Moving Beyond Fear-Based ‘Tolerance’ Of Dissonance During Awakenings & Growth

by Kasha Rokshana

“Tolerance” is really such a terrible word. I don’t particularly like it. Because it makes parts of us feel like they are obliged to let things go that really they shouldn’t have to. It’s one of the most misinformed tenants of modern society. Tolerance is not compassion or understanding, let alone love, and it actually typically comes from fear, especially the fear of you yourself not being ‘tolerated’ let alone actually felt or understood.

If you find yourself tolerating a dead marriage, a dead relationship to birth family, a dead connection to your livelihood, rather than seeking and humbly taking risks for the sake of aliveness, then you’re likely in a place of having been coached, told, conditioned into feeling like as long as you’re tolerating these dead things, you’re ‘doing something right’ and dare I say, even reaching the carrot of ‘enlightenment’.

No one is entitled to your tolerance, not even the parts of you that ask for it. Just as people on the outside of you basically tell you ‘don’t look over here, you have to accept me as I AM’, parts of you can do that too. They don’t want you to see their manipulative strategies or ways of controlling the people in your life that you don’t resonate with so that they don’t have to experience real and true growth and what actually COULD become possible in ALL of your relationships.

Tolerance becomes intolerance, sometimes quickly, as awakenings happen and these awakenings lead quickly to depression and anxiety when this intolerance is not honoured or felt. You are changing. And if you’re a big soul, you’ve likely felt how quickly you change and shift at times and are oftentimes tiptoeing around your relationships rather than letting your awakenings truly ride with you into a new life phase.

Death and rebirth is always a part of awakening, whether it’s the kind of death and rebirth that is very, very dark for a time or the kind that is actually much easier to move through. I can assure you though, that if parts of you still buy the 3D Matrix or New Age Spirituality Matrix shit of ‘you have to find a way to make this work because that’s what real love does’, then you are in for more difficulty, not less, whether it manifests in physical illness, emotional waves you fall under rather than feel able to come to terms with (note, I didn’t say ‘control’), or a feeling of existential crisis that keeps growing until parts of you can no longer stuff it down.

Awakening, truly expanding into your heart and soul and letting them lead, is not about tolerating anything or anyone. Yet, as this intolerance is felt and honoured, true compassion can be felt as well as authentic passion. You change, and even if the people around you can’t, you are empowered to navigate your way through that and find new people to be around, even if you need a phase of being ‘alone’ (which is never alone, truly, for the Divine is ALWAYS there and sometimes it takes the lonely feelings to actually drop into Its arms at last).

If you truly have a penchant for your deepest growth, you’ll find a way to feel what you’ve been allowing that actually doesn’t feel good to you. Our gut honesty is what brings us the most growth and the most Divine alignment, even in all its messiness and absolute dearth of glamour. There is NO such thing as an ‘ugly cry’, especially when what you’re feeling is the grief of what perhaps once worked, what once was beautiful and resonant, and you’re feeling into letting it go for the sake of all involved…

I love you. Keep feeling. Keep moving beyond tolerance and you WILL find your truth, whether you end up needing to move into deep life change right away or not. Your awakenings will deepen and your experience of your soul will too, even in all of the waves of exquisite sadness, necessary rage, and openings into bittersweet bliss.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Energy Update: Beltane/Eclipse Opening Karmic Metasoul Timeline Portals In Sacred Union

By Jelelle and Raphael Awen

Energy Update: My goodness, wow, there is a lot to feel and coming up in response to/activated by all these celestial ‘events’ and energies!

For the last two days, I’ve been in a deep karmic ‘tunnel’, feeling, seeing, and experiencing energies from another lifetime heavily overlaid on my own and just BEing with them and the soul aspect who feels them. Allowing lots of tears, physical tiredness and need for rest has been so important, plus lots of processing/sharing time with my mate Raphael too.

