Energy Update: Lunar Eclipse Energies Offer Sacred Feminine Activations (Link To View Online)

By Jelelle Awen

Blood Supermoon total lunar eclipse energies coming in! As I’ve said before, these are my favorite type of eclipses for the sacred feminine activations they offer. Plus the opportunity for relief from the hijacked Moon Matrix transmission so we can take in Luna’s true planetary consciousness that once existed unfiltered in our skies in the Lemurian age.

There have been intense energies entering the eclipse window already and over the last 24 hours! I especially feel the clearings happening on my physical and energectic levels as I tune into bringing in more prana during this ongoing juice/now water only fast….with an experience of some discomfort in my body yesterday opening out into bliss in the same day!

Connection with our guides, Divine Self, galactics is always thin during an eclipse and they are def. here to support us. All our clairs are activating too and messages/visions/inspired thoughts/clarities/emotional breakthroughs can come through.

I find that watching the live transmission can be very activating, esp with meditative music. It is a LONG eclipse lasting over five hours, so any portion of it is good to catch with the full eclipse lasting almost 90 minutes! You can watch a livestream of the entire eclipse here: https://youtu.be/MII89TZ63NE

That same feed has a great listing on their web page of start, peak, and end times for the eclipse in all the different timezones, yet in general starts at 3:00am here in Portugal/London; 10pm EDT; 7:00pm PDT. You may be able to view it yourself as well in certain parts of the world if the skies are clear.

Also, I hope you can join Raphael and me at 5pm London time/12:00pm EDT/9:00am PDT for a livestream on FB at https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen where we will feel into these eclipse energies and how you may be experiencing them on physical/emotional/soul/energy levels. We will offer a brief guided meditation as well to help with digestion and integration of them. You can watch us live or catch the recording.

Happy eclipse day! This is a good one to go inward, reflect, feel what you are wanting/desiring for your future and tap into your sacred feminine depths (for both women and men.)

How are you experiencing these eclipse energies so far?

love,

Jelelle Awen

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Introducing Our New Podcast: The SoulFullHeart Current

My beloved Kasha Rokshana and I are so excited to host the first episode of a weekly podcast from within the SoulFullHeart process, community, and way of life which is so beloved to us and which we have been a part of for the last decade.

In this episode, we share a bit about our personal journeys and draw to this process and community. We also give you a very brief overview of what the process itself offers along with some pieces about what makes it challenging yet beautiful. You’ll also hear a bit about our personal intentions for this Podcast overall.

You can find our podcast in many different places:

Anchor.fm: https://anchor.fm/soulfullheartcurrent
Spotify:https://open.spotify.com/show/2LUIpz0KHOr46Utheqfl5C
As well as Apple Podcasts, Google Podcast, and Amazon Music. You just need to search for “The SoulFullHeart Current”. If you listen to us on any of these platforms please follow us so you get notified of upcoming episodes!

We will also be adding it to our YouTube channel:
https://youtu.be/wAkHfq4btRk

We’d love for you to join us weekly as we share our personal digestions of emotional and spiritual healing, sacred union, ascension energies, current global events, disclosure, and more through the SoulFullHeart lens and embodiment we share. We’ll also bring in different members of the SoulFullHeart community, and also our mentors and SoulFullHeart co-creators, Raphael and Jelelle Awen, to contribute to the conversation and share their own experiences.

The word ‘current’ represents what is happening in the Now with us and through us. To be ‘current’ is to be open and honest about how we are feeling, not just what we are thinking. It is being vulnerable and real, truthful even when it’s hard. It’s a journey that starts inside of you yet then is meant to overflow outward too as you share your truth out loud.

It also represents movement, like a river or electrical current. We’re on an ongoing conveyor belt of ascending consciousness as humans living on Gaia We are Love seeking a way back to Itself through our human experiences. It is rarely, if ever, a straight line. Where we go or how we feel one day may be different the next depending on new information or circumstance. We flow on that current by being ‘current’… being real, feeling what’s true in the moment. It’s a mysterious journey that wants to lead us back to our Essence, Being, and Truth.

