The Important Process Of Sharing Your Truth

by Kasha Rokshana

So many times you’ve forgotten that your truth is important. 

It doesn’t actually matter if your truth is ‘right’ or ‘correct’ based on facts, figures, or socially accepted assumptions. It also doesn’t matter if it’s the truth of a wounded part of you projecting shadows onto those around you. Whatever is true, feels true, or could be true for you and any part or soul aspect needs to be shared some way, somehow.

We deny ourselves the real virtue of being messy and coming out the other side with more understanding about ourselves and others, and a deepening capacity to feel ourselves and others when we shut ourselves down. Getting to the real heart of your real truth takes digging and flowing inward yet also outward, expressing what you need to when you need to, whether or not it feels rational or even very ‘loving’.

It’s in our most controversial moments at times, our most fiery outbursts, that we reclaim ourselves and our own realities while inviting others into it too. At the same time, if we can keep our hearts open, the realities and truths of others then get invited out onto the same dance floor. 

We invite others to feel us while we open our hearts to feel them. This is intimacy.

This is why intimacy is scary… the mirrors we offer are also offered back to us. 

I am SO wary of any ‘spiritual teacher’ that doesn’t invite in true intimacy with self and others in this way. You’ll never fully be shorn of shadow, nor would striving for that be particularly healthy on any level. You think we would be in this intense shadow dance with the rest of humanity at this time if it was possible, truly possible, to be 100% virtuous and enlightened beyond the need for any more mirrors and inner deep dives? 

I don’t feel you would be here if that were the case. 

I feel like I’m on a very deep journey personally, of showing up with my fire in tow and not mincing words unless a sense of genuine compassion asks me to be more tactful or even careful. Without my fire, the desire to be truly compassionate dies, however. Or at the very least, it isn’t quite allowed to breathe and be where it’s at. My care doesn’t get to come out and offer a balm and my own Divine Mother channel doesn’t get to become truly activated.

Denying myself my own fire doesn’t do me any good, and it doesn’t serve others either. I might ruffle feathers along the way, yet my heart is still in the space. I have emotional range and porosity at the same time as spiritual expansiveness. There’s no reason in my heart or mind that I can think of to avoid this because now there are new mirrors to take in of not only what I need to feel and look at next within myself, but also mirrors of my bigness. 

This is what I feel inspired to share because I desire to inspire others. Let your truth out and sort it out as you go. There’s often a great cost and also a deadness that results when you don’t bother, when you sacrifice your truth for the sake of false light and love and dare I say, ‘tolerance’. Who the hell wants to be only tolerated anyways? And why would that ever be enough on either end of that equation?

As a sensitive and empathic soul, I’ve struggled to share my truth (not saying it is THE truth, yet sharing it out loud anyways) out of ‘not wanting to hurt anyone’, yet what I’ve learned through serving and also in my own intimate connections recently is that none of us are truly able to deepen our relationship with ourselves or each other without being real. 

It’s uncomfortable to be real in a world that has told you over and over again NOT to be and to be compliant with whatever is ‘accepted’ instead. Even spirituality has told us all not to be real… or that to be really real is to share misery only.

In the realness of sharing our fire and our hearts, our bombs and our balms, we invite in a powerful humanly spiritual experience that connects us so deeply to our souls. 

May you walk in realness and love today and always… 

Burning up what needs to be burned up with love.

And cleaning up whatever needs aftercare in the aftermath. 

Love,

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

How Some ‘Spiritual Truths’ Dull Divine Passion & Personal Soul Truth

By Kasha Rokshana

So many popular ‘spiritual truths’ feel so empty and tinny to me, and they can sometimes be used by parts of you to quell your genuine passion and divine fire. They become such dull platitudes and yet they are revered and held as THE irrefutable Truth for so many souls.

