You Can’t Schedule A Funeral And A Wedding In A Chapel On The Same Day!

By  Raphael Awen

Having fun and working at having fun are two different things.

One is play, and the other isn’t.

What if we stopped working at having fun and instead just admitted to ourselves and our world that we weren’t having fun.

Well, that would be tantamount to suicide, to letting go, to giving up.

And God forbid we should give up, because there’s always hope right?

Right?

What if the situation at hand is beyond hope, at least in the dimension that that situation exists?

That’s called death.

And no one wants to talk about that.

And that has a lot to do with our working at having fun, which by its very nature, excludes fun, though it is hung onto for its value of distraction, and staying engaged, lest we give up.

What is life and love is wanting to give up?

That’s called surrender.

But surrender feels so powerless to us, so ending and so final, so we hang onto remnants of lookalike hope and pretend fun, even as those remnants evaporate in front of us.

I do believe however that the universe is wired for fun, and it goes through phases of fun and not fun, letting in and letting out, and in this way comes to know itself in ever expanding discovery, reverence, magic, play, joy and wonder.

We are collectively and personally smack dab in a big shedding phase, a dying phase. If you’re wondering why you’re less than joyful, if not depressed, it’s because you are, but can’t admit it. Admission is that surrender.

All the good stuff hasn’t gone anywhere, but it is kind of waiting in the wings, mostly out of sight, while the death moves through. You can’t schedule a funeral and a wedding in the same chapel on the same day.

When I feel the horrors of the COVID situation and the agenda and narrative, and feel out beyond the distracting drum beats of pro-vax vs. anti-vax, there is something much more reverential going on.

Something is dying. It’s beyond any shadow of a doubt. Life is ending – a form of life; life as we’ve known it. This involves suffering and pain. Love always wants to minimize that suffering and pain, even as it accepts it as a necessary part of the journey.

It’s time to feel the loss, to grieve what’s dying all around us. I believe there will be much physical loss of life and deep losses to the quality of life for so many.

Even if you live outside of the 3D medical world reality and have a healthy immune system, which makes you a bright shining light, this light that you are is about to be called upon to shine in deeper depths of unfolding darkness.

If you actually feel, rather than just fight, or conversely play dead, this means deep sadness, mourning, grieving. Tears.

If you are willing to grieve, then you are both a death doula and a birth doula, aiding in this epic shift in consciousness that we as souls chose to be a part of in this time.

How did we get convinced that we would or could return to truly having fun without admitting that what we are in now isn’t fun?

God, please spare yourself from the horrors of the jab if you’re wavering in any way around being a part of that, but spare yourself from adding to the death at hand, and adding to the avoidance of feeling that death by beating drumbeats of war. Save yourself for the mourning and the morning after.

Love has got this all in hand, but it’s up to you to decide and choose your role to play. There’s that word again. It’s all play.

Love has put on a play. You’re invited onto the stage as an actor and into the audience as one receiving the wave form, auditing the reality into your being.

The light or the darkness you bear on this stage are equally necessary and needful to the story and its plot.

The plotters will surely need our forgiveness if they are ever to find their self forgiveness and complete their return to love journey that we are all on as one of us.

That’s the bigger deal, there’s only one of us. Regardless of how awoke you are, how much light you bear, you are part of The One and this One includes darkness and light.

That One is entering a hell portal to get to the heaven it also is, and in the process to expand it out to more than it ever was.

If you are ready to feel this, you are creating for yourself and for love, a sustainable sanctuary where you can return to love and play, come what may.

Much Love,

Raphael

Join Jelelle Awen and I for our next group meditation call ‘One Year Later – Navigating The Covid Narrative’ on Sunday, April 18th at 5:00pm BST by donation. More info at soulfullheart.org/events

We offer 1:1 sessions to explore into your calling and role at the personal and soul level in a safe container and with a process that allows for deeper integration and embodiment….more info at soulfullheart.org/sessions

Photo is yesterday at the Solomon Stone at Glastonbury Abbey, feeling the energies of death and rebirth.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

You Are The Bright, Bright Light Of God

I am the bright, bright, bright light of god.

