Letting In And Letting Go To Experience ‘Abundance’

by Kalayna Solais

Letting in what IS, the dreams that ARE coming true, the love that IS flowing now while feeling grateful for all of it; feeling desires for what could be but perhaps isn’t present in your life yet, without attachment to having or keeping; letting go of what doesn’t resonate to make room for what does, without compromise, even as there are practical and grounded choices to make too…

Dancing with abundance is so multi-layered, that the process of feeling your parts’ reactions and responses to it, is abundant in itself! It’s a letting in of dreams and desires, while feeling what still needs to clear inside of you and in your life to make room for that to come to fruition. It’s also a process of feeling yourself and your life, where you are and who you are right NOW… really seeing yourself and all that you’ve earned, worked hard for, manifested, and drawn into your life in a positive way with much gratitude, even though there are ongoing and sometimes growing needs and dreams to fulfill.

When I feel my life as it is now, I feel the abundance I’ve drawn, but what gets challenging is feeling the parts of me and Metasoul aspects who are still a bit restless. When I feel into this some more, I can see us all standing on the bridge between ‘abundance’ and ‘scarcity’, where I feel we’ve mostly been hanging out for a few years now. We now cross the bridge into ‘abundance’ more often than ever before, but the scarcity consciousness surfaces in these parts and aspects from time to time.

Old fears, old pain, old ways of seeing and being in the world come up again to be felt. I can feel now when it’s something ‘old’ and I don’t feel judgement of that, only curiosity about who it is inside of me that is carrying that energy still, and how I can help them live more in the present. My parts, I’ve realized, are integrating more these days and when they aren’t integrated, they aren’t always in ‘pain’, just needing a check-in like a dear friend who is bothered by something perhaps or just wants some love exchanged with them. All of this needs to be felt and acknowledged though so that it continues to heal. And as it continues to heal, it makes room for the experiences we all DO want that are truly new and truly abundant.

‘Abundance’ is less and less about material wealth or money, though this comes up for me as well at times. Yet, in these shifting times we’re in, ‘money’ as we’ve known it may be in its final death blows. This leaves us all with a need to feel what’s been underneath our attachment to it and how to receive/use it ‘wisely’ or ‘responsibly’. You could say this about anything you receive though, couldn’t you? Love is held as another important currency that 3D teaches us ‘to spend wisely/responsibly’ when it conditions us on how to ‘get and keep love’ and all the ways in which it tells us what we do and do not deserve to have in relationships of any kind or within ourselves, even.

When I see the ‘abundance’ in my life now… I see the love I get to have within me and exchange with others. I see how it’s been such a deep process for me over many years now of feeling where love does and doesn’t flow within me and that then informs the flow of love that I am able to experience/let in on the outside. Abundance really does start inside, just as anything you want to draw into your life… and, as always, it’s about fully having/receiving what is available to us now, even though there are genuine aches to experience or have more too.

I, for one, would love to have, experience, be IN the abundance of Sacred Union and everything that flows in every area of my life when I am in one. Yet, for now, I’m invited to feel the robust and ever-growing INNER Sacred Union, the dance that there is within me between my own Inner Masculine and Feminine. It’s yet another flow that has to start from within… and will eventually be drawn on the outside too.

Whatever your current ‘currency’ is in your life now in your life circumstances as they are, spend/receive/let go/let in with love all that IS now and all that WILL BE as you continue your own process into everything ‘abundance’ truly and deeply means to you… ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Deeper Intimacy With Self Through The Explorations With Money

By Deya Shekinah

Wow, what a topic money is. I feel so many layers and parts wrapped into the explorations with money. One of the things that Jelelle Awen offered in the SoulFullHeart Free To Be Two group call about money this week, was how some can relate to money as a false god. This landed straight away as what I experienced within my family, how earning money gave meaning to life and felt like the only meaning to life as there was no spirituality or religion in my upbringing. I feel how my Inner Masculine, David, took this on and how my Inner Child, Yazzy, was stifled by this. Since she was always so multi dimensional, she didn’t believe this to be true, but as there was no one bringing any other meaning, she became capped by that.

I remembered a time when a male family member said to me that ‘money is the only thing that matters in the world’. At the time, I was blown away that anyone could believe that. As I feel it now, I feel so much density in that picture of our world, the lack of joy or spaciousness in it. As I feel David, I sense this energy within him as the conditioning he received from birth family members. 