There are so many different ‘truths’ that indeed ARE true in different ways, yet just like affirmations, they can so easily be used in a manipulative way that also dulls intuition and raw instinct within yourself and others. It’s about how they are related to, not about the words themselves…

Taking the “high road” that some of these sayings offer really isn’t as interesting to me as going into the messy road, the one that has brambles and needs some bush-whacking, for that is where realness is and also some very catalytic Divine energies. It’s not that being elevated enough to see the bigger picture isn’t important, but sometimes it’s the grind and grist that leads us to our deepest growth AND our truest exit from the need for grist to appear in the same way.

These ‘truths’ which are so often hijacked by the false light matrix, can be used to gaslight, to divert attention away from a need to actually own what’s rumbling in yourself or another, to keep you from dropping into a realization about a shadow play-out that’s been happening in your life or your spiritual healing/writing offerings.

And, they do anything BUT support you to go into more intimacy grounds within yourself, to truly cultivate and embody your Divine Self, and in that same way they do not support a deepening intimacy ground with others built with true compassion and love.

On my own awakening and Ascension journey, I haven’t personally been drawn to very many of them or the leaders/teachers who spout them off and justify the abuse they dole out through them. Yet, I also feel in my heart why some souls would be drawn and even ignore any intuitions they may have about them, especially if this to them is what love is or must be and it sure seems much more alive than what they’ve endured in the past.

There are so many I could highlight today, yet I’ve chosen just a few to share about that seem to really show up a lot.

“If you’re triggered by me, it’s not about me, it’s all about you”.

While this is true to some degree, this so often gets used to divert away from your own accountability, the mirror of your own shadow showing up. Even though you may have innocently triggered someone, sometimes there is still room to own your own side of things, to see and feel someone in their trigger, and discern if this is a reflection you truly need at this time or not. None of us are perfect, and we DO get to choose whose opinions and reflections of us we value the most, yet there is so much data in all of our triggers for ourselves and our relationships to absolutely everything and everyone.

Also, where is the heartfelt care in saying this to someone that you supposedly DO care about?

“Make sure you heal before you enter in romantic relationship so you don’t project your wounding onto your partner.”

Rare is the soul who is fully done with projecting. It is so challenging at times to be the receiver of projections and sometimes, again, we can innocently trigger someone into this ground, yet this is ALL a sacred part of our exploration of deeper intimacy with others. Sometimes parts of us HAVE to project in order to see and feel themselves from a different light. Without allowing each other to have ‘stuff’ we are working when in relationship, we have missed the point of even going into it in the first place.

In the past it was hard for a time for parts of me to get that we have this permission inside to get messy with others or to let them get messy with me without any true ‘winner’ in the situation, without anyone needing to be ‘wrong’ or ‘right’, and without anyone needing to pretend to be perfect and have it all together. Yet what gets me through the pretense and old conditioning around conflict, is the reminder that we’re all in this together, we’re all imperfect, and if we can at least hold a common ground of doing deep inner work and wanting the mirrors that true intimacy offers us, then we will be just fine and heal in ways we never imagined possible.

And here’s one more which has recently been on my radar: “It doesn’t matter if someone steals or takes credit for your writings or creations made in the service of love. It never truly belonged to you anyways”.

If you have created something from the fires of your inner work, your passion, your hard-earned Divine access inside and out, and someone takes credit for that who has absolutely NOT done the same work you have and may actually be using your words/creations to seduce and create their own platform and following (something many ‘leaders’ do, unfortunately)… why would that be considered ‘ok’? If you genuinely feel unattached, I would say there’s a missing Divine passion in you that some part of you is afraid of and concerned about what it could do if untethered.

Advocacy and reasonable self-defence are not separate from Divine passion. You can keep your heart open, refrain from getting nasty, and stand solidly in your truth all at the same time. I’ve done it, my beloveds have done it, it’s possible and it’s accessible. It also shows that instead of trying to control your emotions, which aren’t ultimately controllable, you are willing to explore what is actually happening in this scenario from all angles possible.

“What’s the lesson I need to learn here?”

Whenever I hear someone say this, I immediately feel an Inner Punisher playing disciplinarian inside of them. It can feel so harsh to say this to yourself or to have a beloved ‘teacher’ say this to you. It takes the humanity out of the equation or worse, tries to discipline your humanity and make it bad or wrong or off or even ‘not ascended enough’.

