Coming ‘Home’: My Journey Away From And Back Again To Soul Family

by Kalayna Solais

I feel like I’ve arrived back ‘home’…

And in many ways, I have!

I have been on a journey inward for the last three months. I collapsed my relationship to my beloveds here in SoulFullHeart, my ‘title’ as a Facilitator/teacher of this way of life and process, and even my ‘role’ as a wife on a deeper level. I have been returning to myself. Returning ‘home’ to me so that I could feel what I truly wanted in my soul and what I was working, healing, and birthing on that level and beyond.

For me, this separation phase was never about completely severing everything that has made me ‘me’… this SoulFullHeart process has been the one thing that has ever worked for me, reaching deep into the heart and soul of my wounds and my gifts too. In fact, it was this process that held the steps into separation and the bigger context of it and held all of us through everything that came out of it and is still unfolding too.

Letting go of these souls that I have so much ‘history’ with on a heart and soul level has been one of the hardest things for me to do. What was so interesting to me though, were the many moments of dawning realizations, not just of what had to collapse between us and why in both this life and other lifetimes, but also of these newly arising senses of how to serve myself in my own unfolding process and how this was the only way to find connection with my beloveds again if that was to arise someday. This allowed me to feel so much surrender to every moment of sadness, anger, despair, joy, and connection both inner and outer and allowed me to allow in the Divine, Star Family, parts of me, and aspects of my Metasoul in other lifetimes too.

I found ways to feel my heart again, even though it was breaking. I found openings within me on the other side of many tears and sometimes rather feverish journaling and deep meditation experiences that allowed me to feel deeply loved and held by an energy both bigger than me and as big as me too. I could feel my beloveds actually living inside of me, where they would always live, no matter what happened next.

And, I trusted. Oh, how I trusted… I trusted every time I felt like trying to be social was a stretch for my parts that day and stayed home instead. I trusted every journal entry, every time I felt like I wasn’t getting anywhere, every time I was reminded to be gentle with myself because parts of me were getting too caught up in accomplishing or ‘getting over this’ already and couldn’t be gentle with themselves or each other. I trusted every feeling of being in a heavy downward shame spiral, knowing that if I could just hold it and be with it, I would find the other side of it. And sure enough, there were my guides in the form of beloved Metasoul and Divine connections, calling out to me, reminding me to lift UP and hold it all with my bigness and heart capacity, not go down with it. I realized over and over again how humbling this is to do and how no one can teach you how to do this, it has to come from your own experience.

I’m still digesting the goodness that I’ve earned now…that is really about earning the expanded capacity to transact goodness and love with others, not the goodness itself so much. I had goodness even in the separation. I just have it again in these precious relationships with those that know me better than anyone ever has and who I am getting to know and fall in LOVE with all over again.

My heart is full, happy and humbled to be ‘back’… to be in sessions again as a Facilitant and perhaps eventually a Facilitator when it’s another phase of that for me. I highly recommend meeting with Raphael or Jelelle for a session, at least one, to get a taste for yourself of what I’m sharing here. This process has a deep impact that can’t be forgotten, even if you only dive into it for a while. More information here about sessions: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Much love to you, from the heart of my journey to the heart of yours!

~ Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Energy Update: Schumann/Gaia Spike Waves Activating Causal Chakras & 4D Matrix Unplugging

By Jelelle Awen

Energy update: Schumann/Gaia spikes moving through yesterday in a wave…and some today too. You may be feeling sleepy! and a bit foggy and ‘here not here’ as these energies work on grounding Gaia and us into a higher, 4D frequency during the journey to 5D heaven on earth reality. There’s also an excitement to the possibilities, surges of joy and goodness in these energies, inspiration and clarities….then waves into integrating them into our bodies that are BUSY upgrading to be our vessels here on this New Earth.
 
These energies since 2020 began are really thinning the veils and making multidimensional travel as easy as closing the eyes and tuning into the soul aspects/Metasoul fragments that are waiting for you there. Souls choosing to be here NOW are aching for the access and integration that is possible when the veils lift and you can SEE/FEEL/BE with all these aspects from your soul….these soul sisters and brothers feel like twins to you yet are living in such a wide range of life content and experience. You can heal each other, offering soul gift exchanges, and completing karmic patterns that lead to suffering in seemingly endless loops.
 
