Re-Release of ’90 Days With Yeshua’

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By Raphael Awen

I am about to re-release soon the book ‘90 Days With Yeshua’ that I wrote in 2013. In preparation for that, I decided to write a prologue in the same fashion of our conversations from the book and felt to share them here as I do. It will be over a few days of dialogue and today is day one of that below. I hope to have you join me for the ride. Enjoy…

Raphael: Yeshua, This is Raphael. I’d like to reconnect.

Yeshua: Ahh, Raphael, yes let’s connect, you changed your name Man!

R: I did, Wayne left the building for the most part.

Y: Wow, My heart is warmed feeling from you…

R: ‘warmed feeling from you?’

Y: Hey man, we always made shit up didn’t we?

R: I guess we did, we sure did, and so here we are without missing a beat.

Y: No, I’ve missed our beat for sure. Glad you want to check in…very glad.

R: I feel our hearts recalibrating in the moment.

Y: I do too. Life isn’t the same without you, or was it Wayne? …who is Raphael anyway?

R: What was that, like 36 seconds in and you want to go deep…

Y: Hey man, we earned our dues together. No one else has ever done a 90 day stint together like we did.

R: And what a ride it was and still is for me. I need to reread it all again in the moment, to let it in again. The ground we covered in heart and learning was so moving. I think Raphael is the birth of all that we walked out together in words and heart.

Y: So what’s up now, like 365 days with Raphael or something? That sounds really good actually.

R: Well, not so fast…the bigger reason I wanted to connect is that I’m re-releasing the 90 days book and wanted offer a prologue to the new release of our heart and energy together.

Y: Okay, I’m in, but who knows where it might end up going?

R: Why does a part of me have a feeling that you already know the answer to that question?

Y: I know I’m not the same since we connected. Relationship is the great mover, if we’re willing to show up for it.

R: I miss you and our connection when you put it like that. Sometimes it feels like I simply made you up out of my deep longing for real connection.

Y: That’s the deal Wayne, I mean Raphael, you are continually making yourself up and everyone around you for that matter. We don’t perceive people as they are, they are as we perceive them for all intents and purposes, relationally speaking.

R: So then I am making you up…?

Y: Relationally, I can’t be to you anything outside of your perception of me. Christians see me a certain way, the son of an asshole, I might add, and that’s where we end up…talk about ‘made up’ in a right screwed up kind of way.

R: I’m sorry.

Y: Sorry about my edginess?

R: No, not at all, I’m sorry for what you’ve had to endure.

Y: Thank you. I feel over it mostly. And if there’s any of that anger still to work out, It will in its own way and time I trust, probably through relating with you, I might add.

R: That’s touching Yeshua. I’m glad to find our ground again. I want to perceive you as you are, rather than as who I am making you up to be, but you said it doesn’t quite work that way…help me out here if you can…

Y: When you know you are perceiving me through a filter, you become conscious of that filter, and you take ownership of that filter to whatever degree you can…which is primarily simply coming to terms with the truth that your perceiver skews perception, then you are in admission of that, and THAT is what allows for a much deeper and truer knowing.

R: ‘not-knowing my way to knowing’…I know we covered that in 90 Days, more than once. It was an ongoing theme.

Y: So what do you know now Raphael?

R: I know that I don’t know, and that knowledge leads to deep trust and surrender. I know I am loved. I know I live in a perfect and benevolent universe. I know all is love. I know I am infinite love, surrounded by infinite love, sourced from love, returning to love, being re-membered back into infinite love. And all the rest is a stageplay pointing me back to this home over and over again.

Y: Now, you’ve got me worried that I’m just making you up. You are like too good to be true…

R: Well, we’re in good company then, and Yes, I did take in that compliment, and I’m sure I will be for hours or the rest of my life in some way. You are thee coolest guide and heart lover there is.

Y: I’ll bet you say that to all your guides.

R: I do actually. I’ve been introduced to a bunch since I learned to connect with you, and really, thanks to you.

Y: So what would you offer others who are reading this about connection itself? You and I can go on for like days, but I’m feeling to include the readers of our dialogue here to, which we are in our feeling tone energetics together, but what would you say to them directly?

R: I’d like to share with them my experience that all the connection they can imagine, quite literally, is theirs for the letting in. You don’t need to spiritually evolved or enlightened to do this. In fact, it helps a lot if you aren’t any of those bull shit things. You only need desire and willingness and a big dollop of self permission.

