You Are Infinite

By Raphael Awen

As a being, you constantly express this infinity that you are, whether you are aware of it or not. This infinity manifests in you as both the desire for all things as well as the deep gratitude for all things. There is nothing in the universe that is not you, nothing that is separate from you.

Even the apparent created reality of a separate and distinct self, a finite self, is a created reality that we dialled up from our infinite self, to learn within. The finite was parented from the infinite.

Even the relationship you have with life wherein lack has been made the main story and conscious  waking reality are also a powerful manifestation of the super-abundant reality that you ARE. You, AS INFINITY, dialled up an all too real feeling storyline of lack in which parts of you are the main characters living out something so far removed from the super abundant infinity that you are. Your waking conscious reality is actually one still very much asleep possibly.

Your soul knows that the letting go of the original conscious awareness of this super abundant infinity of being in order to enter an amnesia and subsequent awakening/re-membering process IS where the true gold of being is found….where each of us is reborn into something so much more than we were, even compared to who and what we were before we chose the amnesia. Even our original bliss state was undiscovered and immature. 

Many dream of winning the lottery only to find that those who do cannot digest the instant rise to super abundance as they have not had a process of acclimating themselves to the wealth. The dream of ‘having it all’ comes from a subconscious knowing that they already ARE and have it all, and the inability to hold the All (lottery winnings) also comes from the unintegrated subconscious deep storylines of lack.

If you and I already possess it All, but we are living in a self-created story of something less than the dawning realization of that, then the present story we find ourselves in is the creation of our super abundant infinity.

And if we created this and are creating this, then we did this in order to awaken to THAT, and to feel all there is to feel in relation to the present created reality. Like a movie producer and story writer, we gave ourselves these dramas in order to feel the things that we as a soul knew we needed to feel in order to realize what we set out to realize. We are out and about ‘real’-izing the infinity that we are.

If this is true, then we have our work cut out for us. The ‘work’ has up till now gone on even in our unawareness and unawakened state, as we now awaken to an ever more conscious state of choice, intention and effort towards inhabiting what we most deeply and truly want. We discover that our waking reality is actually a bad dream and a sleeping reality that we wish to awaken from, that we get to awaken from, and that as unpleasant as this bad dream was and is, it is actually all originating in love, and part of love. 

We’ve been given the seeds, the soil, the sun and the water, and now, the awareness that we ARE the gardener who is growing the garden of self, of love, of surrender to the divinity and infinity moving within our souls.

Our mandate now is ‘just feel what there is to feel’ and thereby to let-in this transmutation of our being that we are living out in each moment.

Each of us has new and powerful story lines awaiting our choice and appetite to step into. We chose this. Infinity itself is watching you with wonder and awe at what you will choose next.

If you are seeking a conscious awakening into the more that you already are, I offer a free initial consult into what ongoing sessions within the SoulFullHeart process could look like and feel like for you. Please check us out at our website below and be in touch.

Much Love,

Raphael Awen

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Energy Update: Dark Mother/Kali Energies Guiding Us Through Death/Rebirth Cycles

by Kalayna Solais

There are two (maybe more) new worlds/realities dawning now and they are both powerful. One is a dystopia and the other a utopia (or with great potential to become this!). One moves farther away from love and into denser and denser consciousness grounds and suffering loops, while the other moves consciously and passionately towards love and everything that means… all that needs to be looked and felt within, especially, to be able to let love in.

It’s a time of great PURGatory before the healing and reconciliation of these two realities can really land. This healing has already begun and is actually helping to fuel this phase we’re still in of tensions and emotional breaking points.


Energies of war, battling, needing to be right, needing to prove, needing to scorn, needing to oppose, needing to hate, are coming UP and OUT like ooze. Like the worst hangover imaginable after so many years of medicating and denying the rage (which is really uninitiated passion) that needs to move through and also the medicating that has put away the need for self-love and self-loving decisions that are practical yet also spiritual and consciously felt through. This is sacred ground and there is MUCH to realize but even more to feel.

There’s been a sense of ‘hold on to the handrails!’ lately while SO many storms move through. We’re invited, always, into our own pacing that feels right to us about how many personal choices for the sake of our growth, ascension, and deepening self-love we are ready to make and when…. yet too, this is a powerful time with many Kali/Dark Mother energies inviting us into Her loving yet unsentimental LOVE furnace of death and rebirth. She invites us all into our soul bigness, our holding of ourselves and our inner realities, while we navigate the currently choppy waters swirling around and through us.