Currency is also about what we bring into the world and the soul gifts we each have to exchange with others for theirs, in service of love yet also in our intimacy with those we’re close to. It’s the gifts we’re endowed with to spend in the world when we’re able to transact these gifts with others, to receive and exchange. This podcast is about what we each have to ‘spend’ from the wellsprings of our personal soul and heart gifts, yet it’s also about connecting with you and yours and supporting your own connection inside and with others too!

We appreciate any ideas for future podcasts for us to delve into as they arise for you. You can email those to us, along with any other comments to soulfullhearts@gmail.com.

You can find our online community, the SoulFullHeart Portal, on Mighty Networks at https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co. We highly recommend joining our online community where for only $22/month, you’ll have access to what could be the deepest and most meaningful soul family connections you’ve yet to experience, exclusive videos/guided meditations from us as well as Raphael and Jelelle Awen, and more personal pieces being shared from each of us in our intimate community.

Thank you for being in The Current with us. It is where we strive to let go, let in, feel, heal, see, be seen, and seek resonant community!

With Love and Currency,

Gabriel & Kasha

Personal Update: Fasting/Transitioning To Prana Journey

By Jelelle Awen

As I move into my fifth day of juice fasting/transitioning to living on more prana, the sound bowls are food right now, as is my daily soaks in the sun and Himalayan/epsom salt baths and vinyasa yoga flows. I also engaged in a deep pranayama breathing practice this morning that brought me into a deep bliss and relaxation space, theta brainwave place, for over two hours.

It’s amazing how your soul kicks in when you start letting go of what you’ve been previously been using as ‘fuel’. All of the ways of bringing more energy/light/love into your field and body come forward, out of more need and necessity than previously. Eventually it just becomes the new ‘rewired’ system as the old programmings fall away.

I feel that I’ve moved out of the detox phase where all the yuckies you’ve eaten start coming out of your pores, coating your tongue, making some aches in the back, etc. Other than a period of having a headache for awhile and a coated tongue (relieved by a tongue scraper), I haven’t had many detox symptoms this time. The first time I did a water fast three years ago, the detox was so intense that I had to stop after a few days. I’ve learned now how to negotiate this phase and what supports me through it.

EVERY phase and stage of this body detoxing/upgrading process is sacred and needed. There isn’t an ‘end goal’ or ‘failing’ or ‘succeeding’. It is a linear process yet rather a circular one that invites you into different initiations as you go.

This does feel like such a supportive time to moving into a phase of letting food go/fasting (for however long you feel to), with the continual solar flares and CMES coming in (even if they don’t interface with Gaia’s atmosphere.) Just laying out in the sun for even 10 minutes brings in a powerful supportive energy boost that feels like you’ve eaten a full meal!

I can feel the lunar eclipse in the grids as well and the relief from the Matrix moon hijack that it will offer. The sacred feminine pure frequencies can flow through during that 84 minute window. Join Raphael and I on Sunday at 5pm London time/12:00pm EST/9:00am for a livestream on FB where we will feel into these eclipse energies and how you may be experiencing them on physical/emotional/soul/energy levels. We will offer a brief guided meditation as well to help with digestion and integration of them. You can watch us live or catch the recording.

Galactic activations are strong right now too….as we move into crop circle transmission season and I can feel the codes I received when I visited two of them in the UK last year coming through. My Arcturian aspect Binkh is coming into my awareness again, offering inspirations and some channeled messages that feels like will start to be shared too.

I missed her even though she never left me….my consciousness went where it needed to go into lower 4D to do some mega karmic soul clearing of priestess lifetimes. I feel freed up, lighter, less reactive over all, and as if the lighthouse lens of my soul beacon has been cleaned up!

If you feel drawn to connect around any of these places I’m describing and receive a personal bridging around them, I’m available for 1:1 sessions or a free intro with women, more info at soulfullheart.org/sessions.

Much love to you on this ‘sacred’ day of Friday the 13th as the Divine Feminine arises anew in all of her forms,

Jelelle Awen

I describe more about my process of transitioning to living on more prana and less food here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/my-process-of…/

And I had some feline assistance today while I played my sound bowls! Ravyn our cat has become fascinated by them after initially running out of the room whenever we played them (pic above of her paw extended to touch the heart chakra bowl while I played it!) She is vibing into the frequency now as animals are SO tuned into energy, they are a good barometer around if energy is good or not.

