Time To Enter La-La Land

You may have heard “Love has won!”. This may be a visceral, mystical experience, or something parts of us are wanting to believe even if the ‘evidence’ proves otherwise. If we can feel and trust this as a universal Truth, then what is occurring in our personal worlds and The World at large is a grand play-out of Love trying its damndest to reach each and every one of us. 

The question is, could we let in Love even if it was right in front of us? How do we define what Love is? Love may come in the form of a challenge and it could feel like a bully. It may come in as surrender and we are too fused to our control and fear to not see it as acquiescing or dominance. It may come in as silence and feel as if we are not being heard. 

Love wants us to reason and to feel. It wants us to come closer to it and become intimate with it. It is not looking to just solve, but to be willing to feel what the ‘problem’ is. If Love has won, then it too is the solution. But again, what is Love? 

Is it responding to guilt? Is it blissful ignorance? Is it radical honesty? Is it wide knowledge? Is it being a warrior or a hero? Is it giving without receiving? Is it receiving without giving? The questions can go on ad infinitum. My point is that there are so many ways in which we, and parts of us, relate to what Love is. 

In the heaviest of situations, even suffering or pain can be interpreted as Love. There is a giant game of “What is Love?” going on in the world today. It has been that way from time immemorial. I guess the question really is, “What would you like Love to Be?”. 

Do you really want to poked and prodded? Do you really want to fight all the time? Do you really want to be afraid? Do you really want to just survive? What is it that you truly want to be a part of that may seem like La-La Land to a more judging, doubtful part of you? 

I encourage myself and my parts to feel that world that seems impossible or improbable. Even when in the heaviest of places, for it is that world that is more real to me, not just the most hopeful or desired. It is that world where Love wants me and all of us to imagine, create, embody, and heal toward. It lives on the other side of the portal of our fear, our pain, and our doubt. Without it, what kind of world do we end up with?

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Surrendering To Our Sovereign Relationship To Love

The words ‘sovereignty‘ and ‘surrender‘ can be quite the portals for the masculine in us all. They are especially highlighted in relationships of all kinds. In the ongoing journey of healing my intimacy wounds, I have come to these gateways many times. Who is this ‘me’ in the we of intimate relationship? How do I maintain my own truth, needs, and desires without feeling like I am acquiescing or submitting to someone else’s truth, needs, and desires?

Before I left California 8 years ago, I lived a life that would be defined as ‘sovereign’. I was not in many relationships after my divorce, and when I was, sovereignty was a big trigger as well as commitment. Inside there was a part of me that wanted his cake and eat it too. That old wounded masculine conditioned standard. Intimacy was more about sex and having a good time rather than getting to the bare bones of my heart-truth and my deeper needs as human man.

Then I found myself in a sacred, conscious romance as well as sacred, conscious community. Those flared up that ‘sovereignty gene’ I want to call it. That switch that says, “Oh, woah! Wait! Time-out. What is going on here? I am I giving away something that I cherish for the sake of something that I am not familiar with?”. The question was, what was it that a part of me cherished and what was it not familiar with?

At the core, I found that a part of me cherished non-vulnerability and wasn’t familiar with vulnerability. Even deeper, I realized it was an existential fear of Love that was at the root of it all. When I felt the ‘me’ that was independent, sovereign, and non-vulnerable, I found a man that was lost, unhappy, and alone. Only he wasn’t able to admit that at the time. With anyone.

As men (or the masculine in women), we can so very much defend our sovereignty at the cost of real Love. That somehow Love and Sovereignty are separate and adversarial. I feel our relationship to our mothers as a pivotal piece to this equation. They represent that from which we were born from. We received love in one form or another and then we needed to break away from that to find our individuation. Our authentic manhood that needed to push away, but more healthfully could have been initiated into it by a more conscious mother and father energy.

If we did not have that, and I would say most if not all of us did, then we are continually in this push-pull relationship to Other. To Love. To Intimacy. Surrender becomes more ‘submission’ than an opening into vulnerability which is all done with our sovereignty intact. We actually can never lose our sovereignty. We are born free, yet have been convinced we are in chains. When you see those chains are really about our fear of Love and our deep separation wound, you start to unhook those chains one by one.