This Metasoul aspect of mine (as we call them rather than ‘past life’) is named Lorna, a powerful Avalonian High Priestess who walked away from her position for many reasons in her lifetime, yet mostly to follow the call of her heart in mateship with Raphael’s metasoul aspect ( a Christian king named Lionel). Of course, this union was ‘forbidden’ and they hid in the shadows with their affair….longing for each other yet not able to ‘be together.’ This is a reoccurring theme for Raphael and I over many, many lifetimes and what we came here to heal together this life. The priestess and the king, being in different ‘worlds’ yet our twin/pairbond calling us to connect and heal the separation wound there.

Being able to be together and be in our power/gift expression together is the opportunity we’ve chosen in this life. It is A LOT to let in and even nearly 14 years later, we are still in this process together of inhabiting this.

As is the case in truly non-compartmentalized sacred union in which we are in constant physical/emotional/mental connection together yet also individuating, this invitation to have and be in what we haven’t gotten to be in before brings up all kinds of things to feel such as grief, distrust, insecurity, fear of loss, desire to control/grasp, unworthiness and much more.

During this powerful Beltane/Union passage and supported by the Black Moon eclipse energies (along with the recent planetary alignment and ongoing solar flares), Raphael and I went into this lifetime together (which isn’t in the ‘past’ at all yet occurring in the Quantum Now), dropping into the energies of Lionel and Lorna and facilitated a feeling/bridging to them. They ‘get’ to be together in their lifetime too finally and get to lead together, seeing where that takes them. Their union fortifies and supports the union between Raphael and I too, opening up a gift exchange. Left unfelt, their resistances and fear creates blocks to intimacy and deepening for Raphael and I.

I feel to share this tender process as it is the best example I can offer of the kinds of energies you may be experiencing and emotions too, yet may not always know or feel a ‘way’ to be with them. There is a massive lifting of the veils happening where the previous amnesia we have had about other lifetimes and soul themes is dissolving. Whether you are in sacred union right now or single, your soul is inviting you to heal the separation wounds within you and in your experience in order to move into more union on all levels.

I do love this SoulFullHeart process so very much for what it allows to be opened up and felt in a specific way that also has such depth and possibility to it. If you’d like to hear more about our process recently as a couple and more about SoulFullHeart as well and if it might be a deepening place for you in community and sessions, you can join Raphael and I in a livestream on FB on Beltane, Sunday, May 1st at 5:00pm GMT/12:00pm EDT/9am PDT. The recording will be available on our feeds to watch anytime along with here on this blog and on our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel.

We also share more about our personal processes and respond to your movements/sharings too on our private online community called the SoulFullHeart Portal….creating a safe community space online to support each other, deepen, challenge, and grow together. You are welcome to join us there for a $22.22 USD monthly membership as an exchange with us: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

The energies of the eclipse bring up and out these timelines/lifetimes and it’s HOW we are with them that can make a big difference in our experience and what we can leverage from them. I so love truly being able to dialogue with, feel, and grow with these soul aspects and parts of myself, over years sometimes, and in an ever deepening way. Not just in a one time regression session, yet in a truly relational way that is ongoing.

Healing the separations that create and feed our fear…moving into more union within and together…THIS is why we are here in this life where so much more is possible than ever before!

And Raphael’s comment on this post:

“This must sound like a complete dream to so many, a real dream, but a dream nonetheless, to have this kind of feeling access to other timelines.

It might feel quite ‘attained’, but my personal experience is more about the guts it takes to be willing to feel and digest all there is to feel in these karmic bonds and binds, and how they are expressing in the current of our current. It did take deep process and choice, but for a soul who’s ready to go here, my truth is that you will be surprised how immediate the openings are and how you will be graced and paced by love and the divine to hold it all.

Feeling this pair bond yesterday took me into some deep tunnels of despair feeling Lionel, which resonates so deeply with the despair inside so many men right now. It’s all connected and it’s all asking to be answered.