I don’t feel that the vast majority of ‘teachers’ out there are even remotely qualified enough to ask such questions or make such judgements of you or anyone else, but that’s another piece I’ll share more about soon…

When something goes sideways in my own life, I don’t ask myself if there’s a ‘lesson’ to learn because I’m not in school anymore. What I do is look into the mirror that’s been offered and ask my parts/aspects, “what do I need to feel in myself that’s been off my radar but that I couldn’t see without this situation?” Even with this question sometimes I’ve had to feel a shame spiral my parts have fallen into… yet grounding it back into them and feeling where that comes from helps so much, as well as feeling the situation from as many angles as possible, truly ‘milking’ it for my growth and inner reconciliation while inviting the Divine in to support and love me through it, and then moving on. Nothing will help you move on the way real love does and that is always, without any doubt in my heart, seeded first within.

There’s such an important discernment that is being asked of us in spirituality and beyond. It’s as simple as asking questions about what is truly real, what your heart and intuition both tell you is possible, and feeling how the Divine is guiding you in every moment… whether this means you are able to ‘follow the crowd’ and wherever the current fanfare is around this or that ‘truth’ or ‘teacher’, or if you’d rather stay in your own lane for a while, feel it all out from deep within, and continue to find your own empowered connection to yourself and the Divine.

This has been such an important place to go for me personally and I imagine that we have all struggled at times to find our way to what’s pure, true, good, and loving amidst all of the din.

If my truth stirs or inspires your own in some way, please do be in touch and if you’re curious about 1:1 sessions with me (for women), we can meet for a free intro call to talk about the SoulFullHeart process and community and if it might be a fit for you at this time: soulfullheart.org/sessions

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Causes Of Inner Work & Ascension ‘Burnout’

by Kasha Rokshana

It’s not uncommon to hear about how burnt-out, frustrated, and DONE people feel when it comes to their own Ascension and awakening journeys. There are so many things that can make someone feel this way and there are different ways to look at why this is happening, from the inside out. 

Join Kasha as she launches into a discussion about what’s in her heart about this topic/obstacle and what the factors may be that have led up to it. She offers her sense of how being inundated with ‘spiritual teachings’ and mandates around ‘do this, not that!‘ can play a role in making parts of you feel overwhelmed and ready to give up. Also, many offerings don’t seem to truly give you handrails and active support, let alone heart warmth, and also can blow you/parts of you out (sometimes even on purpose) with over-confrontation and an outside-in orientation to healing that does nothing to empower you to hold your own process. Kasha offers that while confrontation may be necessary at times, peak experiences or intense ‘retreats’ can actually traumatize your parts/Metasoul aspects more so than offer true healing, integration, and a sense of who you truly are.

Kasha goes into more details about all of this and more surrounding what may or may not be your specific circumstances around feeling ‘burned out’ on your personal journey. This is just the tip of the iceberg too, as really this is such a big topic to dive into and is really so personal to everyone who feels it.

Here is a guided meditation to help you connect with your Gatekeeper: https://youtu.be/bGqTeeaYpwc

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

1:11 Portal Inner Flame Re-Ignition Process

by Kasha Rokshana

The fire of love lights up your sleeping limbs and illuminates where to go next inside of you. It brings you into new levels of awakening to how and who you’ve been and what you’re truly called to become. It is the Divine inviting you to be truthful, real, and alive.

As the fire of love burns within me, it burns within you. I feel the flames rising and peaking at times and calming and fading at others, but always burning. There is no deep inner or outer change without being willing to burn brightly or even, at times, get burned.

This 1:11 passage continues to move through as we witness even more truths coming to light in our inner and outer worlds. The flames of transformation are being fanned in a huge way by the Divine within each of us… there’s so much we are invited into for our next levels of self-love and love of others and how both are embodied and expressed.

I feel from the Divine:

“This is not the time to douse the flame, however it burns inside of you.

