We are on the cusp of another equinox. Leaving the longer, darker nights of the winter´s season. The phase of our cycle that had us going in. Into our more darkened corners. It was a time in many cultures when not much could happen externally due to the cold weather. So it was a time of reflection. It was also a time of destruction. Life itself was taking a long slumber. Letting go of all that had been alive and returning it to the earth. Much was dying in order to be reborn.
But now after much darkness and stillness, the light itself is finding its way back to a fuller state. It brings with it more awareness and a warming balm. That which was uncovered in the shadows becomes the seeds for new growth, new possibilities. The days are longer in radiance and there is a renewal and clarity in the air. Rains may come and go to bring the love needed for the integration and sowing to take hold. You are being born again, and this time the roots are bigger and stronger. More closely aligned with your truest nature.
These inner cycles can occur at any moment and at many times. They occur in an hour or over the course of a year. With each passing turn of the wheel, something deeper arises in you. Some more determined. You are done with what used to be considered ¨usual¨ and are moving into a new season of authentic. Or another layer of authentic. A more You than you ever thought you possible because you now hold the key. The willingness to see where you have been compromising and permitting. To not hold judgement but compassion for why, but now no longer need or desire.
You see the 3rd dimension in the rear-view, the sun setting on this old way of seeing and BEing. The old connections and patterns that no longer serve. It was the winter of your unconscious heart and now the birth of new life inside sees a new vision of how it could be, how it was always meant to be, and currently IS. New life is blooming inside and the rains give way to the freshness of air, the clarity of sight, and the magic of rainbows. There is a kNOWing that all will never be the same. There is a birthing of new relationships, new geographies, and new sense of inner fullness and peace. Storms come and go but the roots are firmly in the ground.
The High Summer of our New Earth lives inside you. Being showered with LoveLight daily as you clear that which has blocked your leaves from its sustenance. Your RISE higher, with each influx of saying NO to that which no longer serves, and YES to that which fuels desire and dreams. It is the Love that you are made of that now imbibes you with the will to BE HERE NOW. Flowing with the winds of your lover´s heart the tune of your galactic symphony. The cycle will soon no longer be for you will have entered a new river of existence. A previously forgotten world of divine inspiration and circulation. The time of No Time and the swirl of pastel colors among the sea of a starlit stage. A time of Love´s eternal grace that recognizes it never began and can never end. It the dawn of a new season of the Sea of Sun.
Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
The inner feminine took her space today, held HER space with the Divine Feminine coming in to provide supporting frequencies and NEW templating of what it means to be a woman. It is being open to feeling the templating we received from our birth mothers and what IS us and what is NOT. It is being open to feeling the protector aspect of us who is guarding the inner feminine, who doesn’t feel we are qualified to connect with her INSIDE us…..it is amazing in some ways how clear this energy is when we are given a bridge to it as happened today in the women’s call.
A satisfaction, a sense of serving love WITH women, together going where the soul needs and where the heart wants in the moment…guides holding the space and higher selves too. THIS group call today with women is still going into me as a nourishing experience of teaching, sharing, guiding and witnessing the beauty and gift of parts work open new possibilities for women as it has done for me for so many years. It makes me feel like a proud mama, SoulFullHeart mama even as I am NOT really the force that moves it but rather IT moves me as one way love offers itself to serve.
Thank you to the women who joined Kalayna Colibri and I, courageous souls on a journey of healing, awakening, ascending, growing……NOT an easy path, one with more ash in the air often then confetti, more sense of being your only fan at times rather than much approval or support from others, and continual venture into the unknown over and over sometimes stumbling in the dark and sometimes following a guiding inner light to reveal, eventually, something REAL.