As always in times of great purgation and change, these storm-dances are necessary to help us all awaken and grow. We are NOT meant to suffer in these grounds, but to keep choosing love over fear, compassion over comparison, vulnerability over fighting, honesty over strategizing.

The new and most desired world possible HAS to come up from within each of us individually. It won’t be handed to us by anyone but our sovereign and growing Divine selves and our sacred learning process of what it means to embody that.

Every moment there are new choices to make. And there’s no perfect way to make them, but to be so sacredly in the process we are all in individually and collectively. Love is guiding the way through the tensions, heartbreaks, and openings too and it knows that we are all finding our way through the darkness of what has been as we stumble into our most natural and sincere Greatness as Sacred Humans remembering. ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Healing To Access Love Flow

Letting Love in is to let Love flow. To let Love flow is to open up to all possibility, to our vulnerability. I felt myself a bit constricted this morning after being in so much goodness. It is an interesting mechanism to keep feeling.

As I bring my awareness to the part of me that is still needing to govern the flow of Love, I feel compassion and to say ‘I Love You’ even in the constriction. In that, they loosen. My masculine and feminine. They see each other anew. Not in conflict, but in union to open the curtains more to let in and let out the flow of Divine Love that is inherent in us all. Universal and Eternal.

Feeling leads to alchemical healing. Healing opens the gates to more Love, more Truth, more Joy, more Passion, more Intimacy. The Infinite at our doorstep.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Healing False Mother To Let In Divine Mother: Women’s Group Call July 5

By Jelelle Awen

When I shared on social media previously about my upcoming women’s group call tomorrow where we will be feeling into healing the Motherhood wound/False Mother to let in Divine Mother, a question came up around, ‘who is the false mother?’ Exploring the answers to this question is where we will go within the call space….as it is truly unique to each woman and her Metasoul experience/lineage as well.

In general, the False Mother is any projections/archetype/’lineage’ and legacy/birth family line and other lifetimes experiences/karma that block and limit access to experiencing and letting in the energies of the Divine Mother. False Mother can show up in ‘presentations’ and packages of Divine Mother that are used in strategic and dogmatic ways, such as in religions, some spiritual practices, and even in New Age offerings. These energies can have a warrior energy to them, be seductive or overly pious, and fused to other lifetime archetypal expressions such as Priestess/Witch/Sorceress/Shaman.


False Mother usually feels impersonal, transcendent, non-relational, even punitive/punishing in frequency. False Mother can show up even in Goddess worshipping practices in which you tune into and even ‘obey’ the “Will of the Goddess.” False Mother is also something you are looking to on the ‘outside’ rather than experiencing from the inside in deepening ways.


These False Mother energies are actually usually coming from the lower 4D wounded/unhealed masculine energies and the AI Matrix. A Matrix is actually a womb yet the 3D/4D control Matrix has been about programming, conditioning and conformity and distorting light/love into a false version in order to keep many souls ‘stuck’ at a certain tier of consciousness. In a way, the Matrix has also been a False Mother to parts of us and soul aspects as well.


As the Matrix continues to collapse and the wounded masculine heals, there is more opportunity to connect with the pure and authentic energies of Divine Mother. The False Mother frequencies become revealed from within (such as those expressing in your Inner Mother), in relationships (with birth family feminine caregivers and in your Matriarchal family line), and in your Metasoul experiences.
As you identify, feel, and heal these false mother frequencies, you then experience the REAL Divine Mother of PURE unconditional love, compassion, authenticity, range of expression (from still to fiery as needed…..from deeply compassionate to unsentimental, etc.), passion, and template for embodiment within your sacred feminine human body.


You feel then the Divine Mother within YOU and come that much more into embodying Her AS you. As Divine Mother has told me so many times, “I am you and you are ME. Now, let THAT in!”


We will explore this more tomorrow in my monthly women’s group call over Zoom at 10:00am PDT through teachings/sharings with me, a guided meditation to connect to your Inner Mother/False Mother within through a bridge with Divine Mother, and personal sharings for those women who would like to. We will tune into the loving sisterhood circle created during the call to generate more of the Divine Mother energy.