My Process Of Transitioning To Living On Prana/Light

By Jelelle Awen

Binkh, my Arcturian aspect, came forward at my request today because I am wanting to upgrade my body, cells, DNA, digestive system, endrocine system, etc. to ultimately make the switch over from needing physical food to living on prana/light energy. I’ve now started an extended juice ‘fast’ (day one!) which is really about engaging the light body’s innate ability to live on prana.

This morning I was inspired to listen to my own guided meditation video to connect with Arcturian energies and an Arcturian Healing Chamber. It felt very supportive, touching, and also activating as I connected with Binkh and drifted in the healing chamber for awhile. I could feel the necessary karmic densities I have been exploring and clearing for awhile, ready to move now into integration and release.

The meditation is here if you’d like to engage in it:

I’ve done 30+day fasts with no food and water/juice in the past and particularly felt a significant switch over with Binkh one time who rewired my digestive system to run on light and not physical food. For the last year or so, it has felt like I am saying goodbye to physical food and eating what I enjoy, yet still vegan, mostly no sugar, no gluten, organic etc. There were still parts of me attached to some social aspects of eating and related to being a mother as well.

It now feels like time to transition again as my body is putting on weight, storing fat, because my sense is that it really doesn’t need the food I’ve been eating. I also feel this is contributing to my ‘aging process’ experience and more intense perimenopausal symptoms. Plus, I am having bloating and indigestion with everything that I eat now no matter how healthy or light it is. My soul/Divine Self is offering that it is time, also easier with all of these abundant sun codes coming in too (which are a ‘food’ of their own, along with Gaia/nature codes, sound healing, sacred sexuality, etc.)

The first stage of this extended fast/transition in my experience is always a detox of any processed foods, toxins, densities that have been digested. This is the only time I’ve experienced ‘hunger’ which is usually more about indigestion and difficulty processing the food as it is moving out than it is real hunger.

The next stage is a deeper detox as the cells clear, autophagy and ketosis kick in. These are more the usual fasting phases. Deeper emotional attachments to eating and food can come up at this stage too, to be felt and held. There can be feelings of deprivation or forcing too, although it is then good to just go back to eating something to ease this if it is very strong, negotiating with parts/soul aspects as needed. This is not about forcing anything or ‘will powering’ your way through it.

The next stage is when the soul starts kicking in. I’ve received major downloads and upgrades of support at this stage from metasoul aspects of mine who also lived on light to some degree/did extended fasting for spiritual/religious reasons. Also, support from Binkh and galactic aspects who have never eaten physical food. The overall feeling is increasing energy levels, increasing soul clarities, less sleep needed, and less thoughts/needs for food.

The next stage (which I would like to experience) is the true detachment from food, where it truly is a choice and an option. Many of those who don’t eat and live on prana for many years may choose to still have a bite or two occasionally. Yet is the freedom of choice and my body running completely on light that is most desirous to me.

I do feel that living on light is eventually inevitable in humanity’s ascension with many phases that we would go through before then. Starvation is a very convincing Matrix programming that keeps so many souls trapped. Our ‘food’ now is hardly food, with so many toxins, chemicals and processing going on…not to mention the killing frequencies of eating animals.

I’ll share more as I go on my transition journey as people are usually curious about it. I have noticed that not many awakened souls have fasted, even for a day or longer, and that feels to me like it represents the deep conditioning/programming that we have about the necessity of physical food and a fear to let it go, even for a short while. I do highly recommend fasting, esp now during this eclipse window, as many benefits/gifts come from it.

Our Divine Self and souls remember many lifetimes esp in Lemuria where there was little food consumed and only the most fresh fruits/vegetables. Tapping into our soul’s memory beyond the matrix programming is a huge support!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

I am so open to mentoring/coaching on this as well if you’d like to explore it in a session with me and feel/see your relationship with your light body/3D body/parts and aspects etc., esp if you have ongoing suffering/struggles around body image, eating, etc. more info at soulfullheart.org

The Causes Of Inner Work & Ascension ‘Burnout’

by Kasha Rokshana

It’s not uncommon to hear about how burnt-out, frustrated, and DONE people feel when it comes to their own Ascension and awakening journeys. There are so many things that can make someone feel this way and there are different ways to look at why this is happening, from the inside out. 

