Navigating The Void Between Letting Go & Letting In

by Kasha Rokshana

You can’t truly come ‘home’ to yourself, your soul, in a whole NEW way unless you leave the ‘home’ you’ve known. The ‘home’ that has so often felt both comfortable and uncomfortable. The nest that has become prickly in order to help you find your wings and take flight into the higher dimensions you’re meant to be and truly LIVE in… in your relationships, in your money-earning/exchange with the world, in your soul purpose expression, in your soul family connections, and in your physical, emotional, spiritual, and mental bodies too. 

Letting go to let in is a very real and ongoing process and it’s so often NOT easy to be with. It’s very sobering to suddenly realize that your soul is feeling more and more ready to say ‘yes’ to the alive choice points in front of you, which may involve saying ‘no’ to something that was once very precious to you. 

For me, that’s been the process of letting go of my sacred union with Gabriel, grieving a ground that was once good but needed to dissolve for both our sakes and for the sake of our deepest growth and needs. This is the recent process of letting go into the unknown for me, yet over the last decade of my life this has meant saying ‘goodbye’ to birth family connections that no longer had a ground of shared resonance, same thing with old friendships… not to mention different geographies that once held the frequency of ‘home’.

Letting go requires a lot of courage for you and parts of you, as it asks you to enter the void of the unknown for a time… but the inward-turning of that phase is so sacred, I’ve found. It’s a time of true death and rebirth as you continue to rediscover yourself without the anchors that shifted at some point from healthily grounding to now being dampening. Maybe in some ways they were always dampening, actually… yet to begin to recognize this pattern too takes so much courage in and of itself, and so much readiness from the parts of you who have been afraid to imagine, let alone begin to see or be guided by, anything else that could be possible. 

I’ve found that the ‘void’ space in between the letting go and letting in is full of grief, yet also full of every gift that comes with truly feeling that grief. It is filled by creativity, by a new sense of you, by a blossoming flower garden within you that is being watered by every tear you shed and by the love within you and with the Divine that answers that grief. 

May you feel so much love surrounding and moving with you as you continue your own journey of letting go, of moving onward by going inward…

Love,

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Challenges Of Sacred Intimacy

Last night I helped a beautiful heart and soul sort out some deep reactions to a soulmate of theirs. When you are on the outside of it and not taking ‘sides’, you can really get to the root of an issue pretty quickly with compassion, curiosity, and a little bit of loving challenge.

But when you are the one in it, well, that is a different story. It is hard to see all the ‘blind spots’ or what we would call a ‘fusion’. I know these all too well in my years in and out of sacred romance. We get caught in our woundedness and things take on a whole new meaning to the part(s) of us fused to that wounding.

We see, feel, and hear things differently. We don’t feel ourselves and we don’t see the Other as themselves. It is a fusion/projection soup that distorts our reality and keeps us from the deeper vulnerability of what lies underneath. I have been at the mercy of this situation many times.

It is so hard to turn the corner on it by yourself. Not impossible but very challenging. Many times we need that outside reflection, query, and loving challenge to see what is happening in a larger context. It does need to be held by one that you trust to be heartfully honest as well as insightful. Now, we may not be ‘right’ all the time, but the deeper trust is that if something is off, there is enough integrity to own it and be responsible to it.

It is one thing to do it as a third-party, but quite another to do it in real time relationship. This is where the rubber meets the road when it comes to our deeper growth and healing. I still have a lot to learn and meet within myself when it comes to sacred intimacy. I am humbled and amazed by those that are in the thick of it, or covet it as their spiritual and healing path.

Between my own experiences and those I have been honored with providing space for, I get to see and feel where I too have been hiding my own vulnerability as well as my truth. We may be so good at reading out that the vulnerability takes a back seat. It is no small task to turn that one around where the tender heart leads and the intuitions follow. That is where we meet our humanity and our sanity.

I learned a lot from this exchange and my personal experience. I learned that women are amazing and brave at working through their emotions and finding their way to the heart. It is hard-wired in them somehow. For us men, it is more like a software program that we are still trying to suss out the deeper code and integrate it into our internal ‘Mother’ board. I believe we are doing the best we can with what we have even if it seems we are not trying at all.

