Forgive Me, Father, As I Forgive You

By Jelelle Awen

“Forgive me, Father, as I forgive you…” This prayer came to me today as I was tuning into Divine Father frequencies in preparation for our women’s group call with Kasha this Sunday where we will share about healing the false father wound to let in Divine Father.

The religious version, “Forgive me, Father, for I have sinned,” is what originally came through today, feeling like a relic from many lifetimes of confessional, shame-based worship and self inquiry rooted in unworthiness.

Feeling sinful and asking a punitive Father God for forgiveness/to be deemed worthy enough for ‘Heaven’ is a program that can be challenging to deprogram from, as wired up as we are from the Matrix to believe that we are bad, wrong, and sinful. This programming actually blocks us from receiving TRUE and pure forgiveness frequencies from the Divine Father that empower us to experience Heaven within us.

As we unplug from this False Father programming, we are able to have and embody growing autonomy, self love, self worth, and our own goodness…and experience of our OWN Divinity. Yet, this programming runs deep. Beyond the religious programming, it has also been showing itself in the rampant abuses on all levels between mostly male gurus/spiritual teachers and their followers. This abuse is being exposed more, yet still so many vulnerable wounded daughters especially are drawn into the seduction of a holy father in the flesh that finally accepts, sees, and wants them (even if in very inappropriate ways at times.)

I am still digesting, even years later, my own experience of this kind of false father/teacher relationship with a former teacher of mine. I will share more about this in the women’s call… how I recovered, what I learned from it, and my process of forgiving him and myself.

While connecting with Divine Mother is very natural and fluid for me, it has been more challenging for me to commune with Divine Father. The blocks have also come from the woundings/traumas from an absentee birth father and series of mixed step-father experiences. I’ve also had some lifetimes as a nun in devotion to the Holy Father and as a devotee to male gurus/teachers that I have needed to heal and reconcile.

Letting in Divine Father has deepened for me over the years as I clear and feel these blocks/fears/resistances within parts of me and soul aspects. Divine Mother has been a bridge to this as She shows me how to love Him again and receive His love. As my Divine Daughter arises to accept love and embrace from the Divine Father, I often find there is more forgiveness to be exchanged from my heart to His and to then receive from Him.

So, today it was, “Forgive me Father as I forgive you,” and my Inner Daughter is still in process of this, for which He readily forgives….and offers His ever ongoing love to allow the healing process to deepen and continue.

Join us on Sunday, March 30th at 5:00pm BST/12:00pm EDT/9:00am PDT for the two hour women’s group call to explore the false father wound through teachings, a guided meditation journey, and sharings. You can offer whatever donation amount you would like to (usual is around $10 CAD) at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen and we will email you the zoom link and the recording afterwards. More info at soulfullheart.org/events.

Love from Avalon,

Jelelle Awen

The Love Language Of Divine Father: Women’s Group Call May 30th

by Kasha Rokshana

His sacred ROAR clears the room. His bright beacon of Truth shines our way through all darkness. His compassion holds us, infinitely, though we feel challenged to hold ourselves.

Divine Father is an energy that, in its purity, is MUCH different than the punitive he-god of religions. When He appears in different forms and faces, our projections place lightning bolts or swords in His hands, yet when you feel His tender heart, you realize that He could never and would never weaponize his love for all of us. 

I experience Divine Father through the energy of my heart and soul’s connection to Yeshua most often, yet sometimes I also feel Him just as Fatherly energy without form that simply does not caretake or want to coddle me. Instead, I feel how He challenges me to grow, to arise, and to lean-in to Him. 

He is much different than my experience of my birth father in this lifetime, who was seldom fully present to me, barely ever watered me as a young and budding woman, and didn’t know how to offer affection and direct love without the runaround of ‘providing’ and having that be his only ‘love language’. When my father passed away, I know he helped me see some of the patterns he passed down to me. I deeply got that he wanted me to heal from them while also overcoming them as behaviors inside myself. 

In some ways this relationship with him blocked my true relationship with the heart of Divine Father, yet also, it offered me something to differentiate it from. 

