11/11 Gateway: Intention, Intimacy, Indivuation, & Intuition: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Nov. 11, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

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In this week’s Museletter, we feature an article from SoulFullHeart Facilitator Gabriel Heartman about what the 11:11 gateway opening is offering us, questions to ask during and after it, and the codes that are coming in through it.

“This feels like a powerful gateway into our next Next. Our new New. All of this is navigable with self-love as we feel all the parts of us in agreement, in resistance, in confusion, and in fear. With this inner connection to all parts of our being we are given the keys to the rocket ship that is made to take us Home.”

Jelelle Awen is leading her next monthly virtual women’s group called Sacred Arising Feminine Exploration (SAFE) on Sunday, December 1 2019 at 10:00am PDT over Zoom This group focuses on deeper connection and surrogacy experience with the faces of the Divine Mother, such as Mother Mary, Kuan Yin, Mary Magdalene, Sophia, Isis, and Dark Mother/Kali. More information here: https://www.facebook.com/events/474843500044699/

Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman will be co-leading another Guided Meditation and Sharing Circle in-person here in Victoria, BC on November 18th, 2019 to provide a beginning place and space to connect with your Inner Protector. More information here: https://www.facebook.com/events/453669931909032/

For more information on these events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

There are some new audio blogs this week from Jelelle and Gabriel Heartman. The audio blogs include more 11:11 energy updates from Jelelle and Gabriel about the 11/11 portal.

Launched last week is our weekly SoulFullHeart Experience Podcast with Raphael, Jelelle and Gabriel. The first Podcast is an intro and overview of the SoulFullHeart process. You can watch it on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel or listen to the audio on the SoulFullHeart Soundcloud channel at https://soundcloud.com/soulfullheart.

Raphael and Gabriel, SoulFullHeart Facilitators for men and women, are now offering FREE 30-45 minute intro calls over Zoom to see how the SFH process and ongoing 1:1 sessions may support you on your healing and Ascension journey. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

Check out the latest Museletter here.

 

Feeling Your Emotions & Traumas, Not Bypassing Them: SoulFullHeart Experience Podcast #2 (Video & Audio)

Here it is! Our second SoulFullHeart Experience Podcast. Raphael AwenGabriel Heartman and I could have gone on for a LONG time on this topic as it is one very near and dear to our hearts for many years now. We talk about the importance of feeling your emotions and traumas in order to transmute them with parts of you that experience them…rather than bypassing or transcending them. This is a passionate topic for us and a very timely one as so many souls are becoming more aware of this.

We each share about personal traumas that we have transmuted through connecting with parts of ourselves and what we have witnessed/experienced in sessions as well with others. Although there can be fears and concerns by the Inner Protector esp. to ‘go into’ the sometimes very deep and intense feeling spaces that are holding these traumas in stuck loops….we have found that it is ALWAYS worth it to go into it with the part of you (or Metasoul aspect) that is feeling it as that is what actually transmutes it.

You can listen to the audio version of this podcast wherever you want on our soundcloud account…become a subscriber and you’ll be current with all of our weekly Podcasts! https://soundcloud.com/soulfullheart

Here is more of the description:

In this second episode of our weekly SoulFullHeart Experience Podcast, SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael and Jelelle Awen and Gabriel Heartman talk about the importance of feeling your emotions and dropping into your emotional body as it allows the digestion of traumatic experiences with the parts of you that experienced them. Feeling your traumas and emotional reactions to them, rather than bypassing them, actually raises your vibrational frequency as stuck traumas densify your emotional body, chakras, and even physical body.

They all share about how working with parts of yourself during 1:1 sessions with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator creates a safe space where you can feel these traumas again with the parts of you who are living them out over and over….and actually transmute them. Raphael and Gabriel share about specific traumas that they have felt and overcome due to being open to feeling and healing them with parts of themselves, rather than bypassing or transcending them with spiritual attainments, analyzation/mentalizing, etc.

This SoulFullHeart Experience Podcast is offered as a bridge to those of you who may not be familiar with the SoulFullHeart process or us as Facilitators of it. And, those of you who are aware of our work and even connected to us through sessions, may find value in the way that we present the importance of emotional body healing in this video. These Podcasts are offered on a weekly basis on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel, our Facebook pages, our Soulfullheartblog.com and as an audio file on our Soundcloud channel and many others: https://soundcloud.com/soulfullheart.

