Fear Not The Fear Knots: Feeling A New Legacy Of Love with Metatron

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Taking time to just sit. Feel. Go in. Swirls of energy, in different forms.  Comingling.  Constriction. Expansion.  A pulsating and varied landscape of emotive technicolor luminescence.  Darker hues mixed in with lighter ones that give the appearance of the outer surface of Jupiter.  Knots swirl, drawn tight with thoughts of old.  Judgement. Powerlessness. Distrust. They offer a heightened contrast to the layers of translucent crystalline emitters that dawn higher frequencies of pure love and joy.  They offer a press in relation to the denser energies that still hold court in certain areas of my emotive terrain.

“Things ARE shifting…” a deep cavernous, yet melodic voice echoes into my heart ears.  It has been a while since I have connected with Metatron. “The patches you see are distant yet increasingly nearby rumbles of legacies across your soul’s infinite valleys and plateaus.  These legacies are echoes of your brothers in turmoil and tragedy. Remain in this place above the terrain and feel the love that surrounds these cells.  You can see the images from their storied NOW moments.  They are needing your ability to feel something different.  To merge with them is to do no service but to continue the legacy into your world, your goodness.  There is no wrong here, my son.  Just awareness. Bear your heart’s witness to the light between and around.  These are the majestic overtones of your greatness and vastness.  They are more powerful in nature than the fear knots.  Fear them not.  For they hold the stardust matter of universes undiscovered.

In your widened expanse you can see the work you have done.  The suffering you have processed and let go of.  The days a part of you didn’t feel like you would feel Joy above the waterline.  This IS your time, my son.  Your choice to feel beyond what you have imagined you could feel for yourself and others.  You bring a New Legacy of Love into the vast reaches of your soul’s tapestry should you chose to claim it. Feel it. Be it. Serve it. It will alter the course of your fractaled past and manifest the glory of your imagined future.

Be the Beacon of Light and Love across the span of your YOUniverse.  Let it shine in the hard to feel places and let that knot unwind. Unfurl. Uncover the essence of what you came here to BE in all it uncertainties to your conditioned mind.  I will be here with you, by you, in you, as you, when you need me to be.  You were never meant to do this alone for you cannot ever be alone in the infinite conglomeration of Love’s fantastical expression.  Take in that emotive portal of yours and revere it for all it has invited you into.  It is a true gift bestowed upon you and humanity alike.”

And with that His voice subsided, glided off into the recesses of my heartmind.  Left with a new awareness and awe for what we ARE and can BE.  Choosing a new legacy to enter our consciousness and beingness.  It may take some time to integrate but that is all part of the journey.  I can go back to this place whenever I choose and feel His voice and presence with me.  Bear witness to my emotional body and all its possibilities for where it can take me next into my Mystical Me.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Coming Together: Living in Conscious Community, Soul Family Reunions, And Forming of Soul Purpose Networks

By Jelelle Awen

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Urges toward unification and to be in community with other souls may be coming up for you lately as it seems to be increasing in so many of us it seems. Reunions with soul family members in which you feel like you’ve known each other for a very long time or through many lifetimes is happening much more frequently and rapidly, leading to fast unions and life changing geography shifts. Networks are forming based on frequencies of serving love that most match and fit each soul, as synchronistic events and connections bring those together who are meant to find each other.

These gloriously high energies of PURE love and light available to us now offer us a reminder of our galactic origins of collective, shared mind, and communal living experiences. We have spent much more of our soul’s existence within a unified consciousness then in the separated one that we experience in 3D reality, which we chose on the soul level to experience. We chose to experience the forgetting of telepathic and non-dualistic forms of communication, even as it is most natural for our souls. We chose to put a veil of amnesia over our remembering of Star BEing family, where fluid access of information and experience is available to ALL as a collective one mind download.

After living and existing separately and in insolation in so many ways, we are being invited to feel what ‘conscious community’ might look like and BE. To allow our desires for this to come up and out. To feel the fears that may come in parts of us to imagine this possibility. Our 3D conditioning is to remain self sufficient, taking care of our own needs, and our immediate families needs to the exclusion of anyone else. 3D living has supported the illusion of separation, especially with the 3D economic system of separate incomes, with many souls needing to work very hard in order to provide their own livelihood.

