The SoulFullHeart process is a wild, epic ride that is constantly blowing my mind and my heart wide open. It is intense, deep, rich and profound and I love it so much. My life is more magical when I am accessing and feeling my parts and creating deeply nourishing relationships inside of myself with them. Life becomes more alive and real in a way I cannot describe as it truly needs to be experienced for yourself. It is such an individual process because it is led by parts of YOU, there is no one outside telling you what is right or how to do it, just support to keep going in and finding your own way through any challenges, tensions or resistances to love that arise.
It is a process that is helping me to become more human and that is what I love. It is not a spiritual practise but it is deeply spiritual. It is bridging the gap for me on what being a human and being spiritual mean. This process helps me feel and know from inside that those two aspects of who we are, are NOT separate. As I feel what is deeply human inside of me and those parts of me feel seen, met, heard and loved, then the Divine aspects of me are remembered and revealed so naturally and organically.
Our human hearts and emotions are the keys to the doorway home to the Divine essence of who we truly are. The richness in feeling this from inside and through your own experience with your parts is for me the most exquisite feeling ever. It is changing everything in my life and creating a foundation of self love and self trust in a way I have not experienced anywhere else.
This is my experience of course, not everyone will resonate with parts work and that is the beauty of all being so different and unique. This process honors and welcomes our uniqueness though, seeing the gifts that your parts and the ways they experience and feel life as adding to it, rather than taking away, or trying to make us tick boxes that make us spiritual enough to fit in or advance to the next level. There are no rules and the possibilities are endless, how liberating.
You are endless, your parts are endless and the love that starts to arise within you as you feel parts of you is endless too. It is something to let in, feeling how big, how beautiful and how divine we truly are and have always been, and that being here in a human body is a gift we chose, not a hindrance to our spirituality but rather the doorway into deeper knowing and understanding of it.
It is a big, bold and brave choice to choose a path of being fully alive and embodied in these times when there is so much to feel and respond to in the world. For me there is no other way through though than IN and I would not want to be going IN in any other way than with my parts, in this way of life and with the support of this beloved community.
Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant & Community Member. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
It was the first snow for us here in Avalon so Kasha and I went out to walk the Tor, take in the magic, and film this quick video sharing about our upcoming women’s group call over Zoom on Sunday January 31st at 5:00pm UK/noon EST/9:00am PST offering Inner Sacred Union codes!
Discovering and deepening the Sacred Union between your own inner masculine and feminine is a process that calls you to new depths within and in your outer relationships as well. We have both felt immense benefits from connecting with these parts of themselves while in romantic relationships, completing them, or staying sacredly single. To explore the connection between our inner feminine and inner masculine provides a powerful growth ground within that can then overflow to our relationships with others. The inner union can be in much more of polarized state…with parts of you ‘against’ each other or suppressing each other or just not in alignment with each other, which then impacts all relationship experience.
We will talk about how to explore your sacred union within grounds through working parts of the self and the soul as well, identifying the ways that parental templates, Matrix conditioning, soul themes/patterns etc. have all influenced this crucial inner ground. We will share about our personal journeys of exploring sacred union within us over many years engaged in working with our inner masculine and feminine aspects to bring more union and heal polarities that leads to an empowered, vulnerable and open, and receptive experience of life and relationships.
During this call, we will guide you in a meditative space into a safe healing space where you can bridge to whatever wants to show up as representing your inner masculine and inner feminine right now, inviting them into more connection with each other. You will receive a template from the Magdalenes around an embodiment of this inner union frequency. We will also tap into and transmit from the powerful Mary and Michael ley line/energy flows that runs through Avalon and that we take in daily living here.
You can attend the women’s call live and/or receive the recording by offering a donation of any amount to paypal.me/jelelleawen or purchasing the Zoom link through our website at soulfullheart.org/shop.If you become a member of the SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for $14.99 USD/month, you can attend the call and/or receive the recording as part of your membership. Visit https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co to find out more about this online community space and to join too.
I believe this is a moment like no other, a moment of opportunity, a moment to choose deep and profound change, a moment to embrace all of you, from your highest leading ‘I Am’ Self all the way down to your ‘lowest’ edge where parts of you live in doubt and insecurity.
Nothing is actually lower or higher. You will never become any more sacred than you already are! If that is true, then you and I finally have the freedom, to look deeply into the mirrors of our lives, our circumstances, our relationships and take the deepest inventory of what’s also true there, as none of it can take away or add to the fact that ‘I already AM, all that I ever might become’.
