The Arising Of The May King

The Horned God comes into union with The May Queen. He sets his sights, opens his heart, and commits to the bond through his own need for growth and creation. A powerful and sacred coming together that begins on the inside and extends on the outside.

I did not have much connection to this day in my past, but it as become an increasing profound and beautiful day of honoring the masculine and feminine sacred union as well as our relationship to Mother Gaia and Her gifts of Spring and Summer. It has triggered feelings of inadequacy in my past with Kasha as she has had such a deep experience and relationship to it. Yet, as with all triggers, they are gateways to our deepest fears and rewards.

I can meet the wounded masculine within and hold space for his healing and arising into his own May King. The masculine that can show up to all of the ebbs and flows of the stillness and fire of the Divine Feminine May Queen. The King that can be in his own truth as well as meet his own shadow and vulnerable parts that are still in hiding and integration. This is no small task. It is a life-long journey that is both challenging and rewarding.

I have been fortunate to have been in intimate relationship as well as community to help reflect and mirror both my arising King and wounded man. They are always in orbit of each other and offer both solace and gifts. On this day, honor them both, as well as the feminine within me that has guided me to let in the union I share with my beloved, Kasha. This had to start from the inside from me to me first. I had to feel ready and worthy enough to go into the depths of vulnerable intimacy, as challenging and scary it can be.

I felt to share a poem I wrote years ago as a call to my Queen before I knew that it was Kasha all along. Many Beltane blessings to all both in and out of union:

Come with me, my love
Down the spiral staircase of my heart
Into the garden of my humanity

Bear witness to it succulence
It’s uniqueness
It’s burned and broken places

Come with me, my queen
Along the paths of weathered words
And the trails of new beginnings
Water the wilted with your loving care
Ignite the growth with your fiery passion

Will you follow me into the unknown?
Into the cauldron of our being?
Will you dance with me among the golden lilies
As well as the prickly cactus and forest ablaze?
Will you join with me in the exploration of our sacred sexuality?

The slow caress of my hands
Upon your beautifully sculpted, divinely feminine curves
The electric sparks that leap off our tongues
Setting fire to our chakras one by one
When we reach the gateway of our heavenly union

Will you come with me?
May I come into you?
Into your atmosphere where you shine and fly?
Into your hidden and protected caverns?
The places where few have been allowed to tread
Into your luscious and sacred garden?

I will not pluck your flowers
Or step on your sprawling vines
I will sit patiently for you to join me.
To share with me you tales
Your stories of adventure
….of agony
….of strength
….and weakness

I will etch them into my heart
Weave them into the tapestry of us
Though they belong to you and you alone
They share a sacred place in between you and me

Come with me, by beloved
As far as we both were meant to go
To unravel the mystery of who we were meant to be.

May this May Day open you out to the gifts of this season and these celestial constellations,

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If this touches something in you I invite you to consider joining our online community for a more intimate connection between hearts and souls. You can check it out at: soulfullheartportal.mn.co

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Message Of The Morning Star

The past week or so I have had the pleasure of meditating with the beloved Venus right before sunrise. I don’t think I have ever had such an intimate experience with the Morning Star before. She feels so poignant right now, both personally and collectively.

I have felt Her gentle yet also direct illumination. She offers a perspective that is different than Mars in how to be as a man during these times. While Mars has more of a Warrior King draw, Venus calls to the Love Ambassador within. It activates the masculine connection to his heart via compassion as well as passion.

Venus is a force that draws the Sun (read ‘Son’) from his slumber. She calls him to his deepest purpose of shedding light and offering warmth to all he touches. He also activates movement and courage to stand in truth without resorting to violence. There is much shadow that is being drawn out at this time and this has a myriad of reactions.

Venus is calling me, and maybe you too, to see the world as it is with all its apparent chaos, and feel all the feelings that emerge from rage, to anxiety, to grief. We have felt separated from our Divinity and from the Divine in all its forms. We have projected this onto so many external aspects of our lives and now we are seeing how that has worked out for us.

We had to do this to really see that we are, and can be, the Kings and Queens of our own existence on this glorious planet. We are not alone yet parts of us may feel so. We may feel far away, but we are also so close to Love that it may feel it is too close as well. A sacred push-pull if there ever was one.