Right now I am in a transition into a new way of being and earning money, that is bringing light to David’s relationship to money.  I hold and feel a lot of trust around money after years of transitioning and exploring money. This transition has grown into a deeper awareness and understanding of a greater meaning of life, as well as what abundance looks and feels like to me. 

I have learnt that abundance is many things. Not only money, but time, connection, vulnerability with others, space to BE. These all feel like abundance to me. I am coming to know and feel that my inner feeling of abundance is what draws abundance on the outside including financial abundance, even as that is still growing. For David, I feel him seeing this abundance coming in and seeing money coming in for offering my Soul Gifts, but he still does not FEEL abundant.

The group call has helped me feel this with him, his reality more of distrust and lack that he has been in and learnt throughout this 3D experience, sure that has been the 3D experience. One of the core beliefs I feel held in David is, ‘there is never enough money’., I see how much this creates that reality for us because he is so focused on ‘there is never enough’. He cannot appreciate or acknowledge it as it is coming in. I feel how it is the ability to be grateful for what IS, in the moment, that draws more of that thing to you, which of course is a journey, not something you can create through bypassing feeling the lack of gratitude. 

I feel how this lack of money belief is actually a cover up for lack of love, connection, communication and boundaries, it feels like. Money becomes this huge focal point when there is no other meaning to life. Money has become this huge elephant in the room, where we think about it, worry about it, are anxious about it, but we do not really honestly talk about it, at least in my experience and in this culture of my current geography. The shame, the guilt, the resentment around money is of course going to make it heavy and joyless. This feels like it creates blocks to, and a push/pull within us and our relationship to money, as well as abundance in general. 

I feel the lack of joy the Inner Masculine can hold around life in general, which then seeps into his relationship with/to everything else in life. I feel David feeling joyless, I feel him longing to experience joy as my other parts do, his sadness that he cannot seem to meet them there. Yet I feel how no one has ever asked him what he likes, what the meaning of his life is, and how he has been disempowered throughout this 3D experience too.

So now there is this new ground to walk out with him, where he is included and wanted, where he gets to feel and heal too because he is valued by me through this process. So this is where talking about money leads us, perhaps not straight away to more money, although I feel that coming in but to deeper connection, understanding and intimacy with our parts, and with each other eventually too.

You can purchase the recording of this Free To Be Two group call about money and attendance at/recordings of future group calls in this series by offering a donation of any amount. More information at soulfullheart.org/freetobe2.

Love,

Deya & David

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

Why Did I Come Here?

I came here to experience the bliss and the mess
I came here to learn what it means to be human
I came here to create whatever spirit calls me to create

I came here to heal the suffering and the trauma
I came here to love that which appears unlovable
I came here to remember all that I had chosen to forget

I came here to forgive myself for I have always been Forgiven
I came here to serve the love that only I was meant to serve
I came here to bridge my heart to yours, my parts to me

I came here to give it my all
I came here to fall
I came here to pick myself up again

I came here to understand that not everything makes sense
I came here to resolve that I am not meant to be solved
I came here to laugh, to dance, to sing, and make love

I came here. I am here. Now, it is time to BE here.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Gift Of Humility And Gratitude

Yesterday was the first time I had been in a SoulFullHeart group space for a few months. While in one way it felt like yesterday, it was also a huge gap for parts of me that have been in deep feeling space and processing over that time. This is such evidence of how we live on many different dimensions at once and time is just does not have a standard trajectory, nor is real in many ways.

My movement with my masculine and reptilian self two days prior really felt to pave the way for this reunion. I could feel some nervousness and doubts from parts of me that I would be at that frequency to be able to vibe into the coherence. This of course is one big projection of my own lack of worth that I have been working on since I parted in January.

However, through the process that I had, I felt a clearing inside of me that ‘moulted’ away the layer that was holding this reaction and energy. I could feel myself more in the space as Gabriel, the being that really never left yet has come back with a new relationship to himself and the world around him. That difference, I noticed last night, was that of authentic humility and gratitude.

These two emotional grounds are the result of the self-love and deep, wounded ego healing that I went through while I was away. I could feel a reverence of the space, the beloveds in front of me, but more importantly the reverence and care for myself that had been cultivated during this time. I felt my parts being held by me and leaning into the goodness that was alive in the space. There was no self-judgement or comparison going on that seemed to run underground in the past.