If you’re feeling that you need to stay on top of things if you’re going to be a resource to others, I’d invite you to think again. We are in this ride together and there are things to feel that feel like hell, and it is through those hells that you get relieved of the pretense of being something you are not and it is through those hells that you get truly empowered to be of useful and profound service for what is at hand now.

There’s lots more shit to come and unless we drop our roles, we’re going to just plain suffer deeper and deeper. If we are ready to go deeper, there is, I’m convinced (much of the time) that there is so much goodness awaiting us. That is not only my hope, but my daily ongoing experience.

I am so glad to be in the resolution of these timelines with you, Jelelle, and all of our discovered Metasouls. I believe that is what all of us are doing one way or another in the long run, it’s just about how much someone is ready to feel now and at what pace that makes the difference in our joy/suffering.

I know there is a TON of divine support to all of us who are willing to feel and heal on this level.”

Much love to you during this illuminating passage!

Jelelle Awen

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The Arising Of The May King

The Horned God comes into union with The May Queen. He sets his sights, opens his heart, and commits to the bond through his own need for growth and creation. A powerful and sacred coming together that begins on the inside and extends on the outside.

I did not have much connection to this day in my past, but it as become an increasing profound and beautiful day of honoring the masculine and feminine sacred union as well as our relationship to Mother Gaia and Her gifts of Spring and Summer. It has triggered feelings of inadequacy in my past with Kasha as she has had such a deep experience and relationship to it. Yet, as with all triggers, they are gateways to our deepest fears and rewards.

I can meet the wounded masculine within and hold space for his healing and arising into his own May King. The masculine that can show up to all of the ebbs and flows of the stillness and fire of the Divine Feminine May Queen. The King that can be in his own truth as well as meet his own shadow and vulnerable parts that are still in hiding and integration. This is no small task. It is a life-long journey that is both challenging and rewarding.

I have been fortunate to have been in intimate relationship as well as community to help reflect and mirror both my arising King and wounded man. They are always in orbit of each other and offer both solace and gifts. On this day, honor them both, as well as the feminine within me that has guided me to let in the union I share with my beloved, Kasha. This had to start from the inside from me to me first. I had to feel ready and worthy enough to go into the depths of vulnerable intimacy, as challenging and scary it can be.

I felt to share a poem I wrote years ago as a call to my Queen before I knew that it was Kasha all along. Many Beltane blessings to all both in and out of union:

Come with me, my love
Down the spiral staircase of my heart
Into the garden of my humanity

Bear witness to it succulence
It’s uniqueness
It’s burned and broken places

Come with me, my queen
Along the paths of weathered words
And the trails of new beginnings
Water the wilted with your loving care
Ignite the growth with your fiery passion

Will you follow me into the unknown?
Into the cauldron of our being?
Will you dance with me among the golden lilies
As well as the prickly cactus and forest ablaze?
Will you join with me in the exploration of our sacred sexuality?

The slow caress of my hands
Upon your beautifully sculpted, divinely feminine curves
The electric sparks that leap off our tongues
Setting fire to our chakras one by one
When we reach the gateway of our heavenly union

Will you come with me?
May I come into you?
Into your atmosphere where you shine and fly?
Into your hidden and protected caverns?
The places where few have been allowed to tread
Into your luscious and sacred garden?

I will not pluck your flowers
Or step on your sprawling vines
I will sit patiently for you to join me.
To share with me you tales
Your stories of adventure
….of agony
….of strength
….and weakness

I will etch them into my heart
Weave them into the tapestry of us
Though they belong to you and you alone
They share a sacred place in between you and me

Come with me, by beloved
As far as we both were meant to go
To unravel the mystery of who we were meant to be.

May this May Day open you out to the gifts of this season and these celestial constellations,

*****

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Emotional And Relational Maturation Over Mastery

All intimate relationships are sacred. They are meant to offer us something about ourselves that we would not see or feel otherwise. For me it has been the ongoing challenge of being real, transparent, and staying in the room when a part of me may want to defend, hide, or in the past, just give up. Intimacy is not an easy spiritual path, yet it is the most illuminating, growthful, and rewarding in my experience.