Y: Which is all sourced in the self…the desire, willingness and permission,…which makes this something anyone can have, and no one can take away…which is really fucking cool!

R: You don’t even need to have all pretty and polite language…:)

Y: Pretty and polite will keep you outside of this actually. Until, we are ready to feel what’s real down to the core of where we live and what we want, nothing can move. Then no matter how much prettiness is faked on the cake, it just won’t bake. I don’t want to be in any pretense with you Raphael. Wayne and I got into shit fully, with our heart and souls dirty and wrung out where we live.

R: Wayne is moved to tears right now as you just love-waved that. Thank you Yeshua….I love that love isn’t anything we’ve imagined it to be hardly.

Y: Well, he has my deepest respect. He, and you, are deep soul family, and that’s not because we popped out of the same pipe at the same time, but rather because we lived out the same choices and came to the same heart resonance together…and feel called to live that out as a soul gift to others…

R: Why do I always feel so opened out after talking to you?

Y: Well that gets back to not being able to come to know ourselves but through relationship in real life…we just had ourselves a big dose of self reflection and self love together.

R: Yeshua, I think that’s a lot for one day. Are you up for tomorrow?

Y: I am if you are…and you are, I can tell, so I am…

R: Keep an eye for me, I’ll be back soon.

Y: I know you will. I will to.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

 

Moving From kNOwing To kNOWing

By Jelelle Awen

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In the awakening journey, in this process of ascension…..it becomes more and more about what you kNOW rather than what you kNOw. This is more than just playing around with capital letters. I kept getting offered this over and over and now it has become a sort of mantra to invite us beyond the mind. kNOWing comes from higher guidance, soul wisdom frequencies, reSOULance, weaving in with the higher/Christ consciousness heart openings. kNOWing is the 4D transitional self and the emerging 5D sacred human merged and embodying with higher self frequencies relating with life through exploration, through curiosity, through risking into the unkNOWn in every moment.

kNOwing is the 3D self, leading with what the mind has learned, analyzed, digested, filtered and packaged. Non-vulnerable and rigid, kNOwing caps the frequencies of joyful magic that could and can arise in ANY moment. With kNOwing, nothing can arise or surprise as it is ‘figured out’, its essence drained of possibilities through the figuring and defining.

kNOwing creates a resistive frequency relationship to life and love.

kNOWing creates an open frequency relationship to life and love.

You’ve been conditioned to kNOwing by a culture that cultivates this frequency as a safety bandwidth. Changing your frequency to kNOWing happens through negotiation with the 3D self, through letting go of what is safe and known (what has become just TOO comfortable and isn’t offering growth anymore.) Letting go of what numbs and dulls and flattens everything into the kNOwing space. Letting go of the mind more and more and moving beyond it, in relationship WITH it yet the soul and heart are leading.

Like this picture so beautifully shows, moving into the kNOW is letting go of the comfortable connections sometimes too and risking to leap, to fly, to lunge off of a cliff and into Infinite Possibilities. A deepening connection, a personal sense of the Divine Source waters the frequencies of inner kNOWing, not book kNOwledge. This HAS to happen inside FIRST, over and over, in a loving self held space (and with a spaceholder too in phases) creating safety INSIDE that also allows room for trust to arise in the unkNOWn on the outside.

This safety and trust inside makes the jumping off the cliff feeling movements on the outside bearable, enjoyable or INJOYable. It is an internal YES that then can move downstream to the external YES to the kNOWing possibilities in every moment…..

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Becoming The NEW 5D Sacred Human. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Keep Waking Up! Book Now Available By Jelelle Awen

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My book capturing a four month intense awakening period for me, end of 2015, called Keep Waking Up!: Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond is now available on kindle as an ebook for only $5.55 (and print edition coming soon too)…This was written before I knew mentally the distinction of ascension and was just learning about dimensional consciousness states, although I had been ‘in the awakening process’ for over a decade. I write very viscerally in this book, vulnerably, in memoir-journal style, sharing my near daily experiences of non-dual, kundalini and Golden Earth (or 5D) awakening experiences and DEEP soul healing and emotional healing integration with only Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman as witnesses to my process (along with my organic gardens and the river, the trees, and the animals – lots of sheep, very few people.) I had let go of so much of a strategic life, an old life, that it ‘set the stage’ for my soul to come forward.