 

Energy Update: 11:11 Portal Opening Energies Offer BOOST Into Your Higher Timeline

By Jelelle Awen

Blessings and Love to you as we continue in this 11/11 portal! The codes, downloads, upgrades/activations (ALL!) available on these powerful days leading up to and beyond 11/11 provide a boost to awaken, to support, to clarify, to motivate, to inspire, to enliven, to encourage, to catalyze. The degree and depth you let them in is, as always, UP to you and what you (and parts of you) are ready for and wanting.

You may be feeling today, November 12, a lightening up in your heart space, in your physical body, and in your overall energy as well. Prepping to go through this portal felt similar to preparing to giving birth. There was some uncomfortableness, tension, purging, and feeling ‘taken over’ by the process at times. After giving ‘birth’ to the NEW you yesterday during 11:11, you can now BE with the higher frequencies coming in, receiving them into your heart, letting them enliven you.

There were timeline collapses in relationships, in jobs, in money situations prior to the 11:11 portal, starting even a month before it as well. The aftermath of these collapses, the ‘ash in the air’ reality experience of it, is something you may still be going through. Mourning and grieving ARE important, yet too is moving into more trust and joy that ALL loss right now is serving your higher timeline.

Your purpose of serving love is probably becoming clearer. This is meant to clarify with the 11/11 portal as MANY souls will be needed to support those newly awakening and those already awakening and those even leading too! The most important service of love right now could be to yourself and your own healing, so that you can eventually overflow to others from a place of self love and goodness. You are serving then from a place of genuine and embodied overflow, rather than self sacrifice or burden or over responsibility.

Yesterday, we gathered as a community to feel into the 11:11 portal and what it was offering us as a community and as individuals. We felt there was a clear delineation going on from the previous timeline anchored in a denser frequency (although fairly subtle at times) and what the portal was offering as a jump/boost/movement into the New one. There was a feeling of support for the expression of our essence, rather than our strategic/3D anchored self.

We each four stated what we wanted to ‘leave behind’, what we wanted to ‘take with us’, and made declarations and “I AM” statements for the 11:11 portal, receiving each other’s words into our hearts and into our collective as a group too. The sense of alignment between us, meeting on the ‘other side’ of the portal’s gateway, was very clear. And we felt the souls that are engaged in the SoulFullHeart process right now moving along with us in a deeper way as well.

Then, we went out had a wonderful day on the town together taking in the fall beauty, sharing a vegan meal, and doing some warmer clothes shopping. 11:11 unified us in intention as it feels like that is what it offers us individually and collectively as well.

This is a powerful process to engage in right now with these Infinite Love energies supporting you.

Take the space during these 11:11 portal days to go within. To be with the inhale of Gaia and the outflow of the Universe. The inhale of OM and the exhale of Ma (the Divine Mother) is my favorite mantra to feel connected to All That Is and my own heart too.

Take the time and space to FEEL yourself, your emotional body flowing like a river, and the deeper emotions that rumble and flow that can be harder to get to. Reach BEyond your mind and the content and details of everyday to connect with the Divine as the source of YOU and of ALL.

Let in what is offered JUST to you with so much love from your higher self, guides, the Divine……..and feel yourself AS Infinite Love!

Love,

Jelelle

Our group transmission on 11/9 offered sharings, teachings, and a powerful guided meditation to digest, calibrate and let in the 11:11 codes during these portal opening. You can purchase the recording of the call here if you’d like to take it in as the 11/11 portal can be accessed any time in the Now and I will send you the recording: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/ascension-codes-activation-group-transmission-jelelle-and-raphael-awen
Or via paypal for $15 CAD/$11 USD: paypal.me/jelelleawen

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free intro calls and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

 

11/11: What Do You Declare As You Enter Into The New?

Happy 11/11 Day!

This feels like a very significant portal day on so many levels. I guess I feel each one is significant depending on what we choose to put into it. Our intention sets the stage. Sets the wheels in motion on the other side.

One thing is for sure, what has not served us before will certainly not serve us going forward. So this is a day to decide what must be left on this side of border. When you enter another country, you have to declare what you are bringing with you. What have you packed with you that you are claiming as you enter?