I have also learned that we are just scratching the surface of what it means to be authentically and relationally human. I am getting how spirituality is our container and context, while our relational humanity is our teacher and playground. We are but kindergartners on this path we call ‘ascension’. This somehow makes me feel a humbled compassion for all that we have been through and all we have yet to learn and arise into.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Ending Our Sacred Union Dance

By Kasha Rokshana

Sometimes you have to go back into something you thought was over, only to complete it deeper…

My heart aches to be writing about this, but for the last month, Gabriel and I have been separating and completing our Sacred Union romance. We have been in a deep bond for the last decade and have had such profound experiences of both sacred romance and sacred friendship along the way. Each time we’ve gone back into romance together, we’ve entered as new beings, arising anew from the fires of the inner work we’ve been so dedicated to. And, each time we’ve completed we feel like different beings yet again… with more to look at and feel inside and cycles to honour and complete between us too.

As Gabriel shared in his unique way through his beautiful writing which was such a stunning tribute to our USness, we’ve had many different chapters and climbed many different mountains together, inside and out. Without this man, I wouldn’t be me… without having had our connection and to be so blessed with our draw to be around each other and support each other unendingly, I wouldn’t be the same.

It’s been a really tender process for me this past month, to feel my Queen inside of me letting go of a dream… letting go of serving together from an overflowing Sacred Union bond, of what felt like ideals being realized and dreams truly coming true, of in some ways trying much too hard to make this bond with him fit a blueprint of what I feel I truly need and desire to experience in sacred romance in this lifetime and have in many others.

That last piece has taken a while to digest and I’m still digesting it. I’m still struck by my own soul’s clarity about that which has suddenly emerged. And at the same time, I’m SO honoured by what I did get to experience by Gabriel’s side… The tender glances and romantic touches; the way he would care for me when I wasn’t well and I would take care of him; the way we would check-in daily and start our days with each other in our hearts; holding our podcast, the SoulFullHeart Current, as a sacred expression of our union. This has all made it so much harder to let go… but the unfulfilled pieces for both of us need time to be felt and we both have so much more to feel inside as we sift through the ashes of what we experienced (and didn’t) together and inside ourselves while in this bond.

I think letting go of goodness is always the hardest, isn’t it? Knowing you had something SO good, that could have really lasted a whole lifetime (and probably had in other lifetimes), and yet to still feel that crazy-making piece about it not being enough somehow, no matter where we’ve gone inside or what we’ve felt together, or what soul territory was activated and explored. I feel this craziness in moments while letting go of his hand, this dance, his wonderful way of holding me, his enormous heart that I got to experience so intimately. It feels crazy but the surrender deepens still and the Divine within me answers it all with yet more truths and clarity, more being unveiled that couldn’t be seen before, and more arising into who I’m meant to be but couldn’t become while romantically tied to him, for reasons that are still yet to be understood.

I’m grateful, so grateful, for this experience with Gabriel. I feel even my most agitated aspects/parts are grateful too. He gave me a way to see me that I couldn’t have let in any other way and he gifted me with an experience of sacred romance that will always be treasured and tucked away into my heart. I’m also grateful for the bond we’ve always had and may always have that has been here this whole time and that we’ll keep exploring outside of romance.

I love you so much, Gabriel. And I always will. Thank you for everything…


Love,
Kasha ♥️

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

SoulFullHeart Museletter: July 15, 2022

It’s a sacred time of new beginnings, challenging endings, and fertile reboots too. One aspect of our lives which is experiencing this cycle is our relationships, especially perhaps our romantic ones. Current energies moving through are supporting whatever process we need to be in around this and around our own individual Sacred Union paths if that is something our souls are called to embody and inhabit.

