Eclipse Brings Stillness And Activation

By Gabriel Solais

The Sun activates. He penetrates. He gets us outside and into movement. We are showered with his powerful codes. This can be a lot to let in. We may feel over-saturated with these sacred Love streams.

The Moon offers us a reprieve. A moment of stillness and reflection. An opportunity to play “catch up” with our selves. Our scattered pieces that are waiting to be picked up and brought back to wholeness. She gives us the space to integrate and see things with more clarity. She invites us to walk into the Next with a more grounded footing, rather than feeling like we are stumbling at times.

This is gift the Eclipse can offer us today. We can choose something new to step into. Let go of the things that no longer serve the longer term arch of our higher timeline and the Presence of this Now. It is a galactically fleeting moment but a profound one if we choose it to be.

Set your intentions, desires, and dreams on High today. Offer them up to the Galactic Dance and see what comes on its way back to your heart, body, and soul.

 

Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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The Constant Of Change

By Gabriel Solais

Change is the one thing that we can count on to be constant. That is the marker of our growth whether that change shifts something inside of us, outside, or both. Invariably they are both occurring simultaneously. The deeper gauge is how we are relating to and digesting that change inside.

My world has felt like it has flipped on its axis over the past couple of weeks. I will be writing more about that in the next couple of days. In this emotional ‘pole shift’ a lot has rumbled and it could feel like a catastrophe to parts of me. Kind of like my own personal Atlantis.

In the course of this upheaval, I have given myself to the surges and purges. The depths of feeling that bring rain and then clearer skies, only to roll with another ‘aftershock’ of reality. I have had the fortunate situation to be able to do so at a rate and pace that felt self-loving and not forced, judged, or ignored.

In the roll, I am finding a rock. A sense of BEing that is not hard, but fluid and flexible. Trusting and forgivable. This rock is a deeper layer of a ‘me’ that I continue to learn about and become more intimate with in Love and Awareness. Some good and some things that need to be loved.

And that is the gift of this journey. To find what is True within the Hidden, even when that seems to get flipped upside down from time to time. The essence and purpose of change. If you are amidst a great shift and change in your life there are those that can help you to navigate that with all the grace and pace needed to get to that ‘other side’ and next chapter. It has been a gift to me beyond these words.

More to come…

Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Vulnerability In Relationship

By Raianna Shai

I wrote this poem after having just the right day to open up my heart. Whenever this happens every space inside of me that feels like a void fills up with gratitude and appreciation of my environment and the people around me. I was reminded of why I tend to feel guarded around others and how good it feels to be intimate in relationship.

I am very good at being alone. I have always been independent and able to entertain myself quite easily. I thought recently that I would be happier and more opened out living on my own. But the fact that living with others is harder and scarier means it’s probably what I’m meant to be working.

I was feeling how it’s so easy to feel misunderstood or judged by others when you have that living inside of yourself. Whenever my insecurity was high, I found that it was harder to let others in and be vulnerable. I also remembered how much I love physical touch and how important it is to increase the intimacy in relationships. A lingering hug here, a friendly cuddle there. I always saved this for when I was in a romantic relationship because that’s where it felt safe and accepted.

But telling someone what they mean to you and showing physical affection are two things that are bound to be scary. It means you are seeing the other and therefore “risk” being seen yourself. This can bring up a lot of fear if a sense of lack or unworthiness lives inside of you.

I have a big desire to go to the next place in all of my relationships in order to work this push pull inside of me when it comes to intimacy. This poem illustrates the feeling I had of that!

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In the moments that my heart splits open
Gratitude fills every atom of my soul
My body sways with tenderness and care
I want to wrap my arms around every lonely heart
Connecting to oneness and collective love

My fingers trace the edges of my frame
It runs along every crack
Every bump
Every inconsistency
It fills my emptiness with loving energy
It brings out the softness underneath the surface

Soft vulnerability is hard to show
The sweet caress of your own beauty
Uniquely separate from those around you
Yet intertwined in insecurity and fear

I feel overwhelmed by the thought of my loved ones
The way they move through life
The way they see and care for me
When I can’t see myself

You are so brave, dear one
To be a bright green growth
In a grey sidewalk crack
Constantly fearing the underside of passing steps
The shadow side of humanity

I see you, I feel you
I want you, I need you
I feel scared to tell you
That I admire you
And hope you admire me too

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Path To Soul Purpose

Your 20s is a strange and confusing time of your life. It’s the decade when you are entering the “real world”. When there are less handrails and more independence. When you have the space and freedom to choose who and what you want to be.