What you bring emotionally/energetically into the New, can easily become the Old again as it attracts that dynamic, whether it is fear, scarcity, unworth, despair, or anxiety. You can intend on leaving it behind with daily prayer and mantra. That helps to keep mindful of what you DO want and what you DON’T.

But there is also a part of you that holds that energy and needs more than mindfulness. It needs heart presence. It wants to feel connection and companionship. It needs to feel a relationship more than just awareness. So what you can leave at the border is the looping and declare your healing. Once and for all.

This is a Reclamation Day. A Phoenix Rising Day. A Remembrance Of What And Who You Really Are Day. It is the deeper claim of healing, of journey, and intention. As with all growth, there are times when you must let go of all that has weighed you down and prevented your arrival at the Gates of Glory. Today you have only a small backpack or briefcase.

What will you take with you?

What do you intend on leaving behind?

What do you declare as you cross this threshold into a higher timeline?

*****

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

11/11 Gateway: Intention, Intimacy, Indivuation, & Intuition

When I closed my eyes this morning, my intention was to feel this upcoming 11/11 gateway. I found myself walking on a path that approaching 4 massive Sequoia trees, 2 lined up on either side of the path. A gateway if I ever saw one. As I got closer to them I could see a word mounted on each one. Each of them started with the letter ‘I’ which I took to represent the number one…of course.

The first word was ‘Intention’. This made sense. What is my intention as I enter this gateway? For as we enter any gateway, the universe responds to what we intend. It wants to know me, you, and all of us more intimately. Our intentions pave the way going ‘forward’ if you will and helps us define an end place, even if we don’t end up there.

My intention entering this gateway is to continue to let go of all the ways in which I have kept myself from feeling and expressing my authenticity.
Who am I in my naked essence?
What leadership is still latent and ready to come onto the scene?
How far down the rabbit hole of my BEing can I shed light on and bring that light into my waking, physical reality?

The second word was ‘intimacy’. I understood that in my heart as “Into me see”. It is about being transparent with what is current in my Being. It is about getting naked with myself and others. Becoming more fluent with my emotional body, my needs, my wants, my fears, and my power. Intimacy is a scary place for our hidden and protected parts. The places that have been comfortable in the safety of anonymity. It is a dance with Trust that brings this nakedness out into the light. I feel one of the biggest fears we all have is that of being seen, even as parts so desperately want to be. Enter the Inner Protector.

The third word was ‘individuation’. This may be more personal to me, yet I do feel how this is something all of us are working on as we make our way through this dimension. In the quest for authenticity and intimacy, we are confronted with the ways in which we have conformed or molded ourselves to be in relation to a particular frequency or relational bind, whether it be social or familial. This search for Self is the search for individuation from what doesn’t feel like us in our essence. It is also a search for tribe that aligns but not remold our uniqueness. This is felt with all the parts of us (Inner Child/Teenager, Protector) that have their own reaction to this unachoring.

The last word was ‘intuition’. This continues to be one that I am leaning into. This inner knowing that feels like connecting more to the feminine within us all. This intuition sees what is not seeable. It knows what is unknowable. It is like following a leaf in a windstorm…you may have no idea where it is leading you until you eventually arrive. It is the essence of intuition to Trust. To go forth against the inertia of common sense while still remaining sensical. My intuition may take me places my Protector/Gatekeeper may have questions about and that is where I get to learn about who I really am and this brave new world I am ready for.

This feels like a powerful gateway into our next Next. Our new New. All of this is navigable with self-love as we feel all the parts of us in agreement, in resistance, in confusion, and in fear. With this inner connection to all parts of our being we are given the keys to the rocket ship that is made to take us Home.

****

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Prep For 11/11 Portal Openings Happening NOW: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Nov. 4, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

In this week’s Museletter, we feature an article from SoulFullHeart Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator Jelelle Awen about the current Ascension energies coming in as a preparation for the portal opening on 11/11.

“The veils are thinner than ever before to allow for this clearer seeing and remembering of these other timelines. 11:11 offers next level inner connection, star family connection, Divine connection in order to connect with others in a flow that is not about self sacrifice yet rather serves BOTH in the giving and the receiving!”

