Loving Yourself Through The Difficult: A Poem

by Kalayna Solais

Sometimes, days are just rough… the seas of life move you in one direction when you thought you were moving in another.

Sometimes, the feelings you feel are just hard to feel… they seem to come out of nowhere, or, if they do come from a known somewhere, they can feel overwhelming.

Sometimes, you are in a phase of darkness, where parts of you feel as if the light will never turn on again… everything they fear happening is happening, and there’s no mantra or affirmation that seems to help you.

Sometimes… 
and eventually, many times over… 
the light turns on from within during these moments and phases. 
You fumble in the dark long enough, then a gentle hand guides you to the light switch. 
And soon you see the gentle hand is your own.

Now, in times to come, you feel the suffering through the pain start to enter your field 
and realize that you can move through it, be with it authentically, 
and find your way to healing, trust, and nourishment from inside.

Nourishment that in all of these times, can never ever leave you.

This is the process of moving onward and UPward from within.

Ascending through the heart and the deep healing of the soul.

This is the process of recognizing that the springtime of love is inside of you, not a Mecca to seek on the outside.

And a time when you see
that nothing ever happens to you
but with you.

This is the great turning point of our Ascension process,
and our maturation as Gaian BEings.

This is not what makes us ‘worth saving’
but what wakes us up to saving, healing, loving ourselves
and then, loving each other. ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 30 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

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‘New Lemuria’ Energies Supporting Prep For Disclosure, Ascension Through Emotional Healing, Maturation

by Kalayna Colibri

The 1/11 gateway yesterday brought us some yummy ‘New Mu’ (New Lemuria) energies to feel and let in, as Jelelle Awen shared in her Day 11 ‘Deepen’ video yesterday: https://youtu.be/ClhBXTl112M

It was a day of feeling higher timeline possibilities and also digestion of what’s been rumbling lately. It was wonderful to feel the frequencies of New Lemuria coming through to support this exploration and the restfulness or restlessness, whichever was most needed to support the digestion, that moved through as well during this time. It feels like we are very organically reaching a new stratum of the overall Ascension process… yet, something important is being illuminated continually right now about our overall emotional maturity and ability to digest Ascension in a healthy, grounded way that also expands us out consciously/spiritually.

To fully embody the new Sacred Human BEings that we are in the process of BEcoming, we have a lot to look at. Fear-based teachings, spiritual and otherwise, that continually plant seeds of more fear and more support of emotional immaturity are still very popular. This is something that needs to run its course, it feels like, and it is. We see this reflected in the way so many still hold and relate to politics, change, ‘authority’ figures (including politicians, gurus, etc), and relationships of all kinds, especially and most importantly relationship to Self and parts of you as well as your soul.

To actually see and feel the immaturity can create punishment-shame spirals for parts of you, but really, this seeing of it is meant to help us ask for help and to discern what it is we most need to support a genuinely higher-vibe way of life and way of relating to life, Ascension, and Disclosure, that doesn’t try to find a work-around but instead is willing to walk into and through the sometimes dense forest within.

Everything we see and feel on a daily basis is connected. The way we choose to relate to or take in anything or anybody is the way we ultimately are choosing to relate to ourselves. I don’t see how we can possibly embrace Disclosure, for example, without feeling the fear of it and even the fear of healing the fear of it… parts of you may be putting out a welcome mat for the ways in which our lives as we know them will be turned upside down, but other parts of you are likely quite afraid of what will happen and even afraid of contact, of being initiated in Galactic Love Ambassadorship (which many of us are being called to do already).

The energy of ‘New Mu’ is here to help us ground into the body, into self-care and love, into a healthy sense of our oneness. It wants to help us move into new places of emotional consciousness and budding maturity that can facilitate our budding spiritual consciousness and maturity.
There’s so much to love and embrace about every nuance of feeling we have moving through and to really choose to feel this through is to step into a new phase of letting in what’s possible for us and the collective we are inextricably part of. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.


Entering ‘2019’: Love Within To Experience Love With Others

by Kalayna Colibri

For many, 2018 was a ‘year’ of mining. Many discoveries and memories have surfaced, especially those kept in the shadow and buried deep. Life and incoming energy waves have helped it all press up to the surface to actually be felt, help you learn ways to be with it, to honour and love it UP. This process continues, because to put it simply, it’s time to love your pain as much as you love your genuine joy and growing sense of wholeness.

