Rebooting Human Instincts During This Matrix Peak & Collapse

By Kasha Rokshana

Every time I shift my geography or a life phase itself, I’m doing so with a whole lot in my heart and awareness. I’m choosing what I’m choosing because it feels like a calling. It feels like being true to why my soul has chosen to be here on this planet at this time and it feels like the best and closest Divine alignment I can choose in order to truly live into that.

I feel a shedding of identities and ways of seeing and feeling the world that no longer fit where I’m headed and where I most need to go in my consciousness.

I feel, in every shift really but especially this latest one, that I’m returning to an instinctual way of living. I’m removing, piece by piece and layer by layer, the ‘padding’, if you will, of a life where I could afford to be told what was true, told what I needed, and encouraged strongly to lean into the structures and authorities in place without question or at least not SO many questions and especially ones that are actually about life and death.

What I mean by that, is that I was afforded a luxurious life being born into a country where corruption was well hidden yet also always in open view, more or less, if you knew where to look. I was groomed to be a part of a system that never sat right to me and that parts of me formed in order to interact with and survive in.

I’m not the only one.

The Great Awakening is a peeling back of these layers for all of us, even at different rates. There’s so much to reckon with and recognize. There’s also still SO much to question, perhaps now more than ever, and it’s actually our instinctive selves that are the ones who sniff this out.

It’s our instinct to question and to seek out answers beyond the sleepiness we’ve been accustomed to. The sleepiness of the daily grind, of occasional holidays, of living to work, of saving for the promise of ‘freedom one day’ through ‘retirement’. And now that sleepiness is being counted on by government and medical systems everywhere to bring us to an even deeper slumber through their poisonous means which have actually always been inherently poisonous with many ‘wolves in sheep’s clothing’ running the show.

If you pause for even a moment and turn off the voices all around and inside of you while simply feeling what’s rumbling through you… you may just begin to tune into that instinct you’ve been told to stuff down since childhood, that you’ve been taught to tame through the education system, and maim as you medicate in the various ways that advertising and Netflix films have taught you to embrace.

‘Fight or flight’ has either been overly active in you through the anxiety parts of you have felt for many years or non-existent because you’ve believed your caregivers/authority figures when they’ve told you that everything is ‘fine’ as long as you ‘follow the rules, pay your taxes, do what you’re told is right by those who should know better than you what that even IS’.

This instinct to question, to run away, to push away, is not wrong now nor has it ever been wrong… it was just trained to go dormant, same as it is for those who have been a part of any ‘high-control cult’ where questioning is out of the question or you will suffer greatly and be gaslighted endlessly.

To return to our instinct and let it be real again is to return to the sacredness of our humanity and to heal the suffering of many years of deep and even dark indoctrination. There’s been goodness too of course and much has been learned, for you wouldn’t be who you are now without these lessons and growth points and now you and we ALL have even more potent ones to walk out.

What I feel in all of this is a mourning and a sobriety but also a lot of hope and trust. If the way things were is falling apart at the seams as we all cast off our heavy blankets and shake off our slumber, we’ll no doubt start seeing the shifts we’ve been craving. If we can let it all fall apart and hold onto to our inner Ark, we have more than just hope… we have the promise of a new day and a new Golden Age which we will usher in together.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Words No Longer Enough As Our Throat Chakras Upgrade

By Kasha Rokshana

In this 5 month… I feel so much stirring in communication, in the 5th/Throat Chakra.

Communication through words is becoming more challenging and this feels necessary as the mind lets in that there’s far more going on than maybe you’ve realized or than is actually being talked about openly. It’s also becoming challenging as the world awakens, to cover up the true intention and energy behind the words being offered. “Finding the right words” was never really that easy to begin with, as words are really so limiting, and yet it’s become even more challenging as there is so much emotion and reaction moving through the planet, that our words alone are no longer enough to quell or heal or answer any of it.

I feel the stirring of this question as I feel all of this today;

What would happen if we all were silent for a day?

If the world could only hum its presence and the media could use no words?

What would happen if, instead of conversing and convincing, we chose instead to pause, to remain silent together?

To take the space to FEEL together?

