Ahead Of The Pack And Lonely


By Raphael Awen

The point of all drama is to raise consciousness. The point of all consciousness is love.

The inherent challenge though is that once consciousness is raised, it divests of the drama, having received the intended awakening to love and a deep loneliness or emptiness can be left in its place if the love is not rooted and shared somehow.

The content of the drama, the agreed culture, the values, the energy flow, the challenges, the victories, the stories, the camaraderie, all of it provided meaning and purpose and it seemed like there would be no end in sight, like it could hold you for a lifetime, if not many lifetimes.

So then where did all the drama take you? What did all the drama achieve? Was the world changed? Or are people out trying to reinvent the wheel, oblivious that you and probably many others have already ‘been there, done that’? Why is the same drama out being re-lived, so seemingly pointlessly?

What if you were the only being, out of the many who filled the theatre that day, that lifetime, who could hold the lessons of all that drama?

Would love itself be satisfied if you were the volunteer placeholder to know and feel the love of the universe, the love of self, that was intended for the many, but was committed to you for safekeeping, until such time as it could flow out to the many?

What would this hyper concentration of love look and feel like radiating out through you in the midst of its lack and absence, towards those who are the rightful inheritors of it?

You are the saviour of your world. Your light is thee light. Your love for your own darkness is maybe the brightest light possible for any to see or feel or take in.

Can you love yourself in the midst of your loneliness, for arriving ahead of the pack? Can you see yourself as Jesus did when he said: ‘I go to prepare a place for you’? What place are you preparing for the many who live inside of you and outside of you? What gardens are you preparing and planting for true beauty to be seen and known and digested inside of its gates?…

…As you live into new dramas honouring all the ones you’ve already completed…

I would very much like to receive the love you have to give.

(I wrote this piece this morning as a letter to a new meta-soul connection pressing into my awareness, that resonates with my situation at hand)

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about Weekly Sessions, Live Streams, Videos, and Community.

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