You Are Being Reborn: Message On Easter

By Jelelle Awen

You are ARISING from the ashes of your purposefully burnt up life, choosing the match, the heat, the way in which your now feeling false world will burn.

You are being REBORN from that which has been cast off, birthing out from that which is true as the only real thing that can remain.

You are RESURRECTING your form out of a dying and collapsing reality, claiming a new way of BEing as your sacred humanity.

You are serving love as your greatest purpose, feeling in every moment how you can BE THIS MORE.

You are moving beyond fears of an unenLIGHTened soul, accessing your awakening soul’s courage and desire for UNION.

You are opening and healing your Higher Heart, Personal Sun, and Gaia Ascension Chakras through PURE love, letting in your 5D sacred human template.

You are co-creating a NEW Golden Earth possibility, feeling in every moment how you can BE THIS NOW.

You are awakening from the deep sleep of the forgetful soul, remembering the LOVE from which you came and already ARE…..


This is the writing I share every year on this Easter….Blessings and MUCH love to you on this celebration of Christ Consciousness Arising, Divine Feminine illuminations with the recent FULL moon energies, and our ongoing Ascension together!!




This is a day celebrating ultimately the process of death/rebirth and ALL that it offers in the willingness to let the false/fearful die and be let go in order to resurrect into a new, more Divine expression. This is beyond religions yet more of an ongoing invitation to surrender to become the phoenix that arises out of the most necessary ashes!

I feel the genuine love of Yeshua and in his Christiel form too on this day…..beaming his heart out to all of us in admiration and invitation!

From our hearts and souls to yours, we offer you so much love and resonant support on this brave journey into the NEW. Thank you for joining us in whatever ways and means you ARE.

much love,
Jelelle and SoulFullHeart Community

Entering ‘2019’: Love Within To Experience Love With Others

by Kalayna Colibri

For many, 2018 was a ‘year’ of mining. Many discoveries and memories have surfaced, especially those kept in the shadow and buried deep. Life and incoming energy waves have helped it all press up to the surface to actually be felt, help you learn ways to be with it, to honour and love it UP. This process continues, because to put it simply, it’s time to love your pain as much as you love your genuine joy and growing sense of wholeness.

Loving the pain and aches that surface as reactions, anxiety, sadness, etc means moving through it not just getting above it as parts of you are used to having to do in order to keep the peace in current relationships or to keep life on an even keel. It’s becoming harder to do this as your inner realities continue to be shaken up and brought to your attention. All gateways and portals this year have had different pieces to illuminate inside of you, showing you where you’re really at so you can grow and move from there, love yourself there, and eventually learn how to flow with ALL of you, including whatever has been held by the shadow, from there, that starting point.

There are so many parts of you that have wanted your attention but haven’t had a way to directly ask for it until the life circumstances are ripe and your heart is ready to feel them. This means sometimes that the pain you thought you had already healed has revealed a new layer and pain you thought was long-buried is now ready to surface. This can be messy but a sacred process nonetheless and you can trust that it’s surfacing because you’re now ready to hold it and actually move through and heal it, as challenging as this can be… the tears and wails are worth it, and the realness and poignancy it brings to each moment of your life is what brings in more love and more sense of being held and loved by a universe that benevolently wants you to heal, grow, and ascend.

In addition to parts surfacing in different ways, there have been many Metasoul/other timeline/lifetime bleed-throughs that have overlaid your consciousness and brought out other shadow pieces from your soul to be felt too. This has also brought in higher vibe energies too to help guide and template for you what your 5D/Higher Self energizes in your life and soul purpose. This year has been cataclysmic for some and also given many openings. Pain is an opening as much as discovering your truest sense of joy and bliss is.