Featured this week is a piece from Kasha Rokshana, who shares about her own journey with Sacred Union and offers what she’s learned about this very humbling soul and heart path so far. She also invites any women who feel they resonate with Sacred Union, to join in on the upcoming women’s group call that will be hosted by herself and Jelelle Awen this coming Sunday, July 17th at 5pm WEST/12pm EDT/9am PDT. You can attend live or receive the recording by donation. 

Raphael and Jelelle Awen will also be offering a Sacred Union-focused group call for men and women this month. This call will be on July 24th at at 5pm WEST/12pm EDT/9am PDT and it will also be by donation to attend live or receive the recording. 

You can find out more information about these activating and powerful group calls here: soulfullheart.org/events

On this Museletter you can also find a video invitation from Jelelle and Kasha where they outline a bit of where take you during the women’s call and invite you to join them. 

Gabriel and Kasha have a new episode of the SoulFullHeart Current Podcast this week. There also two very special podcast recordings featuring Raphael and Jelelle on the AJ Roberts Show and also Soulogy with Todd Medina, which were very exciting opportunities for them and for SoulFullHeart!

There are several new articles and audio blogs in this issue, including energy updates and personal process sharings, as always!

You can find our current Museletter here: https://mailchi.mp/e9843738b119/soulfullheart-museletter-the-catalytic-sacred-union-journey

If you’d like to subscribe to receive our Museletters and other announcements in your own inbox, you can do so on our website: soulfullheart.org, or you can scroll to the bottom of this issue and click “subscribe”. 

Much love from all of us!

~ the SoulFullHeart Community

Being With The Ongoing & Catalytic Sacred Union Journey

by Kasha Rokshana

Part of me used to relate to Sacred Union as a sort of ‘ultimate destination’, wrapping it in romantic ideals and not necessarily understanding how deep of a process it truly is to be in it, let alone draw it to you. It was a feeling that it was some sort of ultimate reward for inner work well done, answering a deep soul-based longing to experience this sort of visceral reunion with a Divine counterpart.

In my lived-inexperience of it though, I’m getting that it’s actually an ongoing journey and a powerful and catalytic one at that. Though drawing a Sacred Union to yourself does show you a ‘graduation’ step (if your soul truly needs and desires to be in one), with every graduation comes a new beginning… and within Sacred Union it sure feels like it’s a near-constant feeling of completing and beginning again, with self, the Divine, and of course another soul or several along the way.

Preparing for and being in Sacred Union seems to not be so much about knowing anything, having mastery over anything, or really understanding what it’s truly about. The unexpected is meant to find you and bring you back to you as well as the Divine Beloved while in intimate connection with another soul.

Sacred Union seems to not be about anything predictable or controllable, including if it lasts for the rest of your lifetime, if it has its phase(s) of stops and starts, completions of old grounds between you and the embers of a new one being born, or if it needs to complete entirely.

Divine Surrender seems to be THE invitation… it’s a romantic bond where the unpredictable is held in the arms and heart of the Divine, wanting you to have the sometimes tough growth edges and mirrors of your goodness too (sometimes equally as challenging to let in) that seem to be offered in this lush ground of discovery. Plus, the Divine wants to express in an overflow of the love between your souls in order to SERVE love to and with others.

The Divine Beloved acts and moves through both of you, encouraging you to wade into the deeper waters of real love… a multi-dimensional love that doesn’t just want to move in with you, but wants very much to rearrange your furniture.

It’s a love that, when allowed to catalyze your growth, offers so many waves of bliss and laughter, along with so many mutual tears, both this-life and existential fears percolating and expressing, and sometimes explosive moments of truth-telling. Indeed, it IS the Divine expressing in sacred human form, learning about all the edges, swerves, and deep-dives there are to experience along with the highest highs imaginable…

There is no perfect way to be in Union… and perhaps that’s what makes it such a beautiful and enticing growth path!

As women, we seem to be especially activated around the desire for Sacred Union and everything it entails… craving the growth, the bliss, the love, the transaction ground that keeps deepening, and of course the yummy sexual grounds that can open out too. I’ve had quite a journey of my own to be able to even remotely let it in, and my journey continues to deepen in sometimes very surprising ways.

