The Mirror Of Sacred Sisterhood

By Deya Shekinah

Spending real, intimate time with women is such a gift to my heart and soul. I am recognising that there has been so much in the way of deeper bonds with women my whole life; competition, insecurity, unworthiness and jealousy being some of them. I feel how hard that has been on me and my parts, even more so now as I feel how deep the need for union with women really is. The uniqueness of the connection between women is so special and I feel how we do really need each other in a way that is different to our need for and with men.

I always feel so inspired and enlivened after deep union with women and deeply nourished by where women can go together when they feel safe and can rest and lean into one another. We understand and feel each other so deeply in wordless spaces and ways, which is something I feel I have looked for in my relationships with men my whole life and has brought a deep dissatisfaction to parts of me. Only now am I recognising how men are not really meant to fulfill our need for each other as women.

There is healing that needs to happen to let women in and trust women again after all the years and lifetimes of competition and hurt that has been experienced between us. I feel the pain of having had to turn away from one another to survive in a world where we are led to believe that we cannot do it without a man. How dangerous it has been at times to be a woman and still is for many women in the world today, and I can feel what that has led and does lead us to do to one another to just get through it.

I feel how the need for connection with women is so deeply buried under a lot of pain and distrust that it can be hard to recognise that need is even there. I am being invited daily as part of life within the SoulFullHeart community to feel my needs and desires that have been deeply buried in order to survive, and then invited to reach out to ask for what I want. It can feel terribly vulnerable for parts of me to even acknowledge that they need others, especially women, and I am still not quite sure why that is. As I do this though, I am getting to experience something new with women that is so deeply nourishing and healing in ways I cannot mentally track but I feel it as it ripples through my body and creates a deep rest and sigh of relief within my womb. 

I feel so deeply blessed to have wonderful women in my life and for all the women who have helped me prepare to let all this love in that I am experiencing now with my closest Sisters. Everytime I meet in deep, real, intimate connection with women, I am changed, and I remember more of who I am and more about why I am here.

Jelelle Awen and Kasha Rokshana will be holding this month’s SoulFullHeart Women’s Group Call this Sunday 7th March at 5pm (London time) This month’s call is about healing and activating the Womb, work that is very close to my heart and I feel so supports this deeper healing between us as women. This women’s group is open to the public and to all women over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant & Community Member. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Big, Bold, Brave Choice To Be Fully Alive In These Times

By Deya Shekinah

The SoulFullHeart process is a wild, epic ride that is constantly blowing my mind and my heart wide open. It is intense, deep, rich and profound and I love it so much. My life is more magical when I am accessing and feeling my parts and creating deeply nourishing relationships inside of myself with them. Life becomes more alive and real in a way I cannot describe as it truly needs to be experienced for yourself. It is such an individual process because it is led by parts of YOU, there is no one outside telling you what is right or how to do it, just support to keep going in and finding your own way through any challenges, tensions or resistances to love that arise. 

It is a process that is helping me to become more human and that is what I love. It is not a spiritual practise but it is deeply spiritual. It is bridging the gap for me on what being a human and being spiritual mean. This process helps me feel and know from inside that those two aspects of who we are, are NOT separate. As I feel what is deeply human inside of me and those parts of me feel seen, met, heard and loved, then the Divine aspects of me are remembered and revealed so naturally and organically.

Our human hearts and emotions are the keys to the doorway home to the Divine essence of who we truly are. The richness in feeling this from inside and through your own experience with your parts is for me the most exquisite feeling ever. It is changing everything in my life and creating a foundation of self love and self trust in a way I have not experienced anywhere else.

This is my experience of course, not everyone will resonate with parts work and that is the beauty of all being so different and unique. This process honors and welcomes our uniqueness though, seeing the gifts that your parts and the ways they experience and feel life as adding to it, rather than taking away, or trying to make us tick boxes that make us spiritual enough to fit in or advance to the next level. There are no rules and the possibilities are endless, how liberating. 

You are endless, your parts are endless and the love that starts to arise within you as you feel parts of you is endless too. It is something to let in, feeling how big, how beautiful and how divine we truly are and have always been, and that being here in a human body is a gift we chose, not a hindrance to our spirituality but rather the doorway into deeper knowing and understanding of it.   