This can be as equally liberating as it is terrifying. So many people I have talked to, including myself, have moments of feeling like they don’t know what they’re doing with their life or where it’s leading.

There’s a new priority these days of fulfilling a soul purpose rather than living out the traditional lifestyle of older generations. However, we haven’t exactly been taught how to find or live out our soul purpose so we have to feel it for ourselves.

It’s easy to see others who look like they have their life “together” and to judge yourself for where you are at. But one thing I’ve learned is that absolutely everyone is going through something. No matter how much of their life is exactly how they want it to be, there are always moments of self doubt, sadness and frustration.

It’s easy to want to hide away from the world because of this. To not reveal yourself or your intentions until you have it figured out. But the biggest thing we can learn from each other is what it’s like to be in process. Vulnerability is about exposing yourself every step of the way in order to let in more intimacy.

We can spend our whole lives trying to be self sufficient and happy on our own but we do this work in order to share it with others. We are not meant to depend on others but we are also not meant for absolute solitude.

We work towards self love in order to feel love for all. We live through peaks in valleys just like everyone else. The best we can do is feel where we want to be, what’s keeping us from being there, and loving ourselves until our shadow can come to the light of day. It is then that we love out our wildest dreams.

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Honouring Unwanted Feelings

By Raianna Shai

There are moments when I look outside of myself. When I feel frustration or anger at things I can’t control.

I try not to feel bad about it in these moments. I’m only human and can’t always get to a higher frequency right away.

But I do try and take a moment to feel where my frustration with other is a frustration inside of myself.

What do my parts need? Where am I feeling unloved and unworthy? And how can I fill that void inside of myself instead of waiting for that outside source to fill it for me?

Ultimately, we are always going to have reactions that we don’t want to have. It’s all about treating each feeling with respect and honor. Knowing that each one has its place and value.

No feeling is a bad one at its core. They all lead us somewhere new inside of ourselves. A new sense of self love, a new boundary with others, a new form of compassion for whatever may be frustrating you.

We are here, in this world, in this form, to feel it all. As fully as humanly possible.

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Sometimes I Cry

By Raianna Shai

 

Sometimes I cry

I cry for the world, for the fear and the hate

I cry for the constant discord and debate

 

I cry for the children who never have homes

I cry for their feet, and the streets that they roam

 

I cry for the women who feel so unworthy

I cry for the men who are told to be burly

 

Sometimes I cry

For the part of me that never feels right

Who can’t see her beauty or bounty of light

 

For the part of me that can’t let you down

Who loves everyone, but herself she lets drown

 

For the part of me that can’t understand

Why he hasn’t been taught how to be a man

 

Sometimes I cry

Water may fall, but then I find out

That soon after tears, Comes wisdom, not doubt

 

The love will come back in body and heart

And then my cup fills, returns to the start

 

The well of my heart shall never dry

For when I feel sad, sometimes I cry

 

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Rewriting Our Stories As Immortals

By Raphael Awen

We are collectively at the greatest point yet in our evolution, and where and what you as an individual can be in all of that, and want to be in all of that is very much up to you.

You can hold and display the part of the story that is falling away or you can broadcast and exemplify the part of the story that is arising.

The collective can’t make up your mind, but it can provide a wave for you to ride if you want to. It’s all about the want to, where you personally are concerned.

Maybe one of the single greatest current pieces of this arising story is the achieving of immortality in this life, youthing instead of aging.

We’ve known this in our very DNA for so long. The Christians declare that the last enemy to be subjected under our feet is death. The Christian philosophy is that immortality is for another time and dimension than the one we are currently in; for after we die to this earthly plane.

I believe that philosophy is both accurate in one way and inaccurate in another.

Yes, it is for another time and dimension, but that other time and dimension can be dialed in here and now.

As multidimensional beings, we are collectively about to ambassador to and make a truce with this last enemy. We are realizing that this earthly plane couldn’t be any more sacred, as it awaits our awakening to what it wants to offer us. We are being invited into a death of an old way of seeing and feeling life itself. In this way, heaven does follow our death, it follows us in a life that is ‘after’ to the one we’ve known up till now.

So it isn’t actually that far of a stretch to believe in immortality. It’s just the frame we’ve put around it. The doctors tell us that we don’t actually have a valid explanation for the phenomenon of death as they know that all of our cells regenerate every seven years.