You can attend and/or receive the recording by whatever donation you feel to give via soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen. More info at soulfullheart.org/womensgroupcalls and https://www.facebook.com/events/425536431663247/


You can purchase the recording of any of my previous women’s calls where we explored Healing the Sisterhood Wound, bridging to Divine Mother (two calls), Sacred Feminine healing, healing the inner masculine and more at the same links as above.


I also recommend my new book Free To Be 5D, where I describe much more about the False God/Mother/Light Matrix and how it expresses and the SoulFullHeart process to heal from it: soulfullheart.org/books

Mid-Year Energy Update: CATalytic Sirian Gateway Creates UPsurge And Clarity

Half of 2020 is ‘in the books’. This roller coaster of a ride feels like it is honestly just beginning. From what I understand from an astrological perspective is that this is something that may be a ‘new normal’ for some time to come, through next year possibly.

When I tap into that from my guidance as well, it feels very true. The amps have been turned up and the field we find ourselves in is quite catalytic and rumbling. What I saw in meditation was a lighthouse among an onslaught of waves that was being influenced by an intense energy field. I made an image to represent the feeling tone of it.

I feel we are entering a 4D upsurge. The Subconscious, concurrent timelines, and archetypal dynamics are all making their way to the surface of our waking and/or physical reality. It is causing waves, both inner and outer.

This Sirian Gateway is adding to that overall mix. It is quite a potent time to be here now. If there is any guidance, it IS to Be Here Now. To find the lighthouse within. To connect to the Sirian energies of clarity, boundary, purpose, and play. They give us the ability to stay focused, be real, and be fluid.

The Lighthouse represents how I want and need to be during this times. I feel more solid than ever in my soul’s purpose and heart’s desire to serve, however that manifests itself. If there are others that feel to be tossed and torn during this time, I feel to offer my heart space or at least my own clarity of what is happening collectively.

This can be hard to navigate these waters alone, especially if you find yourself further from the shores you once called ‘home’. A lot is changing and will no longer be the same. We are all in a birth canal in one form or another. Finding a life preserver along the way is not a sign a weakness, but a sign of willingness not to suffer in the storm.

Beginning July 15th, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be offering the next Free To Be 5D Group Call series. This will be focused on Jelelle’s book of the same title. The series will be a great opportunity to connect to all of the parts and aspects of you that are in trauma and/or confusion. It aims to be the Lighthouse in the storm. Opportunities to digest the calls and to connect with others will offered by myself and Kalayna Solais on Saturdays beginning July 18th.

For more info visit: soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dgroupcallseries

For info on Jelelle’s book: soulfullheart.org/books

I also offer a free 45-minute Consulation Call to feel if and how SoulFullHeart can serve you during these catalytic times.

Sending much love to you and all that you are navigating at this time.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Free To Be 5D Book Documentary (Video) | Jelelle & Raphael Awen, Kalayna Solais

I am very excited to release our first exploration into more of a documentary style video offering with AMAZING editing and producing by our very own Gabriel Heartman (who worked so hard on this!) It has long been my dream to offer videos that combine our words, images, music, and interviews/teachings as an activation and bridge to our energy…and here is the first! This one made me a cry a few times, in a good way as we all watched it together as a group on Wednesday for the first time.

In this video, I share about my new book about the Ascension process called Free To Be 5D: Naigating Ascension From The Inside Out available now in print, ebook, and PDF editions (and eventually in audio as well). I talk about how this book has been inspired by hundreds of 1:1 sessions with others over the years, my own awakening process through parts/soul aspect work over the last 15 years, our community experience of this process, and Divine guidance/inspiration. The book offers an overview of a process which has long been in the making and creation for many years. I describe what the book (and SoulFullHeart process) provides that is unique from other offerings, what the ‘take away’ main messages are from the book and my inspiration to write it.

The overlaying messages I received while writing this book over the last several months was that you are NOT alone, there is so much support from within, with the Divine, and with Star Family that you more and more able to connect with. Another message is that you ARE Infinite Love in human form and all else (such as the experience of separation) is a temporary illusion offered for your growth.

“You’ve so long been the lone light in pervasive darkness, now you will become the lighthouse, helping to bring everyone safely home….to the Divine’s shore again.” ~

Also interviewed by Gabriel in the video is SoulFullHeart Co-creator and Facilitator and my beloved mate Raphael Awen, who describes his emotional reaction to reading/editing the book and also how he feels that it will benefit those reading it…even those who don’t know anything about the SoulFullHeart process. Also interviewed for this video is lovely SoulFullHeart Facilitator Kalayna Solais, who shares her experience of reading it and what she feel it offers others.

