Energy Update: 1/11 Portal Offers Self Loving Completions And Timeline Collapses

By Jelelle Awen

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Portals are starting to open in preparation for 1/11 coming up soon. You can see it in this photo that we took yesterday at the beach here and we are recognizing that the sun widens like this horizontally (looking like a space ship) when a portal is opening. As I have been tracking these cosmic Gateway and Portal openings for the last year especially, I can feel them now in my body, in my consciousness, in my heart…less and less now from tracking any kind of calendar or reading what others are sharing about them. Metatron and my other guides/aspects keep me in the loop on these events too with a gentle nudge to go take in the sun codes or open up to the portals and gateways during meditation.

Taking in the sun codes yesterday at the beach, I could feel them speaking to my skin, talking to my every living cell. The codes were reminders of the process, that it is ongoing…this Ascension…that it is an invitation to receive and respond to in every moment. These codes were activating ones to some degree and I felt altered afterwards. I am so often in an ‘altered state’ these days and it is getting more difficult for me to determine that as it is more the ‘normal’ than the ‘old normal’! If that sentence made sense to you, then you are ‘getting’ how beyond the mind’s tracking this process is!

There was a peacefulness in the codes too, a softness…it made us all blurry actually and we ‘passed out’ all five us lying in a row. We all felt afterwards that we had probably ‘group traveled’ somewhere in the astrals together, a trip to Golden Earth together where 3D really is left behind. The sounds of 3D fade away and blur away…this happens many times at the beach as it is a place where the ‘edges’ of consciousness dimensions overlap. It is at the beach where I most feel how the dimensional consciousness realities could split off from each other….3D separating into its own timeline reality and those of us in 4D and 5D and higher into ours.

As we go into this 1/11 portal, there is a feeling of truly leaving behind the old timelines and the previous 3D anchors. These timelines are wanting to collapse and maybe they already ARE for you or starting to. A timeline collapsing can feel like crisis or life changing events or live altering decisions. It can also feel like just ‘running out of gas’ on your old timeline as your tank is now empty to receive anymore of the old 3D fuel. Parts of you can no longer run on the fumes of the known and familiar.

What has previously been a struggle and a challenge and a contention can be soothed into resolution by these 1:11 codes if you let them in. Areas in your life that need it can be loved into completions if you are open to them. They offer a reminder to trust your Higher Self guidance, to trust your heart and what it wants, to trust your soul and what it kNOWs about WHY you are here and what your purpose is here. These codes can help with trust at that level AND can support parts of you that have difficulty with trust to move into those frequencies with you.

Tensions and pain may be coming up in your muscles especially as you adjust to these NEW codes and the NEW Earth life they are beaconing you toward. Parts of us energize in these muscles and the chakras associated with them as well. Especially in the head, neck, and shoulders. This is also where quite a bit of upgrading is happening as the pineal and pitutary glands crystalize, the throat, third eye and crown chakras all upgrade to more multidimensional. I am finding that a vinyassa flow yoga practice is helping alot to move these tensions and built up energy! We are all into Yoga with Adriene right now and her 30 day video series….a wonderful loving approach and grounded energy to breathe, stretch, love, and feel your body: https://www.youtube.com/user/yogawithadriene

These codes have a ‘feminine wrapper and buffer’ over them. The Divine Mother supports the INtegration of them with Her receiving energies. I’ll be sharing more about them and providing a meditation for you to receive a deeper activation during my 1/11 video, Day 11, in my 33 Day video series called Metamorphosis. You can view all eight videos that I’ve shared so far here: https://www.youtube.com/watch…

If it is cold and freezing where you are right now, you are welcome to take in these sun codes through the photo I shared here of them at the beach yesterday. You can teleport yourself to the beach, to the sun, to receive and let in. You can also take them in through meditation, asking to connect with them….you may even feel your skin ‘warming UP’ to receive them!

As we move closer to 1:11, the opportunities increase to let in guidance, get clarities about next steps, feel and respond to resonance. The opportunities for UNITY from within and with others continues to deepen, expand, and widen as we experience more New Earth in the Now!