This is a deep soul choice to heal this wound. It is not an easy one. It brings up a lot to witness and feel. A lot to be sober about in our shadow. Yet, it also brings in a new sense of freedom. A freedom to Be. To express. To surrender into without losing ourselves, but rather re-membering ourselves. It offers Love beyond what we had been conditioned and wounded into believing is love. This is the sovereign journey back into true surrender and true power. The power of conscious Love.



Raphael Awen and I will be hosting a men’s group call this Saturday at 5pm BST via Zoom. We will be talking about these topics as well as offering a guided meditation and sharing space. You can go to soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls for more information.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

One Year Later: Freeing Yourself From The Psychodemic

One year ago we all found ourselves walking through the threshold of a New World Order. An Order rooted in fear, facts, and fallacy. It was our global 9/11 moment and it has forever changed the way we experience the world we live in and those we relate to. We have become Alice in Wonderland wondering when the hell things will ‘get back to normal’.

I don’t believe there can ever be a going back. The collective psyche has been altered. Forget about your DNA, which is still being worked on depending who is doing the ‘working’, but the soul of our humanity is being altered. This has not all been for naught, however. There has been a lot that has become clear for many as this whole grand experiment/experience has awakened a population to what is real and what is not for each of us.

Science Fiction is coming alive before our very eyes. It clearly was never ‘fiction’ but a precursor to what was to come. It has become more of Science Friction. The use of science, ‘facts’, and fear as a weapon against ourselves and each other. We have been in a pinball game or roller coaster of emotion for some time now and it is becoming normalized. Life has become a dystopian novel trying to find its way into our consciousness. The question is will we let it?

As much as we may have a compulsion to go ‘out there’ to and solve the global psychodemic, it feels even more imperative to go inward. Like Neo running into Agent Smith at the end of the Matrix movie, we are being called to find the matrix tyrant within us. Who is this shady creature from the Black Lagoon of our Shadow and Control Center. The Wizard of our Oz. As so many wise and ascended masters have told us, as above, so below. What is outside, is inside.

This ‘creature’ is not a boogyperson. It is a engrained, conditioned, and legacy aspect of us from a bygone era. It is our connection to the System that we were born and raised in. It is being fed a consistent diet of bullshit that it has learned to accept as real food. Just like Neo was hooked up to the multitude of tubes when he woke up in that egg-like container. To meet this aspect of you is to meet yourself, but in this poorly-written and poorly-directed Epic of Gilgamesh we are calling ‘reality’.

I invite you to find and meet this aspect of you. It needs your sacred heart. Your soul spark. Your Divine Self to come and save it. YOU don’t need saving! This part of you does. There is NOTHING out there can can do the saving, the living, the liberating. It’s all you, my friend. This aspect of you has been judged, out of fear and control, to be a dark entity. Not so. The tag was put on it so you wouldn’t find him/her/it so that you could actually free yourself from the spiderweb that has been crafted for eons.

This aspect may not be found easily, or may even resist out of fear. The timing will present itself if you can consistently go into your heart and connect with Love. It is Love that lights the tunnels and caves of this Dark World. It is Love that holds the keys to the locked doors. It is Love that can hold the space for the fear, the hate, the unworth. It is Love that exists within you that is your saviour. It is your shamanic medicine against tyranny, injustice, and control.

I will work on a guided meditation to meet this aspect of you caught in the grids, the web, the inner caves of the matrix. This is where true freedom lives. The crossroad of the heart and soul, using the mind to create what wants to be made real or real-ized. You don’t need a degree to get there. Just a desire for a New World Order within rooted in Love and not Fear.

