The Invisible, Imperishable Good Stuff

“In the external scheme of things, shining moments are as brief as the twinkling of an eye, yet such twinklings are what eternity is made of — moments when we human beings can say “I love you,” “I’m proud of you,” “I forgive you,” “I’m grateful for you.” That’s what eternity is made of: invisible imperishable good stuff.” – Fred Rogers

Mr. Rogers is one of those unforgettable beings in our lifetime who touched a place within us that is The Eternal. No matter what gender, race, or creed, Fred Rogers held the light of wonder, mystery, fantasy, and our heart-open reality. His love of Innocence from the heart of a child is what he will forever be known for.

It was the child in us all that he was speaking to. We could easily get caught up in watching him with our children as intently as they did. It was his genuineness and his integrity that was alien to us. The character in the movie who was tasked to cover Mr. Rogers even said, “This man cannot be real. There is a story here.”

Yet it was his desire to feel and help others to feel that made him so real. He made feeling the most essential part of our existence next to joy and imagination. His advocacy of kindness and compassion should never be forgotten.

We can carry that light he brought to the world week in and week out by being kind and compassionate to ourselves. Give space to the parts of us that feel hurt, scared, angry, anxious, depressed, disempowered, guilty, etc. They make up that Make Believe Land inside of us. That is what the puppets represented…parts of Fred Rogers.

When we begin to honestly care for these parts of us, can we genuinely bring that to the world and offer that love to others through the heart-eyes of our inner child. This is the continued work. Regain that connection to the magic and joy that has never left us but has only been sequestered. The Eternal part of us that can always be accessed by hearing “I love you”, “I am proud of you”, “I forgive you”, and “I’m grateful for you”.

In loving honor of Fred Rogers. A real hero of heart.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Into The Trauma, And Beyond!

By Raianna Shai

Much of spirituality and emotional healing is based on the healing of trauma. From this life, other lifetimes, and with galactic connections. This is probably some of the most important work we do in healing our wounding and growing closer to our essence. My recent process, however, has helped me realize that there IS healing that exists beyond the trauma.

In my most recent session I connected with both my inner protector and a new gatekeeper. My inner protector is the part of me that helps get me through daily life. He is the one that can hold very 3D and physical/mental tasks. My gatekeeper, on the other hand, is the guide I can lean into when it comes to opening out my soul connections and gifts.

As I felt my protector first, he was overwhelmed and trying so hard to deepen my process and make it more meaningful. But deepening my healing isn’t his responsibility. I haven’t signed up for much trauma this life and the metasoul healing I’ve done so far has healed almost all of what I have signed up for. So this part’s job has shifted massively from protecting to resting and trusting.

This new gatekeeper, who I am calling Damien, is a much higher frequency and has the key to unlocking the rest of my soul that goes beyond the trauma. He can show me the gifts, the positive experiences, the magical and deep journeys that allow for more love and cohesion between all aspects of myself.

Going through this process has helped me realize that we don’t just have to be here for trauma healing. We can go beyond – deeper into who we want to be and what we want to build for ourselves. We can grow closer and closer to essence until maybe we are even done coming back as human.

In order to get to this place we must trudge through muddy waters, deconstruct all that we have believed to be true about ourselves, love who are parts once were and dream about who we want to be. We must find the worth, do the work and stay in the room with the darkest and most difficult parts of us. But each ounce of love we take in, each connection to the Divine and each step towards forgiveness brings us through our trauma and into the “beyond”.

Beyond self consciousness, beyond fear, beyond anger, beyond anxiety and depression, even beyond much self awareness at all. The “beyond” to me is pure love, essence, passion and service.

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free intro calls and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

 

Energy Update: 11/11 Codes Offer Infinite Love Experience Through Sacred Union

By Jelelle Awen
Energy Update: 11/11 codes are ALIVE already. All codes from Divine Source offer Infinite Love and the receiving of it, becoming of it, reminder of it AS our essence. To align with receiving of these Infinite Love codes is to feel (primarily) the densities, the traumas, the fears, the blocks to becoming this love so that they can transmute and clear.
 
11/11 also offers a preparation for sacred union codes to draw your Divine counterpart mate, deepen your current sacred union, complete unions that aren’t transactable in sacred ground, or illuminate the grounds of your inner sacred union between your inner masculine and your inner feminine. Next month, the Christmas/Winter SOULstice/12/12 codes of Christ Consciousness and Magdalene Consciousness come streaming in.
 
11/11 is our preparation to become these sacred union codes within…healing the polarities that exist inside, the inner relationships between masculine and feminine that have needed to be more polarized and densified (this is the template we received) and are NOW ready to move into more union and balance.
 