If you are drawn to Avalon, celtic and pagan frequencies, mother Gaia and animal spirit guides, shamanic style meditation journeying while in the body, sacred femininity themes, sacred union navigation, emotional healing, angelic and Ethereal guide connections, star BEing connection and healing from abduction woundings, Archonic reality digestion, Metatsoul-other lifetime healing, etc. then you would probably enjoy it. I would so love you to take it in and ANY reviews would be appreciated too. I’m also nearly complete on my next book, Becoming The 5D Sacred Human (or that’s the title unless another one arises!)…….a compilation of all of my writings over the last few months and new ones too.

This is my author profile on amazon too if you’d like to visit it.

Go here to purchase the book and here to read an excerpt. 

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Becoming The NEW 5D Sacred Human. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.

I Am One Inside Of Thee One

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By Raphael Awen

Everything you could ever want and dream of having is already yours on a very real dimension, in a very real time and place.

Your and my difficulty in seeing that and feeling that to be true is because of the veil of forgetfulness that we, as an act of this infinite power we all possess, chose to enter. We are living out a choice. We needed a sacred journey of deep sleep and awakening. We needed to die to our infinite greatness in order to be reborn to it, and in so doing become somehow more in our new reborn infinity than the infinity we surrendered. A good nights rest changes everything you could say.

The staggering greatness we all possess was so great, that even in our prior aware state, our waking state, there wasn’t enough juice for us to not be afraid of our own bigness.

It’s important to feel here, that we, as individuals are all a part of one great consciousness that we are actually sharing. We have within that one great consciousness, a perpetual and sovereign lease on individuality, but what we experience and feel as personal lack or personal inferiority is actually a part of the one divine consciousness out journeying towards a great awakening.

In this way, divinity itself is coming to terms with its own fears and sense of lack and emptiness. Why would we think that only our positivity is a reflection of our divinity? Let’s hold that question and offer a couple other related and important pieces that will help us see this…

I am sovereignly one. One inside of thee one. Part of me wants to say ‘Don’t come preaching to me a religious sounding oneness crap if you can’t also honour the total uniqueness of being that I am in contrast to you’. This is so important to feel for our awakening process because we are all feeling and healing the one consciousness AS we come to terms with what’s true in our personal consciousness.

When you have fear, worry and anxiety moving through you, the divine is learning its way to returning to awakening. When you are in utter bliss, joy and abundance is washing up on your shores, you are also equally awakening. Now, I, like you, have been trained to value the positive, but this is because of our conditioning and forgetfulness.

When we experience the so called negative, why would we think that these feelings are outside of our overall participation in and with divinity, our godhood?

Nothing is actually in power over us dictating our reality. We sure got busy creating the illusion that the opposite is true, but now at these times of awakening, the only forward momentum or gravitational lift we can find seems to be around coming to terms with our own power.

Hence we gave ourselves a great big self created reality of an absence of our power through this veil of forgetfulness. Now, however, we really do want to awaken fully. Divine oneness created duality, and we best make no mistake, both are now equally true, and in complete harmony. You and I as separate and distinct are one and the same. Both are true. We’re living in 2 worlds. Only as we accept both worlds can either of them be true, and come to blend.

So what now? In this moment of wanting to come to terms with this more and more? I say follow your desire. The word desire literally means ‘of the sire’ meaning something to do with fathering the seed of our most deepest longings into the ground of all being. Sounds wild, but it’s as simple as truly letting our desires out to play.

And herein, we are advised of the great courage it is to want new things and more things so intensely while also feeling so grateful for what we have. We can do this because on this being level, any and every wish we wish for, we are already in possession of that wish. Let both desire and possession and gratitude flow through. Feel it. Feel it. Feel it.

I want to help you feel it if I can. I’m writing these words today out of a desire to seed a new consciousness deeper into myself and others at the same time. If your desire calls you to ask for personal space-holding with me in session space, let’s do it! I want you, I want your money exchange as an authorization of your power to be served by my power,.. I want to inhabit my next steps into this brave new world with you.

Others are available for sessions as well and you can see more here:http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

That Scrambled Self-Image

by Kalayna Colibri

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Painting: “Orchids” by Jens Hesse

www.jenshesse.com

The battle seeds of “that, not THIS”

are planted deep and early.

They live, embedded, unbroken

for so so long,

watered by the choices they fuel.

