Anchoring New Earth In U.S. Geographies During This Matrix Collapse

By Jelelle Awen

My heart and Divine Mother’s heart goes out to those who have chosen to anchor in New Earth frequencies in places of peaking transition and chaos, and epicenters of Matrix/Cabal collapse such as the Pacific Northwest and California, New York City, Michigan, and other places in the U.S. The United States has felt for a long time to me like it was ‘leading’ the way in the messy claim of sovereignty phase that is necessary during this Ascension. Just as it has done since its inception by the Founding Fathers, America has been a place of sorting out tyranny from freedom, conforming from rebellion. This has a ‘ripe for civil war’ feeling to it that can be uneasy to settle into for those who are living there. I do continually get the sense though that actual war will not be necessary this time.


This feels like a necessary phase of messiness, although not without its suffering unfortunately. The labor pains to birth New Gaia out of the ashes of the 3D Earth are acutely felt by all of us with a compassionate heart toward the collective. Especially those of us here to serve as Ambassadors and Wayshowers through the storms and into the light. Although I haven’t lived in the U.S. in many years, I am an American Citizen and spent most of life living on the Pacific Northwest (the Bay Area and Ashland, Oregon) so my heart is feeling and connected to the current death and rebirth that this area is going through.

You’ve most likely chosen to be here now to serve the purpose of seeding New Earth into the collective, although it can be easy to slip into forgetfulness about this. Fusing to intense feelings of being trapped here, imprisoned, hating humanity…these are all understandable feelings to the parts of you and Metasoul Aspects who feel how challenging this transition is and who have probably been through this before in other lifetimes.


I have felt some of these energies of struggle to be here during this time, feeling confusion at the Matrix collapse going on, being so tired of the polarized politics, and a definite need for digestion of the whole Covid situation in the women I’ve met with this week for 1:1 sessions, three of them Americans. Since moving here to Glastonbury UK from Canada, I have felt less of the intensity of energy that used to come over from Seattle, which was just a short ferry ride away. Connecting with these women and parts of themselves/soul aspects has tuned me into the very real challenges going on for those on American soil and in those grids.


Connecting to the soul choice around living in America right now is helpful and digesting the this-life trauma and from other lifetimes that the polarized politics, fires, rioting, fear of dying from a virus, etc. push up. I also feel a sense that there will be an easing that happens after the U.S. Election and the peaking intensity that we are seeing is in large part due to that. It does feel like a ‘last ditch grasp effort’ or inertia to me of the old rather than moving into something even more extreme.


Remaining neutral yet very compassionate toward the parts of you that need you allows for a navigation through this time. Feeling any reactions at the source and asking, “what is the REAL trigger about and what portal is it offering of self discovery?” can lead to new openings as well. You can then move from reaction to empowered discovery.


For those healers who have chosen to anchor in love in the U.S. during this tumultuous time, I hope you can feel the support from those of us who have been guided to go into other geographies for our own soul-led reasons. We love you, we are with you, and we support you from wherever you are.


Please do ask for support via a 1:1 session with me for women if you feel that you’d like to bridge to any aspects that need you during this time and also to explore what the deeper triggers may be from other lifetimes. And to experience a bridge to your Divine Self as well if that is feeling more clouded over. The energies here in Avalon provide support to the sacred feminine to feel herself and connect to the Divine Mother within. There is more info about sessions with me and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators at soulfullheart.org/sessions


Love from Avalon!

Jelelle Awen

Join Kasha and I for an Avalon Activation women’s group call on Sunday, September 20 at 5:00pm BST (9:00am PDT) with teachings, meditation, and personal sharings by donation. More information at soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For information about 1:1 sessions with her for women and with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen/Gabriel Heartman/Kasha Rokshana, virtual group call events, writings/books (including Jelelle’s latest Free To Be 5D), and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.