You are…

We are…

Everything you desire, and the gap between what you have and what you desire is like a soul’s propulsion system.
Even what we might judge as fickle desires, and even the judgment of those desires, even desires that have become addictions are all a part of your soul’s propulsion and power to learn things you chose to learn.

Your life can never become any more sacred than it already is. Lots can and will change, and for the better, indeed.
But you can’t become any closer to god than you already are, for you are god, and you are in the center of god’s heart, both.

All you can do is come to accept that in ways and moments and movements, that real-ize this, that savor this, that feel this.
Feel the parts of you who can’t yet get this, can’t feel this. Feel it for them. Feel it with them. This is your missionary calling to foreign lands. Bring your curiosity to their language, culture, climate, means of travel and diet. These are the lands you are called to.

You are their salvation, for you are the bright, bright, bright light of god. Seek not to convert them, but only to get to know and love them. You and they both will be converted in the process.

‘How lovely on the mountains are the feet of them who bring good news and announce peace’ (from the book of Isaiah)
This is the announcement of the peace of your reconciliation with god, past tense, but being ‘present-ed’ to these parts of you as a ‘present’ in the present.

You lost in order to find. You forgot in order to remember. You did this as part of god’s infinite and forever expansion of itself into more and more and more. 💚🏄🏻‍♂️🌹🙏🏻

Thank you for being in this with me.

*****

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

You Are Invited! Men’s Group Calls Each Month

By  Raphael Awen

Quick video invitation to join myself, Aurius Amara and James Elphick this Saturday, March 27 at 5pm GMT (London time) for our Men’s group call on the topic of ‘Adequacy, Power and Vulnerability’.

We ask for a donation of any amount to set your intention and exchange with us. Read on/listen in to get the tone and see where to sign up. We very much welcome your curiosity and hope you join us.

How do you as a man relate to your sense of power in the world?

How does that make you feel either adequate or inadequate?

Where would vulnerability factor into the expression of your power and sense of adequacy?

As men, we can be quick to embrace anything that affords us a sense of adequacy and power, and slow to let go of anything that feels like it will lessen that comfort zone. Even what we reach towards in spiritual or community settings can be so tailored to this need to buffer this feeling of ‘getting ahead’ in this way.

But where do we find the pause button long enough to explore the more vulnerable questions about whether a choice or endeavour or relationship is really what we most deeply want? How do we know if we are choosing our growth vs. our comfort zone?

‘What is it that you really want?’ is maybe the most profound question that you as a man need to ask yourself, as well as the most sorting question that can be asked when it comes to relationships. Your wanter is already leading and guiding the way, what’s left is become familiar with your wanter – the part of you currently leading your wants and wishes.

In SoulFullHeart, we offer a way to get to know and feel the parts of you that are oriented to life in this way without judging them in any way. Here begins an exit off the treadmill of ‘shoulds’ where even the prescription to be more real or more vulnerable can be related to as a higher form of attaining adequacy or power.

These are the questions we will explore together, offer teaching, and transparent personal reflections about our journey in this men’s group call on Saturday, March 27th hosted by SoulFullHeart Teachers/Facilitators and Sacred Masculine bridges Raphael Awen and Aurius Amara. We will also be joined by James Elphick, who is an active member of the Soulfullheart community. The three of us currently live in close proximity and shared purpose in Glastonbury, England, also known as Avalon, the heart chakra of Gaia.

During the call, we will also enter a time of guided meditation to meet your Inner Protector, the part of you that has the most domain when it comes to your adequacy, power and vulnerability. Just meeting this part of you, getting a feeling sense of them for the first time or the hundredth time is what opens out the deep heart and soul places that you have been wanting to venture into. In other words, the key to your dreams is not more will power, or more adequacy, but instead you showing up to get to know these parts of you who feel so much about your life, your dreams, your regrets, etc. As this happens more and more, your life gets to enter new configurations in all areas of your life, because it’s shifting on the inside.

The call will be at 5pm/17:00 GMT (London, UK timezone/12 Noon EST/9:00am PST) and hosted over Zoom. The call will be 2 hours in duration.