I felt who I was and where I was in the ‘order’ of things and felt so very present to the goodness of that. Not trying to be anything I wasn’t. This is all that has ever been asked of me, yet I hadn’t asked of it from myself. This time I have and it felt palpably different. I have to owe all of that shift to parts work and my own dedication to it. Even if things were to shift at some point and I find myself on my own again, I have a me that can’t leave me. I would go through grief, for sure, but I would not perish or suffer.

It is with this humility and gratitude that I can ride the waves of what the universe bestows upon me whether it be as a collaborator, a support system, a facilitator, or all three! I know this is where I belong in whatever fashion. This is my family, my community, and my way of life. And for that it was all worth it.

*****

Gabriel Heartman is a Facilitant and Collaborator with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Feeling The Inner Masculine To Move from Surviving To Thriving

By Deva Yasmin

I have been noticing for some time a certain pattern or habit within me. I have been feeling and exploring this much deeper these past days as I adjust to a new way of being, it feels like. As I transition from dream space to waking space, I notice anxiety coming up, this automatic pattern that has been there for so long to get up, get doing, get working. Already in my dream space I sense a chaotic-ness as I am stirring into conscious reality.

I felt yesterday a part of me called ‘David’, my Inner Masculine I have been working with for a while. As we felt together I felt how long he has been in this way of life, getting straight up out of bed, straight into work/survival mode; to move into my day from a place of rest and stillness felt so alien to him. That is the invitation and opportunity now it feels like, as I no longer have work to go to, as many of us are experiencing. I feel that this is also an invitation into a new way of being for us all, of moving into more thriving than only surviving this life. I feel inside me the growing desire to move in all areas of my life from a place of inner peace and stillness.

David expressed to me that it was new to not have to go into the day from a place of stress and to-do lists, but that he also does enjoy the practical aspects of life. I felt him not so anxious about it, rather desiring to be acknowledged as the part that is here to provide for me and my parts practically. This felt so lovely and soothing to other parts of me, to feel I have David here to help with those things as they are needed. He then transitioned to becoming my Inner Father which opened some touching healing between him and Yazzy, my Inner Child.

It was interesting to me then to feel the same anxiety arising as I woke this morning, and when checking in I could no longer feel David but a new part coming through who was very anxious about having no work. I felt a lot of fear around how we will support ourselves financially and feed ourselves too. As I felt deeper, this part revealed himself to me as ‘John’, a Metasoul brother it feels like, in a timeline of starvation and poverty. He was very concerned, he felt taking time in the morning to ease into the day was frivolous, something he could not afford to do. I could feel him being the sole provider for his family, a wife and two small children, who were all starving and dying as were many people around them, it felt like. He told me how he had to feed his children, feeding them before himself, his fear so triggered by me no longer having work, as well as my new geography in London it feels like, and me now desiring to step into a new way of earning money, rather than the old way of employment that my parts are used to.

I was able to acknowledge his experience and his feelings, although I could not do anything to change his reality. I helped him feel that starvation and poverty are no longer a part of my life now, even as I live on less money and eat less too. My relationship to food is not coming from a poverty mindset, but rather from years of transitioning to feeling what I actually need versus overeating as a cover over to not feel my emotions. Feeling John so explains why I have had a fear based connection to food this life, feeling him starving in his. I supported him to feel the reality of his situation, soberly feeling the outcome, that him and his family may possibly die yet he did not have to suffer. He had the choice to be present with his children, love them, soothe them, rather than keep panicking about what to do. This softened something for him as I felt him moving into being in what is, and with his beloveds while he still could.

Feeling John I felt so much gratitude for what I do have in the moment, the food I have even if it is not the amount parts of me have been used too, grateful to feel that starvation isn’t part of my timeline now although I know it is for so many. I sense how much I have held onto because of the fear of survival, feeling how unhappy it has made me to stay in jobs I do not like and how even relationships too can be a way of covering over the fear. I feel how society can make women feel like they need a man to provide and survive and I am sure men have their own version of this too.

For me right now I have let go of so many things that have made me feel safe, as I have chosen to move towards my desires for more resonance and purpose in my life. I have a feeling of how I wish my life to feel, so I am having to meet all the fear of moving towards it. I feel how I have been in this transition for some time especially around money, having struggled to manage full-time employment. I had to question how much I actually needed. Feeling how much energy and inner resources it takes to maintain work that is not my passion, I no longer wanted to do it and with the exchange of money no longer being a big enough draw for me either, I now desire to thrive not only survive.

