Embrace Your Humanity As You Embody Your Divinity

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“Your willingness to fully embrace your humanity is your ability to fully embody your divinity”

As human beings we are connected so viscerally to our feelings. In this dimension we experience a wide range of them that bring us to the height of ecstacy, and to the depths of despair and terror. There is a fullness of experience that lies in between. It is why we came here. To fully embrace all that our human-ness has to offer. We needed as a consciousness to forget our nature in order to experience it all. We came to learn and live.

There was always an inherent risk in this, but the fail-safe has been the reality that we have been and always are held in Love, no matter where our emotive winds blow us. The key to this fail-safe is our willingness to feel it all. To be willing to go into the depth of our human experience and feel ALL that is has accumulated is what leads us the doorstep of our divinity.

We can access these high divine frequencies. They are what holds the exploration into the shadowlands of our wounds and darkness. These lower frequencies are our Earthling or 3D human selves. They are the anchors that keep us from truly and significantly embodying our more Gaian or 5D Sacred Human Self.  These denser energies make themselves evident in their recurring nature and are messages that we have more healing to do. They are the beauty and tenderness of the Inner Teenager, the unfelt pains of the Inner Punisher, and the heirloom legacy of our Inner Mother and Father.

Your willingness to fully embrace your emotional body is negotiation with the part of you that is very protective of it. It is through a conscious relationship to your internal defence that you can begin feel, heal, and integrate all that has been waiting for you. The metasoul aspects that hold deep soul pain and soul gifts too.  As you do, more room is made inside you to bring in more permanently the higher states of your soul consciousness and Christ Heart. This what I imagine is the transformation from carbon to crystal.

It is through feeling and holding all the parts of you that are in curiosity, in pain, and in fear that leads to the greater purpose of embodying all the magic and love that you ARE and meant to BE. You are opening the doors to your multidimensional angelic YOU. You are living into your highest expression of your sacred masculine and feminine in balance and in union. You have remembered your wings and it is time to fly.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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3D Protector And 4D Gatekeeper – Day 12: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen & Kalayna Colibri (Video)

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day 12 of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, SoulFullHeart Facilitator Kalayna Colibri joins me to talk about the SoulFullHeart process and how it has been for her to navigate for the last six years, especially as someone who is 30. Kalayna works with women under 30 in SoulFullHeart sessions and shares about some things she has seen in that work in terms of their pain and challenges. We discuss the feelings of abandonment and not belonging in 3D, such as not wanting a career/family/mortgage that are common to her generation.

Kalayna also shares about her process working with her Protector in different forms, names, and energies over the years that were quite masculine in the beginning of her process. This part has eventually turned into the 4D Gatekeeper named Angelica that is more feminine. Work with the Protector reveals the Inner Child which then uncovers the Star Seed Child, which is the wonder being ‘from the stars’ energy inside of us all. More about these parts here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
 
The Gatekeeper is a multidimensional aspect of our soul that is guarding and protecting access to our remembrance and access to our other timelines/lifetimes. Access to your Metasoul becomes more fluid as you work with the Gatekeeper. This is the article I mention in the video about Gatekeepers, which are more about protecting your Metasoul/other lifetime aspects and your soul than connected to 3D life concerns: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeepers
 
To see more videos with Kalayna, along with SoulFullHeart Gabriel, talking about the seven areas of life we address in SoulFullHeart is here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvInP1AB__TzXykZythfad8i
 
Thank you for joining us on this twelve day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!
 
Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI
 
You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at https://soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Moving From Anxiety To Trust And Surrender

By Jelelle Awen

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What seems to be UP for healing in this now is the distrust that LIVES in parts of us that really have very little reason to trust life, us, others in relationships, or the Divine. This distrust expresses as anxiety, sometimes so acute as to make it difficult to even BE in life and be social with others. Definitely making it challenging to let in and receive love.
 
