Authentic Masculinity & The Return To King

Authenticity and masculinity.

These are two roads that are intersecting for me recently. They are actually running parallel seeking to become one. As my inner work continues with my own personal sessions, I am finding this nexus of authentic, masculine leadership to be my next going on place. It reverberates with a lot of questions and curiosities.

Who is this authentic masculine within?
When has it showed up and when has it not?

These are self-loving questions and not a judgement as to when it hasn’t.

As a man that has realized his own inner feminine leanings, this is sacred ground. I have been feeling my inner feminine, Geneveive, becoming more comfortable in my heart as an integral part of who I am as a man. With this relaxing, the suppressed masculine within is coming to the surface to find His authentic place on the throne next to her.

As with any suppressed masculine, it comes with an edgy, maybe even defensive, energy, as it has not really had much practice being out in the world. As that energy comes into me I feel this a part of me. His name is Sarge (for Sergeant). As repressed masculine, he came to me as an inner punisher. Yelling and judging to be heard. That was a deep process of feeling him and his vulnerabilities and needs.

What I felt recently in my session with Jelelle, was how this authentic masculine energy had been neutralized in protection against my father’s rage and the perception of my mother’s fragility. A dynamic that stunted this initiation into the world. In some ways, at the age of 48, I feel like this is the beginning of this initiation. I had to be with some reaction to that only to feel how this is the way it has just played itself out.

In this initiation, I am dropping this old relationship to Woman (via Mom) and Man (via Dad) to feel what my authentic masculine leadership needs/wants as well as its effect on my feminine and younger parts. It is a process of moving from Knight to King on the chessboard of growth. I feel the kings of my Metasoul eager to guide me and activate me on this journey.

In the past this felt like a scared place, but now it feels sacred. It feels natural and ripe. With is comes uncertainty and unpredictability, but that feels alive to this arising masculine. It is the wounded masculine that seeks order and the known. The true King has the Order within and brings that energy to all that is around Him. I feel Divine Father in this moment than I ever have.

It is this Return to King that I want to make transparent to all the men that feel this in their hearts and souls. It is from this place that I seek to serve and lead. Amen.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Sobering, Activating, And Powerfully Burning Solar Eclipse Energies

By Kalayna Solais

Darkness, sobriety, landing in what’s real. The bursting of much-beloved (though sometimes also resented) bubbles of what parts of you had held as reality.

This is the energy of the Dark Mother/Madonna face of Divine Mother, powerful and unsentimental yet deeply loving. This is the invitation back inward from this upcoming Solar Eclipse, on the feminine (moon) side of it.

Support to keep feeling what’s real and to make space for the pain that surfaces, yet to FEEL and let in that you ARE supported and deeply loved…

This is the energy of the Father Sun/Metatron face of the Divine Father, helping you activate and step into NEW timelines even through the rubble of what has just crumbled and deeply feeling you and your parts in the sobriety and sadness. This is the invitation of going inward and yet not hiding your newly awakening desires and the Phoenix within you, another energy offered by this upcoming Eclipse. This time from the masculine (sun) side of it.

I feel the sobriety and continuing mirror of this Eclipse and what these energies are offering rumbling through as I write this. It can certainly feel intense at times, especially if you’re shifting from an outward focus and going back inward. This is something I’ve experienced personally with almost every phase of shifting timelines so for me this is an ongoing invitation to keep bringing it ALL back inward, taking in ALL of life’s reflections and letting them help and support me to cultivate more love inside of me, less suffering, more significant movement into the NEW.

Important cosmic events like this Eclipse help bring us back to the foundations upon which we’ve been relating to life and love. They have a way of encouraging old phases and relationships to burn up so we can all begin to see what’s been REAL about them, especially how parts of us have been relating to it all. The masculine and feminine parts of you have their own personal ways with which they relate to all of life and also to each other. It’s important to feel the polarity dance of these energies inside of you in order to understand more of what could be happening, why you could be drawing or not drawing what you are on the outside.

Raphael and Jelelle Awen created a video and guided meditation for connecting with your inner Sacred Union of feminine/masculine that I highly recommend taking in:

I’m finding it especially important and clarifying to check in daily with these energies inside, to see how they’re doing and if they’re flowing together or not. It’s a way to see the ‘state of your INNER union’, if you will. 🙂 Sometimes my masculine is frustrated with my feminine or vice versa. Sometimes one is overwhelming the other instead of actually caring about their impact on each other. When they dance in more harmony and balance and love, alchemy happens. More moments of joy happen. Life just generally feels more empowering and so much better, even if there are still some sobering circumstances moving through.