Venus reminds me that as a masculine emissary of Love I have a responsibility to love myself first, be present, honest, and vulnerable in my sacred union as well as with my intimate community. I have a responsibility to be myself in full embodiment of my mission and purpose to serve this SoulFullHeart kind of Love to other men and women that need me to stand in that space for them as I have been from those that have served me.

The time with the Morning Star reminds me that we are not hopeless or helpless. We have support and guidance standing right there in front of us even when it doesn’t feel that way sometimes. Our higher selves are held in a Divine Trust account just waiting for to claim it when we are ready.

I feel the Unknown of what is to come at the same time I feel the Known of the Love that is holding it all. May Venus be your guide to the love and leadership that awaits you as the mystery and drama unfold.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Connect To Divine Mother Guided Meditation: Video 21 – Deepen 2022 (Video) | Jelelle Awen & Kasha Rokshana

In this twenty-first video of our 31 day video series called Deepen 2022, SoulFullHeart Teachers/Co-Creators Jelelle Awen is joined by SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator Kasha Rokshana as we explore Sacred Feminine Embodiment over the next five videos. Kasha and Jelelle have held many women’s group calls together exploring these topics through teachings, guided meditations, and taking in sharing from female participants on the calls.

In this video, we share about the importance of your connection with Divine Mother, the forms/faces you may experience her in, the false mother/hijacked Divine Feminine, and your Divine Daughter. We share about how an intimate, vulnerable relationship between your Divine Daughter and the Divine Mother supports your sacred feminine embodiment as you heal this life trauma from your Mother/daughter experience and from previous lifetimes.

We also talk about the False Mother Matrix or the hijacked Divine Mother frequencies since Atlantis fell, what it shows up as, and how it can be unplugged from so that you can experience the Divine Mother within you and AS you.

In the guided meditation, your Gatekeeper connects to your Divine Daughter in whatever forms she shows up as to explore her relationship with the False Mother. Divine Mother comes forward then and invites your Divine Daughter to come into her magical garden and submerge into a healing pool with her.

Here is a link to the descriptions of previous women’s group calls with Jelelle and Kasha and links to purchase the recordings: https://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2022 playlist on our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvJPnLzbEKl4OsQBXBYw2XwI

For more information about the Deepen 2022 series including a full listing of the content covered over 31 days and information about a Deepen 2022 group call on 30th, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.
We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others engaged in the series: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed
For more information about a free consultation call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Jelelle Awen, Raphael Awen, Gabriel Amara, and Kasha Rokshana, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

We are offering this series for free of charge, yet we would be so grateful if you offered an energy exchange/donation to us for the value you receive in this series. You can donate through paypal: http://paypal.me/jelelleawen or at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

Inner Mother & Daughter Guided Meditation: Video 20 – Deepen 2022 (Video) | Jelelle Awen & Kasha Rokshana

In this twentieth video of our 31 day video series called Deepen 2022, SoulFullHeart Teachers/Co-Creators Jelelle Awen is joined by SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator Kasha Rokshana as we explore Sacred Feminine Embodiment over the next five videos. Kasha and Jelelle have held many women’s group calls together exploring these topics through teachings, guided meditations, and taking in sharing from female participants on the calls.

In this video, we share about the parts of you representing your Inner Daughter and your Inner Mother, plus the dynamics between the two of them. We share about how the internalization of your relationship with your birth mother opens up deeper access to feel the maturation of your inner daughter and your mature feminine essence. We can often be caught up in loops of tension and polarization between the Inner Daughter and Inner Mother, recapitulating our relationship with our birth mothers and limiting our sacred feminine growth and embodiment.

We also share about how the Inner Mother gives us a sense of deeper compassion toward to birth mothers, understanding of how you relate to men and sexuality (as a reflection of her templating), and a bridge to Divine Mother. Your inner daughter holds the pure essence of your sacred feminine which is able to merge with the Divine Mother into an arising sacred feminine Queen expression.

In the guided meditation, you invite your Protector/Gatekeeper to connect you with your Inner Daughter in her room within your castle. You then bring your Inner Mother into the room with the Inner Daughter to get a sense of their relationship dynamic with each other. You are then both inviting to join Divine Mother in Her healing garden outside of the castle and to submerge into the waters of her healing pool.