In this moment of, yes, afterglow, I am in so much gratitude for the connection ground that I get to experience as an outer sacred union with my beloved Raphael Awen. As captured in the photo below, it was so wonderful to let our Metasoul connection channel through into the present on Halloween/Samhain. We were surprised by how fluidly and naturally it came through after the work we’ve done to integrate and embody these soul energies. This was not just ‘dressing up’ as something, yet rather letting our soul essence shine through.
 
The deepening and richness of our sacred union connection is revealed and exposed over the YEARS, getting better and better actually. Not deadening, yet enlivening. Not flattening, yet enlivening. Not polarizing, yet unionizing. We are moving into deeper embodiment of our King and Queen energies together, beaconing out to others to join our kingdom of heart and soul healing….. and it is SO exciting to feel this grounding into our emotional bodies in a healthy way too! Many lifetimes/timelines are coming together for us in this one!
 
This coming together of many lifetimes into this one is a theme of 11/11 and going into 2020 as well, when so many of the karmic patterns our souls have signed up for finally complete and heal. For many of us, this is our final lifetime to choose a denser 3D reality to incarnate into in order to heal and grow.
 
Our work in SoulFullHeart with the Metasoul aspects opens up bridges to these other lifetimes, allowing for integration, soul gift exchange, and quantum healing of soul trauma. We lift together the previous veils of amnesia to gain quite easy access to the lifetimes that most need your love and attention. This allows for identifying the soul themes and patterns that are playing out in this life and other lifetimes.
 
You are so welcome to join us this Saturday, November 9th to experience these sacred union codes that we live in as a transmission from our hearts to yours. We’ll be tuning into the 11/11 codes and teaching about them, bridging to the crystal bowls to provide their transmissions too, and offering a guided meditation with us as well. More info here about joining us; https://www.facebook.com/events/2595514423846711/
or here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/grouptransmissions
 
Thank you for being on this journey with us into deeper grounds of sacred everything in this exciting time of transition!
 
Love,
Jelelle Awen
We also offer a free 30-45 minute intro call with Raphael or Gabriel Heartman to consult with you about going into 1:1 sessions. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

The Door To Our Inner Garden

By Raphael Awen

And for how long we longed after some door external to us to find our magic, our light, our sparkle, when the door was in our own inner garden all along. 

If this is true, then what seems to predispose us all to look outward or to an other?

We have been convinced that the self is ‘selfish,’ an inherently bad word and a very bad thing, when in truth until you become truly and deeply selfish, youcan in no wise inherit the kingdom of God, for this kingdom and queendom is inside you.

To be fully selfish is to do and be what brings you the fullest and deepest pleasure. How could that not be to the fullest and deepest pleasure of all of life and every living thing around you.

Shortchanging yourself is shortchanging the world and everyone around you. 

Your problem isn’t that you are self centred, it is that you are not centred in yourself enough to the true degree and depths of that which you really are and with what you really want. 

Give up the pretence that you have no self-interest for when in fact, as a self, that is all you have.

Show me your most noble self-less act, and then show me how you are not deriving a personal return from it. 

Until we reconcile this inside of ourselves, the door to our own inner garden of our magic remains sealed.

How could it be any different?

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Holding Genuine Empathy & Love For Others

by Kalayna Solais

The conditioning is deep around what we’ve been taught real love and care is and looks like. It’s challenging to feel it in different ways, to take a deep look at how we’ve related to love and how we’ve been convinced we’re supposed to embody it.

So often what we think of as loving or caring can have more of a negative impact on others than a positive one. False apologies, empty promises, tugging and grabbing at others… these frequencies can be obvious or subtle. And in any case, we aren’t genuinely caring about our impact on others, only what parts of us want and are afraid they won’t get or look like on the outside. I so know this one from my own process too, and learning to see and feel even the subtle ways in which this happens is illuminating and invites you to shift these patterns for good.

This is tricky… and hard to feel too. It can be hard to look inward and challenge how we have been holding love and what it means to love another, whether in official ‘service of love’ or in everyday relationships. It’s amazing what it illuminates within though, which is so often an untouched inner reality of how we ourselves, and parts of us, have felt incredibly unworthy of real love, abandoned somehow, and in a void space that has never been filled by genuine self-love and the journey of unfolding that within.

So what does it look and feel like to actually care and love another person?

To me, it feels like giving space for another’s growth without tugging on them to join in on yours. It feels like inviting someone to share with you what they need and want, but not with a commitment from you to make it happen for them. It feels like the overflow of good inner-parenting, of relating to yourself and getting to know your own quirks and shadowy aspects and energies within you as well as your gifts and growth and flowing this energy to another to support their own inner-parenting to grow and blossom too. It feels like being willing to let go even when your heart really doesn’t want to.