Eclipses especially seem to bring messages of inner masculine/feminine polarities… the dance between feeling and doing, going inward and flowing outward, INtegration and ACTivation. It’s a highly creative and alchemical time too, even if there’s deep and necessary mourning. There’s always something about returning back home to yourself, your parts, your heart and soul and the consciousness it truly embodies right NOW that helps you step into whatever is ‘next level’ for you, especially next level of love inside.

Much love to you during this much needed and alive, though quite sobering Eclipse phase… collectively and personally. ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Solstice As An Invitation To Divine Father Healing, Initiation, And Activation: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (June 17, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

Happy Solstice!

Celebrating the SOULstice today brings with it the energy of Divine Father and the Sacred Masculine. He is offering His heart as a space holder for all you are feeling at this time and the new phase you are entering. He is offering many activations and initiations as well.

Launching our Museletter this week is a digestion from Gabriel Solais of the energies, love, and compassion that Divine Father offers us ongoingly yet especially during this Solstice passage:

 

“Divine Father offers us encouragement when we feel stuck, inspiration when we are lost, passion when we fall flat. He also provides us with the care, compassion, and wisdom of a tribal elder. He means a lot to each of us, both man and woman, as the counterpart to Mother’s Love.”

 

The next virtual event will be a Group Transmission on July 2nd.

The focus of this group on Tuesday, July 2, 2019 at 10:00am PDT is to connect to the codes and activations available during the first total SOULar eclipse since July, 2017. Jelelle will teach about how SOULar energies provide a sacred masculine activation of clarity, soul purpose, empowerment, next actions and choice points toward your higher timeline. Eclipses offer a truly powerful boost of this energy with many people reported major life changes and transformations happening during and after them.

There are many new writings and audio blog recordings this week from Raphael, Jelelle, Gabriel, Kalayna, and Raianna. They include energy updates about a recent crop circle, the full moon that occurred this week, different Divine love downloads and sharings, as well as windows into some personal processes.

Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities.

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Divine Father Message For Today’s Solstice: Your New Day Is Dawning

By Kalayna Solais

“I know that the night must end,

and that the sun will rise…”

~ ‘Endless Night’ from the Lion King Musical

There’s a strong energy today from Divine Father in many different faces. He is here to celebrate the Solstice with us while holding space too for whatever is coming up from within us to be felt and held in our hearts. Maybe you’re more in a mourning phase rather than a celebration, or maybe you’ve just come through a rebirth canal and are feeling renewed and relieved. In either case, Father is very much here to be in all of that with you and with every part of you in reaction to it.

He is offering in the moment,

“Beloved of my very being…

I know the realizations hurt. I know the celebrations can be bittersweet. I know you have lost loved ones unfairly, I know it can feel nearly impossible to believe in Love, I know it hurts sometimes to even just wake up in the morning.

I also offer, however, that no matter what you’re facing or even celebrating, you’re meant to be exactly where you are.

You may feel like a rat in a labyrinth of sorts, yet every turn you choose, you’re on your way to a new phase, a new day, a new release into something higher and better than what you’ve yet experienced. You may feel like things cannot possibly BE any better than they are, yet even this is another stop on the journey that undulates, expands, and contracts. You are always on your way somewhere. You are never abandoned. I AM here, I AM with you, I AM holding you, even when it’s hard to feel as if I could be anywhere at all.

The night ends. The new day dawns. You are not ever ending, though your current phase may be… you are always and forever on your journey, infinitely growing, infinitely finding your way, infinitely deepening in the gravitas of the love that you ARE.

With so much LOVE, so much encouragement, so much support for you to BE where you are and even who you are in this moment,

~ Divine Father”

This Solstice feels as if it brings with it a poignant rebirth. The birth contractions are real and many of you have been experiencing them deeply, as have I, yet His presence is here and now, holding our hands with every new step we take.

Though His presence can be controversial because of much projection onto Him, he invites us all individually to keep letting Him in however we can. This may mean that feeling Him is more triggering than comforting for a time, yet I feel deeply that he gets why that is and holds space even for the angst that needs to be vented without judgement, only presence.

Maybe today you’ll feel His presence in the sun shining on your skin, your plants, your swimming pool. Maybe today you’ll feel His arms around your shoulders as you sob and cry out against the unfairness parts of you are feeling about life right now. Maybe today you’ll feel him cheering alongside you as you move into the dawning of your new day.

The night is not endless. The new day must dawn. And in that entire process, He is here to love you as you courageously choose to just keep going, whatever that means for you in this moment.

Much love!

