me too… feeling parts of me envying their skills (that they’ve worked hard for), their fitness level, their relationships, etc. This has gone on and on for me for as long as I can remember… and only now is this starting to shift into new ground.

Why is it SO hard to just BE with our own journey? Why do we look to others for templating but then resent them for it at times?

These questions feel complicated and like the answers lie within every individual. I think it’s so hard to remember that we are ultimately here to experience Ascension in a PERSONAL way, though we are returning to oneness too. I’m discovering, especially as I feel a relationship beginning with a Reptilian aspect of me, just how deep this ‘programming’ of avoiding the individuation process of our healing and Ascension actually goes and why it can feel a bit scary.

I had a yoga teacher once, many years ago now, who offered something during class that made us all laugh but it was actually quite poignant. She was showing us the many stages of one particular posture. When she got to the most advanced one, she said,

“See? There’s NOTHING there! There’s no need to rush yourself into this ‘advanced’ place when you have so much to discover along the way”.

That really impacted me at that time and it remains with me today because I think I was supposed to take that in deeply for my own ongoing experience of spirituality and of life itself… it really IS about the journey and not the destination. Ascension is a journey. ‘5D’ is not really a destination so much as an invitation into a new frequency in which to anchor our consciousness as much and as often as we can. Every individual’s soul expression and attainments are their own, often worked for over multiple lifetime experiences and deep inner work too. There’s nothing left to ‘envy’ if we can see it this way… but there could be a lot to be inspired by!

Plus, our own journeys, when we have the space within to honour them, are proof positive of our own inner work and also the growth and healing phases that we personally need that are a reflection of our bigness in order to be with them. Maybe there is no ‘ultimate destination’ but in fact, it all keeps deepening and expanding from here. This is such a humble way to look at and hold ourselves and this whole Ascension process on a collective level too.

I wanted to share this bit about my own journey and discoveries as an expression of my own uniqueness that I’m learning to embrace more and more. I hope that it helps you feel more love and respect for your own too… for the journey you’re on as YOU.

Much love! ❤

Kalayna


Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Jelelle Is Transitioning Out Of 1:1 Sessions To Focus On Group Facilitation: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Aug 26, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

As we all continue our digestion of the Lion’s Gate energies and what moved through and activated, we’re all being invited to keep inhabiting our next steps in our lives, healing journeys, and offerings of service of love. In this week’s Museletter, we have a special announcement from Jelelle Awen as she shares about her transition away from 1:1 sessions and more into group facilitation:

“Instead of 1:1 sessions with me, for all of you what will be available is participation in various groups. I have such a deep love and passion for facilitating groups, both over zoom as I have been through group transmissions and in person. The idea of serving love exponentially is very appealing to me and, also, there is so much to learn and be inspired by in each other’s processes and I love facilitating that realization!”

Jelelle will continue to offer Group Transmissions as well as two NEW women’s groups online over Zoom. More details here.

The next virtual Group Transmission with Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be on September 14th at 10:00am PDT. The focus of this group is to learn more about karmic healing through unplugging through the lower 4D matrix, which is the control matrix created by the collective unconscious’ unprocessed and undigested karmic soul woundings, trauma playouts, good vs. evil battles, and archetypal projections. Unplugging from the Lower 4D Matrix is the ‘next step’ in awakening as you consciously life your veil of amnesia with the help of your Gatekeeper, an aspect of your Metasoul that guards and protects all the timelines/lifetimes that your soul has fragmented into.

There will be another Group Transmission in October. The focus of this group on Saturday, October 12 2019 at 10:00am PDT is to learn more about the light body activation process that is ongoing as our carbon-based, 3D conditioned/programmed physical bodies transition into crystalline, living on prana/light energy bodies. The process of this seems to come in phases and cycles of detoxification of 3D chemicals and toxic food digestion energies along with activation on cellular, DNA, levels. They will especially focus on what the best fuel as food is for the light body to support its transition.