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Join Raphael and I, plus Gabriel and Kalayna, for our monthly group call this Saturday, January 13th at 11:11am CST in which MORE activation to New Earth energies is available and shared! More details here:https://www.facebook.com/events/1783574521666832/

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

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Supermoon Energies And Divine Feminine Meditation – Day 2: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

By Jelelle Awen

 

Supermoon and Divine Feminine energies coming through beautifully today during Day Two of Metamorphosis, my 33 Day video series that started yesterday on January 1st and completing on February 2nd!

In this day two video, I invite you to connect with the Divine Feminine frequencies that are coming up and being offered through the Supermoon and throughout January with ANOTHER Supermoon at the end of the month, plus a lunar eclipse. These energies ARE personal, not just cosmic, and provide a mirror to you for feeling, exploring, and BEing. I share my awakening to Divine Feminine frequencies back in 2010, which came after becoming Reiki attuned. I experienced a deeply touching connection with four Divine Feminine forms of Kuan Yin, Magdalena, Mother Mary, and Dark Mother/Kali. My experience of Her energies since then has just deepened and expanded into a very personal and nurturing experience.

I then guide you in a meditation to connect with Divine Feminine/Mother energies through whitish-pink energies, sitting a circle, and letting in lots of love through the heart chakra. You may see and feel Divine Mother quite clearly, or get a sense of your Inner Protector – a masculine energy that guards and protects the feminine experience from both inside and out. Here is more about the Inner Protector: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Mother’s energies were touching as they came through today and I hope they provide some comfort to you as we continue this INtense transition into the new!

Thank you for joining on this second day of 33….as we move into Metamorphois energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos:

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

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You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at Soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance. An organically arising community may form out of the shared experience and energy of taking in the series….a love-based group Merkabah!

Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

January Supermoon Amplifying Energies

By Jelelle Awen

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Supermoon energies yesterday and continuing into today….wow! Maybe it was the collective ‘hangover’ energy yesterday on New Year’s Day bringing up edges and some irritation….but there was definite amplification of whatever energies were around and coming out. Hangovers can be about more than too much alcohol and for those of us sensitive to energy and who don’t drink…they are usually about taking in frequencies that we are not used to…..lower, denser, more 3D, more dissonant.

This hangover feeling can be felt on the collective level, even if you stayed at home, even if you didn’t engage AT ALL in the 3D ‘celebrations’ of the New Year. As you awaken, you become more and more a receiver of collective frequencies…..as you are meant to receive and transmute them on some level as you expand into Unity Consciousness. Transmuting them happens through the Higher Heart/Christ Consciousness Heart….it is the BEST place to move energies as its capacity for compassion and connection to Unity Consciousness can transform without as much personal blowback (other than what we are meant to see and feel mirrored to us).

Our Higher Heart becomes congested and covered over by unfelt traumas in our emotional bodies from 3D life and also in our Metasoul from karma traumas playing out in other lifetimes/timelines. Covered over by false god loyalties and subsequent disillusions. Covered over by shame, unworthiness, abandonment that live in parts of us until they are connected with directly and felt. Covered over by distrust and disconnect from parts of us that have suffered and still are. Covered over by anchors to 3D life that still settle, shrink, and conform. The Higher Heart becomes uncovered and revealed and healed as we feel the parts of us that hold these woundings…..loving and BEing with them.

It may have been a TALL order yesterday to just BE in your own feeling spaces around the digestion of 2017 completing, growing INtentions and desires around 2018, AND the collective hangover energies too….all of this amplified by the Divine Feminine moon that invites us into feeling. I also felt a surge upward of lower vibrational fear frequencies related to false god-based and abusive leaders in spirituality. The Divine Mother is calling us even deeper into heart discernment about who we trust to temporarily guide and support us on this Ascension journey if we feel that we need that…..Kalayna writes so clearly and beautifully about this here:https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/2018-energies-invite-disce…/ This flush out of shadow leadership is happening on the governmental and political levels too of course with the collective disclosure process amping UP.