To actually feel fears and the parts of us that hold them, and not act or react on behalf of them… to feel the heartbreak of a thousand lifetimes on this planet and others, witnessing the same growth edges, choice points, and soul turns that haven’t been truly made… yet.

All of the din of influencing and being influenced, of facts and figures, of debates and arguments, of words of love that don’t match the energy and true intention of the ones speaking them… mutes the heart, dulls intuition, dims the soul, and leads instead with a wordy brilliance learned through survival and often a need for manipulation too.

If you chose to be silent for one full day, your heart may begin to open more and your world may start to change from the inside out. If the whole world went silent for one full day, it just might begin to see itself differently, it just might begin to open up to the bigger picture of what its going through, and it just might start to heal, with ownership, all that it’s been a part of co-creating which we are individually responsible for as well.

The Divine hand, even as it stirs all it does on our journey of Ascension, offers us that we will always be felt, whether we are feeling or not. We will always be held, whether parts of us feel they can lean in or not.

And we will always be heard… whether we are silent or not.

Our communication/5th Chakra upgrades this month and beyond may feel like a downgrade in moments… yet being rendered silent for the sake of pure feeling to live in us again, is actually a way to heal even deeper than we’ve ever imagined before. All times in which I’ve experienced this and held space for others in this, magic happens and a door opens within when feeling is not explained but felt instead, and the Divine is let in through your broken-open heart.

Love, Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Surrendering To Our Sovereign Relationship To Love

The words ‘sovereignty‘ and ‘surrender‘ can be quite the portals for the masculine in us all. They are especially highlighted in relationships of all kinds. In the ongoing journey of healing my intimacy wounds, I have come to these gateways many times. Who is this ‘me’ in the we of intimate relationship? How do I maintain my own truth, needs, and desires without feeling like I am acquiescing or submitting to someone else’s truth, needs, and desires?

Before I left California 8 years ago, I lived a life that would be defined as ‘sovereign’. I was not in many relationships after my divorce, and when I was, sovereignty was a big trigger as well as commitment. Inside there was a part of me that wanted his cake and eat it too. That old wounded masculine conditioned standard. Intimacy was more about sex and having a good time rather than getting to the bare bones of my heart-truth and my deeper needs as human man.

Then I found myself in a sacred, conscious romance as well as sacred, conscious community. Those flared up that ‘sovereignty gene’ I want to call it. That switch that says, “Oh, woah! Wait! Time-out. What is going on here? I am I giving away something that I cherish for the sake of something that I am not familiar with?”. The question was, what was it that a part of me cherished and what was it not familiar with?

At the core, I found that a part of me cherished non-vulnerability and wasn’t familiar with vulnerability. Even deeper, I realized it was an existential fear of Love that was at the root of it all. When I felt the ‘me’ that was independent, sovereign, and non-vulnerable, I found a man that was lost, unhappy, and alone. Only he wasn’t able to admit that at the time. With anyone.

As men (or the masculine in women), we can so very much defend our sovereignty at the cost of real Love. That somehow Love and Sovereignty are separate and adversarial. I feel our relationship to our mothers as a pivotal piece to this equation. They represent that from which we were born from. We received love in one form or another and then we needed to break away from that to find our individuation. Our authentic manhood that needed to push away, but more healthfully could have been initiated into it by a more conscious mother and father energy.

If we did not have that, and I would say most if not all of us did, then we are continually in this push-pull relationship to Other. To Love. To Intimacy. Surrender becomes more ‘submission’ than an opening into vulnerability which is all done with our sovereignty intact. We actually can never lose our sovereignty. We are born free, yet have been convinced we are in chains. When you see those chains are really about our fear of Love and our deep separation wound, you start to unhook those chains one by one.

This is a deep soul choice to heal this wound. It is not an easy one. It brings up a lot to witness and feel. A lot to be sober about in our shadow. Yet, it also brings in a new sense of freedom. A freedom to Be. To express. To surrender into without losing ourselves, but rather re-membering ourselves. It offers Love beyond what we had been conditioned and wounded into believing is love. This is the sovereign journey back into true surrender and true power. The power of conscious Love.