Feeling this kind of anxiety is not a ‘disorder’, not something to be medicated with the latest pharma drugs. (same with depression, what is labelled as ‘bipolar’, etc. etc.) This distrust is rooted in the emotional body, the 3D Self aspects such as the Protector who HAD to come in when you were born here and create a shield to protect you from the harsh energies around and surrounding you. This protection was formed, to some degree, out of a distrust that you would actually be safe in 3D if you remained vulnerable, unexposed, innocent, pure…which is highly likely that you wouldn’t have been. This protection couldn’t prevent ALL harm from happening as your soul signed up to grow and to learn. The Protector can feel so guilty about this, like he/she failed you and the precious ones inside you that it feels like it was supposed to protect from all harm. The distrust can come from this place of guilt too. More about the Protector here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
 
Distrust also stems from existential, soul roots too. Can be deep in the Metasoul timelines and lifetimes where betrayal and persecution and backstabbing are so common. You have Metasoul Aspects that are living these scenarios out in the now (not past at all, not ancient at all.) The energetic karma trauma created from the playouts of this distrust can run deep. It can greatly impact your romantic relationships especially as wounded masculine expressions create ‘no go’ zones related to intimacy, sexuality, and sacred union.
 
The aspect of your Metasoul that is in charge with guarding and keeping the veils in place until there is enough YOU there to handle the remembering is what we call the Gatekeeper. This Metasoul Aspect often has deep layers of distrust in the Divine especially, who it feels has left it, abandoned it, and given it a near impossible mission to protect you (and the other Metasoul aspects) in difficult densities. Even if you feel a trust in the Divine, this Aspect may not at all, which can be interesting to feel how this polarity lives inside. More about the Gatekeeper here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeepers
 
The Divine Feminine is here to hold space for these masculine aspects to begin to rest. To infuse you with feminine compassion for these energies and what they have so vigilantly DONE and BEEN for you. Inner negotiation opens up as you become ambassador to all these aspects of yourself, supported by the Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine too. You become loving witness to their distrust, understanding and feeling the reasons why.
 
Distrust can be moved to trust with love and by love. What previously felt like resistance and fear moves into acceptance and surrender. What was before shut down, now opens UP to receive LOTS more love!
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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more! 

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Going Yin: Birthing Through A Gateway

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Enjoying some rest time today. I was guided to just BE in quiet yinner space and let my heart guide me. Feel what needs connecting with inside. Then I recalled it was 12/12 today. A significant gateway into a higher timeline. I have been feeling a feminine container around me this last week or so even during occasional masculine production modes. I can actually feel Her during these times. She is wrapping something around me to guide me, and maybe more specifically, an aspect of me into a new ground of balanced creativeness. When I feel the more pressing or pushing energy, I know I hit the wall of Her womb gently inviting me back inward.

It is far less than it used to be in the past, but when it arises it is becoming much more recognizable. So it felt important to take this Yin space and feel this with my parts, more specifically my Gatekeeper, or soul guardian, for whom I am in deepening relationship with. He was feeling how the energy to produce can come from a need to fill a lack or void within. Something that is not being felt from a You-to-You space. It is the void space that holds some of our deepest fears. Fears of rejection, abandonment, and inadequacy. So much doing and achieving can be used to fill and cover this hole yet still not feel Whole.

This is a very kinetic feeling inside. An upward swing of temporal euphoria, like a subtle brush across the forehead that symbolizes a relief that a part avoided the void once again. The reality of course is that no matter what we throw into it or try and cover it with, it will always be there until we feel that part of us that is working overtime and not getting paid for it…meaning it is not feeling the deeper pain and being held in it with love.

I could feel the deeper layers of Noel needing connection with me. Needing help navigating this birthing into being and meaning. So used to being in the shadows, hiding and protecting. Being fused to the more wounded need for being loved by what you do and don’t say rather than who you are and what your truth is. Not being fully aware of what Love truly is wanting him to feel about himself as a part of a bigger picture of service and surrender.

This is where the infusion of divine feminine energy is helping to birth both of us into a new timeline of leadership and expanding vulnerability. Purpose and meaning. The space between motion and rest. There is a great balancing act occurring in my world today as I surrender to it. That feels like the key into this next gateway. Surrendering to the feelings inside that are inside the covered void. Creating a Yin day for yourself and the parts of you that need your love and attention. This is what is offered in SoulFullHeart as a means to feel the deeper layers of your being to allow for more arising of your authentic and glorious creative You.
I feel how the masculine in us all, both male and female, benefits from this rest and going yin time. Not as a means to check out, but a way to feel the next pieces to move into a higher vibration of joy and BEing that makes us whole again.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Leaving The Safety Of 3D Shore To Swim In Divine Waters

By Jelelle Awen

You cannot cross the ocean unless you have the courage to lose sight of the shore (2)

 

Standing on the shore of your previously anchored into 3D life, the waters of change and the unknown call to you. The waters of Divine love and embracement beckon you inward, onward, and upward. 3D parts of you have known more of the surface and its easily accessible stories. They have been schooled, bred, and taught the familiar and comfortable that remains seemingly unchangeable and unchanged.