Join Kasha as she launches into a discussion about what’s in her heart about this topic/obstacle and what the factors may be that have led up to it. She offers her sense of how being inundated with ‘spiritual teachings’ and mandates around ‘do this, not that!‘ can play a role in making parts of you feel overwhelmed and ready to give up. Also, many offerings don’t seem to truly give you handrails and active support, let alone heart warmth, and also can blow you/parts of you out (sometimes even on purpose) with over-confrontation and an outside-in orientation to healing that does nothing to empower you to hold your own process. Kasha offers that while confrontation may be necessary at times, peak experiences or intense ‘retreats’ can actually traumatize your parts/Metasoul aspects more so than offer true healing, integration, and a sense of who you truly are.

Kasha goes into more details about all of this and more surrounding what may or may not be your specific circumstances around feeling ‘burned out’ on your personal journey. This is just the tip of the iceberg too, as really this is such a big topic to dive into and is really so personal to everyone who feels it.

Here is a guided meditation to help you connect with your Gatekeeper: https://youtu.be/bGqTeeaYpwc

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Energy Update: Blood Supermoon Eclipse Window Offering Opportunities For Integration

By Jelelle Awen

Energy Update: There is a DEEP integration happening during this eclipse window, this space between the two eclipses with the second happening on Sunday. This is my most favorite of eclipses where the big old full moon (hijacked feminine) enters Gaia’s shadow (sacred feminine) in totality and for a long time…a blood supermoon total lunar eclipse that is going to be 84 minutes long. The hijacked lunar energies get to slip into Gaia’s sacred feminine shadow and ‘bleed out’ what is needed. I’ve also felt that these eclipses provide a space from the moon matrix frequencies broadcast for a little while to allow more soul integration.

It’s been two years since the last one, which is an interesting marker as well…a connection to what/where/who you were two years ago. There are resources online to watch it live or take in the recording which I highly recommend with your favorite meditation music.

Raphael and I are going to offer a livestream on FB to connect to these Supermoon eclipse energies and a guided meditation/transmission as well at 5:00pm GMT (london)/12:00pm EDT/9:00am PDT. You can catch us live to ask questions/leave comments or watch the recording later. https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen

The integration process occurring is the response to ALL that was pushed up and activated during the last few weeks of powerful solar activations, planetary alignment, the solar eclipse, and the 5/5 gateway. These were energies that everyone (us sensitives anyway) seemed to be feeling, especially on the physical and emotional body levels.

Many were experiencing physical purges and clearings with head aches, body pains, indigestion, massive fatigue/sleepiness, brain fog, and more. And on the emotional body level I experienced (and others too) that the reaction/response cycle was greatly accelerating. Reactions would come up in myself and what I could witness in others as intense, peaking, charged and deep. Reactions that may not have happened even in quite a while.

Yet the response to those reactions was immediate, loving, deep, and nourishing so that the reaction could land in a place of love and awareness. For me, that is in a specific way of feeling the part/soul aspect who MOST needs me in that moment and is actually having the reaction. Rather than relating as just an “I” experiencing everything (which is SUCH a soup and so hard to sort out), I have for many years now seen and felt that so often it is either a part of myself (esp the 3D self/ego structure) or a soul aspect from another lifetime that is having the reaction.

Just in the last couple of weeks alone, I connected to my 3D self/Birth named part named Jillian around renewed service and some trauma from the past; a new inner mother part named Hera about aging with grace rather than fighting it; and my priestess aspect Lorna around going into deeper collaboration/union with Raphael. I shared about some of these experiences on my feed. Each of these processes was about moving into a deep feeling space with each of them as needed, bringing in Divine Mother and my primary guide/Divine self Anna, and experiencing a transmutation through that in which the heavy despair/pain/trauma is gone.

This eclipse window is offering the opportunity to experience the integration of responding to the reactions in this loving and pin-pointed way to the energies that ACTUALLY need them most. The integration has an elated feeling to it, a renewed passion, clarity about next steps, soul purpose reactivation.

Something heavy and deep is lifted and your heart is freed up. Your soul is freed up. Life and love can enter and flood your field in new ways.

