Our Perfect Imperfections

I remember when I was a kid being asked what my favorite number was and I just blurted out, “Ten!”. I think I might have been ten years old at the time. That was either a sign of self-focus or I just really liked the number 10! While growing up I did have this need for things I did to be perfect to whatever degree perfect was to a part of me. Whether it was perfect scores on tests or doing some art, perfection was a pervasive overlord in my life.

Somehow ‘perfect’ was a way to avoid failure or need for improvement. The antidote to an inner criticism of myself and, in the Shadow, the criticism of others. So much need in my subconscious and soul at the time to bear witness to, or to be, Perfection. I feel it was both nature and nature. I came into this world with it and was supported in its cultivation through my conditioning.

It came out as wanting to be the perfect student, the perfect boyfriend, the perfect son, the perfect husband. I found myself in a prison made by the Tyranny of Perfection. Being perfect was to be seen as Good or Righteous in the eyes of God in my Metasoul that I had come to realize during my early inner healing journey. It was quite the burden to bear as a young boy and my poor parents were at a loss to know how to deal with it. What resulted would be punishment for ‘unacceptable’ behavior.

When we come to Earth, we may view our caregivers as representatives of the Divine Perfection from which we are sourced. When they prove to be otherwise at a very early age, a Holy Shit moment may occur and we realize we are not in Heaven anymore only to don a new set of eyes from which to view the world with some deeper existential questions. ‘If they aren’t perfect and I come from perfection, where does that leave me? Where the hell am I? How do I navigate this place?”.

A protection forms that can also be comprised of a punishing layer whose intention it is to protect, but not necessarily in the most loving or effective way. It is trying to form a self that is acceptable to this imperfect world out seeking the perfection from which it came. A bit of a hot mess scenario but here we are! It is what we came here to work and to shift for ourselves and for the collective for we are inextricably connected.

Coming to terms with our imperfections, our ‘faults’, and our ‘missing of the mark’, are all portals back to the perfection from which we were sourced from and continue to be held by. We can all look forward to a higher timeline that may be different than the one we live in now, either inside or out. That is a deeply inherited part of our nature. We want and need bigger, better, and brighter. We don’t need to build any of those back, we just need to love our way back.

Today, let’s love the parts or aspects of us that feel imperfect, unworthy, or not ‘good’ enough to have, or be, it all. That is not to say it is okay to stay there, but it is okay to feel that way as long as we are feeling it and loving it and not just setting it aside when it comes up. It has been an ongoing process for me to keep loving and moving these parts of me into a position of feeling perfectly imperfect. That all the ‘dings and dents’ are a part of the larger tapestry that make me who I am. They are the fruits of what have healed and the seeds of what have yet to be watered.

Ten is a powerful number. It can be a reminder, a goal, or a tyrant, all depending from which direction you are looking at it. Today, it can just be a number and you can just be human. It’s okay. It’s all perfect. It’s all Love even when it doesn’t feel that way.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for men.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Ode To The Healing Man

Thank you, Brother
For going into your heart
And setting the sails for a new course
A course set by the prevailing winds
Of the call to heal

Thank you, Brother
For the courage to feel
All the things that have been locked away
For they have needed to be
Until the closet got too full

Thank you, Brother
For your willingness to take responsibility
Of what lies right in front of you
The impact and consequences
Of not facing the shadow

Thank you, Brother
For looking in the mirror
And loving the man you are now,
The man you were then,
And the man you want to become.

Thank you, Brother
For your honesty
For your bravery
For your vulnerability
For your passion
For your vision
For your alignment of Heart and Soul

For you are a part of the next generation
The next incarnation
The next evolution
Of what it means to be a healthy human man.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Nativity Of Mother Mary Day & 9/9 Energies Of Compassion

by Kasha Rokshana

Precious to realize that today is the Nativity of Mother Mary or in other words, her celebrated ‘birthday’ on Earth! It’s especially precious to me because of the Mother Mary codes that I feel coming in around the 9/9 portal tomorrow and I feel how her energies have been supporting my own womb in her holding and response to others lately too.

There’s a new wave of motherly compassion moving into and through my heart space as I take care of my cat who has just been spayed (she is normally very active so she needs a lot of attention right now) and also as I respond to beloveds around me and women I’m serving love with in sessions. I feel as if my compassion has been invited to go to a whole other level both within and without and with that invitation, I feel so much support to feel what isn’t compassion but instead is judgement toward self and others too.