I am very deeply interested in all that I might become. I am also very deeply interested in all that I already am. While this has always felt true for me on some level on my journey, I can tell you that it has felt like my biggest challenge as well. It has waxed and waned. At times, even very recently, I’ve seen my bigness stare me in the face and it has scared parts of me to the core. Numerous hideouts and comfortable ceilings have again been discovered and negotiated with, and let go of, only to be faced with another layer of vulnerability, insecurity and desire. I suspect that this is the whole deal of being here. It gets to move for me from more private to more service-based as I transparently live this out loud.
I’m no longer of the illusion that these kinds of challenges where I must face a new place in me feeling contracted or small will somehow become ‘healed’ or a thing of the past. If I AM is truly infinite greatness, then any and all achievements or attainments, no matter how great, how relieving, how homecoming, how much of an entrance into my personal promised land – they still remain a humble kindergarten. I’m starting to get used to that! – another celebrated ‘attainment’ in and of itself, where any and all movements either forward or backward are part of the magical and infinite I AM that I AM.
The other big thing all of this offers me is that the only one I can ever be a saviour for, is me and me alone. I can’t offer you anything you don’t already possess. With this clarity, I can however, hold space to offer you, YOU.
When Moses, standing in his small self perceived stature before a burning bush manifestation of God, hearing the voice of God calling him and sending him, asked God a very understandable question: “Who do I say sent me?” and God answers, “Tell them thee I AM that I Am has sent you.”
I’m here today standing before mankind, my kind, saying “The I Am that I Am, has sent me to you.” I’m here, in your hearing, speaking to your I AM that I AM, before the burning bush of your desires, your heart aches, your heart passions, inviting you into something tangible, alive and real, inside and outside.
I’ve crossed a threshold into my own promised land and feel it is more important than ever to invite other men who are ready to enter theirs with me. I can’t do what I’m called to do, or be what I’m called to BE, in a box or on my own. I get to walk out my more in the resonance field that’s generated with other men doing the same.
I’ve done that primarily with Gabriel Heartman for many years in a time where most efforts to expand numbers were met with more inner expansion than any kind of outward expansion. Time and process was needed mostly in private. I feel and see that changing now. Something is shifting in men and in the core of my I Am, informing all of me with a new resolve, as well as a sacred and ongoing completion of my own very real push-pull relationship with my own bigness. I want that more than I want life. This is life to me.
What is life to you? What do you most deeply want? Are you prepared to reach out for a lifeline when one is thrown to you, or will you continue praying for a lifeline instead? There’s a time to ask and a time to act.
I may be sounding fearfully close to a promo salesperson now, and to be sure, I AM trying to sell you on something. I AM called to sell you on something. I AM called to sell you on you. It’s strange though, because no words that I might write or speak could ever actually achieve this. It’s only and ever achievable by living it out inside of myself, and you picking up on that and choosing the same for yourself.
Our mutual benefit is then easy and natural, whether we go any further in any kind of together way.
If however, the particular signature frequency of my deal feels like it may be or wants to be a part of your signature deal, then I deeply invite you to check out who I AM and what I offer.
This video is me here in the Abbey ruins in Glastonbury, offering a connection with one of my beautiful Metasoul brothers; King Arthur. How fitting as he knows how to assemble and lead a round table of men!
Gabriel Heartman and myself both serve men in one on one sessions helping men embrace all of themselves in ongoing process via a specific path. Here’s a link to more about sessions: https://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions.
Sessions may well be a bit too close, too soon, for where you are, if you’ve just discovered us. If so, I invite you to consider following us at whatever distance feels comfortable for you, while serving your heartache and opportunity.
A great way to do that is to join our SoulFullHeart Portal for $15 usd per month, a private on-line community where you get to share with like minded men and women, as well as a men’s only portion of the Portal, and receive exclusive content, writings, videos and transmissions. Here’s an invite to our Portal.
If you’ve read this through this far, then I know you are feeling the truth of the first words I spoke today – that this is a moment of opportunity like no other. Other moments will be sure to come, if that’s what your I AM needs to orchestrate for you, but what if this moment right now is your moment, or at least one of them? What if what I’m offering you is offered to you for you to make a deeper personal connection, to see where it takes you, to see if what you are feeling right now, continues to self validate as a truly profound going on place? If so, I’d love to hear from you. Gabriel would love to hear from you.
I can tell you from the depths of my heart and experience that I Am wanting, willing and ready to serve you, to show up for you as you show up for you.