There will be a powerful online Group Transmission with Raphael and Jelelle Awen as an activation of these 11/11 energies. The focus of this two-hour group on Saturday, November 9th, 2019 at 10:00am PDT is to learn more about the Ascension codes that are coming in through cosmic energies (from sources such as our Sun, the Great Cosmic Sun, other Planets/Galaxies, etc.) and from Gaia and Inner Earth as well.

Jelelle Awen is leading her next monthly virtual women’s group called Sacred Arising Feminine Exploration (SAFE) on Sunday, December 1 2019 at 10:00am PDT over Zoom This group focuses on deeper connection and surrogacy experience with the faces of the Divine Mother, such as Mother Mary, Kuan Yin, Mary Magdalene, Sophia, Isis, and Dark Mother/Kali.

Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman will be co-leading another Guided Meditation and Sharing Circle in-person here in Victoria, BC on November 18th, 2019 to provide a beginning place and space to connect with your Inner Protector.

For more information on these events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

There are some new articles and audio blogs this week from Jelelle and Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman. The writings include other energy updates from Jelelle about the 11/11 portal and sharings from Gabriel and Raphael from the SoulFullHeart perspective.

Launched this week is a weekly SoulFullHeart Experience Podcast with Raphael, Jelelle and Gabriel. The first Podcast is an intro and overview of the SoulFullHeart process. You can watch it on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel or listen to the audio on the SoulFullHeart Soundcloud channel at https://soundcloud.com/soulfullheart.

Raphael and Gabriel, SoulFullHeart Facilitators for men and women, are now offering FREE 30-45 minute intro calls over Zoom to see how the SFH process and ongoing 1:1 sessions may support you on your healing and Ascension journey. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Our online shop is open! You can visit it to pay for individual sessions or to attend any of our gatherings, purchase the recording of past group transmissions or pay to attend an upcoming one, or to purchase books. Keep an eye out and your heart open for other offerings in the near future! https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/shop

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! If you’d like to receive these Museletters directly and automatically in your email every week, you can subscribe on our website at: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/writingmuseletters

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Playing The Game of Hide and Seek

By Raphael Awen

In your seeking and awakening journey, a surprising finding occurs that ripples through your entire being.

You come to realize that not only are you the one with the desire to expand, to grow, to discover, to awaken, but that you are also the one responsible for your hiding and sleeping.

I believe that as a soul journeying through the illusion of time, you hid (past tense) your essence, so that you could rediscover (present tense) this essence and go on to become (future tense) something that you already were and never actually lost.

You can see this dynamic looking at your life journey so far, you can see it when looking at what you know as your soul journey. You can see it when you look at how you are journeying through a single day, or a single moment.

It’s like I’m in the boat, tossed to and fro on the stormy seas, only to realize that this grand tempest is inside of a teapot with none but my own hand on the handle.

But what then would be the purpose of all the dharma, the drama, and the trauma along the way? This is the bigger quest and question we are left with on the other side of this pivotal discovery, that I fear we best not be too quick to satisfy the quest of which with short pat answers lest we fall back asleep.

My deepest suspicion so far in an attempt to respond to this quest is that it has something to do with beginning to feel the edges of an awe and wonder that arises as I cycle in this phasing in and out of this ongoing forgetting and remembering.

Could it be that this is the process whereby infinite love is coming to know itself, through me and my up till now perceived ‘insignificant’ life?

And just how would this infinite love want to come to know itself through such an arrangement?

I believe that infinite love comes to know itself (satisfy its quest) in any moment that you as a conscious being reach out in love to another conscious being. We could call this making love in the truest sense of the phrase, as in how ‘Adam knew Eve’ in the biblical sense. This is love having a ‘from’ and a ‘to’ transaction that it couldn’t have were it not for a forgetting and a remembering. Both are equally necessary and both are equally sacred, and what they make for is something we call process. Love forgot (gave up something) in order to remember (bring back into membership). Love stepped out of itself in order to step back into itself.

And what ‘other’ conscious being would be the best one to reach out to? Your children, your friend, your mate, your siblings, or humanity in general possibly? These are ‘others’ right?

