Feeling Easter As Your Own Death & Rebirth Process

This has been a very rumbly week leading up to Easter. There has been a churning of death and rebirth going on inside and out. My sacred union with my beloved Kasha has been put to the ‘test’, so to speak, with so much new ground needing an old ground to burn away in order to come into our next level of conscious romance and leadership.

I have needed to be ‘off’ social media to let all of this digest and find its way inside of me. It has been about continuing to find my voice, speak my truth and needs, as well as feeling the fear of doing so. It is this truth that can change so much. It creates and it destroys, but not necessarily in the way that a part of us may feel like it will. It is this fire that is meant to be alchemical and not necessarily harmful.

I was starting to feel the ways in which this fear is more about embodying our true power in the world and what that can actually create. If power and truth in our soul history has been experienced or judged as a ‘negative’, then we will inevitably find a way to suppress said power. We will remain in a push-pull around it. Deeply wanting and needing it, while hiding it at the same time. This creates suffering rather than movement.

This power has been held as a control mechanism inside of me. A way to manage and maintain a particular consciousness while my soul and the Divine are strongly, yet lovely, inviting me into something more essential, more real. Something long forgotten or buried. This is where a tight grip has formed or an anxious fear of surrender. I realized how much a part of me has still clung to this control structure.

In meditation I saw a sand castle on top of a stream. The foundation of this sand castle was collapsing into the stream. The castle was starting to crumble and I could feel parts of me trying to build it back up with more sand in order to keep it up. There was a tiredness in that. A readiness to let go while fearing the unknown of it all. I felt the stream as the Divine Itself, as Love, as the Tao. It just wants me to be the stream. Be in active surrender to where it is meant to take me even if I can’t see around the bend or it winds up in rapids.

It is my vulnerability and truth that keeps me afloat. It is what allows me to flow with my currency and is my true power. That stored up power in the castle just changed form and into embodiment. As the castle fully collapsed, I shed tears. I felt myself collapse into the flow of Love. I felt baptized and renewed. I felt a new connection with Kasha and myself.

As a result, I found myself realizing I needed to go back to my previous name of Gabriel. A lot has moved for me since trying on Aurius, but Gabriel is the essence of who I am in my soul. It is my Divine name. I just needed to flush some things out and reboot it. My beloveds also have an affinity for Gabriel and so that was enough for me to choose to go back. I will keep Amara as my last name, however. It has a frequency I love. It represents my inner feminine.

Thank you for being a part of this journey with me, and I hope that it has a service to you in all that you may be going through at this time. I am always here to facilitate and hold-space for this process that has taken me to new worlds and embodied awarenesses inside of myself in deep terrain. It is alchemical and transformative.

Much love to you this Easter weekend and may you meet your next death and rebirth cycle with grace, compassion, and courage.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

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Welcoming All The Challenges Of 2021 As a Part Of Our Return To Love

By Deya Shekinah

This time last year I came to Glastonbury and planted a seed, an intention to spend more time here in 2020. Initially that seed was planted with a beloved but as the year unfurled that romance came to an end. The most intimate and loving relationship I have ever experienced coming to an end has been my biggest teacher this year, with the grief of that loss opening my heart to the grief of all of the losses I have ever experienced, which continues to unravel moment to moment.

I feel how we have all, in our own ways this year, experienced doors and chapters of our lives closing and ways of being dissolving. Uncertainty has become a more visible reality that we have to learn to walk with every day in new ways and that has been tough.

Yet as I land here now in Avalon/Glastonbury with a new dawn arising for 2021, full of possibilities and potential for more growth, more love, and more challenges, I feel more held in trust than ever before because of my own personal journey this year to get here. This year has forced us all in many ways to face some of our biggest fears: loneliness, grief, loss, and death. It is my experience, by feeling all of these places inside, that there is a tremendous amount of courage, adaptability and strength inside all of us to keep finding new ways to thrive, to love and to connect, and that however restricted or lost parts of us may feel, that is never the whole truth.

Letting in the beauty of all the challenges and the lockdowns may not be easy, but it is in feeling the empty, lockdowned spaces within that we are being reborn, even when we cannot see it or feel it. 

As much goodness is flowing into my life at this moment, I feel the fruition of listening to this invitation of turning deeply inwards towards myself during these times of lockdown. I will move into my own place on New Year’s Day here in Avalon and it is the first time I will have ever lived alone which I am excited about, and finally, after three years, I am with my beloved SoulFullHeart community in the physical. It feels like my seed from last New Year’s is beginning to sprout, although the beloved is inwards now rather than on the outside. 