It is a big, bold and brave choice to choose a path of being fully alive and embodied in these times when there is so much to feel and respond to in the world. For me there is no other way through though than IN and I would not want to be going IN in any other way than with my parts, in this way of life and with the support of this beloved community.

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant & Community Member. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Bravery Of Being Who You Are NOW

by Kasha Rokshana

“Your most significant acts of bravery, bigness, and soul purpose expression lie in being who you are… Bathing in the humility of that, and what that brings up for you to feel around your self-worth.” ~ Anna of the Magdalenes

How easy this is to forget in a world where so much praise is offered to those who lead with charisma and attractiveness yet not always heart.

Anna visited with me in meditation this morning to offer this piece that is very personal to me yet also applies to so many others. She was feeling parts of me that are letting in this brand new phase of deep romantic love with Aurius and also more service, holding space for some huge souls that need me to meet them in my bigness. Aurius needs this from me too, even and especially when that means meeting each other in deep vulnerability and tears that sometimes take some ROARing to find our way to.

Such is the rumble and humility of being called to harvest the work I’ve done so far within and share the overflow of the bounty with others so they can inhabit this process too. It’s truly a way of life and not simply a process and that alone is so humbling.

There are many gifts and awakenings to integrate along the way, yet the biggest ones are the ones which don’t offer certifications or accolades yet bring you even closer to the Divine through your own beating and healing heart!

I feel grateful for my own bravery and that of my beloved. I feel honoured to be serving, to be in alchemy, and to support others to find their own too. I feel my heart blown wide open in a way I wasn’t expecting. I feel my parts reeling and being real too along the way.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Welcoming All The Challenges Of 2021 As a Part Of Our Return To Love

By Deya Shekinah

This time last year I came to Glastonbury and planted a seed, an intention to spend more time here in 2020. Initially that seed was planted with a beloved but as the year unfurled that romance came to an end. The most intimate and loving relationship I have ever experienced coming to an end has been my biggest teacher this year, with the grief of that loss opening my heart to the grief of all of the losses I have ever experienced, which continues to unravel moment to moment.

I feel how we have all, in our own ways this year, experienced doors and chapters of our lives closing and ways of being dissolving. Uncertainty has become a more visible reality that we have to learn to walk with every day in new ways and that has been tough.

Yet as I land here now in Avalon/Glastonbury with a new dawn arising for 2021, full of possibilities and potential for more growth, more love, and more challenges, I feel more held in trust than ever before because of my own personal journey this year to get here. This year has forced us all in many ways to face some of our biggest fears: loneliness, grief, loss, and death. It is my experience, by feeling all of these places inside, that there is a tremendous amount of courage, adaptability and strength inside all of us to keep finding new ways to thrive, to love and to connect, and that however restricted or lost parts of us may feel, that is never the whole truth.

Letting in the beauty of all the challenges and the lockdowns may not be easy, but it is in feeling the empty, lockdowned spaces within that we are being reborn, even when we cannot see it or feel it. 

As much goodness is flowing into my life at this moment, I feel the fruition of listening to this invitation of turning deeply inwards towards myself during these times of lockdown. I will move into my own place on New Year’s Day here in Avalon and it is the first time I will have ever lived alone which I am excited about, and finally, after three years, I am with my beloved SoulFullHeart community in the physical. It feels like my seed from last New Year’s is beginning to sprout, although the beloved is inwards now rather than on the outside. 

As the new challenges for 2021 are already arising, I feel us all able to hold them and ourselves more lovingly after all we have learnt in 2020. 

2021 feels to me like a year to keep embracing the beauty and the tensions of the duality that we came here to experience, to allow the fullness of the human experience that is always working for us to humble us and re-sensitize us to the simple, subtle joys of being embodied and alive. As another year ends and a new one begins, I am reminded that endings and beginnings co-exist and are a constant in our daily lives not just on New Year’s Eve… and that feels ever more present in where we are in our humanity right now.

As we all continue to move through life’s death and rebirth cycles, from my heart in the Heart Chakra of the Earth, I send you so much love and many New Year’s blessings. May we continue to remember and uncover the goodness, innocence and love that is who we are, and learn to radiate the light that is in our hearts so we can continue to guide each other towards New Earth.