I don’t know if there’s anything more challenging than embodying true compassion. Many can claim to have empathic hearts yet can and do they live into compassion within that empathy? Can you see and feel yourself, parts of you, others around you, even those you interact with but disagree with on social media with the eyes of Divine compassion? I’ll admit that of course I have no mastery over this, yet I constantly feel the work-in-progress of this deepening for me and find every bit of shadow around it worth exploring.

It can be surprising at times what turns to actually NOT so much be an act of compassion. There is such a difference between caretaking or enabling others and withholding your true sense of them and your relationship with them, no matter where it comes from within you, whether it’s born of your ‘shadow’ or not. Plus, there’s always an invitation to feel that ‘what has been in shadow’ is just another way to feel ‘what has long been hidden’, which offers us much more compassionate frequencies with which to see and feel ourselves and others.

During this time on the planet, we’re constantly seeing what needs to be loved. That doesn’t mean that we don’t challenge what we see, ask pertinent questions, or dive into feeling the differences between what we want and what is. It doesn’t mean ‘accepting’ all as it is or as they are, especially if that acceptance is a way to dull your own truth and passionate fire. Rather, it means to somehow be very real about the contrasts, about the impact we feel and have had too, and discerning with love what it is that is true and what it is that’s being peddled as true.

Love’s un-hijacked, truly compassionate lens as offered by Mother Mary energies, encourages us to see reality, to weep and mourn what has been, to let in desires and hope for what could be, and to also somehow feel that even the darkness has its role to play and is necessary to roll out now though it’s so painful at times to witness and be impacted by. And then, while we feel all of this, we’re invited to feel forgiveness as an ongoing process… not an easy one, but one that can be truly honoured for all its stages and phases as each part of us who has been hurt or done harm finds forgiveness in their hearts.

Sending so much love on this day and during this portal as we let in Mother Mary codes of deep, fathomless Divine compassion and love for ALL!

Love,
Kasha

🎨: Renata Sedmakova

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Gifts Of Self-Validation & Immersion In Your Own World

by Kasha Rokshana

You know… sometimes it’s truly in your self-permission to imagine, to just be in play or even in pain, to immerse yourself in a world that feels ‘made up’ to others around you… that you find your deepest growth and most profound healing.

Dive into those waters of what could be real to find what IS real for you. And finding playmates on the outside in the form of soul family who also feel the depth and realness of everything inside of you as if it’s theirs too is a gift that keeps on giving.

Maybe it’s the pursuit of facts and cold, hard evidence that brings in the most confusion when your purest heart and parts of you just want to experience love unfolding… especially within you, and especially in response to all things in life whether hard or easy, challenging or simple.

Maybe all it really takes is recognizing the beauty of the self-permission to immerse in your own reality and make it the realest thing imaginable.
There’s no way to go halfway in that, unless you feel obliged to comply with whatever realities are around you and possibly invading your own in ways less than loving and much less than empathic or compassionate.

And maybe, just maybe, that’s all there is to it when it comes to your deepest, realest Divine reunion experiences – play pretend until it feels real enough to become embodied, find ways into and through your deepest pains, and remember that the ways in which your shadow may come out through these experiences is all a part of the same sacred thing of truly owning your own reality and finding your growth path within that.

…just some notes from the road as I step even deeper into this myself!

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

How Some ‘Spiritual Truths’ Dull Divine Passion & Personal Soul Truth

By Kasha Rokshana

So many popular ‘spiritual truths’ feel so empty and tinny to me, and they can sometimes be used by parts of you to quell your genuine passion and divine fire. They become such dull platitudes and yet they are revered and held as THE irrefutable Truth for so many souls.

There are so many different ‘truths’ that indeed ARE true in different ways, yet just like affirmations, they can so easily be used in a manipulative way that also dulls intuition and raw instinct within yourself and others. It’s about how they are related to, not about the words themselves…

Taking the “high road” that some of these sayings offer really isn’t as interesting to me as going into the messy road, the one that has brambles and needs some bush-whacking, for that is where realness is and also some very catalytic Divine energies. It’s not that being elevated enough to see the bigger picture isn’t important, but sometimes it’s the grind and grist that leads us to our deepest growth AND our truest exit from the need for grist to appear in the same way.