As the new challenges for 2021 are already arising, I feel us all able to hold them and ourselves more lovingly after all we have learnt in 2020. 

2021 feels to me like a year to keep embracing the beauty and the tensions of the duality that we came here to experience, to allow the fullness of the human experience that is always working for us to humble us and re-sensitize us to the simple, subtle joys of being embodied and alive. As another year ends and a new one begins, I am reminded that endings and beginnings co-exist and are a constant in our daily lives not just on New Year’s Eve… and that feels ever more present in where we are in our humanity right now.

As we all continue to move through life’s death and rebirth cycles, from my heart in the Heart Chakra of the Earth, I send you so much love and many New Year’s blessings. May we continue to remember and uncover the goodness, innocence and love that is who we are, and learn to radiate the light that is in our hearts so we can continue to guide each other towards New Earth.

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant & Community Member. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

As You Enter 2021…

As we enter ‘2021’…

May your heart space clear… letting go to let in.

May your soul come alive… remembering the love that it is and always was.

May your feminine/masculine heart shine brightly… with gentleness, empowerment, and deepening purity.

May your healing process deepen in ways unexpected.

May your trust in the unknown of what’s to come offer your parts a place to rest.

May you remember what it’s like to nestle into the heart of the Divine… that heart of which you are inextricably a part.

And… may you allow IN the reality that you are powerful beyond measure…

That it’s OK to be ‘in process’ and not have everything figured out…

And that even when the challenges you face are big and the ‘monsters’ that parts of you fear come to visit… They want love just as much as you do.

May 2021 truly become the birthing room of so much deep change in every human heart… with much less fear, much more love, and a greater sense of each personal process of making that great shift INside.

Much love and Happy New Year!

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Gift Of Choosing YOU On Christmas Day

by Kasha Rokshana

Last Christmas, I spent the day ‘alone’. It was my first Christmas Day ever in which I was not a part of a family or community. I was separated from my SoulFullHeart soul family, in a very necessary Dark Night phase of going inward, learning to hold myself and my parts/Metasoul aspects in a whole NEW and much deeper way. I also had many NEW awakening experiences around just how beloved I was to the Divine and how much my soul loves and trusts the Divine in return… even when being invited to go through something so challenging on all levels.

It wasn’t that I didn’t have invitations to be with anyone else that day… I had colleagues invite me to things from the different jobs I had. Yet, even in the love flow I had with them, I knew I needed the day to myself. I knew I needed to be in my own company, to ache and bake and claim what I really wanted to experience in soul community within and outside of me. I knew this would be challenging for my parts, especially the young ones, yet it was something I had to show up for as a sacred mama to them. 

I knew I needed to keep feeling who and how I wanted to BE in order to draw it to me. And, I knew that this desire to change and heal on a deeper level than ever before had to be genuine in order for it to happen and in order for me to draw the soul and heart connections I knew I needed and wanted. It wasn’t long after that, that I reunited with my SoulFullHeart family and the reconciliation began. 

Now, this year, so many dreams of mine have come true… I’m living in Avalon, a heart and soul home that I’ve longed to come to for many years; I’m with my community of beloveds and we’re deepening our relationship together in countless ways, and I’m living into my soul purpose embodiment of Divine Mother in my own unique frequency in a more solid and expanded way. Also, our little community has been expanding with more soul family draw while here in England and that is HUGE to feel and let in!

This has ALL been quite a lot to show up for continually in 2020. It’s been a lot to be with the goodness of it all too while the world continues to move through its own Dark Night experience. It’s been a year of many invitations into profound inner shifts and processes while so much in the outer world burns… 

If you are a soul who isn’t currently connected to soul family, who has chosen like I did last year to be alone and be in your own sacred ‘cave’ time of inner initiations and being held by life through them, know that there’s a light at the end of the inner tunnel…. and that this light can only be lit by you with the support of your Divine Self and your own authentic connection to the Divine Mother/Father. Going inward while continually opening your heart outward is a challenge yet it’s one worth being with every step of the way. 

You are loved and held in your sacred loneliness and also in the fears that arise in parts of you toward really being with that or even opening their hearts to others on the outside again. 