It’s a lot to feel into these pieces and truth be told, I’m not sure any of us can truly master this skill of loving another in the purest way… though we can definitely care about this journey and continue to do the inner healing to help us get there. We and parts of us all have understandable investments in relationships of all kinds and hopes that they will last too. We all have desires and dreams and don’t really ever want to feel lonely (though really landing in the loneliness has so many gifts too)… we all have what we want to experience from others and in our lives in general. Yet love asks us to trust… to invest in the process yet divest of the outcome. To feel what we want most and understand that it won’t always come to us in ways we can control, and also, to see it all as a process that can only ever begin within. We really DO have to BEcome the love we want to draw on the outside and share with others too!

Above all, love wants us to remember that it is never against us or anybody else, though it can feel that way at times. It only ever wants us to experience more of it within so that we can share it with others. This flow of love is really all the ‘service of love’ is anyways, though it can be dressed up in many ways and be given many labels and is not always easy to truly embody for ourselves, let alone others.

Much love to you as you continue to experience your own journey into more and more REAL love, and the path of learning to embody love in the most authentic way possible. ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Falling IN Love

Photo by Everton Vila on Unsplash

By Raianna Shai

In the past few weeks I have been trying to find the space and time to write a blog post, finding that I have struggled to “force” something profound and meaningful out of me when sometimes just living is as profound as you need to be in any moment. I have so much desire to serve love to others and to share what I learn on my awakening journey. Even now, I have many ideas of what I could write about but the words aren’t flowing as easily as they have in the past.

So as I sit here with an open heart, energy and time, I decided just to write about where I am currently in my life. That is what’s most authentic and flows from my heart with ease.

Right now I am falling in love. With myself, with other, with my life and family. I am falling in love inside and outside. I am growing and changing and facing my fears as much as I possibly can to continue letting in all of this love.

My inner process has been focused on a feminine and masculine part of me who are also learning to fall in love. They both have desires, needs, boundaries and fears. My feminine part, who I am calling Shai, is emotional and passionate and a true romantic at heart. My masculine part, named Michael, is discerning, intelligent and has a gift of holding 3D tasks. Together, they are balanced and full of love. Apart, they are opposite forces working against one another creating fear, anxiety and projection onto others.

Because of the abundance of goodness in my life right now, I have been focusing on these two parts in order to be able to continue letting it all in. It’s easy for parts to get scared when things are going well. In a dimension where things tend to “go wrong”, we can make predictions ahead of time of what may not work or what we might lose. In that, we lose the moment. We lose what we have in the present and we don’t get everything out of it that we could.

I’m working on not expecting the worse. On not bracing myself for the impact of something bad. But first, I feel the parts that do expect the worst and discover why that is. The more that Shai and Michael vulnerably share their fears with me, the more they will fall in love and fall in tandem with one another. That’s when their gifts can shine and that love can be shared with others.

We talk about inner sacred union a lot for a reason. It’s so important to start within. To grow the glow of love so brightly that it shines through every pore and into those around you.

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I found this poem from almost two years ago that I thought was fitting for this! It’s from my masculine too my feminine:

I always thought I was different than the other men

More sensitive

More emotional

More mature

 

I thought I was protecting you from the other men

Giving you edges

Hiding your feelings

Numbing your reactions

 

I thought you’d be hurt by the other men

They would crack you into pieces

They would scratch your porcelain skin

They would break your fragile heart

 

But now I see your strength as a woman

Your compassion

Your empathetic prowess

Your stillness and energy, both

 

I thought I could hide you as a woman

Under formless clothing

Under quick-witted comebacks

Under disinterest in romance

 

Maybe now I can support you as a woman

Become the mind to your heart

Become the here to your now

Become the pot to your plant

 

I’m not meant to be your guard,

But instead your partner

Your partner in this dance

Few know the steps to

 

Where our rhythms match,

Our hearts unite

And our souls release the energy

Of every star in the nighttime sky

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Service Of Love As A Mirror

By Gabriel Heartman

I have been holding space for two remarkable women that have had a lot of deep processing of past pain, both this life and others. It has been such an honor to be a part of their movements and realizations that have come from their own dedications to themselves and their desire for self-love and service to others. 

During our time together there have been moments of needing to flow with a ‘passionate advocacy’ for each of them and that can get triggering to parts that have inner wounds around what may be interpreted as a ‘bullying’. This is what I wrote about in my last post. 

It felt important to share their responses of their perspective on that and how being a caring mirror and conduit of real love can be challenging yet rewarding. It also reminds me to continue to work my stuff so that I can Be and offer that to others. This is especially true between a man and a woman where there can be so much charge between the masculine and feminine in the shadow. But it is that dynamic which brings the deepest healing to the surface. 