Physical pain may have manifested for you too….especially if you took in lower energy frequencies, toxic stuff, denser foods, conflict or tensions that you are not used to on New Year’s Eve. Pain and tension in the head, neck, and shoulders areas is a place where the collective energies can be ‘stored’ (as they mirror something in your emotional body or soul/auric field) and also can be a sign of drawing fear-based energies and entities. The pain moves with self love, holding space for the process and being open to what it is showing and telling you.

I’ll be sharing much more about Supermoon energies and leading a guided meditation to connect with Divine Feminine frequencies today in my Day Two – Metamorphosis 33 Days Video Series if you’d like to take that in as I will be sharing it on this blog later.

Love and blessing to you in this NEW Earth year of INtention and transition!  

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Photo is a ‘supermoon’ full moon rising behind the guard tower on the 17th century San Salvatore Bastion in Pieta, Malta, January 1, 2018. © Darrin Zammit Lupi / Reuter

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more! 

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: Grounding Frequencies Available With Gaia To Allow More INtegration

By Jelelle Awen

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I am in and of the frequency of Gaia today during meditation, the Schumann Resonance vibrating around me. This is the heartbeat of Mother Gaia….immediately soothing and, just, so, so natural. It feels like being a fetus again, tucked into Mother’s womb, being soothed by the sound of Her heartbeat echoing all around. The main Ascension energies in this Now seem to be coming from Gaia, continuing to assist with the feminine-based INtegration process that began in earnest with the Supermoon earlier this month AND continuing into January, where we will receive mega Divine Feminine energies from two Supermoons and a lunar eclipse.

Gaia’s frequency is received in a natural way too…through your Earth Chakra that swirls about one foot below your physical feet. Your Earth Chakra is connected to a network of Earth Chakras, forming an energetic branch system that EVERY human BEing is naturally resonant with. These branches come off of a main trunk or ‘grounding cord’, as it is commonly called, that reaches down to the deepest center and core of Gaia. You can move lower vibrational frequency energies (and pain, congestion, energetic kicks from others, Archon ‘attacks’) through this grounding cord and they will be absorbed and transmuted by Gaia. I’ve been engaged in this grounding cord connection process (off and on) since I was 20 years old and first learned it during a meditation class. I still include it today in almost all of the guided meditations I offer and lead.

Walking barefoot or burying your feet in sand or warm baths with Himalayan salts creates a visceral sense of connecting to this Gaia vibration. Yet, too, visualizing the grounding cord/trunk that runs from your Earth Chakra to the center of Gaia during meditation provides just as much access to Her grounding frequencies, maybe even more. Gaia lives INSIDE of us all ultimately on the physical, spiritual, and emotional levels, so interacting with Her through meditation is very nourishing. You have less need to go OUT to Her actually to be activated to Her higher frequencies as they more vibrate from within you as you BEcome New Earth. The oceans, the forests, the mountains, the rivers, the lakes…all HER forms of natural expression are from within you. Mother Gaia is wonderful to have conversations with as a Guide and receive EARTHLY Mama love hugs from too!

I have been brought more often into Inner Earth during Galactic Ambassadorship and personal processes during meditation lately. I am acclimating to how it feels and looks to BE down there, although it doesn’t really feel like ‘down’ with the amazing natural lighting that even FEELS warm like sunshine, huge and spacious caverns, and ultra modern (beyond what we have on the surface) structures. I’ve just begun connection with these Inner Earth BEings, so will share more as it develops. I am still mostly being guided by Binkh, my Arcturian Metasoul Aspect, and Beslopah, my Blue Avian Metasoul Aspect. You can read more about them in my books (especially in my latest one called Bliss Mess coming out on January 1st) and other writings too shared on soulfullheartblog.com.

These Guides offer to me that we’ll be focusing our collective attentions more on Inner Gaia or Inner Earth as disclosure continues to unfold. We’ll be finding out eventually about the vast networks of tunnels and cities that have been created below our feet, below where our eyes can see. This collective disclosure will probably start with the revelations of long abandoned structures from Star BEings commonly called the Builder Race.

We’ve been gifted the surface of Gaia to play out our 3D ascending to 5D experiment while so much has remained purposely hidden from us until our consciousness is ready to digest it. Integration of the Inner Earth civilizations and Star BEings (and humans) who live down there is an important aspect of Ascension…once more people get acclimated to the existence of Star BEings and our long involvement with them (as is now coming out in even the mainstream media!).