Meeting Gog And Magog: Ancient Oak Trees Of Avalon

by Kasha Rokshana

Today I met the two ancient oak trees of Avalon that remain, named ‘Gog’ and ‘Magog’, and it was one of my most touching Avalon reunions yet…

Walking along, meeting and connecting with local trees and even getting lost a bit on our way there with a new soul friend, James (a fellow SoulFullHeart) was all part of the sacred adventure. All of that alone brought up much glee in my heart and peace too. The memories of these sacred trees who all have held and continue to hold so much space… digesting this venture today, I still feel a bit teary and like these trees are now inside me. Maybe they always were and this is simply another awakening.

Yes, the latter feels true… and so much that I’ve discovered in my Metasoul connections to this land lately is turning over now into these touching moments that aren’t full of deep and intense emotional processing but instead are just unshakeable memories and experiences of communication with the natural world that I’ve tasted but hadn’t fully been initiated into in this lifetime.

Coming from BC, Canada, where the trees are deeply magical as well, I often had profound experiences, yet these two ancient ones and the ones nearby of other species that hold the Avalon lineage in their rugged roots, are a storybook to uncover unto themselves and the true holders of the sacredness that can never be squelched from these lands.

In fact, even in the highly damaged ‘Gog’, one of these 2000-year-old oak trees that were part of a massive procession of oaks once upon a time that presided over the path to Avalon, shared with me that he himself and all of the trees who were cut down, are still alive and well in their own dimension and will return to the visible world when we reach the Golden Earth frequencies we’re now working towards and learning to let in from within.

Gog… burned from inside by a lit candle in 2017

This soothed the mourning I felt when touching his ghostly, fire-ravaged bark, as did his clear message to touch the smaller, younger tree growing next to him to show a unification between them… a reminder of how even what may feel ‘dead’ or ‘lost’ is still supporting the ‘newer’ generations. He also wanted me very much to see how life was continuing to grow on his hide. So even in the stillness of ‘death’, he was fulfilling a purpose. Purpose, he offered to me energetically, can truly be that simple and elegant.

Connecting with ‘Magog’, his healthier brother, I climbed slightly up on his side and leaned in closely, placing my hands in one place and then another, whispering light language as I went. James and I both went silent, taking in the energies of love, stillness, comfort being offered and entering into our own processes of connection with this incredible being.

Magog

I asked with my energy, because part of me so wanted to know, ‘how is it that you can somehow stay so still, over so many thousands of years, and be as contented and alive as you are?’

The response came in a moving picture of how his roots rustle beneath him with every season and how different creatures come to live inside of his openings and plants grow over and above his bark. He showed me a dance of how the sun changes position, how he shifts perhaps very slightly in position to soak up all he needs. How he’s simply a part of the symbiosis of natural life, which somehow is effortless in its timing and unfolding, yet unfold it does. He remains still in one way, yet shifts in certain ways as needed.

I felt every cell in my being respond to this and become so calm… teary, yet still, and full in heart. I felt renewed somehow in my sense of myself, which has also been a deep personal process and longing in recent days. I felt my love exchange with this tree spirit go deeply into both of us as ‘Gaians’ and as souls too. We remembered each other like old friends. And it was the sweetest reunion.

With both of these friendly giants, I felt this flow of connection run through that is still flowing as I share this. I felt connected more than I have yet to the Ancient roots of Avalon. I felt their invitation that wanted to come through me to the world, to any other human being who also wants to connect with them and remember, and to exchange love with them. They love to be loved, to be beheld in reverence as they revere and love us too.

They are a reminder of our own infinity and of our oneness with all things, and anchor that distinctive frequency of soul wisdom that can never be truly forgotten, only put aside for a while.

With so much love, from the deepest roots of Avalon,
Kasha ❤️🍃

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Jelelle Awen and I are hosting a women’s call where we will be transmitting everything we’ve been downloading and integrating since arriving here in Avalon/Glastonbury. More info here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Life Phase Completions From The Inside, Out

by Kasha Rokshana

Sincere ‘goodbyes’ and epic ‘hellos’…

We don’t really ever ‘complete’ phases of life or relationships with others unless the cycles of reaction to the completion and the relationship or phase itself completes with parts of you.