But wait, you’ve skipped over you. You are full of others awaiting your lovemaking. Your Inner Protector has been largely living your life as you in this absence of your now presenting higher self on the scene. You Inner Child who so wants to come back out to re-in-form your world with play awaits your outreach. Your Inner Teenager who wreaks havoc in your world from time to time only wants your attention in exchange for an energy source you’ve truly been missing.

Skipping over these others from within to reach out to the others without would have been deemed selfless up till now. Now, however, we are all seeing the falseness of attempting to give love to an other that we haven’t first given to ourselves – the many selves that live in our psyche and soul consciousness.

You get to make love with yourself. Truly, magically, profoundly. It’s about coming to terms in ongoing process and negotiation with a limitless world. You didn’t come here to awaken in a single moment. You came here to feel process, to feel each moment of the journey.

You have everything you need and the only valid teacher now is the one who helps you realize you need nothing. The phase of our codependence on teachers and belief systems, was necessary, but is now coming to a close for many souls who are at this stage in their process of coming to terms with being infinite love.

The love wants to flow and dance. Let it begin with you.

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com/sessions

I’d love to help you find your inner guidance if who I am and what I offer calls to you. The link above will take you to more in-form-ation. 🙂

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Energy Update: Prep For 11/11 Portal Openings Happening NOW

By Jelelle Awen

Energy Update: Moving forward toward the 11:11 portal on Monday…it’s getting closer now. The number 11 is a master number……inviting us into deeper levels of embracement of our intuition, awakening, and soul gifts. If you see 11:11 and 1:11 appearing in many ways and forms, it can be a code from your Higher Self to activate your next level awakening. It can be a signal from your Star Family that a deeper connection with them is going to be nourishing and available to you. It can be a waveform from the Divine reminding you of your essence as Infinite Love.

The energies over the last month, especially since 10/10, feel like they have been preparing us for the movement toward this ‘next level’ portal of ascension personally and collectively. The more consistent waves of spiked frequencies in Gaia’s resonance are moving Her vibration UP as bridge for us to elevate our own as well. Serving as a kind of ramp up before 11:11. SOULar winds and geostorms are coming in at regular intervals now too….sacred masculine and feminine codes bringing us into more balance and less polarity.

This is a time of feeling the karmic fears that live in your Metasoul about moving into expression of your soul gifts in order to serve love. There are experiences of persecution for expressing your soul gifts from often many timelines that need digestion and integration. I see this many times in sessions as the feelings of wanting to hide, retract, and remain invisible in this life are pointing to these deeper traumas on the soul level. These soul traumas are capitulated in this-life experiences of rejection, misunderstanding, and criticism…..especially from birth family and previous social circles.

11:11 is an invitation to FEEL and HEAL these traumas, especially the ones that ‘ended’ in violent death. Connecting with your Metasoul aspect that is LIVING OUT these scenes in real time (not as the ‘past’) can really help to transmute and release these frequencies. The fear that was previously stuck and vibrating strongly can then shift into love again and self empowerment. The gifts that this previously traumatized Metasoul sister or brother has for you can then flood into your soul space again…lighting up YOUR gifts and providing courage and bravery for the expression of what you are here to offer.

This is a momentous time that so many souls who have been awakening and ‘working on themselves’ for a long time are being invited (we could say ‘pressed) to start serving love in whatever ways that means for them. Time to start SHARING from their ever healing and expanding out heart space. Many of those who will be newly awakening very soon will definitely need the bridge provided by you as parts of them struggle with cognitive dissonance, deep despair, and confusion as the 3D culture moves into more collapse.

The veils are thinner than ever before to allow for this clearer seeing and remembering of these other timelines. 11:11 offers next level inner connection, star family connection, Divine connection in order to connect with others in a flow that is not about self sacrifice yet rather serves BOTH in the giving and the receiving!