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant & Community Member. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Ascension: Bringing The Unconscious Into Consciousness

In my continuing process of growth, many times the things I need to ‘work’ on are the things that I cannot see. They are brought to me through mirrors, reflections, or circumstances that make it clear I have had a blind spot. An unconscious tendency toward ego, unworth, or any innumerable things that keep my next conscious leveling up at bay.

As I am brought to these junctions, I am beginning to realize the ground on which our unconsciousness resides is giving way. The veil that has kept it hidden is loosening and thinning. It will be an effort to keep it all in place. As that barrier begins to crumble under the weight of Love’s eminence, there arises moments that you become aware of the parts that are trying to stay in control, keep the narrative going come hell or high water.

Well, if the high water is coming and the resistance stays in place then hell it is. I once had an image of a sandcastle. It represented all that parts of me had and have built up over time that represented what I thought was real and true, only to find the tide rise and sure enough it was gone. Just…like…that. Wooosh. This could be a Dark Night experience or it can be just another round of the wheel of ascension once you get used to it.

The Reality is that we are the sand and the water playing in this epic drama of construct and deconstruct. What was unconscious comes to the surface and will knock down that castle just as the sun rises and falls. So when it does, the deeper question is how do we integrate and navigate that process so that there is less need for these moments and their reactions.

In my ongoing journey with SoulFullHeart, it is all about feeling and exploring the deeper layers inside that are in reaction, suffering, or unconscious states. This is done not just through self-reflection and exploration, but of other-reflection and deep mirroring. That is where things get to be seen that we could not see ourselves. That is not easy for parts of us, but it is catalytic and alchemical. Life can never be the same tomorrow as it was yesterday when you are on a conveyor belt of ascension. There is no attainment, just attainING and learning. An ever growing and expanding ground of consciousness.

If you are feeling the deep desire for ending suffering loops, unconscious patterns, or lone wolf isolation and are wanting to be initiated into deeper realms of your own consciousness, expression, and intimacy I highly recommend a SoulFullHeart session with myself, Jelelle, Raphael, or Kasha. I trust the call will be felt in the hearts it is meant to stir.

If you are curious about learning more and becoming more acquainted with the process and paradigm itself you are welcome to join our group portal at https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co for more personal sharings, videos, articles, and online community.

The energies are here to support this new leveling up in Love, Liberation, and Leadership.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Changing The Climate Within

‘Climate’ feels like a very powerful word at the moment. It denotes and connotes so many different things.

Environmentally, the Western US is engulfed in ash (almost literally when you look at satellite images, and especially if you live there). The speculation and information of the causes fuel other fires that reside in the body politic.

Socially, climate is a reference to the energy of a tension or ease within a collective. Right now, from the media’s point of reference, the temperature is rising for discord and chaos as the winds of polarity spark their own political wildfires.

Globally, a pandemic of fear (whether real, produced, or both) is shifting the climate of what was once considered ‘normal’. It has changed how we relate to, and hold, our deep need for sovereignty, freedom, and well-being.

Many are being told what to believe and feel is right and true. We are being asked to ‘take a stand’ and ‘have a voice’. The energy may be intense, or it may be invitational. Camps are being formed, strategies laid, and lines being drawn.

Others are looking for truth and understanding. What is real and what is false? A deep desire to just get to a rational bottom of what the hell is really going on. This group is pushed and pulled in many ways. Some get more confused, others get more clarity. Do they join a camp, or form another one all together?

In the end, how these external climates affect your internal climate is the process that matters the most to me. I can say that unequivocally for myself, but that may not be true for someone else who is mired in thicker external circumstances.

I feel compassion and understanding for that. It is a fucking deep state of soul soup we all find ourselves in. This is serious shit, yet it can be given air, and even joy, from within but that is a dedicated practice and choice to rise above the fray, IF that is what you really want.

It may feel impossible from the evidence that is presenting itself to a part of you who can only see the external climate and circumstance. I get that. I can’t convince it otherwise. I am calling to the You that does want to create and BE in something different on the inside. That, from my soul’s perspective, is how real change can effectively and quantumly be evoked and embodied.