You can join us live (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the group live, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us about what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from us.

This group is open to the public and to all men over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at soulfullheart.org/shop

Or you can make a donation for it here through Paypal: paypal.me/raphaelawen

We will send you the zoom link via email.

Please make a note in the Paypal transaction that you are purchasing the March 27th Men’s Group Call and check that your email on Paypal is current, as this is the email we will send the zoom link to unless you request it sent to another email.

The call will last a max of two hours depending on those that want to share their experiences and ask questions.

Here is a timezone converter (call is at 5:00pm GMT London, London time): https://www.timeanddate.com/worldclock/converter.html

For more info or to share with a friend:

– Here is the Facebook Event Listing: https://www.facebook.com/events/427115595032366

https://www.soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls

Very warmly,

Raphael Awen, Aurius Amara and James Elphick

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

What Does Masculine Power, Adequacy And Vulnerabilty Look Like?

By  Raphael Awen

I venture to say that as a man, regardless of your age, or circumstance in life, that underlying everything you are dealing with in life are the issues of adequacy, power and vulnerability.

These are the core issues that issue from the core of a man, that make up the masculine journey.

And these core issues don’t go away as you grow or become self aware, only your relationship to them changes, and that then is what changes everything, while you continue your journey.

Without these issues, that issue from the core of the heart, there would be no masculine journey, no reason for being here. 

Surrendering to that is what makes you a man. Aligning with others who are becoming conscious of the same journey is what affords you a sense of your true value and worth as a man.

Vulnerability is admitting that short of that, you at best have a half life, and remain in a pact with your suffering.

Those kinds of admissions and surrender is what makes you a powerful being, ever arising into more.

All of your problems and issues get to now be portals into the deeper essence of your being.

Your issues have everything to do with your essence.

If what I am speaking is landing in you as true or powerful, then I offer to you that what you are feeling is your truth, your seat of being, resonating with mine. You are feeling and hearing from the seat of your own authority and sovereignty within, rather than accepting being dominated by any control or permission outside of you.

The question of the quest becomes how will you respond. What will you choose? The choices are before you.

There’s the choice to get real, the choice to get vulnerable, the choice partake of huge support all around you.

The masculine journey is ultimately a sacred one, whether you choose it or don’t, because in the long, long run, it all comes together back to love and essence. The difference is not sacred or secular, holy or unholy, conscious or unconscious, awakened or unawakened; the choice is about getting real or not.

Being real has everything to do with adequacy, power and vulnerability. And getting real will surely lead to the need to get more real – a herein lies the courage required to embrace the journey, and the gratitude of the divine for your choice, to feel and heal what the divine could not inside of itself, without you, and your ‘issues’.

I wrote all that to offer you an invite, one choice if you will, that may be the one for you and your journey as a man right now, and that is an invite to be a part of this coming Saturday, March 27 at 5pm GMT (London Time) Group Call For Men hosted by myself, Aurius Amara along with James Elphick. The topic is Power, Adequacy, and Vulnerability.

Go here for more details and to sign up: www.soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls

We ask for a donation of any amount to attend live or to receive the recording after, to show your intention and exchange, and to honour the space shared with other like minded men.

The call will be a max of 2 hours in a very well hosted and timed zoom call with teachings and reflections from myself, Aurius and James, as well as hearing from other men on the call who choose to share. Aurius and I will also offer about a 20 minute guided meditation during the call to meet your Inner Protector, who is the part of you that holds your relationship to your power, adequacy and vulnerability.

More info also here at https://www.facebook.com/events/427115595032366 if you’d like to invite someone special.

Aurius and myself both offer 1:1 sessions with men as well if you feel drawn and more about that is here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

Much Love,

Raphael

The pic above is from the Solomon Stone yesterday at The Abbey here in Glastonbury. The stone is believed to be brought here by Joseph of Arimathea in the first century and came from the ruins of Solomon’s temple. I’m there receiving the download and the seed of the sacred masculine impartation – getting ready to host you on Saturday’s call. 🙂

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

‘As Sure As Our Lord Was At Priddy’ – Exploring Metasoul Connections In Avalon and Beyond

by Raphael Awen

James Elphick and I took a trip to Priddy, Somerset, yesterday here in the UK, in Somerset county.
There is a saying in Priddy that the locals know, “As sure as our Lord was in Priddy.”