It’s such a sacred path that is always unfolding it seems, both inside and out. There is no real “end game” where you can feel like you’ve totally arrived, or so it seems to me so far. It’s actually far more humbling than that and even though the humbling can feel like looking into a mirror from a very awkward angle, I wouldn’t actually trade the mess, or the bliss, for the world.

Join Jelelle Awen and I for our women’s group call this coming Sunday, July 17th @ 5pm WEST (Lisbon)/12pm EDT/9am PDT where we will share about our journeys with Sacred Union and lead a guided meditation to feel and/or activate your own. It’s by donation and already looks like it’s shaping up to be a VERY warm womb-room! I look forward to meeting/feeling you there with us if you feel drawn. Feel free to DM me if you have any questions. For more info on the call, visit soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

You can donate for the call on our Shop: soulfullheart.org/shop or via PayPal: paypal.me/jelelleawen and we will email you the link to join. If you donate via PayPal, make sure you let us know your current email address so we can contact you. The average donation amount is around $15 CAD yet you can donate anything that feels good to you.

Lots of love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Sacred Union Activation Group Call July 24th With Raphael and Jelelle Awen

I’m so looking forward to this next group call with my beloved Raphael…transmitting and sharing from the grounds of our sacred union to you…for whatever needs to be activated, felt, illuminated and coded around Divine partnership in your NOW. Hope you can join us! Details below:

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Sacred Union with a partner in monogamous commitment to each other offers a potential frequency of Divine Self experience in the physical unlike any other.

Your partner mirrors both your leading edge of gifts/Divine essence and your trailing edge of wounds/pains/suffering/shadow. This unique combination offers a ground of healing and transformation that allows for multiple lifetime clearings in one lifetime. Both the goodness bliss of union and the karmic mess of separation are pushed up and illuminated, and offered.

More Sacred Union counterparts/twins/pair bonds are coming together now in this Ascension timeline than ever before, as many of us signed up to be together in this life in the physical for service of the Divine and the Ascension process. The reunion of counterparts is a template for all souls of what is possible from within them and with the Divine.

Actually navigating Sacred Union in a transactable and intimate way over a longer phase of time is where the true challenge comes in for those who choose this path. So much is activated and triggered by the bond, including deep karmic binds from many lifetimes in the Matrix together, that these energies often flood the relationship space and overwhelm both partners. One partner usually runs from how triggering this connection is, while the other one holds the pain and wounding of yet another lifetime of ‘not getting to be together.’

Or the couple may be together more in spirit, yet not in the physical as humans even living long distance, as combining the intense soul activations with physical reality is not quite possible yet. Launching the Sacred Union beyond this blissful honeymoon phase takes you into this ground of embodied heart and soul growth, instead of suffering over the blissful introduction to something that now feels ‘lost forever’.

In a two-hour group call for men and women on Sunday, July 24th at 5:00/17:00pm GMT/12:00pm EDT/9:00am PDT, SoulFullHeart Teachers, Facilitators and sacred union mates Raphael and Jelelle Awen will offer a Sacred Union activation for those currently in relationship, those in separation from their mate, and those who are single. We will share our own personal journeys and process of being in Sacred Union, both the bliss and mess of that experience and how we have navigated through it. We will also offer how the SoulFullHeart healing process of conscious access to this-life parts and other lifetime aspects/soul dynamics allows for a deeper transaction ground of intimacy starting from within you so that you can continue to show up for the bond in a relational way and digest all that is triggered by it.

In the guided meditation/transmission portion of the call, we will create a bridge to your Sacred Union relationship to feel it as it is currently transacting, either in current translation with your mate, in separation, or from within you. You’ll be able to sense energies of resistance, fear, and pain that may be in the space and any parts of you that hold them. We will also open up a bridge for you to connect your twin/pairbond at the original higher dimensional source with your mate (known or not) which offers an inspiring flood of love. Divine guides will join us to hold a safe, higher vibe space for this exploration and offer inspiring transmissions of Infinite love and light. We will also repeat affirmations as a group that provide a new coding of sacred union experience within you and with your mate.