Loving the pain and aches that surface as reactions, anxiety, sadness, etc means moving through it not just getting above it as parts of you are used to having to do in order to keep the peace in current relationships or to keep life on an even keel. It’s becoming harder to do this as your inner realities continue to be shaken up and brought to your attention. All gateways and portals this year have had different pieces to illuminate inside of you, showing you where you’re really at so you can grow and move from there, love yourself there, and eventually learn how to flow with ALL of you, including whatever has been held by the shadow, from there, that starting point.

There are so many parts of you that have wanted your attention but haven’t had a way to directly ask for it until the life circumstances are ripe and your heart is ready to feel them. This means sometimes that the pain you thought you had already healed has revealed a new layer and pain you thought was long-buried is now ready to surface. This can be messy but a sacred process nonetheless and you can trust that it’s surfacing because you’re now ready to hold it and actually move through and heal it, as challenging as this can be… the tears and wails are worth it, and the realness and poignancy it brings to each moment of your life is what brings in more love and more sense of being held and loved by a universe that benevolently wants you to heal, grow, and ascend.

In addition to parts surfacing in different ways, there have been many Metasoul/other timeline/lifetime bleed-throughs that have overlaid your consciousness and brought out other shadow pieces from your soul to be felt too. This has also brought in higher vibe energies too to help guide and template for you what your 5D/Higher Self energizes in your life and soul purpose. This year has been cataclysmic for some and also given many openings. Pain is an opening as much as discovering your truest sense of joy and bliss is.

In 2019, I feel we will all continue to be challenged to deepen our experience of ourselves, to love ourselves much deeper on a soul and heart level. It’s all there to move us to new places and integrate into our 5D/Higher Self. This is how we learn to love each other deeper with mutual reverence and respect, by experiencing this between parts of you first. This is what gives us the chance to overcome and heal the harm that has been done by insisting on fighting, over-lording, overpowering, even with ‘love and light’ as a ‘weapon’. 2019 asks us to keep going inward and find the parts that cannot or will not love or serve love, that have resistance to offering love, likely because they themselves need more love from you and to feel you moving into your highest timeline step by step before they can trust and lean into you. Love is the way. Love is the path. And the path has to start within in order to bring our beloved vision of New Earth into the Now.

At midnight tonight the ‘new year’ officially ‘begins’. The gateway into this new energy we’re calling ‘2019’ and the energies of the gifts and growth it wants to bring each of us is available to let in now as we set our sail and follow our hearts into the new Now that is so beyond just being a dream and wants to become more and more of our everyday reality!

Much love and Happy New Year! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Lion’s Gate Energies Shaking UP 3D Consciousness Anchors

by Kalayna Colibri

Much is likely opening out inside of you right now, making being in 3D pretty hard in the moment, even (or maybe especially) for the parts of you that have worked so hard to stay well-grounded in this reality, especially despite awakenings and activations… breathing, finding the best that 3D can offer you (superfoods, comfortable surroundings) while leaning into your soul and heart’s capacity to bridge to higher, less dense dimensions is the invitation right now. All of these energies need to integrate into your daily life as you continue to navigate your ascension more and more out of 3D reality, compartments, consciousness… this process needs to be self-loving and being with the shadow, the angsts, the restlessness and the need to rest deeply too is the way to go forward (and upward!) with the most loving steps.

Not easy ground to walk out right now with much being challenged through this portal phase and the galactic is calling for exploration, inner and outer, to boot. The Cosmos within is ever-tempting and invitational, bringing up resistance too from the parts of you/Metasoul Aspects that perhaps feel burned/abandoned by Star Family connections. It’s all coming in and through in profound invitation after profound invitation…

Time to lean-in to your growing and expanding heart, feel, rest, even feel aches and desires too as needed for that’s all part of what’s being pushed up now. What you want, the love you most long to have, be, share with others is in the arrival gate, waiting for your next choices and your embracement of your Now-moments and phases of necessary inner process.

Much love!

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My beloveds and I offer Bridging Sessions to support and illuminate… during this time, you may feel you especially would like some support and if you feel resonant with what we offer, please check out our page: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session for more information on connecting with us, with yourself and your parts/Metasoul Aspects too, in the space we embody and offer. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, WayShower, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Millennial Digest: Self Image

by Kalayna Colibri & Raianna Shai

In this video, SoulFullHeart Teacher and Facilitator, Kalayna Colibri, and SoulFullHeart Facilitant and ‘Social Media Maven’, Raianna Shai, share about their experiences with construction and also ongoing healing of their self-image as Millennials – a process that has been very vulnerable to feel and live into. They chose to do this video with minimal makeup, a simple wardrobe, and a fuller frame of their bodies as they give you a more visceral sense of what their processes have been like.