This only really happens when we INvest in relationship to them, which is a deep love relationship with ourselves. It’s the end of suffering loops and telling the same stories over and over again to try and digest what happened. Looping tells us that parts of us haven’t moved on yet. And from there we get to ask ‘why?’ and feel their reasons for hanging on so tight.

For a ‘goodbye’ to be sincere, to a geography, relationship, job, etc, there’s a need to feel the ‘goodbye’. This is what lets in the next ‘hello’. This is what sets the tone for the next phase of truly letting in the new. That doesn’t mean that old reactions or stories won’t come up. But it does renew our commitment to continuing to show up for ourselves and our parts in all of that.


Feeling this as I continue to complete with my geography and householding life phase here in Canada, as well as complete some loops that parts of me are still going into in moments with souls I’ve recently completed my relationship with. It’s all a deep journey and even in the emotional waves, my god, I wouldn’t want to be doing, being, or feeling anything else!


Much, much love to you during this epic time on this epic planet, where suffering within all of us is invited to come to deep completion and new waves of the realization of the love we all ARE can come in anew!


❤️
Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The 3D Matrix Collapse And The Ongoing Disclosure Process

By Jelelle Awen

Re-anchoring out of the 3D Matrix is going on during the Ascension process, especially during this time of accelerating energy shifts and influxes since 2012. We are being invited to re-anchor into higher-vibrational frequencies and higher consciousness states of New Earth into 4D transitional consciousness and away from the 3D Matrix, which has anchored us into its projected and co-created reality of unconscious duality for tens of thousands of years since Atlantis fell. 

A Matrix itself is not a bad thing. In fact, ‘Matrix’ means ‘womb’, a container that holds life, something within or from which something else originates, develops, or takes form. We need matrices in the lower dimensions in order to birth out of that which holds our expression until our consciousness is porous enough in energy frequency to no longer require it. In some ways, the Divine then becomes our ‘Matrix’ again as we re-anchor into Divine Frequencies as our Sacred Human expression.

The 3D Matrix dissolving as it is in the Now with love especially during this Covid awakening event, ‘drops’ people then into their own native soul-expressing frequency and into the discovery of what that actually is outside of the 3D collective vibe. The Matrix has created a sense of Unity Consciousness in one way, represented by the ‘mainstream consensus’ reality. Yet, the 3D Matrix has the lower-vibrational agenda of modulation, conforming, control, and following the rules/laws/dogma/policies/regulations, etc. 

The 3D Matrix runs on fear-based frequencies of avoiding rejection, unfelt abandonment and unworthiness woundings, power over others, and codependence. The Matrix gets its shape and form through conformity and fitting in by every soul who agrees to live in the 3D experiment. It is a powerful creation because all BEings on Gaia during this last phase of consciousness expression (even those transcending beyond it) have contributed to its existence.

As souls, we all agreed to the collaborative genesis and maintenance of this Matrix as it helped with the 3D experiment that we all felt was an important one on a soul level to purge out and reveal the shadow in our collective consciousness and unconsciousness. And so, it has been important as we have learned much during it and are continuing to learn so much as it is dissolving. The 3D Matrix has been a kind of hologram, created by our souls for our 3D Metasoul Aspects (and us in this current lifetime) to ‘live in’ and plug into as we explore our duality and polarity in this density that isn’t native to us on a Metasoul level. This is also why there are feelings of a loss of home for parts of us as we ascend, even triggering the soul’s original separation wound, as we are truly leaving what has been home. 

The 3D Matrix is being disclosed to many more souls, who in the knowledge of it can then become free from it. In the bigger soul picture, this 3D Matrix has been chosen by all souls who experience it as a way to immerse more fully into the 3D dualistic experiment. In this way, no soul is a true victim or prisoner of this Matrix as the remembrance of our free will is what releases us from it.