Exploring what it feels like to thrive is a new exploration ground, feeling through the transition of having less money to truly feel what thriving feels and looks like. It feels like a transition we will all have to go through at some stage in our Awakening. For me, thriving does not mean the same thing as success; thriving is not solely based on financial abundance but can include that too. To thrive for me feels like TIME, to have time to actually live, to enjoy the world around me, to breath it all in. To be grateful for the simplest of things, vulnerability, connection, intimacy, honesty, and service of Love to others and self. Feeling balance in all areas of your life and to be leading from love, peace and lots of joy rather than lack and fear. These are not things that can be maintained or even experienced when we are so overly focused on the 3D survival matrix paradigm, as I have just remembered, again, after needing to go into full-time employment that is not my passion or Soul purpose once more, to finally be able now to leave it behind.

I feel an empty space between where parts have been focused for so long on 3D, to where we are heading in 5D/Golden Earth Reality as I checked in with Enu, my Pleaidian aspect around this. Also, to feel where I am now as I explore how to transition personally. Enu told me that in her world, they do not work with the energy of money, that it is an Earth experience/challenge and frequency, part of human life only, it feels like. I feel her holding the picture of energy exchange, of freely offering our gifts to one another when needed, of sharing with others and of not being scared of asking for help when it is needed either, that all resources are shared in her timeline. Abundance means so many things in her world, whereas here on Earth it can so often be felt or seen as only money equals abundance. They are also deeply connected to their creativity and gifts which gives them life, as well as living on prana too, rather than physical food as we do. They absorb life force from the world around them, through breath.

This feels so much like what I have been longing to experience and am on my way towards especially joining SoulFullHeart as a Collaborator, with the desire to be a Facilitator in the future, as well as one day living together in community. It is what I moved towards more, moving into my new place in London too, with beautiful resonant souls, a choice that was financially risky after losing my job but that David navigated and manifested financial support for me around too. Now I have the space to breathe and question what I want to bring into the world, what is my passion and the creativity/wisdom and healing I have to offer to others through my own healing. I feel the desire and LOVE in my heart switching on to be of service to others, for which I will need to continue to feel the parts in fear around all of this.

Feeling the higher timelines available does soothe my parts and helps me be more in the moment around everything, keeping my vision alive and burning, anchoring me in my commitment to keep going IN and feeling all the difficult reactions and timelines within my Soul. Feeling with sobriety when things are not working, when things have become stagnant and when we need to move in a different direction is SO hard. Feeling when there is nothing to do, but to feel the pain, sadness, grief, trusting that that is what will move us forward when the time is right, and the Divine knows the timings here not us.

Learning to trust the perfection of this life, this universe, comes to me through being able to sit in, be in, and feel everything that is moving within me. Feeling the Love growing for myself, feeds my truest desires and gives me the courage to keep moving towards NEW Earth, even though the way through is in the Valley of the Shadow of Death. This does not have to be a scary transition anymore though, as more and more resources from within our Soul are activated as we feel the lifetimes/timelines where we have been training and preparing for these times for so long. Everything we need for these transitions is within us.

Love,

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

 

 

 

 

 

Sailing The Seas Of Change Through 3D/4D/5D

By Deva Yasmin

I feel like I am on a boat sailing and navigating so many different kinds of seas, sometimes stormy where I have to hunker down and hope for the best, sometimes I am able to hold onto the wheel just enough to navigate through, and other times I am just plain sailing, on turquoise blue oceans surrounded by beauty, relaxed and in bliss, surrendering to her motions. 

I feel how these seas are a representation of the 3D/4D/5D transitions we are in, how we are moving in a constant flux between dimensions right now. Some days I find myself wanting and needing to allow myself to be in 3D and it can feel really uncomfortable when I cannot deeply connect to or understand what I am feeling. In 3D it feels like parts of me are needing some old comforts, finding shelter for a time in feeling as though nothing is changing. In some spirituality this can be shamed as a way of bypassing, but I am feeling it more and more as a place parts of me need to be until they no longer do… until their desire organically grows to live in greater alignment with who they are becoming. I feel how the ocean constantly changes, how I will always, eventually, be washed into 4D again, as and when parts of me feel ready to navigate it.

In 4D I feel like I am able to take in more information, to feel more deeply, as my parts desire to share with me and let me in. There feels like no answers or certainties in 4D, rather it feels like an exploration and digestion space, where healing and change become possible. It is uncomfortable here too at times, as all the emotions, pains and traumas come to the surface to be felt. In 4D, parts are awakening to questioning what is real, what is really going on and why it is happening. 