Raphael & James

After being here in Glastonbury these last months, I was quite interested to learn of the many ‘legends’ of Jesus visiting here often during his life and especially as a boy. I was interested in him being taken here on trips with his uncle Joseph of Arimathea, who was not only a wealthy trader in tin and other metals that were mined in Priddy and surrounding areas, but Joseph was also probably the equivalent of the Jewish government’s ‘Minister of Mining’.

Now, you won’t find much in the traditional Bible to directly support these claims, but you can cite plenty of Bible references to corroborate the claims, if you will. If you expand your lens out to the ancient scrolls discovered in 1945 at Nag Hammadi, you get a lot more of an interesting picture.

Central to this expanded picture is that Jesus, or Yeshua as he was known in his own language, was in love and married to Mary Magdalene and had children with her. That didn’t fit with the Christian canon of scripture that was compiled in the 4th century and it had to be screened out to fit a tailored narrative. A narrative that only controlling men seemed to need and undertake, but also consciousness itself seemed to need to go through this veiled phase of awareness. We are, like consciousness itself, in a phase now where we are lifting that veil.

I was especially opened up to this larger story through reading Anna, the Grandmother of Jesus by Claire Heartsong. I deeply recommend her book if you are wanting to open up to this expanded story of Yeshua’s life, his mother, his grandmother, his mother’s uncle Joseph of Arimathea, and what’s known as the ‘Magdalene way of the rose’ that Yeshua was immersed in and devoted to.

But, back to my day yesterday. After reading Anna, Grandmother Of Jesus and coming across the many places here in Glastonbury that are significant to Joseph, Yeshua and the Magdalenes at large, I wanted to venture to visit Priddy, just a few miles from here in Glastonbury. Now that we recently purchased a car, the opportunity arose. I needed a bit more driving coaching from James getting used to driving on the left side of the road and the right side of the car, like they do here in the UK.

When we arrived in Priddy and parked the car, we noticed a different feeling space immediately of rest and tranquility. We took a stroll on the main road through town and saw a sign pointing to the village church and school. We came upon a playground filled with children at break time and we were struck by how playful and alive they felt. It didn’t feel anything like a city playground. There was just grass, a few trees and a soccer ball, but these children in their school uniforms felt like they were from another dimension somehow. Both James and I commented on it to each other. Right then, as I was taking a picture, a young boy ran after the ball and mid stride, he rolled into a full somersault as he chased after the ball.

St Lawrence Church, Priddy

That may have been the highlight and lesson of the day. If you’re going to chase after something, be sure you are having fun while you are doing it.

We entered the church of St. Lawrence, built in 1352, and took in a sweet feminine energy in the pictures of children and especially an artist’s portrayal of Jesus as a boy that was really striking and touching.

Painting of Yeshua as a boy

This morning I felt deeper into my soul’s connection with Joseph Of Arimathea and experienced that it was quite easy to connect with him. As we ‘conversed’, I was able to see how in his high place and office and wealth, many people projected onto him a kind of having it all together that really wasn’t the case. Those people who make an etheric connection with him may want to gain access to his secrets of wealth and he said this was also exhausting to be seen through this lens of having it all.

He told me he actually longed many times to be a commoner like the many who came to him wishing to be relieved from their everyday lives. He told me about the hardships of being in the money and wealth grids. How that necessitated a kind of hard energy and control in the marketplace that just was the reality in that time and place. His redemption was being able to channel his wealth into supporting his larger family and he said that without this, he would have gone completely over the deep end.

Joseph also told me of his joys of having Yeshua as a boy as his travel companion, one like no other. He told me that the boy I watched on the playground yesterday take a somersault on his way chasing after the ball was totally what Yeshua was like. He made everything and everyone around him come alive in such a way that no one could figure out where he got all of his free and alive energies from.