Here is a link to the descriptions of women’s group calls with Jelelle and Kasha and links to purchase the recordings: https://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2022 playlist on our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvJPnLzbEKl4OsQBXBYw2XwI

For more information about the Deepen 2022 series including a full listing of the content covered over 31 days and information about a Deepen 2022 group call on January 30th, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others engaged in the series: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

For more information about a free intro call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

We are offering this series for free of charge, yet we would be so grateful if you offered an energy exchange/donation to us for the value you receive in this series. You can donate through paypal: http://paypal.me/jelelleawen or at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

The Over-holding Of Others In Our Wombs

by Kasha Rokshana

Connection with our wombs on a daily basis is so important to our health and well-being on all levels as women, especially right now.

My womb, ‘Vesica’, showed me this morning how much she has been holding… and I know she is not the only womb holding much more than she needs to.

In her, I found and felt the cries of the world; the cries of those I love that are going through a challenging time; images of what’s moving in my soul and heart lately; desires that are peaking and perking up; needs that are going unmet at times; feelings of my depth and capacity to hold and offer love to myself and others.

My heart-shaped rose quartz crystal ended up laying on her without me consciously choosing to place it there.
“I need clearing”, Vesica said to me, “I’m holding too much. I’m not designed to hold as much as I have been. You’ll feel clearer if I’m cleared and you’ll feel calmer too. I’m not designed to hold any human being beyond gestation and so I cannot hold all of the people/souls that are in me right now”.

This struck me as a deep reminder of how much we need to be aware of what we’re holding and to move energy out of our wombs… from the collective of which we are a part yet not responsible for; from the beloveds in our lives whose soul-destinies we cannot ‘know’ or control for them; from any fears that parts of us hold about our well-being and our path in our life (or death); from the Matrices (3D and 4D) that still have a foothold on our wombs and what moves into and through them and decide how they’ll be ‘used’ too.


To connect with your womb deeply can take time and much clearing. There are parts of you that are protective of her, and rightfully so, depending on what you’ve been through in this lifetime and others too. To truly connect to the stillness and beauty that IS your womb space takes a dedication and deep desire for her to be free and to arise in her essence within you.

On Sunday April 4th at 5pm BST, Jelelle Awen and I will be offering our second womb-consciousness-based women’s group mediation call, this time focused on freeing the womb from the Matrix. There’s a darkness to this shadow exploration and a depth to it too, yet it’s truly amazing what our wombs can and DO transmute when given the proper care, attention, and love. More info here: soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

Much love from my womb to yours!

Kasha ♥️

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Womb Is A Portal To The Experience Of Womanhood In All Lifetimes

by Kasha Rokshana

As women, all of our lifetimes of experience of being able to BE a woman or not, in every sense of the word, lives in our wombs. There’s a powerful portal within each of our wombs that connects us to these lifetimes where we may have experienced immense power, yet at a cost. This portal can also open us up to lifetimes of remembering what it was like to be a mother, mate, sister, and daughter, who was treasured and loved… or used and abused, victimized, and maybe even held captive for being female.

Such is the mix for the feminine in her depths of healing. So deep is the legacy we each carry within us of our need to heal and offer healing to others too from the depths of our femininity that has been hijacked sometimes and honoured/revered other times.

I often connect with this beautiful egg stone (in the featured photo), which my beloveds and I call the ‘Mother Stone’ at Glastonbury Abbey, ever since landing here in Avalon when we arrived 6 months ago, and I’ve been on a profound inner journey of awakening and healing (supported also by Her) that I couldn’t have done without the energies here. I feel in so many ways like a totally different woman and even a whole new sort of Priestess now than I could have felt like or truly claimed before. And, I feel how all of this journeying has come from my womb and returns back to my womb for integration.

Our wombs hold and house our truest soul and heart bigness. To clear her and activate her, means to meet with what has left her rather congested and full of frequencies she is no longer meant to hold. So vast and deep is the feminine pain heard and felt around the world for centuries, that these cries live in her too. To truly hear, feel, and transmute this pain on behalf of women everywhere is to dive into it from within, from the chalice of our own soul’s experience and need for this healing.

Join Jelelle Awen and I on Sunday March 7th at 5pm GMT for a sacred time of teaching and meditation and deep womb connection. Jelelle led a call like this recently for those of us who are deep in the SoulFullHeart process and community and we all felt this tender connection to and feeling of each other that I know is still going in… we both fully welcome you, dear soul sister, to this next sacred circle which you can donate any amount to be a part of.