Christ/Magdalene Consciousness is here, has always been here, and is waiting to birth through you in perfectly imperfect ways…

Merry Christ-Consciousness-mas ❤ 

Love,

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Sending Much Love To Our American Connections On ‘Thanksgiving’

by Kasha Rokshana

I’m not American, but I have many sweet American connections on here, so I wanted to say that I hope you have a blessed Thanksgiving… 

I know that this year has been intense for you, to say the least. It’s been extremely catalytic as so much is rumbling and shaking and the USA seems to be at the epicenter of so much of that. It’s a time of recognizing and reconciling the rebellion within, feeling all of the pain that’s come up (some which may not even be YOURS), and likely parts of you have been feeling quite powerless and confused in many moments.

I feel like my heart just wants to simply say, you’re felt. You’re landing, even in the messiness of it all. You’re held, even when it feels like everything is coming apart at the seams. What’s coming undone is meant to… what’s coming together, even without you knowing it consciously, is meant to. What’s being illuminated needs to be, on all sides of everything. Nothing was ever black and white to begin with, and now even more so. Sometimes the grey areas, the uncertainty, the inner conflicts and awakenings, are the most uncomfortable to be with, yet you do have the tools you need inside of your heart to navigate through it ALL.

Also, I want to thank you for the courage of your souls to choose to live where you are, in the midst of all of this! So many of you are shining lights for others and for yourselves. So many of you are coming to terms with what has always been true and not often believing or wanting to believe it, perhaps. Yet, here you are, setting your sail for fairer waters still and trusting, somewhere in your soul, in the process of EVERYTHING that is and has been unfolding. 

So today… and every day… I wish you love. I wish you a sense of a balm, a shelter in the storm. I wish you realness. And, I wish you fulfillment beyond Thanksgiving dinner, beyond any placid or placated connections with others or within yourself, and beyond what you can or cannot see happening as a result of the deepest love imaginable moving through your reality.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Merry Christmas From The SoulFullHeart Family To Yours!

Merry Christmas from OUR hearts to YOURs to our extended soul family……however you are celebrating this day and in whatever ways….may love flow into and through you to reach all the parts of you that need it and out to others too.

Thank you so much for taking in and resonating with our sharings this year..it feels so good to connect in commUNITY with resonant souls and awakening hearts!

Blessed Christ Consciousness Codes to you!

We love you!
Jelelle Awen and Community

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Thank you to all who shared love with us and me in whatever ways! I love you and I’m so grateful for the expansion of my heart and soul that was afforded me in our connection. 💚xo Raphael Awen

Sending many Christ blessings and codes your way on this day. I too appreciate all that have been a part of this ride with me and all of us. May this be the beginning of more peace on Earth for us all.🙏❤️ Gabriel Heartman

I’m feeling so much love this morning for everyone’s exchange of love with us this year! I wish wonder-filled holiday to all of you and to each part of you! I hope they all have moments of joy, love and peace 🎄Raianna Shai

Christ Consciousness Wisdoms To Share On Christ-Mas

By Jelelle Awen

The following are teachings and wisdoms that I’ve received while connecting with Christ Consciousness in form of Yeshua (his more embodied form), which I experience as a fifth dimensional energy within me, within you, available to ALL. This is the energy that I feel alive in the most nourishing aspects of Christ-mas celebrations, inviting us beyond material gift giving and into the frequencies of giving and receiving love with ourselves and others, above all. This is the energy that we are birthing into BE-ing as we embrace our sacred humanity and our Christ Within – both the best of what makes us human and that which makes us a transcendent, multi-dimensional soul.

This energy transcends religions, belief systems, and shadow projections. This is the energy of Golden Earth, New Earth, and what we are moving collectively into as we ascend into higher dimensions of consciousness where we experience more sense of Oneness, peace, self love, and reverence for all life.

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An empty vessel cannot give love.
Heal your heart and its pain by feeling them.
Heal your soul and its painful legacy by feeling them.
Purify through your tears and your openness to feel it ALL.
Then, as you are this, will you be able to transact real love, human frequencies with others who are in the same process….
you will be able to let in Universal love frequencies that light up your Infinite Love essence…
and you will be able to give with a healthy heart and soul. ~ Yeshua

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Be in the world, not of the world…..yet care for the world.

You are in the world, bring your heart with you, feel your surroundings and those who call you into connection. You are in a human body, bring your health to it, feel your embodiment as sacred and the desires that flow from it. You are in a culture, bring your celebration of it, feel how it impacts you and forms you.

You are not of the world, it is not a reflection of that which you are really made and ARE. Participate in the world even while remembering that you are not just it…not your name, your occupation, your body, your income, your home, your history, your culture. Remain with some separation from it so that you can retain the essence of what you ARE as Infinite Love.