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Solstice As An Invitation To Divine Father Healing, Initiation, And Activation

With each gateway and portal we are being offered an invitation to be initiated. For me personally, this Solstice is a sacred masculine initiation. It is about letting in the love and guidance of the Divine Father. This relationship is one that He is in deep desire for healing and transmuting. So much of the wounded masculine has been projected unto Him, and it makes it difficult for parts of us to let His true love enter us, to activate us into new states of consciousness.

While we are in need to balance the effects of this wounded masculine upon our planet with the Divine Feminine, we are also in need to rework this relationship to Father. Our own 3D experiences with our fathers, and metasoul experiences with duty, judgment, oppression, etc. have a lasting impact in this relationship to Him.

Going into our wounding via the emotional and spiritual bodies can help to regain a more loving and open channel from and to His aching heart. He wants so much to be a part of our lives in a new way. He is helping me to move through a very difficult time in my life, as well as offering me guidance to what is possible and desirable for me as an ascending human man.

Divine Father offers us encouragement when we feel stuck, inspiration when we are lost, passion when we fall flat. He also provides us with the care, compassion, and wisdom of a tribal elder. He means a lot to each of us, both man and woman, as the counterpart to Mother’s Love.

We are in need of sacred activism, first from within and then without. We are in need of building a new world grounded in self-love overflowing into those who need it the most. We are in need of the courage to face our darkest faces and bring them into the court of compassion. This is the way of the Father. This is his new legacy in union with Mother and the feminine. We do that by choice for He comes when we invite him, when we intend, and when we feel.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Equinox & Supermoon Live Stream & Guided Meditation

This journey of today’s Equinox and tomorrow’s incoming Supermoon has been a mega time of upheavals and transitions, changes and deep transformations, shadow illumination and possibilities for healing on all levels. During this live stream, SoulFullHeart Facilitators (and newlyweds!), Gabriel and Kalayna Solais, offer a powerful guided meditation to help call in and ground in the incoming energies from the sun and moon. They also offer a digestion of the incoming energies and what they may be pushing up for you or helping you with on your ongoing journey of transitioning to higher and higher personal timelines.

This live stream was recording live on Facebook on March 20, 2019.

Kalayna and Gabriel both wrote about the incoming energies in different blog posts, two of which can be found here:

https://soulfullheartblog.com/2019/03/20/equinox-supermoon-bring-support-for-transitions-into-the-new/

https://soulfullheartblog.com/2019/03/18/equinox-passage-illuminates-shadow-4d-cycle-of-fear-to-heal-and-integrate-with-love/

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333: ‘Divine Align’ Higher Timeline Opportunities, Next Steps INvitation

By Kalayna Colibri

It’s 333 Day today! A powerful time to feel where you truly are right now, to acknowledge yourself for where you’ve been, and to see the illumination of where you’ve yet to go… it’s a day for conscious creativity, to see how your creativity has expressed, and to feel your intentions for your creative flow from now on.

‘Divine Align’ comes to mind and heart right now, but of course this can be much easier said than done… the journey into this alignment is truly one of exploring and refining your integrity, feeling parts of you that are afraid of being vulnerable and truly admitting when they are out of integrity, and being courageous enough to take those steps into the deeper truth of this.

We are creative beings. We can’t stop creating. There are new opportunities to create and recreate starting from inside of us in every single moment. We have infinite choices in this world of infinite possibilities. We are choosing, always, whether or not we are ready to take the next step into our higher timeline and if we are truly ready to align with the Divinity within. I feel reassurance today that there are no setbacks and there’s no way to really go ‘backwards’ even when parts of you feel like they have.

Your Inner Protector may especially feel like they’ve ‘failed’ you, failed their ‘mission’ to protect you from hurt, harm, and even love when love is catalytic and feels like a tidal wave coming in to shake up your entire world. Yet, even this very powerful part of you does not have the ultimate say as to what unfolds for your soul and the bigger picture of your life…

If you’re up for meeting your Protector today and feeling their story with them, here’s a powerful video and guided meditation from Jelelle Awen that you can take in:

I have felt many times with an Inner Masculine part of me, which once expressed as an Inner Protector for me too, this fear of ‘failure’ and have felt very tenderly, with many tears, all the ways in which they feel they’ve ‘failed’ or ultimately let you, or (sometimes especially) ‘God’ down. It’s a relief to them when you can let some air into the room and remind them that they haven’t…

Today, with this ‘333’ Divine alignment of numbers, it’s another invitation to let in Divine love in this way and let this love rumble even your most defended parts of you, to help you shift from fear to love on a deeper level, aligning you with clarities about your personal service-of-love expression if it’s truly time for that, and bringing you a sense of empowerment in your life that may show you an array of choices you’re invited to feel into.

The Divine truly celebrates YOU today and always… and is inviting you, without a doubt, into your next co-creative steps with It as you become ready to deeply embrace them. ❤️

Much love!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: Support To Feel Soul Bigness Coming In

by Kalayna Colibri

There is SO much support coming in to help you feel your soul bigness, even beyond what you’ve thought of as your biggest self thus far. These codes are activating your true service-of-love possibilities and asking you to show up in a very direct way that may feel more like a demand than a request in moments! These moments are when you are called into action in such a way that stretches your capacity to hold yourself and your parts while also showing up in service to others.

A time to pop out of the old way of responding to life, self, others, and above all, love… and to expand into what is more in line with how your Higher Self would respond to all of these pieces. These waves tend to be sparked in the Inner Masculine in both men and women and you may actually feel this as a more masculine energy than a feminine one… one of heeding a call to loving yet direct action and penetrating through false bubbles (with love… this is where the feminine comes in to help at times), while holding compassionate space for others and for parts of you too as needed.

I sincerely feel this invitation for myself too in this moment and all moments leading up to this one in the last two days at least… the energies coming from the Sun have been especially powerful and activating and I feel how the tides are turning for those of us, myself included, who are here to serve love from the overflow of love now cultivated within after many years of focus on healing the self. For me, I feel the invitation to continue to step into my leadership and bigness, and to be open to how that chooses to express right now.

This is a truly amazing time to continue to awaken and to feel the wounded masculine and feminine aspects/parts within begin to deeply shift into the sacred from the scared… this process is different for everyone, yet palpable just the same and very impactful, inevitably, on the deep healing of self and the collective too.

It definitely feels appropriate to connect with Divine Father or any loving Divine/galactic masculine energy you feel drawn to right now, as these activations are from these energies and are stirring up what needs to be stirred in the here and now to continue this process of birthing the NEW, starting withIN.

Here is a guided meditation led by Gabriel Heartman to connect with different faces of the Divine Father:

Much love! ❤️

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Quick Meditation To Download Current Light/Sun Codes

by Kalayna Colibri

Yesterday, I walked over to a beautiful spot called Saxe Point, here in Esquimalt, to take in the Sun and be near the Pacific. I had been feeling Divine Father energies all day, feeling his invitation into collaboration with Him in order to help bridge His very activating and alive energies to others. He offered for me to hold a short meditation experience to help you tune into His love and energy coming in through the current light/sun codes especially.

This meditation is only a few minutes long and will tune you into your Personal Sun chakra, located about 2 feet above your head, where all Ascension codes seem to collect over time, waiting for the appropriate moments of integration. Tuning into and activating this chakra is especially helpful during this phase of Divine Father downloads and Sacred Masculine codes coming in, that want to help us all (men and women included) continue to heal the wounded/shadow masculine parts and Metasoul aspects within.

Much love! ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Taking IN The SOULar Codes & Sacred Masculine Activations

By Jelelle Awen

Taking in the beautiful sun codes today as the SOULar winds come in and offer geomagnetic storms and auroras (winds are now blowing faster than 550 km/s (1.2 million mph, according to spaceweather.com). I was letting the sun in with these two beautiful BEings Raianna Shai and Kalayna Colibri that I get to do daily life with in feminine (and some masculine) flow/balance.

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I am feeling the glow too from MANY amazing sessions lately with soul sisters that feel like reunions, welcoming backs, moving forward together. We are moving beyond competition and envy of old paradigm sisterhood into higher vibrational sisterhoods formed from collaboration and empowerment of EACH unique soul as you connect to Unity Consciousness together. This also is the healing of the wounded masculine expressions that would come out in ‘feminine’ bonds.

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I could feel the support of Divine Father in the sun rays today….both gentle and penetrating; efficiently activating yet soft too. It can be helpful (esp if you are feeling these energies on the physical level) to take in the sun rays if you can to assist with integration of these codes. And if not available to you, you can visualize in meditation the sun rays coming into your upper chakras and down, grounding into your root chakra system with Mother Gaia.

The Divine Masculine wants to support the transition from warrior to ambassador; from battling to loving; from self protection out of fear to healthy boundaries that come organically from moving out of fear and more into love. This transition starts from within…..with the Inner Masculine and the beloved aspects of self that are represented by them…the laying down of weapons and armor in order to BE more love and trust love.

There are many guided meditations in my 33 Day series Deepen to connect with your Inner Masculine and Divine Father too: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

INjoy the sun and the sacred masculine activations too!

Jelelle Awen

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions and group sessions (virtual and in person), events, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.