I highly recommend this book for anyone who has been drawn to our writings, videos, and even sessions with us and would like a bigger context/picture for ALL that we offer and explore in this process now described in ONE place. An excerpt from the book and links to purchase it are at soulfullheart.org/books

You can also join Raphael and I for an upcoming group call series for six weeks starting on July 15th, 2020 at 10:00am PDT over Zoom (and completes on August 19th) that provides more teaching and an immersion through guided meditation into the content covered in the book. You can join that call series live and/or receive the recordings for a donation at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen or at soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dgroupcallseries

Many more documentary style videos to come, especially as we begin our travelling adventures and can share video from sacred places, starting with Glastonbury, UK in September!

Love,
Jelelle Awen

Letting Go To Let In More Love As Ascension Deepens

By Jelelle Awen

Letting go to let in MORE LOVE….This is what the awakening process calls you to navigate, to surrender to, over and over again. A cycle of mourning and grieving what is leaving and what feels like it is lost and will not return.

Letting go of that which is no longer a mirror of you, yet is more like an echo of a former version. What was once an important mirror of something inside of you, a part of you, and no longer is, loses its draw and its appeal…you just can’t fake or play it anymore, the mask is slipping off if parts of you try to keep up the charade. This ground of pretend, whether in relationships or career or whatever it is – becomes a strain rather than bringing any joy. Suffering almost always begins and is sustained by ongoing inauthenticity.

Letting go of 3D-based motivations of obligation, keeping life safe, playing a ‘role’, fitting in…and letting in 4D, 5D and higher senses of serving love, living into the unknown, arising into your authentic self. Feeling your sense of self relating to ALL that is in your life coming from and interacting with your authentic essence rather than from role playing or personas. Coming from serving love in collaboration with others rather than from competition, codependence, envy, hurt, rage, and undigested/unhealed traumas and wounds.

More and more moments you are in this authenticity…..you ARE this, and, so, you draw others to mirror this back to you as they are this too.

Let go of what isn’t you anymore in order to let in more of this reflection of and experience of yourself as the LOVE you actually ARE. The void left from what you’ve left go of is then filled UP with love, with joy, and with the Divine. These are the energies available in this Now and in our ongoing Ascension.~

Jelelle Awen

More info about free consult call and sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael/Kalayna/Gabriel, upcoming virtual and in person group events w/ me and Raphael, books and writings at soulfullheart.org

Photo is by Shadowelve – Deviantart

The Sacred Growth Of Letting In & Letting Go In All Relationships

by Kalayna Solais

All we can ever feel with another being in this world is possibility, potentiality… nothing is ever a given, no matter how strong the vision of what could be or the depth of soul/heart connection that seems to just BE.


We are always sorting out and sorting through. We are taking in who we are through the reflection of another, directly or indirectly. We are choosing in every moment what resonates most for us right now, which may not resonate any longer in the next now. We are also this reflection, this point of resonance or dissonance for others, in relationship to them.


None of us are exempt from this sacred sorting out process or the growth that comes of it.
Let go, let in, let go again… be surprised, be enlivened, by new beginnings and even necessary collapses. Though there is always more to feel and be with in all of this, and many reactions pinging for parts of you, it’s all part of the process of deepening your intimacy with yourself and with others as well, whether they can continue to connect with you on the next leg of your individual journeys, or not.


Each and every time I walk this out… I’m surprised by what it opens out within me. The clarity of what I want next, the boundaries I need to hold with an open heart, are priceless to feel and honour. It’s always challenging in new ways, but feeling the trust in my own growth that I know is always available and necessary, that helps me sink and surrender into each crucible… and feel the Divine with me at all times.


Much love from my ever-growing and opening heart to yours,
Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Free To Be 5D Book & Group Call Series Starting July 15th!

By Jelelle Awen

There have been so many gifts from coming together regularly for our Free To Be group call series over the last three months with a total of 12 calls offered during that time! The original idea and inspiration was to provide a light house and virtual inner/outer community bridge during the ‘storm’ of the Covid event, Matrix collapsing, and New Earth 5D transition that we feel is going on right now. We were so blessed to have over 100 souls join us live or via the recording during these two series and it was a huge boost to our leadership, offering of SoulFullHeart, and in community expansion experience as well!