These groups are a TASTE of what we offer through SoulFullHeart, a taste of something that if you are resonant and it is meant for you then you are urged and moved to want MORE and limitless possibilities of timelines unfold from there. Space holding sessions one-on-one, immersion visits to BE with us here in Puerto Vallarta, group process sessions (these will be offered when we have enough souls in regularly occurring session space with us), becoming a SoulFullHeart facilitator someday, coming to live near us here in community, having us come VISIT you where you are…..oh, see, so many possibilities! THESE I am very open to and eager for!
And HERE is the recording of the women’s group call. This recording is of the teachings that I did in the beginning of the call (with input from Kalayna Colibri) about the sacred feminine. Then, there is about a 40 minute guided meditation offered by me…..a journey to your inner castle, representing your essence and your inner femininity, and connects you with your inner protector. Your inner protector offers you a ‘way’ to your inner feminine yet needs to be negotiated with FIRST! Four Divine Feminine guides accompany you as you are introduced to the frequencies of a NEW template that they offer you around femininity: Mother Mary, Magdalene, Kuan Yin, and Dark Mother. I believe this could be beneficial for women AND men too….
The personal sharings and some facilitation by me that followed the meditation have been edited out for privacy….the real sense of what it IS to be on a SoulFullHeart call and what it FEELS like to be in a sessions space is in those, so you get even more goodness from being live, there, joining YOUR energy with ours!
Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
As more news about war comes into my awareness, as I do not read much anymore, I felt a ping in my heart and a desire to write about the nature of this and its relationship to the wounded masculine. It was also inspired by an experience that Jelelle had that she will be sharing later.
In Heart of Man there wages a battle between so many different facets of himself. The need for control over the desire to surrender, the will to resist over the will to live, the self-punishment over the self-compassion. The Heart of Man is at a crossroads. A place where the Soul of Man is to be claimed or refused. So much of this inner struggle is playing out today in the Theater of the Wounded Masculine. An ever present theme of triumph and tragedy. Domination and aggression. Withdraw and hiding. This is all happening within. If we truly want to be a part of another timeline we must first be willing to go inside and face our own inner battlefield.
Those that are in a position of ¨power¨ are mere projections of what lies in our shadow. We must be willing to feel that if we are to truly change the energy that persists ¨out there¨. These wounded expressions in male form are but uninitiated boys with deadly toys. But they all have a higher self that is fully aware of this. This is why it is so important to connect with your own as they represent a fractal of the larger sacred masculine energy in the universe. When you feel your own unhealed inner boy and its reigning punisher, you can then begin to feel compassion for those who are in positions of power. If we throw our angst and hatred at them we are really only doing it to ourselves. The only power that heals is Love.
In the wounded boy lies his relationship to both the masculine and the feminine represented by his mother and father. This plays out both this life and other lives. The templating received by Dad in what masculinity is has a huge impact on his worldview. The relationship to Mom and her feminine templating determines to a large extent how the feminine lives in Man. This becomes an inner relationship inside of us that, unless becomes conscious, can have many unhealthy consequences. This relationship to the feminine that resides within is a portal into our true masculinity and continued arising soul growth.
Among the boy though, I feel a fallen King that has forgotten his true essence as a God. Something happened that collapsed this union with the Sacred. He split off from Source and there is a sense of longing, guilt, abandonment, and rage all swirled together. When I visit a sacred grove of Sequoia trees that is my personal soul space I can feel many of these fallen Kings there. They are wanting to be connected to and felt in their pain. They represent a more subconscious energy that feels to inhabit a more lower 4D frequency. They know what is up but feel powerless and even worthless to do anything about it. I felt tears for them as I have felt my own fallen king and continue to do so.
But right behind them are our High King/ Angelic presence. The bridge to our true essence as Love´s co-creative force. The rightful heir to our Throne of BEing. We ARE already that. They are watching us and aching for connection, to free ourselves from the chains of our own making. One´s that can only be shed with Love and Compassion. The more we can feel and connect with them the more of our true power we can embody. The more self-love we can manifest and send back to the collective with open hearts.