This 3D Matrix hologram is becoming more obsolete, no longer needed, and hugely limiting to the embodiment of our soul frequencies into our bodies and emotional bodies as we awaken. The human species in this current ‘21st century Earth’ timeline is now ready to be without this 3D Matrix. The collective emotional body is ready to be healed consciously through the receiving of love frequencies to transform the stuck and blocked places of traumatized fear into love. 

4D galactic BEings, commonly called ‘Archons’ and ‘Annunaki’, have collaborated and agreed to play the role of suppressor and enforcers of this 3D Matrix from the 4D level. The Archons (who have also asked to be called the ‘programmers’ or ‘the architects’) have also now grown beyond this role of controlling us through the 3D Matrix on the leading edge of their consciousness. They are, similar to us, at a collective choice point of choosing love over fear, letting in forgiveness from the Divine for the part they played in creating and keeping the 3D Matrix in place. They were actually just fulfilling a role representing the dark in the bigger Descension, polarity-playout experiment.

There has also been a group of dark/fear-polarized humans in alliance with the Archons that have been running government, entertainment, banking, pharmaceutical, and education industries, corporations, and much more from a place of shadow motivation, commonly called the ‘Cabal’ or ‘Deep State’ or ‘Illuminati’ or ‘Power Elite’. Disclosure of these fear-based groups is coming out now as the collective is ready to see, reconcile, and ultimately forgive their actions. As more of their actions come to light, especially ritualistic and perputual sexual abuse and energetic feeding off of children, this will bring up deeply polarized feelings in all of us to process and digest. This offers the opportunity for us to feel in our own soul/Metasoul where we have been the victim, the perpetrator, and why our Metasoul has chosen these roles to play in the bigger picture of our soul’s evolution. 

This disclosure process of the Cabal and its activities through exposure of an increasing number of individuals and organizations that have been part of it is an important aspect of the Ascension of 3D consciousness into 4D consciousness. 3D consciousness and the 3D Matrix allow for secrets to be kept and shadows to remain hidden. The revelation and illumination of the shadow is possible as more light comes into Gaia and into each of our hearts and souls through connection to Her.

Motives and actions cannot be so easily hidden in 4D consciousness and all is ultimately revealed. As 3D consciousness is faced with these dark realities that were previously screened out of awareness, the resulting abhorrence reaction is a sacred part of the propulsion necessary to move along the Ascension process. Each soul will need their own reaction chamber in whatever way, shape, and form that unfolds for them.

The current disclosure process we are undergoing is a difficult phase of Ascension as it is an expression of peak fear in both response to it and in expression of it. This phase invites us to see beyond what can look like fairly hopeless, devastating, and unredeemable situations to the bigger picture of our ongoing Ascension. Disclosure pushes up the parts of us that may feel great outrage, a sense of injustice, distrust in authority, etc. Again, these are all important things to feel, yet not to become ‘fused to’ in the sense of them taking over our expression so we can’t see the bigger picture. 

The bigger picture of Divine purpose around all of it is more possible to download and believe in as we no longer anchor into the 3D Matrix that ‘runs the program’ of ‘end times’ and ‘doom and gloom’ and ‘impending collapse of civilization’, which are actually all frequencies of undigested trauma from the fall of Lemuria and Atlantis. It took me a while to get this distinction during my phase of waking up out of the 3D Matrix. I felt that with all of the information I was now learning about the true corruption and negative agenda behind it all, there was no way modern civilization could survive and exist much longer. The case being made by some people for ‘near term human extinction’ looked all too credible.

When I eventually woke up to, and connected with my galactic DNA and Star Family, then I could see how much assistance and support is available to us to move us out of this phase safely. And, once I could see the bigger picture of Ascension, I realized that the energy frequencies of Gaia Herself would no longer allow these denser energies of self annihilation of ourselves as a species to exist at some point. 

