Meeting Your Divine Self – Our Journey From & Back To Source

By  Raphael Awen

The farther we journey from source, the greater is our return to source where we are enabled to experience it for the first time.

This is the homecoming that you and I are now in, even as parts of us feel like the separation is growing.

It’s no longer the separation that’s growing, but rather your awareness of it that is increasing.

This week has been marked for me with another reunion with my Divine Orphan self that was triggered by some arising life circumstances, inviting the conditioned-to-this-life parts of me to feel and see this divine orphan self. I’m finding the beholding of this part again to be so moving and deeply rewarding, that answers the deeper questions at hand about the feelings of separation.

We were all initiated out of divine source into experience itself, and this experience needed to begin with what was not source. All of the fears, anxieties and depression we carry hearken back to our being birthed out of our divine bliss/oneness/source essence.

In this, we all were implanted with a great core wound, a wound that would underlie everything we would come to label as neurosis, things wrong with us. All of our attachments and quarrels within and without stem from this wound. But this pain and burden we carry is not only a wound that hurts, it is also an opening, a portal back, back to our true essence.

Your true essence is not conditioned by the conditionings of fear and lack that were needful for the experience journey. Your essence hasn’t participated here in the hijacked, 3D, matrixed, realm. Your essence remained untouched and protected from all of that.

The godhood you long for, you actually still possess and never lost. You just took on the experience of forgetting and of losing. In experience, you did lose divine connection and it hurts like the hell that it is. In essence though, you never lost a single thing. You are both experience and essence. More correctly, you are essence that took on experience.

You set out not to discover faraway lands, but to leave the land of your origin, so that you could return to it and discover it for the first time. As essence, you couldn’t know or feel or appreciate that essence and bliss. Bliss was left wanting to be known and felt and experienced. It was a risky endeavor, but your soul and the divine’s decided to fund this great discovery journey into reverence, awe and wonder.

As the increasing awareness of this separation rumbles in your life, you feel a fever pitch of everything coming apart at the seams. Everything you’ve worked so hard for to make experiential life bearable or even good comes now at this stage to be found to be not enough. In reaction, you may work harder as I have on gratitude and whatever other host of self-prescriptions to attempt to right your relation-ship with life, only to find they are not at all effective like they were before.

What the hell is happening?

You are beginning the return part of your journey home. You are sailing in the opposite direction. You are returning from where you came and the way you came. The return voyage has been negotiated through many lifetimes and so many experiences and you are ready now, equipped and prepared for the return.

The conditioning of lack and scarcity that you onboarded in your journey into experience is still here, and at times feels strangely and troublingly magnified. But this is all to be expected as you are called to feel and reconcile all the parts of you that are adjusting to returning to source – such a different experience than journeying away from source.

Now, you begin to get a sense of how sacred this forgotten core wound opening is. It is the one thing that would guarantee your return to divine source experientially. Your messed-up-ness is actually your perfection expressing and calling out to you. Each arising pain and ache is an intrinsic part of  the ongoing guidance as you restore to each part of you the pieces of their birthright that they are ready to feel.

Your preferences for pleasure over pain are a key part of your being human and of restoring your humanity with your divinity. You are invited not to bypass them any longer in the name of some kind of medicative spiritual practice. You chose to experience. You chose to want and to need. Those wants and those needs will need to be courageously owned and embraced if this voyage is to be completed successfully and on time (and in time).

As you witness the great fever pitch of insanity unfolding around you, ask yourself if you can think of any greater contribution to such a distress call than that of saving yourself, deeply choosing and embracing your own return journey home.

As you continue your return journey home as one being, you are reminding the oneness that we all are and share of this remembrance journey. Those around you in the forgetting phase will need your example when the time of their remembering comes, just as you needed it from others.

May we each embrace the perfection that we are amidst all that seems and feels so imperfect. May we set up a heart home with a great hearth of the warmth that will allow the fullest remembering.

Raphael Awen

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Energy Update: Blood Moon Eclipse Impacting All Wombs/Haras, Stirring Awakenings & Action-taking

by Kasha Rokshana

The collective womb throbs and hums, expands and contracts. It is working to help us through our death and rebirth. It is co-creating with us the world we want to live in, while helping us collapse the one we don’t. It is moving and swaying in time with the music of the waves of collective awakening. It is clearing itself out and making room for what wants to come through…

This week’s Blood Moon Eclipse connects us to this collective womb in an intense way. It’s a harbinger of what’s already happening and the intensity of what’s to come too. The moon, I feel, is not a pure connection, but a hijacked one. Meaning, it has its role in broadcasting the Matrix that is peaking now, which impacts us all, and to the awakening soul that is shaking off what’s left of its slumber, this particular broadcast from the moon this week could be felt in very uncomfortable ways.