You are care for the world, bring your compassion with you, feel the tears of the world and those cries that call you to respond. Serve love as the greatest gift for yourself, others, and with the Divine God in all Its glorious forms, including YOU. Remember to respond to fear with love, not more fear, and you offer a new possibility to each moment. ~ Yeshua

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I am still digesting my connection time with Yeshua this morning during meditation. I experience him as an ascended teacher energy, a loving and provocative presence available to anyone. For me, connection with him transcends religions and belief systems into a space where just love matters.

We were floating on a golden white fluffy cloud together, sitting Indian style. It felt like we were in a higher vibration frequency, a higher dimension. I was taking in his energy, feeling the warmth and love of it moving up and down my chakras like a cascading flow.

We sat in silence for a bit and then he asked me, “What do you see?”

I looked around and the first answer that came to me was, “Nothing.” This felt strange to me because, after all, I was surrounded by beautiful clouds and sitting next to HIM.

He seemed to take that answer inside of his heart though and then asked me, “What do you feel?”

“Everything,” was my first response.

Again he seemed to take this answer in deeply.

“How can that be though?” I asked him, confused. “How can I see nothing and feel everything?”

He smiled at me in the way that sends golden waves of love straight into my heart and replied, “That’s actually the purest way for which to feel.”

As I sit here now, digesting this message, I feel that what He is offering is that we can ‘see’ so much with our minds, filtering everything, ‘busy mind’ in addition to so many people with ‘busy life’. In this state, it is so difficult to really feel anything, we are numb from over stimulus.

When we open up ourselves to seeing ‘nothing’, to just being, then we can start to feel everything in a more pure way. Our hearts can open up and feel the All That Is for which we are made. And tastes of Infinite Love too.

This is my explanation anyway….Yeshua would probably just smile and offer for me not to think about it so much, just feel it.

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Embrace that which you ARE in this moment.

Feel that which you desire to BE.

Understand that the gap between these two is an invitation.

An invitation from the Divine God, from the Divine Mother Aspect, from the Universe…..to experience your essence as Infinite Love through the form of your sacred humanity.

This invitation is open, it waits, it doesn’t push, but it does call…and it is always your sovereign choice if you will answer and how you will answer.

And if you choose not to respond to this invitation, the Divine God will go on loving you just the same and just as much. ~ Yeshua

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To look in the mirror, to really look, is to be open to seeing that which is hard to accept, difficult to love, and most in need of attention. That which lurks in the shadows of your soul, the tight corners of your heart, and the darkest regions of your mind.

Going into this darkness with full consciousness is what illuminates the soul spark that you are and reveals the Infinite Love that you are. Going into this darkness with willingness to feel it ALL reveals the Divine light that you are.

Sometimes life will bring you to this darkness and sometimes you will choose it…..whatever way you find yourself there, feel how it is the beginning of the true lifting of the veil that falseness has placed over you.

If you have not had this experience of the crucible of darkness, seek that which will guide you in it and through it rather than letting your false self cling to a light that is but an echo of the real thing. When what is false has been repeatedly burned away in a conscious process which includes the dark, you can trust the light that emerges from it as being real and a reflection of the Divine spark that you ARE. ~ Yeshua

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Everything is made of love energy. Everything. Yet, also, there is the fear of love that can have equal or greater power at times when it becomes more real than love. This fear of love manifests in many ways and expressions.

The only way that fear of love heals is with more love. It cannot be ignored, suppressed, or made to ‘go away’ because you do not want to look at it. Fear grows if it is related to with more fear. Only love has the bravery to look at the dark, to feel the fear, to be with what is real about it.

Calling it ‘love’ and not acknowledging the existence of the fear of love that is often underneath it is NOT real love. ~ Yeshua

Jelelle Awen
soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about  1:1 individual sessions with her for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC (next one is March 20-23), writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Energy Update: Christ Consciousness Upgrades To Become Peace/Love Ambassadors