The Magna Carta of true sovereignty lies within. It is hard to let that in amidst everything that is blowing in your direction. I want something new for myself, for you, and for the world. It has to start with each of us. We must create our own pandemic and wildfire of Love from inside. Imagine then what is truly possible.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Challenge To Feel (VIDEO): Conversations With Men

“Feeling is really hard! It is really challenging!”

These were words I spoke in the third video of the Conversations With Men series with Raphael Awen. In it we talk about the challenges for many of us, especially men, to get down to deep and vulnerable feeling. To actually feel our feelings.

Raphael mentions in the beginning that we are all emotive beings in constant feeling. The question is are we really feeling the feelings and being honest and vulnerable with them? What is feeling as opposed to reactions and/or states of being?

As boys (and girls, too!) we are conditioned to suppress our more sensitive emotions, our true heart reality. This suppression tends to result in anger or depression (numbness), or both! Rage becomes an emotion that is normalized in men rather than hurt.

The inner boy’s feelings are not welcome and sequestered to the shadow where hurt foments into rage. A protection forms that pushes away or shuts down in a myriad of ways. For the more spiritually inclined man, the activation of the upper chakras in cahoots with the lower chakras can create a bypassing of the most human heart chakra.

This may form as an abusive teacher/healer/mate. A narcissism is formed as a protection against feeling the pain of the inner boy’s trauma. There may be a self-destructive path that leads to addictions, self/other-harm, or possible suicide (one of the leading causes of death among younger men).

If we could create an environment where it is safe for men to feel what they are feeling as they are feeling it, with the ability to process those feelings as parts of themselves rather than being fused to them, I believe we would see a new calvary of men that have the wear-with-all to co-create a new world with the feminine in sacred collaboration.

A tall order? Maybe. A deep desire and need? Yes. I feel the challenges, I am challenged, yet with the support of like-hearted men and women in community, I am finding my way. I believe that other men too could find their way when the desire to truly heal the heart becomes the single most important thing they feel they can offer the world.

Please check out our video for more conversation and please share with other men that you feel would be interested in this mission of deep soul and heart transformation. Comments and questions are deeply invited.

Thank you for being on this journey with us. 🙂

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Sacred Wound Of Intimacy And Vulnerability

Intimacy and vulnerability are the benchmarks of our sacred humanity. Without them we are avoiding our whole being, shadow and light alike. These are by far the most difficult parts of the healing process in my personal experience. Parts of us feel more comfortable on their own, with animals, or connecting to the stars than they do with other human beings. Given our vast soul stories, it is easy to understand why.

Authentic and conscious feeling is something that we have been conditioned and protected from doing. In feeling and owning what is real, there is a fear of being seen, of losing everything we have built up around us, or of getting swallowed up in the pain, and maybe even ecstacy! Being vulnerable is bringing to the surface that which is uncomfortable and/or sensitive.

At the core of this fear is a sacred wound that many of us are being drawn to heal. At the soul, or Higher Self level, we may find ourselves drawing situations that are meant to bring us to the precipice of this wound for in order to truly grown and evolve we are meant to face these wounds/fears once and for all. For me this is what has brought me into deep community with SoulFullHeart.

As I have moved back into closer proximity and soon heading off to Glastonbury with everyone, I am reminded that this is not just spiritual tourism. It is an opportunity to heal my intimacy wound as well as the Metasoul lives that are still in play in the 4D geography of the UK. What other lifetimes exist within me that struggle with intimacy? Being ‘on location’ brings me closer, more intimate, with these lifetimes and Metasoul brothers and sisters.

This becomes a prime example of how each moment is a portal into our sacred humanity if we chose it to be. We have access to so much inside of us yet we chose to acknowledge just a thin slice. Again, for very good reason. The true courage is not in the solving or the fighting, but in the feeling. The human heart is the first and final frontier. It is the doorway to our soul. The thing is, it has been through a lot of shit. A lot of fucked up experiences. It may still be. Yet, its healing IS our salvation, not the ignorance of it.