I feel a renewed honor in holding space for others to discover just how specific their reactions/suffering loops etc. can be and how to BE and FEEL the parts/aspects that are having them. It is in the vagueness of the ‘fusion’ to these reactions were there can be a lot of stuckness, a thicker veil, feelings of looping, and hitting a ceiling.

This is a powerful opportunity for healing during and after the eclipse window. I keep seeing some souls in my field that are ‘waiting’ for the right timing to meet with me and perhaps it is now. I have some openings for those women drawn to meet with me for a free intro or who just want to dive in for a 1:1 session for 90 minutes for $77 USD. More info at soulfullheart.org/sessions and you can PM/DM me as well.

Wherever you are at in your activation/integration process, the celestial bodies are supporting it. And Divine love too!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

I also highly recommend taking in whichever of our 31 Deepen 2022 videos you are drawn to with teachings and guided meditation: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y…

Beyond Any Sense Of ‘Instant Ascension’ And Into The Real Process Of It

by Kasha Rokshana

I know this isn’t a popular opinion… but the idea of the transition into 5D happening quickly, easily, in a moment of grace and glory that suddenly descends upon Gaia, is so not how it’s going to happen. And in fact, is not how it’s ALREADY happening.

It is an ongoing process and if you are not feeling ready yet to truly take that process inward AND let it move your outer life into new circumstances, more resonance with a lover and others than you can let in, then there is an ongoing invitation into this territory from the Divine with non-judgemental arms open to you and the parts of you who are reasonably terrified or apprehensive of this process.

But why is this what’s real? Don’t the Divine and our Star Family want us to ascend beyond this mess we’ve found ourselves in and want to relieve our suffering once and for all?

Well… would we actually become something NEW if that happened, or would we be leap-frogging over a very necessary process of facing our mess, coming to terms with it, and reconciling it from deep, deep, beyond-the-bowels-deep within?

No, I don’t feel we would. And I personally would not be the person I am today, living without unnecessary drama (no, seriously, I’m not kidding or paving over a single thing here) yet very deep intimacy within, with the Divine, and with others, if this had been the case.

We really need to let the bullshit of an ‘instant fix’ or ‘silver bullet solution’ go if we truly want to heal, want to evolve, and want to be closer to the Divine… which is actually the point of Ascenion, isn’t it? I don’t care how many ‘diamond light heart Jesus guru plasma blue ray’ activations you’ve either downloaded or paid thousands of dollars to receive from others. If you don’t feel your heart AND soul evolving and warming up, and your humanity and spirituality coming into true oneness and reverence, you’re not experiencing the deeper purpose of Ascension in the way I’m sure you’d like to and are instead buying into a narrative pedalled by others whose parts/soul aspects are also afraid that you might not ‘make it’ into 5D after all.

You can and you will, whether in this lifetime or another. Aspects of you are already there. I’ve felt countless times an invitation from Star Family and the Magdalenes too that we are NOT alone as we live into this transition and truly ache, crawl, and expand out into it. The key though is continuing to drop the bullshit… always.

I say this with TONS of love in my heart for you to feel however much of this reality you’re ready to feel at this time and I invite you to truly keep feeling into it, become humbled by it, and continue to work within and with others. None of us are entitled to the ultimate state of higher-dimensional living, loving, and becoming without actually doing the work to bring this reality to the fore.

And the truth is, that the work is gruelling at times yet also so bloody beautiful that I wouldn’t personally trade any moment of guttural tears and elated, orgasmic bliss coming out of process for anything that promises to be quick, painless, and easy.

I love you. I truly do. We are all one, even in any sense of lostness. You may feel like a walking hot mess but you are beautiful. And I feel how each one of us can do this, can face all of this, and keep on becoming what we came here to be.

Love,
Kasha ❤️

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

5/5 Portal Inviting Higher Perspectives, Compassionate Self-Love, Care Towards Others

by Kasha Rokshana

This 5/5 portal day feels like a brand new day and also a BIG digestion opportunity for whatever got shaken up for you during the recent eclipse, solar flares, Beltane passage, etc. It’s been a huge wake-up call on all levels, feeling passion being ignited/re-ignited toward deeper self-care, moving out of dissonance and into more resonance, inside and out.