In 2019, I feel we will all continue to be challenged to deepen our experience of ourselves, to love ourselves much deeper on a soul and heart level. It’s all there to move us to new places and integrate into our 5D/Higher Self. This is how we learn to love each other deeper with mutual reverence and respect, by experiencing this between parts of you first. This is what gives us the chance to overcome and heal the harm that has been done by insisting on fighting, over-lording, overpowering, even with ‘love and light’ as a ‘weapon’. 2019 asks us to keep going inward and find the parts that cannot or will not love or serve love, that have resistance to offering love, likely because they themselves need more love from you and to feel you moving into your highest timeline step by step before they can trust and lean into you. Love is the way. Love is the path. And the path has to start within in order to bring our beloved vision of New Earth into the Now.

At midnight tonight the ‘new year’ officially ‘begins’. The gateway into this new energy we’re calling ‘2019’ and the energies of the gifts and growth it wants to bring each of us is available to let in now as we set our sail and follow our hearts into the new Now that is so beyond just being a dream and wants to become more and more of our everyday reality!

Much love and Happy New Year! ❤


Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at

Inside-Out Reflection

Many things have shifted for me in the past couple of months since moving back to Canada. Moving into a new house, experiencing a new social terrain, exploring new relationships, diving into new places within myself. Reflecting on the past year I feel how much I have cultivated for myself just by going in and putting my process first.

One year ago I was living in Mexico, I spent most of my time alone or with my community, I was living in a cheap apartment that I did my best to make my own, I was focused on my process and yet parts of me were still very good at avoiding the hard parts.

One year later I am in one situation after another that pushes up process. Everything is new, everything is growing and changing. I am experiencing things socially and emotionally that I haven’t felt in over a year and through that, I can feel how much I have grown.

If there is one thing I have learned from my experiences this year, it’s the importance of going in. I have had so much fear dictate and run my life. All for good reason, but it also ran out of ground. I got to the point in my life where nothing I did felt like it had any meaning. My heart wasn’t soaring or passionate about anything I was doing and feeling, I felt like I was at a standstill with growth and lacked any sense of inspiration.

Finally, I was able to open up to something new and scary: my inner world. Now that I have begun diving deep into my emotional and spiritual body I can feel the gifts of every phase of life that I have had. The phases I miss, the phases parts of me feel shame about, the phases I honour, my current phase of being. It has all been sacred and has led me to where I am today – which is just about everything I have ever dreamed of. But I know that I would not be able to see it that way had I not healed what I needed to in order to really let it in.

It’s hard to really SEE beyond the eyes when you have not learned to see inside.

It’s hard to love another when you have not loved your own aching parts.

It’s hard to have gratitude when the shadow is not honoured too.

It is hard to move forward when you have not moved inwards.

I still have pain, fear, anger, and sadness within my shadow but knowing that I have cultivated the time and space to feel and love it all makes all the difference in the world. I feel all of the people my age that have such a strong desire to feel passion and to make something of their lives, but if I can teach anything from my own experience – it’s to heal, with love and curiosity, everything you can first.

You can change anything you want on the outside and feel motivated and inspired but what keeps that fire alive is how you feel within yourself. How you experience and notice every moment changes your outer reality. I have seen and felt this over and over again and cannot suggest it enough.

I adore my process and want to share it with you, if any interest arises. My lovely community provides sessions and support through all of this – you can read more at

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Merry Christmas From Our SoulFullHeart To Yours

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Merry Christmas from OUR hearts to YOURs….however you are celebrating it and in whatever ways….may love flow into and through you to reach all the parts of you that need it and out to others too.

Thank you so much for taking in and resonating with our sharings this feels so good to connect in commUNITY with resonate souls and awakening hearts!

I love you! 
Jelelle Awen

I’m a little stuck for words. My heart has been broken open by a chain of events and soul trajectories that culminated in a recent showdown, of risking everything I’ve ever wanted and dreamed of and felt so afraid of losing at the same time. I was finally able to break through a barrier of reticence to begin to see a whole new lay of the land. I am so grateful to be a part of this community and this Christmas greeting after a long and slow unconscious narrowing of my heart space, followed by an earthquake that rumbled everything, not only externally, but internally as well.