Connecting our Gaia frequency with our Star BEing frequency….forming a bridge from our Earth Chakra to our Stellar Gateway (personal cosmic sun chakra about two feet above our heads) activates our 5D Sacred Human ‘Violet Print’ (as I have been offered to call it). This Violet Print is our Sacred Human column that is being activated by all these Ascension energies coming from Divine Masculine and Feminine sources, along with our Merkabah or light body vehicle. This is a recent guided meditation that I did offering activation and connection with your Ascension chakras, including your Earth Chakra and Stellar Gateway.

444 views on it as I posted it to share here!

As this column is activated, then we can feel and see where the darker places of fear congestions still vibrate in our emotional bodies, our energy fields, our Metasoul. We relate with this in SoulFullHeart as parts of us and Metasoul Aspects that we connect with, integrate, unify, cleanse, clear, heal in an unique and organic way that is in collaborative rhythm with you. More info here about sessions with us and the process: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess

This Divine music from Lokos TV really assisted me in connecting to the frequencies of Gaia and it may you as well: 

I don’t feel that Gaia is ‘shaking us humans off like fleas’ if we don’t resonate with Her as She moves into higher frequencies of 4D as some others offer about the Ascension process. She is inviting us to come WITH Her! She invites us to connect with the very natural and organic frequencies of Her that live in our DNA, our every living cells, and in our Star Seed child selves too. Her frequencies provide a reminder and Invitation to experience both our groundedness and our Infinite essence as Love!

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more! 

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: Winter Solstice Offers New Earth In The HERE And NOW

By Jelelle Awen

 

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This doesn’t feel like an ordinary Winter Solstice….is there such thing as ‘ordinary’ anymore? So much is accelerating in activity on in the collective, on a Galactic level with Star BEings, and from within each of of us on the Ascension path.

This Winter Solstice is the beginning of a NEW season where it feels like rapid change will become more of the new normal in the year 2018. Change on all levels inside of your bodies becoming crystal; your chakras becoming crystal; your hearts becoming crystal; your emotional bodies becoming crystal; your Merkabahs becoming crystal. Clearer, brighter, and freer, you feel more and more and on deeper levels than ever before!

You may be amazed at how much is moving from within you in just one ‘day’ and how much you are integrating, letting in, and letting go. What has previously been ‘lived with’ on some level, still anchored to 3D, is straining and fading. Maybe you are able to LET GO more quickly, more easily with less protest and resistance from parts of you and more sense of Ethereal, Star BEing/Star Family, and Higher Self support. Hiding anything becomes impossible as your frequency shifts more into 4D in all areas of your life.

The Divine Feminine opened UP even more on 12:12, illuminating us all in the glow of Her Supermoon. She continues to beacon us into the deeper regions of ourselves, into our emotional bodies, into the places inside that need the light of our love. She sometimes lights the match to burn away what is false in our lives and within ourselves, yet always, too, She is there to provide a balm of comfort to sooth the mourning pains.

The Divine Feminine makes it safer for disclosures to begin or accelerate on all levels; for the revealing of what has been hidden to come forward for healing. No more hiding. She holds and responds to this disclosure process with a steady compassion that forgives, allowing for genuine remorse from the masculine to flow. She brings out the King that has been hiding in the woundedness of the boy. She supports the continuation of the process of transforming the wounded masculine (in both men and women) into its sacred human essence.

She has invited us into Her womb to INtegrate, to yintegrate, so much of these activations and upgrades that we’ve been receiving and being gifted by the Great Cosmic Sun/Divine Masculine. Her activations are more emotional, about making space and holding space, creating a womb space for the parts of us that need us and our tender care and love. The Divine Masculine gifts seemed to come in more bounty and in earnest acceleration with the total Solar Eclipse in August, as if Her moon blocking the light brought more into alignment.

And, alignment is here during this time of Galactic Alignment over the last days and continuing through the Solstice…as the center of our outer galaxy lines up with the Sun and Gaia, so is the invitation for our inner galaxies to align through the feeling and healing of ALL aspects of ourselves in ALL timelines.