Join us in-person on September 10th @ 6pm PDT in Victoria, BC for a FREE guided meditation and sharing afterwards! We will lead you in a powerful, high vibrational guided meditation. Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be leading the guided meditation, as they have for people around the world in session space and through video sharings on metaphysical websites and on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube channel.

Come join us in the beautiful New Lemurian grids of Victoria, BC for a four-day SoulFullHeart community gathering this September, 2019 for the Autumnal Equinox. The gathering starts at 10:00am on Friday the 20th of September and goes through 5pm on Monday the 23rd. This four-day gathering offers the opportunity to immerse into your soul and heart realities in a deep, powerful, and transmutational way.

We will be having another four-day community gathering this December 2019 for the Winter Solstice. The gathering starts at 10:00am on Wednesday the 18th of December and goes through 5pm on Saturday the 21st (each day’s events are from 10:00am until 5:00pm).

For more information on these events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities.

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We have many new articles and audio blogs this week from Raphael Awen, Jelelle Awen, Gabriel Heartman, Kalayna Solais, and Raianna Shai. They include energy updates, personal process digestions and updates, and more ways in which to look at your own process and what could be unfolding or becoming illuminated for you at this time.

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Exploring ‘Dissonance’ To Land In More ‘Resonance’ From The Inside Out

By Kalayna Solais

‘Dimensional Dissonance’ is a very real thing… it’s the feeling of not being able to quite be who you are in your heart and soul when you’re on an awakening journey and you’ve found yourself surrounded by others who aren’t there yet. It’s quite the opposite of being in ‘Dimensional Resonance’ which you can experience with soul family/tribe as you’re all working within in similar ways and with processes that are are connected and parallel.

The intimacy that’s possible with resonance is simply not as possible with dissonance… the sense of knowing and being known, seeing and being seen, and the give and take of deep relationships where in one moment you are taking the space because you need to be felt and in others you are offering the space to feel your beloveds, are all pieces that can happen with resonant soul and heart relationships. The sense of having to ‘work’ to make things ‘ok’ isn’t there any longer because it doesn’t need to be.

You and your closest beloveds live in the same ‘dimension’, let alone reality. While with those who you don’t share this with, it can feel like you’re coming from another country, speaking a foreign language, and the efforts to bridge across these dimensional border lines may be fluid in moments and challenging in others to the point where it stops being self-loving and your authentic compassionDiss for others is more difficult to access too.

I’ve been in a sort of 3D ‘experiment’ for a few weeks now. This has meant inhabiting other sorts of 3D jobs more ‘in-person’ based than online based. I’ve been teaching ESL online for several years now and that was fine while living abroad but now that I’m back in my home country and feeling a new solidity within my heart and soul and personal process, I’ve felt the call and guidance to reach out and see what connections can be made with others through more ‘social’ work experiences. It’s been a journey of feeling what my own personal ‘bridge-builder’ inside of me can look and feel like.

This has been quite humbling, to say the least. I am not doing this to be evangelistic in any way about the work I do and offer, but instead to be invitational through the vulnerability of sharing pieces of what my own process is right now and seeing in which ways it feels ok to be ‘me’ even with those I’m just meeting for the first time. This is essentially how I would be with anyone I’m close to, so why compartmentalize, especially when I would rather that others get to know the real me and that I might get to know them in a real way too.

Sometimes the ‘dimensional dissonance’ level is more intense than at other times, yet the opportunities I’m getting to ultimately feel myself, my parts, and my own process through this whole phase are what make it all worth it. This, it feels like, is the gift of it all… that even though trying to bridge into the thickness and density of 3D consciousness can be so very challenging and in some ways deeply tiring too, it’s another mirror to look into and another opportunity to open my heart as much as possible, expanding into the compassion I’m capable of, even though parts of me also feel frustrated at times.