By Jelelle Awen

Energy Update: We are moving now into receiving Christ Consciousness code upgrades for the 12/21 solstice gateway and leading into Christ-mas and a solar eclipse on the day after Christmas. Christ Consciousness (also called Sanada and Christ-iel) activates our Higher Heart of compassion, especially within our inner and collective masculine. Our Inner Masculine includes parts of the self such as our Inner Protector, Inner Father, and Inner Punisher….and parts of the soul such as our Gatekeeper and timelines where we were in a masculine body or female warrior type too.
Christ Consciousness offers a higher vibrational experience beyond the Biblical Jesus, ‘Son of a Father God’ picture. The Bible and the world’s religions offer a 3D/Lower 4D Matrix filtering of Christ energies that have control and manipulative agendas and fear-based frequencies to them that perpetuate the wounded masculine/patriarchal system and suppression of the Divine Feminine.
The PURE Christ energies are able to be experienced as you raise your frequency through trauma healing beyond the Lower 4D Matrix of religions, belief systems, dogma, a punishing and punitive False God picture. You can then experience the PURE love and acceptance of you as a sacred human by Christ AND by the Divine.
You experience that Heaven is within you. You remember then that you are not sinful, that you have not made mistakes, that you are not being tested or punished by God. You remember that you are ALSO a son or daughter of the Divine and always have been…..loved as you are in all the experiences that you go through….the Divine learning along WITH you.
These Christ Consciousness energies for 2019 are offering deeper healing of the warrior and fighter to become a love ambassador for peace. This will so much be needed as we move into deeper disclosure in 2020….on Gaia, in galactic dimensions, toward the 3D/Lower 4D Matrix and, most importantly, from within yourself and your soul. The previous masculine expression of our ‘heroes’ and ‘heroines’ as being connected to the ability to fight for something is shifting. We are now offered the codes to recognize that our true heroes are those who advocate for peace and compassion above all else.
The warrior archetype can be deeply expressed in your Metasoul….many lifetimes of choosing to fight for God, for country, for King, for belief systems. There is much ‘soul burn’ from these experiences as they so often led to violent death and killing/murder, the densest energy frequencies of trauma. These lifetimes can ‘bleed through’ into your current experience of life, attaching to traumas this-life that are similar in tone, even if not as intense or extreme in content. There is also trauma from being on the receiving end or victim of these fighting/killing energies. And, so many of us have been on both sides of this…both victim and persecutor/perpetrator.
Connecting to your Gatekeeper as the guardian of your Veil of Amnesia and channel to Divine Love allows you access to these lifetimes to feel and heal the warrior/fighter within them. You offer balm of love and forgiveness along with the Divine to them and a beautiful gift exchange occurs as you become a love ambassador to your own soul. I have experienced this myself many times and in session space and it is a beautiful working and movement that has quantum and exponential results.
There is more here about parts/Metasoul aspects and how we feel them in our SoulFullHeart process during 1:1 sessions: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
So much love is available from Christ/Yeshua during this time of upgrading to compassionate ambassador. Ask to connect with Him and receive the gifts of His kind and unconditionally loving heart. Divine Mother is available at all times too, to support, to hold, to forgive, and to love.

Here is a mediation to connect with your Gatekeeper:

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about  1:1 individual sessions with her for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC (next one is March 20-23), writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Energy Update: Mixed Feeling Energies With Digestion Of Post-Thanksgiving Experiences

Energy Update: In these post-thanks-giving energies for many of you who celebrated yesterday, there is perhaps a digesting going on…..and not just of whatever food you consumed. Whatever you experienced yesterday during your thanks-giving day is now UP in your emotional body to be processed, especially if you are still in the experience.

Maybe you were overflowing in gratitude. Maybe you were in the middle of intense family dynamics or friend situations that were difficult to be in. Maybe you were somewhere in-between or flowing between the two in moments. 

The energies definitely felt ‘mixed’ yesterday, as they do on all major ‘holidays’ it seems. As the collective energies come together and unify to celebrate something (even if only in one country where not all participated), there is a heightening of the collective experience. What was amplified felt like energies of push/pull….both the desire for connection and resistance that sets in from the actual experience of what can be dissonance. 

It shows what could be possible if we ALL focused our attention and desire on a New Earth experience of Unity and resonance. It shows what could be possible if we ALL let go of 3D frequencies of fear, competition, black/white, etc. and moved into our higher hearts of love and compassion. It shows how connected we ALL actually are in the quantum field of Oneness.

There was a spiky energy feeling to yesterday that seems more settled in today, which has more of a hangover feeling to it. There was a sense that others were on a trigger edge and could push or kick out at you if provoked. Even as there was the sometimes efforting of feeling grateful, the resentments from previous experiences of suppressed truth telling and even current suppressions may be bubbling and roiling beneath the surface, especially for awakening souls. 

There is often a triggering and flushing out in the emotional body of all the previous holiday experiences and the parts of you who are sometimes still in them. Memories can flood your space as parts of you remind you of them.

Laying low and to yourself may feel like the most self loving thing, connecting with the neutrality in nature and with Gaia, coming back into YOU where the grounds are known and safe. Catching up with yourself and what you are feeling, coming back inside.