More truths have been popping out and yet also even more manipulations that disguise themselves as ‘truths’ have too. The solar activity has really been intended on some level to help us SEE clearer, especially through heart-based eyes, what it is that’s true for all of us personally and what needs to be let go of (or let go into).

I feel the invitation to all of us today, to enter into the bigger, broader, more 5D-based perspective on everything that we’re all moving through right now, and that perspective always reminds me of Divine love and the encouragement to feel all there is to feel.

I’m personally digesting my own desired shift to a higher gear, not only in really letting the Divine’s perspective on everything in more, yet also in my own ways of inhabiting my sacred human body-vessel and feeling even more landed in my own heart for others. Genuine care feels so good, even when it hurts to do so. It’s vulnerable yet powerful to go here, and even more vulnerable and powerful to feel where care hasn’t been felt or offered towards myself or towards others in deeper ways.

This 5/5 feels like a point of celebration, sobriety, clearing, and empowerment, all at once somehow… new perspectives are so possible and the shifts we’ve all been craving are imminent if we’re ready to stand in our truths and honour our inner work by making consciously held changes on the outside… even if/when they are very challenging at times to feel into, let alone follow through with!

As always, I feel there is SO much support that today represents and amplifies for each of us on our individual yet shared journeys… and we are invited to keep asking for the guidance, digesting it inside of ourselves, and make those choices that we could only make if we felt Divinely supported and loved.

MUCH love to you today on this powerful 5/5 day!
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The No Man’s Land Of Our Collective Grief

By  Raphael Awen

If we take a step outside of this most challenging polarity moving through us right now as a species, we see where there’s something none of us really comfortable feeling.

If the anti injection people are correct, then there’s a wave of destruction and fear that is already here and scaling up at a pace we can only guess at.

If the pro experimental injection people are correct, then our sovereignty and autonomy is best left in the hands of a governing body who are better equipped to lead our lives.

Either way, we are giving up something of such huge proportions. I don’t think there’s a single one of us yet who’s felt the deepening scale of this.

Raging at it, or turning over and accepting it feel like two polarized ways of starting to work through it, but there’s still a huge no man’s land that I haven’t seen anyone step into.

In that no man’s land is something to feel.

Trying to describe it almost does it a disservice, for it can only really be felt, not described. But it has something to do with mourning and grief on a scale we haven’t known in this life.

Life as you and I knew it is changing rapidly, daily and minute by minute. Something big is dying and not returning, regardless of which side of the issue(s) you find yourself on.

People on both sides of the polarity believe they have spared themselves from some personal suffering. ‘According to their beliefs’, as Yeshua would say, ‘so be it unto them’. Beliefs are such strong personal reality creators, but they only go so far.

There’s a shared reality that whether it’s recognized or not, is happening. That reality is the shared boat we are sailing in. The hole in your end of the boat IS actually an issue to me. There’s only one boat, even as we are afforded individual bubbles within that boat, but OUR boat is sinking.

We all chose to be a part of this transition, and to give up a quality of an old life to be a part of anchoring in a new life. Whether you are injection injured, (and my heart breaks for you if you are) or out promoting getting the next booster, we are going somewhere.

There’s somewhere we won’t be returning to.

That change calls into question every plan, every intention, every purpose, every sense of meaning. All of it is up for continual revision as we sort through what can and does feel crazy making and disorienting.

Nothing makes sense in the old way. In the interim, we’re all grasping for the new way that isn’t quite here yet.

I don’t know any other way to be with it, other than to feel this surrender to what is, open my heart to being further activated into this care for myself and our beautiful collective that would choose such transition through such confusion as a planetary group soul’s higher choice and service to the divine’s unfolding of itself through us.

WE chose this. WE created it. The polarity is of OUR creation. When you accept that, you get baptized into being a YOU in service of the WE.

You get to care. You get to feel. You get to mourn. You get to weep the tears others aren’t ready yet to weep. You even get to thrive in love as you take part in honoring the death all around.

You get to be in the real moment that is here now.

And in that moment we see that the deeper our polarities, the deeper our shared reality.