More and more bright light souls are gathering together and coming together is the picture that I was shown today during meditation with Metatron. He pointed out the bright beacons of energy (that looked like glowing dots on a map) that are vibrating from the grids over Gaia. These bright lights represent soul groups finding each other and living in as much PURE love as possible as they are also growing, learning, and awakening still as humans, especially related to emotional body maturity in relationships. He showed me the vortexes of energy created by these soul groups networking with each other, whether they are in local geography together (very BRIGHT energy then) or connecting virtually for now. These groups radiate a grid of unity out to the local surroundings around them and also out into the collective consciousness Web of Life, as he called it. We forget in our 3D amnesia that we are connected to the Web of Life WITH each other in all ways at all times, until we raise our consciousness enough to BE this more and more.

Metatron offered that even if it is only two souls coming together in sacred union or sacred friendship, their connection when based on higher frequencies of healthier love transaction, has an exponential impact on the Web of Life and the collective unconscious. And, of course, the MORE souls that unify in soul purpose, the MORE love energy is able to be radiated out as they support and enliven each other. He then offered the flower of life figure from sacred geometry as an example of this. A central source of LOVE radiating out at different degrees and angles, with all of it ultimately interconnected. This is also what he has offered to me previously about Divine Source radiating out from the center of the ‘flower’, with the Archangels as the next degree of closeness out from it, then the angels, then spirit guides/Ethereal Beings, then us, etc. I could more FEEL what this meant than I am able to explain it to you in the moment through words……if you meditate on the flower of life symbol, you will probably be able to feel what was being offered as it LIVES in our DNA to be connected in this way to each other and is the blueprint of our original birthing as a fragment out of Divine Source.

The desire to live in like-mindedness, like-heartedness, like-soulness IS growing as more souls move out of a necessary lone wolf phase and into higher frequency desires for intimacy. As you awaken and go through the process of sorting through your relationships and healing birth family woundings in your emotional body, you become more drawn to higher consciousness relationships based on soul resonance and heart vulnerability. Intimacy with yourself then leads to a desire for intimacy with others that is just as nourishing, not less. You are just not as drawn to the traumas and dramas, codependent cycles, games and manipulations, etc. that are a 3D-based reality in relationships of all kinds. You would rather be alone than in ANY of that and, so, maybe you were OR still are. This may have been a very sacred lone wolf phase for you as you let go of what WASN’T you in your social body (which I feel represents our ultimate connection to unity consciousness) and could then feel the emotional body connections and wounded hookups that were playing out. The ultimate healing and growth opportunities in community are exponential, however, when compared to being alone as so many new triggers and reactions get pushed up in a new way.

In the now, we are being invited to feel into NEW EARTH commUNITIES and what these may look and feel like. Beyond the wounded frequencies of settle and shrink in so many of our birth family experiences, we can imagine and experience now too more health, more resonance, more mutual growth, AND more service of love when we come together and join our lives with each other in deepening ways. Serving love is the ultimate purpose of all this coming together in community and if it isn’t, then it is coming from a lower vibrational frequency of understandable codependence. At our most leading edge, our species is evolving from codependence to interdependence, where each “I” is respected in their sovereignty and individual will, even as they lean into intimacy with others. Our capacity to mature and heal our emotional bodies, where the deepest roots of codependency exist, seems to be KEY to experiencing this sense of being together yet not clinging to each other; bonded yet not bound; claimed yet not caught.

I have lived in this kind of community for many years and it has been a crucial and vital aspect of my awakening journey, even when it was just Raphael and I in sacred union mateship. In SoulFullHeart, we live in commUNITY together and interact many times on a daily basis with each other. We live in the same apartment building in the moment, yet in separate units as we’ve found this allows for individual autonomy WITH community experience. We have shared a ‘pool’ of community money with the four of us (soon to be six!) for a few years now, and individual income goes into this pool. This helps hugely with anxieties and tensions about money as we hold the decisions and choice points around money together in community decision making. We are connected and united by the values, way of life, and process ground of SoulFullHeart and serving this to others and this allows us to have a very common ground and resonance with each other, a matched vibrational frequency that comes from this process. There are no unresolved conflicts, problems, fights, gossiping…all is brought out and vulnerably as needed. It is still an experiment for us, of course, and as our community grows as other souls are drawn to join us (at whatever degree and depth they do), NEW issues will come up needing to be responded to and resolved. This feels like SUCH an interesting crucible to me, though, and I am very excited to live into more of the community co-leader aspect of my soul expression here.