Okay, now I’m up for the Merry part too!

I truly desire for you and yours, internally and externally, a most profound and unforgettable personal mass of Christ consciousness to meet you however you need it and wherever you are.

Thank you to each of you who have made a connection with me and us this year. 2019 is shaping up to be a game changer on so many levels. What is life without a truly great game? What is love without intimates and beloveds to share it with? ~ Raphael Awen


What a year it has been! So many amazing connections and tons of growth. Thank you to all of you who have been a part of the ride both in the tears and the joy. Many blessings to everyone on this day and all to follow. ~ Gabriel Heartman


Merry Christmas to all of you on FB in our extended soul family! You’ve been tracking us sometimes and letting us go in others, yet always there is a connection when the resonance is real… I honour your deep courage to keep trucking on your own soul and heart journey, despite difficulties and challenges. Many Yuletide and Christmas belessings to you on this symbolic day of love! ~ Kalayna Colibri


A very Merry Christmas to all of those on this journey with us! You are all in our hearts and I wish more than anything for more love, more growth and more passion for everyone! I feel both the pain and the magic this holiday and I honour them both ❤️🤶🏻 ~ Raianna Shai

The Poultice Of This Winter SOULstice

By Kalayna Colibri

The Solstice this year has been a poultice. It has drawn out shadow, feelings deemed “negative” like anxiety and sadness, and inner polarities, often expressing in a masculine versus feminine within. Parts of you have shown up over this past month, likely since being activated by the 11/11 Gateway, and want to be seen and known, not ignored. There’s been an immense and intense invitation to go inward and actually BE with what has been coming up to be felt inside of you, not to try and bury or ignore it anymore. The burying has had a cost over the years of your life in which you’ve tried to “deal” or “cope” with what’s been pushed up by your awakening experiences. This cost has been your health on all levels: emotional, mental, spiritual, even physical. This cost has been your belief and trust in your clarities about what needs to change or shift in your life, including relationship configurations and your overall way of life too.

The heavy blanket of winter is coming in with its calming energies. It can feel chaotic when fought against, which culturally we tend to do. We tend to neglect ourselves and our hearts this time of year, when really it’s meant to be time of more yin going INward phases. Even the weather can feel foreboding and invites you to take real care of yourself and your being. This time of year is especially about the heart as Christ/Magdalene consciousness streams in to awaken the heart more, which doesn’t always feel ‘good’ yet will feel ‘real’, especially as the Higher Heart starts to awaken more and more. There’s a rumble and a shake-up necessary in this awakening, as the Higher Heart has often been kept dormant for so long and has been covered over by a taming of what’s really there or ignoring it all together.

This SOULstice this year feels monumental. It’s an opportunity to awaken deeper and invite in deep rest too as you calibrate to the awakening and let the rumbles move through. You may find yourself needing to take action, or so your inner masculine will feel around what comes up, and this may be true, yet the yin or feminine invitation is to breathe through these action steps and feel what needs you within as you do. I feel as if this particular Winter Solstice’s energies have been extra intense in phases, really asking us to get clear and move forward in our lives, not stay in stuckness inside or in relationships or in our geographies. Choosing to go inward to feel and evaluate what’s coming and what your next steps in your life and healing/Ascension path are is very different than choosing stuckness or stagnancy. Every emotion is in motion and has a momentum of its own, especially as you let in the clarity that has been baking for some time now.

Asking for Divine support and trusting the synchronicities that come your way are key to helping you unlock the very personal messages of this particular Solstice. There is so much love available for you and the parts of you that need it most. Love in both masculine and feminine forms and energies of the Divine is flowing in now to support your choice to go inward and bring all efforts to make someone or something outside of you change, back inward to illuminate the polarities and conflict between parts of you inside of you.