As real as the dissonance around us sometimes is, the more of that we can feel lives inside of us between parts of us, the more inner resonance there will eventually be and the more resonance we inevitably draw and appreciate too on the outside. Inner resonance cannot be taken away from us, yet we do need it to be supported by our relationships and living situation too. Being able to come home to myself, to digest my experiences with those I’m closest to, has become even more critical for me and I feel it’s becoming more critical for others too. Why settle for dissonance when the resonance you want even MORE is available to you at any time, especially as you make space for it within. ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

INtimacy over INvisibility

By Raianna Shai

I haven’t written a post in a while as a lot has been shifting and growing in my world. A couple of weeks ago Kalayna and I spent a few days on Salt Spring and just this week we all spent time camping in Goldstream.

One theme that has been popping up a lot for myself as well as my entire community is intimacy in relationships. I have always had this tendency and even desire inside of me to be invisible. I was incredibly shy as a child, I never rose my hand in class, I chose to blend in for any social interaction. I had absolutely no desire to be seen or more vulnerably, to be judged by others.

It’s easy to get into a “mode” in every relationship in your life and it doesn’t take long to establish, even with new people. We find what frequency is most comfortable and what allows us to get along with this other person. What gets hard is when something gets triggered or rubs against something inside of us.

I have found that most people either push away their reactions towards others, judging them as unfair or just not worth it, or they push their reactions on others, without feeling what the impact might be or what’s going on inside of them. Both of these strategies allow us to hide, to put away the deeper and more vulnerable parts of us that go against the already agreed upon frequency that you have established in the relationship.

Parts of me fear that my truth will either end the relationship or deepen it. Both risking being seen for more than my persona. Going against the grain of what is comfortable in relationship is exactly what intimacy is all about.

You tell your truth, as messy as it gets, until one day you are transparent in every moment. Until you have no fear locking you into place and all of your words come from love for yourself and love for other. Until you trust that losing a relationship is okay and deepening a relationship is okay too. Until you are so centred inside of yourself that no level of intimacy can scare you away. Even when fear comes up there is progress and honesty about it all. That is when community can flourish and become something new and never done before.

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Being In My Personal ‘Intertidal Zone’

By Kalayna Solais

Spending some time with myself and my parts today, taking in the ocean and sunshine from Father Sun, walking amongst the trees, looking for owls (didn’t see one today but now I know where I can find them!), and just BEing… it’s been a ride this past month, what with the completion with Gabriel and becoming another ‘year’ older, which in this case feels like a year of deep rebirth that is only just beginning as so many phases inside of me seem to be ending.

We celebrated my ‘birthday’ last night as a community, making a delicious vegan dinner together and enjoying the time spent even though it’s understandably bittersweet for Gabriel and me at this time. I received gifts I did NOT expect even though part of me has been VERY vocal about wanting a few things lately, especially a new glass water bottle with a rose quartz in it to charge the water, and a big, beautiful tapestry that I can’t wait to find a home for as I settle into the room Gabriel will be vacating when he moves out at the end of the month.

Yeah… bittersweet. Goodness and sadness. Letting in and letting go.

Sometimes it feels as if I’m living like a starfish in an intertidal zone. Learning to breathe and live with the waves, the grief, the openings within and with others, the feeling of ALL possibilities in ALL areas of my life that seem to be offering new doors to open and walk through…

Well, isn’t this what’s true for all of us as Ascension waves move through, ignite us and activate us, then invite us to take space to integrate, to feel, to re-orient back inside after a phase of serving or grounding on the outside? Sometimes parts of you may feel a bit dried out by having to find a way through another layer of 3D conditioning or even 4D growing pains. Sometimes you may feel drenched by tidal waves of LOVE pouring in in ways you weren’t expecting or maybe even ready for. It’s all a part of the birth contractions of the NEW… what we came here to embody and inhabit on a deep level inside of us and with each other.

With much LOVE from my awakening and healing heart-space to yours… ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.