The Velveteen Rabbit Within Us All

Digesting a lot in the aftermath of completion. My heart and consciousness still calibrating to a new reality post-marriage. There are ghost-like sensations throughout the day, things that I would normally have responded to are no longer there. It is a bit of a emotive and cognitive dissonance yet that is the very thing that lands me back into me.

Me.

Who is that even? I am beginning to become aware of who I was and which parts of me were in response to all of the relationship dynamics. I do feel a core self that has been there but the degree to which “he” showed up is still in question. That is the current process. Taking stock of where “I” was and who this “I” even is.

It is not so much existential or judgmental as it is curious with compassion. That is what allows the shadow to come out and be seen and felt. Just hanging outside the cave entrance and letting it know that I am here to be a friend and a caring advocate. Not a punisher or a hunter looking for extradition.

When we go through emotional times like this it can be so easy for a part of us to go into “fix it” mode or into the blame/shame game. Instead there is an opportunity here for us to get to some tender and profound understandings of what make us who we ARE and who we want to be going forward. This makes all our experiences sacred and meaningful. We get to come in contact with aspects of ourselves that are deep need of love and forgiveness.

Through this experience I will find something that may not look “good” or feel good, but if my Higher Heart is leading the way I can guarantee I will find something that will be real and that is what any of us can hope to aspire to. Just ask the Velveteen Rabbit.

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INtimacy over INvisibility

By Raianna Shai

I haven’t written a post in a while as a lot has been shifting and growing in my world. A couple of weeks ago Kalayna and I spent a few days on Salt Spring and just this week we all spent time camping in Goldstream.

One theme that has been popping up a lot for myself as well as my entire community is intimacy in relationships. I have always had this tendency and even desire inside of me to be invisible. I was incredibly shy as a child, I never rose my hand in class, I chose to blend in for any social interaction. I had absolutely no desire to be seen or more vulnerably, to be judged by others.

It’s easy to get into a “mode” in every relationship in your life and it doesn’t take long to establish, even with new people. We find what frequency is most comfortable and what allows us to get along with this other person. What gets hard is when something gets triggered or rubs against something inside of us.

I have found that most people either push away their reactions towards others, judging them as unfair or just not worth it, or they push their reactions on others, without feeling what the impact might be or what’s going on inside of them. Both of these strategies allow us to hide, to put away the deeper and more vulnerable parts of us that go against the already agreed upon frequency that you have established in the relationship.

Parts of me fear that my truth will either end the relationship or deepen it. Both risking being seen for more than my persona. Going against the grain of what is comfortable in relationship is exactly what intimacy is all about.

You tell your truth, as messy as it gets, until one day you are transparent in every moment. Until you have no fear locking you into place and all of your words come from love for yourself and love for other. Until you trust that losing a relationship is okay and deepening a relationship is okay too. Until you are so centred inside of yourself that no level of intimacy can scare you away. Even when fear comes up there is progress and honesty about it all. That is when community can flourish and become something new and never done before.

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

July’s Energies Unsentimentally (Though Lovingly) Moving Us To NEW Timelines: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (July 8, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

There are many cosmic movements happening this month and energetically it’s been quite intense so far, serving to amplify what needs addressing within and the movements towards your Higher Timeline that are becoming even more possible.

Featured this week is an energy update from SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator, Kalayna Solais. She shares a bit of her own process in downloading and digesting the energies of this month and where they seem to be leading:

“The ‘black moon’ at the end of this month, in addition to what I’ve heard is a super intense phase of many planets going retrograde, means that we are being asked to take some leaps into new timelines for ourselves. These leaps are not expected to be easy. The need to ground into ourselves, our bodies, our hearts, is big right now. Grounding in by feeling parts of you in reaction to what’s coming up is important and helpful.

The next virtual group transmission with Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be in August!

The focus of this group on Thursday, August 8, 2019 at 10:00am PDT is to connect to the Lion’s Gate passageway. Lion’s Gate is also known as “Ascension Christmas” as it offers highly activating, next level gifts of activations and codes to support you to move into your higher timeline. Lion’s Gate creates a bridge to the codes that you’ve been receiving during the last months of Eclipses, SOULstice, and other cosmic/Gaia/SOULar energy fluctuations.