If you received a cancer diagnosis and were given a limited time to live, I know what you would do. You’d alter (and place on the altar) every activity, every thought, every emotion, every food you ate to change that prognosis. People do it all the time, even recovering fully from extreme very terminal illness.

We’ve all been given a very similar diagnosis that we shouldn’t expect to live much longer than eighty or ninety years, by an authority that we’ve respected as bigger than us. For me personally, at fifty seven years of age, I can then expect and be grateful for twenty more good years and maybe ten not so good years. I’m sorry my friend, but that’s not good enough for me. I’ve worked hard to get to this point and to begin to wind it all down now and hopefully reawaken in a future life to all I’ve awakened to in this life doesn’t appeal to me. I want more than that. I know you do too! The question is whether or not you will allow yourself to dare to want that more and then declare that to yourself and your world.

I am an immortal being and I chose to live into that here and now.

It’s time we awaken now to our calling to rewrite the story we’ve been given, accepting that we are our own authors.

It’s time we awaken to the host of guides and especially star family who already know this reality of youthing instead of aging; who so want to aid our awakening; to aid in the transition of our story.

Stay tuned as Jelelle, myself and all of us in the SoulFullHeart family will be sharing more about this awakening.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Relation-ships – Me, You and Us

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By Raphael Awen

Every relationship that we enter, that we chose to remain inside of or that we choose to leave, has powerful effects on our souls healing journey.

Yesterday, I met with my sister, Brenda, after not having almost any contact for the past ten years. It was meaningful for a part of me to receive a mini update on my mother, two other siblings, my former wife, two daughters, nieces and nephews and even my own grandchildren whom I haven’t met, as well as more distant family.

In 2009, I chose to largely break off contact with family. I always felt and still do feel that what I was saying no to, was to meet inside of family gatherings where my own changing views of life, and particularly my leaving of Christianity were not welcome as part of the conversation. I also couldn’t expect any of them to be okay with any kind of demand on my part for them to be curious and genuinely interested. What moved for me recently was a desire to be accountable for any hurt I caused in my abrupt departure from family.

I came away from our coffee shop reunion feeling quite a bit of mixed emotions. I had an expanded sense of how all of us in this human experience gravitate to or away from relationships has so much to do with a deep wound we carry inside, mostly subconsciously of our feelings of having lost connection with the Divine, how we were birthed out of a bliss oneness place into individuated consciousness that leaves us with a deep residual separation inside and outside that we are left to integrate. This feels to me like the true hero’s journey, coming back into remembrance of our true essence, that we never actually left or lost any of our divine essence, but rather were given the perception of loss, as a deep wound, that when and as we heal from that wound, we grow into even more than we were in our original state of bliss and oneness.

On a more human level, I felt how ten years had gone by with my family, and how it was hard to see from my perspective where much in terms of growth had changed emotionally or spiritually. I know that’s a judgment on my part, but one I can’t deny. While in connection with family, I was constantly tugging on them to see beyond what I felt were limitations on growth. Even while inside of Christianity, I was constantly jumping camps and switching loyalties all in an effort to break out of something and to break into something more that my soul knew was there. I grew tired of that tugging and so did they, understandably. I get how each of us has a different clock speed setting for our growth, but yet, I believe that this too is something we can consciously shift if we desire to. We awaken to how much parts of us are allowing or disallowing in terms of our growth. We are not victims of fate, or of the Divine, but rather, parts of use the perceptions of victimhood, to govern the pace of our growth.

It was difficult to chose to leave the family circle, to face some of their angsts, to engage or not to engage in communication. I knew I needed and deeply wanted community in my life and I still know that. Community, at heart, I’ve been learning has to do with our kindness, acknowledging that despite our very real differences, that we are still of the same kind. Both are true. We are one, yet we are individual. We have resonance and we have dissonance in relationships. We came here to have that juice.

I am left with a deeper digestion that the relationships we keep and how we keep them is something profoundly sacred for each individual. Some relationships are given to us for the growth we will encounter in leaving them. Ultimately, every relationship we enter, we will leave on this earthly plane. Knowing and feeling that, we are invited to be present in the present with the present of what we have now – to hold it with reverence for the Divine in all of us. This is why we have funerals, a place to return to feeling for the reverence of all of life. We enter the feeling of death to more fully enter the feeling of life.