As a man, I find this generally true for many other men as well. The last frontier of our spiritual maturation is our emotional maturation. Notice I did not say, mastery. I feel any attempt to ‘master’ our emotions comes from a part of us that is looking to control or avoid something real and messy. I can admit this has been true for me. But messy does not mean chaotic, like a part of me may feel at times when things get real and on the edge or precipice of the unknown. It just means we are sorting out a ton of wounding that has been held in so many hidden pockets of our heart and soul.

As a teenager, I grew up with two different models for a man’s relationship to his emotional body. It was either dismissive stoicism or defensive rage. Nothing fully vulnerable in between. So I learned both of those as strategies and yet I could also feel how I needed and wanted to be something different. Yet, to be this ‘different’ I would need to have the ‘same’ confronted and challenged. Enter relationships to very dynamic and emotionally aware women.

If I really wanted to shift this masculine lineage of emotional immaturity, I drew the very thing that would put the defensive, angery, hurt, and shadowy parts of me into the Light of emotional reality. That is not an easy path! There is this-life wounding and conditioning, other-life karmic binds, and collective and archetypal patternings that can be like trying to turn the Titanic. In any given rumble there can be multiple layers that are at play at one time and this does make it challenging.

From my trailing, wounded, and defensive part it can be a lot to hold. From my leading edge and higher self it is just an opportunity to become more fluent with what is really happening without analyzing or without getting so spun out that the ground collapses between us. This is the challenge in any intimate and sacred union.

It has been a stand-by to try to manage and preserve or just plain let go. What happens in the space between? What is possible that has felt impossible? What can we learn about ourselves as a man and woman as well as each other in a union?

This has felt like an unknown in my soul history. Maybe we just forgot our ancient past, and are picking up the pieces on our way back to Wholeness and Oneness through our Two-ness. Hiding the pain and fear of feeling separate and alone. The covering up of feeling rejected, abandoned, or harmful. This we cannot avoid when we are choosing to embody our Divinity. Oneness is not just a bliss state of transcendence, it is the grinding, twisty, gristy road back to transparent intimacy. Not a mastery of it, but a real felt experience of it in its truest form we call Love.

It is through this healing process and paradigm called SoulFullHeart, that my beloved Kasha and I can surf these waves and explore these territories with trust and realness. We have inner guidance as well as outer support through community, and that is a blessing. It is why I am being transparent about my journey so that others can get a sense of what the process is like and where we are able to go within ourselves and with each other. May it be a beacon and a service to you wherever you are on your journey of self-love, self-discovery, and relational healing and maturation.

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Immense Totality Of Love

Love is all around even when it just doesn’t feel like it is. Especially, when it doesn’t feel like it is. Love is found in so many places that we often normalize its existence. In fact, our suffering, grief, and despair are all evidence of this all-invasive Love that cannot be denied for it is, and in, All Things. Our temporal and illusory separation from it is what creates that response.

We will even go so far as to park in our intelligence, our shadow, or the comfort of safety to not feel the depth of our pain of this separation. Love is a patient and yet persistent reminder of our divine and storied human experience. It holds all the wins and the losses. It holds the holy and the unholy.

Everything you are experiencing is part of your ongoing remembrance that you are always held in and by Love. Even the shit and the shame. In the aggression and the repression. In the tragic and the romantic. Love knows you better than you know yourself and if you can lean into its super intelligence and its eternal and infinite care you find that it has always been there. Parts of you have just chosen not to listen or felt that they have not deserved or earned its affection and attention.

Love does not care-take you but It does care FOR you. It cares when you are not safe, not seen, and not felt. It cares when you have lost hope and when you have found bliss. It cares when you have hurt and been hurt. Love will appear to kick your ass when you are down, but that is partly how you receive it and partly a loving shove in its direction without training wheels. How you choose to relate to it is completely up to you. Love does not create victims, it creates heroes and gives inspiration and hope to the victims.