Raphael Awen and I will be hosting our monthly group transmission call on Saturday,November 9, 2019 at 10:00am PDT (Vancouver, Canada timezone) over Zoom as a prep for these 11/11 energies. We’ll teach about the Ascension codes coming in, how to receive and integrate them, and offer a deep guided meditation to create a bridge for you to let them in. There will also be time space for individual sharings and feedback/reflections with us. If you’d like to join us live or receive the recording, you can purchase through our shop for $15 CAD ($11 USD) here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/ascension-codes-activation-group-transmission-jelelle-and-raphael-awen

Or offer your donation through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen

There is more information here about the transmission: https://www.facebook.com/events/2595514423846711/

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free intro calls and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

11/11 Prep Ascension Codes Group Transmission Call On 11/9

By Jelelle Awen

Four days until our 11/11 prep Ascension/Galactic Codes Activation Group Transmission! You can join Raphael Awen and I live at 10:00am PDT (Vancouver, Canada time) on Saturday, November 9th over Zoom or receive the recording. We will be teaching and sharing about this 11/11 portal and what it offers us in terms of next level embodiment of our Higher Timeline life and self. We’ll also co-lead a guided meditation for you to connect to and bring in these 11/11 codes directly into your chakras/auric field/emotional body and feel if any blocks/fears/resistances come up in doing so.

We were going to offer a sound healing transmission with my crystal bowls yet decided that the sound quality over Zoom isn’t clear enough, so we’ll use that time to go into a deeper meditation state with you…probably 35-40 minutes…WOW!

This guided meditation with me bringing in Ascension Codes gives you a sense of what can be transmitted and received: https://youtu.be/2IlAAdIvLuU

If you’d like to join us live or receive the recording, you can purchase through our shop for $15 CAD ($11 USD) here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/…/ascension-codes-ac…

Or offer your donation through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen

More information here: https://www.facebook.com/events/2595514423846711/

or here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/grouptransmissions

Love,
Raphael and Jelelle Awen

“It was so comforting and I didn’t feel so alone anymore after listening to the group call. Thank you Jelelle and Raphael for the work you are doing!” Anne, participant at the October 12 group transmission

“I’m very grateful I was able to join you all. I got a ton of healing and insights during the call. And I feel a new grounded growth beginning for this next phase of my life.” Devon, participant at the October 12 transmission

“I really loved the call, I am always so full of love afterwards. Grateful for connection, to feel seen and held within community feels amazing.
I cannot hold this all on my own, so to find a community that can open to and welcome all parts of me is such a blessing!” Deva, participant at the October 12 transmission

Journey Of The Ascending Masculine: Sometimes You Have To Be The ‘Bad Guy’ In Order To Be The ‘Real Guy’

A man’s emotional maturation and spiritual journey inevitably comes to a crossroad with his relationship to his mother.

I write about this today because I was recently contacted by my own mother and could feel the old energies of guilt and shame that underlied the old dynamic between us and within her. These were very subtle and yet not so subtle energies.

On the outside, or from another consciousness, one would view me as an awful son for drawing my boundaries I did years ago and choosing not to communicate unless we were in a similar transactional frequency. This recent message was a clear indicator that nothing much has changed.

The timing was auspicious as well as I had just had a process not just a few days ago where I felt more residual energies in my emotional and psychic bodies in regards to my mother and how her wounding affected me as a young boy and have lived in me through my inner child and inner teenager.

These frequencies of guilt and shame are huge energetic anchors that serve no one’s growth yet are portals into that very thing. The process was to say no more to those frequencies and to feel the part of me that needed to be a bit matter of fact about how it all made him feel growing up.

This is a big part of any man’s journey. Saying no more to what has lived between us and our mothers that has not been healthy. These can be really subtle the more you keep going in, especially when you are in an intimate, romantic relationship with a woman. There is stuff that has a very long shelf life unless we keep up the conscious exploration within.

The dichotomy of a man’s journey is that he needs to seek individuation from mom while entering The Mother at the same time. Moving from one womb to another. This can be a bit of a maddening process and one that I want women to have a perspective on to understand what this is like for the men in their lives. Not and excuse, mind you, just an understanding.

Sometimes this individuation process can come while in proximal relationship to our mothers, and other times it is just not possible. Some of the triggered responses can be how we could do such a thing to someone who did all they could for us and gave birth to us. Therein lies the trap. The guilt and shame.

I am grateful for all my mother did for me, and even in this process, continues to do so. However, birthing does not give permission to retain a free pass into my emotional body. It prevents any of us from arising into the man we ARE and having the kinds of sacred unions with women that no longer perpetuate this dynamic.

Sometimes you have to be the ‘bad guy’ in order to be the ‘real guy’.

*****

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.