Deep profound deaths and rebirths are something that we can enter here in the course of our lives, without needing to wait for us to leave the body. I recently went through the most heart rending completion of my relationship with Jelelle, where we ‘broke up’ and have since magically found our way back to the deepest of reopenings, where the magnitude of the pain of loss only compares to the magnitude of joy on the other side. Losing my relationship with Jelelle also seemed inextricably intertwined with the losing of my beloved SoulFullHeart community that has been my family for the past ten years. It felt like history repeating itself all over again. I could also feel Metasoul aspects of mine who know the pattern of excommunication and we’re still stuck in their suffering loops and reactions around those dramas. Feeling these Metasoul aspects and helping them shift felt like it gave me a big gift in this dimension to go to my next places of growth.

I feel how we are all being invited, when we find our heart breaking, to let it break open, to parts of ourselves, to the Divine, and to one another – not with duty and obligation to old caretaking ways of being, but with love, transparency and our deepest desires leading the way.

This is the journey we signed up for; gain and loss; joy and sorrow, even the inevitable of hurting others and being hurt.

We return to our divinity as we return to our humanity only to find there is no difference.

I also see how we, at a deep soul level, don’t actually leave any relationship even if we break off contact or interaction. Our souls are so much bigger than what is or isn’t currently happening on the earth plane, conducting business for our growth regardless of how much of it we can see or feel, or from what paradigm we are consciously coming from.

Much love to each of you in the one family that we all are!

Raphael Awen
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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

She is… (A Poem)

By Raianna Shai

She rides the tides
And phases of the moon
Her body
Growing and changing
With every rise and fall

Her curves hold life
So precious
A container
Of our own humanity

She moves with grace
Is graced with movement
So tender
So passionate
Lost in the moment of oneness

With Gaia
With mother
With the trees
And the wind

She is a portal
Back to your own heart
A mirror
Into your soul

Her feminine form
Soft and powerful
Her feminine heart
Of trust and surrender
Her feminine soul
Of flames, earth, air and wind

She is…

– divine feminine

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Moving From Being Alone To All-one

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By Raphael Awen

Loving yourself requires feeling yourself and feeling yourself requires space.

This space is a transactional space where you as an observer/feeler opens a curious open hearted inquiry about another part of you.

When a part of you is feeling anything, be it anger, sadness, joy or bliss, you simply are this feeling state until this open hearted other shows up.

You move from being alone to all-one, when this state of transactionally loving yourself is flowing to and from ALL the aspects of your being.

This is my ‘teacher digestion’ as I feel myself moving through a pronounced recent dark night, death and rebirth cycle in the recent separation with Jelelle and new opening with each other. There was intense reaction through the birth canal, facing not only the loss of Jelelle, but also all of my beloveds in SoulFullHeart, almost more than I could bear, but there is also surprisingly many reactions to feel to be out the other side into a bunch of goodness, amidst all the relief. Feelings arise like ‘how will we sustain this new frequency?,’ particularly in relationship with an ever changing Jelelle as she and her parts have launched a rocket ship of service in recent months and continues to do so. She definitely isn’t the same woman I married in so many ways. It’s still more than a bit disconcerting to a part of me to feel she’ll most likely be yet again a different woman in a few weeks from now, or in any moment for that matter. She’s definitely a lot to keep up with part of me says.

When this unsettled feeling moves through me, it first produces an unsettled reaction where I’m less grounded, often not even conscious of the actual feeling. Then when my consciousness registers the fear, I can immediately launch an inquiry as to what part of me is feeling that.

I’m working with and relating with a new part of myself, Mateo, who has held mateship all these years, and most all of the reactions that have to do with Jelelle involve him. Initially, the feeling swell is anxiety, aloneness, fear, but when I connect with him, and am not in denial of these ‘lower’ feeling states, immediate non judgmental space opens out. Curiosity makes space for deep reconnection inside myself, love and compassion begins that flows out to deep understanding, exchanges of appreciation, remorse for the distance between he and I, anticipation of what wants to come between us, and more flow in an abun-dance, and abounding dance between two beings becoming one.

The awareness comes full circle then that the feeling of trying to manage my relationship with Jelelle is coming from a part of me who feels out of touch with my heart, his heart home in that moment. Reconnecting him and I, then pulls back the projections going outward to land in me, which is the only place they can really be made secure.

This inner romance and its deep fulfillment me-to-me can then pervade and flow into my relationship with Jelelle, and navigate with all the navigation necessary (or not necessary) to be in the arising changing moment relationally. The inner relational space is mirrored in the outer romance and vice versa, as well as to all my relationships on all levels.

Without this, Mateo says, “you’re hooped man, take it from me!”

Thank you all for your embrace of yourself, which makes real relationship and nourishment possible.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.