DF: Happy Birthday, Wayne.

W: Yes, thank you, Divine Father.

DF: 54 years this life and what a life, Wayne…

W: Thank you. I’d really like to feel how you see my life.

DF: Thank-YOU, because that’s where I wanted to go today.

W: I open my heart to take in your words and perspective.

DF: You have relentlessly journeyed, relentlessly chosen your own growth and next phase of your life that life brought you, not in spite of your fear, but in full face of your fear. You’ve grown in so many amazing ways, that you are an anomaly in today’s world. And that you can just humbly be you, in everyday life, doing dishes, treading cob, watering the gardens, without need for any kind of false glory recognition touches me so deeply Wayne. You embody and hold my love, and you let it shape and move you, you let it fill and fulfill you.

I’m not done…there’s more.

You are like a newborn at 54. Life is taking a brand new beginning and I feel like a proud father looking in the hospital nursery window to use the metaphor you knew this life. Hell with this looking in the window shit. I’m going in. I want to hold you, and look in your eyes and convey to you my joy and crazy delight and anticipation for your life, and for what comes now. To be accurate, I don’t feel like I own you, or that you owe me anything. I just am so honored that you would bear my name and heart, and let it fill you and reflect me, and I wondrously don’t know where this will go and how this could all turn out. Of course I can’t know. Who are you is so unknown, only to become known as you unfold and do life in this newness that you keep showing up for.

I know you have never quite been in the unknown as you are right now Wayne, with beginning totally afresh with your soulmate and soulfriend, in Mexico, so off-grid that the word off-grid is merely a starting place to describe where you are. Thank you for completing a 30 plus year career last year. Thank you for choosing a new geography and life in alignment with your next growth. And triple Thank you, for not saying you couldn’t afford it, that you couldn’t go on any further, into any more crazy unknowns, that you understandably took in all you could this life. You had every chance to do just that, and I would have wept, not with disappointment, but with joy for all that you did, and my tears right now in this moment are in a state of wonder that you would and did choose what you chose, again.

I might be close to done, hold on.

I’m sorry that you’ve had to ride a line of being seen as a freak in the relationships you chose to leave and enter. I’m sorry for the loss of people connection and the pain you endured of being misunderstood at so many of your choice points. And I’d like to tell you that an era is coming to a close. You had to enter a wilderness of meaningful people connections to find this love inside of you that you find now, to know it more and more, to be enabled to fluently speak this heart language, first, you to you, and now, in an newer and more public way, you to others. This is who you are. This is your true currency. This is your true value in the world. It will be as natural as breathing and a harvest of so many of your choices and learnings up till now.

Wow, I’m waxing prophetic, Wayne, but I feel this for you. I feel you feel it for you. And I think the universe is offering you that if you want this, then you are to own it and live it and breathe it and let it in. In other words, this is still another choice point for you, not a given. I hope it is an easy choice point for you.

W: The birds are going crazy out the window right now, a whole bunch of clatter and answering to each other. I do feel the universes invitation and offering, and I do so accept this gift and my god, I can’t think of a better gift for my birthday.

DF: It’s a bit of a paradox, Wayne, because it is a gift and you earned it. Both are equally true. Being enabled to receive gifts is always a function of your choices and growth and learning.

W: Wow, okay, so I’m letting this in and the tear tracks are pausing on my face in the moment. I feel like I only have a one word vocabulary in the moment, that word being thank you.

And what comes is a feeling of feeling so special, that how could anyone else be as special as me, like you’ve used up all of the specialness jar on me. I hope it’s not a resistance to letting in what you are offering, but I want to invite people following this dialogue to be enabled to take this in personally for themselves too, somehow.

DF: Yes, because love isn’t real unless it multiplies and spontaneously combusts in hearts. Yes, because where love is without tears of deep eye to eye and heart to heart feeling, is a tragedy, lacking true flow. This love needs to be known by others, or it’s a bubble. A love bubble, mind you, which is a good thing and like love in many ways, but love is meant to flow. And what I hear you asking Wayne, is that you want others to know this love and feel this love and to help you bear this love.

W: Yes.

DF: I’m reminded of the meaning of your name – ‘burden bearer.’ You have born this burden and you still do, and a fruition is coming to pass in all of this for you. I want it for others too Wayne, just like you do, but I want them to have it with you.

W: Isn’t that a bit me-centric?

DF: It could be, if you were still running that wound, and needed to heal it. I get that the love you bear and spread to others can only come to you in the form of personal relationships to a degree that you can bear them and make room for them in your life. But I hope you see that you are to spread this great love and courageous choice ability from your heart to many others hearts, not just the few of deep personal relationship and intimacy, but also to the many. Others are to feel and know, and awaken to this love as it is given to them in the giving of your gifts. You’re the gift, birthday boy. And, yes, to answer your question, it is a bit you-centric. In fact, it’s a whole lot you-centric. What’s love without a you, and a me, fully in, emptying the specialness jar like big selfish hogs.

W: Another paradox, self centered love.

DF: Yeah, you get that one. Any love that isn’t centered in self is no love at all.

W: I wonder if I’ll need to pause the dialogues for a week just to let in today.

DF: I think you got this one Wayne. You are bigger than you know, you know?

W: I know. I know I don’t know.

DF: Another paradox. True knowing is always contained in not knowing.

W: Thank you so much Father for this incredible gift today. I love you.

DF: I love you too Wayne, so much. Happy birthweek!

Wayne Vriend is a healer and author of 90 Days With Yeshua. Visit soulfullheart.com for more information.