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Aurius Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and space-holder.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Big, Bold, Brave Choice To Be Fully Alive In These Times

By Deya Shekinah

The SoulFullHeart process is a wild, epic ride that is constantly blowing my mind and my heart wide open. It is intense, deep, rich and profound and I love it so much. My life is more magical when I am accessing and feeling my parts and creating deeply nourishing relationships inside of myself with them. Life becomes more alive and real in a way I cannot describe as it truly needs to be experienced for yourself. It is such an individual process because it is led by parts of YOU, there is no one outside telling you what is right or how to do it, just support to keep going in and finding your own way through any challenges, tensions or resistances to love that arise. 

It is a process that is helping me to become more human and that is what I love. It is not a spiritual practise but it is deeply spiritual. It is bridging the gap for me on what being a human and being spiritual mean. This process helps me feel and know from inside that those two aspects of who we are, are NOT separate. As I feel what is deeply human inside of me and those parts of me feel seen, met, heard and loved, then the Divine aspects of me are remembered and revealed so naturally and organically.

Our human hearts and emotions are the keys to the doorway home to the Divine essence of who we truly are. The richness in feeling this from inside and through your own experience with your parts is for me the most exquisite feeling ever. It is changing everything in my life and creating a foundation of self love and self trust in a way I have not experienced anywhere else.

This is my experience of course, not everyone will resonate with parts work and that is the beauty of all being so different and unique. This process honors and welcomes our uniqueness though, seeing the gifts that your parts and the ways they experience and feel life as adding to it, rather than taking away, or trying to make us tick boxes that make us spiritual enough to fit in or advance to the next level. There are no rules and the possibilities are endless, how liberating. 

You are endless, your parts are endless and the love that starts to arise within you as you feel parts of you is endless too. It is something to let in, feeling how big, how beautiful and how divine we truly are and have always been, and that being here in a human body is a gift we chose, not a hindrance to our spirituality but rather the doorway into deeper knowing and understanding of it.   

It is a big, bold and brave choice to choose a path of being fully alive and embodied in these times when there is so much to feel and respond to in the world. For me there is no other way through though than IN and I would not want to be going IN in any other way than with my parts, in this way of life and with the support of this beloved community.

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant & Community Member. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Courage To Let Love Win

Love is your bridge over troubled waters. It is your currency that spends in the New World. What has been recognized as Love is varied and in many ways smaller versions of what it truly is when we actually come across it. 

We can easily relate to it as an outbound expression. Not so much as an inward reflection of how we see and feel about ourselves. Love has many layers to it. It is really undefinable, only to be defined by your personal experience of it. There are ever more heights that Love can take us, yet each time we realize the ‘cost’ of that…the fear of losing it. Of being rejected by it. Of being devoured by it. 

It is the brave soul that chooses to risk that cost for the depths of Love’s grace and gifts. Each ‘payment’ is letting go of that which is NOT Love and you can only really do that by taking a serious look into what truly doesn’t feel like Love. It is to look at your outer choices and inner projections. Your beliefs and conditionings. Your influencing traumas and relationships. It is a deep dive into deep You. 

There is nothing ‘out there’ that can assuage what needs to be felt ‘in here’. The only thing significant on the outside are the mirrors that you are willing to see as mirrors. That is not an easy place to go. It is challenging yet far more rewarding than waiting for the world to somehow miraculously change around you. 

The old saying “wherever you go, there you are” could not be more true. If you have parts that live in fear, you bring fear with you. If you have parts that doubt, you bring doubt with you. We want to bring those parts into Love’s embrace and grace so that it can work its magic inside and out. I am on that journey, with love-hearted others, to continue to feel and heal the barriers between me and It. It is that alchemy within that changes the world because it changes MY world, in relationship with those that are doing the same. 

The resonance of Love is a very powerful change agent. Let it take you where you were always meant to be.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Journey Back To Love

Love can be a tough thing to let in a lot of the time. So much in the way between us and it. Trauma, wounds, pains, challenges, dependencies, contracts, fear…the list goes on. It is a journey that is not an easy one.

Love illuminates so much of what has ailed us in the Heart and Soul. We cannot bypass those wounds, we can only choose to not go there until we can no longer continue to hide without suffering. When you choose the path back to Love, Real Love, it is a soul decision to go through what appears like a hell to the part of you that has kept it all that at bay.