So regardless of your ‘relationship status’, know that you ARE Love, that you ARE loved, and that you can only ever choose to be out of Love’s embrace. It is up to each of us to find where Love does not live within us and shine its glorious light and warmth upon it until we begin to burn brighter with its power and its presence for the whole world to see and feel.

Let Love win when you are ready.

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Sacred Anniversary

It is in deep intimacy with self and with others that we can truly see and feel ourselves. It is where we were hurt and where we can heal and grow. It provides us with the next layers to meet inside and out.

When I was a teenager I was in a back-and-forth, in-and-out relationship that was quite dramatic many times. A karmic tornado in a way. I was working my own insecurities and uncertainties of a teenage boy.

I eventually found myself in a healthier and more intimate union with my former wife, Jelelle. She showed me the gifts of true intimacy and how it can show us things about ourselves we may have never been willing to see until we truly trusted someone enough to do so.

We both found ourselves on different paths at some point yet somehow still connected in heart and soul. It was at this point that I went into a solo phase and felt a resistance to going into romance again. It is where some of my old patterns re-emerged and played out some of my former teenage consciousness that needed to run out before I found myself again.

After some unfortunate yet illuminating events, I set myself on a journey to heal my self-worth and find my true purpose here on this planet. Not so much time passed and I met Kasha on the same path. We were very different in many ways yet also connected in our souls. We found ourselves in a swirl of a romance at first that led to me leaving California and then moving to Canada.

From there we found ourselves on a years-long journey together where we have seen, felt, and moved through many shadow and karmic places together, both in romance and out. I have learned how much I have resisted real and deepening intimacy with myself and others, especially that of a sacred union.

I didn’t even really understand what that meant when I began this journey. I knew I wanted to know myself and feel better about myself but this sacred union journey as lead me to so much more. So much more challenging, scary, and yet alive and magical. I am not anywhere near the same human I was 10 years ago. Nor will I be the same in 10 more.

A year ago today, I crossed the space to offer my heart to Kasha after a long period of separation. It was a risk after what we had been through over the past, yet my heart and soul could only ever see and feel her as the one I wanted and needed to continue this ongoing journey. It was a leap of Love that I had been given another chance to take. Yet this time with more sobriety, realness, courage, and sacredness.

She has experienced myself at my most vulnerable and has showed up with a trust and her own worth to keep us both on sacred and deepening ground as well as the need to fly and unify. This is where I have learned that sacred intimacy IS a way of life and an ongoing process to show up to every single moment. It is the way of the Magdalenes. It is the way of this heart and soul lineage.

I feel all the 2’s this month signifying this Sacred Union path and lineage. It is found within and deepened with Other. I am blessed to have Kasha as my Queen and sacred mate. She leads me to my King, my Lover, and my Sage. She leads me to my most real and powerful self that I could not truly see or feel without her. For that I am eternally grateful.

It is intimacy that is the sacred ground we walk on with those in this community and will continue to espouse, exemplify, and explore. As a man, I know the difficulties to just even loving yourself, let alone another in a mature, healthy, and real way. That self-love is where it all starts and sacred union is where it all leads.

Thank you, Kasha, for this past year, the past years, and all the years that are meant to follow. I am ready for what we are meant to serve and create together as Magdalene mates and Divine Lovers and Leaders.

Happy anniversary, beloved. I love you…❤️🔥🌹

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

A Love Story: Part Three (In The Midst Of Love)

By Raianna Shai

The following writing is one very close to my heart. These are actually lyrics to a song I wrote in that phase of a relationship when it’s been long enough that you know each other inside and out. Your friendship is formed and the romance is alive. I’m not exactly a lyrical genius but it came from my heart and I don’t often write songs!

A relationship based on mutual growth and healing requires a sharing of the innermost tender and vulnerable parts of you. You begin to understand when and why walls come up or what triggers stress and anxiety in them. You notice the little things that you love about them and what makes their heart truly glow. The bond deepens from physical infatuation to deep and growing trust and respect.