These ‘truths’ which are so often hijacked by the false light matrix, can be used to gaslight, to divert attention away from a need to actually own what’s rumbling in yourself or another, to keep you from dropping into a realization about a shadow play-out that’s been happening in your life or your spiritual healing/writing offerings.

And, they do anything BUT support you to go into more intimacy grounds within yourself, to truly cultivate and embody your Divine Self, and in that same way they do not support a deepening intimacy ground with others built with true compassion and love.

On my own awakening and Ascension journey, I haven’t personally been drawn to very many of them or the leaders/teachers who spout them off and justify the abuse they dole out through them. Yet, I also feel in my heart why some souls would be drawn and even ignore any intuitions they may have about them, especially if this to them is what love is or must be and it sure seems much more alive than what they’ve endured in the past.

There are so many I could highlight today, yet I’ve chosen just a few to share about that seem to really show up a lot.

“If you’re triggered by me, it’s not about me, it’s all about you”.

While this is true to some degree, this so often gets used to divert away from your own accountability, the mirror of your own shadow showing up. Even though you may have innocently triggered someone, sometimes there is still room to own your own side of things, to see and feel someone in their trigger, and discern if this is a reflection you truly need at this time or not. None of us are perfect, and we DO get to choose whose opinions and reflections of us we value the most, yet there is so much data in all of our triggers for ourselves and our relationships to absolutely everything and everyone.

Also, where is the heartfelt care in saying this to someone that you supposedly DO care about?

“Make sure you heal before you enter in romantic relationship so you don’t project your wounding onto your partner.”

Rare is the soul who is fully done with projecting. It is so challenging at times to be the receiver of projections and sometimes, again, we can innocently trigger someone into this ground, yet this is ALL a sacred part of our exploration of deeper intimacy with others. Sometimes parts of us HAVE to project in order to see and feel themselves from a different light. Without allowing each other to have ‘stuff’ we are working when in relationship, we have missed the point of even going into it in the first place.

In the past it was hard for a time for parts of me to get that we have this permission inside to get messy with others or to let them get messy with me without any true ‘winner’ in the situation, without anyone needing to be ‘wrong’ or ‘right’, and without anyone needing to pretend to be perfect and have it all together. Yet what gets me through the pretense and old conditioning around conflict, is the reminder that we’re all in this together, we’re all imperfect, and if we can at least hold a common ground of doing deep inner work and wanting the mirrors that true intimacy offers us, then we will be just fine and heal in ways we never imagined possible.

And here’s one more which has recently been on my radar: “It doesn’t matter if someone steals or takes credit for your writings or creations made in the service of love. It never truly belonged to you anyways”.

If you have created something from the fires of your inner work, your passion, your hard-earned Divine access inside and out, and someone takes credit for that who has absolutely NOT done the same work you have and may actually be using your words/creations to seduce and create their own platform and following (something many ‘leaders’ do, unfortunately)… why would that be considered ‘ok’? If you genuinely feel unattached, I would say there’s a missing Divine passion in you that some part of you is afraid of and concerned about what it could do if untethered.

Advocacy and reasonable self-defence are not separate from Divine passion. You can keep your heart open, refrain from getting nasty, and stand solidly in your truth all at the same time. I’ve done it, my beloveds have done it, it’s possible and it’s accessible. It also shows that instead of trying to control your emotions, which aren’t ultimately controllable, you are willing to explore what is actually happening in this scenario from all angles possible.

“What’s the lesson I need to learn here?”

Whenever I hear someone say this, I immediately feel an Inner Punisher playing disciplinarian inside of them. It can feel so harsh to say this to yourself or to have a beloved ‘teacher’ say this to you. It takes the humanity out of the equation or worse, tries to discipline your humanity and make it bad or wrong or off or even ‘not ascended enough’.

I don’t feel that the vast majority of ‘teachers’ out there are even remotely qualified enough to ask such questions or make such judgements of you or anyone else, but that’s another piece I’ll share more about soon…

When something goes sideways in my own life, I don’t ask myself if there’s a ‘lesson’ to learn because I’m not in school anymore. What I do is look into the mirror that’s been offered and ask my parts/aspects, “what do I need to feel in myself that’s been off my radar but that I couldn’t see without this situation?” Even with this question sometimes I’ve had to feel a shame spiral my parts have fallen into… yet grounding it back into them and feeling where that comes from helps so much, as well as feeling the situation from as many angles as possible, truly ‘milking’ it for my growth and inner reconciliation while inviting the Divine in to support and love me through it, and then moving on. Nothing will help you move on the way real love does and that is always, without any doubt in my heart, seeded first within.