I’m feeling a desire to continue to open out and explore this connection further with Joseph and Yeshua. There feels like a lot to go into there, especially within our Magdalene community here in Avalon/Glastonbury.

Sacred Sexuality Group Meditation Call

Do join us for tomorrow’s group call:
I do hope you can join us this Sunday, March 14th at 5:00pm GMT/UK time/noon EST for our sacred sexuality group call with teachings and sharings from me and Jelelle (transparent and open ones too!), a guided meditation with Yeshua and Mary Magdalene and group participant sharing as well. You can join us by donation at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen.

We will be real about wherever we are in the moment around the process of sacred sexuality…not in some exalted, idealized, and bypassed state, yet in the raw and messy (and often blissy!) ground that exploring our sacred sexuality within and with others offers us!

Much love,
Raphael

~

Raphael Awen is a Sacred Union & Sacred Masculine Bridge, co-creator, teacher, and Facilitator of SoulFullHeart. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Are You Up For Some Sex Talk?

By  Raphael Awen

Jelelle and I have our next group call coming up on Sunday the 14th entitled Sacred Sexuality, and I want to invite you.

Okay, that was a bit of a ploy. Pardon the grabby come on, but the purpose of this writing is to draw people who might be interested in the call, so I thought it best to be in full disclosure right from the get go.

Can I ask you, how has life been for you as a sexual being? How do you at present relate to your sexuality?

Whether your experiences have been deeply negative or out of this world positive, both are a lot to bear in this mystery of our sexuality.

That you and I came into this life with this awakening need and desire of sexuality along with its potential for both the deepest fulfillments and the deepest disappointments really points to the vulnerability of our souls choosing to be in human incarnation. 

For me, my teenage awakening into my sexuality was marked with fears and hiding that I effectively suppressed by taming it alongside a Christian dedication to God and Christian service. I embraced the no sex before marriage advice, partly out of my fear of my own sexuality and partly of wanting God’s blessing and sense of safety on something I felt to be so potentially unknown, destructive and harmful. I managed to enter my first marriage as a virgin and experienced a bandwidth of sexuality that felt right for where I was at and what I could handle. From a soul perspective, I can see where this muting of my sexuality was motivated from other timelines of sexual regrets and remorse. 

When I left Christianity, and that marriage of 23 years, I was surprised to find a very ripe and ready unexplored teenage sexual energy that was alive and well coming back into my life with me now in my mid 40’s. I knew I needed and wanted to explore and mature this sexual energy and life and the Divine opened out a couple of rich and rewarding relationships that surprised me by discovering whole new layers of the lover in me. 

This laid a whole new groundwork sexually and emotionally to be in relationship with Jelelle. I was given and continue to be given experiences that feel like such deep treasures and even trophies to me and parts of me. I’d like to support you to create your own heaven of sexuality. 

The journey of vulnerability, desire and beautiful experiences continued for me over the past 13 years together with Jelelle. Now, however, I especially feel another whole layer of sexual energy expanding out into an invitation into a much wider place that is beyond both the teenagers and the adult relationship with sexuality. 

I especially feel how the masculine’s relationship with adequacy and sexual prowess on one hand and then the strange behaviour of needing to get to orgasm, and to effectively close the sexual space are both energies that are rooted in our fears of our sexuality. We can shy away from our sexuality, or put it out there and bury it under a performance, but in both of these polarities we see and feel our uninitiated relationship with our own sexuality. 

I’m convinced now that I’m only scratching the surface of a much deeper terrain that wants to continue to reform and inform my life with this sexual energy in a way that relates to all areas of my life. Compartmentalized and contained sexuality is a safety measure that we maybe all needed while we did or do, but the invitation is for this sexual energy of mateship with all of life and love itself to overflow into this deep sexual union where there is no difference between the love of God, the love of other and the love of self. 

Every person you meet along with yourself was portaled into this world by sexual energy and they each contain vital sexual energy as a common denominator of aliveness, with shared fears, desires and for some of us trophy experiences – but all of it is wanting to take us yet much deeper into something so much more. Can I turn in my trophies and admit I want to keep going into more?