Raphael

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Spiritual Mastery As An Avoidance Of Vulnerability

By  Raphael Awen

The path of spiritual mastery or attainments has been basically useless to me for several years, other than to often trip me up in comparison or self judgment games.

The thing was, I used to be able to muster some impressive consistent self discipline and regimen, set goals and stick to them, and that way of being in life doesn’t let go easily, even as it collapses at the same time.

I don’t think I’m alone in this by a long shot. I think what I’m feeling personally is more of a reflection of what the masculine is coming to terms with now as consciousness itself shifts and changes.

Mastery served us well for a time to come to know our power. It moved us from an inferiority complex, but now threatens us with a superiority complex. Both however are non-relational and both are non-vulnerable, and both don’t actually have mastery over anything in the bigger picture of what we really want and need.

At nineteen, I went out jogging every single day for over a year, without missing a day, rain, snow or shine. How I felt didn’t matter, other than holding onto this feeling of I can do whatever I set my mind to. I thought at the time that I’d do this for the rest of my life, because with each passing day, my record of achievement was getting bigger, better as well as harder to lose.

That’s the thing with attainment and spiritual masteries. They are like rolling a stone up a hill that will one day succumb to gravity, and the higher up you roll the stone, the greater its velocity and path of destruction to your self perception and who knows what else when it gives way to nature, as it is sure to do one day.

Men particularly have been so addicted to doing the right thing and the good thing, the thing that once did have meaning, purpose and even connection, with love, life and nature, that they naturally fear letting go of. It matters less how noble the thing, just heaven forbid that you should be without some animating thing.

How could something so good lose its value over time?

If all this mastery and attainment grasping is becoming an old way, is there a new way that wants to come in its place? I have my ideas and answer to this, but do you have a sense of your arising truth around this?

Maybe mastery was just a placeholder holding us as men in a place of being mastered over, until we were ready to enter a whole new dimension of mystery, coming to know our power through the doorway of vulnerability and transparency?

Paul talked about the ‘schoolmaster of the law’ being over us until being introduced to Christ consciousness, which is more about being changed in core nature. Was he already hinting at this two thousand years ago?

It seems the old way of gaining mastery was really about gaining mastery over our vulnerability and never having to be transparent. We were holding a suppressive lordship over ourselves.

You may still be feeling like a millionaire holding some masteries, but I’ll bet life isn’t supporting you any longer to naturally sustain that. All the millionaires and billionaires of today are finding it harder and harder and super costly to effort sustaining those holdings.

These feelings are coming up for me today as I have an opportunity to have a session later today with a dynamic man and big soul who has a heartcry unfolding. I could feel some tension inside and went inwards to feel what it was about.

I connected with all of my inner masculine aspects of me from this life and other timelines that I feel living in me differentiated and unique, and asked their reactions to meeting with a man.

Here’s the pieces that came back to me in dialogue with them. (It feels good to get to the underlying push and pull and where and how it lives in parts of us and their needs. Now, we don’t try and fix the fade on one mastery with another mastery campaign somewhere else.)

“I don’t like men who speak their truth as thee truth without acknowledging their belief system that gave birth to those truths. They don’t feel safe or kind.” Marvin

“I don’t feel comfortable being around men who energize their spiritual mastery or attainments. It doesn’t feel real to me. If they are onto something, I feel stuck in a comparison game or left out. Mastery just hasn’t worked for me in decades. The mastery path as we’ve known it feels non relational and non vulnerable.” Wayne

“I’d like to serve men again. I feel trust that we know we won’t hurt or harm without care and kindness, but I also know that we and you and us are going to need to be awake, ready, in our stance, on our game, with our truth, not letting reactions get internalized. Men are looking for a mirror of truth.” Arthur

“You have a magic in you, Raphael, and that gets to come out and serve and be given when you simply be you, transparenting whatever you are feeling. I like serving men because then we get to dance in the magic and be around other mens magic too.” Charles

“What an opportunity to feel the heartbeat and heartcry of men, instead of dominating or controlling them. They aren’t / we aren’t that complex in some ways. We just want connection, meaning, and purpose” Lionel

Thanks for reading, especially as a man, and maybe as a woman, you can feel this as the masculine polarity inside of you and one that is or is wanting to transmute into these new directions?

I’m curious!

~ R ~

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