I am feeling drawn more to alternative news streams in 4D, to take in more possibilities than what is offered through the mainstream. Parts of me in 4D feel a greater responsibility to do so, although both can push up more fear, anxiety, uncertainty to feel.  I feel how some of the alternative streams are still only offering a picture of more ‘us versus them’ energies, which is important to feel as it is offered to wake us up out of a 3D reality where we blindly follow and believe without question, governments, news, people with lots of money and power, and the Cabal. SoulFullHeart has offered a lot to feel and explore around this topic.  As we expand and open to more possibilities through 4D, I feel how we can begin to see some of the goodness this time is bringing forth too, more possibilities of higher timelines, that some of the alternative streams do not seem to be offering more of at the moment.

I feel this is where the beauty and uniqueness of SoulFullHeart lies, inviting us to feel what is beyond all of the battling energies, rather coming to feel, know and remember Love, the true navigator of Life, that is holding it all. SoulFullHeart welcomes and acknowledges the full spectrum of who we are, including the more 3D/egoic parts that have been so shamed in other paradigms of spirituality, feeling it all as our humanness, a very Divine aspect of Awakening.

5D can feel like a hard reality for parts to let in, especially when the turbulent waves through 3D and 4D can feel so dark, bleak and heavy. As we breathe through the waves, opening to, listening and honoring ALL the parts that can still be plugged into these denser realities, we start to feel and attune to higher frequencies, our parts that are always safely anchored in the golden turquoise bays of New Earth/5D reality, relishing in the Love, Bliss, and Beauty that radiates through everything, the clear sunrise after the stormy night at sea.

Here in 5D, we start to sink into rest, surrendering to all of the motions and outcomes, here we can BE in and receive all the supportive energies that Gaia is always offering us. It feels like 5D is where we find our sea legs, our ability to be, to rest in ok-ness. As we dip in and out of the 3D/4D timelines, the trust grows as we begin to recognize we always find our way home to our bay, to Love.

It can feel like only a quick rest before we are pulled out to sea again, this is very much my process right now. Sailing the seas, getting caught in the waves, surrendering to where, what and who I need to feel, then falling into the bliss. Having no control of the timing and pace, not even being able to make plans for any future, although I can feel all the possibilities of potential outcomes and timelines, giving me more to feel and digest, in preparation to know the path towards my highest timeline, when it presents itself.

This way of life humbles me, teaching me of the qualities of gratitude and compassion. When there is no way out of feeling pain and fear, it takes so much courage for parts to keep trusting the leading edges of the Soul, as it embraces more of life in the Unknown. It takes so much commitment to the greater vision of serving Love, to keep being in the feelings and at times allowing ourselves to just be in the mess of it all too.
In this moment, I feel to offer the goodness that this is bringing to many: those who will not have to take exams, those who are losing the jobs they didn’t like anyway, those who are getting to spend more time with loved ones, all things that at the same time bring up so much fear for parts. I offer this as a bridge to feeling where your parts are in push/pull around your circumstances. To feel the possibility that parts of you are residing in so many different realities, in this ONE NOW.

 In these times the SoulFullHeart process and community are a lighthouse, a beacon of light supporting all of those who resonate, to navigate and support these transitions. That are always, ultimately leading us home, to our inner bay of Love, anchored in New Earth.  

Much Love,

Deva x

Deva Yasmin is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc

Co-Creating The World We Dare Dream For Ourselves

by Raphael Awen

It feels so strange to consider the possibility that there isn’t actually a dividing line between reality and imagination.

The imagination is kind of like the movie writer and director who did such a great job, that all they needed to do was remove the end credits, and the viewers seamlessly slipped into another timeline of reality.

Make no mistake, the reality you and I love in, personally, collectively, globally, galactically, is completely ‘made up’ and not at all ‘real’ in the sense of what we mean when we use that word. In other words, It’s a reality being generated from somewhere. Reality and imagination are just opposite ends of the same measuring stick, and that stick is essentially you, along with me and the rest of us.

We lean into and adopt a given reality as independently true when that reality is completely dependent upon the imagination that generated and continues to uphold the projection we call reality. The movie reel is the imagination. The movie projector is also the imagination. The viewer is also taking in the imagination and then co-creating and co-signing ‘reality’, which in turn spawns new imaginations, a bunch more layers of creative reality projections to support the first assumption that reality is just real, and then the illusion becomes quite watertight and we have the experience of losing our awareness that we are making all this shit up!