This is the time when comfort begins to sink in. You no longer have to work hard to try and win them over, you don’t feel so self conscious about yourself or your habits, you feel a sense of calm and hope that your feelings for them can last. This is the phase that we long for! The fire still burns yet you feel at home within the bond.

We work hard inside and out to get to this place but ultimately, getting here is the easy part. The next part is trickier. Retaining your mutual growth, passion, respect and love for each other is the truly difficult part. Choosing everyday to understand yourself so that you can continue to be vulnerable, honest and real together. I’ll talk more about this on my next post 💞

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A Love Story: Part Three
In The Midst Of Love

You make me and my
Whole heart smile when you
Look at me that way

You make me wanna be a
Better person, each and
Every single day

I know that It’s not
Easy being here
But I’m glad that you are

I wanna make you
Happy dear because you
Shine just like the stars

~ Chorus ~
I’ll hold your inner child’s hand
As we run under the moon
I’ll soothe your guard’s worried looks
And soon he’ll make me swoon

Your punisher is next
And him I’ll love the most
Your feminine will help me show
How our hearts can be so close

~~~

The moment you feel
Lost and lonely know that
You are not alone

Even when the
Earth starts shakin look
Inside to find you’ve grown

I know that it’s not
Easy being here
But it’s worth a try

I wanna make me
Happy dear because our
Love can reach the sky

~ Chorus ~

And when we start to touch the soul
Our bond will deepen evermore
My dream is to get close to you
Be intimate and break right through

~ Chorus ~

Love,
Raianna Shai

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free consultations and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

A Love Story: Part Two (Falling In Love)

By Raianna Shai

The next part of this story is the part that we tend to spend our lives looking for: falling in love. The new and exciting rush of meeting someone that has an equal interest in us as we do in them. A new pair of eyes to see you, new ears to hear your passions and desires, new hands to touch the lonely and unloved parts of you inside and out. It sparks a hope in us that nothing like love can. We hope that this person will be the one we can grow with, who will understand us and treat us the way we’ve always dreamed of being treated.

More importantly than this outside love is what it sparks inside of us. It can allow us to love ourselves more than ever before while also bringing up our deepest insecurities. We begin by showing the brightest and shiniest parts of ourselves, hoping that will win them over. The way we enter a relationship is so telling of where we are at on the inside.

I remember the moment I wrote this poem, sitting under a tree staring out at the water. I felt elated and overcome by pure hope and love. I looked up at the leaves and they looked brighter than usual, almost as if they were glowing. In that moment I remembered feeling this way before. And then I remembered it fading and eventually leaving me completely. But it didn’t matter. Feeling it again reminded me of why we continue to search for this feeling over and over again even when it leads to pain or heartbreak.

This feeling is a reminder of what we are capable of feeling, with or without another person. All someone else can do is illuminate what’s possible in our own hearts and souls. Each relationship gets us closer and closer to this feeling of ecstasy and love inside of ourselves and without another person. We can feel this way with the divine, with our own inner parts, with our inner sacred union.

Without heartbreak, shadow and pain we cannot understand what it truly feels like to be in love and peace from the inside out. 💛

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A Love Story: Part Two
Falling In Love

This feeling of falling in love
With you and
With every part of me
Is like coming home

This is what my soul knows
What it’s been waiting to come back to
To feeling nourished
To feeling loved from the inside out
To loving the outside in

I see your face and smile
And even if it doesn’t work out
This feeling right here, right now
Is worth it all
This is what it’s all about

Freezing this moment and remembering
This is what we work so hard to get back to
This is why we dive deep
This is why we feel our shadow

Love,
Raianna Shai
SoulFullHeart Way Of Life

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free consultations and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

A Love Story: Part One (Heartbreak & Healing)

By Raianna Shai

I woke up this morning with the urge to create through writing but couldn’t quite figure out what I wanted to write about. I started scrolling through the notes in my phone and found several writings I wrote over the past two years that really brought me back to the moment and phase they were written. Interestingly, I found 6 pieces that seemed to represent a cycle from beginning to end and back to the beginning again.