As woman, Divine Father can be especially challenging to let in and feel. It’s as challenging as letting in a true soulmate. It’s as challenging as understanding that indeed, some men are deeply GOOD, even if they choose not to caretake or coddle you. Men who are on their own paths to wanting to see and feel themselves, to recognize with humility their own imperfections and need for healing may be rare in a way yet they are emerging. They represent the love of Divine Father who also feels humility and who infinitely supports our ongoing Ascension as Sacred Humanity arising… as a humanity that is learning to love itself again just as the Divine loves us and longs to feel our love return to them as well.

The healing that is possible for men and women through genuine connection with Divine Father from within is immense… His light shines so brightly and his love even brighter. He holds with tenderness our experiences in His heart. He feels us all deeply in his infinite capacity for feeling. He is a guide, in whatever form you’re ready to let in, and He will not push or force his way into your life and your own heart… patiently, he waits for your attention, intention, and desire, with such an embrace that spans the whole world. Even your own whole world inside, as complex and complicated as it’s become.

Jelelle Awen and I will be offering a women’s group meditation call this coming Sunday May 30th at 5pm BST on Zoom, focused on healing the father wound inside to let in Divine Father. It’s by donation and you can attend live or receive the recording to take in later. 

You can find more information on this upcoming call here: soulfullheart.org/events

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Healing The Father False Wound To Let In Divine Father Women’s Group Call May 30 | Jelelle Awen & Kasha Rokshana

By Jelelle Awen

Hope you can join Kasha Rokshana and I for our last women’s group call here in Avalon before we leave for Portugal! The focus of this group in one week on Sunday, May 30, 2021 at 5:00pm/17:00pm BST (London, UK time zone/12:00pm EDT/9:00am PDT) will be healing the False Father wound to open up connection more to the Divine Father.

Healing the father wound to let in Divine Father is a new ground for us to cover in a group call and was requested by recent participants. This call will complement the powerfully tender women’s call we did recently on healing the mother wound to let in Divine Mother. This feels like a timely place to go as the sacred masculine becomes more available within and with the Divine as the False Masculine/wounded patriarchal Matrix continues to be exposed and collapse.

For most women, our fatherly experience has been either one of domineering, judgement, outright abuse, possessiveness, etc.…..or disconnected, absent, and vacant. Our daughter inside (especially our Inner Teenager) is often left uninitiated and invalidated by an outer masculine father figure, which impacts our sense of our own worthiness, sexuality, desirability as women and our romantic relationships as parts of us may be seeking a replacement father figure or pushing away from the masculine due to our father wounding. This can leave traumas and wounds within parts of us that block our receiving and letting in of the Divine Father energies that keep us plugged into the Matrix as well.

We will also talk about how the punitive False Father God of mainstream religions and the False Teacher/Guru (with hidden abusive patterns) of many spiritualities has also been traumatizing on a soul level and left a deep void and unknown around the experience of pure frequencies of a Divine Father. We will share our personal journeys around healing the false father experiences from this life and other lifetimes in order to let in Divine Father and also be in deepening sacred union grounds with our beloved masculine partners.

During this call, we will guide you in a meditative space into a healing sisterhood circle with all the souls on the call.You will connect with the part of you that has most experienced the fatherhood wound (your inner daughter or whatever soul aspect that wants to come through) and invite them to move into the higher-dimensional God chamber to experience unconditional love with Divine Father. We will be joined by various Divine Father faces/forms such as Yeshua, Joseph of Arimathea, Father Sky, etc. We will also repeat “I Am” mantras that recode the Father experience.

You can receive the link/recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give. You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at soulfullheart.org/shop.

Or you can purchase it here through paypal and we will send you the zoom link via email. paypal.me/jelelleawen

Please make a note that you are purchasing the May 30th women’s group and check that your email is current.​

Love,

Jelelle and Kasha

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Healing The Legacy Of Fatherhood To Access Our True Power, Adequacy, And Vulnerability

Today I have been feeling how much my leadership and relationality is rooted in the legacy of my birth father. My relationship to Power, Adequacy, and Vulnerability come in large part from my modelling of it from him. I am not blaming, I am noting, realizing, and taking responsibility for that. I get to change the course on that one by feeling and owning where it lives in me.