We also have a NEW event announcement that we are all very excited about!

Come join us in the beautiful New Lemurian grids of Victoria, BC for a four-day SoulFullHeart community gathering this September, 2019… Gathering starts at 10:00am on Friday the 20th of September and goes through 5pm on Monday the 23rd. This four day gathering offers the opportunity to immerse into your soul and heart realities in a deep, powerful, and transmutational way.

There are two new videos this week for you to take in.

The first is the first video in a brand NEW series by Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman.

Raphael and Gabriel turn on the camera to introduce their new weekly series Digesting Disclosure. In the series Gabriel and Raphael will bring a heart-open and expanded consciousness to the topics and issues within the Disclosure arena. 

They will focus less on the content and more on how we can all relate to the information we are being presented with. It is to feel what is occurring within the heart and soul of each of us in the reactions to what is transpiring and what is on its way. Gabriel and Raphael talk more about this in the video.

The second video is from Kalayna Solais, offering some brief teaching and sharing along with a new guided meditation as part of her ongoing ‘Discover’ series.

She writes:

I decided to create a video about healing heartbreak through parts work/the SoulFullHeart process, highlighting how it has been helping me and offering a guided meditation to help you connect to the part of you that is the most heartbroken right now (if you’re going through your own mourning process). I share openly though not in great detail yet (I’ll do more of that in another video and in some future blogs, I think) about what I’ve been processing around my recent completion of a Sacred Union romance.”

There are many new writings to let in this week, including energy updates and personal sharings from Jelelle and Kalayna, a digestion of the Sacred Union completion between Kalayna and Gabriel, and a book review of ‘the Secret’ by Raianna Shai where she shares how we look at the content of it through the SoulFullHeart lens, along with some other topics that they felt to share about this week. There is a new audio blog from Jelelle as well for a recent energy update about the July energies.

Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities.

Sessions with Jelelle are $100 CAD minimum donation while sessions with Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna are $77 CAD minimum donation. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Our online shop is NOW OPEN! You can visit it to pay for individual sessions or to attend any of our gatherings, purchase the recording of past group transmissions or pay to attend an upcoming one, or to purchase books. Keep an eye out and your heart open for other offerings in the near future! https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/shop

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Trees Provide 5D Activations Of Our Sacred Humanity

By Jelelle Awen

I’ve spent so much glorious time connecting with nature and Gaia in the last few months, filling back up again after the long winter months spent indoors. The big, ‘ancient’ (at least to our 3D timeline, up to 1,000 years old) trees have been huge teachers for me. With each one that I’ve touched, as my flesh meets their bark, whether clear or moss covered…I feel a reunion and a remembrance. 3D filters these magical BEings as ‘just trees’ and I’ve watched as so many people stopped to ‘take a selfie’ with them yet never extended their palms to actually take in their energy or wrapped around them to get a wonderful tree hug.

As I was communicating in light language with my palms facing flat on the bark of a particular chatty Douglas Fir in a popular grove here on Vancouver Island, I could feel people looking at me. Some of them were curious about what I was doing, what I saying, and WHY I was being so intense about it (lol)….others were judging me. Some souls were being activated to remember THEIR connection to these tree BEings too…I am a bridge for others, after all, to these self led remembrances, even for those not yet consciously awakening.

With every Western Red Cedar that invited me to take in Her beautiful grandmother energy, I was reminded of MY femininity and the lineage of sisterhood that connects me to EVERY woman in some way. With every grooved and rough Douglas Fir that I stood near, I was reminded how deep MY roots go into Gaia as a sacred human and the web of connection that unifies us all. The moss covered maple trees with vast networks of branches reminded me of the holiness of my BODY and its capacity to hold my every cell, organ, and bodily experience with deep groundedness. Trees remind us of the importance of embodiment WITH our soul awakenings as they are the embodiment of being grounded WHILE also being connected to the highest of Divine heights.

Atta, my First Nation Metasoul aspect, has provided a bridge to experience these trees in a new way…as FRIENDS that she was being reunited with again. She walked slow amongst them, with presence and with honoring…not in the fast paced, head down fashion of modern ‘hiking’. This was not for exercise, yet rather for communion. Every moment with these ancients was held in a deep honor and reverence. She reminded me of a unique soul gift too, the ability to help a tree ‘lay down’ on the forest floor when it was ready to die, in a direction that would cause the least damage to other trees and people.