So when I hear of tidbits of news from 3D, I go into my heart and feel myself. I feel the war raging inside others and send them as much love that I have to offer from my own well. I feel each one as a sacred brother on their own journey of lesson and discovery. With each new opening of love within myself ripples itself out into the Heart of Man. Connecting to other High Kings to serve this love is my calling and purpose in whatever way that shows up, whether through my own journeys, writing, or spaceholding. I feel the true masculine is a beautiful and powerfully creative expression of Divinity. He so much more than we could ever imagine and as we go into our own hearts and face our shadow, the true essence of Man is revealed in all His glory. And a new timeline emerges….
Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. You can learn more about him atwww.soulfullheartwayoflife.com. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
Sleepy today…..here yet NOT here, somewhere else still. Maybe still in the higher dimensions as I went there earlier to some ‘frontlines’ to offer love and ambassadorship, met up with some INTERESTING souls/higher selves in an intense environment…..wrote about this and will share the writing probably tomorrow. When I go this high dimensionally, it is all my conscious mind can do to hold the thread inside my body. It is time to astral project soon feels like to really claim a presence in these other places as I am being called more and more to ambassadorship WHILE also opening to serve individual women and groups of women like in the call tomorrow.
It just feels like sleep is calling most of us in order to integrate, to journey and travel out of this body, and to visit with some soul aspects from other lifetimes. I am feeling the astral space opening up more for all of us and TO all of us…….dreams don’t feel just like dreams anymore or like an off gassing of subconscious content…they feel like travels to parallel realities, other lifetimes, visits..so real, so visceral, I am so THERE and it is possible that this is happening for you too.
Sleep is integration and sleeping when you want and as long as you want is SO good if you can…part of you, a 3D part probably, may not like the shift in ‘routine’ yet THAT is structure put on something that is completely fluid in the NOW anyway. This is where rigid work schedules are NOT easy to navigate.
The body’s higher wisdoms are being released and woken up. Wisdoms related to how long to sleep and when. Wisdoms related to what to eat and how much. Wisdoms related to how many light codes to let in and when. Mine has guided me now to eat some grains (whole wheat baked by me preferably, brown rice) after none for a week. And, guidance has been to take in the light codes during sunset mostly instead of during the day….less intense that way and more soothing, more feminine, more heart opening and less activating (which is GOOD for a phase too.)
I tried on a bathing suit the other day and stood in front of a full length mirror for the first time in awhile. We don’t own one and they aren’t really that common here in Mexico (other than store front windows.) And, I’ve defused from an over focus on looking at and analyzing my appearance (Lots of emotional healing to clear THAT one with my inner punisher and critic.) So, I was sort of amazed to see the changes in my body and how it just looked and felt different to me since the beginning of the year…..much leaner, more muscular (although I don’t DO any exercise really, other than walking around and climbing stairs every day), and just shinier somehow, vibrant, younger. The light body glowing somehow more…it was neat!
Forces beyond our minds are leading all of this, it feels like. We just get clues and bits and pieces of guidance to keep us on track mostly. We get bread crumbs thrown on the trail to navigate slowly our way home. People who come from kNOwing around the ascension process or the body symptoms or what will happen next may be coming from a part of them that is not comfortable with not knowing as I don’t think we CAN actually know much beyond what our intuitions offer at times.
How has your sleep been? Are you finding your dreams more real and visceral lately? Eating patterns changed? Received guidances and wisdoms from your changing body?
LOVE to you on this journey to integrate the stars and our hearts and our souls in this vessel called human body turning to crystalline…
Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
The sacred feminine, the divine feminine embodied, the woman living more and more from the place of fifth dimensional (and higher) consciousness….She can be a mystery, an arising question to live into more than about clear definitions or set answers. There is a sense that her energy invites and draws others as she serves love WITH in all areas of her life and in most moments. She lives from a sense of personal integrity and authenticity, having embraced her inner shadow with love and courage, and inspires others to BE the same. She leads with vulnerability, her strength coming from bringing what is real in her heart and soul. She invites others into a possible resonant ground that reflects a mutual truth possibility rather than contending or trying to prove that she is right. She is able to take action on what is necessary to be done in order to serve love as an expression of her soul purpose and connection to Divine Source.