Different parts of you attach to the ideals of what it means to be ‘attractive’ or a ‘good person/sister/friend/employee/etc’. Feeling these parts is a process of feeling the many layers of reactions to your body, your relationships, your career or job, etc that these parts have had, very often in an intensely self-punishing way that lowers your frequency significantly. It often takes a lot of loving mirrors held up by people who have worked these pieces inside of themselves and their own parts in order to truly see how this has played out inside of you. There are many reasons why Millennials in particular may seem to be attached to constructing a self-image that can compromise their physical, mental, spiritual, and emotional health. However, this process of feeling what conditioning and self-led practices or habits have led you to become the face that you present to the world around you is a deep one for people of any age!

As Ascension ramps up and intensifies, we are all being challenged to face and feel these parts that have associated ideals of physical and emotional attractiveness with real love. Our relationships all reflect these parts and these frequencies to us as do our jobs/careers, even our choice of spiritual practice. There is an invitation to become more real, to ourselves and to each other, and to realize that what truly makes us beautiful IS our inner ‘mess’ that has so much to tell us as we step deeper into the process of loving it UP.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.

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Incoming LOVE Energies Reflect Where The Love Needs To Go Within You

by Kalayna Colibri

All the love waves coming in from Ascension energies really want to show you is where you aren’t loving yourself or being kind to yourself and your parts… especially the ones in shadow.

All the body reactions, all the resistance to change, all the emotional up and down-swings… all of the thick soupy-ness of your non-resonant relationships… all of this is being shown to you by LOVE itself as a powerful mirror with an equally powerful challenge to start taking the steps to experience your life AS love, starting from within you!

Abuses from inside of you that are reflected outside of you are highlighted so you can feel your need for love and the love you aren’t actually moving inside of you or between you and others. This is a big thing too and can be subtle at first until you realize what’s going on and find the courage to see it, to feel it, and then to make some changes.

You can’t escape the love pouring into you from all sides through these energies, and especially during these times of immense SOULar activity and activations. With every wave comes bliss and joy potential and with every drop of love-water, out must come the not-love-oil stored within, not so blissy or joyful to feel, but always leading you to more love for you and your parts if the readiness is ripe enough to take the journey.

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter: Sometimes Love Don’t Feel Like It ‘Should’ – The Rumble Of Awakening

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week!

SoulFullHeart co-founder, teacher and Facilitator, Gabriel Heartman, offers you much insight into what the rumbles of awakening can look and feel like in your life in this week’s featured article. He invites you to feel how your awakenings shift the picture of what really is, especially as you feel the shift in your relationships with others and how the world around and within you is being affected by what is being shaken up. There is a lot to feel with parts of you about all of this as old ideas of what love is are being questioned and many emotional pieces start to rise to the surface:

“Pulling out of this old matrix of 3D relationship can be a tough one as it tugs on our inner guilt and shame. It can be hard for the part of us that feels a responsibility in the emotional responses of others. It doesn’t feel very loving to hurt others. It can feel like you are being selfish and uncaring. Think of a spider web and you are at one of the crossings. If you pull on that it affects all those around that are connected in that web. You make waves and rumbles when you begin to realize this arrangement is no longer in service of your highest self.”

This week we feature the recording of a live stream that Jelelle hosted on Facebook on April 28th. This live stream was a live teaching and digestion of the incoming energies and what they may bring to you and invite you into, especially with the 5/5 gateway officially happening tomorrow.

On May 15th Jelelle and Raphael will be hosting another free Unity Meditation call. If you’d like to register for this event and receive the info for connecting to the call in your email, you can visit Eventbrite: https://www.eventbrite.com/e/may-15th-new-earth-now-activations-unity-meditation-call-registration-45734254386

Also in this week’s issue are the latest writings and recordings from Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, Kalayna, and Raianna. A few of these are digestions of the 5/5 gateway and also the latest full moon in Scorpio experience.