What is of lower frequency, heavy, dark, painful, and frustrated is not so easily suppressed or held away or covered over by parts of you anymore. Your Inner Protector is probably getting tired and wants deeply to rest. Things are leaking through that sometimes they would rather didn’t, yet that need to come up. Other lifetime ‘memories’ are bleeding through, along with childhood/teenage emotional energy congestions formed in parts of you that are often stuck there and want to be freed. Dreams are more intense, plus increase in what feels like ‘outside of you’ activities and energies.

All this could bring up temporarily even more vigilance and guarding from your Protector yet also can lead to burn out and overwhelm. The Protector is tired of guarding and being so vigilant and wants to transition to your guide and Gatekeeper of your Metasoul, channel to Divine love and all your other lifetime/timelines. More about the Gatekeeper healing process here through SoulFullHeart: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatekeepers

Loving your physical body, loving your emotional body, loving the parts of you that are afraid and resistance, loving your 3D anchors, loving even what feels dark and demonic through these intense energies and with the help of these energies….this becomes easier in the Now. This will just BEcome more natural as we vibrate more and more out of the old fear-based frequencies and into more New Earth/5D.

New Earth is more in the HERE and the NOW on this Solstice and available in ALL moments as you continue to integrate and align from within into your Sacred Human Self!!

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more! 

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Beloved Sister Of Healing Heart: A Poem

by Kalayna Colibri

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Painting: Divine Wisdom by Shiloh Sophia McCloud

Sister, beloved… take the hand of your heart. Bring yourself to that gateway of gifts abounding, soul deep, heart-centered. Heart of woman, beyond these ties of dictate and graphic, hollowed-out wanting from opinions of those without sanctuary within… this is the invite to those meadows of love where your expression can move beyond and into the well-spring of your tired, yet renewing heart.

Sister, beloved… remember that place you’ve come from, to see what you are entering. The softening gaze of the heart is the place where only more light is seen, now illuminated and shined-up by the darkness of shadowy sinews and scenes.

Sister, beloved… know, feel, trust, that my heart, with the heart of all sisters, goes with you, in conscious and unconscious form. Your journey inward is for you and for all of us… and we are together anyway, in all ways, in all phases, as we burn, learn, and arise…

Love,

Kalayna ❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Portal To Your Wildest Dreams Lies With(yin)

 

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Taking in a new arising desire for creativity after yesterday’s deep rest gestation gateway. It has a more balanced masculine approach to it. In a state of creation without production. This writing may not see publication. Who knows? I don’t even really know what I am focusing on today. Just being in the Now with what is moving through me. Letting feeling and intuition guide the way.

This creative motor is the root of our BEing. We are constantly creating. Responding to our inner emotional needs, fears, and desires. I desire to serve others in the name of Love through and with the SoulFullHeart process. I respond to that desire with writing, recording, meditating, connecting, and living the process in my daily life. I desire to heal, so I respond to that with feeling my inner world of parts and metasouls as the need arises in life and relationship triggers. It is not always neat and tidy. Matter of fact, it is rarely so because emotions are just not meant to be that way. If our Higher Self didn’t want to feel and experience all of this, you and I just would not be here. This is still a bit to swallow, especially if you have had, or are going through, some really serious shit.

There is a deep desire for geography change as part of this new timeline of “What is it that you really want?” comes into full view. So many desires sitting at the docks of our harbor waiting for sailing. I can feel myself in new lands, taking in new vistas, and new people to serve in Love. A mobile, responsive healing brigade of Love lovers spreading the gospel (good news) of parts work, metasoul healing, and practical ascension. Love wanting to heal the shadow into more Love. I respond to this by dreaming, imagining, and feeling the resistances and doubts within.

This gift of dreaming is what carries you through each day. It can also be what burdens a part of you too. Like, “How in the hell can I make THAT happen when there is THIS in my way!”. Yeah, good question. Well, the way is feeling what part of you is actually saying that because it ain’t you. If you are seeing the dream, feeling the dream, you are already the dream. But is just doesn’t feel like it because you are still ‘here’. “How can I be there if I am still here?” Yup…good question.