If you are currently in a Sacred Union relationship, this transmission will support you to deepen into intimacy within you and with your partner. It will also bridge you to a new way to process your experience and get more space from any reactive patterns that are occurring.

If you are currently single or a pairbond in conscious separation (meaning you have met your mate yet aren’t in relationship together right now), this group call will give you a bigger context for which to digest Sacred Union. You will also bring in new codes to help any suffering grounds that have been occurring around it.

You can receive these frequencies live with us (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us about what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from us (this is totally optional). Plus, you’ll be able to take in and receive sharings from other souls (both women and men) in the call, which is a powerful activation of its own!

This group is open to the public and to anyone over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy/money exchange of whatever donation you feel to give ($11 USD/$15 CAD is the usual amount people offer us).

You can offer your donation via our shop at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal at paypal.me/jelelleawen and we will send you the zoom link to attend and the recording afterwards. If you purchase via paypal, please include your email in the note section so that we can send you the zoom link and the recording afterwards.

To get a sense of our energy as a couple, tune into a recent interview we did on Todd Medina’s SoulSpeaks5D Show: https://youtu.be/8H-aqFVb3c4

More info at soulfullheart.org/events and https://www.facebook.com/events/512740140602713

Hope you can join us for this powerful exploration into sacred union grounds from our lived in ground of it!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Note if you are drawn to this call and a woman, you might like to come to our Sacred Union Activation Women’s Group call on Sunday, July 17th with Kasha and I. More info at https://www.facebook.com/events/1017406959143968 and soulfullheart.org/events

Moving Beyond Fear-Based ‘Tolerance’ Of Dissonance During Awakenings & Growth

by Kasha Rokshana

“Tolerance” is really such a terrible word. I don’t particularly like it. Because it makes parts of us feel like they are obliged to let things go that really they shouldn’t have to. It’s one of the most misinformed tenants of modern society. Tolerance is not compassion or understanding, let alone love, and it actually typically comes from fear, especially the fear of you yourself not being ‘tolerated’ let alone actually felt or understood.

If you find yourself tolerating a dead marriage, a dead relationship to birth family, a dead connection to your livelihood, rather than seeking and humbly taking risks for the sake of aliveness, then you’re likely in a place of having been coached, told, conditioned into feeling like as long as you’re tolerating these dead things, you’re ‘doing something right’ and dare I say, even reaching the carrot of ‘enlightenment’.

No one is entitled to your tolerance, not even the parts of you that ask for it. Just as people on the outside of you basically tell you ‘don’t look over here, you have to accept me as I AM’, parts of you can do that too. They don’t want you to see their manipulative strategies or ways of controlling the people in your life that you don’t resonate with so that they don’t have to experience real and true growth and what actually COULD become possible in ALL of your relationships.

Tolerance becomes intolerance, sometimes quickly, as awakenings happen and these awakenings lead quickly to depression and anxiety when this intolerance is not honoured or felt. You are changing. And if you’re a big soul, you’ve likely felt how quickly you change and shift at times and are oftentimes tiptoeing around your relationships rather than letting your awakenings truly ride with you into a new life phase.

Death and rebirth is always a part of awakening, whether it’s the kind of death and rebirth that is very, very dark for a time or the kind that is actually much easier to move through. I can assure you though, that if parts of you still buy the 3D Matrix or New Age Spirituality Matrix shit of ‘you have to find a way to make this work because that’s what real love does’, then you are in for more difficulty, not less, whether it manifests in physical illness, emotional waves you fall under rather than feel able to come to terms with (note, I didn’t say ‘control’), or a feeling of existential crisis that keeps growing until parts of you can no longer stuff it down.

Awakening, truly expanding into your heart and soul and letting them lead, is not about tolerating anything or anyone. Yet, as this intolerance is felt and honoured, true compassion can be felt as well as authentic passion. You change, and even if the people around you can’t, you are empowered to navigate your way through that and find new people to be around, even if you need a phase of being ‘alone’ (which is never alone, truly, for the Divine is ALWAYS there and sometimes it takes the lonely feelings to actually drop into Its arms at last).