These choices WE make

can bring them out to the sun

to be seen, felt and brought to light.

Victims to their siren call, we are NOT

as we continue to choose to listen

instead of feel…

 

Who and what we are told to be,

those who tell us are telling themselves,

and we in turn keep telling OURselves.

We poke, pull, prod

at those aspects we painfully, straining

excessively work to change,

not letting in the beauty

we are and were ALWAYS

intended to be a part of.

 

This woven fabric of our lives

becomes a threadbare tapestry

of power-filled lies

we tell ourselves in each moment

we don’t feel ourselves deeper…

The mirror of life

shows us where to go inside

invites us to be with others

to see a reflection

for what to heal next…

to find our deeper self

who knows

just kNOWs…

who we really are,

what we are really worth,

and that no one

EVER

has had ANY real say

in what that ACTUALLY means…

 

There is so much,

too much

pain.

From us to us,

NOT just them to us…

There is a lot

buried deep

we are digging up now…

bringing forward now,

being felt in now…

if we can take that next step.

Ask for support.

Say YES to love,

starting with OURSELVES

and those seeds we’ve grown inside us

that need that love

to remember

that this is what they were made of in the first place.

 

Let that light of your inside heart-shine

glow in your deepest feeling place desires.

Those ones that don’t beckon

to your image-based ticks and jabs

but instead

show you who

what

you really, mostly deeply

ARE…

 

***

Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

 

“I Want To Come Along”: The Transition From 3D to Crystalline Light 5D Body

By Jelelle Awen

Energy Update June 2014 Light Body

I am connecting with THE BODY, my ascending body and the collective ‘body’ of those of us who have chosen ascension as our path and process. I am connecting with this universal experience of body, this human body vessel and temple, this fleshy form, that we’ve all agreed is the vehicle of our walking around life. Yet, this body is changing. It is growing. It is calibrating higher, vibrating higher. It is shifting from carbon to crystalline. It is transforming from being anchored in 3D to transitional and awakening 4D (integration of the astral body) and into 5D.

This is a HUGE process, a big deal as a marker in the evolutionary cycles of our species. Our souls can fly with our astral self (as I am now calling our dream self, or self beyond the body in one aspect or layer of fourth dimensional consciousness), yet our bodies have not been able to come along. Our souls can soar into 5D consciousness, especially during Near Death Experiences (NDEs) and taking of peyote, ayahuasca, etc. Yet, again, the body is ‘left behind’ because its frequency has been too dense, too connected to Mother Gaia in a primordial way to ‘come along’ with the soul’s vibration.

Yet now……NOW the body is ascending TOO. It is coming along, doesn’t want to get left behind. This is what THE BODY is telling me in the moment, “Don’t leave me behind! I want to come with you!” Dimensional shifts are about shifts in consciousness yet, also, there IS a shift in what you experience as your outer reality as well…..as what is inside is what you experience then outside. Experiencing 4D conscious states and higher INSIDE of the body is a new experience and seems to mostly be bridged through meditation and going on multidimensional journeys for which the body comes along and ‘holds’ the awakening experiences.

In our 3D relationships with our bodies, we BECOME our bodies. Our 3D selves ‘fuse’ to our bodies and so every symptom, every experience, every emotion, every thought, seems to become trapped INSIDE of them. All of this trapping and fixation on the physical level creates dis-ease, illness, injury, unhealthy, toxicity, being overweight, sexuality issues, addictions. All this trapping of consciousness inside of the body doesn’t allow any breathing, any release, any energetic movement to happen, any cleansing, any POSSIBILITIES beyond the body.

THE BODY says, “I’m exhausted of this approach. I can BE SO MUCH more. I want to soar with your soul too. I want to be as crystalline as your chakras are becoming. I want to be as healthy, vibrant, and non-toxic as your healing heart is becoming. I want to experience the multi-dimensions. I want to travel to the stars. I want to flow in sexual and creative energies that come from Divine Source and spiritual inspiration.”

Yes, this ascending body WANTS a lot. If we can feel this wanting and desire of the body to ascend WITH us, then we can respond to bodies from this higher frequency with self love and self care. This means that our ascending bodies will cycle through sleep differently than we are ‘used to’ and sleep ‘patterns’ will be interrupted. Sometimes our bodies will be needing A LOT of it for the calibration and crystallizing process. Sometimes they will be needing VERY LITTLE for so much new energy is moving through, becoming light, feeling like a caffeine buzz moving through our veins and through our bones. Sometimes our bodies will need ‘crash naps’ to reboot the consciousness, turn the conscious mind off, and implement a new frequency. The more flexibility we have in our days and in our nights to allow these fluxes and changes; the more we can flow and move with them letting our mind relax and surrender into them.