The current phase of disclosure is also challenging because it invites us to wake up to violence in all its expressions within the 3D Matrix. It invites us to go beyond what has been conditioned to be acceptable and really see and finally feel our contributions to it. This includes the apparent environmental devastation of Gaia, the slaughtering of so many animals in completely compassionless ways, the ongoing battles and wars occurring all over our planet, the perpetual violence against women in violent sexual acts, the trafficking and sexual torture of children, and many other ways. This is waking up to feel the ‘cries of the world’, as Mother Mary and Kuan Yin have offered to me. 

To wake up to the cries of the world/women/children (especially) is not an easy process. Sometimes you feel like your heart will literally break as you digest all of the cruelty and brutality that is going on every second on our planet. As you draw resources to you (such as documentaries, writings, messengers, etc.) that open you up to this reality, you may feel like you will explode with all the outrage that can come up in response to it. Again, this invites you to feel how to be aware of the cries of the world with open hearted compassion without creating more polarity by being angry, bitter, and resentful toward it. Moving into compassion and forgiveness is one of the key ways to become unanchored from the 3D Matrix. It’s as if you ‘rise above’ the consciousness that it projects. You can now see it, feel it, and no longer become one of the contributors, creators, and players in it. 

As we no longer anchor into the 3D Matrix, there is this collective floating feeling as each individual soul finds their new bearings inside of themselves rather than outside of themselves. This can feel like a disconcerting void space for many people and push up an acute sense of lost identity to be unplugged from the 3D Matrix. Some souls will be slower, stubborn, or even outright refuse to re-anchor into themselves and into a higher-vibrational frequency of empowerment during this current timeline. They will continue to create a Matrix from inside of themselves, pulling from their unhealed emotional bodies and undigested 4D frequencies of karma from their Metasoul lifetimes too. 

The ‘hellish’ aspects of the 3D Matrix will still be a reality for these souls as they are choosing for them to be from a place of free will. They remain ‘plugged in’ completely by their own free will choice on a 3D level and, of course, on a Higher Self level too. These 3D Selves will continue to manifest body illness, disease, toxic relationship patterns, suffering loops, intense feeling states of anxiety, depression, rage…whatever they need to continue to grow and learn. 

It will become increasingly uncomfortable for them to be at this lower 3D frequency and remain on Gaia, so they will most likely leave their body eventually with their Metasoul having sovereignly learned what it came here to learn. It is also offered by many channelers and teachers that these souls will be teleported to other 3D anchored planets to finish out the experience of their learning there. Some feel this will be like the Christian rapture in reverse, meaning instead of souls ascending to heaven and leaving the planet, 3D souls will leave to go to denser planets. I have been offered that this ‘teleportation’ is less of a literal occurence and more of an etheric one as the current incarnation leaves the physical body. In their next incarnation, they may then choose to experience 3D reality again for growth reasons. Yet, by then, Gaia will no longer be an option for that 3D experience.

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This is an excerpt about the 3D Matrix from Chapter Three in my new book on Ascension called Free To Be 5D: Navigating Ascension From The Inside Out. You can read much more about Ascension, the 3D/4D Matrix, parts of the 3D/4D self and healing at the Metasoul level in the book, which you can purchase as a PDF, ebook and print edition with links at soulfullheart.org/books

More information about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen/Gabriel Heartman/Kasha Rokshana, group calls and events, writings and books, at soulfullheart.org.

All Current ‘Death/Rebirth’ Cycles Are Necessary For Awakening, Disclosure, Ascension

by Kalayna Solais

So many souls are exiting the planet at this time. They’re leaving legacies as they go and inviting investigations into deeper and deeper truths as well, especially when their deaths are suspicious. They’re choosing (even if it looks like they didn’t choose because their lives were ‘taken’) to leave during this time especially when more of the underbelly of our culture and the underground machinations of our human world are coming to light. They’re not coming along for the ride on this plane for the rest of our current phase, and are choosing instead to assist through another. I really get this sense of how it’s all about strong soul choices and being drawn to transition into an energy that is able to assist with disclosure, which is a huge part of our global awakening and ascension, and the process of digesting it as well.