I would ask you where ‘here’ is. What does it feel like emotionally? Not situationally or geographically. Then you would respond to this feeling as being held by a part of you. Most generally an Inner Protector or Gatekeeper. Gaining separation from it so you can have a relationship to it. It is your Relation Ship. The one that you then unanchor from the dock and start sailing the tides of your emotional body with You at the helm. It ebbs and flows but you make forward progress each time to the destination you are dreaming about. In reality, you are already there, it is just these parts of you that are catching up to you. Feeling it that way gives you an empowered process rather than feeling stuck in the mud with your wheels turning. Alchemical traction.

Feeling through all the things that keep you from manifesting your dreams, feeling an inner joy, or discovering your passion purpose is what moves you to the next serendipitous moment of ‘coincidence’ and draw. Thinning out the distance between your heart and your imagination. It is not about HOW you are going to make it happen in a 3D sense, it is about WHAT you want, or are going to make happen. The timing is not up to you, but the choice to feel and heal is. Taking that step to transform your inner world is portal that takes you where you already are…in your wildest dreams.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Going Yin: Birthing Through A Gateway

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Photo by Autumn Skye Morrison

Enjoying some rest time today. I was guided to just BE in quiet yinner space and let my heart guide me. Feel what needs connecting with inside. Then I recalled it was 12/12 today. A significant gateway into a higher timeline. I have been feeling a feminine container around me this last week or so even during occasional masculine production modes. I can actually feel Her during these times. She is wrapping something around me to guide me, and maybe more specifically, an aspect of me into a new ground of balanced creativeness. When I feel the more pressing or pushing energy, I know I hit the wall of Her womb gently inviting me back inward.

It is far less than it used to be in the past, but when it arises it is becoming much more recognizable. So it felt important to take this Yin space and feel this with my parts, more specifically my Gatekeeper, or soul guardian, for whom I am in deepening relationship with. He was feeling how the energy to produce can come from a need to fill a lack or void within. Something that is not being felt from a You-to-You space. It is the void space that holds some of our deepest fears. Fears of rejection, abandonment, and inadequacy. So much doing and achieving can be used to fill and cover this hole yet still not feel Whole.

This is a very kinetic feeling inside. An upward swing of temporal euphoria, like a subtle brush across the forehead that symbolizes a relief that a part avoided the void once again. The reality of course is that no matter what we throw into it or try and cover it with, it will always be there until we feel that part of us that is working overtime and not getting paid for it…meaning it is not feeling the deeper pain and being held in it with love.

I could feel the deeper layers of Noel needing connection with me. Needing help navigating this birthing into being and meaning. So used to being in the shadows, hiding and protecting. Being fused to the more wounded need for being loved by what you do and don’t say rather than who you are and what your truth is. Not being fully aware of what Love truly is wanting him to feel about himself as a part of a bigger picture of service and surrender.

This is where the infusion of divine feminine energy is helping to birth both of us into a new timeline of leadership and expanding vulnerability. Purpose and meaning. The space between motion and rest. There is a great balancing act occurring in my world today as I surrender to it. That feels like the key into this next gateway. Surrendering to the feelings inside that are inside the covered void. Creating a Yin day for yourself and the parts of you that need your love and attention. This is what is offered in SoulFullHeart as a means to feel the deeper layers of your being to allow for more arising of your authentic and glorious creative You.
I feel how the masculine in us all, both male and female, benefits from this rest and going yin time. Not as a means to check out, but a way to feel the next pieces to move into a higher vibration of joy and BEing that makes us whole again.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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12/12: Divine Feminine Integrates OUTput with INput

By Raianna Shai
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Today is 12/12, that may not mean much to you, or maybe it means a lot! I never kept track much of numbers or their meaning before this year. But one thing I’ve discovered is that if you can find meaning in something, then why not feel if it resonates for you?
 
A month ago was 11/11, a time for a shift in a higher timeline, a realization and a choice point of living into your highest creativity, progress, and ultimate heart’s desire. This was around the time that I started doing a lot of graphic projects for SoulFullHeart. A new revamp of almost everything visual that we put on the web. I was excited, it was a new way to output my creativity in a way that parts of me didn’t feel I needed technical “skill” for.
 