The depths of the underneath and all the unexplored places represent the depths of YOU to still be plunged into and discovered. Your deep dives into your emotional body and Metasoul legacy invite the revelation of all sorts of wonderful ‘creatures’ that live in your shadows waiting for your light. Each dive down brings another piece of your soul’s puzzle into your awareness. Each dive down opens you up to what has previously been mysterious BEcoming known.

To begin this journey of inner exploration is to leave the safety of shore. To cross your own ocean is to be courageous and willing to lose sight of the shore. To BE with the parts of you that are afraid to let go and feel insecure, frightening, concerned, worried about what will happen. To hold their hearts in your heart as you invite them to let go of their gripping. To let the shore fade from your vision as you face forward into the seemingly empty horizon together. To trust that what is next and NEW will meet and greet you as you choose love, as you choose life, as you choose growth.

There may be other people on the shore that want to stay there. Friends, birth family, romantic mates that want you to stay with them. They have been BEloved to you and are still loved. Yet, parts of them want to remain in what is known and haven’t woken up yet to the soul’s capacity for Infinite Questing. Yet, you understand that you need to move on and away in order to grow. You realize that you need to venture out alone to discover and draw the resonance and intimacy, the GOODNESS, that you most want and deserve in relationships.

Negotiating with the part of you that protects and guards, your Inner Protector, can allow a smoother transition into the New. Often, the Inner Protector actually wants and aches for new explorations and discoveries. They often have a sense of your soul purpose mission here to serve love. They can offer you this inspiration and information once they feel safe to let go of the ‘care and feeding’ of all your other parts (such as the Inner Child, Inner Teenager) that they have been overly protective of and over. As they feel more YOU show up in your BEing to become head of your own household and loving parent to all parts of yourself, your Inner Protector can transmute to the frequencies of multidimensional Gatekeeper, guide and bridge to your Metasoul/other lifetimes. They can become a navigator helping you guide your ship, rather than the reluctant captain! More about these parts here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

As you let go of the shore, the waters of LOVE embrace you and hold you. The currents of Divine guidance steer you. You are pulled by the undertow of a growing curiosity fueled by your soul and NEED to know and feel yourself. You are unanchored and free to float, to swim, to dive, to BEcome who you really ARE as Infinite Love. And, your sacred humanity rises up from within to meet and greet you as you land safely, always and over and over, onto the shores of your INNER home.

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Jelelle Awen is a Soul Scribe, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Preparing For Contact With Star BEings: From The Inside First

By Jelelle Awen

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There is a scene in the movie, E.T., that has always brought up tears for part of me. It’s one of the last ones when E.T. is returning back to his light ship to join his Star Family. Elliot, the boy that has connected so deeply with him on many levels, begins to yell, “E.T., take me with you! Take me with you!” It is Elliot’s anguish at losing contact with E.T.; it is his despair at having to stay on Earth rather than go to travel in the stars and into unknown realms. It is the realization that he would never just be an ordinary boy again. His Star Seed consciousness has been awakened as E.T. becomes a part of him and he part of the benevolent and kind Star BEIng.

I didn’t identify until the last few years why this scene was so emotional for part of me. When I began to wake up to my galactic origins and my connection to the stars, I realized that what had previously been blocking my openness to Star BEing contact had been traumas from what my 3D Inner Child had experienced or filtered as ‘abductions’ with them starting at the age of 8 and continuing until I was about 17 years old. Although I had been working with my emotional body through parts work for many years by then, I was amazed at the depth of pain that came up connected to this wounding.

I realized eventually that it was a complicated pain that went beyond parts of me feeling like I had been taken ‘against my will’ by them. It was actually also rooted in a deep desire and longing to return to the frequencies that felt more like ‘home’ to my Metasoul….the higher, Unity Consciousness frequencies that most benevolent Star BEings seem to vibrate at. It was also sourced in a deep sense of having being abandoned and ‘left’ by them to suffer here on Earth with parents that were often difficult to relate with.