There’s such an important discernment that is being asked of us in spirituality and beyond. It’s as simple as asking questions about what is truly real, what your heart and intuition both tell you is possible, and feeling how the Divine is guiding you in every moment… whether this means you are able to ‘follow the crowd’ and wherever the current fanfare is around this or that ‘truth’ or ‘teacher’, or if you’d rather stay in your own lane for a while, feel it all out from deep within, and continue to find your own empowered connection to yourself and the Divine.

This has been such an important place to go for me personally and I imagine that we have all struggled at times to find our way to what’s pure, true, good, and loving amidst all of the din.

If my truth stirs or inspires your own in some way, please do be in touch and if you’re curious about 1:1 sessions with me (for women), we can meet for a free intro call to talk about the SoulFullHeart process and community and if it might be a fit for you at this time: soulfullheart.org/sessions

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Sacred Spiral Of Healing

The path of healing in my experience has been a spiral. It is what I have witnessed with my beloveds as well as those I have held and hold space for. Trying to set a linear path is a need of a part of us to ‘get to the good stuff already’, to get on with our ‘mission’, or maybe to reach an attainment. In that way, there is so much that can get left behind and remain in shadow.

I consider myself a human being first. Everything else comes after. I believe we all have human pains that have been stored up and held onto for good reason. They needed to be sequestered to survive and maybe even thrive, even if in not the most ideal of circumstances. Yet, when it seems like all is safe and held to a large degree, these hidden pockets of energy, feeling, vibration come to the surface needing, desiring love and reconciliation that they couldn’t get when it wasn’t safe.

This is why you may ask yourself a big WTF? when all seems to be going along great and then….WHAM! Something comes out of what seems like ‘left field’ and you are bulled over with grief, depression, anxiety, fear, etc. It doesn’t make sense with what the external situation is! This may be the case. The external has become safe enough for these repressed parts to bubble up in the most unusual of times. It may be exacerbated and supported by the ‘energies’ of the moment, but they are not a product or result of. They are still a part of your humanity in need of healing.

There are some who know that have things that have been in the closet. Tucked away boxes and suitcases that they are consciously aware of yet have needed the ‘time’ to feel right to go back in. This is very intentional rather than being side-swiped. Neither is better or worse. Just how it has all presented itself to you in the way and time it has needed. The main point is that you meet it. Feel it. Walk the spiral path with it for it is your sacred healing journey and no one else’s.

I don’t feel to convince anyone they still have healing to do. That needs to come from each soul. For me, I know I do. On so many levels even if I am doing ‘well’ right now. Which I am. I may not have the deep pain I once did before I started (thank the Divine!), yet I know that there are deeper layers of my emotional, mental, spiritual, and physical bodies that have pockets yet unrevealed. Whether it is another round with my inner child, a Metasoul aspect, or existential separation wounding, I know that I want to meet it with the depth of heart and soul I have cultivated in this process. I feel I am meant to serve those that sense the same for themselves.

The Sacred Spiral has been around for eons. It represents so much of our own humanity as well as our Divinity. I honor this path something to be present to not just get over, through, or around. I honor all of those that continue to walk this winding road back to wholeness without leaving anything behind in the rush to heal or attain, but to just live and be in every moment whether it is bliss or a mess. Love is holding us in each and every turn.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The SoulFullHeart Podcast, Episode 3: Teenage Wounding, Intimacy, and Spirituality

We are SoulFullHeart Facilitators/Teachers/Sacred Union soul mates, Gabriel Amara and Kasha Rokshana, and we’re so excited to host the second episode of a weekly podcast from within the SoulFullHeart process, community, and way of life which is so beloved to us and which we have been a part of for the last decade.

In this episode, we share a bit about our feelings and perspectives on our teenage years and how much we are still influenced by them as a part of us we call the Inner Teenager. An unconscious fusion to this volatile time of our lives has such an impact on how we relate to life, intimacy, and spirituality. On many levels we are still being initiated into a mature relationship to ourselves, others, and the Divine itself. We hope you find this illuminating as well as a step into deeper healing for yourself and this very alive and multidimensional part of us.