The continued push of the v. bioweapon agenda is a scary one. In many ways it’s a direct attack on the womb, on the human heart, on our children, on the physical body vessel and the soul it houses. It’s getting worse and continues to peak. This creates a lot of stirring and shifting in every womb/hara space in every individual, for we are all connected and no matter what is happening and where, we ARE going through it together. 

Within your womb, you may be experiencing cramping, bloating, fatigue, and a feeling of overall physical discomfort. Emotional edges may be peaking, especially anxiety and a feeling of hopelessness or even restlessness. Whether or not it’s directly related to your own cycle, there is a frequency connecting all of our wombs at this time. The hara in men may also be feeling impacted with its own symptoms. 

My own womb has been humming in deep response to everything that’s moving… as I feel her, I feel what she’s been holding. I feel the tension of getting ready for the next phase of her cycle, but also the tension of what’s breaking down and breaking open in the world. I feel my own process of feeling into how to respond to that and also feeling how it connects to some pieces in my soul and my this-life parts too. 

Connecting in with my womb, I feel all of this and the discomfort of the confused collective that is trying to break through the ceilings of a consciousness that has long been held as ‘normal’. I feel my own personal ceilings I’m breaking through as well and how challenging that can be at times. Overall, I feel my connection to Divine Mother through the portal of my womb, which offers me all of this context I’m sharing with you now, even through the physical discomfort and emotional peaks I’m feeling inside of myself. 

It all feels like the energy of death, but laced with hope. It feels like a deep reboot of our sense of what’s true and how to respond to it with love, care, compassion, and when necessary, urgency.

As the collective Dark Night experience intensifies at this time, you may be feeling stirred to take urgent action and make swift life changes that have a huge impact on how your next phase unfolds. It feels important to not over-process or analyze this urgency right now and the intensity you may be feeling about it all, instead offering it plenty of air and giving space to the reactions parts of you are very reasonably having.

As women, sometimes we need our inner masculines to ‘kick it into high gear’ and help us move on and into more personal safety, choosing to follow the flow of the resonance that calls us, even if soul family feels physically far away. With more lockdowns, more shunning of those who choose love over fear, more risk of becoming ‘stuck’ in situations or geographies that are so clearly dissonant to your own values and what your heart and soul believes to be the truth underlying everything that’s happening, it’s paramount to listen to that voice within that encourages and empowers you to find a way out. 

Jelelle and I have led several women’s calls with guided meditations to help you access and feel your womb and also your inner masculine in a deeper way. You can donate whatever you feel to or go to our shop to purchase: soulfullheart.org/shop

Our wombs/haras carry many codes for us of our personal awakening journeys and alchemy. There’s so much we can receive from them when we connect consciously to them and feel how whatever is moving through us is also moving through the All. The Divine womb that holds us all is expressed in each of us and it’s so vital to our wellbeing to embrace and understand that. 

As the collective ‘womb’ we all share continues to move the energies of what’s burning UP through her, we’re not only being offered a dystopia but also hope… it was our co-creative power that brought in the reality we’re living out and allowed it to seed the way it has. That means we also have the power, which starts individually always, to move into another phase of co-creation now that we’ve learned so much from this one.

I feel how important awareness of these pieces is right now, to be able to digest and feel them. Fear and the parts of you that may feel it is never ‘bad’ or ‘wrong’. Yet, it’s the relationship to fear that is also important to feel and get real about… feeling and holding parts of you and Metasoul aspects in other lifetimes who vibrate in it moves all fears into trust eventually, with dedication to them and to your womb, who helps to hold them all. For more information on 1:1 sessions with me or one of my beloveds, visit soulfullheart.org/sessions

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Ongoing Intensities Provide Opportunity For Awakening

As I go within and connect with an aspect of me we call the Gatekeeper and digest recent planetary events, it is becoming apparent that the global control grid is tightening its clutches with each passing day. It has set its sights on its new enemy which is meant to divide and conquer in the name of playing The Saviour of Mankind. The divisiveness tactic is not new to our history. It is deeply embedded in what I have heard termed as “enemy patterning”. My Gatekeeper, Dante, is quite aware of this hijacked magic as I feel I have been a part of its deployment in my own soul’s history. 