You can donate to Jelelle’s PayPal here: paypal.me/jelelleawen or visit our shop: soulfullheart.org/shop

More info on the event can be found here: http://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls ❤️🌹

Love!
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Serving The Feminine, Connecting With The Inner Mother

by Kasha Rokshana

In absolute awe I am, of the depth and sacred intensity in the women I serve in sessions and the women I connect with daily in community as well. Our intensity always matches that of the passion borne inside the womb, that rumbles worlds as much as She creates them.

It’s always vulnerable to lead and be led, to hold and be held, as a feminine embodiment in this and any lifetime. The strength of our inner masculines serves to protect us and our feminine essences, as well as the parts who have felt victimized by this body, by this core of who we are as a heart and soul. Sometimes the inner ‘masculine’ is also a strong and powerful matriarch/wounded Queen/Priestess energy inside that finds it challenging to be vulnerable out of necessary self-protection. Even THIS intensity needs honouring, love, and holding; a recognition of her powerful presence while also helping her learn to feel again, as challenging as that has been for her until now.

I’ve noticed in recent sessions how this matriarch energy expresses in different ways inside of different women. Sometimes we call this the Inner Mother. In one recent session with a young woman in her mid-twenties, we felt how her Inner Mother holds frequencies of being tired and overwhelmed and also victimized by life, much like her birth mother has energized. Another young woman in her early twenties has been feeling how her Inner Mother is also an Inner Punisher who also has frequencies of a Sorceress at times.

I feel, as I serve this dynamic range in women, how much love there is available to continue holding it with an open heart and open hands too, to allow whatever needs to come up in the space to do so. These energies need and deserve to felt and heard, not diagnosed or labeled, even as mirrors are held up for them to start to see their impact on themselves and other parts, as well as relationships on the outside. This is the work of transforming the False Mother into the Sacred Feminine inside, while inviting in the Divine Mother, in whatever form and face is necessary, as the template for this process.

The deep dive inside isn’t actually possible without love and also without support of the Divine Mother, who is the ultimate model for us to feel the inner False Mother and help her heal into more of the healthy, heart-open, capable, and profoundly gifted Queen. It’s Her love that holds the space, really, for which I am but a humble vessel, supporting you to become your own. There’s really no end to this process of deepening this embodiment, no ultimate pinnacle of it, and every ounce of discovery and healing is so worth the journey of diving deep into what (and who) hasn’t felt worthy of receiving, let alone becoming, this energy of sacred feminine love within.

If you’re curious to learn more about sessions with me (I also offer free 45min intro calls if you’d like to talk with me about where we could go in sessions together), visit soulfullheart.org/sessions.

Also, Jelelle and I are hosting a women’s call, by donation on Zoom, on March 7th @ 5pm GMT to teach and lead a guided meditation around womb healing and activation. More info here: http://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

Much love from sacred Avalon! ❤️🌹
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

1:1 Sacred Feminine Embodiment Activation & Trauma Releasing Sessions | Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

I honestly forget most of the time to share on social media about the 1:1 sessions that I do on most days. They are so meaningful and important to me as a way to serve love with the Divine, yet, I also don’t relate with my spaceholding or SoulFullHeart as a business to be promoted regularly in the usual sense. Rather, it is a vocation, a Divine calling, for which I ask for fair monetary exchange (while that is still needed in daily living reality) in return. Sessions are really a dedicated space to transmit the love flow that I am gifted to access within and share with others.

I have been blessed to draw a regular flow of women to have sessions with me over the last four years since I first started sharing more regularly on social media. Some of them have only wanted/needed one session with me….while others are now going into their second and third year of sessions with me, into deeper community living with us, and are on their way to becoming Facilitators themselves some day.

I have had a couple of breaks from offering sessions in order to reboot, rest, and focus on my own process, my relationship with Raphael, the bigger picture offerings, writing, and the community. Yet, since I arrived here in Avalon in September, I have felt a renewed sense of purpose and passion that comes through being in the sessions now. I’m not sure how long I will be offering sessions to those new to the SoulFullHeart process as more of my schedule is filling up with those who have been involved for a longer period of time. So, if you feel drawn, now would be the time to claim one.