Jelelle and Raphael are both offering private, one on one 90 minute sessions with them over zoom to bridge to your awakening process, locate where you are, and your highest timeline manifestation. More information here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

If you’re curious to have a free 30min intro session with either Kalayna, Gabriel or Raphael, you can find out more information about that here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Ongoing Geomagnetic LOVE Storms Bring Awakenings And Purgings

Photos taken by Aurora Addicts

by Jelelle Awen

Continuing geomagnetic storms today (April 12) as winds blow in SOULar energies from three coronal holes in our sun’s surface…..’holes to make us whole’ is how I’ve come to feel them! It feels like much of this energy has bounced off Gaia’s orbit in the past yet, NOW, we are receiving more of it as Gaia is ascending too. Gaia is open to receive, to shift, to sometimes rumble and shake and spew (as in volcanoes) with these shiftings.

There is a sweet relationship between Gaia and the sun it feels like; a partnership; a feminine and masculine dance that plays out between them. With sometimes the moon bringing in a second element to boost the feminine energies. To feel how these planetary consciousnesses reflect our OWN inner consciousnesses is fascinating. Making this connection offers us gifts of illumination and insight about the planetary bodies inside of us that want to come into feminine/masculine balance too on emotional, chakra, physical, mental, social levels.

Are you finding that your body is starting to calibrate more to these higher energies as the weeks pass? Are you finding new footing and adjustment to them emotionally as your ‘new normal’? There may be more moments of peace coming in, of feeling grounded, of surrender into sleeping if needed and resting when desired. Also, you may be feeling an expanded capacity to hold space and respond to your feelings that come up in parts of you….whatever their range of frequency may be from some sadness to confusion, to hopelessness and depression, to even suicidal desires to leave Gaia and ‘just go home’.

And then, too, as you calibrate to these energies and the ways that they are here to raise your frequency….you can experience MORE moments of PURE bliss and joy as love floods your BEing and washes through you. In these moments, you are in touch with your vast nature; your Divine essence; your Infinite Love-ness in bodily form. You are glowing with love. You are flowing with life.

These experiences make the sleepless nights, the nausea/vomiting, the aches and pains, the more intense emotions of sadness and hopelessness……WORTH it. These moments remind you of WHY this is all happening.

Our capacity to adjust to the NEW really is spring loaded inside of us, especially within our Star DNA – which is being activated at an accelerated rate now. Our Star frequencies allow for understanding that is beyond our human mind and telepathic connection to the bigger movements and cosmic cycles that are being played out here. Our Star frequencies provide a multidimensional spanning of what is happening in the now and higher timeline manifestations.

Our human frequencies (as they move from scared to sacred) allow for a groundedness to Gaia and in the emotional body/higher heart capacity. The BLEND of star and human from within us and the healing of polarities against it is the process that is activating too with these energies. The BLEND and UNION from within is the goal of all this.

The frequencies coming in now are actually MORE natural to our galactic consciousness. They feel like fresh air to breathe that is more in tune with our natural essence as it blends into a unified frequency of sacred human. Focusing on and connecting to your galactic essence can help with the integration of them as it is often the 3D Self, congested human aspects/parts that struggle and resist the most….along with possibly your Metasoul aspects from other timelines/lifetimes that aren’t awakened to the Ascension process yet and are experiencing battle/war/collapse in their realities. Here is more about parts and Metasoul aspects: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

The GIFTS of these energies is obvious in the beautiful auroras that are shining strong in the Northern skies right now. The auroras have wonderful codes in them and I have taken to letting them in through photos, plus journeying to them during meditation. Of course, my inner child/star seed is named Aurora and has been for many years, so there is a deep connection there for me. Looking at them calms everything inside of me, even as it opens out my consciousness with bursts of possibilities.

Similar to crop circles, Aurora Borealis offers a portal to connect with our galactic consciousness through manifestations on Gaia that we can more easily let in. I’ve shared pictures below from Sweden and Alaska of some auroras that occur with these influxes of geomagnetics and SOULar winds.

MUCH MUCH love to you and with you as we bravely journey on into BEcoming our WHOLE self, our Star-filled humanity arising to claim and to love ALL that we are once again!

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Please join us for our next FREE Unity Meditation call this Saturday, April 14th at 11:11am CST. We will be offering activations to help with integration of these galactic consciousness awakening plus teachings and space for sharings! https://www.facebook.com/events/562611244093274/

Reach out if you need/want support, guidance, collaboration, and a NEW perspective coming from love! More info about a bridging session with me and/or our ongoing programs here:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

 

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

You Are A BEacon Of LOVE: Sharing Your Self-Love Overflow In Service Of Love

Image by Jason Dietrick

by Kalayna Colibri

It can be challenging for parts of you to remember that they need to share love with others in a mutually nourishing bond of openness and vulnerability and sometimes even contention, as much as they need love with YOU as the authentic you, ever-arising into more and more presence within yourself.