Raphael Awen and I will be hosting a men’s group call this Saturday at 5pm BST via Zoom. We will be talking about these topics as well as offering a guided meditation and sharing space. You can go to soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls for more information.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

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“…incredibly healing, empowering, and transformational” | Testimonial For 1:1 Sessions For Women w/ Kasha

by Kasha Rokshana

There are many different influences that impact us on our awakening and Ascension journey, all with bigger purposes to that end. Some are easier for parts of us to trust than others while others need us to calibrate to them more before we can let them in. Some are necessary for a phase until we feel ready to move onto something else, still seeking out ‘THE’ path or process or way of life that will offer us the most alignment with our soul and our deepest growth, along with a sense of being so sincerely cared for that our deepest wounds can come forward to be felt and healed.

I’ve found that the relationship to/embodiment of SoulFullHeart really is unique to every being who comes in the door through sessions, group calls, etc, yet also has a thread of resonance that brings us all together, no matter how close you feel to come to the fire of the essence of this process which really IS a ‘way of life’ that can align with you in the ways you’ve been needing (though this isn’t true for everyone, of course). It’s triggering, it’s gentle, and it’s very alive. The energy of care from all of us who offer this work in service of love to others AND ourselves/each other really can work quickly depending on what’s ripe to be felt in you and what’s ready, with breathing, to finally be seen.

This particular soul whose testimonial I’m sharing today had been ‘seeking’ for some time for a process that would meet her where she is and offer her a sense of being felt in a very personal way. This work goes far beyond being a ‘healing method’ and even being a ‘process’ in some ways as it’s about deep self-to-self intimacy that expands far beyond ‘parts work’ and goes into soul territory as well. It’s been sweet to feel this particular soul on her journey coming in through the ‘SoulFullHeart door’ and discovering so much about herself and her own soul along the way, with her sovereignty intact.

These sessions are really ‘initiations’, as are the group calls we hold for the public and those in the process in their own ways! It’s all a part of a sacred soul discovery and healing journey that has a flow to it that is catalytic and dynamic yet also honours, always, your choice and the choice of your parts as to where you are genuinely ‘ready to go’ inside of you.

Here is Punya’s full testimonial about the process and sessions, as she has experienced them so far:

“Working with Kasha has been one of the biggest blessings in my life. For the last 6 months, I’d been looking to work with someone to get more emotional and physical support with the phase I was at in my life. I met with many counselors, therapists, spiritual coaches, energy healers, and more. I always left these sessions feeling a bit empty, feeling like I still wasn’t getting the support or help I needed. But I also couldn’t pinpoint or put into words exactly what I was looking for. That is until I met Kasha. From the very first interaction with her, I felt such a strong energetic connection to her. Although I didn’t fully understand what ‘bridging sessions’ were or the approach that Soulful Heart took, I did feel really safe and comfortable opening up to Kasha about my life and what I was going through. She held space for me to share, validated my experiences, and deep down I felt like I was truly being seen and heard for the first time by someone. I trusted my gut instincts and signed up for weekly sessions with her…

I like to think of my sessions with Kasha as ‘therapy on steroids’ – they’re incredibly healing, empowering, and transformational. Kasha listens to what you’re going through, asks clarifying questions to better understand your inner world, and then leads you into a meditation where you learn and visit the deeper parts of yourself that may been ignored/suppressed….I highly recommend Kasha and Soulful Heart to anyone who is looking for support and guidance in their spiritual journey/awakening, wanting to change their life, wanting to heal from their past, and/or wanting to improve their relationship with themselves. Their work and what they do is truly unlike anything I’ve ever seen before, yet it’s had the most healing and impact in my life in the short time I’ve been doing it ❤

~ Punya G, USA

For more info on sessions and even FREE 45min intro calls with me for women, visit: soulfullheart.org/sessions

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Spring Equinox Energies: Invitation To Feel Peaking Inner Polarities

by Kasha Rokshana

Equinox.

Equilibrium and balance.

There’s such a strong pull to polarities, especially this past year. This is necessary, though it’s been a dark passageway and we are still in it. The poultice of C-vid and every opinion/consciousness surrounding it has been backlighting our need to heal some very dark, very stark aspects of our humanity and spirituality. It’s been so challenging to see all of this coming up and out, purging out violently and aggressively in moments energetically and physically… And it’s even more challenging (and understandably so) to truly be willing to FEEL it all and feel the cries of the aching and awakening world within and without.