Much love to you as you continue to wake and feel what this SOULstice has been bringing to you… ❤


Join Gabriel Heartman and me today at 11:11am PST on Facebook for live stream! Tune into my FB feed and join us for a guided meditation, digestion of the incoming SOULstice energies, and a Q&A as well. ❤


Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at

Being With Holiday Anxiety

By Kalayna Colibri

I feel the swirl and frenzy of the holiday season in moments and wonder what it would be like to go to a shopping mall right now and feel everyone more heart-centered, more honest even about who they are buying a Christmas gift for and why. It’s a dizzy dance right now for many souls as parts of each person finds their way into and through anxiety and pain that’s pushed up this time of year and intensified in moments by the pure energies of love coming in that actually want to help you see and heal all of it and be with the reasons why this pain has been there.

Maybe just for a moment today… if you do feel anxiety bubbling up about one thing or another (or even many things at once), find space, even minutes, to be with this energy and listen to it. Journal with it. Hear it, feel it, hold it. This part of you has been quelled and suppressed for a long time and needs you, needs somewhere to land. I feel for this and all parts of you being activated in their pain now. The Divine love streaming in feels you and these parts too. The invitation now and always is to simply be real. Even just with yourself. And feel.

It’s my sense of it that the unconscious buying, giving, and getting and even eating of this season is what leads into more of the same pain cycling through again and again, the same quandaries about love being real or not, the same feeling that this is just ‘normal’ and ‘how it is’ to be in life and in relationship with others without an awakening that this isn’t what’s ultimately true… just what has felt deeply true to the parts of you with this conditioning. You have the opportunity now and always to reach for new ways to be in life and in love, starting with that ever-precious and unfolding relationship within. You are the ‘Christ-child’ being born and reborn within. With so much power, so much lush love, so many new possibilities for being born and reborn into this world that needs your light and bigness.

Much love!


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A Bridge To The SOULstice: Feeling And Truth On The Altar Of Your Inner Church

The more I connect with this coming solstice the more I feel its significance for all of us individually and as a collective. We are being invited to get real with ourselves about what is true for us in all domains of our lives. This can trigger much upheaval in our being that can be filled with anxiety, loss, loneliness, and fear.

The overlay of the 3D relationship to the season can create dissonance with what is truly moving in the Heart. It can even create a blind spot which isn’t fully felt until after the holidays have passed. Yet, right NOW your soul is rumbling. Right NOW your heart is aching and yearning. The body is reacting and resisting. Christmas shopping be damned!

What is real is your reality. That which is denied its truth WILL find its way, one way or another. Our pain and suffering ultimately don’t give a shit what time of year it is. What really matters is that feeling and truth gets its rightful place on the altar of our inner church. This is the message of the Solstice. What is ready to be handed over to The Divine to be shorn of that which no longer serves its ultimate truth and vulnerable authenticity?

These rumbles are making their way through our own community as well as those that we are connected to through service. Healing and growth live in the Now. They do not respond to a calendar or a tradition. The heat of Divine Love catalyzes change and that can burn as well as act as a salve.

So while the ‘time’ of the season has the least importance, the Spirit of it assumes more. Lean into that Spirit for guidance and for holding. If it seems light years away then you can lean into others who feel that Spirit and Heart within them who are here to serve that to those that are in need. You never have to do this alone.

Please join my beloved Kalayna and me this Friday for a live stream at 11:11am. We will be talking about the current Solstice energies, their impact on our daily lives, as well as connecting to the Christ consciousness energies of Christiel and Magdalena in a guided meditation. It is for all those in overflow and those in need of connection. We look forward to hearing what the season is bringing you to feel and respond to. We will offer our SoulFullHeart perspective and what inner connections could be made to beginning and deepen your healing journey.

Much Love and Trust.


Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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A Bridge To The SOULstice: The Sacred Well Of Our Vulnerability

On this list of reflective explorations that I am feeling into on the way to the SOULstice, I feel that the Heart is the most complex and challenging to go into alongside our social connections. It is the realm of our truth and our deepest desires and passions. It has been the one that I have personally had my biggest challenges with. Being aware of and expressing out what is real in the heart domain.

In the vastness of awakening and ascension transmissions, the heart and emotions can seemingly be covered over as something to transcend or bypassed. There is a deep protection of the Heart and Its Truth due to so much wounding that has occurred in this life and other lives, past, present, and future. Being vulnerable to what we are feeling and experiencing is a maturation process that I feel we are all a part of on this global and galactic journey. We are all in need of growing up in this department, some less or more than others.

The time of the SOULstice offers an invitation to feel what is true inside of our emotional body. The frequencies we dip into in reaction to all sorts of circumstances very much affect our ability to let in and express love. It is the messiness of our truth-telling that opens portals, completes old patterns and creates opportunities for deepening and expansion. It brings us to the edge of what really matters the most…what is the most poignant (thank you, Kalayna).

I am still in the healing and feeling curve when it comes to this one. I feel it is for a lot of men, and the masculine in women both. There is so much that we don’t know about ourselves because we haven’t given ourselves the permission, or feel the safety of, going into the depths of what is our truest North. Parts of us can easily accept the goodness of being content and “better than it was”. This may be a necessary phase in order to heal. But it is also a time to gather strength for the next levels of our truth, the beacon of our own light.

It is a time for exploring and feeling the wounds and protection around your inner voice. During this time of gathering with others, you can become aware of the triggers and reactions within and just notice the mechanisms that keep your truth at bay. There are self-loving reasons for it and those are honored. Then there are parts of the journey in which you begin to express more of what is moving through and in your heart, whether they appear “right” or “rational”.  This is done in negotiation with your Inner Protector. 

Some questions to ponder are:

*How does it feel inside of me when I have a truth to tell that I don’t feel comfortable to express?
*What is good about keeping reactions and vulnerability at bay?
*How was relating to emotions modeled to me in my family and what impact does it have on me now?
*If you are one who is free to speak your truth, what energy do you feel is underneath the truth-telling? Is it compassionate, charged, matter-of-fact?

The emotional body is like an untapped, unexplored well of parts, held by the Inner Protector, and Metasoul aspects that are in deep need of being felt and integrated. The most spiritual people in the world are only as mature as their emotional bodies, hence the news of some leaders being exposed in very unsightly circumstances. Our spiritual ascension is in concert with our emotional ascension. Going into this well certainly provides the fuel for the growth that our souls, beloveds, and star families are longing for us to embody and model for the universe at large. We are the truth we have been waiting for.


Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  

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A Bridge To The SOULstice: The Mirror Of Our Social Relationships

This time of year is a big one to reflect on our social relationships. These relationships offer each of us a deep reflection of ourselves. Even the lack or missing of others provide a pathway into our needs and desires.

The 12/12 portal offered us Christiel and Magdelena energies of intimacy and alignment. That which is not in alignment with our deepest passions and highest timeline is being invited into a space of either completion or deepening. The social dynamics in our lives can provide some of the more difficult choice points in our awakening and ascension journeys. They can be energetic anchors or enlivening and growthful connections. The ones that feel to bring us the most heaviness of heart generally are ones that have an energetic and emotional bind inside, usually from a part that has a deep connection rooted in fear. Fear of being alone. Fear of harm. Fear of judgment.

This season is meant to bring us together into groups. These groups show us a lot about ourselves when we are open to feeling into it. The Inner Proctector has a lot to say about these relationships and can be the part of you that is in deep resistance to being honest about them and feeling what may have to be said or done that will bring you to a higher and more aligned relationship. Again, when dropped for a moment, the veil of fear can illuminate the nature of these relationships, be it family, friend, romantic, or business.