Lots of causal chakra activations going on now too leading to head, neck and shoulder pain. The causal chakra is behind the head and down the top of the spine, connected to galactic activation and DNA upgrading. This pain is a portal to the eventual dissolving of the Reptilian brain stem and the plug into the Lower 4D Archon Matrix that it feels like is rumbling with new rebellion. Connecting with your Reptilian aspect that is still plugged into the One Mind and inviting them into your world allows for this process, which I was honored to do just today with a beautiful soul during a session.
 
1:1 sessions that I’ve been holding lately with women have been deep and powerful with whatever movement and process the soul is ready and waiting for available to be moved. I don’t ever know where the meditation journeys will go in these sessions and this has felt even more true in recent ones, where the soul ‘takes over’ and goes where is needed. If you are interested in a 1:1 session with me or Raphael Awen to go into these catalytic, tender, and powerful multidimensional grounds, PM me and there is more info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
 
As usual with Schumann/Gaia shifts, feel into what your body needs for support as it shifts into living on a higher fuel frequency of love and light!
 
Here is a guided meditation to unplug from the Matrix during a FB live with a new one coming soon from me in my Deepen 2020 series! 
 
Love,
Jelelle Awen
Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about  1:1 individual sessions with her for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Healing Polarities Within Illuminated By The Eclipse and 1:11 Passage Energies: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Jan. 13, 2020)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

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In this week’s Museletter, we feature an energy update by Jelelle Awen of the emotional polarities that came up with the Eclipse. She invites you to feel the parts involved in these polarities to understand where they come from and how to heal them:

“On the other side of this passage, there is a sense of calming down and more rest, more groundedness from within, and an emotional reset. There is a sense of space within to digest in a more full-hearted way the changes and choice points that may have been illuminated to you during this passage.”

There are also some new writings this week from Jelelle and Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman. These include personal proess updates by Gabriel, energy updates and timeline shifts by Jelelle and inspirational digestions by Raphael.

Jelelle Awen continues her video series “Deepen 2020”. This series will be offered on an arising basis, rather than every day for a set period of time, and will be responsive to current events/cosmic energies/personal & collective process, etc. Every Deepen 2020 video will offer a teaching and a guided meditation. You can watch these on her Facebook page or our YouTube channel.

You can watch all podcast episodes on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel or listen to the audio on the SoulFullHeart Soundcloud channel or iTunes channel.

Jelelle Awen is leading her next monthly virtual women’s group called Sacred Arising Feminine Exploration (SAFE) on: Sunday, January 26th at 10:00am PDT over Zoom She will teach about navigating relationships with mates, birth family and friends during your awakening process as a woman: https://www.facebook.com/events/1064404573895702/

Raphael and Jelelle will be co-leading their next monthly group transmission over Zoom on Saturday, February 8th PDT. This group is about the ongoing process of healing the warrior within and from other lifetimes to move into becoming an ambassador of love. More information here to join them or receive the recording: https://www.facebook.com/events/310908349856878/

For more information on these events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Raphael, a SoulFullHeart Facilitators for men and women, is now offering FREE 30-45 minute intro calls over Zoom to see how the SFH process and ongoing 1:1 sessions may support you on your healing and Ascension journey. Jelelle Awen is now working with women new to the SoulFullHeart process in 1:1 bridging sessions. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! You can become a patron of SoulFullHeart through a one-time or monthly donation via our patreon page.

Check out the latest Museletter here

 

From 3D to 5D

By Raphael Awen

In 3D, it’s ‘till death do us part’.

In 4D, it’s till the death of the bond do us part.

In 5D, it’s realizing that there isn’t actually any death or partings.

It’s okay to have parts of us still invested in 3D. They will be attached there until it’s safe and desirable for them to move to a higher frequency.

Movement occurs when you form a relationship with this part of you, differentiating yourself from the part, so that there can be a relationship of feeling what they are feeling as they are feeling it. It takes two to form a relationship. This is the embodiment of your Higher Self that parts of you readily warm up to, which in turn changes your life as you know it.

What is love and life asking you to feel now? Can you feel that as a part of you?

Raphael Awen

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our Patreon Page to send us love in the form of money: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart 🙂

Powerful Yet Gentle 1:1 Healing Sessions Available Now!

By Jelelle Awen

“One session with you is like going through seventeen regular therapy sessions, yet with someone who so gets you quickly on a heart and soul level,”…. a comment from a woman that I met with recently in a bridging session.

In these accelerated times of Ascension and now in 2020, everything is sped up. There is infinite patience even as there is increasing invitation to move into your higher timeline self and love AS love in order to SERVE love.

