By Wayne Vriend

Wayne – Hey Yeshua.

Yeshua – Hey Wayne.

W – No clue where to go today, as is often the case, but just connecting and seeing where we end up has proven the best way to go, with you.

Y – Well, let’s connect then. What’s up for you?

W – Resting a lot this week, I got past that flat feeling that was a big part of yesterday. Reading a lot too about collapse.

Y – We haven’t talked much about collapse for a while have we?

W – Well, it’s been tied in for sure, but not so much directly.

Y- Wanna go there?

W – Sounds great to me, I could really use your take and input. Collapse is a big thing to hold, being so cross current to grain of our society.

Y – It really isn’t hard to see that collapse is happening already, and sudden and surprising further shocks are not far away.

W – I get that. I’ve been reading a lot of people who feel the same way, and yet I feel something is missing, especially from some of the most gifted and well known writers on the subject.

Y – What do you suspect that missing something is?

W – I know that it has to do with a bigger context, a container with which to hold all of the information. The information and guidance and research as valuable as it is contending to get people to wake up, and making it’s case for the coming collapse…but still, it doesn’t do something for me, that I wished it did. I can’t quite put my finger on it though.

Y – feel for a moment…

W – Feel what?

Y – Feel what it is that you are reaching for when you are taking in those authors and bloggers?

W – Okay. I feel how ‘not at home’ I feel in the present social construct, how stifling it actually is to me, and what I’m reaching for, it feel like has to do with a completely new arrangement of our social order, around deeper heart expression and meaning, much deeper. I hope that something of that is on the other side of collapse.

Y – for you…

W – Yes.

Y – That ache Wayne, that you are willing to feel, is what most are not willing to feel. To want something deeply that you don’t currently have or feel a tangible guarantee of obtaining is the essence of true vulnerability, as well as courage. It opens my heart to feel that in you.

W – Thank you Yeshua. Your helping me loosen it up a bit. It’s a realness that I have only found in such tiny moments or very select relationships that I want more of.

Y – I feel how your soul gets all lit up around a hope of a new beginning in heart to heart.  Collapse clears the deck so real grounded human need can cut through the cultural bullshit to this new possibility. You’re on it.

W – On it, how so?

Y – Heart to heart is the new emerging reality and container that wants to flow out of collapse. Collapse is the falling apart of the inauthentic and false-self based ways of relating to others. We talked before about the illusion of the separate self. That illusion is what needs to go. When it is sufficiently gone, then one can no longer inflict harm or take advantage of an other, because harming an other is harming self. And guess what else?

W – What?

Y – They can’t inflict harm on themselves either, after this illusion falls away, because harming themselves is the same as harming an other, because of our complete connection with every cell of life. It works both ways.

W – That’s cool, because I observe people in self suicide mode, who recognize the ship is sinking, yet can’t get themselves in gear to seek to leave the ship. And with every passing moment, the window of opportunity is clsoing.

Y – This is the essence of being in life and being surrendered to life that the soul is working through. Your soul has wrestled through these pieces a whole bunch to get where you are around it. Many just aren’t there yet. There’s a lot at stake for them this life, but the soul itself is never at stake, just it’s growth. It is always learning and growing it’s way into courage, vulnerability and the true power of love, especially through collapse. Love wins out in the end.

W – So collapse is not the enemy?

Y – Collapse is nature mi Amigo, and there’s one thing about nature, it is never in a panic. People project their own inner feelings of panic upon their lives and natural cycles. That’s what you are feeling when you are reading many people’s collapse writing. It’s the feeling of their own in-surrender to life, their reach for some safety guarantee to be found in externals and preparation. To the degree all that planning and preparation is founded in what they haven’t been willing or able yet to feel is the degree that the writing is based in a panic frequency even though the words are saying ‘let me help you.’ In truth, the soul of the writer is actually asking ‘Someone help me?’

W – But isn’t panic a good thing, I mean if the ship is sinking and all?

Y – True, but the panic is felt by the immediate reality that if you don’t move, you die physically. On a soul level, It’s not as clear for most people. We’re talking about a resistance to feeling a true and grounded panic to what is at stake for the heart and soul. It’s like If I don’t admit my need or my terror, and side in with the ‘all is well’ conspiracy, then that’s what will be true for me. I’d vouch a long ways for creating your own reality and all that, but in this case, the person needs to create their own reality in light of the sinking ship, because inaction is only going to result in creating the reality that they fear. It’s being afraid of death actually, but this feeling is subconscious and so the feeling is unfelt. This is what leads to the reality of death. I rest my case, we all do create our own reality. It’s just not some big spiritual attainment. Every day folks have already mastered this spiritual reality like a guru, they just don’t know it. Where some growth and attainment comes into the picture is being willing to feel what they have avoided feeling. What’s collapsing is the entire construct of avoiding feelings, and what’s arising out the ashes is the new birth of heart and feeling.

W – I think you’re tweaking all of us now, by that I mean me and anyone reading this. What would you add to that about gaining this feeling capacity that is so missing and wants to be born in us collectively?

Y – Well, it’s like you did yesterday. You admitted feeling flat and feelings of self judgment about what you weren’t doing that you could have been doing. These emotions have been hardwired somehow in the human psyche to avoid or suppress, when what’s being revealed now is that they, meaning the entirety of what you feel, that you like and that you don’t like, is the entrance into your own authenticity and power. People feel that if they shed their nice guy polite shit, there wouldn’t be restraint on their destructive energy, when really that destructive pent up energy is really just their authentic selves locked away. This is just kindergarten really for the heart and the emotions. A beginning place, that can take you to some crazy cool places as you’ve found out some.

W – yeah and I’m wanting to find out a whole bunch more.

Y – Cuz you’re a maniac.

W – who talks to Jesus no less.

Y – Hey, you’re not the only one taking flack for being strange man. I get the same deal from the guys i hang with about your and I’s connection. Their just jealous though. This is the shit the entire universe has groaned in travail for and you and got it going in an all inclusive package.

W – Thanks Yeshua, I feel myself getting slowly back up to your and I’s speed.

Y – Likewise, thanks Man.

W – I love you man.

Y I love you too, MAN.