If you truly have a penchant for your deepest growth, you’ll find a way to feel what you’ve been allowing that actually doesn’t feel good to you. Our gut honesty is what brings us the most growth and the most Divine alignment, even in all its messiness and absolute dearth of glamour. There is NO such thing as an ‘ugly cry’, especially when what you’re feeling is the grief of what perhaps once worked, what once was beautiful and resonant, and you’re feeling into letting it go for the sake of all involved…

I love you. Keep feeling. Keep moving beyond tolerance and you WILL find your truth, whether you end up needing to move into deep life change right away or not. Your awakenings will deepen and your experience of your soul will too, even in all of the waves of exquisite sadness, necessary rage, and openings into bittersweet bliss.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Energy Update: Beltane/Eclipse Opening Karmic Metasoul Timeline Portals In Sacred Union

By Jelelle and Raphael Awen

Energy Update: My goodness, wow, there is a lot to feel and coming up in response to/activated by all these celestial ‘events’ and energies!

For the last two days, I’ve been in a deep karmic ‘tunnel’, feeling, seeing, and experiencing energies from another lifetime heavily overlaid on my own and just BEing with them and the soul aspect who feels them. Allowing lots of tears, physical tiredness and need for rest has been so important, plus lots of processing/sharing time with my mate Raphael too.

This Metasoul aspect of mine (as we call them rather than ‘past life’) is named Lorna, a powerful Avalonian High Priestess who walked away from her position for many reasons in her lifetime, yet mostly to follow the call of her heart in mateship with Raphael’s metasoul aspect ( a Christian king named Lionel). Of course, this union was ‘forbidden’ and they hid in the shadows with their affair….longing for each other yet not able to ‘be together.’ This is a reoccurring theme for Raphael and I over many, many lifetimes and what we came here to heal together this life. The priestess and the king, being in different ‘worlds’ yet our twin/pairbond calling us to connect and heal the separation wound there.

Being able to be together and be in our power/gift expression together is the opportunity we’ve chosen in this life. It is A LOT to let in and even nearly 14 years later, we are still in this process together of inhabiting this.

As is the case in truly non-compartmentalized sacred union in which we are in constant physical/emotional/mental connection together yet also individuating, this invitation to have and be in what we haven’t gotten to be in before brings up all kinds of things to feel such as grief, distrust, insecurity, fear of loss, desire to control/grasp, unworthiness and much more.

During this powerful Beltane/Union passage and supported by the Black Moon eclipse energies (along with the recent planetary alignment and ongoing solar flares), Raphael and I went into this lifetime together (which isn’t in the ‘past’ at all yet occurring in the Quantum Now), dropping into the energies of Lionel and Lorna and facilitated a feeling/bridging to them. They ‘get’ to be together in their lifetime too finally and get to lead together, seeing where that takes them. Their union fortifies and supports the union between Raphael and I too, opening up a gift exchange. Left unfelt, their resistances and fear creates blocks to intimacy and deepening for Raphael and I.

I feel to share this tender process as it is the best example I can offer of the kinds of energies you may be experiencing and emotions too, yet may not always know or feel a ‘way’ to be with them. There is a massive lifting of the veils happening where the previous amnesia we have had about other lifetimes and soul themes is dissolving. Whether you are in sacred union right now or single, your soul is inviting you to heal the separation wounds within you and in your experience in order to move into more union on all levels.

I do love this SoulFullHeart process so very much for what it allows to be opened up and felt in a specific way that also has such depth and possibility to it. If you’d like to hear more about our process recently as a couple and more about SoulFullHeart as well and if it might be a deepening place for you in community and sessions, you can join Raphael and I in a livestream on FB on Beltane, Sunday, May 1st at 5:00pm GMT/12:00pm EDT/9am PDT. The recording will be available on our feeds to watch anytime along with here on this blog and on our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel.