The ascending body is shifting around food needs too. The 3D body sought out comfort because so much was trapped INSIDE of it that it was looking for any kind of relief. Comfort often meant foods that weren’t good for it, that weren’t healthy, that actually made digestion harder and the body feeling not as vital. The 3D body, run by our 3D selves, then made ‘choices’ that caused dis-ease and illness and that were out of alignment with our soul frequencies. Because the 3D body was cut off from the soul (not completely but enough), it was ‘alone’ in a 3D conditioned world that pushes toxic food, that keeps our body vibrational energetic frequency low. The 4D body is awakening as the 4D self is transitioning and learning, educating itself about what is healthy and what is not, about what is conscious eating and what is not. It is usually the 4D self that chooses not to eat sentient beings/animals anymore as the soul can’t reconcile the killing frequencies of it anymore. Food as necessary fuel is the 3D body’s mantra. And the 3D self ‘uses’ food as a numbing drug. The 4D and 5D body will probably need less food as it will run more and more on energy of higher vibrational love frequencies.

THE BODY doesn’t want to numb or be drugged anymore. “NO more chemicals please. NO more processed foods. No more drugs and things produced in a laboratory please,” I can hear it pleading to us. It seems to understand if we are in transition around this and it is patient. Yet, also, it is eager to feel vital fuel running through all of its systems that run so brilliantly on their own day after day and year after year. THE BODY especially wants us to awaken to our soul’s ability to use gifts from Mother Gaia and from our accesses to energy in order to heal it. We can help our bodies, especially in 4D transition and conscious integration of some astral frequencies into the body, by remembering our energy gifts and connecting with our chakras, cleaning them, making them as real as our physical body, caring intensely about their health and well being. And, of course, seeking out resources for health that are provided by Mother Gaia through herbals and supplements.

Oh, none of what is offered by THE BODY is an absolute. There are not ‘rules’ that you need to follow. The main thing the ascending body seems to want is communication and connection WITH you, to not be ignored, to not be resisted, to not be battled. Unhealed unworthiness in the 3D pain body creates a self punishing frequency related to the body. Healing this core unworthiness through inner work (such as what we offer in SoulFullHeart space holding sessions) frees up frequencies of worth to CHOOSE better things for the body and to create a relationship with it that is based in self love. Also, connecting with and healing the aspect of you that holds self punishment and self critical frequencies can hugely shift this process into worthiness-based grounds as well.

Connecting with your ascending body puts you in emotional resonance with it and so what ‘happens’ to it (all the symptoms of ascension that everyone talks about) are felt and negotiated and navigated with deep self love, care, and awareness AND with trust in the overall process as a gift from the Universe. THE BODY wants to be held with love and to come along into the frequencies of Infinite Love for which your soul knows and IS. And it seems as if we get to experiment with this process. We get to have all the gifts that can come along with it as offered by our newly glowing, shining, and loved up bodies as the vessel for experiencing it.

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of an upcoming book, Becoming The NEW 5D Sacred Human. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Leaving Is Entering

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By Raphael Awen

Every leaving is always and also an entering.

Oftentimes in our wrestling with a deep choice at hand, be it an exit or entrance moment in our lives, we think we are anxious about what we are focused on, ie, the entering or the leaving, when in actuality, we are actually subconsciously more in anxiety about this counterpart of our focus. These two cannot be separated in our dualistic relationship to life and time and space, and are all part of the same choice.

We are actually in perfection before, after and during our decision points, but to have growth and grist in our school of learning, we actually need a degree of not feeling the perfection of all things in order to re-member it back into our being. We need the stress of choice, and even the anxiety that comes with that. We just don’t want to suffer in a cycle of that beyond what is necessary for our growth. In this, it is always us who decides what ‘enough’ is, and when to move on. Even the suffering is not outside of perfection.

