The Lenses Through Which We See The World

By Raphael Awen

The lenses through which we see the world become our filters on life and love and create our familiar personal and collective world.

The creative power is only rivalled by the degree of our denial of this passive creative power. There is no one responsible and response-able but you.

When you can own that without self judgment and without blame shifting to others or to the divine, you are truly entering the sovereign territory of your infinitely powerful being. It doesn’t matter how far you’ve sunk in denying this creative power, if you are willing to awaken to what was previously denied.

The depths of the hell you created mirrors the heights of heaven and the new creation awaiting you, if you’ll just embrace YOU! Each and every one of us are fractals of the divine, reflecting both this creative power and this free will. Where these 2 come together is where your going on place lies in terms of your souls awakening, embodiment and growth. Growth requires real time friction and grist – some ‘skin in the game’ as they say.

When you choose this for yourself – you move from being a SCARED, SCARRED and helpless victim and instead become a most interesting and enlivened SACRED human – where curiosity and wonder is the only fitting looking glass through which you seek life and love.

This photo below came to me while walking in a Mexican village 4 years ago. This boy, 4 years older now, the images he has taken in, seen through the windows he has looked through form the life he is living now. So it is with each of us. I believe we chose to be limited by our innocent ignorance of these deeper truths, and stunted in this way by a veil of our choosing, so that we could awaken, press back on our limitations, being re-membered to our true being and to the vastness of our creative power.

That makes you amazing, interesting and alive, and fun to be around, wouldn’t you agree?

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

A Man’s Inward Holy Grail Quest To Find Real Worth, Value And Meaning

By Raphael Awen

King Arthur’s knights were ever drawn to escape the mundane, the everydayness of their lives. 

These sensitive and hungry souls had grown to despair of the emptiness of their culture, and their lives within that culture. 

They sought an escape into deeper meaning and purpose and an outer form of nobility and purpose to answer an inner unfelt loss of connection with their own nobility. God forbid that they should live out their days without a conscious quest to fill their sails. 

Is a monk of any stripe really any different? Or a renunciant – one who gives up something lesser for the attainment of something higher? What about the man seeking to make himself ‘independently wealthy’ – having no need of anyone or anything, or the hedonist pursuing every pleasure that men may come to know? The hedonist and the renunciant share a common hunger for something truly comforting.

So common to men of any background is the seeking of purpose and power within that purpose. Men are fleeing meaninglessness. Men will readily settle into a career or a family role because it stems this aching pain and discomfort coming from not knowing and feeling who they really are at a deeper level. 

Men who are not in touch with these deeper needs, the ones that really drive them, are then easily manipulated by agendas too numerous to mention – be they of the highest spiritual orders or the lowest callings known to men. Wouldn’t most of us trade in control or our sovereignty in exchange for comfort?

Men want more than anything to feel good about themselves, and if that means dedicating one’s life to helping others in order to feel good about themselves, then so be it, as long as it promises that they will get to feel good about themselves in the end.

The problem however comes in the constant delay of that promise – the futureness of it. ‘I’m so noble, I can delay my gratification of this need till later, in service of others.’ Men slip into settling for any kind of lessening of their pain of their disconnect from actually knowing and feeling their worth and their meaning, having long ago settled that they are not meant to ever know or actually live from a place of their worth, their value and true comfort. 

True embodied worth, that flows from within, that doesn’t rely on any outer circumstance or creed, that you can feel, that can colour your moments with the deepest creativity and engagement has long been written off as a dream, a myth. We are only left with a kind of nobility that makes the best of a really hopeless situation.

These kinds of dedicated happy campers, god bless them, are everywhere. Each of them with their alms begging bag extended before them. ‘Bestow upon me some spare change of worth and acknowledgment for the choices I have made and the example I am willing to be, during such a time of unprecedented loss’.

This all hits so close to home for me. At fourteen, I recall feeling so bored of being bored, longing to find freedom in anything that promised relief. The Christianity of my family heritage felt so compromised and lacking in passion, that I broke away into something much more engaging with a much higher bar of commitment and dedication. As a man to be, I needed to set my sail with a worthy quest to navigate the sea of meaninglessness that was all too real on every side, at every turn. 

It has taken a number of decades this life, and in numerous lifetimes beyond this one, to get to the place where I can feel that the true holy grail quest; from which flows every grail quest; from which flows every draft of any purpose ever imagined or set sail into; is actually about realizing the value and worth that lives inside, that has always lived inside, that awaits our choice and discovery. I can say I am truly coming to know and feel this worth and have my own experiential emerging felt reality of this kind of aliveness. I also feel the invitation for this to be the magic of an ongoing process, rather than some quest-ending instant gratification of these god given and god being kind of needs.

Only a man in growing touch with this inner worth has hopes of being enough for a woman, for a career, for a calling, for a quest, for belonging to a true circle of men who live in shared resonance with one another.

Having landed here in Glastonbury, England, a ‘fortnight’ ago, I am especially feeling King Arthur as a Metasoul brother wanting to digest and feel together with me the dissonance that still lives in men, especially in the men of the highest attainments, whether of spiritual or material pursuits. He says, ‘We got hoodwinked into thinking that if we chose nobility, duty and obligation, we would be guaranteed to find the deepest fulfillment, only to come full circle, after a long time spent in the desert in that lease of consciousness, and patterned brotherhood, having attained many things that felt so meaningful at the time, only to find out that we were ever still searching for the true holy grail, which was hiding all that time in plain sight, and yet for most, still remains hidden.’

The problem now comes in when feeling how to embrace such an inner quest without needing to enroll men into it for the purpose of feeling better about ourselves. Men must choose this for themselves, in their own time of sacred awakening, when the clock has run out of the necessary time spent in these previous domains – all of which are equally sacred and necessary to the inhabitation of the quest now arising. It can’t and won’t arise until it does.

I’m returning today and plan to return many times to the burial site and tomb of King Arthur here in Glastonbury inside of the Abbey ruins to feel this great cycle of death and rebirth that all men and mankind must grow into and go through. The once great Abbey that was the wealthiest in all of England, that held so much power and purpose in its many iterations over many centuries, by and for men of so many stripes, is seen to be coming from a worldview of domination, both of oneself and of others. Men of meaning and influence had to be in exchange with this centre of power to be granted lease and influence among men. Now, it sits in ruin as a 3D tourist attraction for tourists to scratch their heads in bewilderment at how and what such a thing was really about. 

I feel Arthur saying that he knows all too well now, what such a thing was all about – It was about the willingness of men and women to pool unimaginable resources into a patched together harmonious flow that promised this deliverance from meaninglessness. It was ultimately and humbly to serve as a bad example, of what couldn’t ultimately work, for the real needs of sacred human men and women, even as it shone a bright light and moved us in powerful new directions that were necessary and needed to bring us to this current flow of consciousness that is now arising – finding true worth and meaning that can only be found within, as Yeshua said, ‘where moth and rust does not corrupt, and where thieves cannot break in and steal.’ Domination itself as a way of life is in its sacred death and rebirth phase and we who are feeling it are the Ambassadors and the Death and Rebirth Doulas that are holding space for this sacred shift, along with its attendant new way of being. 

This is the true kingdoms and queendoms of heaven on earth that we are invited now to explore, to choose as deeply as we can in any and all moments, that thread meaning and deep purpose into the very fabric of your life as you currently know it. This is the true grail quest that we are invited to embrace, that gives purpose, direction, guidance, meaning and empowerment to all of life.

Much love, and wishing you deep strides on your sacred grail quest.

Raphael Awen

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I work one on one with men in session space and the SoulFullHeart process to assist in this kind of personal awakening. If this calls to you, I’d like to hear from you. I’ll send you a few questions and a guided meditation for you to undertake to find us a starting place together and we can go from there in a way that is tailored to your needs and life. More info is here: soufullheart.org/sessions.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

You’re As Sacred As You’ll Ever Be

by Raphael Awen

Consciousness is a great and vast ocean, in which by birthright, you are not only given license to swim in these vast waters, you are also the water; you are also the license grantor; you are the ocean and consciousness itself.

Your reverence and curiosity for all you are and for all you’ve been given is the portal into navigating the changes and the desires for whatever form of more that you seek.

The divine is divining through you, regardless of whether your present state feels like lack or abundance.

The present configuration of what your life looks and feels like is not any more or less sacred than what it might look and feel like when vastly changed from its present state into a new state that you feel a desire for. The present state, the desire and the future state all have role and process for you to feel inside of, to learn from, to grow within.

You’ll never become any more sacred than you already are.

Knowing that should help alleviate the stress of attaining higher states of consciousness, as your consciousness transmutes into more and more remembrance of what you always were, always and in all ways ARE and never actually lost.

These are the messages and reminders coming to me as I acclimate to being re-membered with the energies here in Avalon – what is called Glastonbury in this present timeline.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of SoulFullHeart. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Masculine & Feminine Interdependence

by Raphael Awen

An impulse to do something, to express something is a masculine kind of outbound energy. This energy needs and requires a feminine inbound energy of being and letting-in to sustain and validate its need to do and express.

The masculine doing and expressing by itself runs out of gas, and must vulnerably return to the feminine to get its needs met.

Likewise, the feminine inbound energy of letting in love and ability to BE in being wants to express and do as a natural extension of itself. The feminine however can’t disconnectedly express and do just for the sake of feeling powerful, or worthy, or right. It wants and needs a higher frequency.

In this way, the masculine and the feminine are interdependent, and in that, we see the basis for Sacred Union, within each of us, for we all possess both masculine and feminine aspects/polarities of being – each of which longs for union, for a higher way.

The incompleteness of one is the portal to the other.

Vulnerability (the ability to admit need) is the grace that permits the masculine and feminine to find Sacred Union dance.

This is true inside and outside.

Maybe the most powerful common denominator between the masculine and feminine is this shared mutual need – this wound state one remains in without the other.

This energy feels so palpable to me since arriving here in Glastonbury in the UK, a place of deep feminine energies and converging soul aspect timelines. One can feel the still unresolved lingering between the feminine and the masculine wanting to find its reunion in actual transactional grounds of real people expressions and relationships.

We are this coming together. We are the cast and crew of this production being put on by consciousness itself.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of SoulFullHeart. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The Vulnerability Of The Masculine Relating To The Feminine

by Raphael Awen

The masculine in its ability and desire to provide is a great thing in and of itself, which we all have inside of ourselves regardless of gender.

Where the masculine gets into conflict is when it needs to find, maintain and suppress a dependent feminine in order to keep his gig working. Eventually this comes to a demise and both the masculine and the feminine are afforded an opportunity to restructure – vulnerably admit their fears, needs and desires to find a new way, or at least a completion of the old to eventually allow a new way to arise.
The masculine has a particular challenge in that it was born of a feminine womb and yoni from which it wants and needs to separate, to define itself, to be different enough to create attraction in order to be afforded a partaking of that exquisite feminine while it is trying at the same time to differentiate itself from and pretend to not need.

The more the masculine leads in the world with his power, attainments and capabilities, the more he is trying and still needing/seeking feminine love, as it is only the feminine than can give all that power and attainment meaning, yet he is not quite ready, or sufficiently aware to transparently and open heartedly admit the true nature of that need.

This dynamic takes a quantum leap forward when the masculine is ready to feel, ready to vulnerably admit need and desire to himself, his innerverse, his inner feminine, and then energetically and emotionally to the feminine in his outerverse, his universe – yoniverse.

When you get that sorted a bit, all lovemaking and love getting strategies take care of themselves, effortlessly as you have it aced inside, which is a very cool feeling for the masculine – doing something really stunningly well!

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of SoulFullHeart. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Saying Goodbye To Victoria, BC

by Raphael Awen

Time to feel and say goodbye to a sooo beautiful geography here near Sooke, BC, where you can feel the underlay of New Lemuria and the overlay of the present timeline!

The forest has been so dear to me all my life, and so missed during the recent years in Mexico, and always will hold a deep life digestion upon each return.

In 13 days, we (Gabriel, Kasha, Jelelle and I) depart on a nomadic journey with a first stop for a couple months or so in Glastonbury in the UK.

I let tears come up a few times today already and it feels sooo good. I was feeling how love itself is looking for a landing pad in each of us, and so available at any moment, how it is embraced by the simple vulnerable admission of need, how amazingly stunning it is that such a thing as a perceived vacancy of love could ever be, given the potency of the love that is, that we are and that we share.

Thank you to Victoria, BC, for holding us and me this past two years. 💚

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The Biggest Conspiracy Theory Of Them All

By Raphael Awen

There’s a lot of growing conspiracy theories floating around lately.

I’d like to float an even bigger one – that the biggest conspirator was and is love, as in The Divine, as in you and me.

Love became narcissistically and hopelessly focused on itself, as it was all there was. ‘All one’ became ‘alone’, landing in the antithesis of itself, it entered through its dis-ease and unease, a death, knowing that a rebirth would follow. It saw no other choice. In dying to itself, it gave birth to a firstborn, a perceived other, something seemingly enough outside of itself, to open a new playground, with a necessary game of good and evil, a game of masculine and feminine, a mind boggling game of epic duals and duality.

A game that would involve much hardship and pain, all of which could only be justified by the paling comparison to the stunning grandeur it would, if successful, bring about in the process – a perfect marriage of masculine achievement and feminine beauty.

You and I, Jeffery Epstein, Ghislaine, Bill and Hillary are all part of it. We’re ‘all one’ and ‘alone’ in it together. There isn’t actually two of us in the game and that’s why none of us are off the hook. We’re all responsible to the price tag on this endeavor. We all have great remorse to bear and great beauty and forgiveness to let in.

My reconciliation to the Divine is your reconciliation. None of us arrive fully home until the last one of us arrives fully home. The experiment isn’t over until it’s over.

The greatest of evildoers, those seemingly the furthest removed from the light, are actually souls with the deepest trust to take on the darkest parts of love’s mission. To see this any other way, to see an evildoer as an ‘evildoer’ is to leave ourselves excluded from reconciliation, from completing the circle of love’s mission. For if I’m not as bad as Jeffery Epstein or Hitler, then I can only lay claim to that claim by measuring myself on the yardstick of good and evil. My claim can only be a claim of not being that evil.

Perfect? No, but not ‘that’ evil. Sorry, but perfect only accepts perfect.

This leaves the judged and the judge both outside of perfection, and for the duration of that sentence, both in the same jail. This leaves the All One, you and I, alone, somewhere on the same yardstick that measures separation from perfection. Here we are, in our two track reality, perfect beings, in our perceived imperfection, reconciled, but yet, for all intents and purposes, awaiting reconciliation.

This state of relationship between us and other, between us and The Divine, is also mirrored exactly inside of us where parts of ourselves are left in 4D hell of separation, awaiting the love ambassador that you are to show up, and begin a magical reconciliation process.

Love changed everything and love keeps on changing everything. We are that change. Love is just having its own fun, and we are all invited into it, where no pain is denied, no level of hell on earth, but is instead felt profoundly in the minutest detail of hurt and separation for the portal that it is, for what it restores in us and to us, even expanding on the perfect love that originally undertook such a quest, as only infinite love can do.

We are perfection, improving on perfection.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Your Inconvenient Truth

By Raphael Awen

For a time, we can conveniently embrace some form of group mind as a placeholder for our truth, but eventually, life will press you, quite inconveniently, to find and walk out your own truth.

This is the maturity trajectory that your soul is here for, however often, to realize.

It all sounds quite serious, and in one way it is. In another way, it’s just the Divine, doing what it does, experimenting with its own bigness through you and I. It’s as serious as a child at play.

The questions of the quest are:

Can you recognize and love yourself for signing up for the participation?

Can you hold space for the parts of you and their very serious reactions and needs that feel all too real to them?

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

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Coming To Terms

By Raphael Awen

There’s no time like the present to come to terms with what you really want and what you don’t want. 

Coming to terms is about deeply feeling what parts of you need, what they are in reaction to, what they want to be done with and what they want to know and feel as an alternative new arising reality. 

Until you choose to inhabit more of your Divine Self embodiment, the one who can differentiate from these parts of you, get to know and feel them, there isn’t any transactional/relational space inside of you for a shift to occur. Shifts occur as things are felt, digested, and moved. Movements occur ‘to and from’ and that takes two. 

All the life dramas occurring in your life and in the collective, when embraced with curiosity and an open heart, all make for portal entry points into this relationship with yourself where deep shifts and changes can occur.

We can’t say yes to something without saying no to something else, and vice versa. We as souls chose this ground of dualistic choice in which to grow. We’re only done with this kind of duality when we actually are. 

No amount of playing smaller than we are and then caretaking one another in codependent relationships can actually snuff out the ache of our soul to truly grow and embody what we came here to embody. 

It’s not about not having a part of you that isn’t in fear of this kind of growth, or transcending your fears, but rather about getting to know the hesitant parts and why they feel hesitant. Now, self discipline isn’t needed in the way parts of us have used it to try to force growth that feels pushed and makes the self bad in some way. 

Growth and change can now happen effortlessly, naturally and with grace as your spring loaded essence does what it’s programmed to do. 

What choices are before you now? What parts of you do they relate to? Would you make space to bridge to these parts of you, hold space for them and actually cultivate a deeply meaningful relationship with them – a kind of pearl of great price, a heaven on earth? 

As you resonate into these new places, community naturally reshapes itself in your life. Your energy is shifting and so will the company you keep. Your spirituality will also naturally shift, along with your livelihood, your surroundings. All of it shifts as you align into your essence. Compartmented rooms of suffering, fear and anxiety merge into the true abundant supply of who and what you really are. 

If going deeper into this with some personal help and connection draws you, I offer a free consultation over Zoom to assist you into checking out if ongoing sessions is a fit. More here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

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The End Of Money And The Exchange Of Gifts

The great thing about the game of Monopoly (as well as the general paradigm of Monopolizing) is that when the winner does take all, it truly is game over for that game in our collective consciousness.
For when one man or women is in possession of ‘all the money in the world’, it’s value as a ‘means of transaction’ or even ‘a store of value’ become worthless. Exchange via money wouldn’t be possible when only one person had any would it?

Then we get to get on with creating exchange from a new place in our consciousness evolution, creating a new game, truly one worth playing, one that’s a whole lot more fun and alive for everyone – true lively-hood.

What would creating and sharing your greatest gifts with the world look and feel like?

What do you feel your deeper gifts are about?

How could you gravitate towards these gifts now in preparation and development for this approaching game changer?

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Raphael Awen is SoulFullHeart co-creator, teacher, and facilitator. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.