Your experience yesterday may have brought new clarities about boundaries and even completions, especially within relationship grounds. Timelines with others are rumbling BIG time right now and being immersed to feel into what you want or don’t want with someone, where you resonate or don’t is the opportunity these holiday immersions can bring. They offer a ‘marker’ for you to feel who you were (even perhaps before awakening) and who you are becoming.

Gabriel Heartman and I released our fourth SoulFullHeart Experience podcast yesterday in which we talked about navigating timeline collapses, relationship completions, and life transitions. We shared about our recent personal process with this and how feeling the parts of you who need to mourn and feel their feelings is so important to the navigation of it. You can watch that video here: https://youtu.be/l9za3JorTqU

You can listen to the audio here (soon it will be posted) here: https://soundcloud.com/soulfullheart and here: https://podcasts.apple.com/ca/podcast/soulfullheart-experience/id1299364686

I am also offering a women’s group call over Zoom on Sunday at 10:00am PDT to bring in much needed and comforting (even if catalytic) energies with Divine Mother. More info on joining us for a $15 CAD donation here: https://www.facebook.com/events/474843500044699/

Much love to you as we navigate the bliss mess of this transition together in ways that are authentic for each of us,

Jelelle Awen

1:1 sessions available with Jelelle for women and free intro calls/1:1 sessions available with Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman for men and women. More information here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about  1:1 individual sessions with her for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

 

Leaving The Toxic Family Dinner Table To Experience The Nourishment Of Love

By Jelelle Awen

Better for you to be alone in your own goodness than with others called, ‘family’ who actually don’t see/get/resonate with your soul….

Sitting at your birth family dinner table during the holidays or any day, any time. You adjust to the awkwardness, the things left unsaid. You learn to hide the REAL feelings that come up as you pass the ‘this’ and the ‘that’. You ignore the tensions that ride and glide under every unspoken truth. You hope to remain unseen and safe in an effort to just ‘get through.’

So much you cannot share here…..as there is no room! You put it back in the closet then, far away, as it has no ‘place’. Your truth, your essence cannot be worn or shown. The food has more room than you do as it serves to distract from the disconnect that seems to season everything with flatness.

No wonder parts of you struggle to digest and to eat! No wonder you never really feel full! No wonder you are left wanting SO MUCH more than what you received! No wonder parts of doubt if you will EVER really get what you most want and really need!

So many meals left with rumbling heart still aching for the food of LOVE. So many meals sat with unexpressed fears and unshed tears. So many meals started with hopes and desires only to be left disappointed. So many meals with unacknowledged elephants sitting in the chairs.

Conforming and ‘fitting in’, putting on the mask and learn to wear it well…..avoiding anything ‘deep’ or ‘too heavy’, helping to steer the conversation away from the real or the true or the difficult to say out loud. Parts of you become experts at this dance and this ‘game’ because they HAVE HAD to be. This is survival of the ‘fittest’, those who can perform in this play acting out, those who can BE on this stage….. have the best chance of ‘making it’ and ‘succeeding.’

Yet, oh how WEARY of this are the parts of you that have shrunk to this place for so long! The masks are slipping off, half gone, one side unstrung and hanging loose. Your soul bright light is starting to SHINE through. Your truth is starting to BURST forward. You don’t want to be passed around so lightly any more You don’t want to be passed over. To be disregarded or seen without curiosity is becoming no longer interesting to you.

You are pushing away from this family dinner table. You are reaching your hand out to help parts of you leave it too that are ‘stuck’ there, even if it has been many years ago. You are opening your heart to hold the fears and tensions and anxieties that come up from leaving the ‘safety’ of this game. You are letting go of reacting to what other’s judge or think or feel about you.

You are open, now, to finding the table of your soul tribe. To taking in the meals of nourishing love in every bite, every exchange, every moment of BEing in the real. All is spoken out, revealed, and shared as THAT is what is most nourishing and, ultimately, most natural. Curiosity and reverence are passed around as the currency that spends between this family. All parts of you come forward to be seen, to be felt, and to be acknowledged.

THIS is the new earth experience of ‘family dinner’, of the gathering together where we offer new energy to a common ritual. THIS is the transition from the old and what so many of us have known and INTO the NEW, where realness is the spice and love flavors every bite.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

1:1 sessions available with me for women to bridge with MUCH love to the places/parts/energies inside that may still be at that family dinner table. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about  1:1 individual sessions with her for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.