And now, onward to our next group call series! People have been wanting it and asking for it for awhile now….and FINALLY we have a SoulFullHeart ‘Basics’ and overview of the entire paradigm and process in the form of a new book by me, Free To Be 5D, and an accompanying six-week group call series.

Our Free To Be 5D group call series will be over six weeks on Wednesdays starting in TWO WEEKS on Wednesday, July 15th at 10:00am PDT! During this Free To Be 5D group call series, we will go over specific content in the book in a sequential way. We will overview, summarize, and expand on what you are reading in the book in a way that will bridge you even more to the content. We are hoping this will take you beyond a mental assimilation of the information from the book and into a deeper visceral sense of resonance with what we are offering.

In each call, we will provide one of our powerful, efficient, and transformative guided meditations to offer an experiential deepening within you of what we have taught about during the call. This creates a bridge from what you are learning about on a mental level into the emotional body and quantum soul field, where activation, transformation, and deeper healing become possible.

There is more information about the Free To Be 5D series at: soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dgroupcallseries and https://www.facebook.com/events/1168761756849918/

You can attend the calls live with us and you will receive the recordings to keep and listen to later if you want to or can’t make it live. You can donate to join us at any time with ANY amount that you want to offer before or after July 15th and we will send you the link to join, along with the recordings of any calls you may have missed if the series is already underway at the time of your donation. You can purchase at our shop at soulfullheart.org/shop or via paypal by offering a donation: paypal.me/jelelleawen

​You do not need to have attended or listened to the other group calls from our two previous Free To Be series before coming to this third series. Although, we do highly recommend listening to the recordings from the first two Free To Be series, which you can purchase at the same links as above.

We do highly recommend that you read the book prior to or along with the group call series, with links here to purchase as PDF, ebook or in print editions: soulfullheart.org/books

And, also, I will be offering a Sacred Feminine group call for women exploring healing our mother wound to let in more Divine Mother this Sunday, July 5th at 10:00am PDT. You can join me live and/or receive the recording by offering a donation at the same links above with more info at: https://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

We so look forward to this next deepening journey with those who feel curious about and resonant with what we are offering!

love,
Jelelle Awen

Info about ALL of our upcoming events including our in-person and virtual Glastonbury Gathering in September are at soulfullheart.org.

Ahimsa: Healing The Inner Violence To Feel Our Non-Violence

Ahimsa. It is a Sanskrit word that means “non-injury” or “non-violence”. In my recent process of diving into sexual and emotional trauma as a young boy and teen, I have been able to access the more innocent and essential aspect of me.

This In-Essence, I am calling it, is so very sensitive yet strong and enduring. When I tap into it, I feel how much violence I have learned to be with this life, and many others. This is true for all of us when we get to this very kernel of our Being. When I go outside, I am aware of the violence all around. Things that I would not have deemed as violent before. Sounds, words, actions, thoughts, energies, etc.

Now, going down that awareness road could lead me to just hold up in a cave somewhere and never come out. Of course, that is not what I want (well, maybe a part of me would be okay with that for a short time). What I want to feel is how I can practice Ahimsa in each moment with myself, with Other, and with the World.

The first thing for me is to be aware of the violence within and hold it with compassion. From a SoulFullHeart perspective this violence can come in the form of an Inner Punisher and/or our inner unworth. One parcels out the violence the other acquiesces to it. Holding space for both brings them into relationship, into forgiveness, and into healing.

The more we can heal the violence and unworthiness within, the more we become aware of what is not Ahimsa for us in each moment. That which did not seem violent yesterday may seem much more so tomorrow. The thoughts we have, the things we eat, the way we eat, the way we have sex, the way we talk, the things we say, the feelings we have, the expression or suppression that ensue. The list goes on.

It is Consciousness loving Itself in the most subtle of ways. Compassion is the bridge that takes us there. We cannot find ourselves in a vacuum devoid of violence but we can choose what we are a part of and/or how we respond to situations. Ahimsa becomes a momentary mediation on Love, just as much as holding the part of us that doesn’t feel it has ever really known it or deserves it.

Take a moment to be still and feel Ahimsa. Feel what is not. There the healing begins.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.