This agenda to create division within a group is old school, yet is still clearly very effective and useful to whatever end one believes the ultimate endgame to be. The dialectic of ‘problem, reaction, solution’ could not be more obvious as we spin toward the next phase of this escalating timeline we find ourselves in. The ‘hot spots’ have been isolated and are now being triggered and manipulated through the hijacked channels of transmission. This has become our wake-up call. I am feeling a much more personal activation into service as well as my own ongoing remembrance and awakening to my power and purpose. 

What each of us decide to do now is of utmost importance to what comes next. It is not just WHAT we do, but HOW we do it that matters as well. Love must not be extracted from this process. Love for yourself and compassion for others. There are big soul choices hanging in the balance, yet they can best be navigated from the heart. I do not feel a personal guidance to be a warrior so much as to be an ambassador for what wants to be birthed out of this tumult. This is where the connection to my own Divine Self comes into play. What IS my role here at this time? What energy am I meant to hold in the process?

The tightening of the grid can produce its own physical and psychological effects. These can be mitigated by deep feeling, deep breathing, and seeing the greater context from within your own soul. Otherwise, parts of you may just feel like you are in an unwinnable situation. We need to find and feel the power of Love within to guide us into the next phases of our growth and remembrance. I have felt my own parts feeling an anxiety around what is going on and have needed to go in and feel where that energy lives in me from different timelines so that I can get a clearer channel to my Divine Self. It can be like clouds that cover the Sun in those moments.

I am told by the Divine, “You are not an enemy. You are not a problem. Depending on how you relate to what is happening, you can be a part of an awakening, not just a revolution. It all must start from the inside.” This is something that is becoming more and more talked about and understood. This is what I have been doing personally since 2012. It is a challenging process on many fronts, but the stakes are increasing and the lines are being drawn. For myself, the line is not a battleline, but a self-loving, self-aware, soul-guided choice point. I have been in the battle energy before and I could not resonate with it for very long. It does not mean I am passive. I am here to actively feel and hold space for all that is arising for myself and others. 

The gift in all of this madness is that we are being given an opportunity to stand in our truth and power to be a part of creating a heaven rather than a hell, but we must face that hell within first. Those intense feelings of isolation, fear, persecution, and disempowerment. We must find the buried aspects of us that are meant to serve our highest and most courageous calling to date. I am connecting to those aspects within myself to summon the strength and courage to keep shining, keep feeling, and keep standing in my truth and power. I am also enlivened and encouraged by all of those that are choosing to put everything on the line for what they believe in. This is a beacon to many others who may feel alone and afraid. 

I am sending so much love to those that are experiencing the tightening grip on the political and psychological fronts. We all must trust that each of us is being offered something in each of our circumstances as a portal to our Divine Self. The superhero within that can only be met by your own power of choice and deepest trust that Love always has your back. If you are in need for support and a process to help you heal and reconnect to your Divine Self, expression, and purpose on this planet please let me, or anyone of my beloveds know.

We need each other like never before. We also need our selves to feel us like never before.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Energy Update: Christ Codes Supporting Forgiveness, Karma Clearing, Deep Feeling

by Kasha Rokshana

The codes that activate your inner Christ Light are coming in now and my sense is that they will intensify throughout this corridor of 11/11 to 12/12. They are tender, loving, yet bear an intensity in their illumination. 

They invite you, with so much care, into feeling and processing on deeper levels that will support you to clear karmic binds to other souls, arise more and more into your bigness/vastness, and truly experience unity within and outside of you. At the same time, the access to pure joy is also available and supportive, like bliss waves moving through every chakra, especially as you free up the access to them from deep inside of you.

You may feel these Christ Codes emotionally and spiritually especially, as if a portal is opening up within you and there’s an uptick in your porosity and sensitivity, yet you may also feel them on a physical level as love comes in to permeate and cleanse every cell. How you relate to and hold yourself on all of these levels is being illuminated and invited to shift into a new depth of self-love and acceptance.

Christ Codes are an opportunity for deep healing and reconciliation within, yet also with others. The process of forgiveness is potent and very real… one that happens in layers, with taking the space to feel all parts of you in their triggers, by feeling all Metasoul aspects who have been persecuted, harmed, or worse, in other lifetimes and helping them reconcile what has happened to them. True forgiveness is a high frequency not easily achieved or conjured, yet it can be felt into when you feel ready and guided by your Divine Self to go deeper.