The sense of what it IS to be an ascending and awakening human in female form seems to be a deepening, spiraling, non-linear process. There are curves and turns, offering the next layer of discovery or another ‘round’ of experiencing a pattern or loop repeating itself and offering another piece of our puzzle. As we awaken, and especially in the 4D transition phase, we may become less polarized in our gender expression as we burn away and let go of what is not who we really ARE in feminine expression but rather what we have been conditioned to be. We are invited to feel what is NOT actually authentic femininity, what seems to come instead from a wounded masculine expression or place of BEing or aspect inside of us.
Holding space for women and my own process around embodying my sacred femininity, healing the emotional body, awakening the soul, integrating karmic aspects from other lifetimes has offered me a higher perspective on the patterns and themes that often play out in this process. The word ‘sacred’ is important as a key marker of movement in this process is from being SCARED of the inner feminine to being SACRED with it….. holding it with an increasing sense of reverence and curiosity.
A key differentiation place in this process is to become conscious about the template we received from our birth mothers, other significant female caregivers, and birth sister(s) relationships. It can be very illuminating to ask the questions: What was the templating I received from my mother around what it means to be a woman? What templating did I receive from other female caregivers and from my sister(s) around what it means to be a woman? How does the energy and messages of this templating impact me now in all areas of my life? How does this energy express in my relationships?
Connecting with your ‘inner birth mother’ can lead to great healing and separation. A simple way to do this is to write a letter (and outloud during meditation too if you want) to your inner mother telling her how you experience her energy in her life and invite her to write back. You then begin a written dialogue together with you asking her questions about herself and discovering more about this energy that lives inside of you as you ‘took it in’ like a sponge your whole life. As you connect with your inner mother, you will begin to ‘defuse’ or separate from this energy, allowing for more objectivity about it and with more arising of your authentic essence. It may not be possible for you to embody your authentic or genuine frequency of femininity while in relationship with your mother and a phase of taking space from the relationship may be necessary to experience more clarity, perspective, and growth.
Another key aspect to the sacred feminine embodiment process can be connecting with wounded masculine energies that you have taken in and embodied. This can especially present itself in an inner protector aspect, a usually masculine feeling and looking energy that expresses as a guardedness and uses weapons of protection such as energetic shields, swords to jab and pierce (internally and toward others), etc. Negotiation with the inner protector allows for more authentic gender expression of femininity as this aspect often guards the inner feminine and conscious negotiation with it can lead to deeper embodiment and access.
Connecting with energies of the Divine Feminine in different frequencies as Ethereal guides provides a new templating to replace the ones you are letting go of. I have mainly experienced connection with Divine Feminine guides showing up in the energies and forms of Mother Mary, Magdalene, Kuan Yin, and Kali/Dark Mother. Experiencing these guides (and however She shows up for you) during meditation allows for an infusion of multidimensional yin frequencies of comfort, nurturing, creative alchemy, sisterhood, stillness, healthy sexuality, passion, desire, and much more. These frequencies serve as healing balm to the places inside that experienced the wounded feminine and still suffer around it.
Another aspect of embodying the inner feminine is connecting with and healing karmic and archetypal wounded feminine soul themes such as non-vulnerable priestess, pious nun, matriarch/queen, warrior, medicine woman, witch, and more. Karmic playouts can express in persecution wounding experiences (both as the persecuted and the persecutor) that greatly suppress or impact your ability to express your soul gifts as a woman teacher, way-shower, and healer, for example. Or another examples is feeling how sisterhood wounding or traumatic experiences from other lifetimes may influence your relationships with women now. The push away from or the surrender to patriarchy is a big one for most of us with ways that it energizes and plays out in the now and impacts our gender expression.
