By Raianna Shai
“Embrace Your Humanity As You Embody Your Divinity”
I feel a new understanding and connection to this new SoulFullHeart tagline after a recent process I experienced. I can feel how spirituality and humanity can feel so separate, like one can only exist without the other. Parts can feel like spirituality is only attainable if we leave behind our humanity, our reactions, our desires and fears. And in another way, it can feel impossible to really feel our spirituality in a way that shows up in our daily lives.
It’s easy to feel connected to the Divine while meditating in nature. But what about in relationships with people that trigger reactions? Do we transcend those reactions in attempt to get back to how we felt in nature?
The importance and beauty of both our human experience and our connection to the higher frequencies of the Divine are becoming more and more clear to me now. Our humanity is not bad or wrong, it’s what we’ve chosen to be in all of its hardship and glory. We can raise our frequency to that of angels, but we are still anchored to Gaia. Our frustrations will still be there, as will the parts of us that feel those frustrations.
I feel an overall compassion for the parts of us that are made out to be bad because of the existence of their emotions. Instead of feeling them and what lies beneath the surface, we try so hard to ignore and even bury them. Underneath anything low frequency is fear and pain that just needs to be felt and advocated for. I actually don’t feel anything as truly low frequency at its core. It just shows itself that way as a protection of the vulnerable feelings underneath. We can leave these feelings the way they are and try to go on without them, or we can transmute them to something beautiful and take them along with us. I find it hard to feel whole without them.
This has connected to my own process in a different way. I feel comfortable with most emotions and I’ve felt more of a desire to actually feel them than some others. But what I have never felt resonant with is spiritual seeking. I understand the desire to feel what else there is and what we’re meant for, but I’ve never had the motivation to digest different spiritual modalities. Luckily, my family is the heart core of SoulFullHeart and has given me a process to let in and feel as my own.
But at this point in my process I am feeling the resistance towards the more spiritual. My fears lie in the concern of feeling less connected to others, of being resonant with less people and parts of me feeling lonelier because of it, of not being considered “normal” anymore by the majority of people, of potentially hurting those that I no longer resonate with when I complete those connections. A lot of fear resides in the opinions of others for parts of me and in that, my own process and importance takes second place.
Going back to the phrase “Embrace Your Humanity As You Embody Your Divinity”, I feel the message for me is how spirituality can enrich your daily life. It gives you the worth and the trust to let go of what no longer serves you. It’s not about leaving anyone or anything behind, but about embracing and feeling the fear to do so. I know that I’ve never been drawn to the life that 3D society maps out for humans to follow, but truly embodying my spirituality and divinity is a new step for me that may lead to uncharted territory this life.
I am feeling all of the fears that come up along the way as well as all the joy and magic that my discoveries may bring me. My parts are trusting the Divine more and more as a container for my experiences, even the painful ones. And my more independent parts are starting to feel the benefits of leaning into others so they don’t have to go it alone. Ascension is different for every soul, and I’m looking forward to feeling how my own plays out.
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