We came from complete perfection, and we retained this perfection, but we gave up the conscious awareness of it (so it definitely feels like we lost it) in order to feel and heal our way to even more than we were in our previous perfection. Who’d have guessed that we’re busy improving on perfection, or that it’s even possible, but it feels like perfection is an ever expanding and changing reality, and one that we are being invited into…

It seems we were perfect, but we lacked somehow in our perfection a relationship with our perfection. It’s like being married to the most beautiful and amazing woman on the planet, but having lost sight of it and her. What else is there to do but leave in order to one day rediscover, and in the process, end up with something even more than you didn’t know you had.

So, get in, there’s no more time to explain it any more fully to the rational mind. There’s room in passenger seat for the rational mind and plenty of space to process the whats and wheres that intuition is inviting us all into…

If this lands in you, consider yourself etherically tagged here in FB land, and in the soulscape of the one-being that we are feeling and healing the same stuff in different ways and times. If I can be of service to you in any of the enterings or leavings that life is inviting you into, I’d love to show up for you and be in energy exchange with you through a session space… http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

The Ascending Man: What Is 5D Masculinity?

 

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We are learning so much about what we as human beings are capable of in regards to our potential and expression.  How we have so many gifts that lie dormant in our DNA and arising light bodies.  A power of creation that seems mythical in proportions to our current limited consciousness.  There is a general human frame that surrounds it and that is all true.  I have also been very interested in how this plays out in our gender expressions.  Do we just become less polarized this way and become more androgynous?  I certainly feel this when it comes to our Star Being brethren.  But does that mean we lose our humanness the way we know it now?  I suppose, like all things in this unknown and unknowable time, it all depends on where we come from and where we want to go.  

I feel we are being offered a Golden Age of Humanity.  One in which we live both in unity consciousness and individuality.  An individuation that is the Me within the We.  Being connected to Source and having an awareness of our integrated fractal expressions.  A higher vibratory dualistic experience.  So in that picture I see a New Woman and a New Man.  Or just remembering what it is we always were and even ARE currently.  I feel this Golden Earth that we are desiring to be a part of and co-create together, is lead by the return and rebalance of more feminine and yin energies.  This has been talked about for a long time and we see its need even more with the state of current affairs.  The more wounded masculine psychic overlay is seeing its consequence and demise.  Current disclosure revelations are showcasing the depths of this condition and awakenings are increasing.  

Men are scattered just as much as women among the dimensional consciousness spectrum but women are closer to the frequency of 5D, at least in my opinion and experience.  The awakening is happening mentally for most men and then as the vibration continues to raise on Gaia we are being invited to go more into our hearts, as that is what the core of 5D is. To live in the fullness of authentic BEingness.  There are no more 3D wound-based blocks that cap or prevent our access to our more crystalline nature.  So when we as men begin to heal the Heart what does that look and feel like?

Clearly we are honest with our emotions. We are vulnerable.  When a feeling arises we express it with clarity, certainty, and openness to perspective and counter emotion.  We are not afraid to get into the fray to burn away what is old and arise what is truly authentic.  We invite the shadow reflection as a gift to deeper understanding and healing.  There is a reverence for ourselves in the path of this integration.  There is no longer self-doubt and self-judgment.  We see ourselves as true Kings and proport ourselves as such.

The 5D masculine has met, wooed, and integrated his inner feminine.  This creates a self-contained and balanced male BEing.  The love and acceptance of the inner feminine reflects the reverence of the outer.  The healing of the mom wound feels vitally important as it holds the energy of our relationship to the feminine and our subsequent sense of power and sexuality. There is the need for union with Woman as an alchemical and powerful dynamic of intensely epic proportions.  This mating and integration of this inner feminine aspect brings us a more heart-open, softer, and less linear way of expression.  There is less DOing and more BEing.  Being with what arises in our desire and creative abundance.  We clearly respect Gaia in all Her splendor and weep at the sight of Her stunning beauty.  We are more connected to Her creatures and the guides and totems that they represent.  Meat eating becomes a thing of the past that no longer has a place on our plate…our diet just changes with the integration of this new consciousness.

One of the biggest pieces to me is the shift from competition to cooperation as we become more aware of our connection to All That Is.  We are One of the same so competing serves less purpose.  I can feel a healthy form of competition possibly but my jury is still out on that one. As men begin to heal their father wounds the more we begin to open our hearts to each other in beautiful male bonding that is alive with wonder, exploration, and leadership.  A cauldron of possibilities are shared and MANifested.  