Sessions with me for women bridge to that sense of your higher self IN your body through connecting with parts of yourself and soul who are in trauma, suffering, and pain. These aspects also have important messages and truths for you; soul gifts to exchange; and pieces of your puzzle to offer. These aspects can help you connect to your soul purpose and reason for being here in this transitional and challenging timeline of Ascension.

Rather than spend years in talk therapy trying to heal on a cognitive level, we dive into the deep waters of your emotional body, subconscious, and other lifetimes/beyond the veil of amnesia FAST and efficiently, yet also in ongoing conscious agreement and negotiation with your Inner Protector/Gatekeeper and other guarding/protective aspects. These defensive aspects open the doors, lift the veils, and tell the truths that lead to healing. They set the pace at a rate that moves things forward much quicker.

This is also a GENTLE process. I hear that all the time to describe the SoulFullHeart process and sessions with me too….. “gentle yet powerful”….”tender AND catalytic”….Healing CAN BE both gentle and transformationally powerful. Bringing in the Divine Mother/Feminine energies to hold the space and allowing compassionate feeling of ALL frequencies within you (even the deepest and darkest shadows) creates this gentle yet powerful quantum love oven.

It’s a NEW year and a NEW decade…time to next level UP yourself and your life. I’m feeling this for myself in specific ways too that are both challenging and exciting and am always learning and growing even as I am leading and teaching. And that’s the brave choice of love over safety aligned with soul purpose purity that I can template for you to experience in your own life.

1:1 sessions with me for women are 90 minutes over Zoom and I have openings available soon. This is NOT easy work or a quick fix, yet it can change your life in all the right and best ways if it resonates with you and your soul.

PM me or email soulfullhearts@gmail.com for more information and to schedule. You can purchase a 90 minute session with me for $100 CAD ($77 USD) here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/1bridging-session-w-jelelle-awen

or via paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen

Or here for Raphael: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/bridging-session-with-raphael-awen

More information about sessions for women and men with Raphael Awen and a free intro with him, plus testimonials for sessions here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Love,
Jelelle Awen

I recommend taking in my teaching and guided meditation videos in my Deepen Series to calibrate to my energy. They are available for free here: https://www.youtube.com/c/SoulFullHeartExperience

Energy Update: Healing Polarities Within Illuminated By The Eclipse and 1:11 Passage Energies

By Jelelle Awen

Energy Update: What a swirl of energies for us in the beginning weeks of 2020! New timeline possibilities of bliss, joy, dreams coming into clarity and coming true. And, at the same time, grieving, sadness, and mourning processes as we ‘let go’ of whatever needs to be in order to respond to the new.
 
We are invited to expand our emotional body capacities to ride the waves and to hold mixed feeling realities at once within us. Sad and excited. Bittersweet. Hopeful and fearful. Trusting and mistrusting. These can be necessary mixed feeling states, yet they can also be signs of polarities within from one part of you to another. One part feels scared while another part feels hopeful. One part feels attached to a relationship and trauma bonded while another part of you is increasingly clear that the relationship needs to shift.
 
The polarities within are a result of 3D conditioning that offers a ‘black and white’, ‘this against that’ way of relating to life. The polarities within can be felt by you as you connect with the parts of you on each of their ‘sides’ and let their emotional realities land in your heart to be felt. You can find then a ‘middle way’ as an ambassador to these parts of you, bringing them into a balanced place and more even-keel blend. The polarities within can also be a result of our original separation from and out of the Divine. Reconciliation within from this lifetime helps to heal this soul wound.
 
These polarities within (also often between our inner masculine and inner feminine) were amplified by the full moon lunar eclipse codes blending with the 1:11 portal energies that peaked on Saturday. The feminine Full Moon Eclipse energies and more sacred masculine 1:11 portal passage brought up some weepiness, mood swings, crying purges, tension then trust waves as emotional body clearings and upgrades occurred. The 1:11 codes offered higher timeline clarities and possibilities and the courage to make life choices toward them, while the lunar eclipse energies offered emotional digestion of these choices.
 
On the other side of this passage, there is a sense of calming down and more rest, more groundedness from within, and an emotional reset. There is a sense of space within to digest in a more full-hearted way the changes and choice points that may have been illuminated to you during this passage.
 