If you are a woman who’s read this all the way through, bless you! And allow yourself to take in all these words directed at men, and feel them for your own inner masculine parts of you. Also, let your sacred yearning and desire for men and the missing masculine to rise up and claim the inhabitation of their long awaited I AM selves, be a gift of alchemy transmitted to all the men feeling this, whether by my words today, or by the same download that’s being broadcast into the collective from many different sources right NOW.
If you know of other men who you feel are ready for such a time as this, please share this post with them.
May we each arise to this occasion to find ultimately that there was ever only one of us and one occasion all the while, one truly worth showing up for.
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.
We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/
You keep opening your heart to love. You do, because it is WHY you are here. To open, to share, to risk….even, sometimes, to break. So it feels like…..your heart is breaking into pieces and the parts that seem shattered speak to you then, saying, ‘This is me, all broken up. Will I ever come together again?’
These parts of you speak of hurt and loss that runs deep, much beyond this moment and even this present timeline and this current situation or circumstance. They flash you the slideshow scenes of previously forgotten pain that is now acutely aching again so you can understand it better, feel it, BE with it…..eventually help them be FREE from these frozen in fear moments.
These parts of you cry with you their tears that often weren’t allowed, permitted, or felt in the moment the pain was caused and harm received by others. These parts of you…..sometimes so, so young, precious, and innocent….can then be held by your and the Divine Mother’s forgiveness and compassion. They can become pure again until the light of your loving sun.
You keep holding the space for this process….BEing with what is real, allowing space to feel it ALL with ALL parts of you. You keep feeling because, on the other side of this pain, is the joy that is contained in every part of you.
On the other side of the fear, is the love that is the essence of every part of you.
On the other side of the shame, is the sense of innate goodness in every part of you.
Your Divine Self keeps finding support to trust this transmutational process. You trust it because it always moves to the other side eventually. Every movement offers the opportunity and possibility of moving on….even if it looks like ‘going in’ or looks like mourning. You hear ‘it’s time to move on now and let it go’ and so parts of you do, your previously occupied heart now empty, vacated, and ready to be filled up again by love…
You keep feeling the love that life is bringing, holding, offering you and these parts do too until they become more and more whole and integrated. You keep listening as Life says, “Keep opening UP, BEing with what is real and trusting the process. All that you desire and deserve is here, waiting until you are ready to receive it.” ~ Love from Avalon! Jelelle Awen
This ground of feeling, healing, and being with parts of you and soul aspects is what we explore with much tender and deep initiation in 1:1 sessions. For more information, visit soulfullheart.org/sessions
This year has seen an upsurge in the Truth/Justice ticket that has swept across the globe. It may best be exemplified by the Q and BLM movements.
There has been a global shadow presence on Earth for millenia. It is a collective shadow. It varies in size and scope. It is control, hate, and what can only be described as evil. It divides and confuses. It obfuscates and denies. It is hidden in plain sight.
Whether it is pedofiles, elites, facists, supremacists, or racists, there is a hunt on. The Truth/Justice ticket has its soldiers and its provocateurs. It also has its genuineness and its desire for real disclosure and transparency on all fronts. Again, as I said in my last piece, it the ENERGY that I am focusing on. So when I am referring to this Truth/Justice ticket what I feel is a tighter, angry energy that is aligned in many ways to Rage.
There is damn good reason to be angry when we are bombarded with all sorts of information and images that rub against things that parts of us have not been conscious of, whether on purpose or not. There is a growing number within this ticket that can rush to judgement and persecution without really taking the time to breathe. It is a knee-jerk reaction without deep questioning or exploration.
This has sent the more discerning and leveled voices into a more defensive and obscured role within the ‘party’. “If you are not for us, you are against us!” is the rally cry. You will be ostracized, criticized, and ‘cancelled’. In the cries for unity there are often inner battles. The polarity getting the best of itself.
With all the shadow-hunting and ‘justice’-seeking, there is a derision. A field of energy that can implode upon itself. It is a field that consists of so much collective injustice and pain. It lives within each of us as an Akashic record. When we don’t go into our own relationship to Injustice then we are reacting to the unconscious forces within that are both personal and collective.
When fused to the larger pool of Injustice or Spiritual Warfare, we lose our own sense of Self and what is really true for us. What is the reaction really about? Where in the heart and soul does it come from? I am not saying it does not have legitimacy. I am advocating for awareness and consciousness that leads to real Truth and Justice, not just getting swept away by the river of rage, battle, and hunting.