Coming together in community to heal the family wounds, to remember our unity origins, to network in support, and to SERVE LOVE is a sacred phase of our journey here into embodying our sacred humanity and one that we are being greatly supported to go into, live out……FEELing and HEALing as we go!

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We will be talking more about the SoulFullHeart way of life, community, process, etc. during a group call with ALL of us this Saturday at 11:11am CST. This is a wonderful opportunity to get a taste of us as a community if you feel drawn to what we are offering: https://www.facebook.com/events/1888602498020451

Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

You Are Your Own Purpose

By Raphael Awen

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You are your own purpose. You were not created to go seeking a purpose. You were created to discover the inherent purpose already inside of your being.

The vehicles of your emotional body; your physical body; your spiritual body; your mental body; and your social body are ALL part and parcel of this inherent purpose.

As such, stuff like how you feel about yourself, what gender you are, what shape your physical body is in right now, what’s going on socially in your life are all things that are perfectly aligned to aid you in uncovering the purpose that you are, right NOW.

You don’t need to ‘overcome’ ANYTHING in order to become more of something, but instead realize that simply the desire to become something more and feeling where that desire comes from IS what leads you to more and more of this ongoing uncovering of the true inherent purpose of your being.

This desire for MORE is simply the voice of your essence. You already ARE this more. Manifesting this more in your experience happens as you simply FEEL this true essence of your being wanting to come out more and more to play in your life.

Feeling is the magic portal into the more that you are.

Who’d have ever guessed it could be this easy? What ever prompted us to make it so difficult?

I suspect it was simply our fear of becoming all that we are that made us create the barriers to our essence that we did.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to make a donation to support our work athttps://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

You Are Your Own Paradise

By Raphael Awen

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The paradise you seek always was nothing other than your own heart. All the heavens you ever imagined were the feeling of feeling how it would feel to be in love with your own heart, and every aspect of yourself.

That you may feel things about yourself that you want to change does not negate this truth about yourself. You are your own paradise. All that is waiting is for you to claim yourself, your heart, as your only real and deep home. One that you cannot lose and one that cannot ever be taken from you.

Now, with your own heart claimed, you can feel what feels like it isn’t in tune with this love-heart-home reality and feel that. Feel where and why and how it came to be impervious to love. Feel it with wonder and awe and reverence, for it too is a part of your paradise, given to you to unlock new dimensions of your infinite paradise.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to make a donation to support our work athttps://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

You Are Your Own Savior

By Raphael Awen

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You are your own saviour. Any perception that you have of needing to be saved from anything, anyone, or any power is only in your life as a placeholder awaiting this dawning realization that you are your own saviour.

Up until the time that you come to this awareness, you see something external to you as your saviour, be it a career, a person, God, or money, or any other of a host of externalized personal saviours. You needed this externalized projection of your own power projected out onto an other while you were coming to terms with the incredible power of your own heart.

This is very understandable. To be in possession of this much power, to create anything that we can dream of, is so far reaching, that parts of us and their conditioning must reject the idea of it as absurd or delusional. What is very interesting though is that this part of us is using this very same creative reality to create its present lesser reality. Even the perception of needing a saviour, of needing to be saved from something by an external source is ALL something powerfully and impressively created by the individual. We can begin recreating our lives whenever we feel so drawn, even as we take full responsibility for our present creations.

What would you like to change about your life? Are you willing to begin by making the simple admission that you are your own saviour?

This truth begins with accepting that you have everything you need inside of yourself. You don’t actually need anyone or anything to be happy, fulfilled or in your deepest bounty.

Your deepest bounty overflowing from you may well include a mentor, a mate, friends, community, but all of these can be nothing more than healthy projections of the fullness you already are….fullness out dancing in life and love.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to make a donation to support our work athttps://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The FULL SHINING Of Your Inner Solstice

By Jelelle Awen

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Your inner Solstice, your inner sun ascending, yet standing still in a brief moment. You are beaming out in many more moments of LOVE flow from your shining soul, your luminous heart, your illuminating mind, and your glowing body.