Divine Mother energies of Kuan Yin offer stillness and gentleness through snow and winter codes and compassion to receive from within and to extend to others. At the same time, there is a heightened activity of fires, volcanoes and earthquakes as Dark Mother and Mother Gaia continue to bring in catalytic frequencies of clearing and rumbling alchemy.
 
There is also complex stream of SOULar winds forecasted to come into our atmospheres today from two to three holes in the sun’s surface. No geomagnetic storms are expected to come in, but there will be a surge of auroras when the solar wind arrives, according to spaceweather.com. SOULar winds can heighten and amplify any body symptoms you may be experiencing, including light headedness, disrupted sleep patterns, indigestion, colds and flu symptoms, etc.
 
All these energies offer us the opportunity to find our ‘home’ within and discover increasing trust in the flow of life held with Divine surrender. We can ride the waves of polarized emotions and bring love to all the parts of us that are feeling them. We can connect to the bigger soul context around the reason we are experiencing life AS we are. We can trust the growth that it brings to us as we move into our sacred humanity.

Here is a playlist for all four of my videos that I’ve released in my Deepen 2020 series, with the first one featured below. These videos are created in response to the current energies we are navigating and offer a bridge to connect to your emotional body, your soul, and the Divine support that is always available:

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about  1:1 individual sessions with her for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

 

Snow and Sun Codes Bring In Sense Of Newness and Rebirth

By Jelelle Awen

Taking in the first snow of the year here in Victoria, I’m reminded of how purifying and cleansing it is. How still snow is, even when it is ‘falling’, and how it blankets everything in this energy of newness. Snow codes are refreshing, especially if they come rarely and stay for a short time.

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The sun came out to greet us as we headed out on a walk to our local seaside park with Kalayna Solais. There is the joy of reunion in our hearts in the moment after a few months of choosing to be apart. This a celebration of new places to transact together…space made inside from necessarily being apart.

These are the rebirth moments that come out of the death and letting go phases that can be so challenging to navigate. These are the new moments that arise only out of letting go of the old. These are the confetti in the air moments where ash may still even be lingering.

It can seem in the darker moments of separation, that we won’t come into union again. It can push up the separation from the Divine and the wound that is often buried deep of what it felt like to be cast off from such bliss and Oneness. Parts of us can feel the pain of rejection, the hurt of disappointment, and land in the reality of our truth too that didn’t get brought before.

Yet, forgiveness inside and of others clears the ground. And, we are finding our way back to each other, back to the Divine, back to our souls. And life greets us and serves us with whatever necessary death and loss process will bring us most back to ourselves again.

Love,
Jelelle Awen
soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

I shared today a teaching and guided meditation as part of my Deepen 2020 series about death and rebirth, offering a bridge to the part of that needs to ‘die’ and let go in order to be reborn:

 

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about  1:1 individual sessions with her for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Casket To Cradle/Death & Rebirth Guided Meditation Video Four Deepen 2020 W/Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

 

In this fourth video of my video series called Deepen 2020, I (Jelelle Awen, SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator) talk about the death/rebirth cycle that we are constantly going through in awakening…the ‘death’ of 3D conditioning and the layers of protection created from it and the ‘birth’ of our awakening, 4D/5D self with parts of us integrating into it as they heal. I share about how you might be experiencing this death/rebirth cycle in your life, on a spectrum from subtle to extreme life changes, choices, transitions, and shifts, and how tuning into Divine trust and soul context helps with it.

In the meditation, Mother Mary and Dark Mother join you in a funeral service to honor and feel the part of you that wants and is ready to die, to let go, and to move on. Mother Mary then guides you to connect with the higher frequency version of yourself being born in a cradle. The meditation helps you to bridge and hold space for the death/rebirth process in a conscious way while you are connected to Divine support and trust.

Thank you for joining me in this video….as we move into Deepening energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! You can watch each video in the Deepen 2020 playlist on my SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list…

You can watch videos from my previous 33 Day Deepen series from 2019 here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list…

Energy exchange increases the receiving of healing! Money donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange to support me and SoulFullHeart to continue providing free offerings such as this video series. You can donate through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen or become a one-time or regular patreon donor: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

This video series is a useful introduction and bridge to the powerful SoulFullHeart quantum healing process and cutting-edge way of life experienced and offered through group calls/sessions/retreats and 1:1 sessions with Jelelle and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators. For more information, visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Our Individuation Anger At the Divine

By Raphael Awen

Underneath all of our anxiety, depression; underneath all of our motivation and lack of motivation; in the bedrock of our lives and in the bedrock of our Metasoul can be found anger at God for individuating us out of itself.