Perhaps the most misunderstood aspect of having inner fire is that it’s not just about anger or fighting for or against something. It’s also heart warmth, feeling alive in the skin you’re in, your soul and heart both being lit up with passion and desire, and a deeply passionate and catalytic love that has to be shared. Parts of you may try to ignore or control it, yet eventually the restlessness stirs and something inside and outside of you needs to be seen and shifted. Sometimes this requires a flame turned up to 100, sometimes only 10 will do. You are loved and supported in all of your expressions of this flame, as no matter what, it eventually (or quickly) moves all that needs to move for the truth to be revealed and your true power to be found.”

This is such a deep and recent learning of my own… embodying my own flame more after a while of feeling the dial turned down. Over and over again I’ve had to feel parts/Metasoul aspects/my Gatekeeper in why this is and I’ve felt reminded over and over again about how keeping this flame down or hidden does not serve love in the way I signed up for, though the dimming was necessary for a time. I had to let it come up and out on 1:11, to serve and move beyond myself. It wouldn’t be real for me to pretend that this hasn’t taken much inner work to let it move through me and this alone is so humbling so feel!

It’s the fire of my truth, whatever it IS in the moment. It’s the blazing flame lighting up my heart, penetrating deeper layers within. It’s the beacon of Divine Mother moving through my ever-purifying channel. She is the match that relights what may have been deliberately or unconsciously dimmed inside of me so that I can see with new eyes what is really going on for me and for others. 

This fire inside cannot be faked or even conjured. It is already there, waiting to be fed, with love and responsibility for how it moves you and others. And it does so much more than destroy, hurt, or harm… it enlivens in ways that are deeply transformative when the energies are allowed to be so, when parts of you feel truly done with controlling them and the catalytic nature of what burns inside of you.

There are so many layers to feel about how your inner fire has been related to and why… and in some ways, the discovery of that may never truly end. It’s what we came here to embody and unleash as we truly remember the love we came here to BE.

Maybe you’ve experienced your own burning flame inside in a more conscious way as the 1:11 energies have been moving through you too? 🔥

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Emerging, Renewed, From Retreat & Recovery In Gaia’s Arms

by Kasha Rokshana

This retreat to Nature has been a retreat into myself, collapsing and letting go of so much that I didn’t realize I was holding, that I didn’t consciously realize I wasn’t letting the Divine in on, and that I didn’t realize was creating a widening chasm inside between what I felt I needed to do or become and what I wanted to do and become. I feel more ‘awake’ now in a soul sense and yet in deep sleepiness too as the rest and recovery from what has been true about life and service for parts of me continues to heal and transmute.

Over the last 5 years I’ve shared many words of poetry, offerings of Divine love as I’ve personally experienced it, and many transparent writings about my personal process. In the beginning of that, there was tenderness about sharing. As the years went on it became about something else though, maybe more ‘ego-based’ at times, but always with the intention of helping, supporting, offering love to others in the mix as well.

It’s humbling to take a step back and look at all of this, especially while also feeling the pain of what’s moving in the world of shadows and light known as ‘Gaia’. It’s humbling to let nature hold you while you feel it all out with the heart rather than figure it all out with the mind, wonder what your place of contribution to the NEW truly is, and remember that absolutely every piece felt on a heart and soul level IS the contribution.

The yelling-matches, virtually and not, can do something but won’t do everything. The self-righteous energies catalyze something, but eventually run out of ground as they don’t truly let the Divine/love itself in. Conflict has its place but also has to find its resolution through curiosity. Truth revelations are inevitable. The acceptance of them in the mainstream is not. The only way that I can feel we can move through these humbling times is to truly be with ourselves in them, surround ourselves with resonant others, and explore the themes emerging in the world from within our own inner worlds where we can take responsibility for our part in the play out of the current human shadow show.

I feel so grateful for these months immersed in beautiful Northern Portugal, for the clarifies that are still dawning and moving through, and the rebirth of the grace within to hold it all.