I’m horny for that more, more than just talk, but ongoing flow into the infinite more that we each are. I hope you are too. Any and all sexual traumas, desires, fears, yearnings, trophies, sorrows, are all a portal into this deep going on place in your soul’s journey this life. 

I hope you will consider joining us for the upcoming group call this Sunday at 5pm London time, that will be tailored to individuals and couples. We ask for a donation of any amount to join. Details below.  This call is also free to all members of our SoulFullHeart Portal private network which you can join for $14.99 USD per month, which also helps support our work.

Here is the link to the Facebook event if you’d like further info or to invite a friend: https://www.facebook.com/events/109338231107311

Here is the event on our website where you can reserve your spot by making a donation: https://www.soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

A Common Challenge For Awakening Men

By  Raphael Awen

I had the pleasure of holding space for a man yesterday in session space over zoom and we encountered something together that feels really common for awakening men.

As he described some precious and powerful awakenings with Yeshua and many new places of openings recently, I couldn’t help but feel an anxious undertone in his sharing, so I just asked if he could feel a part of him that is vigilant about keeping up with awakening, and that opened out a whole portal to go into together where we felt and saw that the efforting and vigilance about awakening was being used to avoid an inner well of ‘persistent hollowness’. We were able to see and feel the part of him who lives in this hollowness and begin to see him as the one who holds vast access to creativity, as well as the men’s version of the womb, what’s known as the Hara.

This all felt so familiar to my own process of being out of touch with my own grief over the years, and with that of course, my own depression. I didn’t have any depression as near as I could tell, for decades actually, but truth was, part of me had just done an outstanding job of keeping it buried. I was quite a stellar human then, liked by many, but the treadmill of the efforting was starting to wear the benefits thin and the costs were tabulating.

I don’t think anything would have changed for me were it not for a crisis, and in some ways, an ongoing series of manageable mini crisis’ if you will.

Together in session with this man yesterday, we began to feel the call to really begin to bridge to this part of him, curiously and with open heart, get to know his reality. Negotiate with him to return out to play, not as another item on the to do list or the to be list of awakening, but just as a natural longing and appetite to get to know.

Then we felt THAT to be the ending of the efforting, as the efforting was actually being used to keep this part’s world and reality suppressed inside, when life is actually ripening this part’s reality to the surface.

I so don’t feel I could have bridged these realities inside of myself and my own healing/awakening process without ‘parts work’ as it is known. Without parts work, we just leave the part of us to pull themselves up by their own bootstraps, without them feeling a you there to be with them, to bridge and support them in the changes they wish to make, kind of like the physically present, but all too often emotionally absent parents we experienced in growing up.

When the bridging occurs between you and a part of you, the perception of what both the problem and the solutions are also shift and change and whole new worlds emerge that were not seen before.

This is the magical portal that our wounding is, offering us sacred entry into dimensions not seen or known yet. Spiritual fixes for depression or anxiety aren’t much better than the pharmaceutical fixes are as both are about the fear and avoidance of this portal.

Being ready to enter this portal is quite organic, and you simply know when you are there. The call and question about sufficient courage is outweighed by the growing inability to hold up the old way any longer.

Whatever needs to be surrendered in order to enter the portal is kind of like shrinking your life into a 2 suitcase limit on a one way overseas airplane flight. You only have 23 kilos per bag, so the question becomes about what’s coming or not. Really, you can only take yourself, and a few most necessary items. The life you’ve created and accumulated needs to be largely or completely let go of. Socially, this is probably the hardest as our underlying and unconscious social agreements are about each of us promising to remain proximal in both geography and within a certain consciousness bandwidth with one another. You could say that we co-sign one another’s agreements to stay in resonant around remaining small, that is until we default on the agreement.

Some around us understandably get pissed, and rightfully so. We were the best exemplars to the agreement, maybe even better than the others in the picture were. And now, you’re the one pulling the pin. You also have some apologies to make, but the crazy thing is, no one wants the apologies, they want you to return, but crazier still is that you’ve already morphed beyond the place where that could even be possible. There’s nothing left but to honour that with grief and sorrow and goodbyes.