‘The me who may have agreed to the whole plan doesn’t feel like the me who has to patiently endure the veil, the slow path to remembrance, and the boredom of something missing, something so deeply lost’ was the voice that came forward this week, followed quickly by another voice that said ‘but I can’t be angry at God! God is our only hope of return’.

I had quite a dam of tears break free right then, feeling compassion for the parts of me and my Metasoul feeling this bedrock underneath all the dramas of this life, especially as and triggered by new dramas that are wanting to unfold.

These past few weeks, I’ve been given to feeling the invitation to return to being in the moment; feeling how and when I’m not in the moment, etc. This awareness of this ‘soul fear/anger of individuation from the divine’ that I’m writing about today really speaks to why we avoid the moment. The moment contains this access to what’s real inside of us. Our Gatekeeper aspect of us has been convicted that we couldn’t handle this awareness, that feeling this fear would short circuit us or cause us to abandon our misssion, suicide (which as the gods we are is actually, a ‘deicide – killing god’).

Our conscious selves have lived in a kind of militaristic compartmentalized hierarchy world of only knowing what we need to know to do our part, while other ‘commander’ aspects of our being hold a vastly larger overview of our soul purpose, our mission, our origin and our destination. We are invited now as the time has come to bridge these compartments and to feel the larger reasons and realities for our being. This sheds much light on the persistent wounding patterns playing out in parts of us this life.

How do we do this?

I believe we do this most simply and most profoundly by simply being willing and humble to feel all there is to feel. The rest is built in – the timing, the pieces, the resources, the relationships that come and go, the life changes. Like the bodies autonomic function, we don’t need to concern ourselves with how to breathe or how to get our heart to function. It just does, providing we remain ‘opted in’ to life. Opting in to your emotional body is a choice that more and more people are awakening to. The healing that occurs from this willingness to feel never ceases to amaze me.

Much love,

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com/sessions

Please check us out the link above if SoulFullHeart feels like a going on place for your healing journey. We have a free intro session available. Our website, YouTube channel and blog offers a ton of goods about this emotional body awakening that you can explore for free.

Photo yesterday of our first snowfall this winter.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our Patreon Page to send us love in the form of money: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart 🙂

My Nomadic Journey W/My Soul Mate Begins In Avalon

By Jelelle Awen

After years of envisioning, teleporting, and ‘visiting’ in the astral, I am finally headed to Glastonbury/Avalon in the physical with my beloved soul mate! Yesterday, Raphael and I booked a month’s stay in a place near-ish Glastonbury, about 30 minutes away in the countryside, for this May. We’ll be purchasing our plane tickets and rental car soon, yet getting a place early felt important to align our intentions with reality.

Glastonbury, which in a fourth dimensional space is one of my soul’s homes, has been calling me since I first read Mists Of Avalon and began connecting with my Avalonian Metasoul /deep soul sister aspect Morra during meditation journeys there. It has been clear to me that I need to be there in the physical for a phase of time to ground in the karmic healing I’ve been doing into the physical space and places where so much happened. And, also to serve those that might be drawn to join us in whatever arises for SoulFullHeart groups there too.

This is the first landing place of what we are feeling to be a ‘second honeymoon’ adventure for Raphael and I. We are feeling a call to leave Canada and be mostly alone together in this next phase after living in community for many years. We are drawn to spend time in the UK (on the coast as well, in Scotland, Wales, etc.) and also in France, Greece, Italy, and more. The openness feeling of it, the unknown, following the call of our souls and the Divine, the simplicity of letting go of a ‘set’ home is something I have wanted to do my whole life, yet, felt so strongly the call to create a community too. It feels like the community will form organically when it is time as it is what my soul most knows how to do and how to live.

During this phase, Raphael and I will continue to hold 1:1 sessions over Zoom and in person too for those who want to visit us wherever we are. Sessions, group calls, events, book sales and donations will be our main livelihood as well so your ongoing support is so wonderful! And, we’ll also be offering virtual gatherings with our first one March 20-23 with more details about that coming soon. This virtual one will replace our in-person gathering here in Victoria that we had planned to do.

My sense is that this journeying will expand my range, move me out of any remaining comfort zones and serve as a constant and gentle reminder that ‘home’ is truly found from within. ~

Love,
Jelelle Awen
More information about sessions, future events, etc. at soulfullheartwayoflife.com

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