Christ Codes are very much a “come as you are” invitation into the lap of the Divine, where everything you feel is welcome and every part of you is safe and held. They are here to help you feel whatever is REAL even when you feel waves of genuine rage, unhappiness, dissatisfaction, or even fear. They support you to fully inhabit, not diminish, the power of your depth of feeling, all the while guiding you toward those choices that will awaken and enliven you and everything within you that you’re here to do, become, and offer. 

Christ Codes activate and nourish the seeds planted in us by our experiences of being a part of the Magdalene/Essene lineage which you may resonate with deeply. They are constantly being watered, even through adversity, conflict, and the challenges of living in this day and age, through this messy phase of our Ascension. This time of year, especially around 12/12, you will likely feel them even more so, perhaps steering you in a new direction, opening your heart (especially to yourself), piquing your curiosity about yourself and others, and bringing you a new sense of context and the reasons WHY you are facing all you are.

Christ Codes remind us of our humanity AND our divinity and how they are not mutually exclusive or ever completely aligned, enlightened, and perfect. They are an invitation deeper into your own Christ lineage and unique Christ Light within. Your soul valiantly chose to be here, to experience all it has and bring that to the fore, and to find ways to express and inhabit your soul gifts.

Christ Codes are a reminder of the love you came here to embody, and the love that is supporting you always to embrace everything you are, feel, and desire too. 

May the love of these powerful Christ Codes be felt within you today and ongoingly… as you feel your unique process of letting them in, of allowing them to guide you inward and live into more soul-led, love-based choices during this next phase of your sacred journey.

Love,

Kasha ♥️🌹

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

11:11 Passage Crystal Bowl Sound Bath, Guided Meditation, & Mantras Transmission (Video) | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

Major upgrades going on during this 11:11 passage! Light body activations, soul field/veils lifting, and overall next level codes coming in!

This video I’m sharing was recorded during a recent SoulFullHeart community gathering on November 12th with Raphael and I playing crystal quartz sound healing bowls, providing a guided meditation/transmission, and I AM mantras. We were calibrating to the powerful, Divine Love 11:11 portal as individuals and a community, which provides an amplification to feel your higher timeline/soul purpose manifestation.

The bowls are tuned to 432HZ for ultimate cleansing and purifying of your chakras/auric field, physical/light body activation, and emotional body healing. The bowls used in this video are the C note/root chakra (played by Raphael), the F note/heart chakra and the A note/Third Eye chakra (played by me.)

We also guide you to let go of whatever is necessary to embody more of your Divine Self and messages from the Divine. We then offer powerful I AM mantras to recode your 3D Self to your Divine Self. The community (with Gabriel and Kasha plus members Raianna Shai and Bey Magdalene), offer I AM statements as well.

I also released a guided meditation to 528HZ music for 11:11 portal activation available ANY time in the Now:

Love,

Jelelle Awen

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The Arising, Authentic, and Sacred Masculine

In my ongoing journey of accessing and embodying my authentic, sacred masculine, I am finding where I have lived in the space between the Wolf and the Lion. The Wolf represents the more instinctual, primal energy, and the Lion the more kingly, leadership aspect. One with bite, the other with roar.

I have been aware of how both of these aspects have been hidden in shadow. A fear of my power and truth that lay within. The authentic, integrated masculine has struggled to arise for many men. There is a resistance to unleashing these aspects for a variety of reasons. When one hears the call of, “where are the real men nowadays?!”, there is a judgement in that somewhere rather than a heartfelt curiosity, both from those asking and from those of us receiving.

Yes, we are all being called to our power and truth, men and women alike. In that calling, we are met with our own personal initiations into the realm of our bigness and presence. We are sent on a quest through the hinterlands of the Shadow and what we have sequestered there until further notice. There is a veil of protection that lies in between. It is the meeting of this layer where we gain access to our most authentic self, rough edges, defensiveness, weaknesses and all.

We can respond to the trumpet of the call to action, and create an image based on someone else’s version of what it means to be a man in today’s volatile world. That may serve a purpose for some. A part of an initiation and growth edge. There is also going into what is real and authentic for you; your own process of self-awareness and empowerment that is not just about the collective but your own soul’s healing, maturation, and purpose on this planet at this time.

These energies are calling me to reconcile my masculine shadow and power as a sacred union mate, a community leader, a healer, and a teacher. These aspects are not separate from each other but integral to one another. They are also not separate from the feminine principle either. Again, integral. It is being held by this sacred feminine that the sacred masculine can arise with the trust that any shadow can and will be addressed with Love and Compassion.