And if we are making all this shit up, then we can change the recipe and make big ol’ batches of heaven instead.

I can think of favorite foods and get a physiological response to happen in my body. You can too, right? I certainly can dream romantically and sexually and have that take me somewhere, quite exquisite actually. Right? So what else is yet untapped in our working knowledge of employing the imagination to create the new reality we might dare to dream?

If any of this is accurate, we may well ask yet an even deeper question; ‘What would then prevent us from assuming our power and getting on with creating the world we dare dream for ourselves, the world we dare dream for one another?’ I don’t believe it is simply a lacking of awareness of our creative power. We are ignorant of it, yes, but there’s something underneath that willful ignorance. We need something more, more than the message that we are the creators.

What I feel that ignorance and something more to really be about is our inability to bear joy and sorrow. Joy and sorrow are the open-ended extremes of being alive in polarity. You can’t have one without the other. You only find and know love to the degree you are willing to be vulnerable to losing that love. What’s so great about having a child, for instance, is the knowledge that you could lose that child, and if not to death, then simply to growing up. That’s the knowing that affords you the reverence you need to afford you truly ‘having’ in the moment. The dream of having a child truly comes alive when you feel the vulnerability and even guarantee of losing that child. We then enter the moment where all gain and loss occurs and we experience awe and reverence.

The universe doesn’t spare anyone of us with any guarantee of the present remaining unchanged, or that we won’t lose; only insurance policies attempt that trick, which is akin to trying to purchase something you already own but are unaware of. Instead, the universe promises you, that you will lose what you gained, and therein are you afforded the grace to really be with the joy of having, and when you’ve had all the having you can handle, you enter the grace to let it go and to allow it to return to the abundance from whence it came – and you don’t actually ‘lose’ in this process of loss, because you are this joy, you are this sorrow. To be human is to sign up for joy and sorrow, for winning and losing. What game is any fun that you are guaranteed to win every time? The only ‘real illusion’ of security is the one you create for yourself being held in the arms of infinite, unending love, come what may. You are love and only love can’t win or lose anything because love is All and always will be. The imaginations and their created realities are all expressions of this unchanging love. Love couldn’t change itself, so it chose the next best thing, to create the illusion of loss, through which to expand itself and know itself more.
We are in these throes of everything changing, and when you feel it internally, it doesn’t really matter what’s changing or not changing externally. You can dial up anything you need to be in love, to be in light, to be in love’s embrace, to be in love’s radiance.

This, in turn, makes for a pretty exciting new dance ground for your inner feminine and inner masculine to show up for. Sex and love are only reverence and awe taken to higher heights.

These are the times we created for ourselves, personally, nationally, globally and galactically. Time now to invite your dreamer forward if you haven’t already.

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Join Jelelle Awen and I for a six-week group exploration over Zoom that started this  past Wednesday, April 1st at 10:00am PDT (Vancouver, Canada time) with teachings and guided meditations from us and space for individual sharings! The calls are two hours, by donation and whatever you can afford to give at this time of deep money transition for many. You can offer a donation for the entire series or just one at a time.

You can join us live and you also receive the recordings after every call and can watch them at any time after the calls if you cannot make it live.

Details here on FB at https://www.facebook.com/events/1095703627430395/
and at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/Freetobe

You can offer donations through our shop at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/shop or via paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen

We look forward to connecting deeper with you! If you have any questions, please email Kalayna Solais at soulfullhearts@gmail.com or send her a message via the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life Facebook page.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Inner Child Ambassadors Of Forgiveness For Our New Earth

By Raianna Shai

I haven’t said much yet about the current situation that we’re going through as a collective. One part of me worries about what others would think, but mostly I’ve just been enjoying the process of digesting all the odds and ends with my community. I truly believe that this is all happening for a much bigger reason than just a pandemic or a virus. We are about to enter an era that I feel in my heart will lead to an entirely new way of living. With love, peace, compassion. New money systems, new forms of true news and media, and more transparency.

But one of the biggest changes coming that touches my heart is the return of so many children that have been sold into trafficking, abused, sexually exploited, etc. There are loads of proof of these heartbreaking things happening as well as many supported theories that these children will be returned in the midst of this pandemic.

I had the most comfortable and satisfying bath today that brought my heart and mind to a new level of understanding and digestion of this reality. My sweet inner child really wanted to process with me everything we had just learned about these children. We both had tears the night before thinking about all of the harm done to them but also about how naturally forgiving children are. We both know that the return of these children would not mean revenge in their hearts, but forgiveness and moving forward.