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Over the next two weeks in the last of the Free To Be 5D group call series, we will be addressing the Sacred Wound. The very thing that brings us around and around until we gain the courage and will to finally meet it where it is at. If this resonates with you, I encourage you to join us by offering a donation at soulfullheart.org/shop to get the link to the call if you have not done so already. I also offer a free 45 minute consultation call to see how and if the SoulFullHeart process is right for you to support you in this sacred wound exploration and healing. You can go to soulfullheart.org/sessions for more information.

Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Inviting Your 3D Self Into Healing

by Kalayna Solais

In order to be in, live in, navigate 3D, parts of you have had to form. They’ve also formed in reaction to traumas you’ve experienced in the density of 3D. These traumas sometimes have slipped under the radar, actually, and not necessarily been experiences of overt abuse. Sometimes even just not being heard or seen is traumatic. Not feeling loved is traumatic. Not feeling like you belong on this planet is traumatic.

The 3D Self is pretty complex yet when you meet your own with love and open-hearted curiosity, the parts that make it up respond to that, come forward, and a bond with them is created. This is not about ‘eliminating the ego’ as some other offerings may teach, yet rather, loving the ‘3D ego’, if you want to call it that, and appreciating WHY it’s had to form. This helps you find your way through the pain and into the harvest of deep inner gifts and soul bigness that have been buried underneath it out of necessity.

Without loving the 3D Self deeply, your life cannot shift on deeper levels. What needs to be let go of in order to let in MORE love in Divine/multi-dimensional ways becomes more challenging to walk out than it necessarily has to be. There’s a necessary burning away of the masks that have kept you in fused states to your 3D Self and its many ways of expressing in your relationship to others and yourself in general, and your relationship to the Divine, to love, to spirituality.

If this resonates and sparks some interest in you to go deeper, Raphael and Jelelle Awen offered a by-donation group call yesterday about this very topic that you can still donate to receive the recording of. It’s part of the 6-week Free To Be 5D Series so your donation will get you access to all recordings from this series so far and the Zoom link for the other 4 calls coming up. You’ll hear teachings from them on and also engage in a powerful guided meditation. Gabriel Heartman and I also share a bit about our own experiences with this process.

More info here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dgroupseries

Much love to you and your precious 3D Self! ❤
Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The EnLIGHTENment Of The Heart

This morning I was feeling what Enlightenment means to me. In the past, I felt it as a goal or achievement. A state free from the suffering I was in. I focused on the Mind as the causation of my depression and anxiety. I meditated daily, went for long hikes in nature, and read many books.

Yet, in the formidable background, there was a voice that wouldn’t go away. An ache that made me feel everything I was ‘doing’ was a cover-up. A smoke-screen from really doing the one thing I was avoiding, and that was ‘feeling’. All the books, hikes, and words could not subvert the feeling.

After going into the emotional body for the past 8 years (not everyday, mind you), I have realized Enlightenment to mean something else at the moment. For me the key word is ‘Lighten’. To make, or be, less heavy. That is rooted in the Heart.

The Heart holds the Akashic Record of our wounded and sacred humanity. We can use the Mind to take us to the places we got hurt, got rejected, experienced the trauma of ‘not-love’. It is there we can offer the salve of Love to help heal, release, and transmute the pain, the experience of separation back into the Lightness of Being.

…The Lightness Of Being. Yeah. That is what Enlightenment means to me at the moment. The freedom to Be. To Express. To Create. To Partake and Enjoy. It is from this enLIGHTENed place that I can best feel and serve the ‘cries of the world’. The Darkness that needs us to be grounded in this Lightness of Being so we don’t go down with it, but lift it up and out of the Shadow, both individually and collectively.

I am now more free to explore more of my mental and spiritual enlightenment without it bypassing the emotional body. As long as I am human there is more ‘work’ to do, but now it is rooted in more joy and essence. That is what I have really been seeking this life. Maybe that is what you have been really seeking as well.

If so, please feel into a free Consultation Call to see how this process may resonate with you. I would be honored to serve and explore this emotional and spiritual enlightenment process with you. Visit soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info.

There is also the next Free To Be Group Call Series beginning this Wednesday, July 15 with Raphael and Jelelle Awen. Check out soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dgroupcallseries for more info as well.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.