This is my journey. My evolution into embodying and expressing more of what is true for me and not for anyone else. This is what I feel I am being called to live into and serve. To honor and awaken what has been hidden and forsaken in this masculine heart and soul, for myself and for those that it is meant to resonate with.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Energy Update: 11/11 Portal Offers Codes, Downloads & Upgrades

Energy Update: Blessings and Love to you as we deepen into and receive this 11/11 portal today! The codes, downloads, upgrades/activations available on these powerful days provide a boost to awaken, to support, to clarify, to motivate, to inspire, to enliven, to encourage, and to catalyze.

The degree and depth you let them in is….as always…UP to you and what you (and parts of you) are ready for and wanting.

You may be feeling today a lightening UP in your heart space, in your physical body, and in your overall energy as well. Prepping to go through this portal felt similar to preparing to giving birth for the several days before it. There was some uncomfortableness, tension, purging, and feeling ‘taken over’ by the process at times. There was also deep diving into the shadow in order to heal and reconcile whatever energies were there.

Giving ‘birth’ to the NEW you during 11:11, you can now BE with the higher frequencies coming in, receiving them into your heart, letting them enliven you.

There were timeline collapses in relationships, in jobs, in money situations prior to this 11:11 portal…starting even a month or more before it as well. This is also being amplified by the great bifurcation that is ongoing with the V. narrative and clear ‘sides’ needing to be chosen even as love for ALL is held in the higher realms. For some souls (and esp. teachers/healers/guides) there are physical body collapses/illnesses, etc. manifesting in order to bring a clear choice point of staying to serve in an embodied way through this dark night transition into the light or returning to a higher dimension with their mission here ‘completed’.

The aftermath of these collapses, the ‘ash in the air’ reality experience of it, is something you may still be going through. Mourning and grieving ARE important, yet too is moving into more trust and joy that ALL loss right now is serving your higher timeline.

Your purpose of serving love is probably becoming clearer. This is meant to clarify with this 11/11 portal as MANY souls will be needed to support those newly awakening and those already awakening and those even leading too! The most important service of love right now could be to yourself and your own healing, so that you can eventually overflow to others from a place of self love and goodness. You are serving then from a place of genuine and embodied overflow, rather than self sacrifice or burden or over responsibility.

Here is a NEW guided meditation with me to 528HZ music providing a prep and then bridge to this 11:11 portal activation and assistance to let in the codes:

Take the space during these 11:11 portal days to go within. To be with the inhale of Gaia and the outflow of the Universe. The inhale of OM and the exhale of Ma (the Divine Mother) is my favorite mantra to feel connected to All That Is and my own heart too. Take the time and space to FEEL yourself, your emotional body flowing like a river, and the deeper emotions that rumble and flow that can be harder to get to.

Reach BEyond your mind and the content and details of everyday to connect with the Divine as the source of YOU and of ALL.

Let in what is offered JUST to you with so much love from your higher self, guides, the Divine……..and feel yourself AS Infinite Love!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

More information about 1:1 sessions with me and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group call events, and books/writings at soulfullheart.org.

11:11 Portal Activation Guided Meditation (W/528 HZ Music) | Jelelle Awen

I’m guided to share this guided meditation for activation of the 11:11 portal now as access to the powerful manifestation and higher timeline it offers is available at ALL times in the Now.

I felt a teleportation as I was recording it this morning……to the space before, during and after a timeline shift, a jump UPwards and onwards that can more readily occur during these magical repeating number portals. Sometimes they provide a very clear marker of major life shifts and sometimes it is more subtle…more inward than outward.

The music used during this meditation is tuned to 528 HZ which I find provides a heaven frequency that supports tuning into these higher realms. During the meditation, you travel to the 11:11 portal and feel what can come ‘with you’ through it into your higher timeline…and what needs to be let go of in order to move forward. This may be an emotional process for sure with grief and mourning too, esp if it involves relationships…even as the joyful bliss of remembering your Divine Love essence is becoming more real to you.

I hope you enjoy this one and fully leverage this 11:11 portal in whatever ways best serve you and your Divine Self!

Much love,

Jelelle Awen

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SoulFullHeart Museletter: Nov 4, 2021

With the Samhain/Halloween/Day Of The Dead passage moving through, there’s a continued illumination of our shadow selves and other pieces of ourselves, our parts, our essences too that have been hidden or tucked away. This week we share a few writings about shadow exploration and what it invites and involves, plus we have a new group meditation call coming up this Sunday, Nov 7th, focused on Shadow Exploration.