It was also around the time I started working with an Inner Punisher and previous to that, a part we call an Inner Protector. Both of these parts of me, these energies that have existed within me for years and years it feels like, are both male. I never thought starting this process that I would ever have a male part. I had always associated myself as being “feminine”, which had a very different meaning for me before this process. But the timing of working with these parts went hand in hand with all of the output and projects that I’ve had going on this past month.
 
Whether or not these dates really “mean” or “do” anything, I have felt a supporting of this creative energy lately. Something within me, often feeling like it was outside of me, encouraging the experimenting and pushing and feeling it all along the way. I felt unworthiness, self judgement, frustration, anger, doubt. Everything that comes along with starting and inhabiting something new. Yesterday I finally connected with the energy of my Inner Punisher in the moment of feeling these doubts, rather than afterwards. It felt like such a distinct difference in letting him roll out what he was feeling then and there, with tears along with it. I went about the rest of my day in a much more restful state, allowing projects to arise for me anew and choosing to do what my heart desired.
 
So here we are on 12/12, after a supermoon and preceeding two supermoons in January. As I’ve been learning, femininity can be represented by the moon, as the masculine energy influx was represented by the sun in the August eclipses. And today I feel a stillness and a letting in. I feel an appreciation of what I’ve started this past month and an awareness of its beauty that came from my heart. It’s time now for me to “reap the rewards” of all of the OUTput and INput, too. I will go IN, with love and care, feeling and healing, to give space for my heart’s work and the parts of me that need my love along the way.
 
Happy 12/12 ❤
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Energy Update: 12:12 Gateway Offers Divine Feminine Integration W/Metatron And Sophia

By Jelelle Awen w/Archangel Metatron and Sophia

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They stand at the gateway, which shimmers with lit up, golden and red sparkles of light. We are in front of a literal gateway for 12:12, which is not necessary what I am expecting and yet I’ve learned to be open to the unknown. Archangel Metatron is here in his fatherly form, radiating wise kindness. Goddess Sophia is here in her softness… brown waves of silky hair, sweetly and powerfully wise. They are greeting me here, representing Divine Masculine and Divine Feminine Wisdom, guides for us during the Ascension process, creating bridges for us to experience the remembrance and embodiment of our TRUE selves.

We walk through the gateway together and I feel how they are a metaphor, really…..all these Gateways and Portals and Star Gates. They represent humanity’s desires for adventures, for change, to be brought to the New, to be teleported beyond our wildest dreams to Heaven, which actually lives inside of us. These things are not as much existing in the Cosmos or in space as they are within each of us, representing our rediscovery of our Galactic origins and reconnection to Star BEing Unity Consciousness.

“Do these things actually exist?” I ask them as we ‘sit’ somewhere on the other side of the gateway with puffy, floating clouds forming the floor and the ceiling and the walls. “These Portals, Gateways, and Star Gates? I’m feeling them as also metaphors for humanity’s deepest desires to experience Heaven from within again. Do the dates of 12/12 or 11/11 or 1/11 or 1/1 really MEAN anything since time is a 3D illusion?”

Metatron smiles at me, a blast and flash of pearly bright whiteness. “Everything that lives in your heart exists and has meaning, Jelelle. You give emotional meaning to these events, to these dates, to time and, so, they exist. You give emotional meaning to these portals and gateways and so, yes, they teleport you where your heart wishes to go.”

“The most meaningful questions that come up next for us to ask ourselves seem to be, ‘What do these things mean to me? What do they mean to my life, to serving my purpose of love here? What is the relationship that parts of me have with them?” I say.

Sophia smiles at me and nods. “We do not want to just give you answers. So many souls come seeking us for guidance and answers, to hear and feel wisdoms outside of themselves. Many times, our answers do not land anyway as the heart that is receiving them is not ready to receive them as their own truth too, which is what resonance is. What you call ‘the emotional body’ is not cleared enough of hurts and pains to transact with worthiness. This time, this ascension for your collective, is the realization of your OWN answers and your own meanings that arise as you heal your hearts to access them. And, to eventually come to feel that we ARE you and you ARE us.”