We also share more about our personal processes and respond to your movements/sharings too on our private online community called the SoulFullHeart Portal….creating a safe community space online to support each other, deepen, challenge, and grow together. You are welcome to join us there for a $22.22 USD monthly membership as an exchange with us: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

The energies of the eclipse bring up and out these timelines/lifetimes and it’s HOW we are with them that can make a big difference in our experience and what we can leverage from them. I so love truly being able to dialogue with, feel, and grow with these soul aspects and parts of myself, over years sometimes, and in an ever deepening way. Not just in a one time regression session, yet in a truly relational way that is ongoing.

Healing the separations that create and feed our fear…moving into more union within and together…THIS is why we are here in this life where so much more is possible than ever before!

And Raphael’s comment on this post:

“This must sound like a complete dream to so many, a real dream, but a dream nonetheless, to have this kind of feeling access to other timelines.

It might feel quite ‘attained’, but my personal experience is more about the guts it takes to be willing to feel and digest all there is to feel in these karmic bonds and binds, and how they are expressing in the current of our current. It did take deep process and choice, but for a soul who’s ready to go here, my truth is that you will be surprised how immediate the openings are and how you will be graced and paced by love and the divine to hold it all.

Feeling this pair bond yesterday took me into some deep tunnels of despair feeling Lionel, which resonates so deeply with the despair inside so many men right now. It’s all connected and it’s all asking to be answered.

If you’re feeling that you need to stay on top of things if you’re going to be a resource to others, I’d invite you to think again. We are in this ride together and there are things to feel that feel like hell, and it is through those hells that you get relieved of the pretense of being something you are not and it is through those hells that you get truly empowered to be of useful and profound service for what is at hand now.

There’s lots more shit to come and unless we drop our roles, we’re going to just plain suffer deeper and deeper. If we are ready to go deeper, there is, I’m convinced (much of the time) that there is so much goodness awaiting us. That is not only my hope, but my daily ongoing experience.

I am so glad to be in the resolution of these timelines with you, Jelelle, and all of our discovered Metasouls. I believe that is what all of us are doing one way or another in the long run, it’s just about how much someone is ready to feel now and at what pace that makes the difference in our joy/suffering.

I know there is a TON of divine support to all of us who are willing to feel and heal on this level.”

Much love to you during this illuminating passage!

Jelelle Awen

More info about sessions, online community, events, books/writings at soulfullheart.org.

The Arising Of The May King

The Horned God comes into union with The May Queen. He sets his sights, opens his heart, and commits to the bond through his own need for growth and creation. A powerful and sacred coming together that begins on the inside and extends on the outside.

I did not have much connection to this day in my past, but it as become an increasing profound and beautiful day of honoring the masculine and feminine sacred union as well as our relationship to Mother Gaia and Her gifts of Spring and Summer. It has triggered feelings of inadequacy in my past with Kasha as she has had such a deep experience and relationship to it. Yet, as with all triggers, they are gateways to our deepest fears and rewards.

I can meet the wounded masculine within and hold space for his healing and arising into his own May King. The masculine that can show up to all of the ebbs and flows of the stillness and fire of the Divine Feminine May Queen. The King that can be in his own truth as well as meet his own shadow and vulnerable parts that are still in hiding and integration. This is no small task. It is a life-long journey that is both challenging and rewarding.

I have been fortunate to have been in intimate relationship as well as community to help reflect and mirror both my arising King and wounded man. They are always in orbit of each other and offer both solace and gifts. On this day, honor them both, as well as the feminine within me that has guided me to let in the union I share with my beloved, Kasha. This had to start from the inside from me to me first. I had to feel ready and worthy enough to go into the depths of vulnerable intimacy, as challenging and scary it can be.

I felt to share a poem I wrote years ago as a call to my Queen before I knew that it was Kasha all along. Many Beltane blessings to all both in and out of union:

Come with me, my love
Down the spiral staircase of my heart
Into the garden of my humanity

Bear witness to it succulence
It’s uniqueness
It’s burned and broken places

Come with me, my queen
Along the paths of weathered words
And the trails of new beginnings
Water the wilted with your loving care
Ignite the growth with your fiery passion

Will you follow me into the unknown?
Into the cauldron of our being?
Will you dance with me among the golden lilies
As well as the prickly cactus and forest ablaze?
Will you join with me in the exploration of our sacred sexuality?