While in my peaceful bath I imagined these children in my place, washing away the dirt, the blood, the sexual assault and abuse. I imagined them feeling free and safe for the first time in a very long time. I could feel the relief but also the built up, raw trauma. I had the idea to help them wash, as a loving and motherly figure. But my inner child stopped me, helping me realize that this is the first time they will have control over and love for their own bodies. That even a loving touch will be a triggering one for a while.

This experience reminded me of how intuitive and compassionate children truly are. I have a hard time imagining even yelling at a child, nonetheless abusing them. The beautiful thing about this though is that these same children will be the reason that we can all forgive. They will be the ambassadors to show us the way to purity of heart and raw forgiveness. Every soul has a Divine source, no matter how far into the dark they’ve gone.

Though I can’t condone killing anyone in my hearts, the souls of the abusers may have signed up to die after all of this comes to light. Others may have the opportunity to raise their frequency, especially if we are open to it. I highly recommend connecting to your inner child at this time as they are the most vulnerable and sensitive to times filled with fear and anxiety. But they’re also the part that will become the love ambassadors inside of us in order move us into this next phase of our New Earth.

The Seven Areas Of Life: Past, Present and Future

By Raianna Shai

I decided recently to do my own version of this popular “Decade In Review” style post. One of the tools we use in SoulFullHeart to process where we are in our life, and where we want to be is using the “7 Areas of Life”. These areas include Emotional, Spiritual, Social, Physical, Mental, Environmental and Financial. I thought it would be a really cool practice to use this to review where I was 10 years ago, where I am now, and where I’d like to be in the future. I felt into each area of life and processed my own personal past, present and future. I’ll write a little bit about what I discovered, I’ll include the article that I used as reference and I’ll attach an outline for you to fill out yourself!

First, here is the article about the 7 Areas of Life: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions

This article is divided into the 3D/4D/5D versions of each of these areas of life. 3D being a denser frequency focused on a way of seeing the world through the 5 senses. Lower 4D has more of a rumbly feeling with the way you’ve always seen the world starting to change, often with feelings of anger, injustice and frustration. Upper 4D frequencies are when you start to heal a lot of your trauma and fear and in turn, return to love and peace inside of yourself. 5D is the higher self version of you that has little reaction and can move through life in flow, trust and love for everything and everyone while still being able to hold boundaries.

One thing I noticed about myself in this, is that 10 years ago I primarily resonated with the 3D version of these areas, currently I find myself closest to upper 4D and for my future I would love to reach a level of 5D conscious in all areas.

10 years ago: I find that I have no judgement of the 14 year old version of myself being more in 3D. She was young, kind and intelligent but had so much insecurity and fear that much of her reality was clouded over compared to its potential. She was also very shy and would rarely speak up in class, say her truth or admit any feelings that weren’t positive. Drama would happen all around her and she would do whatever she could to not be involved. She wanted to please everyone and be the perfect student/daughter/friend and later girlfriend.

She was very emotional, though not very aware of where her emotions came from or how they could actually affect others if left unhealed. Socially, she had the same friends since kindergarten but was about to move to Canada and embark on a completely new journey. This change in environment proved to massively change my self confidence and ability to take on new and scary situations. She was awakened to some spirituality a couple of years prior but wasn’t able to sustain much of this connection. At this point, she had no real desire to connect to spirituality and focused more on the mental aspect of her life. She is a vastly different person from who I am today but the essence of who I am was still there inside of her. Compassion, emotion, and joy.

Today: Feeling into who I am now helped me have so much gratitude for all of the hard emotional and spiritual work that I have done so far. So much unworthiness, insecurity and fear has been shed in the last 10 years and it’s because of every single experience that I have had. Whether they felt good or bad in the moment, I can see now the purpose for all of it.

In the last three years or so I have become SO much more in tune with parts of me and my emotions. Discovering the root causes of my fears and feeling them into healing. My connection to spirituality has substantially increased with experiences of kundalini, openings with the Divine and more relationships with my metasoul and galactic families. My social world has been a rollercoaster ride these last 10 years with much letting go of that which no longer served where I wanted to go and who I wanted to be. Now I have opened the doors for beings who inspire my spiritual journey and resonate on every level possible. I have changed environments in big ways including a move to Mexico and back to Canada which allowed me to appreciate the energy of where I live and cultivate a center inside of me that will stay with me anywhere in the world! Financially, I have an online job that allows me to spend my days working on my soul purpose, even if the job itself is not directly a part of that. I am so proud of where and who I am today. I am excited for even more growth but if I died today, I would be so happy with exactly where I’m at now, and I never thought I would be able to say that.