It is not about suiting up to withstand the pain and fear, but about arriving with the willingness to shed and reveal until you are naked at the foot of the Divine. This is the altar by which we become altered and transformed into something brand new.

It is not a plunge but a gentle process of feeling one step at a time. Any desire to ‘get rid of your shit’ is really coming from a part of you that is tired of holding it. That is understandable, yet there is another you there that can take it from this part and go through the process in a more self-loving way.

This is the journey that I have walked and continue to walk. It is ongoing but not a suffering loop. It is feeling everything that needs attention that doesn’t feel like Love toward me, anyone, or anything else. I live and offer this as my life’s Purpose and Work. If you ever feel that things are getting to be too much on the outside, or overwhelming on the inside, please feel the invitation from my heart to yours.

I have experienced many trials and shadow places within myself to understand what you are going through. I also have the capacity of compassion to hold the space even if I haven’t had similar experiences. These are trying times and sometimes we just need to be seen and felt in it all to shine the light on the next steps of release, forgiveness, and growth. Please don’t hesitate to reach out, and if there is hesitation we can feel that too.

Many blessings to you on your journey back to Love.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Love Can Never Leave You

The road my be wrought with obstacles
There may be others pointing this way and that
There may be sudden forks, unexpected curves, or steep climbs
You may be overwhelmed by storms or the glorious stars above
But no matter what comes your way
There is nothing that can take away
The Love that you have chosen to devote yourself to
That shines itself deeply within
From your leading edge to your trailing edge and back
Until there are no more edges to feel
And you merge into the Infinite Divinity of The Beloved
In each and every moment

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Light Side Of The Moon

Letting a new vibration of Joy inside of me today. For the past 8 years I have been doing deep inner work as well as resisting it on many occasions. This ebb and flow has brought me to new shores of my emotional and spiritual landscape.

I remember taking pictures like these in Mexico but there was still pain and suffering in my heart and Metasoul. I feel like I have entered the Light Side of the Moon, sort of speak. I know that there is still Shadow to attend to, but now I feel I am more rooted in the Light, in the Joy, and in the passion of purpose.

I owe this to the work I have been a part of these past years. My soul has made a pivot toward more goodness and Love. It feels lasting. I welcome the challenges to it so that I can feel how deeply rooted it is in me. I am inviting more initiations and guidance from my space-holders and mentors, Raphael and Jelelle, my soul friend Kalayna Solais, as well as Yeshua/Magdalene for my deepening sacred masculine and feminine integration.

I know now who I AM more than I ever have. Why I am here is more embodied and understood the more I have healed and integrated all that I have been through, with the help and support of my community. I wish more than anything to share that with others who are deeply drawn to this path of deep self-transmutation. I am not just a facilitator but facilitant. A teacher and a student. Always a student. Always humbled to let go and let in all that leads to my I AM.

My heart is full, open, and ready to serve when the time is right for those I am meant to. So blessed to be Here…Now with those that I am serving and learning from.

Sending Sirian Sun codes to all the parts of you that still feel lost in the dark.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Into The Trauma, And Beyond!

By Raianna Shai

Much of spirituality and emotional healing is based on the healing of trauma. From this life, other lifetimes, and with galactic connections. This is probably some of the most important work we do in healing our wounding and growing closer to our essence. My recent process, however, has helped me realize that there IS healing that exists beyond the trauma.

In my most recent session I connected with both my inner protector and a new gatekeeper. My inner protector is the part of me that helps get me through daily life. He is the one that can hold very 3D and physical/mental tasks. My gatekeeper, on the other hand, is the guide I can lean into when it comes to opening out my soul connections and gifts.

As I felt my protector first, he was overwhelmed and trying so hard to deepen my process and make it more meaningful. But deepening my healing isn’t his responsibility. I haven’t signed up for much trauma this life and the metasoul healing I’ve done so far has healed almost all of what I have signed up for. So this part’s job has shifted massively from protecting to resting and trusting.