Here is a link to the 7 Areas Of Life article we mentioned in the podcast:
https://www.soulfullheart.org/3d4d5dselvesquestions

Here is a link to Gabriel’s writing on the subject this past week:
https://soulfullheartblog.com/2022/05/24/the-inner-teenager-our-beloved-uninitiated/

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SoulFullHeart is a healing process, a contextual paradigm, a very powerful and empowering way of life, and a sacred community all in one. You can find out more on our website: http://www.soulfullheart.org. We’ll also be bridging everything SoulFullHeart through our own unique embodiment and experience of it to add more perspective and understanding as to where we come from and how the topics are held and felt in our hearts and souls.

We offer one-on-one and couple’s facilitation as the guidance and need arises. The SoulFullHeart Current Podcast is a way to serve and also be transparent with who we are and what we feel to embody and create outside the dystopian world that is being widely peddled today. We offer compassion, illumination, direction, feeling, and grounded action that is rooted in the individual self first, that then can spread to others through your own transformation and advocacy. Visit www.soulfullheart.org/sessions for more information.

We appreciate any ideas for future podcasts for us to delve into as they arise for you. You can leave a comment or email those to us, along with any other comments to soulfullhearts@gmail.com.

You can find our online community, the SoulFullHeart Portal, on Mighty Networks at https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co. We highly recommend joining our online community where for only $22/month, you’ll have access to what could be the deepest and most meaningful soul family connections you’ve yet to experience, exclusive videos/guided meditations from us as well as Raphael and Jelelle Awen, and more personal pieces being shared from each of us in our intimate community.

Thank you for being in The Current with us. It is where we strive to let go, let in, feel, heal, see, be seen, and seek resonant community!

With Love and Currency,
Gabriel & Kasha

The Inner Teenager: Our Beloved Uninitiated

I have come to recognize in myself and in others, how much of our stasis or growth emotionally and spiritually lies a great deal within our teenage self. This self that still lives in the house of our emotional and spiritual bodies. Actually, they may even be in two separate houses due to a divorce between the two. A Spirit-Human Spilt if you will.

I knew that this was true 10 years ago when I started my healing journey. How much of a well this was and is still being discovered, met, and reconciled. This teenage time in each of our lives holds so much information about who we are now and how we relate to the world, to intimacy, and to Spirituality. Whatever our wounding was that stemmed from early childhood was like an exposed nerve ending that was cauterized through our teenage experiences.

We actually stopped growing in our emotional maturation. I personally put on the 3D ‘adult’ pants and tried to fit into that traditional mold of ‘get-a-career’. Next came a marriage, then a baby. All the while the teenager lived-on on the inside. He did the best he could playing mature adult but would leak out many times in immature actions. Then a battle would ensue with my own punishing voice to get my ‘shit’ together.

Others may have taken on the spiritual route earlier and stayed away from more 3D type jobs and found a less ‘stable’ environment from which to live yet be free of the Matrix while still being a part of its clutches. A teenage relationship to Spirituality grew that was disconnected from its human pain and a shell of a true integrated spirituality was born.

Maybe it was a blend of the two.

Either way, our unfelt and integrated teenager has been at the helm of our growth trajectory deciding what is and isn’t acceptable. He or she has decided that they own the keys to the car now and it is up to them what happens next. This unhealed teenager is probably found most noticeably in our intimacy and sexuality. They were hurt deeply in these relationships and damned if they will be hurt again. Sexuality either becomes underexpressed or overexpressed and that can show up in their relationship to spirituality as well in the seducer and the seductress.

We were most susceptible to influence and hijacking at this time of our life. We were also susceptible to hiding and fighting. Our relationship to all of Life on all levels was deeply embedded during this time. While our Inner Child may forgive more easily, our Inner Teenager has been less likely to, as it needed to be like this in order to survive and maybe even thrive. To say that we are still emotional teenagers on some level is not a judgment. It is a reality that exists until we are open to come into the same space with him or her and really be honest with where they still have the proverbial keys to the car. This is also not meant to shame ourselves or them for it. It is to heal, to mature, and to integrate the power that we had at that age yet has been distorted.