Our DNA holds a wealth of information when it comes to this ongoing disclosure of the shadow. There are historic and galactic implications we may find ourselves just recapitulating. I don’t believe we are doomed unless we really want to be. We have a choice to rewire our programming, conditioning, and unconscious reactions. We have a choice from what energy field we wish to vote for, live in, and live from.
How much of the ‘truth’ do we really want to know? What are we prepared for? Not just externally, but internally as well? What kind of justice do we want to administer and how do we want to respond to what looks and feels like injustice? These to me are all questions I want to be asking myself in cultivating and stewarding a New Earth from the inside out. I want truth and justice, I am just not sure the current energy around it is what I want to ‘vote’ for. Is there another ticket that has another perspective and answer?
If you have felt impacted by these energies and are wanting feel some clarity and empowerment for yourself around them, I am available for a 1:1 session to see where we can feel how your inner world is being reflected in the reactions to the outer world and how the SoulFullHeart process can support you in creating something new that radiates more of who you are and want to be in the world.
Next, I will travel to the ethers and meet with the Love/Light ticket to see what it has to offer us during these volatile times.
Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.
Continuing on the next stage of a nomadic, service-based lifestyle with my soul fam. Today I am leaving an apartment I serendipitously found at a very big choice point between going back to the US during the pandemic mess in March or staying here at taking time to let the grand drama play itself out.
Since then, I have been reunited with soul community and have become deeper involved in service and creativity. The reality that I will be heading to the UK with everyone at the end of August is still a trip to the ‘me’ that existed in March. I will be moving back to living with everyone for the month while we prepare.
This whole experience has led me to trust my higher intuition and to also surrender into what the universe and Divine are guiding me to inhabit at each turn. If love is what I am meant to serve, then I trust Love will continue to guide me even if it seems uncertain and unknown to parts of me.
This Lions Gate moment is inviting us to feel that edge of safety and fear. Our heart and soul callings may be hard for parts of us to lean into but if we are connected to this Divine Self frequency we can hold all of those feelings with grace, passion, and compassion leading us to that next step, even if it seems like a leap.
Mother once reminded me that each step will never be longer than my stride. I have learned the truth if that time and time again. My fear and anxious parts have too. This is what being present to our moment and our heart really offer us. Feel first. The rest will find its way.
More digestions and inner-standings to come along the way. Please tune in! Literally and figuratively. 🙏😊❤️
Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator. Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.
So many souls are exiting the planet at this time. They’re leaving legacies as they go and inviting investigations into deeper and deeper truths as well, especially when their deaths are suspicious. They’re choosing (even if it looks like they didn’t choose because their lives were ‘taken’) to leave during this time especially when more of the underbelly of our culture and the underground machinations of our human world are coming to light. They’re not coming along for the ride on this plane for the rest of our current phase, and are choosing instead to assist through another. I really get this sense of how it’s all about strong soul choices and being drawn to transition into an energy that is able to assist with disclosure, which is a huge part of our global awakening and ascension, and the process of digesting it as well.
To me, this is what ‘death’ is meant to offer, whether it’s a death and rebirth cycle in your own life and healing process, or a transition into another phase as a soul without a physical body. Both shed a consciousness that isn’t needed in the same way anymore. Both require space for mourning and grief for those impacted by our soul’s choice, and in the case of a life phase change, our parts need this same space to mourn and grieve what was lost so they could truly be found, felt, and healed.
What we’re experiencing globally right now is death and rebirth and the awakening that affords us all. It’s both beautiful and terrifying as our parts digest it all and our Metasouls ping around the unfolding because it’s so similar to what they’ve experienced in other lifetimes of war and collapse.
I feel that some souls right now are awakening into polarities and it’s just as sacred as awakening out of them. Energizing what you are and are not, even if it’s not taking into account the whole picture, is a play out of your individuality journey and sometimes you’ll find yourself in contention over this and maybe this is new. Maybe it’s good that parts of you are advocating for something they feel is righteous or a Metasoul sister or brother of yours in another lifetime is walking out and trying to resolve some karma through YOUR lifetime. This is necessary for a phase and IS an essential part of awakening and ascension for many. This is what then leads to more desire for peace inside and out, but a peace that doesn’t cost you anything and instead is authentic and organic and so deeply rooted it can’t really be shaken.