Your inner Solstice offers you a picture and taste of your FULL SHINING where you are drawing more souls, more possibilities, more livelihood, more abundance on all levels, more intimacy, more LOVE. ALL of this then is coming without effort, drawn to the warmth that comes from inner tenderness, inner holding, inner care. ALL of this coming from the outside to reflect your sense of enlovened self INSIDE that connects with ALL aspects that are within you. ALL of this coming without struggle as you feel and heal the inner struggles, inner judgements, inner resistance, and inner push-pull.

Your inner Solstice invites you to feel and see what your FULL SHINING self and life is like as it is not a ‘future’ timeline, yet happening in the NOW. You can BE there and here too. More and more, both are true in the same moment. One is not lacking or higher from the other, as BOTH are equally sacred. All that you are choosing in this moment or not choosing is creating and impacting the other timeline.

Connecting with the Great Cosmic Sun that beams from the heart of Divine Source, you can feel more of this multidimensional possibility, multiple timeline experiences in one Now. Opening and activating and BEing with your upper most chakras draws in and pulls in these higher frequencies that re-spark and re-ignite your galactic consciousness. You can more remember that time is not linear; timelines are not singular; selves are not just one expression at a time either.

Take this moment of marker of inner Solstice, to feel your FULL SHINING even as you feel gratitude for the Now moment and all it is offering of lessons, challenges, crucibles, opportunities, possibilities. The FULL SHINING of your soul here, of your heart here, of your sacred humanity here IS the invitation in every moment to BE the Infinite Love that you ARE.  

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Join us for a group call this Saturday at 11:11am CST as we feel into the FULL SHINING ascension process and much more:https://www.facebook.com/events/1888602498020451

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Desire To Mate And Create As Sacred Humans

by Kalayna Colibri

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We are wired for creation it seems, as human BEings, and especially as Sacred Humans arising more and more through ascension… CREATE-ures, who have been created and yet also co-created, constantly, consistently, without end. We are moving more and more into a state of CONSCIOUS co-creation with each other, the Divine, even ourselves, especially for those of us who engage in processes where we can really feel and get to know ourselves like in the ‘parts work’ we offer and embody through SoulFullHeart.

Our desire to create comes from our god-ness, for the Divine is always creating, recreating, co-creating too and we are intrinsically connected to all of that and the ALL. Multiple timelines appear on our radars, wanting us to feel more, become more, feel where we are in the moment, yet also see what we are energizing as the truest truth of who we are and the life we’re living. To acknowledge our creativity in every moment is to claim and inhabit our power again, to acknowledge ourselves as high-beaming BEings again. We are the writers of our own stories, we are bringing in energy to support or neglect our deepest desires. We are given gateways to walk through that want to bring us more outward into the harvest of our inward glances and journeys. We are brought into new territories via the vehicle of ‘I want’ and the sidecar of ‘I need’, ever-connected to quantum will, quantum desires, quantum needs that over-arch everything, everyone, every other CREATE-ure imaginable.

There’s a dance here, with self and the Divine and with each other too. We are partnered in creation, as we are all ONE anyways, yet find our individual expressions of this too. We are inclined to find dance partners through different waves and ways of relationships. We are romantic in our hearts, always imagining something (though parts of us may dismiss this for different phases), always wanting (though again, parts may be burying this for different phases), always needing something, though this can ultimately be boiled down to a much deeper need for LOVE… how could this love dance, this wanting dance, not turn into a mating dance too? First with self, then with other? How could our beautifully filling-up hearts and ever-glowing, growing souls not want to collaborate and co-create with another in sacred union, creating from an ‘usness’ of beauty and ever-purifying love and self-discovery? This collaborative sort of relationship is what could be difficult to accept into our lives, especially for those who feel they have only become to get themselves sorted out, let alone let in a sacred union romance that will scramble their worlds up again. Yet, THIS is what creativity feels like to me… a creating and then a dismantling, only to create something new and perhaps better or more fulfilling than before!