We all want change for the better, yet we are also all on a sacred mission to be on our own sovereign journeys around that. And, there can be no real ‘change for the better’ without feeling where there’s a push-pull toward being in the process of healing toward that. There’s much to heal, own, and acknowledge and it’s all rather sobering.

The tendency to pull away, turn our backs on each other, set boundaries without love leading, has been strongly coming up. If we are to find our way to another way of feeling through this necessary and uncomfortable phase of conflict, we need to show up for where this tendency lives inside of us, from part to part, from us to the Divine, and then we can better feel where and how it expresses between ourselves and others.

The invitation into equilibrium is about finding more unity, especially within, between light and dark, masculine and feminine. They don’t need to merge and become one energy, but they do get to offer each other gifts as you feel too where and how they’ve been at odds.

We also get to explore this finding of equilibrium without losing our individuality inside of pair-bond/sacred union/twin flame relationships, where each being has their own experiences of life and lifetimes to bring to the bond. Each being has its own polarities to reconcile between fear and love. I feel this coming into balance more within me and that then extends to Aurius and also my beloveds and the women I facilitate too, though the journey of reconciling the light and darkness within is ongoing and always unfolding.

We have so much to feel and heal, to face and confront and come to terms with, while holding it all with love and compassion, especially on the inside. This Equinox is certainly empowering all of us to take our next steps with that process!

Much love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Firing On All Cylinders: Feeling The Blocks To Passion And Purpose

There is this deep desire to have sex with Life Itself. I don’t mean that in the physical way, of course, but energetically. This fire that wants and NEEDS to create, serve, and heal. In that, it also needs to destroy, illuminate, and transmute.

SoulFire is part of our essence, as is SoulCare. One has a masculine edge, the other a feminine one. Together they make life meaningful, purposeful, and alive. This is not to judge any state you may find yourself in as ‘less than’ or ‘lacking’. It is just noting what feels alive and true and what doesn’t. It is in that awareness that you can feel where the fire is and isn’t. Where the care is real and where it is hidden.

You can imagine yourself like the engine of a vehicle that has cylinders where pistons move through to create the spark by which the engine runs. Sometimes we feel like we are running on all our cylinders and others we may only feel like we have half of them online. Like a mechanic, you can ‘go under the hood’ and see why certain cylinders aren’t firing.

It’s no so much a fixing in the 3D sense, but more of a feeling and heart presence as to what is not letting Love do its job, which is to provide you with the fuel you need to be fully alive and aware of itself.

There can be so much build-up inside your cylinders, or heart channels, that it can bog you down into states that take you into dark times. These are moments of deep rest and deep feeling. Sometimes space-holding can help move things and get clarity as well as an opening to more Love and context.

In two weeks, Raphael Awen and I will be holding a men’s group call about Power, Vulnerability, and Adequecy. These feel like big topics for men and there ongoing ascension and healing journeys. We will also be posting a video soon, with our soul brother James Elphick, having a conversation and meditation about this very thing.

We invite all of our male friends here to join us on this call as well as have a dialogue about what you feel is preventing you from full living and being your most empowered and passionate self. To all our female friends, please tell anyone you feel would be interested.

http://www.soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls

We both look forward to meeting and connecting with other men around these topics as well as offering our space-holding services. These times are showing us our strengths as well as our challenges and needs. We hope to be a part of that ongoing awakening to our liberated, wild, and alive being in the world.

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Aurius Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

My Heart Is Here To Serve

My heart is here to serve.

It was not a pretty sight about 10-12 years ago. I found myself in situations that felt like bottoms of barrels. A merry-go-round of anxiety, depression, and inner-punishment all while having the exterior of ‘having it all together’.

I found myself using alcohol, speed, and pornography as some sort of escape only to find myself deeper in the mud of Unworth. The maintenance of a ‘normal’ life was wearing thin and cracks were forming. I felt myself losing grip of a life of passion and joy. A part of me resigning to suffering as a way of life.

When I began my own journey with SoulFullHeart I was just looking for a means to find inner peace and a way to support myself doing something meaningful. What it turned out to be was much more. It was a calling back to Self and Service. And there I have found my roots.