Embodying the sacred feminine is holding space for the emotional reactions and previously undigested emotional frequencies that come up from the emotional body during the awakening and ascending process. It is also making space for and surrendering to the ‘rumble’ of death and rebirth of the feminine that wants to move through your life and clear out what no longer serves you or serves love. Rebirth can only happen with death or with letting go. Letting go of frequencies that don’t match you anymore in all areas of your life, making changes at a rate and pace that is self loving WITH negotiation with parts of you if possible allows for the blooming of your inner feminine from a small seed to full, ever arising expression of your BEing in female form.
This is the ground that I cover with women in SoulFullHeart Group Calls (there is one on June 17th and July 15th) and through SoulFullHeart facilitation sessions (and for women around 30 with Kalayna Colibri): soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
She is blooming, fertilized by a rich inner world of self discovery
She is inviting, inspired by the Divine to be a beacon of light for herself and others
She is discerning, guided to hold boundaries with love and take space when needed
She is beautifying, attuned to the exquisite possibilities around her
She is serving, called by love to share her heart and soul gifts with others
She is holding, created from a container space inside to bake on what needs to be felt
She is expanding, integrated with her multidimensional, cosmic self and star seed origins
She is arising, drawn to embody her authentic and vulnerable expression
She is BEing, energized beyond busy mind to experience life from stillness
She is the inner feminine (for both women and men)….feeling her with open heart, open mind, open soul invites her forward to play, to dance, and to LOVE….more and more, to BEcome
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This is a NEW video with Kalayna Colibri and I discussing the sacred feminine, healing the inner feminine and the wounded masculine INside, separating from feminine birth family templating, connecting with the protector part, healing the archetypal sisterhood frequencies, working with Divine feminine energies/guides and MUCH more. Most of this I have not heard offered anywhere else quite in THIS way, which comes through our personally embodied processes for many years that we share about too.
This video gives you a good sense of what our group call for women will be like on saturday April 15th at 11:11am, which will also include a guided meditation with me to connect with your inner feminine, identify your protector who ‘guards’ your inner feminine (which allows WAY more access), and some Divine Feminine guide frequency connection too with Mother Mary (and maybe others). This call will also offer an opportunity to connect with other resonant women with regular calls scheduled monthly in the future (the next one is scheduled for May 20th.)
Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.
And down this beaten path, and up this cobbled lane
I’m walking in my old footsteps, once again
And you say, just be here now
Forget about the past, your mask is wearing thin
Let me throw one more dice
I know that I can win
I’m waiting for my real life to begin
from Waiting For My Real Life To Begin by Colin Hay
These words found there way to me through an interesting route that is so feminine in its nature. Seemingly random thoughts and exchanges that landed a song into my dock. I was feeling into what I wanted to write about today and this song hit a chord and I felt to play it and see what tune it sings.
For those that are in more 4D consciousness, whether just entered or are seasoned veterans (interesting choice of words), there can be this sense that something hasn´t quite shifted on the outside to reflect the growing awareness of what feels true on the inside. There can be this feeling of looking toward the horizon waiting for something to happen. In the song, he also uses the words `I have a plan` and `times are just lean`. There is an externalization, a projection onto life, that it is not on our side or we need to take control in someway to create a desired outcome that hasn`t arrived yet. That the passion and desire inside are conditional to some set of external circumstances that have to occur in order to be set free.
I remember this well in my own journey, feeling stuck in a `good career`. Trying to seek many different ways to make it all okay even as I was still `walking down the same ol` cobblestone streets`. What was needing to happen was what the song suggested and that was to be in the moment and go into your heart. Feel what was really trying to be felt and expressed. Nothing on the outside could make that any better. It was I that had to make the journey in and listen to my soul.