There is a sacredness to every single desire and ache in our hearts for more or less or even something completely different than we’ve experienced so far. We are creating this sacredness from our own sacredness that can never die or be abandoned though it can certainly be buried. We are being tuned back into these frequencies that remind us of our aliveness, our need to align truly with our hearts and want we want to create,  while illuminating what we’ve been creating instead. We are given this illumination as a powerful opportunity and it is entirely our own creative choice as to whether or not we step into it. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Body Calibrations And Detoxifications Happening On ALL Levels

By Jelelle Awen

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Our bodies, these vessels that hold our human experience, are going through a calibration process. Ongoingly…. it seems as they make the transition from carbon based to light body. Our bodies are calibrating to match the increasingly high frequencies of love and light waves coming into Gaia’s atmosphere and our atmospheres too! There seems to be a NEW level of intensity around this too, depending on where you are in your awakening and ascension process.

You could also call this a ‘purging’ and ‘detoxification’ process as well, happening on the physical level and the emotional and spiritual as well. Every cell of our bodies has been the receiver and receptor of MUCH toxicity in the foods that we eat, the water we drink, the air we breathe. The 3D world running on toxicities that remain untouched and unhealed in our collective unconscious and so manifest in what is offered as collective and global food options. The unhealed woundings in our emotional bodies and the parts that seek comfort then gravitate toward the toxic foods to actually keep our vibrational frequency low in order to ‘fit in’. It seems to be a survival mechanism that our 3D self develops to BE here.

As our consciousness awakens and expands, moving from 3D to 4D (awakening phase) and beyond, the cells in our bodies also have to adjust as well. Shifts in the vibrational spin and colorations of our chakral bodies happens too, with more blurring and merging, and more crystal feeling and look to them. These shifts and adjustments (at all levels) leads to detoxification, it is a letting go and shedding and releasing of the lower frequencies that we have taken in and indigested (again, on all levels.)

Detoxification can be intense, for sure, with many physical symptoms of body pain, sleepiness, nausea, hot/cold flashes. As you are guided to let go of certain foods and shift your diet, more detoxification may temporarily come up too as the old leaves to make room for more love and light to come in. You also may feel emotional reactions to not eating certain foods anymore as parts of you associated them with comfort (especially connected to childhood if ‘love was food’ in your birth family.) You can BE with and feel the parts of you and their reactions, holding space for the transition as you also hold with love the movements. This isn’t about intense vigilance or discipline, but rather feeling it out in every moment as to what supports your body during this process and what doesn’t.

One of main things you may be feeling guided and drawn to give up is eating meat, and dairy as well. You may be becoming much more sensitive to the energy of the animals that you are eating, what they suffered when they died, and the energy for which they were killed. I do feel that not eating animals, shifting to vegetarian and eventually vegan, IS an important aspect of ascension and awakening that speaks to the connection that we feel to ALL in which digesting anything that has been killed (the lowest vibrational frequency that can be experienced it seems) just doesn’t resonate for us anymore. I have heard for some people that eating meat ‘grounds’ them, yet I feel that connecting energetically to Gaia (walking barefoot outside especially) does this as well and no sentient beings were killed in order for the grounded to happen. Star BEing family and Angelic guides have told me and helped me remember that no higher vibrational BEings would or do eat animals as they are considered equals in consciousness, communicated with telepathically, and offer many gifts in exchange with us as we deepen our consciousness about them.

I have been vegetarian/vegan for many years and it has just fit my heart and soul awakenings and the opening of my cosmic higher christ heart. I have also been eating only fruit and smoothies the last few days and am moving into a fasting phase too with more openness and experience of living on love and light frequencies (often called living on prana.) For many months, I have offered the sense that digestion of food takes up much energy and to ‘lighten the self and the load’ is helpful. I am not feeling any kind of regimen around this, just trust and connection with my body (and my guides) to see what feels right to me in every moment. I have not felt hungry so far (although have experienced some other symptoms of detox) and we will see how it unfolds as I go. I am also open to eating whenever I want as, again, this is being held with a loving energy, not an Inner Punisher that is going into a forceful regimen of some kind.

Wherever you are in your body calibration process, if you can hold with trust and love that a HIGHER reason and purpose is manifesting for you, it can help with the body symptoms and transition. Staying connected with your body, your chakras, your emotional body, and your spiritual body allows the process to offer you some sense of what is happening. You can connect through journaling directly with your body, connect with (and even talk to!) your chakras during meditation, beginning to get to know the parts of you that connect to your emotional body, and check in with/stay close with your Guides. ALL of these shifts are being held with love and BY love as we move into places beyond biology and into the embodiment of our sacred humanity!