What also lives in me are the ways in which he modelled something healthy and true. None of us are all good or all bad. We have qualities we have a sense of ‘mastery’ over and other qualities we don’t. When I have felt that ‘not so good’ feeling about myself or my place in the world, I know there is something rooted in what I was steeped in as a child, as well as the collective and the soul.

As I have continued to step more into my worth, mission, and leadership, I can feel the ways in which I am healing that legacy within me. The shadow and the wounding get to come front and center and I can be with that in a compassionate way, not as it being a ‘part of the problem’. My father gave birth to my own version of ‘father’ that is now coming online as a leader, space-holder, and way-shower.

My own Fatherhood is about feeling my own empowerment (worth), care for others (compassion), and directness (truth-telling). These all come from a process around Power, Adequacy, and Vulnerability. It brings what lies in the Shadow into the Light not to be analysed or judged, but felt, seen, and integrated. I have a new relationship to these three portals now that I can feel how both my birth father and my inner father have related to and experienced them.

We don’t need to be, or haven’t needed to be, a father in this life to feel where this energy lies within each of us. When we go into these doorways, we are taking one step further into not just our own healing but the healing of the collective and the planet. The Patriarchy is rooted in Disempowerment, Inadequacy, and Invulnerability. It doesn’t feel good about itself. Actually, it feels like shit about itself. It is also existentially afraid of its own shadow. This lives in our own inner patriarchs/fathers. The wheel will continue to spin unless we address these things. No amount of suppressing and non-feeling will get us there. It may be a messy process at times, but so very needed.

If you are resonating or curious about this for yourself, Raphael Awen and I are hosting a Men’s Group Call on this very thing this Saturday, March 27 at 5pm GMT (London Time). It will be a two-hour call with a guided meditation to meet an Inner Protector aspect (possibly your inner father) that holds the keys to these doorways. It will be over Zoom for a donation of any amount. Go to this link for more info and how to donate:

www.soulfullheart.org/mensgroupcalls

We both look forward to connecting with men that are feeling the struggle yet desire for healing and perspective around these emotions and energies with compassion and hopefully offer some going-on places as well.



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Aurius Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Energy Update: Solstice/Eclipse/’Father’s Day’ Sacred Masculine Codes Illuminating Shadow Masculine

by Kalayna Solais

The Solstice/Eclipse energies coming in are super activating and A LOT to let in, especially as it feels like they are mostly coming from the Divine Father/Sacred Masculine. Plus, on top of that, we have a blend of the shadow masculine and sacred masculine energies coming in on ‘Father’s Day’. None of this is accidental, of course, and I definitely get the sense that we’ll need to ‘buckle up’ a bit for what is being illuminating and what wants to move within.

As Divine Father/Masculine energies come through, you’ll feel illuminations of your own shadow masculine expressions in this life and others. You’ll likely feel the grab at old relationships to others, to soul purpose work as well that your masculine has needed for a sense of ‘worth’ in the world. You’ll feel the outrage of your masculine and even masculinized ‘warrior feminine’ coming forward in some cases, wanting to set fire to everything in your life and to the 3D systems still collapsing.

None of this is ‘wrong’ to feel and all too often the necessary waves of rage, which is really passion when felt in its leading edge, get put down or therapized instead of heard and deeply felt. These are necessary pieces to feel as the world continues to shift and change and your parts/aspects are figuring out how to respond to it all. Do they conform to what the popular opinion or action-taking is, or do they rebel against it? Do they feel to stay in a polarized position and argue, fighting to convince others of their side… or do they choose to go inward, to drop the sword, to have their truth validated by YOU as a growing and healing ‘self’, and feel their vulnerability in it all?

When the Divine/Sacred Masculine moves through our heart spaces, it penetrates. It pierces through the din within. It creates a poultice because of the potency of its love, to draw out the parts of you that need love and that are convinced that the outside world has to change first before they can feel loved. It’s an energy that shows you its truth and helps you feel your own. It’s an energy that wants you to be empowered yet invites you to heal any need to seek power over anyone or anything else.