The waiting was just a suffering. A denial to really feel what was evidently true but a part of me was afraid to admit. A more wounded masculine need to control something in order to resist what was true. By going more still and surrendering to the feelings, I could allow these feelings to arise and be held in space created by a more solid me and the much needed support of another to hold that truth until I could do it on my own more regularly. Feeling the fears and resistances to claiming my own power from with. True empowerment. Not control.
Being in a more Yin space helps to feel how parts of us are so afraid of actually letting go of a conditioning or a relationship that is keeping us stuck and in state of suffering. There many that have done that for themselves and there are those, like myself, who needed support. It is not a sign of weakness but of strength. Leaning IN order to raise UP. Support and guidance comes in all forms. The key is to seek it so that you may help heal it. I can feel how this can be more difficult for men than for woman but that may be shifting as more men continue to find the value of going in and feeling all there is to feel to stop the waiting and start the living. That is what I wanted. Tired of the mask. Tired of pretending. Tired of the waiting. Because there is no time than NOW. But I hold so much gratitude for that suffering because it brought me to a more authentic place of BEing and living. It made the alleged comfortable very uncomfortable, so that there were only two choices…and then really only one. Let go and Go IN.
Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. You can learn more about him atwww.soulfullheartwayoflife.com
I AM excited to be sharing a NEW video with me and Kalayna Colibri discussing the sacred feminine, healing the inner feminine and the wounded masculine INside, separating from feminine birth family templating, connecting with the protector part, healing the archetypal sisterhood frequencies, working with Divine feminine energies/guides and MUCH more. Most of this I have not heard offered anywhere else or quite in THIS way, which comes through our personally embodied processes for many years that we share about too.
This video gives you a good sense of what our group call for women will be like on saturday April 15th at 11:11am, which will also include a guided meditation with me to connect with your inner feminine, identify your protector who ‘guards’ your inner feminine (which allows WAY more access), and some Divine Feminine guide frequency connection too with Mother Mary (and maybe others). This call will also offer an opportunity to connect with other resonant women with regular calls scheduled monthly in the future (the next one is scheduled for May 20th.)
If there’s one thing about a King, in our minds at least, he does what he wants, when he wants.
He is anything but small.
In our deepest heart-picture of this King, he knows the greatest fulfillments possible because he is a benevolent King. He rules with the best interests of all in his Kingdom. And in this way, the heart of the King, extends to his Queen, which kindles a hearth, and this hearth-warmth extends beyond to fill the entire Kingdom. Wealth and bounty are the results.
This idealized picture is more than a picture. It is a way of being that anyone who wants to can tune into and play in and on the instrument of their lives.
And it’s not gender specific. There is nothing quite so powerful and beautiful as a woman who knows her own inner King. She knows the ‘he’ of her ‘she’.
This true King of hearts however didn’t end up here simply by being lazily born into something. No, life brought him a very individual and specific-to-him set of circumstances that he navigated from the bridge of his heart when there seemed like nothing to gain and everything to lose. In fact, he’s lost many things and many times, more than once excruciatingly so.
One of the first things he had to let go of by way of deep loss was the fight for what was right and the need to be right to instead allow his feeling heart to sort out what was truly right on a far deeper scale than a moral dictate. In this way, great internal conflicts had to be faced and felt, navigated and negotiated to arrive here at peace with self. His outer kingdom is only and ever a reflection of the pursuit of his own inner kingdom. His entitlements are really his ‘in’-titlements. He’s found all he’s found through his own heart. No one had to be made any less for him to know his more. And no one or no thing can take away what he’s possessed.
The heart of the King is a place of rest now from fighting for anything where peace now reigns, and all subjects in his kingdom can feel an unmistakable emanation of that peace. The sword has been replaced by the chalice.