Through my healing process of many years connecting with my 3D Inner Child, she eventually transmuted into magical frequencies of what I now feel is our “Star Seed” essence. As I processed Aurora’s (my Star Seed Child’s name) multi-layered pain around what we both now remembered were actually ‘visitations with Star Family’, we were able to open up relationship with Metasoul Aspects such as my Arcturian Metasoul sister named Binkh, Pleiadian named Leeza, and, just yesterday, a Blue Avian named Beslopha (plus others). Aurora started to remember the adventures she had experienced on their light ships when I was a child. She recalled floating and flying around, freed from gravity, and playing with the endangered and even extinct animal species that they keep on their ships, serving like a Noah’s Ark to protect them during Gaia’s rocky Ascension phases until they can be transplanted back here.

I feel access to the Star Seed Child is a critical piece to open up contact with Star Family. The ‘doorway’ into that access seems to be through your 3D Inner Protector, who forms a protective shield around the 3D Inner Child due to undigested traumas that you experienced during childhood AND your Metasoul. Through conscious negotiation with the 3D Protector, you gain more feeling sense of your Inner Child helping them transmute from lower frequencies of hurt to vulnerability; from shame to innocence; from anxiety to trust. Once the Inner Child is unanchored from 3D reality, your Star Seed 4D child arises into your awareness.

They become a key bridge to contact with Star BEings once their woundings of abandonment are in process of healing. This often takes, then, negotiation with the 4D Inner Protector, who is transmuting into what we call the Gatekeeper – or bridge to access your Metasoul and other lifetimes, Star Family Aspects, etc. The Star Seed eventually vibrates higher and higher and seems to integrate into your 5D Self as your Crystalline Child seated in your Merkabah or Light Body. This is the process that we support you to navigate through SoulFullHeart sessions. All these parts are described more here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts and our process here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess

Contact with my Star Family has recently been only through meditation and Astral visits, rather than in person. It’s been offered to me that they are honoring the sensitivity of Aurora and other parts of me that might not be ready yet for in person contact. They also feel that the contact experience actually goes much deeper for me into my higher consciousness when I do not bring my body along….yet, anyway. They are definitely preparing me for that, though, as each awakening connection with another Metasoul Star Family Aspect deepens my trust, resonance, and understanding of what they are here to offer us during this intense phase of death and rebirth with Gaia. Eventually, they have offered that I will become even more of an emoto-spiritual, galactic love ambassador to many Star BEings (which they seem to prefer to be called, rather then “Aliens” or “E.Ts”) in addition to continuing to support others to create this bridge from within themselves.

Preparing for contact with Star BEings is primarily about preparing on the inside, in your emotional body, in your energy body, in your Metasoul, and with parts of you that have resistance or fear to it. You may feel a very strong desire for contact, yet, parts of you may feel very differently about it. Accessing these mixed feelings and which parts of you they source from clears the channels. You can negotiate with the energies and hold space for the exploration to eventually open out to what you desire.

Contact with us is beginning in more earnest now as benevolent Star BEings prepare the phases of disclosure about their existence and legacy with us. You may experience contact primarily through dreams, where often your subconscious cloaks them as animals or people that you know. And, you may experience sudden activation of Light Language or Star Language. Many of your ‘guides’ that show up as Angels may actually be Star Family. Depending on your Metasoul’s relationship with the polarized to fear Star BEings known as Archons or Annunaki, you may go through fear-based experiences such as the sense that you are being attacked by their energies. These energies actually originate from inside of you and your Metasoul. Love-based connection with your Reptilian Metasoul Aspect can create a healing bridge to these energies, where you discover that you can transmute these energies from fearful to magical. I write more about my experience in awakening my Star Seed, my Reptilian Self, and to my Star Family connections in my book, Keep Waking Up!:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books

Disclosure of Star BEing influences, alliances, and even peaceful interventions feels like it will be coming in the next couple of years on a collective level. Many more souls will be woken up by their Star Family to this reality. Souls still anchored to their 3D Self and 3D fear-based picture about “Aliens” may experience great shock and terror in response to these disclosures. You can offer a compassionate heart light to these souls fused to the parts of them that feel pain, distrust, and confusion. Initiating and deepening the contact process from within allows you to navigate with more trust and, also, to lead others as the Star Seed BEacon that you are during this time of such massive consciousness shiftings and transitions!