I’m sharing a photo from a hike with my beloved Gabriel, where we took in the vast expanse of the valley we’ve been camping in for the last couple of months. I felt the hugeness of the beauty we’ve been surrounded by and the Divine love codes downloaded through the mountains, trees, and flowers.

Really looking forward to experiencing what emerges next as we move on from here and feel into what SoulFullHeart, and all of us, become next.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Over-holding Of Others In Our Wombs

by Kasha Rokshana

Connection with our wombs on a daily basis is so important to our health and well-being on all levels as women, especially right now.

My womb, ‘Vesica’, showed me this morning how much she has been holding… and I know she is not the only womb holding much more than she needs to.

In her, I found and felt the cries of the world; the cries of those I love that are going through a challenging time; images of what’s moving in my soul and heart lately; desires that are peaking and perking up; needs that are going unmet at times; feelings of my depth and capacity to hold and offer love to myself and others.

My heart-shaped rose quartz crystal ended up laying on her without me consciously choosing to place it there.
“I need clearing”, Vesica said to me, “I’m holding too much. I’m not designed to hold as much as I have been. You’ll feel clearer if I’m cleared and you’ll feel calmer too. I’m not designed to hold any human being beyond gestation and so I cannot hold all of the people/souls that are in me right now”.

This struck me as a deep reminder of how much we need to be aware of what we’re holding and to move energy out of our wombs… from the collective of which we are a part yet not responsible for; from the beloveds in our lives whose soul-destinies we cannot ‘know’ or control for them; from any fears that parts of us hold about our well-being and our path in our life (or death); from the Matrices (3D and 4D) that still have a foothold on our wombs and what moves into and through them and decide how they’ll be ‘used’ too.


To connect with your womb deeply can take time and much clearing. There are parts of you that are protective of her, and rightfully so, depending on what you’ve been through in this lifetime and others too. To truly connect to the stillness and beauty that IS your womb space takes a dedication and deep desire for her to be free and to arise in her essence within you.

On Sunday April 4th at 5pm BST, Jelelle Awen and I will be offering our second womb-consciousness-based women’s group mediation call, this time focused on freeing the womb from the Matrix. There’s a darkness to this shadow exploration and a depth to it too, yet it’s truly amazing what our wombs can and DO transmute when given the proper care, attention, and love. More info here: soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

Much love from my womb to yours!

Kasha ♥️

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Bravery Of Being Who You Are NOW

by Kasha Rokshana

“Your most significant acts of bravery, bigness, and soul purpose expression lie in being who you are… Bathing in the humility of that, and what that brings up for you to feel around your self-worth.” ~ Anna of the Magdalenes

How easy this is to forget in a world where so much praise is offered to those who lead with charisma and attractiveness yet not always heart.

Anna visited with me in meditation this morning to offer this piece that is very personal to me yet also applies to so many others. She was feeling parts of me that are letting in this brand new phase of deep romantic love with Aurius and also more service, holding space for some huge souls that need me to meet them in my bigness. Aurius needs this from me too, even and especially when that means meeting each other in deep vulnerability and tears that sometimes take some ROARing to find our way to.

Such is the rumble and humility of being called to harvest the work I’ve done so far within and share the overflow of the bounty with others so they can inhabit this process too. It’s truly a way of life and not simply a process and that alone is so humbling.

There are many gifts and awakenings to integrate along the way, yet the biggest ones are the ones which don’t offer certifications or accolades yet bring you even closer to the Divine through your own beating and healing heart!

I feel grateful for my own bravery and that of my beloved. I feel honoured to be serving, to be in alchemy, and to support others to find their own too. I feel my heart blown wide open in a way I wasn’t expecting. I feel my parts reeling and being real too along the way.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

12/12 – 12/21 Corridor Bringing Clarities, Next-Level Invitations/Initiations

by Kasha Rokshana

There is so much support through this 12/12 – 12/21 energetic corridor and into the new year of 2021 as well, for our deeper awakenings and initiations to take root individually and collectively. It’s already been a FULL year and now we’re being led into 2021 with fresh eyes and heart, though the rawness of what’s been moving all year is still very present.