This cycle in particular represented the phase of the ending of a relationship, to the beginning of a new one, to the end once again. It felt like a really beautiful arc of letting in and letting go and everything that goes on in between. I felt myself recognizing the patterns of relationships and realizing that even when things come to an end, they are so worth the journey in and out.

This isn’t just true for romantic relationships but for careers, geographical moves, finding your soul purpose, healing a trauma and moving into your next phase of growth. As humans, we continually go through cycles in every part of our lives and the only thing we can do is become conscious of them. After a death of a phase you may wonder, what’s the point? But looking back you may notice how much has changed from beginning to end.

Falling in love is beautiful, messy, painful, exhilarating and everything in between but just like any other death and rebirth, it’s so important in facilitating our growth. Each layer brings new realizations and understanding of what it means to find love and purpose in these human and divine lives of ours. We cannot exist without cycles, for without them we cannot understand the gift of being human.

To show what I mean I thought I would share these 6 writings as a marker of each layer that these cycles can illuminate and provide. Particularly in the context of relationships. The first one I felt to share is both the ending of one relationship and the beginning of another. Marking the phase of overlapping death and rebirth ❤️

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A Love Story: Part One
Heartbreak & Healing

I sit here
Gathering the pieces of my heart
Trying to glue them back together
The mismatched edges
And sharp corners
Almost fitting perfectly
And then not at all

You wait there
Patiently watching my broken pieces
That long for that perfect edge’s embrace
Slowly come together
All the while knowing
That one day I will come

I will come with just enough pieces
To hold together the contents of my love
When I am still chipped, but no longer broken

You are there
With your chipped pieces
Already glued together
With as much accuracy as truth can allow

And we come together
Look at that!
Our broken pieces create a mosaic of lost loves and tearful goodbyes
Not perfect, but beautiful all the same

Love,
Raianna Shai
SoulFullHeart Way Of Life

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer for SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free consultations and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Intimacy As A Spiritual Path

Intimacy is our next frontier. At least it has been mine for the last 10 years. Intimacy with Self, the Divine, and Other. As I continue up this ascension path, I have realized how non-intimate I have been most of my life. When you start to really get to the nuts and bolts, it is quite stark how this is true for all of us.

It is vulnerable to be intimate. To see and be seen in all our textures both ‘good’ and not-so-good. When I lived on my own and in a community of One, I could avoid at lot of things and I was blind to a lot of things as well. It was up to me to challenge myself. That is a good thing too, but when it comes organically you really see yourself (or selves) in more authentic ways.

Kasha and I have found ourselves in a very tiny place before we move on to Portugal in July with our soul fam. It has brought up a lot to be with in our union. Edges and irritations that are possible to avoid when in a larger area. This is a birth canal for us. It can be a deepening or completing when you get real at each moment.

The lack of space brings us in closer contact with our inner truths and needs. Do these align, or do they separate? This is true in all moments in conscious, sacred union. Through this I get to see myself more authentically as well as my own relationship to the Divine. Without that we would be navigating this thing like a boat at sea without a rudder or sails.

Intimacy with all three brings us to new dimensions of our humanity and our spirituality. Our Humanality. In years past I would have sought more solitude, but now I feel different. I need Others. I need my beloved community. I need Kasha. I need the Beloved. I need intimacy. They are the portals into New Earth. Into a new me.

This is not an easy path. I have lot more to learn, discover, and embody. I am grateful for that, for her, for community, for Love. I realize that intimacy IS a spiritual path. It is an initiation to our Humanality. I am here to walk that path as well as serve that path. I am a student and teacher of the path of sacred intimacy. I am both surprised and honored by that. This is my journey and curriculum.

For those that are seeking more intimacy in your life’s journey please reach out. We are all here to support you along the way. I do offer a free 45-minute intro call to see how we may do that.

Here’s to your sacred intimate ascension journey.

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