I feel the opportunities that these trees provide us and they can also be visited in meditation and etheric visits too. Even the younger trees that you might have more access to near you are a bridge to remind you of your embodying divinity and other timelines where trees were more revered and honored than they are now.

Trees are reminders of our past, yet also bridges to our future…to the degree we can allow them to activate both our ancientness and our arising newness.

Love,
Jelelle Awen
These pictures are from our recent outdoor immersions in here on Vancouver Island. You can join us for a four day gathering immersion here in September, including a day trip to beautiful Salt Spring Island to experience this kind of self activating bridge to nature! More info here:https://www.facebook.com/events/595200351002134/

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions and group transmissions events with her and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

You Have What You Need For Your Higher Timeline/Self

By Kalayna Solais

Everything you need to leverage you into your Higher Timeline and Higher Self/You is right in front of you.

It can feel like grabbing hold of a pull-up bar when you don’t realize you have the strength yet to hoist yourself up and onto it.

And then you do. And you realize that everything you’ve been through up until now is what’s giving you the strength to muscle your way up, aligned with heart, breath, body, and soul.

And you realize… that everything and everyone you’ve BEEN, every part of you that has led your life in ways both obvious and underground, has also brought you to this place. This chance to take a leap and fly.

The choice now is yours. If you’re ready now to sacredly sprout and grow your own wings with the support and love of the Divine and Star Family too… releasing any expectations that someone will lend or hand you their own and trusting that yours will be ready when you are.

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energies Are Bringing Us Into Realness In Relationships

By Jelelle Awen

What used to be workable, what used to be a work-around, what used to be ALLOWED in relationships within ourselves and with others……this is all being stalled, stopped, and challenged with these latest energies. During this eclipse gateway especially and leading up to Lion’s Gate in less than a month now on 8/8, what has previously been anchored in shrinking, settling, and conforming is no longer finding the fuel to keep going.

NOW we are being thrust into more moments of being REAL with each other to see and feel what has been true and what has not. The standards and criteria of ‘healthy’ everything are being raised to the next level of 5D. What previously even could have passed as ‘healthy’ and ‘nourishing’ is NOW getting a next level nudge upwards.

Gaia is holding the space for this exploration if we want her container. Divine Mother lights the match to ignite what needs to burn. The ash in the air shows us what no longer is needed. Our inner exploration into our soul patterns around community and relationships especially illuminates WHY we’ve settled or cocooned or grasped out of fear for less than what we really want and deserve.

We are here to heal our separation wound from the Divine by experiencing Unity Consciousness again from within….as one part of us at a time and Metasoul fragment comes into reunion again. And as we live in soul family community together BY choice and with much intention toward being real, authentic, current, and transparent.

This is a tall order for all of us…yet our Higher Selves are so ready to support us to live this way in a NEW way too within and with others too!

Our own SoulFullHeart community is going through an important phase of landing more in the real. We’ve all been so close for so many years now….yet the new energies of New Gaia/Lemuria/Avalon invite us to go to the next level of intradependence, respect for everyone’s sovereignty, healthy boundary setting, and not allowing any ‘sliding’ when it comes to personal process. The SoulFullHeart process itself holds us to this standard, as created and achemized by our own souls and being ‘done’ with unfulfilling experiences in Avalon/Atlantis/Lemuria/Tribes, etc.

We are now offering an immersion experience with us during a four day gathering here in a powerful grid of New Lemurian energy during the fall equinox September 20-23. There will be powerful group circle processing, individual energy/emotional/ spiritual healing process, community living experience, a day outing to beautiful Salt Spring island and MORE. You can read more about joining us here: https://www.facebook.com/events/595200351002134/

Having two sessions prior to the gathering with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator is a prerequisite, which you can read more about here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Love,
Jelelle Awen
Photo is of me doing tree pose inspired by the trees in Gold Stream park, Vancouver Island

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions and group transmissions events with her and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Healing Heartbreak Guided Meditation: ‘Discover’ Vlog Series With Kalayna Solais

By Kalayna Solais

I decided to create a video about healing heartbreak through parts work/the SoulFullHeart process, highlighting how it has been helping me and offering a guided meditation to help you connect to the part of you that is the most heartbroken right now (if you’re going through your own mourning process). I share openly though not in great detail yet (I’ll do more of that in another video and in some future blogs, I think) about what I’ve been processing around my recent completion of a Sacred Union romance.