Sudden dawnings and realizations are moving through. It’s a time of deeper awakening and the rumbles that come with that which sometimes you can’t name. You don’t know what’s shaking inside of you, but something IS…

Yesterday on 12/12 here in Glastonbury, it was a full day of hiking up to the Tor for sunrise and sunset and responding to alchemy in between. I had much time with Jelelle and could feel on both our trips to the Tor that there was something ceremonial moving through, deep inside of both of us. Such is the soul connection we have in these lands of Avalon, yet also, I got the strong sense of being initiated into a whole new level of soul bigness and claim.

So it is that we are all invited into our next levels/places, letting go and letting in as we move into them. Being initiated into deeper service if you’re ready for that, or perhaps your initiation right now is into trusting love and into feeling any fears that live in parts of you about surrendering to that process.

There’s a strong invitation from the Divine, always, to open your heart… to truly feel the grief, the mourning, the letting go as you also let in what’s arising. This could mean that you’re completing relationships or beginning new ones or completing with a geography to move on into one that better reflects your soul/heart needs, purpose and mission at this time. It’s a time of endings and beginnings, which is typical for this time of year every year, yet this year feels especially powerful in this way!

2020 has been a year where we’ve seen ‘Peak Fear’ take hold in many ways. It’s been a highly reactive year where many souls have struggled to lean into Divine love and to surrender to what is. It’s been a year of learning to trust what feels real to YOU while putting away the mainstream sources that are there to stir up the fears that were already peaking and mislead you with many spins on actual truth. It’s been a sacred year of more questions than answers, of death and rebirth, of looking intently in the mirrors placed in front of you, to meet the parts of you that have been hidden, buried, or buried themselves out of fear of being seen and known, not to mention felt, loved up, and deeply healed too.

Our deeper awakenings into rebirth and love as a Sacred Human family was not promised to be pretty or neat, though it has been deeply meaningful and continues to be. We all have choice points, graduations, and next levels to arise into. If love is leading, we will be challenged, we will grow, but we will always, ALWAYS be held.

Much love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Healing Expressions Of The Rising Sacred Masculine, Pt. 1

An epic SoulFullHeart session with Raphael Awen this weekend. So much so, I will need to write this up in two parts. The first half was a revisiting of my inner masculine part named Marcus. Recently, I have been invited to partake more and more into reintegrating back into service by co-leading with Kalayna Solais a Saturday follow-up discussion group with those that attend the Wednesday Free-To-Be group calls. (For more info on the upcoming series go to soulfullheart.org/freetobe2)

This brought up some prior frequencies within my masculine to show up with some compensatory energy, meaning a little more energized and outbound due to some underlying feeling of inadequacies within him to be a leading edge part of this group. What came up for him was an image of a bull in a china shop. Like he is not sure how to be in a space when things get tender. My feminine is quite capable of holding that space, but Marcus, when he is ‘up’, can be a little more mental in those moments without letting the feeling just do the ‘talking’. 

He began to wonder, “What then is appropriate masculinity?”. That was a portal question to what feels like a grappling of the wounded masculine’s relationship to the feminine, as well as a reaction to what is referred to as ‘toxic masculinity’. There is this fine line of wanting to be in balance and honor with the feminine, express and claim his power and intuitions while avoiding this ‘toxic’ distinction. 

The first thing that was brought to him is that just this very question alone suggests his reverence for the feminine and the holding of the sacred space. It also mirrors a long-standing notion that the feminine is fragile. This was deeply ingrained in me from early on in my life as my mother was a very sensitive and emotional woman in the despair direction. This set up an unhealthy dynamic between her and my inner child that he had to make sure not to ‘hurt mom or else who knows what would happen to her’. 

Well, through much of my healing and experience with other powerful women, I recognized that this was a part of her wounded inner child tugging on my inner child. This ended up transmuting into recycled alcoholism and I eventually had to say no more. I had given all I could until it was clear I had to cut the cord of this dynamic. This has played out in multiple Metasoul timelines as well in regards to feelings of guilt and shame over how I had participated in the suppression and persecution of the women. 