This new gatekeeper, who I am calling Damien, is a much higher frequency and has the key to unlocking the rest of my soul that goes beyond the trauma. He can show me the gifts, the positive experiences, the magical and deep journeys that allow for more love and cohesion between all aspects of myself.

Going through this process has helped me realize that we don’t just have to be here for trauma healing. We can go beyond – deeper into who we want to be and what we want to build for ourselves. We can grow closer and closer to essence until maybe we are even done coming back as human.

In order to get to this place we must trudge through muddy waters, deconstruct all that we have believed to be true about ourselves, love who are parts once were and dream about who we want to be. We must find the worth, do the work and stay in the room with the darkest and most difficult parts of us. But each ounce of love we take in, each connection to the Divine and each step towards forgiveness brings us through our trauma and into the “beyond”.

Beyond self consciousness, beyond fear, beyond anger, beyond anxiety and depression, even beyond much self awareness at all. The “beyond” to me is pure love, essence, passion and service.

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free intro calls and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

 

Energy Update: 11/11 Codes Offer Infinite Love Experience Through Sacred Union

By Jelelle Awen
Energy Update: 11/11 codes are ALIVE already. All codes from Divine Source offer Infinite Love and the receiving of it, becoming of it, reminder of it AS our essence. To align with receiving of these Infinite Love codes is to feel (primarily) the densities, the traumas, the fears, the blocks to becoming this love so that they can transmute and clear.
 
11/11 also offers a preparation for sacred union codes to draw your Divine counterpart mate, deepen your current sacred union, complete unions that aren’t transactable in sacred ground, or illuminate the grounds of your inner sacred union between your inner masculine and your inner feminine. Next month, the Christmas/Winter SOULstice/12/12 codes of Christ Consciousness and Magdalene Consciousness come streaming in.
 
11/11 is our preparation to become these sacred union codes within…healing the polarities that exist inside, the inner relationships between masculine and feminine that have needed to be more polarized and densified (this is the template we received) and are NOW ready to move into more union and balance.
 
In this moment of, yes, afterglow, I am in so much gratitude for the connection ground that I get to experience as an outer sacred union with my beloved Raphael Awen. As captured in the photo below, it was so wonderful to let our Metasoul connection channel through into the present on Halloween/Samhain. We were surprised by how fluidly and naturally it came through after the work we’ve done to integrate and embody these soul energies. This was not just ‘dressing up’ as something, yet rather letting our soul essence shine through.
 
The deepening and richness of our sacred union connection is revealed and exposed over the YEARS, getting better and better actually. Not deadening, yet enlivening. Not flattening, yet enlivening. Not polarizing, yet unionizing. We are moving into deeper embodiment of our King and Queen energies together, beaconing out to others to join our kingdom of heart and soul healing….. and it is SO exciting to feel this grounding into our emotional bodies in a healthy way too! Many lifetimes/timelines are coming together for us in this one!
 
This coming together of many lifetimes into this one is a theme of 11/11 and going into 2020 as well, when so many of the karmic patterns our souls have signed up for finally complete and heal. For many of us, this is our final lifetime to choose a denser 3D reality to incarnate into in order to heal and grow.
 
Our work in SoulFullHeart with the Metasoul aspects opens up bridges to these other lifetimes, allowing for integration, soul gift exchange, and quantum healing of soul trauma. We lift together the previous veils of amnesia to gain quite easy access to the lifetimes that most need your love and attention. This allows for identifying the soul themes and patterns that are playing out in this life and other lifetimes.
 
You are so welcome to join us this Saturday, November 9th to experience these sacred union codes that we live in as a transmission from our hearts to yours. We’ll be tuning into the 11/11 codes and teaching about them, bridging to the crystal bowls to provide their transmissions too, and offering a guided meditation with us as well. More info here about joining us; https://www.facebook.com/events/2595514423846711/
or here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/grouptransmissions
 
Thank you for being on this journey with us into deeper grounds of sacred everything in this exciting time of transition!
 
Love,
Jelelle Awen
We also offer a free 30-45 minute intro call with Raphael or Gabriel Heartman to consult with you about going into 1:1 sessions. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions