Becoming: A Poem

by Kasha Rokshana

Maybe it’s readiness
That draws the curtains on our fate.
And maybe readiness has never been about
anything missing,
wrong,
or unmastered.

Maybe readiness has always been about
Now letting in
All the love there always is to receive,
being willing to go in
and feel
Where, how, why
Certain pockets of our being,
Certain parts within our heart,
Certain aspects of our vast soul
Put aside love as any possible answer
To any pain, ache, or desire.

Maybe…
Maybe it’s the vulnerability
Of humbly feeling unready
That brings in the openings we crave and cave into?
Perhaps it’s mostly in our humility,
Our willingness to start all over again,
Our ability to feel it all,
Where we feel our Divine calling to love
And be love
To experience deep and soulful romantic love
To draw to us our fated encounters,
Our synchronized alignments,
And our most beloved unfolding
Into everything we are
And are now ready to claim
…And be claimed by.

The Divine, the Great Love that holds us steady
through the tumult.
The energy inspiring our growing centres,
Encouraging, always, our deepening trust in all there is to endure,
Brings us homeward to ourselves
In ever-unexpected ways
Through waves of grief, fear, longing,
And yes,
Grace too.

We are everything
Rather than nothing.
We are aliveness
So much more so than deadness.
We are alchemy brewing and moving
Even in our toughest, tightest, flattest,
and most uncertain phases.

We are readying, steadying,
Living into
The greatest fates we could imagine
With every shake and quake of our hearts
And awakening of our souls
Into a new reality
Blossoming from the depths
And caverns
And crevices
Inside the inside of everything we are
Everything we ever were
And everything we are yet to embrace
In our ready, open, aligned
Becoming.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Healing Perfectionism With Divine Love

By Raianna Shai

Perfectionism is expressed by many different parts of us, in varied ways and for so many reasons. I’m sure many of us can relate to the constant need to control the outcome or appearance of everything we do. The fear of doing something wrong or being judged for it is running in the background of our minds even in everyday, simple tasks. We often feel tension and anxiety when something unfolds in a way we did not expect or control. Maybe it comes up when you have reactions you don’t want to have, or there’s conflict you wanted to avoid, or you chose to do something that you realize others would judge.

Perfectionism is often used as a way to protect the most precious and vulnerable parts of us which has been so needed in certain phases of our lives. Overtime it becomes so ingrained in us from messaging by society, matrix coding from as far back as birth, personal desire to appear a certain way, and to avoid judgement and loss. But it gets to a certain point where it prevents those vulnerable parts from growing into their bigness and recognizing that they don’t need that protection to the same degree anymore.

Perfectionism for myself has been so strong my entire life. I strived to be a perfect student, perfect friend, perfect girlfriend, perfect daughter, perfect community member. And slowly but surely I’ve come to unwind this ingrained desire to avoid any and all judgement and conflict. Much of this has been rooted in the idea that I’m not good enough and that I’ll lose everything I love so much. The moment we separated from the Divine, we were given an underlying feeling of guttural and tragic loss of our home frequency of love and connection. So much unworthiness stems from that loss and everyday we try to prove we are good enough to the divine in some way, shape or form.

Freedom can be found in the moments when all parts of us are nourished and aligned: heart, body, mind, soul and spirit. When we allow ourselves to let in true divine love, we are then able to realize that we can truly do no wrong from the perspective of the Divine. This is really the only place we can find unconditional love and acceptance. When we let go of expectation, obligation and self consciousness – we find liberation.

Freedom for me was felt in the picture I’ve attached to this post. That week I felt the words from the Divine rumble through me when she said “You are my everything”. The energy and truth of these words started to unlock this strong hold parts of me had on the idea of not being good enough. We truly are everything to her – everyone of us and in every way. In the moment of this picture I stepped away from something that was bringing me tension and took in beautiful nature and sunset codes with my beloved Kasha and every part of me felt nourished and aligned.

Freedom is found when we take the time to remind every part of ourselves, even the ones that are hard to love, that they always have been and always will be good enough. Even when there’s room to grow, even when there are regrets, even when the future is unknown – they are good enough and more. And the more we see this bigness in ourselves, the more we can see and feel it in others. And from there, the love spreads like wildfire.

Love,
Raianna Shai

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Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and website designer of the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

“I love you”: Message Of Encouragement From The Divine

by Kasha Rokshana

(Art by Glenyss Bourne)

In all of life’s
infinite complications…

There’s always a voice
whispering,

“I love you”…

Even if
Part of you
Isn’t able to hear it
Or
Isn’t able to let in

The voice remains,
still whispering,

“I love you”.

Then…
you realize
this voice is yours
And the Divine’s
Rolled back into One.

Even when something
So deep inside you
thought everything was over,
That the complications have ‘won’,
that it’ll never know love again…

The voice remains
and still it whispers,

“I love you”,
And as a toddler
Makes its strides with watchful eyes,
your heart knows
And remembers steadily
That somehow
This voice,
These words,
Are its true home.

And when it’s ready,
With a steadiness in tow,
It begins to whisper back,

“I love you too…”

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Being Part Of ‘The Great Arising’

by Kasha Rokshana

“You are the Great Arising. 

It is different than the Great Awakening. 

It’s what happens as you move into the Higher Heart space as you awaken. It is the embodiment of your Divine Self (as you step through and into the process of this embodiment).

There’s nothing here to achieve. Yet, there is so much MORE to arise into, rooted always in the heart.”

~ Divine Mother

I feel this invitation and its many layers this morning in particular. This morning, that like many recent mornings and perhaps mornings throughout human history, will lead into a day which for many will feel like suffering to some degree. For such is the state of the world both inside and out… the hiding, the fighting, the pushing and pulling. 

I feel how the cries of the world can seem cinematic in moments and can feel like it’s something happening ‘out there’ rather than anything I am (or any of us who live in a more removed/remote space are) personally involved in so much. The gravitas though of feeling what’s moving through the world and what my own soul has experienced of the world is not something to put away for too long. The invitation calls and I go… and I’ll be going into it deeper still.

I feel the love and grace of the Divine reminding us all that no matter what it is we feel ready to feel in our own inner worlds or in the outer one, we are infinitely held. It’s the letting in of that holding that can truly be the challenge. And the letting in of the Divine’s tears for all of us as it feels us and holds us in its heart is the sort of stuff that blows the heart wide open.

As the sun rays float through my window in this moment as I write this, I’m reminded too of the beacons of hope and love that we all have the capacity to become. This sort of embodiment is not transcendent but deeply alchemical and alive, offering us invitation after invitation to keep feeling what needs us in our inner worlds while feeling connected still to the outer. 

I’ve not ever been able (in this lifetime) to transcend feeling. The bigger piece here for my process has always been about opening up to feeling others deeper and not only myself and my own parts/soul aspects. The compassion from myself to others is ever-deepening, especially when boosted by Divine invitation, inner movements, and holding space for others, which all remind me again and again of how important the inner work is, but also how important the overflow from that inner work is.

To truly arise as Sacred Humans, this process has its downturns and upticks, its wobbles and its straight lines. It’s a chaotic mess at times and extreme bliss at others. It’s the holding of hope and love, expanding out into true forgiveness and compassion toward self and others, and it’s the most humbling thing I’ve ever witnessed and experienced. 

We ARE the Great Arising, as Mother offers. We are expanding beyond ‘awakening’ and moving into much deeper things that in some ways haven’t been lived into by humanity yet. 

As our souls and hearts arise together as one in each of us and all together, we experience what is becoming so possible to truly embody…

Love,

Kasha & Divine Mother

Photo is of my altar which I light every morning for meditation/Divine & inner connection time!

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Bliss-Mess You Came Here To Be

by Kasha Rokshana

You came here to be…

A mess.

Sometimes a mother, sister, father, or brother.

Sometimes a son or daughter.

Sometimes a Queen or King.

Sometimes feeling connected to the Divine, sometimes not.

Sometimes feeling whole, sometimes feeling fractured.

Sometimes feeling happy, sometimes feeling depressed.

You came here to experience your humanity as you embody your divinity.

You came here to be fully human and somehow, as you feel more worthy of it, fully divine too.

You came here to sometimes be the trigger and the triggered.

You came here to realize that even in all your lostness, you will always be found…

Even when parts of you would rather hide from the impact of life, love, and growth for the rest of their lives…

To embrace the ups, downs, and everything in-between

Is the ongoing journey of learning and discovering.

It’s the ongoing unplugging from the Matrix you’ve grown up in, happening in ways sometimes unknown.

For me,

The way has often been messy. The forest cannot always be seen for the trees surrounding me. Sometimes the hills have seemed much harder to climb than the experience of actually climbing them turns out to be. Sometimes I’ve felt crucified by others, but more so by soul aches and pains and inner punishment. I’ve felt with parts of me the desire to push away at love rather than let in and so many of the forms that’s taken. I’ve felt the pressure of an entire generation of healers and creatives, who feel they have to be, look, or seem one way when they are really in deep need of being held and felt.

The way of letting in Divine love is always unique,

Will always move YOU into the situations you most need in order to feel where to go next within you,

To make room for more of the Divinity waiting for your humbled embodiment.

It won’t look the way parts of you have imagined it would,

And it won’t be an easy path,

But it will be fraught with grace,

Laden with love,

And held by the Divinity of a world that is both dying and being reborn at the same time… within and without.

Lots of love,

Kasha ♥️

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Lammas/Lughnasadh Energies Support Feeling What’s Real, Letting Go Of What Was

By Kasha Rokshana

The festival of Lammas was yesterday, which is celebrated at the halfway point between Summer Solstice and Autumn Equinox. It is the ‘first harvest’. And it also, as with all festivals, seems to represent a death and rebirth of its own…

There’s something about letting in all we’ve harvested from life as we once knew it. We are letting old ways ‘die’ now and be cut down like overripe grains in a field. We are being guided by Divine energies that want to help us with this process, which is ongoing, of letting go of what was, being with what is, and letting in what’s now becoming possible beyond the dystopia which is also very real at the moment.

When grains are harvested, they are threshed. It’s a pretty aggressive-feeling process of literally ‘separating the wheat from the chaff’. What was actually artificial in our ways of life and ways of being, interfacing with the world around us, is on the threshing floor and all we can really do in the midst of that is surrender to the process…

You see, this way of life we’ve all been accustomed to of hyper-autonomy and even anonymity afforded us by typical Western lifestyles where we live within concrete and/or drywall, pressing the Gaian elements and surrounding energies as far away from us as possible so parts of us can feel ‘safe’ and ‘in control’, is dying. Parts of us strategizing ways to avoid the lessons of life and even venturing into discomfort to see what growth and healing lies on the other side of it, are the parts being very challenged right now.

We’re being supported, invited, and even pushed into really looking at the ways in which we’ve settled within our once sacred cocoons. We’re being invited to recognize where we haven’t really let anyone in deeply or taken the risk for real intimacy within and with others, let alone real intimacy with Gaia herself and what she mirrors for each of us.

On this ‘threshing floor’, we are being shaken of our artifice, layer by layer, and it’s time to take the space needed to truly feel how this is impacting us, feeling what’s REAL, and navigating our lives from there.

Nothing like choosing a camping lifestyle to really help with this process for me personally right now. There is so much I can’t control and there are moments where I feel parts of me very uncomfortable with this… yet also, almost at the same time, I feel my soul awakening and compensating somehow for this, helping me hold space for the process and linking me up to very needed Divine energies within and without. It helps of course that I’m not alone here and doing this with beloveds who I love and trust. That makes all the difference in the world.

Wherever this ‘threshing’ process is taking you now, know that you are so loved, so held, and actually being asked to LIVE even when you feel like you are dying.

Much love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Rebooting Human Instincts During This Matrix Peak & Collapse

By Kasha Rokshana

Every time I shift my geography or a life phase itself, I’m doing so with a whole lot in my heart and awareness. I’m choosing what I’m choosing because it feels like a calling. It feels like being true to why my soul has chosen to be here on this planet at this time and it feels like the best and closest Divine alignment I can choose in order to truly live into that.

I feel a shedding of identities and ways of seeing and feeling the world that no longer fit where I’m headed and where I most need to go in my consciousness.

I feel, in every shift really but especially this latest one, that I’m returning to an instinctual way of living. I’m removing, piece by piece and layer by layer, the ‘padding’, if you will, of a life where I could afford to be told what was true, told what I needed, and encouraged strongly to lean into the structures and authorities in place without question or at least not SO many questions and especially ones that are actually about life and death.

What I mean by that, is that I was afforded a luxurious life being born into a country where corruption was well hidden yet also always in open view, more or less, if you knew where to look. I was groomed to be a part of a system that never sat right to me and that parts of me formed in order to interact with and survive in.

I’m not the only one.

The Great Awakening is a peeling back of these layers for all of us, even at different rates. There’s so much to reckon with and recognize. There’s also still SO much to question, perhaps now more than ever, and it’s actually our instinctive selves that are the ones who sniff this out.

It’s our instinct to question and to seek out answers beyond the sleepiness we’ve been accustomed to. The sleepiness of the daily grind, of occasional holidays, of living to work, of saving for the promise of ‘freedom one day’ through ‘retirement’. And now that sleepiness is being counted on by government and medical systems everywhere to bring us to an even deeper slumber through their poisonous means which have actually always been inherently poisonous with many ‘wolves in sheep’s clothing’ running the show.

If you pause for even a moment and turn off the voices all around and inside of you while simply feeling what’s rumbling through you… you may just begin to tune into that instinct you’ve been told to stuff down since childhood, that you’ve been taught to tame through the education system, and maim as you medicate in the various ways that advertising and Netflix films have taught you to embrace.

‘Fight or flight’ has either been overly active in you through the anxiety parts of you have felt for many years or non-existent because you’ve believed your caregivers/authority figures when they’ve told you that everything is ‘fine’ as long as you ‘follow the rules, pay your taxes, do what you’re told is right by those who should know better than you what that even IS’.

This instinct to question, to run away, to push away, is not wrong now nor has it ever been wrong… it was just trained to go dormant, same as it is for those who have been a part of any ‘high-control cult’ where questioning is out of the question or you will suffer greatly and be gaslighted endlessly.

To return to our instinct and let it be real again is to return to the sacredness of our humanity and to heal the suffering of many years of deep and even dark indoctrination. There’s been goodness too of course and much has been learned, for you wouldn’t be who you are now without these lessons and growth points and now you and we ALL have even more potent ones to walk out.

What I feel in all of this is a mourning and a sobriety but also a lot of hope and trust. If the way things were is falling apart at the seams as we all cast off our heavy blankets and shake off our slumber, we’ll no doubt start seeing the shifts we’ve been craving. If we can let it all fall apart and hold onto to our inner Ark, we have more than just hope… we have the promise of a new day and a new Golden Age which we will usher in together.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Trusting Where Your Personal Truth & Guidance Is Leading You

by Kasha Rokshana

The journey back to instinct and intuition is messy at best. It means going against the grain of your culture, being told things on the outside and then having to discern, constantly, whether it’s actually true or not.
There’s a very real tension in that process and it’s worth every moment for the maturity it offers as you move through it.

This whole process of coming to Portugal and starting to find out ways to bridge our inner sanctuaries to the manifestation/draw of an outer one, has been messy but instinctual. It’s called both Gabriel and I to a LOT of trust and to feel where the issues still lie in aspects of us who have a hard time trusting.

And the journey of trusting and intuiting continues as we still hold more questions than answers but are learning to somehow live into that flow.

We not only arrived here unscathed (despite all tensions we had to feel along the way) but we also feel the deep warmth of this country opening its arms to us. I’m even feeling this morning the Divine Mother/Father frequencies of this land and what lies beneath the 3D ‘history’ of it. I feel the embrace that comforts and challenges too as we get used to living in a different culture and country yet again with a different spoken language and also a different heart and soul language in some ways. I feel humbled by the process it’s been to even get here (mostly internally, as the external did have a grace and flow to it actually) and the process that we are stepping into to be here physically, emotionally, and spiritually.

I feel that since the Solstice, we’ve all been invited to make a choice. A choice to commit to something that we instinctually and intuitively feel we need to make. We have the right to make a call on what we feel we need most, for that reflects what our souls have signed up to do and be here at this time. When all outside sources tell us to go one way, we really should consider all ways and feel what it is that is right for us and our path. The Solstice invited us to feel a renewed conviction around our own choices and to bravely step into them. The energies have been so supportive of that and we are very grateful for the learning experience this has been…

I feel all of this with all my heart this morning. I feel how sobering and yet alive it is to truly live into what you feel aligned with, no matter what ‘truth’ you feel to subscribe to. For us, we feel it’s a growing necessity to make sure you are living where you feel you want and NEED to be, to have a supportive sanctuary inside and out that can help you through these times that are only growing in intensity.
Sidebar: it feels SO good to be able to relax enough into myself after the journey here that I can feel enough context to write like this again!

Thank you for following along with our own journey and I do hope it inspires your own somehow, whatever you feel committed to choosing and however things play out for you as you go.

We’ll both be back with more alchemy around the work/process we embody and offer very soon as we get more settled. We will keep you posted on that as it flows!

So much love,
Kasha ♥️

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

From Stone Circle To Crop Circle: Messages & Seeds Of Divine trust & Ongoing Support

by Kasha Rokshana

On Monday, Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, and I set out for our second visit to Avebury Henge, the largest ancient stone circle in the EU, which we had been planning for a while. We had planned an overnight trip together so that we could take our time at Avebury and then see what arose for the next day. None of us were very clear on what we wanted to do or were being guided to see, we just felt that Avebury had more magic to offer us since our very first trip there at the beginning of our time in the UK.

Avebury

Well, it turned out to be a major gateway into the new for us… the deepening invitation into Divine alignment and trust as we make our way into our next phase in Portugal. It was sweet, tender, comforting, and grounding to touch the stones… not so activating as it was the very first time we visited. We are more calibrated to these lands now, it seems, and we’ve definitely gotten the soul discoveries, awakenings, and healing experiences that we came here for and to serve love from.

On Tuesday we were on our way to what we thought would be our next destination visiting Uffington and the White Horse etched into the hill there… but then came an intuition from Jelelle to check out Crop Circle Connector. We had been hoping and praying that since we were staying where crop circles usually show up this time of year, we would be able to go to one while in the area… well, as soon as I checked online, there was a crop circle waiting for us about 34min from where we were! It felt surreal at first, yet the reality of the adventure, the brand new experience, set in quickly and everything inside of me felt excited and ready.

Shaw Hill Crop Circle – the one we visited

Finding the coordinates for the circle took a bit of effort, and when I did finally find them, there was a tiny ache of doubt in my heart that they would work out in the end. Even though they seemed ‘verified’, there was a small fear that for us, for some reason, they wouldn’t work, and the magical experience that we all wanted to claim wouldn’t come true.

Well, that’s sort of been my experience of life lately, even though I’ve had such deep trust in the Divine and in life that has truly led me through many challenges and into very new experiences, synchronicities, and a magical rediscovery of my very own soul. So much tension has had to move through my physical body, manifesting in pain that had me in tears. Completely locked up were my muscles, fascia, joints. I’ve very consciously been holding this process of moving from tension into trust… a trust that has to go deeper than ever, as the unknowns of living in the growing intensity of peaking global fear and reactivity as the Matrix continues its collapse needs to be navigated.

I felt my Star Seed all lit up though as we entered the field, and I knew she knew that our connection to Star/Inner Earth Mu family would lead us to it, even when doubts would creep in.

I eventually started walking directly behind Raphael who I could feel had a strong intuition he was following on where to go. I could feel my god-baby self toddling along behind his, ready to discover magic. Sure enough and soon enough, we arrived… and that feeling was like a WOOSH of energy passing over the body! Relief, validation, and a reminder that trust and intuition are key, all waved through and over me at once.

The gently lain crop looked like ocean waves and rivulets rolling through in perfect harmony. They were bent but not broken. An outer will had been applied to them, but they had collaborated and not fought against it. Harmony, yes, that’s a great way to describe their energy.

When we entered the centre point, there was a toroidal, spiraling pattern created by the gently bent crop. It culminated in the absolute centre where the energy was strongest. We all paused to sit in a circle around it and feel what we were being offered in the moment. My Inner Earth Lemurian aspect, Myren, came forward with a message to share about the sweetness and innocence of desire for magic and the trust that actually can feel quite natural. Trusting the guidance while also taking care of yourself, feeling yourself, along the way.

Crop Circle glow!

I felt her and my Star Family, especially the Pleaidians who it feels like helped create this circle, validating the experience of doubt and tension along this ongoing journey of unplugging from the Matrix we were born into and are meant to help collapse with love. I felt them honouring the leap-of-faith that is required to remain here on this planet while also reaching for the higher-dimensional experiences we also need to continually let in. I felt how much love and support we are all being offered, always, and how they leave these works of art as a transmission and reminder of that ongoing support.

It’s comforting to feel that, isn’t it?

I feel all of this and so much more still integrating from the experience… the codes offered by such a creation are both subtle and obvious, as they go into us on so many levels at once! It feels as if they offer us all such personal messages that we need to hear and feel, yet also they offer such global and collective ones that can be interpreted in many different ways.

We have access to such healing and love, and we have only to ask for the support to help us let it in as it seeds something new from deep within us that can only grow, bloom, and spread with proper care.

Love to you, with you, always…
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

SoulFullHeart Museletter: May 29, 2021

Lots of intense energy waves, awakenings, and more have moved through in these last two weeks, compounded by the energies of the recent Supermoon and Lunar Eclipse! There is much to digest around our personal empowerment, access to the Divine within and without, and our relationship to the world at large as the collective awakening continues…

In this issue of our Museletter we feature a piece from Kasha Rokshana about Divine Father and the process of differentiating His genuine energies from those that are often taught about or experienced through our own birth fathers. Connection with Divine Father supports us all at this time, along with opening out our connection to Divine Mother.

Divine Father and healing the inner father wound is the focus for the next women’s call with Kasha and Jelelle this Sunday, May 30th at 5pm BST. More info on this call and how to donate to join live and/or receive the recording here: soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

Our writings and audio blogs this week offer energy updates and digestion of the energies moving through with the Supermoon, bridging to New Lemuria consciousness, and connection with the Divine and the Divine Self within.

You can take in the latest Museletter here and subscribe to receive them in your email as well:

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Love,

~ The SoulFullHeart Community