‘You’re the one who changed’ my best friend once told me while out on a hiking trail trying to bridge a conversation about the growing differences between us. He was right. Our unspoken agreement had been about remaining true to a code of values, purpose and meaning. My emerging  values, purpose and meaning we’re leaving the parameters of our agreement. My old me simply couldn’t fit in the suitcase any longer and my departure date was fast approaching.

It wasn’t but a couple years later that I sat across from this friend at breakfast, with tears, and said goodbye to him, to our friendship, as where I was going was only going to leave both of us strained in a very unreal friendship, something neither of us were really capable of.

Life, real life, always brings up new enterings and leavings in this way. All of life could be summed up as a series of beginnings and endings in this way, and the most adapted to this reality, in their ability to feel grief and sorrow are truly the happiest campers. Joy comes in the morning and through the mourning.

What is it in life that is shifting and rumbling for you? What are you being asked to grieve and let go? How could you do that in a way that doesn’t leave you more wounded, withdrawn and reserved?

Could I help you make that transition? Could I help you embrace your bigger you? Could I help you find your soul family and passion purpose calling expression?

I moved into a new and brave world as a beginner, and have made some discoveries that may one day bear my name, but for now they are just here being offered to you, as these discoveries need more bold souls to test drive the living, loving and learning. Then it can be our discovery, and not just mine.

I would so welcome hearing from you, more about me and sessions at soulfullheart.org/sessions and you can email me at soulfullhearts@gmail.com. Sessions are for 90 minutes and cost $100 usd. You may also be drawn to one of the three other current SoulFullHeart facilitators, my wife, Jelelle Awen, Aurius Amara, Kasha Rokshana, whose info is also at the link above and who can be reached at the same email address above.

The pic above is from a recent group day with six of us here in Glastonbury/Avalon. We look shiny and lovely because we are most of the time, but also not without some serious mess in the playful bliss, both as couples and as a community.

Love,

Raphael 💚🌹🏄🏻‍♂️🙏🏻

Our next group call:

taking place on March 14th @ 5pm GMT (London, UK) with Raphael and Jelelle, which will focus on Sacred Sexuality. More info on that call can be found here: soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

The Joys Of Not Knowing

By  Raphael Awen

Have you ever noticed that those who claim to not know how to pray offer the best prayers?

So often, it’s our experience and familiarity with something that hampers our arising and new direct interaction with that something.

How could we return to a state of not knowing in order to have a first time experience?

Even asking this question is using experience and knowing as an attempt to return to the innocence not knowing. Isn’t it maddening when the mind gets in the way, even when it’s wanting and willing to get out of the way, but just doesn’t know how?

Wait! I think we solved it, no?

You want to get out of your own way, but don’t know how. Now, you enter the womb of surrender.

You have a desire for something that you have no power or knowledge whatsoever on how you are going to achieve that something. All you have is what you don’t have.

I feel this place where my assets of past experience don’t seem to add up to anything of salvageable value towards entering a new unknown, except for the one asset of not knowing. If I don’t know, then I get to admit that, lead with that, toddle out my first steps into the new thing, laugh goodheartedly at myself along with the others I’m entertaining in the process.

I believe you also, not too far down inside, can feel the place where you don’t know what you are doing.

What if this could be admitted, owned, and cherished instead of a thing of shame and resistance and hiding? Your not knowing is the real gold you came here to share and explore.

You enter the God-zone where even God gets to not know through you.And it makes you really interesting, fun and sexy, if you ask me. Know it alls are boring and dry.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Bridge To The Beloved: Guided Meditation From The Bridal Chamber | Raphael & Jelelle Awen (Video)

Divine Union guides, Counterpart/Twin Flame Mates and SoulFullHeart Teachers Raphael and Jelelle Awen invite you on an initiatory journey into your sacred humanity through a video series called Meditations From The Bridal Chamber. We are recently in a renewed marriage and reunion place after a brief separation and death/rebirth together. We are feeling to share from the high frequency energies of our ‘bridal chamber’, where we are experiencing deeper frequencies of reunion with each other, within, and with the Divine.