To me, this is what ‘death’ is meant to offer, whether it’s a death and rebirth cycle in your own life and healing process, or a transition into another phase as a soul without a physical body. Both shed a consciousness that isn’t needed in the same way anymore. Both require space for mourning and grief for those impacted by our soul’s choice, and in the case of a life phase change, our parts need this same space to mourn and grieve what was lost so they could truly be found, felt, and healed. 

What we’re experiencing globally right now is death and rebirth and the awakening that affords us all. It’s both beautiful and terrifying as our parts digest it all and our Metasouls ping around the unfolding because it’s so similar to what they’ve experienced in other lifetimes of war and collapse. 

I feel that some souls right now are awakening into polarities and it’s just as sacred as awakening out of them. Energizing what you are and are not, even if it’s not taking into account the whole picture, is a play out of your individuality journey and sometimes you’ll find yourself in contention over this and maybe this is new. Maybe it’s good that parts of you are advocating for something they feel is righteous or a Metasoul sister or brother of yours in another lifetime is walking out and trying to resolve some karma through YOUR lifetime. This is necessary for a phase and IS an essential part of awakening and ascension for many. This is what then leads to more desire for peace inside and out, but a peace that doesn’t cost you anything and instead is authentic and organic and so deeply rooted it can’t really be shaken.

Awakening beyond the polarity picture is NOT often easy, especially with how much contention there is around and inside of you, until you can find the genuine desire for this to shift in your inner world. There are numerous parts to work with if you want peace and deep inner love flow that overflows to others. There are numerous Metasoul aspects to work with too, who also need this experience of something new, without the same cycles of recapitulation of endless battles and war over differences that aren’t even real at the end of the day.

This is the gift that death in the physical and in our healing and ascension phases offers… illumination that leads to awakening. This phase on our planet in this ‘year’ called ‘2020’ has offered us all so much to feel into when and as we choose to. It’s a sacred time of messiness and chaos leading us to whole new ways of being if the steps can be taken from within.

Love,

Kalayna 

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Healing From Fear/Reactivity Into Love & Genuine Compassion

“Raised by fear, you’ve forgotten about love… until your soul is ready to remember in its own sacred timing.” – the Divine

I felt this move through my heart just now with a mix of hope and heaviness. There’s a sobriety I feel about the world and everything that’s shaking out and coming to light. I feel the tensions and the ecstasy of rebirth. I feel the sadness of mourning and the love that wants to offer a balm for it all. I feel the bittersweetness of much-needed awakening experiences happening alongside deep and painful realizations of what’s been kept hidden from mainstream consciousness.

Fear is more familiar and reactivity more known. Acting outward in outrage is impulsively considered the ‘best course of action’ whereas bringing your reactions back inward, feeling them with the parts of you and Metasoul aspects in other lifetimes who are experiencing them, is somehow not considered at all as something even more necessary.

When I feel my compassionate heart towards this, I feel my own journey that’s unfolded around it… the impact of self-righteousness on myself and others and the parts of me that really needed ME that whole time but were sending so much energy and defensiveness outward, actually creating a push-away and resistance to love in the process.

You may have empathy and sensitivity, yet the journey into deep compassion for others is very real and always starts within. And, these times we’re living in that are challenging this deeply right now, are meant to birth us all as Sacred Humans with great humility and yet self-worth too while we feel our sensitivity AND the blocks to genuine, full-hearted compassion. Chaos doesn’t have to be the only reality that we live in, inside or outside of us. The process of “out of chaos comes order” no longer needs to be true, for you can choose something different, especially within.