Here is more about sessions with a SoulFullHeart Facilitator to provide support, connection, and a process: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

This is a soothing meditation that I did to connect with Mother Mary to ease the body symptoms and connect with Divine Guidance, high frequency love vibrations: https://youtu.be/nkTbTJBBlHE

Here are other articles that I have written about body changes during ascension: https://soulfullheartblog.com/category/body-consciousness-2/

We’ll be talking about the changes and shifts on the emotional, body, soul levels and our SoulFullHeart process and community during a group call this Saturday at 11:11am CST: https://www.facebook.com/events/1888602498020451

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Love’s Invitation To Teach What We Embody, Not What We ‘Know’

by Kalayna Colibri

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So many ideas float around inside of me sometimes, so many directions to take my writing in, many life observations, spiritual and heart-based learnings, sometimes even metaphysical concepts that can be and feel quite complex and slightly (if not VERY) out of reach of my consciousness level. A desire to discuss this or that in a post, see where it lands, and yet then, I feel the mental exercise this can be and the juice for the writing soon peters out for me. In these moments, I feel an invitation to keep feeling… to trust that some things I’m learning now I will unlearn too and that there really is no ‘absolute answer’ for my mind to wrap around, try as it might. Sometimes the only answer is to ‘keep going’… to keep embodying, keep living, keep loving, keep diving in head and heart first and see where the mess leads.

Sometimes when I write something, I feel such a desire for it to ‘go out THERE’, land in hearts, move others, maybe even bring back to me more reflections of the love that I am and that I feel more and more openly. Then sometimes, when I write something, I realize that the main reason for the writing is actually to show something to myself, from myself… to ‘me’, from everything that makes up the mosaic of ‘me’, as I am now, as I may be in a moment yet to come, as I may feel inside of parts of me who need something more from me. To share from anything but a full vessel is to share perhaps only more of the emptiness in some ways, yet it’s all good and does harm to none, as long as it comes from a consciously healing heart that can hold reflections of its own shadow and light, both.

Maybe it’s time to no longer ‘teach what you know’, but ‘teach what you embody’… this is a phase I have been moving more and more into over the years of my process, and as I continue to feel my heart and what it actually wants, I feel less attached to ‘knowing’ at all. There are moments of frustration in this for parts of me as they grapple with this burgeoning reality of being more relaxed in the head and more lit up in the heart and soul. There is a healthy bridge here, and that’s what it feels like I am being now as I share this moment with you and with me too. I feel the challenge of a woman in spirituality who faces the more masculinized approach to metaphysics, trying to ‘figure it all out’ in a way that maybe I’m just not meant to. I’ve never taken to spiritual study in a way that others have, preferring actually to experience instead. This is landing deeper inside of me now, despite protests from parts that worry about self-image and credibility… yet this world of spirituality feels inundated with this data and that data and watch out for this and never do that, think that, be that… this whole realm has become fraught with self-punishment fueled existences that are actually begging for the permission to NOT be this anymore, to NOT feel the pressure to prove or contend. I so feel this in myself and I invite you to feel this too, as well as any reactions you may feel to doing so… I so get and feel these reactions too and I trust deeply that there is another side to them.

And then, in moments like these, I feel an outbreath… as I let in that this is what needed the floor today, trusting that it will land where it needs to and that at the end of the day, all teachings of all kinds go where they’re needed and necessary, reaching the consciousnesses that are on deck to receive them, and that as all of our hearts continue opening, there is only going to be MORE love to teach, live, learn and give from. ❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Doorway To Our Bigness

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By Raphael Awen

The path to our greatest greatness is through our smallest smallness. Our smallness isn’t the limitation on us inhabiting our bigness, but rather the doorway into our bigness.

In the same way, it is not our traumas and our wounding that limits us, but rather our traumas and our wounding are something that we as a soul being in our infinite bigness chose to take on as a path to our ever expanding largesse of being.

In seeing this, we see our wounds as time capsuled seeds of our essence that when planted and watered in the NOW arising open-hearted soil of self love and curiosity, these wounds and traumas spring up into a deeper essence than we could ever have before imagined.

All that is required is simply a willingness to feel what has been avoided and suppressed and follow our inner and outer guidance from there. All that we need will be provided.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to make a donation to support our work at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.