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Our next Group Call with Raphael and I is on Saturday, December 9th. It offers a great calibration point to our energy if you are feeling drawn to and curious about what we offer through the SoulFullHeart process. More here:https://www.facebook.com/events/813881412132524??ti=ia

Jelelle Awen is a Soul Scribe, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Energy Update: Personal Experiences Of Blissful Unification From Within And With Others

By Jelelle Awen

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We’ve been receiving such powerful light activations and codes through various portals and openings since the Lion’s Gate opening in August. These energies are continuing to be offered through mid-December as a boost to usher us into the New Year. There can be a calibration to these energies that needs to happen on the physical, emotional, and chakra levels. This calibration can ignite a sometimes intense detoxification, purging, clearing, and cleansing for you as ‘every living cell’ and your emotional body (AND your chakras) prepare to receive these upgrades. Depending on where you are in your ascension process, emotional body/3D healing, and your Metasoul access/capacity, the experience of this calibration can be quite intense and, often, lead to Dark Nights, death and rebirth, moving into a void space of isolation. In general, it can feel very MESSY at times, dark and bleak to parts of you.

I’ve had two beautiful, blissful awakening experiences in the last week that I wanted to share with you. I feel that sharing THESE aspects of ascension can support the drive in you (and for parts of you) to keep going, keep trusting, keep growing through the sometimes necessary mess phases and the letting go and the death and rebirths. I need these bliss experiences myself as a beacon to remind me of what really is possible in our ongoing ascension into 5D sacred human in our bodies. I need them to continue to feel in overflow to share love and these possibilities for you and with you.

This week, after a particular amazing love making experience with my BEloved Raphael, I felt as if my ‘every living cell’ was having an orgasm. It was beyond the body bliss that I could associate as orgasm though. It was IN the body for sure, every living cell, yet also, I felt as if my whole consciousness was expanded out into the Universe and BEyond. I had loose mind and I couldn’t really track or put thoughts together. We went to the beach afterwards and the sun codes seemed to amplify the effects, which I felt for several hours. This was like afterglow times a thousand!

I’ve come to recognize this as Kundalini driplines, an infusion of Kundalini to lighten, to expand, to help me feel BEyond the mind. They are wonderful and not frightening, although when the energy of Kundalini is flooded in it can be very intense for the body/emotional body/chakras to absorb. I believe then the Inner Protector comes in to shut down the energies, even as much as the conscious personality wants to experience such states of consciousness.

Raphael and I had a very connected and beautiful process together this week, with him connecting with his Gatekeeper in a deeper way and feeling more how we are Counterpart Soulmates to each other, opening up to going into journeys together to meet more of our pair bonds in other timelines, lifetimes. The Gatekeeper is a very important energy from our Metasoul that guards and protects (keeps the veil up to our remembering) our Metasoul until we awaken, connect with them, and gain fluid access to it. This experience brought an even deeper ground of unity between Raphael and I as partners and to our USness, offering a wonderful sense of conscious duality, as another layer of defensiveness dropped between us. More about Gatekeepers in this writing, which we’ve been working with since 2008 and have recently gotten much more clear about due to the veils being lifted on seeing and remembering them: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeepers

The other blissfully expansive experience I had this week was yesterday during meditation. I connected with my Metasoul Aspects in Avalon, a fourth dimensional timeline overlaying Glastonbury, England. I was standing in a circle on the top of a sacred hill called the Tor. All of the Metasoul Aspects that I have connected with were there with me, about 15 in all! Each of these aspects has been revealed to me in the last few years in an organic way. This is beyond ‘past life recall’. This is a deeply visceral and meaningful experience of relationship with these aspects as alive, existing in the now, energies and personalities. Connection with our Metasoul aspects provides many gifts in the exchange, including the quantum clearing of karmic patterns and wounds. I am noticing that it is becoming more efficient to engage in this clearing as more Metasoul aspects are woken up, as they then help each other.