Taking the sacred space YOU need to feel YOUR parts that are in reaction and fear is the invitation and the one thing that really can change the world as we know it and bring in new perspectives that hold compassion for yourself and others. It is a process in which you’ll find your heart opening without (much) hesitation anymore, layer by layer, with parts of you now feeling held by you in their overwhelm and reactions. This then leaves so much more room for discernment of what’s real beyond the mainstream digestion and so much more room as well for the healing of fear layers inside of you that so want to return to Divine trust and surrender.

I offer free 45min consultation calls for women who are curious about going deeper into a process with SoulFullHeart and have many openings this coming week! More info here: soulfullheart.org/sessions ❤

Much love!

Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Birthday Love Exchange Celebration

by Kalayna Solais

I am still in SO much glow this morning after celebrating my birthday with my beloveds yesterday. Actually, it wasn’t JUST with my beloveds here in the flesh… it was also with all of you who wished me a happy day from your hearts. ❤

Every year, my birthday tends to bring with it a birth canal or even a series of birth canals, in the plural, for me to move through in order to keep becoming the being that I most desire to be, in the relationships I most desire to hold dear, and in the purest energy of service of love possible. Last year, my marriage and longterm relationship with my dearest soulmate so far completed and that whole process was bringing up SO much for me to feel every single day. This year was actually the most celebratory for me, as I wasn’t moving through ‘loss’ so much as deep inner ‘gain’ and feeling how much more capacity I now have to let that IN.

Jelelle reflected to me yesterday that in previous years, it felt like no matter what they ‘gave’ me, for parts of me it was never quite enough. Entitlement on some level was covering over deep unworthiness to let in love. And that’s true. Yet I never felt it as ‘not enough’ coming toward me. I actually distinctly remember feeling that I couldn’t let it in, especially the positive reflections of who I am that my beloveds tried to share with me. Their love couldn’t land because I couldn’t land inside of myself and my parts could barely, even after years of working with them, let ME in, let alone my nearest and dearest.

This year… I’ve been moving more into a flow of letting go and letting be while also letting in. I’ve still needed to set boundaries with others, letting go of explorations and connections so that they can arise again anew someday if they’re meant to, yet the sadness of this is flowing alongside a new sense of inner peace with myself, as I am now, even in all of my learning curves and imperfections. There’s a new conviction about who I am and what I’m here to offer, yet also a softness in my heart that though healthfully protected, remains open and in self-love overflow and compassion towards others that seems to grow every day.

This is new. And while I’m letting in such deep appreciation for myself and my own journey that has led me here, I’m letting in those who I can exchange deep and meaningful love and resonance with more than ever before, knowing that this is really all I need. It’s a tall order relationally to show up for on all sides, but it’s worth it to be in the journey of letting it in, not settling for what isn’t this (yet) and trusting that everything and everyone you need right NOW is with you and within you too. ❤

Thank you to everyone who celebrated with me/us yesterday, in person and in energy. Your hearts all land in mine in big ways.

SO much love,
Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Energy Update: Dark Mother/Kali Energies Guiding Us Through Death/Rebirth Cycles

by Kalayna Solais

There are two (maybe more) new worlds/realities dawning now and they are both powerful. One is a dystopia and the other a utopia (or with great potential to become this!). One moves farther away from love and into denser and denser consciousness grounds and suffering loops, while the other moves consciously and passionately towards love and everything that means… all that needs to be looked and felt within, especially, to be able to let love in.

It’s a time of great PURGatory before the healing and reconciliation of these two realities can really land. This healing has already begun and is actually helping to fuel this phase we’re still in of tensions and emotional breaking points.


Energies of war, battling, needing to be right, needing to prove, needing to scorn, needing to oppose, needing to hate, are coming UP and OUT like ooze. Like the worst hangover imaginable after so many years of medicating and denying the rage (which is really uninitiated passion) that needs to move through and also the medicating that has put away the need for self-love and self-loving decisions that are practical yet also spiritual and consciously felt through. This is sacred ground and there is MUCH to realize but even more to feel.