We are here to relate to ourselves deeply, to cultivate self-love. We are also here to share the overflow of that love with others – NOT to remain in stuckness or under-nourishing agreements with others, however… While there is likely some layer of love being exchanged there, there is so much more that could potentially open out… this is the ground that can make relationships of any kind scary to be in, yet also is the ground of mutual growth and ultimately a deepening of LOVE within and on the outside TOO.

To not share what you are cultivating inside in self-care, love, worth, advocacy, is to not share your light, the beacon you’re meant to be for the world, with the world. Parts of you may be relating to this with understandable fear and reactions from past social drama-trauma. Yet, to remain in a place of not sharing is to cap your own soul bigness, your capacity to love others as much as yourself, and your potential to truly live into your healing gifts and your deepest soul calling to be in the service of LOVE.

The choice remains in each moment, to breathe with and feel parts of you and their reasons for not allowing your arising and ascending you to emerge from the cocoon. There is a constant invitation into more love, more healing, more self-held grace and space, and more overflow into the destiny you’re meant to lead and live too, with each decision made to BEacon outward what you have so grown and nourished inward! 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Re-Discovering And Loving The Buried Parts Within

by Kalayna Colibri

Many years ago… I could not have told you that ‘becoming more feminine’ was my goal or intention. I grew up with an older sister who rebelled against femininity and wanted to be like her. I wanted to be friends with the guys that weren’t attracted to me, so at least I could have some way to be close to them regardless, to experience a connection with the opposite gender. I say ‘I’ here because before I was aware that I had ‘parts’ of me running the show of my life, ‘I’ was all ‘I’ had as a reference point for the dramas and desires and pain.

When I was very little, however, I wanted only to wear dresses. I liked big frilly ones with flowers. I liked my pretty shoes and white tights. I especially loved going to ballet class as a 5-year-old and being able to wear the pink skirt that represented my level over top of my leotard. I loved being called a ‘lady’ and would have fantasies about being in ‘princess training’. This was all before messaging of ‘being a girl means you’re weak’ or ‘incapable’ started to leak in and take over. This was before parts of me started to form as a casing, an ever-hardening shell over my natural sensitivity and blooming pre-womanhood. The dresses got put away. The tights could no longer be worn without holes being made in them almost immediately – a symbol, I’m realizing, of my young torn-ness between gender expressions. Skirts didn’t fit or feel right either, and I felt very self-conscious in them. Something was shifting out of wanting to be a girl to wanting to be related to, to be made friends with, to be able to somehow find comfortability in any social situation even if that meant being more like a ‘boy’ in some ways. I stopped feeling ‘pretty’ when I was quite young and thus I stopped trying to be, at least until high school.

I remember all of this in this very moment, especially as I feel a part of me that is my Inner Masculine. I feel how this is a story from him about how he came to be and how he began to form as an Inner Patriarch, coaching and teaching my other parts how to become more masculine in order to survive if not thrive in this world of 3D. I feel the tears of my suppressed, albeit quite young aspect of my Inner Feminine, who it feels like has some pain coming up in response to this… these feelings of being ‘girly’, which was more in my true nature, being deemed ‘not good enough’ so early in my life.

I share this story today because it feels like the story that belongs to so many of us… a story of genuine self-expression, of authentic sensitivity. Unless and until we can begin to feel the parts of us that have (had to) come up in response to life and more often than not, bury or try to dismiss what is actually TRUE about us, it doesn’t really feel possible to feel the layers here and to get to exactly what has been buried for so many ‘years’.

I feel like this extends far beyond authentic gender expression, so much as just what is authentically in our hearts. I feel the richness of a genuine experience of what the sacred masculine and feminine ARE, that can only really be experienced from within, not from other people’s ideas of what it is or is not… in either case when it comes to the masculine and the feminine, we are having to re-learn so much and deeply feel much more.

We have the courage to venture deeper into our own healing, ever-discovering more and more of what has been suppressed within our most inner caverns of what has always wanted to show us the most authentic us we have been waiting and working to BE… and it’s up to us when and if we are ready to lead him/her/them out of the shadows and into the light where they can breathe and play and be themselves again… and this time, without anyone telling them they have to stop being who and what they truly are. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.