Divine Sacred Union guides Yeshua and Mary Magdalene join us in this video series, offering initiations and activations as we channel their energies through our sacred masculine and sacred feminine hearts. Yeshua and Magdalene provide a template from the fifth dimension of a twin counterpart pair bond for your inner masculine and inner feminine to receive as a source of support, activation, and guidance. They have been beloved guides to us personally, in our union, and in service for many years.

In this first video of the series, we share a brief introduction of the Bridal Chamber energies and about the fears/resistances/testing that parts of us can do as we move out of separation and into more union within, with a mate, and with the Divine. As we have done during many group calls over the years, we then move into a collaborative meditative space to guide you in bridging to your ‘Bridal Chamber’ within while offering transmissions from Yeshua and Mary. The bridal chamber is offered to both women and men as a higher dimensional space to experience the embodied frequency of their Divine Self as beloved to the Divine.

Whether you are currently in a relationship or mateship; exploring your inner sacred union in singleness; or want to deepen your connection with the Divine AS beloved; this series will activate for you what it is meant to in order to help you move out of fear, resistance, and lack realities and into abundance, love, joy, and bliss!

We would love to receive your donations and energy exchange in the form of money for this series as it supports us to keep offering them and creates an intentional energy for you in which to receive them. You can offer a donation through a general donation via our shop at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop​ or via paypal at https://www.paypal.me/jelelleawen​.

For the latest writings, videos, and information about SoulFullHeart community events and group calls, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org​.

Information about 1:1 sessions over Zoom or in-person in Glastonbury, UK with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Jelelle Awen or Kasha Rokshana for women and with Raphael Awen or Aurius Amara for men and women at https://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

Become a monthly donor member of our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks and gain access to exclusive content, share your experiences of the meditation with us, read longer writings w/personal digestions, experience a community connection with beautiful resonant souls, and MORE at https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co

Bridge To The Beloved: Sacred Union Transmission Group Call On Valentine’s Day February 14th | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

The Beloved is the energy of the Divine in a specific frequency as lover and mate that brings you into personal states of gratitude, rapture, and forgiveness as you receive this grace. The Beloved activates your longing for reunion with your counterpart soulmate, which also happens within you between your inner masculine and feminine if you are currently single. And it is all yours freely by birthright, something you never actually lost, only reawaken to as your soul is ready!

Raphael and I are excited to share from the overflow of a deeper embodiment experience of the Beloved within, with each other and with the Divine during this group call over Zoom on Valentine’s Day Sunday, February 14th at 5:00pm/17:00pm GMT (London, UK timezone….9:00am PST/10:00am MST/11:00am CST/12:00pm EST)!

During the call, we will share about our recent personal experience of death and rebirth within our long-term union that brought us to a place of renewed awareness of the Beloved as the third energy in a coupleship into which we can lean, from which we can draw all the support we need, and unto which the relationship is in service to. We will share about healing the False God projections that block experience of the Divine in this very personal and embodied Beloved frequency, along with feeling and healing the trauma from this life and karma from other lifetimes related to your capacity to let in and embody this frequency.

During this call, we will co-lead a meditation with Yeshua and Mary Magdalene/Magda to bridge to and energize the Beloved through devotional frequencies that come from the heart and soul of our renewed bond and twin pair soul connection (we’ll share more about that too.) and our soul family.Whether you are connecting primarily to your inner sacred union, have a partnership or ache for one, and/or just want to deepen your experience of the Divine AS your beloved, this transmission offers a needed bridge in the moment to support that exploration and invites you into visceral experience of the Beloved!
More info at https://www.facebook.com/events/1061373757681405 or https://www.soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

This group is open to the public and to all women and men over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. The average amount is $15 CAD. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at soulfullheart.org/shop

Or you can purchase it here through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawenand we will send you the zoom link via email. Please make a note that you are purchasing the February 14th group call and check that your email is current.

This group call is also available free to those who are members of our SoulFullHeart Portal, an online community for personal sharings, community connection, and receiving guidance/asking questions with us….I feel it may be the warmest place on the Internet!

You can join the Portal for $14.99 USD exchange per month: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co

Love,
Raphael and Jelelle Awen