I focus more on the healing of heartbreak when a relationship completes, yet this meditation can apply if a beloved in your life has passed. It’s all about connecting within and letting in the support and LOVE you’re surrounded by through guides, the Divine, your Higher Self, and even life and love themselves in order to move through the pain in all of its many layers and waves.

There are SO many dynamics moving inside of you at all times and it does sometimes take phases of big life changes in order to stir the pot and help you deeply feel what’s been going on this whole time. I’ve found it so helpful and empowering to take everything I’ve been moving through in my life back inward to process it all with parts of me… even and especially when this feels challenging to do or take space to do.

With much love,

Kalayna Solais

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

July’s Energies Unsentimentally (Though Lovingly) Moving Us To NEW Timelines

By Kalayna Solais

Energy Update: So this morning I finally managed to spill tea ALL over my laptop… sigh! What is normally such a carefully placed (and essential for getting up and teaching online SO early in the morning) item was spontaneously dropped, complete butterfingers, out of my hand and directly onto my beloved computer.

Thankfully I can work through my iPad and it was unscathed somehow in this storm of hot flying tea.

What was interesting about this was what was offered last night when in meditation before bed.

I was offered that these July energies have the potential to feel “unforgiving”. Not unloving, yet they can feel unforgiving or perhaps it’s better to say “unsentimental” in showing us and parts of us exactly what needs to be taken care of or let go of.

In my case, of course there’s the relationship I am continuing to let go of, but now also my laptop which was bought used in Mexico and actually hadn’t been doing that well lately… I had been taking care of it as best I could, yet it still had the energy of an old timeline of poverty, lack, and the energy of hiding that I had been in somewhat when living in Mexico for four years. Just being back in Canada since November has been SO catalytic for me and for the others in my community here. It’s been both phenomenally easy to be here and challenging at times too with many deep processes coming up and ripples through all of us as we deepen our relationship to ourselves and each other.

The ‘black moon’ at the end of this month, in addition to what I’ve heard is a super intense phase of many planets going retrograde, means that we are being asked to take some leaps into new timelines for ourselves. These leaps are not expected to be easy. The need to ground into ourselves, our bodies, our hearts, is big right now. Grounding in by feeling parts of you in reaction to what’s coming up is important and helpful.

More on what I mean by ‘parts’ here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

2019 has been intense and somewhat rough in many ways. Even with Disclosure taking place more in ways long expected and hoped for, we are being shown ripples that can only get bigger and reach farther, including inside of all of us. Embracing your inner disclosure by feeling what has been in shadow is something beyond helpful right now and will help ease you into all of the outer changes coming in.

For more direct support of whatever you’re navigating through, 1:1 sessions are available with myself or other SoulFullHeart Facilitators: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Being In My Personal ‘Intertidal Zone’

By Kalayna Solais

Spending some time with myself and my parts today, taking in the ocean and sunshine from Father Sun, walking amongst the trees, looking for owls (didn’t see one today but now I know where I can find them!), and just BEing… it’s been a ride this past month, what with the completion with Gabriel and becoming another ‘year’ older, which in this case feels like a year of deep rebirth that is only just beginning as so many phases inside of me seem to be ending.

We celebrated my ‘birthday’ last night as a community, making a delicious vegan dinner together and enjoying the time spent even though it’s understandably bittersweet for Gabriel and me at this time. I received gifts I did NOT expect even though part of me has been VERY vocal about wanting a few things lately, especially a new glass water bottle with a rose quartz in it to charge the water, and a big, beautiful tapestry that I can’t wait to find a home for as I settle into the room Gabriel will be vacating when he moves out at the end of the month.

Yeah… bittersweet. Goodness and sadness. Letting in and letting go.