Interesting that I find myself within a more feminine offering to explore and heal all of these wounds and beliefs that I have had around the Feminine itself and women in general. It inversely leads me to more of my own masculine expression as I connect with the relationship to my own feminine and how She is a portal into my sacred masculinity and my Love ambassadorship. But I have had to go here first. To my inner masculine and hash out these old dynamics and create a safe environment to let his masculine flourish like the wild stallion he is and wants to be. 

It felt appropriate to share this after Mother’s Day as a reminder that the relationship to Mom is an integral part of any man’s journey. It really needs to be brought into consciousness so that we can truly see and feel how we relate to Womankind and the Sacred Feminine. Thanks so much for taking this in and I hope that it shines some awareness and questions for your own journeys. 

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

What We Heal In Ourselves We Heal In The World

by Monica Devi Bhakti

Today I found myself deep in a spin of the fear control matrix. I was feeling the intensity of my emotions, as well as the emotions of the collective. I reached out and got wise words from this beautiful SoulFullHeart community. Many thanks especially to Gabriel Heartman.

I also remembered back with gratitude to a session with Jelelle Awen, recognizing the need to disconnect from the collective, to find myself and my truth.

I went in and checked in with my parts. I found a Young One deep in fear, and my Inner Punisher running rampant – or so I thought. What I realized then, was that my Punisher was my Inner Masculine, actually trying to help the Young One. He was in a frenzy trying to find what would help this little one’s fear and help her feel safe. He felt so helpless and was lashing out, demanding that I make a plan and take action, even if I don’t know where I am going, or what is next for me. This sent me down endless rabbit holes of possibilities as if just taking just any action would assuage the fear. And I did take some actions and explore some possibilities. This helped for a bit. What helped more was to engage the deep well of the Inner Sacred Feminine – to allow the feelings, to allow that they are not wrong, not something that I need to make go away, but to listen to and honor deeply. These feelings do not need to be forcefully “shifted” into a ”higher consciousness” – that in fact to try to do so, was an act of aggression towards myself and spiritual bypass. Not to mention a judgment of what is good and what is not, what is “light” and what is not. As I have said – What part of All That Is, am I trying to make not a part of All That Is? What part of knowing that everything is the light, am I denying?

I find if we want to “fix” something, it’s because it makes us uncomfortable, and we are judging it. We want it to go away.

I realized that this is also part of what is happening in the collective. Theories and opinions about the actions of others, and who will stay in 3D and who will move into higher planes of consciousness, are so prevalent. I also notice how many are full of spiritual judgment and bypass. I’m speaking here of the conversations that do not include the essential ingredient of compassion. The bridging needed in the world – that this SoulFullHeart work helps do so beautifully within ourselves.

When we see the darkness, the actions that others have taken that seem so heinous, of course we have emotion and recoil. It scares us. It scares us that there is pain out there so deep, that it would turn on others in such awful ways. It shows us that Inner Punishers, unchecked and unloved, can become outer Tyrants and Abusers.

I know the truth that actions such as those only come from deep, unfelt pain and wounding. I know it because I have seen it, over and over. I have experienced it, over and over. One in self-love simply does not take those actions.

Love does not harm.

So what will help that deep wounding? Will ostracizing others and making them wrong – even in subtle spiritual ways – bring healing? If it doesn’t work inside, why would it work outside?

My experience today is that compassion, love will always be the one true answer.

I can so easily allow and witness the shadow in the world and others with non-judgment and compassion. Hold sacred space. My challenge currently is to witness and allow my deep shadow. Hold sacred space, and be, as Jelelle says, ‘the Love Ambassador’ – to myself.

What we heal in ourselves, we heal in the world.

May peace and love be mine, and yours, today and always.


***Monica Devi Bhakti is a SoulFullHeart Facilitatant, Collaborator, holder of sacred space, love generator, healer and writer.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.