Heading into the SOULstice, I feel we are being provided with the energies to go inward and reflect upon these relationships and dynamics. Taking a little time to head out into the stillness and solitude of nature, or finding a quiet time and space in your home can provide the sacred doorway into your truest heart desires and needs. Some questions to feel into may be:

  • What do I imagine my most enlivening and growthful relationships to look and feel like?
  • How does that feeling and vision match what I am experiencing now with ALL my relationships?
  • Can I bring all of who I am, feel, and believe to those that I am closet too? Why or why not?
  • If there is one that stands out as being not as nourishing as I would like or need, what is it that is keeping me from taking it to that level, regardless of nature of the relationship, i.e. mother, father, friend, spouse, etc.?
  • Feel the relationships that provide goodness and depth as markers to what it is you really deserve and desire in all interactions. If there are “yeah, but’s” in response, that can be a doorway to a resistance that is need of feeling and hearing out, usually an inner protection.

This can be a difficult yet illuminating exercise. A lot of energy is built up in our relationships and therefore need the space and compassion to feel through on multiple levels and timelines both this life and in the metasoul. This season gives us a special opportunity to feel everything that lies within our emotional reactions and triggers. I honor all that comes to the surface in response. Those reactions can be felt out in open-hearted sacred space with someone who has been through these death and rebirth experiences within the social domain of life like we offer in SoulFullHeart sessions.

Thank you for taking in this very sensitive yet catalytic topic in regards to the next level of growth and goodness. There is a treasure trove of self-love waiting at the door of your heart when the time is ready and ripe. Just taking the time to feel and be real is what leads us to what is next in our Divine journey of embodying the love that we ARE.


Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  

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A Bridge From 12/12 To The SOULstice: A Time For Reflection

The recent 12/12 energies were a mark for taking stock of what IS true in our current emotional, spiritual, and physical bodies. It was also about taking a look at what wants to BE from the vantage point of the Higher Self. The bridge in between is a pathway formed. A series of decisions, choices, feelings, and actions that can bring completions and/or deepenings that my beloved Kalayna so eloquently described in her recent post.

This awareness and intention can have deep rumblings that manifest in many ways from emotional outbursts of joy or anger, intense dreams or downloads, and physical symptoms from the flu to headaches. When you are consciously in touch with your journey, none of what happens on the outside is a result of “the time of year”. It is a reflection of a whole lot happening on a plane that we have different levels of conscious connection to.

I am feeling how we are on a continual conveyor belt of feeling, experiencing, choosing, releasing, and integrating. While 12/12 marked a time of completions, the path to the SOULstice is one of renewal and rebirth. This is a lived IN and lived THROUGH process. It is a gestation period of going in and coming out. Letting go of all the energetic in our lives, both inner patterns, and outer anchors that no longer serve the love and light that want to birth into the world.

This feels like a prime time to take a deep penetrative yet compassionate look at your life to feel what is flowing and humming, and what feels stuck and difficult to feel. It is a time for some self-reflection that will lead us all into the New Year of New Light. This can be done at any time of the year, but when we choose to do it as a collective the shifts are exponential. This season is embedded with the energy of renewal and birth so why not ride the wave! Your energy is My energy which is Our energy.

Over the course of the next week, I want to feel into the areas in our lives that have the deepest impact on our growth, well-being, healing, and overall embodiment of the Higher Self in the service of Love. I will explore the emotional body, spiritual/galactic activations, physical health, money & livelihood, creativity, and social relationships. It will be capped with a live stream with myself and Kalayna on the Solstice, December 21st to digest all that was illuminated and what can be done to bring those lacking or difficult spots into a compassionate and transformative process of healing and integration for the year to come. I will be supplying a small list of some reflective questions for you to ponder and digest that you can use to help focus on what is in need of attention, growth, and love. I look forward to your comments and questions along the way.

Much love and honoring of process and celebration during these Christiel and Magdalena energy baths.


Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.