Sometimes it feels as if I’m living like a starfish in an intertidal zone. Learning to breathe and live with the waves, the grief, the openings within and with others, the feeling of ALL possibilities in ALL areas of my life that seem to be offering new doors to open and walk through…

Well, isn’t this what’s true for all of us as Ascension waves move through, ignite us and activate us, then invite us to take space to integrate, to feel, to re-orient back inside after a phase of serving or grounding on the outside? Sometimes parts of you may feel a bit dried out by having to find a way through another layer of 3D conditioning or even 4D growing pains. Sometimes you may feel drenched by tidal waves of LOVE pouring in in ways you weren’t expecting or maybe even ready for. It’s all a part of the birth contractions of the NEW… what we came here to embody and inhabit on a deep level inside of us and with each other.

With much LOVE from my awakening and healing heart-space to yours… ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Secret: Feel The Parts, THEN Manifest

By Raianna Shai

**TLDR; I’m starting a project of reading all of the most popular spiritual books that I hear of to learn about what others are taking in so that I can share my own personal take on them. In “The Secret” I resonate with the idea of manifestation and our capacity to draw whatever it is we want. However, I believe that you have to feel the blocks that are in the way and the parts of you that don’t feel your power. They have very good reasons to feel this way and shouldn’t be bypassed in this process.**

I grew up in a spiritual household for a good portion of my life. The sweet scent of incense, the soothing sound of meditation music, a mother and step father that would talk about their spiritual and emotional explorations. But to be honest, I wasn’t all that into is as something to deeply explore myself as a teenager.

By the time I chose to try SoulFullHeart with my family I still hadn’t had a phase of spiritual exploration that most young people have when newly awakening. Because of this I really just have the SoulFullHeart lens that, while it resonates on every level so far, isn’t something that most people know about. Especially people my own age.

So I decided that in order to truly understand spiritual people my age, I could start by reading the most popular books from the classics to the more modern takes on spirituality. I really want to dive into the heart of someone who has a buffet of spiritual beliefs to dive into and figure out how I feel about it myself. So the next time someone brings up “The Power of Now”, I can have something to digest about it.

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The first book I’ve chosen to dive into is “The Secret”. I first saw this documentary on Netflix and tried to watch but couldn’t quite get into it. It felt a bit dramatic to be honest and it energized this feeling that this is something that has been taken away from us to remove our power and make us feel like we can’t change every fiber of our daily lives. I do agree that there is a veil in place that stands in the way of the ultimate capacity of our beings, but I also feel that we chose this and that a big part of why we’re here is to heal enough to dissolve this veil.

For those of you who haven’t read this book, the secret they are referencing is the Law of Attraction. It says that like attracts like – which means that whatever you think is attracted to you. If you think that you are poor, you will be. If you think that you are rich, you will be.

My first reaction from a part of me was that this seems very oversimplified. I feel that we have chosen certain circumstances and while we have the choice to heal them or not, some things are just meant to happen whether we think high vibe thoughts or not.

However, I do resonate with the idea that once we find our absolute joy and become more of our higher selves we will draw and manifest just about anything we want to. I definitely believe in the power of intention and the energy of the universe. I also really like that it encourages you to have gratitude for what you have NOW as a part of it all. Gratitude is such an important part of manifesting something new. Where my feelings differ though are how to get there.

“The Secret” mentions a lot about replacing negative thoughts with positive ones. While that’s a nice sentiment I think it takes something different and some hard inner work for everyone to get to this positive and joyful place. For me, it is parts work and the process we do in SoulFullHeart. For someone else it might be breathwork or shamanism. I feel that if you can get deep enough inside of yourself to reach the parts of you that don’t believe in your power or joy, then it is a fast track to feeling exactly that.

I think it’s a very empowering and expanding practice to picture and energize exactly what you want in your life. It sends a message out to the universe and it will manifest for you. Not thinking of the how or when but knowing that you can have it. But it’s also empowering to feel the parts of you that just don’t believe, that feel like they’ll never get what they want. Without first feeling your blocks to manifestation with love and trust, you will have a harder time manifesting anything. These parts have valid reasons for feeling the way they do and I really don’t believe they should be bypassed.

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.