The process of meeting and feeling the parts of me, stuck in what felt like a never-ending pattern of unworth and suffering, was a huge heart-opening as well as eye-opener. I started to see the ways in which I was creating a bifurcated world inside of myself. Love was some novel concept that you could see or read about, but not fully feel in my being.

As I have continued down this path of selves-discovery through parts work, and soul-awakening through Metasoul work, I have come to a new frontier in my life previously held in the shadow of my consciousness. We don’t always hide the ‘ugly’, but many times the beauty.

It has been through all my deep movements and initiations (that I didn’t realize were initiations), that I have found myself in sacred desire to serve. Serve those that feel connected my words, my heart, and my past. I may not have had quite the traumas others have had but my journey has taught me that I have a well of compassion, care, and curiosity…the three elements for this work.

Now, don’t get me wrong. There are hard places to go. There are challenges and difficulties. If we are called to heal and grow, this is the real and true path. Some of our parts weren’t baked from a Holly Hobby Oven, but rather from the grist of karma. This is the nature of our individual human story.

In all of that, there needs to be a sense of safety and trust. This is why we meet the Inner Protector first so that we get to feel and heal these places with permission and grace. I work WITH you, not for you. Ultimately, you are the sovereign in any session, I just open my heart and ask questions, offering intuitions along the way. Well, not JUST. Opening the heart is part of what I have worked so hard to get to. It is the fruit of my own inner labour. Now I want to share that fruit.

I have worked mostly with women and have had so many amazing experiences. Lots of growth for both of us. I have an affinity to work with the feminine as I have a close relationship with my own. I am guided by the Magdalene lineage of service.

I desire to serve men as well in their ache to find their own mark in the world through a sensitive and caring heart. I have been through my own sacred masculine journey and continue to do so. I am working with Raphael Awen monthly and will be offering Men’s Group calls and videos talking about men, healing, and spirituality. It is a deep calling to serve men into their Highest Heart and SoulFire Self.

I offer a free 45-minute introductory call to see how I may serve you in your healing into self-love and SoulFire. It is also to see if it is even a fit for both of us at this time. SoulFullHeart is a specific paradigm that is more than just a therapy or healing modality. It is a way of life in the end. Yet, that can be discovered and felt one session at a time.

I look forward to this landing in the heart or hearts that it is meant to. If you know someone in need, please send them this contact. I am blessed to be a part of this community of journeyers, healers, and leaders. I am honored to be a part of your journey and healing as well.

Much love to you whether we work together or not. We are all in this together. 🙂

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Aurius Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Loving The ‘Ugly Duckling’ Within

“Why do I feel so unlovable?”, this part of me says. “Why do I feel so ugly?”

“Who told you you were unlovable and ugly?”, I reply with compassionate curiosity.

“I don’t remember. There are just voices. Whispers in the wind.”, he says.“I don’t see you as ugly or feel you as unlovable. I feel you needing a reflection of Love so you can see and feel what you truly are. Is that hard to let in?”, I ask.

“It is. You can show me and yet the wind comes. Changes the reflection somehow. I wish that wasn’t true.”, he says as his head looks down.

“It’s okay, dear one. I will stay here every day, every minute, every second until you see the real you. The you that I see and feel. The you that doesn’t hold court for the whispers anymore. I will be patiently persistent because I love you. Always…and in all ways.”, I tell him as he looks up with tears in his eyes.

“I would like to see and feel that someday soon. It has always seemed so hard. So permanent. Like nothing can ever change and I will always be like this. I get that I have allowed this perception to persist as reality. I have not felt strong enough to choose otherwise. Maybe with you here with me, reminding me, showing me, feeling me, I can change how I see myself the way you see me. Thank you. I needed this. I may need it in an hour.”, he says with his head down again.

“Then in an hour I shall be here too.”


There are times when a part of us just feels ‘ugly’. I don’t just mean the physical kind but the behavioral and emotive kind. These are times we feel small and want to hide away from the world. It can feel like quicksand and get stuck in a loop.
When you can feel this as a ‘part’ of you then you can start to access a different flow of energy from Divine love source through you to this part of you. A stream of Love through consciousness.