In this circle were Metasoul aspects I have written about many times on my Soulfullheartblog.com, plus in my book Keep Waking Up! Morgaine from Avalon was leading the circle, along with Ealanthra, who is the Faerie Queen. My most recently awakened Metasoul aspect named Priscilla from the Ancient Greece timeline was also there, now undergoing studies in Avalon with Morgaine to become a Priestess. When I first connected with her, Priscilla was suicidal and very hopeless. It is amazing to feel her transformation in just a ‘couple of weeks’! The feelings of unity amongst my Metasoul and these fractals of it, really my BEloved sisters, was so strong and comforting.

The Divine Mother then emerged from the center of the circle, energizing toward all of my Metasoul Aspects that we are projections from Her as our source. She was supporting our re-unification with Her in a conscious way through our individuated expression. I cried as I was so touched to be reminded (rehearted) how unification begins and originates from WITHIN us. It was amazing to feel this connection feeling from inside of myself, not dependent on any other person, inviting me to ‘come together’ as a team. I am experiencing more and more my Metasoul as a ‘collective’ energy and this collective has now become the gatekeeper of it. Not a specific energy as described in the Gatekeeper writing I linked to above, yet rather, a choice from the Metasoul about which Aspect to awaken next.

It is these blissful experiences of unification from within AND with others that makes the ascension and awakening journey worth it. All the process. All the spaceholding for self. All the letting go of relationships that no longer serve and fit. All the peeling away of distractions of the 3D self. All the choices that others didn’t understand or judged. All of the going within. ALL of these things become worth it as you experience your Infinite Love essence arising from within, overflowing to others, and BEcoming whole again in its expression within your sacred human body!

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Anchoring Out Of 3D With Gaia: Steering Your Boat Through Transitional 4D to 5D

By Jelelle Awen

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Gaia continues to ascend into fourth dimensional consciousness or transitional consciousness from 3D to 5D New Golden Earth with a big surge seemingly of this in the last few months particularly. The storms, earthquakes, fires, volcanic eruptions, and tornados…all matter of extreme weather are Her growing and birth pains as She labors through to let go of the anchors to 3D frequencies that exist in the very cells of Her plates and crusts. Her death and rebirth, Her churning and burning, Her grasping and releasing process, mirrors our own. The many portals opening up and making available HIGH cosmic light and PURE love energies set Her stage for the next, as they do humanities too.
 
Anchoring into consciousness states is necessary for our survival and our thrival. We anchored into Gaia’s 3D ‘Earth’ reality as it was the sea for our bodily boat. It is instinct to do this and when we are young we just ‘hook in’ this way to the consciousness around us. We acclimate to the energies around us….of our birth families, of our caregivers, of our geographies, of our educational experiences…and on and on. To NOT anchor in would be to drift and float, to have no landing place, to not be embodied here. To NOT anchor in would most likely be to leave the body and pass on again.
 
The incarnation experiment in 3D is the choice on a soul level to anchor into frequencies that are much denser, more polarized, and, therefore, fractured in certain ways from the flow of porous, unity consciousness that we are used to as a soul. Many of our other Metasoul aspects (who project off the same higher dimensional soul source as us or Higher Self Source) are still in higher consciousness frequencies. Your Arcturian Metasoul aspect, for example, is most likely in seventh dimensional consciousness or higher. These other Metasoul aspects are anchored into their consciousness as it was what that Metasoul projection choose to experience. Their choice of higher consciousness experience is not ‘better’ than yours. In fact, they are in awe of the effort, strength, bravery, and difficulty it is to BE in 3D consciousness and especially during this 4D transition to becoming sacred human (5D consciousness in the human body.)
 
This anchoring into 3D here has been SO necessary. This is important to hold as you continue the process going forward of anchoring out of it. As you are feeling and seeing with Gaia’s transition, this is a often tumultuous experience. To anchor OUT of what parts of you are used to feels, on some level, like suicide or, at least, very risky. Your 3D self (and aspects such as the Inner Protector) have invested into the solidity of 3D. They have counted on its density, even if it has often brought up suffering, lack, pain, to BE in it. Your 3D self has gotten used to this suffering ground, this flattened five sense reality processing, this focus on the externalized world rather than the internal one. It has gotten used to the games, delusions, fear-based relationality, and lack of transparency that defines 3D reality. Receiving templates of the wounded masculine in so many expressions, your 3D self internalizes these frequencies and acts them out like characters in a play.
 