It is truly my joy and my honor to spend 90 minutes (often feels much shorter and yet also longer too) with the deep, porous, sensitive, and just plain GIFTED women who are drawn to meet with me. The sessions are a collaborative union between us, between my Divine Self and theirs, and I so enjoy drawing out their insights, their gifts, their realizations, helping them to lift the veils that have covered their access. I hear all the time how amazed they are at what is uncovered and put together and that ‘it makes so much sense’ what we discover.

Bridging to and feeling parts of them such as the Inner Child, Inner Teenager, Inner Protector, Inner Punisher, Gatekeeper and then also soul aspects in other lifetimes is such a fascinating process that always surprises me. I do feel this work that I offer with women is a deeper initiatory process into the embodied grounds of the sacred feminine in a truly unique way that offers true and lasting transmutation or I really couldn’t in integrity continue to offer it.

This process is not for the faint of heart nor does it support bypassing or just being in ‘love and light’ energies. This process and my energy invite you into the hidden places, the rejected places, the places and parts that MOST need your love to truly complete suffering loops and patterns of resistance/fear….it is gentle yet confrontative as is the energy of the Divine Mother when we are ready to truly receive and embrace Her.

If you feel drawn and ready to meet with me, I have a few availabilities in my schedule from Wednesday to Saturdays. You can PM me on FB at https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen or email/contact via soulfullheart.org. Above is a precious testimonial and there are others at soulfullheart.org/testimonials with more information about sessions with me and with my other beloveds and facilitators Raphael Awen and Aurius Amara (for men and women) and with Kasha Rokshana with women at soulfullheart.org/sessions. Aurius and Kasha are also offering free 45 minute intro calls over zoom to those who would like more information about the process and sessions.

Here is a video where I share more about sessions and what happens during them:

Love from Avalon which provides its own heart chakra activations to support the process too!

Jelelle Awen

My Heartbeat Aligns With Avalon

by Kasha Rokshana

My heart pulses in time with the heartbeat of Avalon.

The steady, activating flow of masculine.

The steady, responding flow of feminine.

Within Her arms I feel a new wholeness,

Coming together as she shows me the pieces

Still strewn about by separation trauma-drama.

I feel the whispers of Her sacred Wells

The clarion call of Her Tor

The magic of Her trees and hills and lookouts

All serving the purpose of service itself,

Planting seeds in ready hearts.

I feel the cleansing offerings She bestows upon us,

Of English roses and wild things,

Her birds, her squirrels, her surprising visitors.

All reminders of a magic preserved here, always…

All reminders of the magic of opening your heart

All reminders of the alchemy of inner discoveries

All reminders of the process that it must be to truly, deeply heal.

She awaits with tender gaze

And self-worth.

She awaits your echo to Her heart-call

The one that pings and rings in places yet unseen inside, perhaps.

She awaits the time, the space, 

When Her INvitation is heard

To return to your heart.

The one that aligns with your Divinity AND humanity,

As you open

As you surrender

As you ask for Her support.

My heart pulses in time with the heartbeat of Avalon.

And through Her, with Her, held by Her,

Is an ever-flowing love that moves into the All

Through any hearts that beat the same… 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Oh, Divine Mother: A Prayer

by Kasha Rokshana

Oh, Divine Mother…

Land your vastness in my opening heart.

This being that aches to be as spacious as You.

This human woman who loves to serve your love to others alongside You.

This soul who has served You as a ‘goddess’ of various names and creeds.

Your compassion, unending. Your deep love, inspiring. I desire to feel that flow more and more through me, to me, and in overflow to others.Your essence lives in me as ‘woman’ and ‘priestess’ and ‘oracle’.

Your heart that is alive in all hearts brings us back to feeling… the primary function of our humanity and the seat of all access to your profound love.

Oh, Divine Mother…

As a sacred feminine expression of You, I AM.

As a healing heart and soul, I BECOME.

Thank You for your unconditional acceptance, your embrace of all beings polarized in their ways. Your way of showing me the parts we all need to feel and take ownership of, to co-create from our inner worlds, the outer world we most want to be a part of.

Amen 🌹

Love, Your sacred daughter, Kasha ❤️

Photo is me in the ‘lady chapel’ at Glastonbury Abbey… the site of the first Essene church on this sacred ground, founded by Joseph of Arimathea.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.