No longer will men feel responsible to achieve, but rather responsive to the call of building galactic bridges and to co-creating with their feminine counterparts in sacred union.  The weight of the world and the need to control and provide are felt through and healed with love so that we can access our more authentic power that is in alignment with Source and Reverence.  The chains of our own captivity are melted away with the tears of remembering what we have always been and why we chose the density of 3D.  

This healing will open up our Galactic chakras and become more in tune with the energies of the universe.  Many men are being awoken today only to be left with the question of what it all means and what to do with it.  The grounding into Gaia and the heart feels like it will help with this feeling of uncertainty.  This connection between our humanity and our universality is what creates a powerful new conscious cosmic experience.  The heart opens up and grounds in.  The service to others becomes 5D man´s new frontier.  

I feel such a plethora of possibilities.  Our expanded heart consciousness will open new doors of  relationality among ourselves and our galactic connections.  The relationship to Gaia will be in alignment with Her consciousness and Love.  Living and breathing with and alongside her.  Setting off into unknown realms to encounter new and exciting territory with the desire to learn and spread more love.  Implementing and encountering new technologies and wisdoms.  It is a great time to be alive.  

But there is work to do on ourselves.  Some more or less than others, but needed healing just the same.  We are all in this together.  All looking for those who are resonant and can provide support, reflection, and love.  The old male collective is feeling the press of this continued flow of energy that is coming at us in Love each moment.  Following Yin is to respond to the pings that are going off inside and to meet them with a gentle curiosity that brings them out into the light.  No need to excavate or drill in the old way.  Feeling each of our desires and fears are what leads us the next choice point of healing and ascending above the what used to keep us down.  I look forward to this New 5D Man within me and within you to see what amazing experiences we can have together and with our counterpart 5D Woman.   Now THERE is something to show up for!  

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Exploring Arising Sacred Femininity Poem And Healing Offerings

By Jelelle Awen

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The inner feminine, for both women and men, waits to be noticed and yet, once felt, she can no longer be denied.

She is made of the stuff of our deepest heart vulnerabilities, tenderest feelings, penetrating stillness, and magical stardust expressions.

She offers a balm to the hurt places, a softer edge to the hardness, and a capacity to infinitely hold what needs to be held.

Uncovering Her is to understand and feel all that is NOT Her as she cannot really be known or owned.

Uncovering Her is to become intimate with the masculinity that has needed to protect and hold Her.

Uncovering Her is to open to the frequencies of the Divine Feminine, of Mother Gaia, and surrender to Her flow, allowing Her energies to provide a sense of the feminine tones that have been suppressed.

Uncovering Her is an invitation to choose your own healing over all else.

Uncovering Her is an invitation to choose love over all else.

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I am so honored to offer the arising and birthing of the next phase of the SoulFullHeart Woman, an exploration into the grounds of sacred femininity or how the NEW 5D sacred human expresses in female form through the SoulFullHeart process ground. Sacred femininity is an arising mystery, a journey into the unknown and in my personal experience and holding space with women over many years, the MAIN ground for healing is to feel what is NOT feminine and embrace it, love it, and integrate what remains that is authentic. Here is more about SoulFullHeart Woman:http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/soulfullheartwoman

I and Kalayna Colibri offer this exploration of sacred femininity through space holding sessions for women….women around and under the age of 30 (especially those who identify as being indigo, crystal, rainbow souls) with Kalayna. ANYTHING can happen that serves love in these remote (over zoom) or local sessions here in Puerto Vallarta. We hold space for connection with aspects of your heart and aspects of your soul (multi-dimensional from your Metasoul or soul group line and from other lifetimes) bringing about mega healing and transformation; energy healing to activate, clean, energize your ascension or higher vibrational frequency chakras; guided meditation and connection with higher self, Ethereal guides and aspects, Star Being aspects, and whatever else arises in the moment that needs supportive love spaceholding! More about sessions here.

We weave through the seven key areas of life (emotional, spiritual, mental, physical, social, financial, and environmental) and through the lens of the 3D, 4D, and 5D self. More about the seven areas of life through the 3D/4D/5D lens.

I am also hosting a SoulFullHeart Group Call for women on April 15th with Kalayna’s contributions too. I can already feel the Divine Feminine frequencies that want to flow through to you through the guided meditation and the richness of possible arising intimacies through personal sharings from any of you who would like to. More about this call here:https://www.facebook.com/events/210818762733437/ or http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls

To the celebration of the feminine and HER time coming in the sun, inside of our hearts and into flow with ALL that Is.