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“Thank you so much, Gabriel. I love all your reflections and you can’t imagine how much they are helping to integrate the session, expand my consciousness, bring context to current situations and patterns as well as past ones and bring my inner family together and growing me more. I took in your last message when I was sitting down by the ocean and it was pure balm for my soul, heart and nervous system. It was an explanation for so much and I will take it in again and again because there’s so much in there that struck a chord and that facilitated big shifts. I saw and felt my inner feminine and masculine shaking hands, wanting to start to respect each other and working together ❤”- Bianca

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“Gabriel, I loved your post yesterday about “tough love.” Thank you for putting it out there. While I had parts reactions to our session, your “passionate advocacy” was exactly what I needed in order to push myself to really become my own loving presence for my inner teenager, rather than letting that part convince me that only someone else could take care of her. I could really feel the difference between your advocacy, rather than toxic tough love. Yours is the type of healthy love that all of us have needed in this life. It’s clean and safe, and doesn’t allow for enmeshment and attachment. Feels really good to learn and experience that for real! ❤”- Devon

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I am honored to be in this space with both of them as they have taught me a lot about my own heart and where I have grown and still have places to continue to grow and heal. I am so very grateful.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

Finding Love In The Darkness

By Gabriel Heartman

In the Darkness, the Light of Love can be found when you choose to let it in despite the pain. It is actually the pain itself that cracks open the heart from where the river of Love and Understanding flow.

The resistance to feeling the darkest places is a sacred negotiation. It is there as a gestation period for when the time is right and ripe. When it presents itself, you are being offered an opportunity to go deeper into your Being and come out with the experience that All is held in Love no matter the circumstance. This is the Holy moment of returning to Wholeness.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

Your Heaven Exists In The NOW

By Raphael Awen

In my lifetime this life, I’ve gone from fearing I wouldn’t go to heaven when I die, to being assured I’d go to heaven when I die, to now coming to a place of realizing that I no longer am that interested in going to heaven when I die.

Placing our desire for heaven or golden earth in a future hope serves to veil the very real existence of our higher self’s reality in the Now.

Everything you want, you already have. The very real seeming perception of something lacking or missing is a guidepost to help you return to the realization that what you seek was actually never lost, but only veiled from your awareness for a specific purpose of growth – growth for you and growth for love itself.

Laments about the past, and desires for your future are things that occur in your present, that obscure you from the larger Now, wherein exists all you can imagine and infinitely more.

If this is all true, or real, then what’s left is to bridge to the parts of you who are understandably not so convinced of this Now of golden earth. What’s left is to bridge to the Gatekeeper aspect of us who has worked hard to maintain the needed veil between our conscious self (and selves) and our awakening self (and selves). The need for the veil is changing every day. We’re entering a new order of things, internally and externally.

You are awakening from a dream. There’s a ton to adjust and acclimate to, but this is where the fun comes in. This is where purpose and reward comes in.

This is where fulfilling your plan ‘A’ comes in. Plan ‘B’ can take its place in our keepsake box, a sacred reminder that it’s all sacred.

Your and my heaven can only and ever exist in the Now. It’s only through the Now that you can access it. Past, present and future (and time itself) are only emanations from this deeper substance of all things reality called love.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

The Alchemy Of Being Real

These are alchemical times. We are being defined, refined, and aligned. All of these celestial events are markers and signposts along the way. Just as lead is turned into gold, so is the process of our spiritual and emotional maturation. Our impurities are not judged but rather loved into transmutation and integration for nothing is truly impure in the heart of Love. 


Along this journey, you may hit roadblocks, detours, traffic circles, and U-turns. You may get a flat tire, road rage, and blown engine. That is okay. Each is an opportunity to become more aware of yourself, your traumas, your fears, and your desires. I am personally coming into this state as I allow myself to step further into my leadership and my truth. My relationship to both have been in ebb and flow. A going within to feel what is at stake and being willing to become more vulnerable from whatever place I am in at the moment, even if it does not appear to seem ‘higher’ or ‘spiritual’. We are meant to be real first, and then feel where we have places to go. 

This is the definition and refining period. This is where the ‘rubber meets the road’. Where you are meant to catapult into the New without leaving any rock unturned. There is no skipping steps. No ‘getting ahead’. Just getting real. 

This alchemical process is held in Love with the Divine and your Higher Self alongside guides and Star Family. You have support ‘here’ too. Seeking loving mirrors that can support and aid in that transmutation and birthing process. That is what I do for others and for myself daily. It is a way of life this way of being, seeing, and feeling. It is an ongoing journey. It is getting in touch with the You within you. Or maybe more specifically the Yous within you. The parts and metasoul aspects that make up your tapestry. Your Alchemist’s elementals. 

The disclosure of all that lies within gets purified by this alchemy and you arise renewed and re-membered back into Love. 

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.