Awakening beyond the polarity picture is NOT often easy, especially with how much contention there is around and inside of you, until you can find the genuine desire for this to shift in your inner world. There are numerous parts to work with if you want peace and deep inner love flow that overflows to others. There are numerous Metasoul aspects to work with too, who also need this experience of something new, without the same cycles of recapitulation of endless battles and war over differences that aren’t even real at the end of the day.
This is the gift that death in the physical and in our healing and ascension phases offers… illumination that leads to awakening. This phase on our planet in this ‘year’ called ‘2020’ has offered us all so much to feel into when and as we choose to. It’s a sacred time of messiness and chaos leading us to whole new ways of being if the steps can be taken from within.
Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
It’s hard to share and write as much when I am in the depths of feeling darker emotions and shadow aspects of myself. It feels so vulnerable for my parts to show the depth of grief, unworthiness, self loathing and entitlement they are feeling. For younger parts it can feel dangerous to show these feelings, as they are so conditioned to be good, nice and keep quiet. Yet to show up as the woman I know I am, this process of welcoming, owning and revealing the darkness feels like a key part of maturation and embodiment.
As I danced this morning with the darkness, I could feel how alive and juicy it feels to dance, feel and express these darker emotions. There is a power within them, that feels so connected to embodying and stepping into my Queen. To push intensity and darkness away, to hide from it and make it ‘not ok’, I feel like I am pushing away essential parts of myself as a woman. My passion, my pleasure, my joy, my purpose are all being suppressed along with them.
There have been times these past weeks where my parts feel like they are drowning in the darkness, like they will never find their way through. To be honest that can still feel like the only reality as I, Deya, am still growing my capacity as a space-holder for my parts, and am still becoming the container that they can rest into and feel held within, rather than becoming them.
I don’t think I have ever felt so shaky in my life. Even as I feel a strength in sharing these words in the moment, once they are out in the world, the unworthiness, fear and anxiety will surely arise as they keep doing. The more I am choosing to step up and shine, to be more authentic, to follow my desire to be in service to Love and to be in intimacy with others, the more these shadows are being revealed.
It feels like there are now no other options, no more hiding places; there is no way to go but IN. To be authentic, to serve and to live in joy includes all of the uncomfortable emotions, to Love and be in intimacy with myself, with life and with others includes them all too. To be a Queen means being willing and brave enough to face the shadows. To be a Queen means to lead by example with a loving, empathetic heart to the feelings of others, because she is in a deep, real and intimate relationship with her own and knows the challenges that will be faced on this journey through her own lived experience.
Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc
Every week the parts and themes we are feeling and connecting with through the ‘Free To Be Two’ group calls seem to be naturally interconnected, offering me a much bigger picture of myself, the world, and the Universe.
My Inner Teenager, Yasmin, feels so connected to the collapse of the 3D Matrix. Feeling her is helping me collapse the matrices inside at the same time as I’m witnessing them collapse on the outside. Feeling where she was ‘plugged in’ through the school systems and birth family templating is helping me unravel all the beliefs and ideas she holds about who she is meant to be.
Last week I could feel her in the school corridors, overwhelmed and unprepared for the huge transition that it was. I could feel her innocence, as she carried my Inner Child in her arms wearing PJ’s and holding a teddy bear. She quickly learnt to ‘grow up’ and hide her Inner Child and innocence so she could ‘fit in’ and ‘survive’. This created so much depression which I can still feel here now, as hidden with her childhood innocence was also her curiosity, her creativity, her sense of purpose, and her multi-dimensional connections.
Something that feels so rich within my Inner Child is this connection to the magic, to the mysterious, and to the stars. As life got denser through living in 3D, I forgot about the magical essence of my Inner Child as she seemed to get further and further away. I am now remembering her and feeling how she has been there all along as the one who was questioning everything and longing for Home.
She feels like my Starseed, who is revealing herself organically as Yasmin is deeply digesting her experiences this life. She feels expansive, curious, and open to all the possibilities in this Universe. She restores the magic in this existence and reminds me of the bigger picture of all that is happening in our world right now.
Connecting with my Starseed brings me into a deep peace within, as she helps me remember I have never been alone and that those who I have longed to go home to were always here with me, inside me, every step of the way.
You can join Raphael & Jelelle Awen today for the fourth call in our Free To Be 2 series, Navigating The Matrix Collapse to New Earth Transition, at 10:00am PDT with teachings and a guided meditation to connect to your Star Seed within, Star Family, and galactic consciousness. You can join live and/or receive the recordings for a donation at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen. More info here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe2
Deya Shekinah is a SoulFullHeart Collaborator & Facilitant. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc