Your Thoughts: Your Sacred Altar

By Raphael Awen

Early on in adult life I was introduced to the creative power of one’s thoughts.

I recall the often quoted saying from Ralph Waldo Emerson:

“Sow a thought and you reap an action; sow an act and you reap a habit; sow a habit and you reap a character; sow a character and you reap a destiny.”

While my mind agreed with and even latched onto the concept, I found it difficult to practice. The Christian camp I was a part of early on also made this a big focus endeavoring to put together all the Bible verses and sayings of Jesus that promised big leverage in the world of shifting one’s reality by the use of words and thoughts. 

I got excited and on board for a time, but eventually, my focus waned and so did my thoughts. We all tried to police our thoughts along with our words, and even got caught up in policing one another’s thoughts and words and that didn’t go well. The whole thing had the energy of a multi-level marketing rally which we were also not too far from in our susceptibility and our need. 

In the end, what dissuaded my fervor, was the non-relationality of it all. Dr. Phil’s question of ‘How’s that working for you?’, was a question we couldn’t even ask ourselves in private, let alone out loud to one another, for to ask the question, would have been caught up in negative thinking and ‘unbelief’. The price of participation was being non-relational with oneself, and in turn one another. Honest questions were branded a part of the negative thinking. 

It seemed the power of positive thinking could only really work for those who were willing to do it like a machine somehow. In the end, I chose the realness of what I was feeling over the pretense of having it together, even if it was admittedly negative. I wasn’t willing to pave over what parts of me truly felt with a medicative blanket of positive thinking, even as alluring as the promise was of overhauling my life through my thoughts. 

The allure however never really left me, but had to be put on hold till I could find a way to integrate it on a higher level inside of me. There was a lot there I resonated with. I knew we needed to grow up from expecting God to create our future, or to play victim to God for giving us a bad deal. I knew that we are all creators of our own reality. I knew that our thoughts are very powerful creators. I just couldn’t get it all in alignment without sacrificing something vital. Would a prosperous, happy and healthy life really be of much worth to me if I couldn’t feel myself? Would that really be of much worth to anyone for that matter? We pursue dreams because of the feelings we associate with those dreams. What happens when we arrive at living the dream, but without the feelings that fueled that dream? We become dis-illusioned and we feel deluded. 

I have no doubt we’re meant to be illusioned, inspired, full of our dreams and visions, but how do we get there and stay there, in a way that is truly alive?

What if there is something even more primary than our thoughts, meaning ‘what if our thoughts are more of a conduit of creative power than the source of creative power?’

What resurrected this whole realm of awareness for me was the discovery of how primary emotion is over thought. Ralph Waldo, as inspiring as he was, was off in his assumption that thought is what creates feeling, that mechanistic thought can be made taskmaster over the wayward heart and its need to feel. 

I feel all of this resurrecting in me again, this calling to take responsibility for my own world, to take ownership of everything that’s happening in my life and how I’m responding to it or avoiding it. The difference is I see my thoughts as a conduit of creative energy, and that conduit has now become very transparent, allowing me to observe and more importantly to feel the source of what’s in that conduit. What’s the feeling, what’s the need, what’s the pain in that feeling? When I feel that, I no longer have to effort a change in thoughts. Thought takes care of itself, because thought is secondary to feeling. 

Where this gets really interesting is that I don’t have to become an emotion police either, like we did before with thoughts. There’s nothing to police, only things to feel, and feeling happens as a ‘to’ and a ‘from’ transaction inside, me to me, when I feel a very real part of me and its needs and reality. I get to show up for me in an emotive and heartfelt way. 

I also feel my thoughts as a sacred altar of awareness, of feeling, of ceremony, of transmutation where my feeling state is made transparent to me, to my higher heart of awareness, to my Divine Self who is able to feel and heal it all. I desperately need access to all that I’m feeling, not to pave it over with any kind of success formula, that couldn’t and didn’t work for me, thank God!

Our beloved guides in previous centuries simply had no awareness of these deeper truths. These truths are what is arising now for you and I to explore. 

Raphael Awen

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I offer a free 45 minute consultation to the SoulFullHeart Healing Process and personal ongoing one on one sessions. If moving into this kind of more is calling to you, please be in touch. Info at the link above.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Letting In Nature’s Magic Show

by Raphael Awen

I had a magical experience yesterday.


I had just completed a wonderful session with a facilitant, and wanted to take a nature walk and go integrate whatever had moved in me as I served.


I headed out to a nearby beautiful park that I often visit several times a week. Maybe the crow who paid me a visit the day before would also return. I had also found a painted red heart shaped rock that same day, nestled just under the bench with the words ‘Self Love’ painted on it, that I decided wanted to come home with me at least for a few days.


I also wanted to express a new mantra I had just created for myself.


The mantra I created was: ‘I let in a life of play, joy, discovery, reverence and magic along with an ever expanding consciousness with more giving and receiving of love’. It felt powerful and activating and I felt the need to just be with it to let in what is arising in my life.


I wasn’t quite prepared however for all the love that showed up next.


As I approached the bench, on the path a few feet in front was a baby bunny greeting me. She didn’t seem too startled and allowed me a moment to connect before she returned to the bushes. Then I noticed to my dismay that the bench had been used for some denser forms of meditation as there were some beer bottles, bottle caps and cigarette butts strewn about that I tidied up before getting settled.
Not long after I got out my tea and got comfortable, and began speaking my new mantra aloud, feeling it move in me, I looked out over the water, and noticed a blue heron flying out over the water in the distance, and as it glided, it’s arc came my way and came to rest, perched on the stones protruding out of the water directly in front of me, looking directly at me. He stayed a good while and offered a transmission. As I continued with my tea and mantra, I noticed in the tree beside were a whole bunch of what I assumed were chickadees, playing amongst the low branches. Then some children who were just old enough to be out of their parents direct supervision also came into my space to gain access down the slope to the beach below. More delight and exploring energy.


Next what swam right across my entire field of vision was a big white swan! ‘OK, this is getting a bit much’ I said to myself, as I continued to take in the swan’s gift of grace, beauty and solitude.


I pulled out my phone to look up rabbit, heron and swan to see what the animal totem messages were, where I found a host of timely messages for where I feel myself, my parts and metasoul aspects moving and changing in life and service.


I wondered if the magic show was over, but was kind of prepared for anything now by this point, wondering if the neighborhood eagle was gonna take a seat beside me or something! As I got up, I gathered my things and the trash, and just as I’m about to step away, sure enough, the crow returned to sit exactly where he had the day before with me standing there taking him in. He also stayed a good moment before flying away, then as I turned to leave and who was back, but the bunny in the exact spot I found her in when I arrived, kind of like the entrance greeter and exit usher!


I made my way back out of the park onto the street and guessed I may well see a deer on my way home to cap all this off as they are quite common where we are, but always still a wonder to see. As I stepped across the street, what steps in my path instead was a small raccoon making its way across the street, but because of an approaching car, it reversed course to hide out under a parked car. As I walked by the car, he retreated a bit further to hide behind a big tree out in the yard, debating whether to climb it or not. As I passed the tree, I saw his nose sticking out, so I knelt down to give him my attention. He came out fully from behind the tree, and with not more than 15 feet between us, we got to do the eye gazing thing together for a great moment until some other passerbys prompted his retreat.


I didn’t scramble to photograph it all, as it felt better to take it in, rather than capture it in that way, but the photo below is the setting and the stone is the rock I found.


Thank you for reading and feeling my magical story. I hope the moral or morsel of the story is one for you where you feel curious about and in reverence of the magic that lives in each and every one of us, that wants to transform our consciousness.

~

Raphael Awen is a Sacred Masculine Love Ambassador and Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with him for men/women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheart.org

Karma As Love Discovering Itself

By Raphael Awen

When we hear about karma, we hear it through our collective conditioning and it lands in us as something akin to punishment, or the universe paying you back with like for like, to teach you a lesson, with a big finger wagging thrown in.

What if what we call karma is actually about your soul’s choice to work certain themes of realization and discovery, and thus the theme is recapitulating itself in your current timeline, wanting to bring you goodness rather than any kind of loss?

The Sanskrit origin of the word is ‘action, work, deed and fate’ telling us something about how our actions, work, and deeds are powerful creators that generate a ‘fate’ – a ‘thing spoken by the gods’. Here, the ‘god’ is you and I, and the arena of manifestation is our lives.

Our Higher Self doesn’t see difficulty in the same way we do, as only something to be avoided or overcome, but sees it as a motivator for us to realize in real time the reality of love. The divine itself needed to participate in something less than love, so it created duality as a way to discover itself, and the divine does that through you and I. Our mistakes are grand experiments of learning and feeling what the divine couldn’t feel and appreciate in the way it wanted to. Our realizations are dramatizations of love that love needed to discover itself.

When you feel that appreciation, you feel the whole point of the karma, which is all about more, not less, about gratitude, not entitlement, about love, not fear.

Jelelle Awen and I will be exploring this subject of Karma on Wednesday’s (June 16th) group call where we’ll look at the even bigger picture of your Metasoul along with your Gatekeeper and how karmic patterns can be felt and healed in a quantum way, affecting all of your timelines, including your life as currently know it.

Please join us if this calls to you. Details at soulfullheart.org/events.

Much love,
Raphael
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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Feeling The Fears Of Deepening Intimacy In Sacred Union

by Raphael Awen

When we hide and compartmentalize our deeper truths to ourselves and others, we are rolling a stone up a hill, that gets larger and larger with time. Eventually, that stone gives way and demolishes those compartments, and reveals much about our fears, our shadow, as well as our light.


I have found this as a pattern that has shown up in my earliest relationships this life, and also in my Metasoul family as well. It came up yesterday (again) in my deepening intimacy with Jelelle, where even the finer attempts at compartments falter sooner and sooner. Ultimately, those compartments are about the fear of intimacy, and strangely (or maybe not so), even a fear of a deepening and proven intimacy.


To a part of me and in my Metasoul, it is still like the deepening intimacy is the stone being rolled up a hill, rather than the withheld truth. Then ‘the truth’ can be used as a threat in an attempt to return back to safety, to manage the fear, which gets into control and manipulation.

I was churning on all this last night and got out of bed to digest with Yeshua and Magdalene as well, being the perfect guides for a gender and Sacred Union need. They both assured me that this is the growth edge of the masculine and feminine now to lead with their vulnerability and their truth, in that order. They were also kind of amazed that I would seek to first find that reality inside as the source of the outward manifestation, as this wasn’t the deeper conscious reality in their lifetimes here on Gaia.
They also energized so much gratitude to me for being willing to walk this out, which spoke deeply to the remorse and almost shame I felt for causing hurt or blocks to intimacy in all of my relationships, regardless of the degree.

This I feel is the new playground ‘I Am’ being invited into, one my soul has always craved and longed for – truer and truer Sacred Union within and without.

~

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Self Loving Limitations On Our Consciousness

By Raphael Awen

Though our conditioning can feel limiting as it predisposes us to only experience life within a certain familiar bandwidth of consciousness, it is also a self-loving thing in that it seeks to make a home inside of what is known, and also in that it came to us quite effortlessly.

As we recognize the self-love inherent in our conditioning, we can naturally allow new conditioning based in deeper trust that expands this bandwidth of our experience into the unknown.

Our conditioning is not our enemy, but a necessary part of our choice to experience to venture into vulnerable life in this dualistic reality.

The infinite experience and infinite love that you are chose this imposition of conditioning to give itself(you) certain locators and navigational abilities on the vast radio dial of infinity. In other words, infinity made a way to have the finite feeling experiences that it deemed necessary and desirable for where it was wanting to go.

And it did all of this through you and through me. We are all one BEing, having also been afforded just enough of a sense of individuated self to forget that oneness, so that we could experience the re-member-ing of ourselves back to one another and all BEing.

Much love to you in your sacred journey of remembrance.

Raphael Awen
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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The Opposites You Feel Inside Are A Portal To The Oneness You Are

By Raphael Awen

Experiencing and feeling what you don’t want is actually what’s key to experiencing what you do want.

To the degree you feel depressed is actually testament to your native capacity for enthusiasm, creativity and divine play.

To the degree you know what it is to feel anxiety, speaks to your natural ability for radiating deep trust, rest and security in relationship to yourself, others, and beyond.

The presence of the negative is the evidence of and testament to the presence and reality of the positive. One relies on the other for its existence. 

This tug-of-war polarity and tension between what you desire and what you actually experience is the pathway into navigating between the two in the direction you want to go. You are like this anti-gravitic travel device in this way that can dial up both gravity and levity to create movement. Knowing one allows you to know the other.

You wouldn’t even be able to feel tension, were it not for rest. You couldn’t feel love were it not for fear. You couldn’t feel trust were it not for anxiety. 

These polarities seem like opposites, they seem ‘opposed’ to one another. While they have polarity, they are not separate or opposed in the way we think of separation or opposition. They come from the same source, making them two expressions of oneness. No ‘opposition’ per se’, just polarity, the likes of which make for great romance.

All of this is flowing from the oneness that you are, that you came from, and that you are returning to. You are already perfect, just maybe not in the way a part of you defined perfection. 

If this is true, then what?

Then,….you are being invited to embrace the opposite, the thing that is ‘opposing’ the thing you want. It’s a magical doorway into the thing you want, an invitation instead of an opposition.

You can now choose to explore what you feared exploring, what you deemed off limits and parked in secluded shadow, to then have more and more arising felt experience of your true essence in your everyday life. 

Sounds like magic and play to me! 

Begin to really dream of the life you want. See it, feel it. Feel it deeply in contrast to fully feeling the life you presently have, but long to change. Especially feel and don’t deny the parts of you who just can’t see it, who just can’t get excited just yet. 

GET CURIOUS, open your heart to all that is inside of you. Enter the darkness. It is your magical portal into the infinite magic of being that you are!

I can tell you personally, that I no longer experience the unaddressed and avoided layers of anxiety or depression or shame that I once did. Where these things once lived in my life is now the presence of deep trust and arising creativity, and very meaningful and deepening self worth. This doesn’t mean I am without challenge. Duality still provides me with the tension between what I have and what I want. That’s called appetite, always moving between satiation and desire. 

What’s cool about this is that the courage it took to face and love my depression and anxiety is the same template for how I live in the moment of every day. What need is arising now? How can I embrace that need! Where is love wanting to flow and be felt? 

What largesse of my being is wanting to engage it’s next step into the world of infinite love and infinite possibility?

We are this crazy hot stuff, only reeling from how magical we are, how infinite we are, how full of love we are. Everything ‘else’ isn’t anything ‘else’, it’s all the same pointing to the oneness we are inside, outside and collectively.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Please consider joining Jelelle Awen, myself and others for Free To Be Two – our soon upcoming six week group call series held on Wednesdays (May 20th to June 24). These two hour group calls have been very transformative and healing for those who participated. A donation of any amount gets you the Zoom link to join as well as the recordings of each meeting in case you’re not able to attend. They’re also a great way to get introduced to SoulFullHeart if you’d like to. You can get more info and sign up here: soulfullheart.org/freetobe2 I really hope you can join us.

You Are The One You’ve Been Waiting For

By Raphael Awen

Never before in our lifetimes has there been an opportunity like the one that stands before us now, in the Now. Every longing and ache you’ve experienced to inhabit new energies, new unfolding timelines, realizations of your soul purpose expression, drawing the deeper mateship of deep heart, soul and body resonance; all of that and more is at the door in a way that it hasn’t quite been before.

If that feels true, for a part of you, it can produce anxiety around the questions of how, or will I actually be able to take advantage of this time, or worse – who am I to think I could actually see dreams come true. That only happens in fairy tales.

Well, your life is a fairy tale.

The fairies are waiting to tell the tale of you as you make the changes that your heart is calling you to, in this do or die drama that you find yourself in. The fairies along with hosts of other dimensional support beings await your courage and choice to embrace this birthright of your being.

Never before has the feeling of possibility been so pitted against the feelings of ‘it will never happen.’ Where is all this madness coming from you ask? It’s coming from inside of you. Between you and life as you know it and these unmistakable dreams that never cease to haunt you lies your emotional body, and visceral reactions coming from parts of you to this opportunity that is here now. Never before have they wanted what they want like they want it now. Never before have they felt such hopelessness at the same time. Who wants to step into this chaos, and who would step into this chaos should one choose to do so?

A Higher Self version of you, a Super-Me, as I heard it called this week, is wanting to lead you into the centre of this chaos, at least what feels like chaos to a part of you. This Higher Self version of you doesn’t see this chaos as anything but an opportunity that your soul has longed to inhabit. Your Higher Self version of you isn’t waiting for any outside authority to issue you a licence or an authorization to proceed. That authority can only come from you. Your Higher Self cannot and will not act independent of you, the you that you normally think of as you. You came here to learn about your power and your choice. You came here to learn about the distraction of giving your power away to outside-of-you authorities and then from there, to come to learn the comparative difference of what it feels like to be in your power, and then from that new there, you get to be a broadcast of that very thing into the collective for others to tune into for their own becoming.

The biggest choice to engage this power is to no longer deny this domain of what has felt like chaos to you, in your emotional body, the feeling reactions coming from parts of you that have deeply shaped your life as you know it today. The reactions of deep despair in relationship with your unrealized dreams are the portal to the path of actually fulfilling those dreams. The first step onto this path of realization is just as fulfilling as the next, and the one after that, and strangely not any more exciting than a week or a year from now. It’s all unfolding you. The courage you will foster and grow within this new arising you will be called upon to embrace new journeys in this unfolding of your fairy tale of the infinite love that you are.

What if a romance novel or porn addiction is only a shadow version of these aches and longings awaiting your escort into a new life? What if the battles with money and work life chaos is only a drama awaiting your embrace of what’s real inside? What if illness in your body is only a call inward, nothing more, that resolves itself in self loving inquiry? What if it’s all YOU waiting and wanting to come into the ripe possibility that every cell in your body is attesting to being here Now? Love is wanting to prove something to you, something new, one profound and magical step at a time.

You and only you are the one you’ve been waiting for.

I offer a free initial consultation for those drawn to the SoulFullHeart process of deep healing and awakening. More here: soulfullheart.org/sessions. I’d so welcome hearing from you if you feel I and SoulFullHeart is part of your next steps on your awakening journey.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

 

On Masculine Vulnerability…

By Raphael Awen

I thought to ruminate out loud about what we might call the reticent masculine, where the masculine (both in men and women) is absent from settings where vulnerability is called for (like the whole global situation right now for instance, or a romance for that matter, or emotional/spiritual community). 

Based on my own experience, I’d say that men are typically busy trying to be powerful, drawn to providing, drawn to making themselves needed, and then asking the feminine (both inside of themselves and outside) to settle for that equation.

If their mate asks for more feeling, or for more heart open presence, he will point to what he so willingly and caringly does provide, and maybe even go on to whine about how she doesn’t see and appreciate that. He leads with defense, covering an unconscious ‘I can’t go there, for fear that I’ll lose myself.’

But I see all of that in the process of change. Men are becoming done with defending these old burdensome ‘paternalistic’ ‘patriarchal’ ‘patterns’ that are turning out to be so much less than what they promised they would provide for us. It’s an idea whose time is done. 

I get the masculine is meant to feel empowered and full of worth. That’s obvious, or we wouldn’t have been so prey to the false promises of power, nor would we have been so vulnerable to pornography (a safe kind of shallow feminine presence that doesn’t ask for any vulnerability – she bares everything and I give nothing, in turn actually leaving me with nothing in terms of actual nourishment)

This need for empowerment has been seen in the various men’s movements that have made a showing in recent decades, where you attend a men’s large group weekend event, give up your familiar patterns and get real with the guys, move some big energy blocks to realness, and commit to getting together on a regular basis in small groups to support this new breakthrough. From what I’ve observed, all of the groups that fit this pattern have this big push away to the feminine, in many cases even outright toxic and abusive, making ‘them’ the problem. When boys become independent men, they do need to find their healthy push away to mom, for a time, especially if Mom was overly invested and invasive to their energetic and emotional masculine space. This healthy need and boundary setting however gets way over projected onto women in general, leaving women wondering what (in the hell) just got into their mate.

I believe all of this has to do with men and the masculine (again in both men and women) exploring the key issue of autonomy and sovereignty. Vulnerability is seen as a threat to their seat of personal power because the last time they were open hearted (vulnerable), they got invaded and taken advantage of, leaving them with the felt reality of powerlessness, that vulnerability equals weakness. The masculine then went off on a long and necessary journey to reconcile itself to itself and to the feminine, especially around this vital need and fear of vulnerability. 

Vulnerability is defined as the willingness to be hurt. Only a man or masculine in possession of some degree of power would possess such a willingness. Romantic relationships, in the dance of the masculine and feminine, without vulnerability are stuck in a very narrow bandwidth, doomed to medicating each other’s pain and estrangement from themselves and others. 

This whole journey may well be reaching its conclusion in our collective. Men are honestly and vulnerably admitting their discontent with the previously seen safe patterns. They’re willing even to admit their unhappiness even before they know much of any alternative. 

Men and the masculine are becoming more and more willing to divest of their investment into the 3D playground structures where they’ve felt some autonomy and power, by obeying the shared playground rules. They’re like, ‘How is this autonomy real if it’s been handed to me on a plate?’ and ‘Why am I playing someone else’s game for a sense of power when no one’s forcing me to play?’

Then that brings us to the yet present noticeable absence of men in more emoto/spiritual settings and communities (like the one I’m a part of). I believe men are understandably asking the sovereignty question that goes something like this: ‘How will surrendering myself to a group and the paradigm of that group be an expression of my power? How will it not be a repeat of the forfeiting of my power that I really need to be done with?’ 

I believe (and this is where it gets possibly interesting and exciting), is that a man (and the masculine in women) can only answer that question of surrender and vulnerability when he or she is in possession of sufficient power. 

In other words:  

‘I’m willing to risk and even to be hurt in connecting with you, because I know it will be to my benefit, rather than my detriment.’ 

‘I can stand to lose, because I know and feel like I’m a winner at heart.’ 

‘I can invest my power and remain in possession of it at the same time – (true contribution)’ 

‘I can hold my own ground. I can enter and I can leave’ 

Men and the masculine then come to realize that they can’t grow into their power or have a playground for their power to play out into, without vulnerable relationship, without shared values, without community. They are not dependent on any one community, AND they can admit their need for one community, both. 

Our retraction from vulnerability (our wounding) occurred in relationship and so does our healing also occur in community. You can’t completely heal or grow in a box away from community. Our need for fulfillment invites us back into community after the necessary going solo phase has completed its course. 

Man, there’s a whole universe waiting for you to show up into, there’s a sacred and quite ready feminine patiently waiting for your crossing the space and invitation onto the dance floor. You can find it first inside of you and then let it flow outside of you. You got some hot stuff waiting and wanting to ‘man’ifest! 

Raphael Awen

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Please do consider if you haven’t already joining Jelelle and I for tomorrow’s group call on relationships – a really great place to explore your masculine manifestation! Details here: SoulFullHeart.org/freetobe

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our Patreon Page to send love in the form of money: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart 🙂

Stewarding Your Future Self Through Feeling

‘You can have whatever you want, if you’re willing to really let the want live in you, change you, move you.’

This is the message that comes to me as I tune in my future self. It’s a lot to let in, isn’t it?

Our ability as a consciousness to host both desire and despair is one of the most unique things about our being. The life each of us has at present is very much formed of our desire and our despair, often however, without our conscious awareness. Even in our sleep we are creators.

If this is true, then getting familiar and relational with both our desire and our despair is profound life altering work. It’s also the kind of work that is so good that no aspect of it really wants to be skipped over to get to the destination. It’s the journey that our soul signed up for, because it always has had and never actually lost the destination.

If that’s true, then how do we become relational with our desire and despair to the point of being a conscious creator?

It’s kind of like the disillusioned couple sitting down to have finally have the heart to heart discussion they’ve been avoiding, previously hoping would just take care of itself somehow. Simply being honest first with oneself, then being trans-‘parent’ with another parents a new reality into being. Old completions and new beginnings are allowed to flow. Using one another to stay stuck and sequestered from life let’s go.

But all this can happen inside of you – you to you. You can feel the polarized parts of yourself each holding to different desires as well as undigested despairs. You choosing this emotional exploration inside is the true leadership you’ve been waiting and wanting to inhabit for yourself. This is high level ambassador work that truly changes the life you are currently living.

If feeling this awakens your desire and despair, then I feel you can take that as a sign that your future self is wanting your attention. Your own knower knows this is true. Now it’s just a matter of responding to it.

*****

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Feeling Your ‘Circum-Stances’ And Desires With Your Inner Masculine

The ‘circum-stances’ of your life as you know it today is literally a standing stone circle of what you know as your ‘surroundings’.

Like Stonehenge is a wonder of how it came to be, so is this personal circle – created as both a mirror and a portal by parts of you and your Metasoul aspects. A mirror that tells the honest truth of what is, how it came to be, and a portal (Merkabah vehicle) to what honestly wants to be.

When you feel and bridge to the polarity of both your desires and despair, coming from your parts and Metasoul aspects, you create sacred movement to new circumstances that you are now willing to dream as possible; that you were willing to feel the IMpossibility of; and bridge between. You make the discordant resonant.

Your Inner Masculine wants to get on with this new mandate, but may feel stuck and in need of your heart presence and awakening. Settling for a spirituality that makes desire bad, or ‘of the ego’ is one sure way to neuter your Inner Masculine, who is so deeply needed right now. Just ask your Inner Feminine is that’s true. ‘De-sire’ literally means ‘from the sire’. What is your masculine wanting to sire into your life? Is your Inner Feminine ready to dance?

Your Inner Masculine wants to get practical – wants to engage in doing, acting, effecting and accomplishing, and he wants to dance with and do it for your Inner Feminine – how do you express that as you ascend out of 3D and move towards 5D?

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.