If you take a look at the world through this lens, you may see it all acting out from this place of teenage wounding and lack of true initiation. Of course, that is not ALL that is going on but it is one big facet. If you were to visit and feel this part of you, you may be surprised by what may still be operating in the background of your emotional and even spiritual consciousness. The goal is to help free this part of you from the position of trying to be the adult when all he or she wants is to be felt as the magical, beautiful, and powerful being it is and was. They have a role in our lives that is not about being in control but about being initiated into our sacred mature humanity. The more we feel them and even challenge them, the more we can start to feel the real spiritual man and woman we truly are.

Bridging Our Humanity & Our Spirituality | Ep.2 – The SoulFullHeart Podcast

In this episode, we share a bit about our feelings and perspectives on the gap that exists between our humanity and our spirituality and how the SoulFullHeart process can assist and support in bridging that gap by connecting to aspects such as what we call the Gatekeeper, a soul protector and guardian, as well as our wounded 3D parts that have their own trauma that keeps us anchored and looping in those frequencies. It is through our Divine Self that we can bridge and unite the chasm between the two.

Please follow us on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, Google Podcasts, Audible, and Anchor.fm to help us get our transmission out to others! 🙂

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SoulFullHeart is a healing process, a contextual paradigm, a very powerful and empowering way of life, and a sacred community all in one. You can find out more on our website: http://www.soulfullheart.org. We’ll also be bridging everything SoulFullHeart through our own unique embodiment and experience of it to add more perspective and understanding as to where we come from and how the topics are held and felt in our hearts and souls.

We offer one-on-one and couple’s facilitation as the guidance and need arises. The SoulFullHeart Current Podcast is a way to serve and also be transparent with who we are and what we feel to embody and create outside the dystopian world that is being widely peddled today. We offer compassion, illumination, direction, feeling, and grounded action that is rooted in the individual self first, that then can spread to others through your own transformation and advocacy. Visit www.soulfullheart.org/sessions for more information.

We appreciate any ideas for future podcasts for us to delve into as they arise for you. You can leave a comment or email those to us, along with any other comments to soulfullhearts@gmail.com.

You can find our online community, the SoulFullHeart Portal, on Mighty Networks at https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co. We highly recommend joining our online community where for only $22/month, you’ll have access to what could be the deepest and most meaningful soul family connections you’ve yet to experience, exclusive videos/guided meditations from us as well as Raphael and Jelelle Awen, and more personal pieces being shared from each of us in our intimate community.

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Thank you for being in The Current with us. It is where we strive to let go, let in, feel, heal, see, be seen, and seek resonant community!

With Love and Currency,
Gabriel & Kasha

What Do You Long For?

What do you long for?

What is seeking redemption, truth, forgiveness, and love?

What is it that you truly want to feel coursing through your veins when you wake up in the morning?

Who are you really and what the hell are you doing here?

These are the penetrative questions that rumble the status quo of our current emotional and spiritual consciousness. I am being asked those questions of myself as I feel and heal old patterns within me that have taken me to the next leg of my inner quest and leadership.

When you feel like you begin to cycle on something, you have hit a ceiling. Actually, it is more like a membrane. It is not solid in reality. It only appears that way to a part of you that holds resistance to what lies on the other side. This ‘ceiling’ is actually the floor to the next level, the next chapter, of your ever-evolving growth and remembrance.

What you come to at that moment is a precipice. In front of you is a void that has no apparent stone to step on because a part of you afraid of what happens if there is nothing there to catch you. This has been a repeated part of my journey that is seeking an end. One where vulnerability, risk, and the fear of what occurs on the other side get to create the very steps that have appeared lacking yet there all along.

This suffering ceiling is what brought me to SoulFullHeart. It is what inspired me to say no more to what clearly was not working in my life at that time. It is what is inviting me to go to my next places, next steps that send me to higher heights, along with the fears of falling. There is a moment when you have to decide when the cycles end and the real loving begins. I ask again:

What do you long for?

What is seeking redemption, truth, forgiveness, and love?

What is it that you truly want to feel coursing in your veins when you wake up in the morning?

Who are you really and what the hell are you doing here?

The answers to those questions only come from going into your heart with curiosity, a mirror, and a guide. Wherever you find it, chose it and claim it one choice at a time. Your soul is ready as your heart may waver. That wavering is a universe of parts that have a lot to say and be held in. Feel them and you create a whole new world from the inside out. I offer my heart in service to that exploration of all that you are meant to be.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.