This certainly resonates with me and what I have received as clarities for myself and with others as well. “And, then, to feel where those answers come from. To sort through, with the heart leading, what part of you is holding these answers and wisdoms,” I add.

“Yes, your parts work process is quite clever at sorting this through,” Metatron responds. “It is a sort of inner tracking and guidance system that can sort through what has come from 3D and how it lives and breathes within you. And, what is originating from your Metasoul too, which I am particularly fond of as I helped to name it!” He laughs brightly.

Sophia beams at me, saying, “All in the purpose to return to wholeness, of course. We are glad you are bringing this process forward as you are, Jelelle, and living it out for yourself – and your BEloveds too – as your hearts become then clearer channels to share and serve Divine love, yet still remaining grounded in being human. Honoring your humanity as sacred while you embody transcendent frequencies from within….”

“Thank you so much,” This goes in and touches me. I take a moment to let this in. Then I say, “I did want to talk with you both about the current Ascension energies and what I am feeling about them. I have felt a shift since the 11:11 portal especially and definitely since the Super Moon into more Divine Feminine frequencies. I’m feeling like this will continue through January too as there is a lot of moon energy transmission happening then. Two Super moons and an eclipse, I believe. Less activations and upgrades, which I have associated with masculine energy, and more feminine frequencies of holding, receiving, BEing in stillness, letting in.”

“Yes, this is so,” answers Sophia. “The Great Cosmic Sun has been releasing love, beaming light, and activating much since the start of your 2017 year. All this masculine activation needs the grounding now of the feminine. The feminine holds the space for the INtegration of all these energies into the body’s every living cell, into the emotional body, into the chakras, into the mind. The feminine has the patience to gestate the birth of your sacred humanity. She waits. She rests. She mourns. She feels. Her holding this way allows for less pain and suffering too.”

I feel this in my heart as She offers it. I have experienced this in my own process, of course, over and over through many phases and stages of death and rebirth; birthing and creating and letting go; being so attached to CREATE it and then….set it free. The souls that we serve love with through SoulFullHeart sessions are undergoing this process too, sometimes this is showing up for them in dramatic life changes and relationship shiftings….and for others it is more an internal process of reformation and recreation.

“You all can become Divine Feminine midwives for this process. For humanity’s death and rebirthing process. For your own processes too. To remain in the room as the labor pains happen and to TRUST that all of it is leading to the birth of something new,” She smiles again, although now I notice there are tears on her cheeks. “We feel for humanity in this process. It is so challenging. You are so brave. You are so courageous.”

“We have so much love for you,” Metatron adds. And, I am crying then, feeling that love, feeling their trust, feeling that the answers and clarities and guidances from them don’t matter as much as this LOVE they remind us of, that they have in overflowingly ready supply for us whenever we want and need it.

They both embrace me then and it is amazing to let in as I feel them AS separate and AS me too, MY feminine and masculine wisdom unifying together in love and to offer love. Soaking this in as I am writing it to you, in this moment, as my heart communicates in the language of love.

“This love is possible for any soul who asks for it. Who wants it. Who is open to feel where parts of them don’t feel worthy to receive it. And to ask for these parts to feel it especially,” Sophia says gently, wiping the tears from my cheeks and Her own. “We can support the arising of a wise and compassionate parent inside of you all. We can provide a template for you as you all grow into your own.”

I take in how She is offering a template and respecting our bigness, sovereignty, free will choices in the same moment. This is the essence of how Ascension is held, I feel….as an invitation from the Divine that invites us to lean even as it honors our bigness…. for which every one of us can accept or reject; pull in close or push away.

My heart is full as I complete these words for now and the direct transmissions of their energies through me, although I know the love with them will move through for a while, to be shared in the sessions that I have later today.

On this 12:12 and ongoingly through January, access to the Divine Feminine from within feels like it will be closer, more intimate, ready and waiting for your receiving, your remembering, and your embracing. Ready to support you in the INtegration process. Ready to support your choices of love!

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This writing, it turns out, is the last one to be featured in my NEW book Bliss Mess, which will be available on January 1st to purchase!  

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Jelelle Awen is a Soul Scribe, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

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