Like the part of me said above, “I may need it in an hour”, then an hour I shall be there. It is an ongoing process of feeling and showing up that leads to healing and eventually a sense of liberation from the “voices in the wind”.

This is a practice at first and then just a way of being with yourself that is just natural and consistent. It is the alchemy of self-to-self love as well as Divine-to-self love. The transmutation from the duckling to the swan. The wounded ego to the Divine Self. All held in love and compassion, not self-improvement. Just self-feeling.

If you are wanting/needing to feel this alchemy within you to support you in your flourish, please contact me for a free intro call to see how the SoulFullHeart process can hold space for that connection and transformation.

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Aurius Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Catharsis Of Soul Scream

Soul scream….

Hidden and lurking within can be an angst, an anger, a frustration so profound it can rock your world both inside and out.
We are all holding so much inside. Each one of us. Some more or less than others but it is all part of our journeys. Healing sometimes will bring you to the next layers of your soul pain.

This pain from an infinite variety of trauma is stored in the vaults of your soul to be opened and felt when the time is right. When there enough You there to hold it and love it.

Let it rip can be cathartic. It can also be a portal. To release the scream can bring relief, feeling and understanding where it comes from and why it is there can bring transmution and integration.

This Soul Scream can come from repressed truth, witnesses or experienced injustice, Kundalini surges/awakening, and veil lifting. It may be an essential part of our ascension to be intimate and vulnerable with this inner angst.

It holds power, creativity, alchemy, passion, and authentic voice. It is your hidden Real Self coming into contact with the Present. It is gather its sea legs in this dimension and reconciling the trauma and pain.

This is not easy or fun, but it may be necessary to move onto the next phase of growth and healing. When held in safe space such as community and nature it can have life-altering effects.

If you are feeling these rumbles and would like to feel into them more, please feel free to contact me for a free intro call to see how the SoulFullHeart process may support you in this integration and birthing.

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Aurius Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Mirror Of Sacred Sisterhood

By Deya Shekinah

Spending real, intimate time with women is such a gift to my heart and soul. I am recognising that there has been so much in the way of deeper bonds with women my whole life; competition, insecurity, unworthiness and jealousy being some of them. I feel how hard that has been on me and my parts, even more so now as I feel how deep the need for union with women really is. The uniqueness of the connection between women is so special and I feel how we do really need each other in a way that is different to our need for and with men.

I always feel so inspired and enlivened after deep union with women and deeply nourished by where women can go together when they feel safe and can rest and lean into one another. We understand and feel each other so deeply in wordless spaces and ways, which is something I feel I have looked for in my relationships with men my whole life and has brought a deep dissatisfaction to parts of me. Only now am I recognising how men are not really meant to fulfill our need for each other as women.

There is healing that needs to happen to let women in and trust women again after all the years and lifetimes of competition and hurt that has been experienced between us. I feel the pain of having had to turn away from one another to survive in a world where we are led to believe that we cannot do it without a man. How dangerous it has been at times to be a woman and still is for many women in the world today, and I can feel what that has led and does lead us to do to one another to just get through it.

I feel how the need for connection with women is so deeply buried under a lot of pain and distrust that it can be hard to recognise that need is even there. I am being invited daily as part of life within the SoulFullHeart community to feel my needs and desires that have been deeply buried in order to survive, and then invited to reach out to ask for what I want. It can feel terribly vulnerable for parts of me to even acknowledge that they need others, especially women, and I am still not quite sure why that is. As I do this though, I am getting to experience something new with women that is so deeply nourishing and healing in ways I cannot mentally track but I feel it as it ripples through my body and creates a deep rest and sigh of relief within my womb. 

I feel so deeply blessed to have wonderful women in my life and for all the women who have helped me prepare to let all this love in that I am experiencing now with my closest Sisters. Everytime I meet in deep, real, intimate connection with women, I am changed, and I remember more of who I am and more about why I am here.

Jelelle Awen and Kasha Rokshana will be holding this month’s SoulFullHeart Women’s Group Call this Sunday 7th March at 5pm (London time) This month’s call is about healing and activating the Womb, work that is very close to my heart and I feel so supports this deeper healing between us as women. This women’s group is open to the public and to all women over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant & Community Member. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.