The slow caress of my hands
Upon your beautifully sculpted, divinely feminine curves
The electric sparks that leap off our tongues
Setting fire to our chakras one by one
When we reach the gateway of our heavenly union

Will you come with me?
May I come into you?
Into your atmosphere where you shine and fly?
Into your hidden and protected caverns?
The places where few have been allowed to tread
Into your luscious and sacred garden?

I will not pluck your flowers
Or step on your sprawling vines
I will sit patiently for you to join me.
To share with me you tales
Your stories of adventure
….of agony
….of strength
….and weakness

I will etch them into my heart
Weave them into the tapestry of us
Though they belong to you and you alone
They share a sacred place in between you and me

Come with me, by beloved
As far as we both were meant to go
To unravel the mystery of who we were meant to be.

May this May Day open you out to the gifts of this season and these celestial constellations,

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Emotional And Relational Maturation Over Mastery

All intimate relationships are sacred. They are meant to offer us something about ourselves that we would not see or feel otherwise. For me it has been the ongoing challenge of being real, transparent, and staying in the room when a part of me may want to defend, hide, or in the past, just give up. Intimacy is not an easy spiritual path, yet it is the most illuminating, growthful, and rewarding in my experience.

As a man, I find this generally true for many other men as well. The last frontier of our spiritual maturation is our emotional maturation. Notice I did not say, mastery. I feel any attempt to ‘master’ our emotions comes from a part of us that is looking to control or avoid something real and messy. I can admit this has been true for me. But messy does not mean chaotic, like a part of me may feel at times when things get real and on the edge or precipice of the unknown. It just means we are sorting out a ton of wounding that has been held in so many hidden pockets of our heart and soul.

As a teenager, I grew up with two different models for a man’s relationship to his emotional body. It was either dismissive stoicism or defensive rage. Nothing fully vulnerable in between. So I learned both of those as strategies and yet I could also feel how I needed and wanted to be something different. Yet, to be this ‘different’ I would need to have the ‘same’ confronted and challenged. Enter relationships to very dynamic and emotionally aware women.

If I really wanted to shift this masculine lineage of emotional immaturity, I drew the very thing that would put the defensive, angery, hurt, and shadowy parts of me into the Light of emotional reality. That is not an easy path! There is this-life wounding and conditioning, other-life karmic binds, and collective and archetypal patternings that can be like trying to turn the Titanic. In any given rumble there can be multiple layers that are at play at one time and this does make it challenging.

From my trailing, wounded, and defensive part it can be a lot to hold. From my leading edge and higher self it is just an opportunity to become more fluent with what is really happening without analyzing or without getting so spun out that the ground collapses between us. This is the challenge in any intimate and sacred union.

It has been a stand-by to try to manage and preserve or just plain let go. What happens in the space between? What is possible that has felt impossible? What can we learn about ourselves as a man and woman as well as each other in a union?

This has felt like an unknown in my soul history. Maybe we just forgot our ancient past, and are picking up the pieces on our way back to Wholeness and Oneness through our Two-ness. Hiding the pain and fear of feeling separate and alone. The covering up of feeling rejected, abandoned, or harmful. This we cannot avoid when we are choosing to embody our Divinity. Oneness is not just a bliss state of transcendence, it is the grinding, twisty, gristy road back to transparent intimacy. Not a mastery of it, but a real felt experience of it in its truest form we call Love.

It is through this healing process and paradigm called SoulFullHeart, that my beloved Kasha and I can surf these waves and explore these territories with trust and realness. We have inner guidance as well as outer support through community, and that is a blessing. It is why I am being transparent about my journey so that others can get a sense of what the process is like and where we are able to go within ourselves and with each other. May it be a beacon and a service to you wherever you are on your journey of self-love, self-discovery, and relational healing and maturation.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.