Future: I have such a clear and yet flexible picture for how I see my future. I imagine even less fear and reaction, more love flow in every moment, and deeper connections with resonant souls in my life. Travel is a huge desire of mine and connecting that to service is even more enticing. Having a property that is filled with our SoulFullHeart community while having phases of travel within that is probably number one on my list. I see myself serving others as a facilitator as well helping behind the scenes to organize, plan and design. My creativity has been flowing much more lately and I hope to connect these skills to my finances and service. I feel my relationship flourishing and deepening every day, helping each other grow and become loving mirrors for each other. Socially, I would love more women to connect with and have comfortable yet growthful experiences with. I would love to have less anxiety and less thoughts spinning around in my head. In this, I see more trust and flow with my mentality and existing more through emotion and intuition.

This practice was huge in helping me feel love for the 14 year old version of myself, gratitude for where I am now, and excitement for what the next 10 years hold! I highly recommend doing even a couple of these areas of life, especially the ones you are struggling with or would like to see movement in. It can be hard for parts of us to not judge where we are but it helps to see how far we’ve come! We are a beautiful and messy work in progress and we will never be the same soul that we were yesterday.

 


 

Here is an outline I created to make it easier for you to organize it all if you like!

Emotional: The Emotional area of life includes the relationship you and parts of you have to your emotions, your subconscious, your pain body, emotional healing, and emotional expression.

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Spiritual: The Spiritual area of life includes the relationship you and parts of you have to your Spirituality, soul gift expression, soul purpose, Ethereal Guides, the Divine, and your energy body/chakras.

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Mental: The Mental area of life includes the relationship you and parts of you have toward your intelligence, knowledge, non-duality, wisdom, and mental-based intuition.

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Social: The Social area of life includes the relationship you and parts of you have to birth and soul family, friendships, romantic mateships, Ethereal Guides, and Star BEings.

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Physical: The Physical area of life includes the relationship you and parts of you have to your physical body, your health, your nutrition, your sexual desirability and expression.

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Financial: The Financial area of life includes the relationship you and parts of you have to money, material wealth, abundance, livelihood, soul purpose expression and purpose.

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Environmental: The environmental area of life includes the relationship you have to your physical surroundings, geography, global and galactic environment, the natural world, and animals.

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free intro calls and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Into The Trauma, And Beyond!

By Raianna Shai

Much of spirituality and emotional healing is based on the healing of trauma. From this life, other lifetimes, and with galactic connections. This is probably some of the most important work we do in healing our wounding and growing closer to our essence. My recent process, however, has helped me realize that there IS healing that exists beyond the trauma.

In my most recent session I connected with both my inner protector and a new gatekeeper. My inner protector is the part of me that helps get me through daily life. He is the one that can hold very 3D and physical/mental tasks. My gatekeeper, on the other hand, is the guide I can lean into when it comes to opening out my soul connections and gifts.

As I felt my protector first, he was overwhelmed and trying so hard to deepen my process and make it more meaningful. But deepening my healing isn’t his responsibility. I haven’t signed up for much trauma this life and the metasoul healing I’ve done so far has healed almost all of what I have signed up for. So this part’s job has shifted massively from protecting to resting and trusting.

This new gatekeeper, who I am calling Damien, is a much higher frequency and has the key to unlocking the rest of my soul that goes beyond the trauma. He can show me the gifts, the positive experiences, the magical and deep journeys that allow for more love and cohesion between all aspects of myself.

Going through this process has helped me realize that we don’t just have to be here for trauma healing. We can go beyond – deeper into who we want to be and what we want to build for ourselves. We can grow closer and closer to essence until maybe we are even done coming back as human.

In order to get to this place we must trudge through muddy waters, deconstruct all that we have believed to be true about ourselves, love who are parts once were and dream about who we want to be. We must find the worth, do the work and stay in the room with the darkest and most difficult parts of us. But each ounce of love we take in, each connection to the Divine and each step towards forgiveness brings us through our trauma and into the “beyond”.

Beyond self consciousness, beyond fear, beyond anger, beyond anxiety and depression, even beyond much self awareness at all. The “beyond” to me is pure love, essence, passion and service.

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free intro calls and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.