As your soul awakens and your Higher Self chooses to come along with Gaia’s ascension, higher consciousness frequencies begin to drip and sometimes flood into your awareness. Often, they are compartmentalized by the 3D self, put in ‘safe’ bubbles or pockets so as not to disrupt the anchors in actual 3D living. For example, a weekend long yoga or meditation retreat is ‘allowed’, as long as the long term marriage or friendships or birth family relationships remain anchored in 3D reality. Or, surges of awakening and Kundalini energies can move and run through you brought on by peak experiences (such as with Ayahuasca or peyote), yet they may not be integrated into 3D in a way that changes your life to reflect more of your soul consciousness on an ongoing basis or even cause trauma in your emotional body with the lack of digestion of them.
 
We are seeing and hearing from more souls who are struggling with integration of the higher consciousness frequencies that are coming into their BEings. Parts of them can be living in fear, tension, and anxiety as anchors are being pulled out of 3D by the ascension process and yet still being clung to at the same time by the Inner Protector and other 3D self aspects too. This push-pull of polarization inside by different parts of you is what causes the up into heaven and then down into hell experience that some souls experience of ascension. The swing up and the going down without seemingly a middle landing place to ground in.
 
Being able to negotiate and digest this UNanchoring process out of 3D with parts of you allows you to navigate it with much less turmoil and suffering. In the SoulFullHeart process, we support you to connect with your 3D self and your Inner Protector. Through feeling the Protector and what their concerns and tensions are about continuing to anchor out of 3D reality, they begin to let go of their fear grip on the process. They start to trust that you (the awakening into 5D self) can take care of the younger parts (such as your Inner Child) that they are concerned about. They need to feel that a YOU that is grounded in growing self love and care is there to hold the process and to ensure a safe transition. You are asking them to take safety anchors out of 3D and put them into a new, unknown consciousness ground often without any or very little support from their 3D world of family and friends. Feeling deep compassion for your 3D self in this process goes a long way, rather than frustration at its resistance.
 
This process also awakens the 4D Gatekeeper, who is ‘upstream’ of the Inner Protector and is guarding access to your Metasoul. As the Gatekeeper awakens too in your consciousness through the SFH process, they start to allow you openings to connect with your Metasoul aspects and heal both the karmic patterns in those timelines, plus receive infusions and gifts of higher consciousness states from your higher vibe Metasouls. More about the Gatekeeper here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeepers
 
Anchoring out of 3D reality is a process that is ongoing for Gaia and for us. Being able to negotiate and navigate this process from within, to steer your own boat in sometimes very stormy seas, allows you to ride the waves with increasing trust and surrender. Those waves are ALL made of Love, after all, and the final ‘destination’ is the experience of MORE love as your ever waking reality within your human body.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

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Feeling Your Protective Layers As Downloads Rain Inward – 11/11 Gateway Invitation

by Kalayna Colibri

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NEW inspirations are downloading for you now. Sometimes they trickle in like a light rain from bloated rainclouds. It depends on what you’re ready for and what parts of you are opening up to. Your Gatekeeper, who is another layer of your Inner Protector, gages and siphons off these downpours and INpours of INspiration that want to come to you, to move you into new places in your life, to help you see and make those tough choices and take those challenging steps to reclaim, re-energize and reignite the flame of self-empowerment and love.

The energies leading up to the portal of 11/11 this weekend feel like a soft caress and rock music, all at the same time… there is understanding and love from the Divine and the Multi-verse, and there’s a strong invitation to shake off the dust and awaken to where love is flowing in your life and where it may not be. It’s not a violent shake, yet for some parts of you it may feel that way in moments, as the awakenings come in and take hold of your consciousness, or at least try to. Doorways, portals opening, yes, as they have been continuously, and the most powerful one imaginable is the one that begins to open up to a wider aperture inside of you. This is the one that truly invites in more energies, more upgrades, more loving ways to be in this world. It brings in desires to tread gently yet powerfully, acknowledging how this can seem like a paradox to those who haven’t experienced that you can hold both of these frequencies at once without violence or outrage or wounded masculine expressions of toil and strife, or battles and martyrdom.