There’s been a sense of ‘hold on to the handrails!’ lately while SO many storms move through. We’re invited, always, into our own pacing that feels right to us about how many personal choices for the sake of our growth, ascension, and deepening self-love we are ready to make and when…. yet too, this is a powerful time with many Kali/Dark Mother energies inviting us into Her loving yet unsentimental LOVE furnace of death and rebirth. She invites us all into our soul bigness, our holding of ourselves and our inner realities, while we navigate the currently choppy waters swirling around and through us.

As always in times of great purgation and change, these storm-dances are necessary to help us all awaken and grow. We are NOT meant to suffer in these grounds, but to keep choosing love over fear, compassion over comparison, vulnerability over fighting, honesty over strategizing.

The new and most desired world possible HAS to come up from within each of us individually. It won’t be handed to us by anyone but our sovereign and growing Divine selves and our sacred learning process of what it means to embody that.

Every moment there are new choices to make. And there’s no perfect way to make them, but to be so sacredly in the process we are all in individually and collectively. Love is guiding the way through the tensions, heartbreaks, and openings too and it knows that we are all finding our way through the darkness of what has been as we stumble into our most natural and sincere Greatness as Sacred Humans remembering. ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Letting Go To Let In More Love As Ascension Deepens

By Jelelle Awen

Letting go to let in MORE LOVE….This is what the awakening process calls you to navigate, to surrender to, over and over again. A cycle of mourning and grieving what is leaving and what feels like it is lost and will not return.

Letting go of that which is no longer a mirror of you, yet is more like an echo of a former version. What was once an important mirror of something inside of you, a part of you, and no longer is, loses its draw and its appeal…you just can’t fake or play it anymore, the mask is slipping off if parts of you try to keep up the charade. This ground of pretend, whether in relationships or career or whatever it is – becomes a strain rather than bringing any joy. Suffering almost always begins and is sustained by ongoing inauthenticity.

Letting go of 3D-based motivations of obligation, keeping life safe, playing a ‘role’, fitting in…and letting in 4D, 5D and higher senses of serving love, living into the unknown, arising into your authentic self. Feeling your sense of self relating to ALL that is in your life coming from and interacting with your authentic essence rather than from role playing or personas. Coming from serving love in collaboration with others rather than from competition, codependence, envy, hurt, rage, and undigested/unhealed traumas and wounds.

More and more moments you are in this authenticity…..you ARE this, and, so, you draw others to mirror this back to you as they are this too.

Let go of what isn’t you anymore in order to let in more of this reflection of and experience of yourself as the LOVE you actually ARE. The void left from what you’ve left go of is then filled UP with love, with joy, and with the Divine. These are the energies available in this Now and in our ongoing Ascension.~

Jelelle Awen

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The Waves Of Awakening Into Love With Love

by Kalayna Solais

Love pops you open sometimes.
You cry tears you didn’t know were there.
You lose track of what your mind once thought was important.
You start feeling more than efforting anything.


The flow begins and the changes take hold.
The choices made bring you closer to what your soul has wanted all along,
Even in the karma trauma that comes up to be felt between yourself and others.

When love pops you open
You know it’s love because you feel held
You feel like shit but you feel like you’re finding your way
Even in some small way.

And then you feel,
Slowly but surely,
How much more you now have to offer yourself and the world
Because you weren’t afraid of love popping you open.

And so,
Love thanks you.
Love celebrates all of it with you.
And you bring in more conscious connections of real love,
Held and expressed with others
Who have experienced the same.

Together, then
You flow and feel
And heal
And offer healing
And in all of this
There is always more to experience of love’s expansive gifts
And the forever of being Divine without force, bypassing,
Or overly giving to others while forgetting
And even celebrating
your own deep desires
And love-supported needs.

Love,
Kalayna Solais

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.