You can find out more about this group call by visiting: soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

Featured this week is a writing/transmission from Jelelle. It’s an invitation to your shadow from your Divine Self, to encourage it to come out of hiding and to support it as a sacred part of you and your soul, though it may not have ever been treated that way. Jelelle reads this transmission aloud in the featured video with her and Raphael, where they talk some more about the upcoming Shadow Exploration call and what they will be offering through it from their own explorations and discoveries.

Along with some writings about processing with your own shadow, you will find other digestions of what’s moving in the world, and a sharing from a beloved community member and facilitant, Bey Magdalene! Bey shares about her own SoulFullHeart journey and what she is currently moving through and into as she continues to embrace all parts of her and her soul essence too.

You can subscribe to receive these Museletters in your own email inbox by visiting our website: soulfullheart.org, or scrolling down to the bottom of this issue and clicking ‘subscribe’.

Take in our latest Museltter here.

Much love from all of us!

~ The SoulFullHeart Community

Introducing Bey Magdalene: SoulFullHeart Community Member and Facilitant

A fun and joyful day out in Coimbra, a sweet and lively university town near us

I have been in the orbit and a part of SoulFullHeart for three years now, though I initially calibrated for six months before I had my first session with Jelelle. One day she just showed up on my Facebook and taking in one post after the other, I quickly became convinced she was speaking directly about me and to me at the same time. Over the years I’ve had the unique opportunity and experience of being facilitated by every single Facilitator in SoulFullHeart. It was very clear from the beginning that “this” was “it” for me. I finally found what I had been looking for all my life. In just how many ways that is true, I’m learning now every day as a part of the community in the physical.

Raianna dressed up at Halloween

I joined Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, and Kasha to live with them on a campground in northern Portugal at the beginning of August this year. About a month and a half ago, we moved to central Portugal, to quite a remote little village called Folques. While the campground was sort of a ‘honeymoon phase’ and sniffing each other out, the new phase brought a lot of intense initiations for me, inner and outer, which I bravely walked out and am now getting to the other side of. A week and a half ago, Raianna, who has been connected to SoulFullHeart for many years, joined us all here in Portugal too after completing her life in Canada. For Halloween, we dressed up and had a little gathering.

Gabriel & Kasha dressed up for Halloween

The veils are thin right now and for me personally, I particularly feel that in my ongoing process of differentiating from my persona-based ‘Bianca part’, as the current energies push up so much illumination of her and support for me to keep differentiating. For a number of years now I have been doing ‘parts work’ with SoulFullHeart and working with parts of the self. Over the years I have discovered and felt many parts of myself, differentiated from them and integrated them. This has led me to a new and deeper layer of this work, held by the soul family container and the relationship with myself. It has led me to recognize that ‘Bianca’, my birth name, had become a part herself, and a corresponding new energy had been discovered and cultured through all this inner work. This new energy/being is able to hold all parts of myself, soul explorations/metasoul aspects, soul family community, and life choices. I have decided to call this new arising energy, ‘Bey Magdalene’. One version of the name ‘Bianca’, which is Italian and means white/pure/bright light, is ‘Beyonca’ (same pronunciation) and I am feeling to go with the short version of it, Bey (pronounced like ‘bee’) for now and claim it as a transitory name until a soul name comes through. The surname ‘Magdalene’ I have chosen in honor of my soul family origins and connection to the Magdalene/Essene lineage in honor and humble claim of my connection to my beloved Soul Family in SoulFullHeart. It feels important to let go of the entire waveform of my former name as it holds all of the birth family relationships/biography/woundings, social and romantic relationships, job navigations, and life as I have known it really, in order to keep arising into the New.

Priestess energies coming through for Halloween

Differentiating from this persona-based part and everything she has been holding, including her relationship to this life, the process itself, and others, is a deep service to and honoring of me, her, and others too who feel drawn to this work and community as well.

It REALLY is NOT easy to feel everything that is going on inside in every moment, move through it, and come out the other side of it. And sometimes, all we can do is fuse to the emotional world of our parts. Yet ALL of this process is sacred and held, supported and guided by the Soul and the Divine Self, if you choose this path of utmost soul growth and deeply nourishing and resonant soul family community. I am feeling, after all these years of dedicated inner work, a deep trust in this process and myself and that it all is truly perfect as it unfolds and keeps unfolding. And to me, trust in oneself is the hottest currency out there, especially right now in these volatile and intense times.

Much Love,

Bey Magdalene

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Bey Magdalene is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant and Community Member. For more information on community, videos, group calls, and 1:1 sessions with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator, visit soulfullheart.org.