Photo is me and Kaylana at the beach here in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico….connecting through the third eye/sixth chakra….

 

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of an upcoming book, Becoming The NEW 5D Sacred Human. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Body Changes, Interrupted Patterns, Collapsing Timelines, HUM energies during ascension

By Jelelle Awen
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Mega interrupted sleep ‘patterns’ for the last few nights for me. I can sleep for about three or four hours, then I am awake for several hours, crash nap, and then repeat again. I can connect this to a late afternoon tea or some chocolate, yet, it feels deeper then that and more about connecting to something BIGGER that is happening in both the COSMOS and personally. Before I knew the ascension vocabulary of ‘jumping or dissolving timelines’, I would have called what I am feeling as ‘anticipating change’, feeling changes coming on an intuitive level, and feeling the ‘rumbles’ of change coming for me personally, my beloveds, SoulFullHeart, and the world at large.

Yet, this isn’t anything NEW as change is the ONLY constant and we’ve been in transition for many years, both personally and globally. There is a HUM though, a feeling of something pulsing and alive, that wants to MOVE us on to the NEXT and the NEXT. Energies that want to move us on to whatever other place we are meant to be both inside of ourselves and what we experience as outer reality.

I can feel the sleep changes (crash naps for a few hours in the ‘middle of the day’ are newish too) as an aspect of the ascension process and actually a welcome disorientation comes where the mind can’t ‘track’ the days and nights as well and it ALL starts to kind of merge together, which is kind of the goal of ascension after all. The light body, the crystalline 5D body for which we are transitioning into more and more, doesn’t probably need the same amount of sleep as our carbon-based denser body did.

I already feel that our relationship to food will change significantly too with much less solid food needed and mostly vegetables and fruits when we do eat. Many of us can and will ‘live on light energy’ most of the time and go days without eating. This is not that radical as we ARE energy and made up of energy so it all we really need in another way is energy, although preparing and eating food can be so wonderful of an experience. It feels like we will get to choose when we want to eat. Our body weights will be natural and healthy with no extra fat as fat is needed only as an anchoring into 3D reality. A very necessary one at times, yet also, one that densifies us ultimately.

Back to the HUM….I’ve been asked what it means to experience a ‘collapsing timeline’….and today, as I was digesting wonderful openings and changes for some of us in the SoulFullHeart community, I had this sense of these changes feeling ‘surreal yet natural.’ This is a good way to describe a timeline collapsing…it feels surreal as in ‘better than my known reality before’ yet ‘natural’ in the sense of just fitting with essence and soul or higher self. Being open to timelines collapsing and shifting is really about being open to that ‘anything CAN HAPPEN in ANY MOMENT’…this is tapping into the realm of Infinite Possibilities for which we ARE in our essence as a fractal from Divine Source.

So then, of course, with all this exciting anything can happen-ness, sleep doesn’t seem as important even as it CAN BE critical to allow for the conscious mind to rest, the astral self to go explore, the integration of other lifetimes, the body to go into calibration and integration mode. I feel a trust in the moment in my body kNOWing what it needs for itself, rest and sleep will arise WHEN they are needed, and it is my mind that fixates on ‘missing sleep’ or ‘not getting enough’ or ‘interrupted anything’. The mind tracks life through segments and counting down of moments where the soul and higher self just flows in the moment by the moment for the moment. Why does being awake at 3am feel any different than being awake at 4pm, since both of these ‘markers’ are illusionary and made up anyway? To the soul, these distinctions don’t matter because they aren’t even REAL.

The HUM is also in the cosmos. It is the waves of PURE love raining and washing over us from the great central sun, center of the Universe, and radiating out of our sun in the form of light codes in the sun rays, which I’ve been taking in a lot of lately. It’s like the Universe is on a caffeine buzz, which feels both surreal AND natural. Momentum is the texture of the HUM too, a beat that is both relentless AND patient as it invites us to come along and also to keep UP with it. It invites us to ‘come along’ inside of ourselves, surrendering to the bigger picture and our higher selves, as we become more and more THAT surrender and THAT HUM in human form.

Love to you and our sleepless and crashing nap states both…..and feeling the HUM together….

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of an upcoming book, Becoming The NEW 5D Sacred Human.

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.