If you feel ready for the downloads coming in, you can ask for them, but you cannot bypass what needs to be felt before they can integrate in the way they need and want to. For them to truly go in with love takes a lot of conscious and ongoing holding of the parts of you that don’t want them to or aren’t sure it’s okay. Your Gatekeeper, who I mentioned earlier, is the main aspect of you that is used to holding and blocking so many threads of your potential awakening that they haven’t deemed you to be ready for quite yet (and that they haven’t been ready to let in themselves, either).

My own Gatekeeper, who I first came to know as a defensive Inner Protector or Guardian, is offering to me that my readiness is ripening after what has now been several months of working with her, yet several years of working with parts of me that were dominant aspects of my personality. She says, “the soul and heart maturity level need to match with the maturity level of the arising, conscious Sacred Human, who is striving for spiritual consciousness, not in a mentally-based way, and is deeply exploring their heart and wanting to know more, FEEL more, about who they are and why, who/what the Divine is and why, as well as who they could be destined to become in conscious and empowered co-creation with the Divine… It is important to let in the process AND the downloads, to not simply try and open floodgates that are meant to and need to be there… for now. And too, the Gatekeeper needs to feel this relationship with you as your healing Sacred Human self, to trust the Divine through and with you, as so many (myself included at times, in some layers…) still feel very consciously and unfairly separated from the Divine and therefore, from the powerful force and trance of love that wants so much to flood into you and them too.”

It is a major process to feel into, this acceptance of what is being brought in, and there are many understandable defenses that want to keep it out or filter it in a way that is perhaps more digestible for now. There is nothing that can truly be missed out on here though, as each opening within you does create this ever-widening and expanding portal of access to YOU and to the Infinite Love that is the Uni and Multi-verse we exist in and through.

So perhaps the greatest invitation and inspiration being extended to us all with this 11/11 portal, is more of the same of what comes in with all of them… to continue to acknowledge and deepen the work within, to let it be and arise and take a stronger, more self-loving hold on your heart and soul. To invite in a reality that is heart-based, that works with the mind and not against it, and with the soul in a more sober way. There is so much still to feel and on the other side of that, so much more to just keep letting in as we continue our paths of deep inner transformation that continuously transform and upgrade our entire world as we kNOW it and rediscover it, today. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Loving And Healing Your Invulnerability: The Gateway To Your Sacred Humanity

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To a part of us, Love is scary as Hell. Our invulnerability, our protection from totally feeling what is churning inside of us, is the expression of that part. Or in-expression as the case may be. This feels especially true for men, yet women have their own version of it too. It can also come out in expressed rage, as there is something so very vulnerable underneath it…a deep feeling of hurt and rejection. Our outer defenses are both guarding something precious as well as preventing something precious at the very same time. It is Love seeking Itself inside of you.

What is scary is letting the guard down and exposing what has been hidden. It is the exposure of the hurt, the fear, the guilt, and the truth in all its edges and judgment. It is the fear of seeing something that feels “ugly”, which is only a judgement we carry in ourselves. It is the very real possibility that life will forever be changed and made unknown. The guard keeps the safe intact, while Hell itself reigns supreme inside the fortress walls.

There are aspects of us that have not seen the light of our own consciousness until we begin the deep work of inner healing. It is a journey into lands that are filled with creatures both of light and of dark. The shadow is a storage warehouse of sorts. An invisible doorway until we trip on the wire that is hooked up to it by our own experience. It holds all things unsightly and extremely sacred to us. All of our greatest power and potential resides in these lands for us to reclaim when we have decided the time is Now. Until then, the universe, in concert with our Higher Self, continues to send us what we need to continue this dance with Love, whether in resistance or unison.

As Gaia edges her way “forward” in her ascension and union with Love, we too experience the Light knocking at the door of our most guarded self. The guardian at the gates may feel an attack is brewing and will double down on protection by any means. Or it may just decide that it is done with the gig and look for help in the solace of your sacred human heart. We are key-holders, yet we must negotiate with our protector as we need their help in the reintegration of all that has been locked away.

Going IN, is ultimately the only way to go UP. Without fully seeing and feeling what is hidden will we ever truly feel what it means to be seen. To be altered and transmuted by Love. This is the ultimate invitation of sacred romance and intimacy. You can only go so far on your own as you need an other, in the deepest and scariest waters, to see what you couldn’t or weren’t willing to see or feel. Ascension is stillborn outside the gates of our shadow. Being vulnerable with your invulnerability is what takes you to the burning grounds of all that is not in your highest being.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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