All of us, male and female, can know this inner King state. Arriving here is a way of being and is the result of a desired and decreed journey of the heart that you choose yourself, for you and by you. After all, you are the sovereign of your own heart and your inner Kingdom and your inner Queendom extend to all you know, and beyond to those you don’t yet know. This outer reflection of others matching the inner reflection of the discovery and peace that now exists between all parts of yourself…
And somehow, in this magical YOUniverse, there is no shortage of space for everyone’s Kingdom. The presence of yours is not to the detriment of mine. You having all you want and need and desire, no matter how large and grand, is not at my expense in any way. In fact, the opposite is true in this infinitely abundant reality. Abundance flows from this Kings heart. There’s actually way more than can ever be needed or used. When I feel your real and true abundance, your heart bounty…it triggers my own, more and more.
Our challenge has gone from not having to having. What in the world will you do with all this? Your task has now changed from seeking what you want and need to finding a place to share your bounty.
Who could have imagined when you set out in this journey, feeling so pressed by what felt missing, that this would be your ending? How could such unrest and an urge to fight lead to such peace and rest? The timelines have merged. The fight has collapsed into love.
You found you. You let in you. It was no small undertaking, but my god, was it ever worth the entire journey…
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.
You have been made Aware. You SEE and FEEL how life is so much more than what you have been conditioned to see and protected to feel. You cannot be made unaware. You can choose to ignore, but it is always there. You may not have anyone to talk to about it, or, as much as they want to, they just can’t understand. You continue to learn more, to understand more, to feel more. The Light presses upon what is no longer serving this new, yet stillborn, YOU. It can be okay at times. Just letting it unfold in its due course. Other times it can be painful as hell. For some it can be existential and down right scary. What is it that can help this uncertainty?
Going into the geography of your heart may find you are at the end of a line….a timeline. An old way of being able to pull it all together to get through each day. There may be a moment when you finally realize the two worlds…just…don’t…jive. These could be relationships to people, things, behaviors, and thought patterns. Whatever it is that is not aligning with your Highest Desire and Inner Knowing. There is a rub between what you feel needs to be done to continue growing and how a part of you feels about that.
This can be a difficult process and the heart of what it means to live in 4D consciousness. There is a bitter-sweet feeling about it. There are bridges to burn, ropes to let go of, and chords to cut. In SoulFullHeart this is held as a sacred and negotiated process in compassionate concert with a part of you being held in heart space by this arising New You and the open heart of another who has been down that road. There are ebbs and flows. Baby steps and great leaps. All in the timing set by you, your Higher Self, and the parts of you so invested. The more emotional energy invested the more negotiation needed.
When the time eventually arises that a choice needs to be made for your greatest good, the space both before and after is big. It is a time to take stock of all that the relationship has meant to you, whether it be a romantic partner, a family member, a friend, a suffering loop, a drug, a food, or anything else under the sun that holds this energy. It is a time to feel what was learned, and what will be lost. This is the Mourning Time. This time has been held with much grace and honor across cultures. It is a phase in which you fully enter the pain, remorse, or any other feeling that comes up in order to fully exit. It is not a one day deal in many cases. The mourning is a process just like the one getting to it. But the more the mourning is inhabited, not with suffering, the more the relationship can be honored and made sacred.
This is a time of reflection, feeling, music, writing, sleeping, crying, laughing, remembering, and a plethora of other actions that arise to honor the space. All of it is important and beautiful. The amount of reverence given to this period the more reverence is given to what is to come. The rain washes away the smoke and soot of the fire to reveal the dawn of a new day. The air is fresher and the possibilities are endless. That is the gift on the other side. But it is one of great price to these parts of us who have held on for so long and for good reason. These continue to happen throughout the journey in our ascension, and the more we go into them the less they will occur as we keep the spiral going IN and UP.
I honor and admire all of us that have been through this, are going through it, and are approaching it. This time can be the most memorable of all as markers into your New You. It is so incredible to be able to go through it with others that have been there and feel the true courage it took to make these challenging choices. I hope to be a witness to them in any way possible. It is the magic of death and rebirth that fuels the propellers of Life.
Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. You can learn more about him atwww.soulfullheartwayoflife.com
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