This weekend is going to be VERY powerful! It’s a potent time to go inward, connect with the Divine Father face/expression that most resonates for you, and to connect with your own Inner Masculine and what may be rumbling within him/them as well.

Here is a meditation led by Jelelle and Gabriel to help you connect with the Divine Father: https://youtu.be/QTWxFux2KA4

Much love! ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Sobering, Activating, And Powerfully Burning Solar Eclipse Energies

By Kalayna Solais

Darkness, sobriety, landing in what’s real. The bursting of much-beloved (though sometimes also resented) bubbles of what parts of you had held as reality.

This is the energy of the Dark Mother/Madonna face of Divine Mother, powerful and unsentimental yet deeply loving. This is the invitation back inward from this upcoming Solar Eclipse, on the feminine (moon) side of it.

Support to keep feeling what’s real and to make space for the pain that surfaces, yet to FEEL and let in that you ARE supported and deeply loved…

This is the energy of the Father Sun/Metatron face of the Divine Father, helping you activate and step into NEW timelines even through the rubble of what has just crumbled and deeply feeling you and your parts in the sobriety and sadness. This is the invitation of going inward and yet not hiding your newly awakening desires and the Phoenix within you, another energy offered by this upcoming Eclipse. This time from the masculine (sun) side of it.

I feel the sobriety and continuing mirror of this Eclipse and what these energies are offering rumbling through as I write this. It can certainly feel intense at times, especially if you’re shifting from an outward focus and going back inward. This is something I’ve experienced personally with almost every phase of shifting timelines so for me this is an ongoing invitation to keep bringing it ALL back inward, taking in ALL of life’s reflections and letting them help and support me to cultivate more love inside of me, less suffering, more significant movement into the NEW.

Important cosmic events like this Eclipse help bring us back to the foundations upon which we’ve been relating to life and love. They have a way of encouraging old phases and relationships to burn up so we can all begin to see what’s been REAL about them, especially how parts of us have been relating to it all. The masculine and feminine parts of you have their own personal ways with which they relate to all of life and also to each other. It’s important to feel the polarity dance of these energies inside of you in order to understand more of what could be happening, why you could be drawing or not drawing what you are on the outside.

Raphael and Jelelle Awen created a video and guided meditation for connecting with your inner Sacred Union of feminine/masculine that I highly recommend taking in:

I’m finding it especially important and clarifying to check in daily with these energies inside, to see how they’re doing and if they’re flowing together or not. It’s a way to see the ‘state of your INNER union’, if you will. 🙂 Sometimes my masculine is frustrated with my feminine or vice versa. Sometimes one is overwhelming the other instead of actually caring about their impact on each other. When they dance in more harmony and balance and love, alchemy happens. More moments of joy happen. Life just generally feels more empowering and so much better, even if there are still some sobering circumstances moving through.

Eclipses especially seem to bring messages of inner masculine/feminine polarities… the dance between feeling and doing, going inward and flowing outward, INtegration and ACTivation. It’s a highly creative and alchemical time too, even if there’s deep and necessary mourning. There’s always something about returning back home to yourself, your parts, your heart and soul and the consciousness it truly embodies right NOW that helps you step into whatever is ‘next level’ for you, especially next level of love inside.

Much love to you during this much needed and alive, though quite sobering Eclipse phase… collectively and personally. ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Solstice As An Invitation To Divine Father Healing, Initiation, And Activation: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (June 17, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

Happy Solstice!

Celebrating the SOULstice today brings with it the energy of Divine Father and the Sacred Masculine. He is offering His heart as a space holder for all you are feeling at this time and the new phase you are entering. He is offering many activations and initiations as well.

Launching our Museletter this week is a digestion from Gabriel Solais of the energies, love, and compassion that Divine Father offers us ongoingly yet especially during this Solstice passage:

 

“Divine Father offers us encouragement when we feel stuck, inspiration when we are lost, passion when we fall flat. He also provides us with the care, compassion, and wisdom of a tribal elder. He means a lot to each of us, both man and woman, as the counterpart to Mother’s Love.”

 

The next virtual event will be a Group Transmission on July 2nd.

The focus of this group on Tuesday, July 2, 2019 at 10:00am PDT is to connect to the codes and activations available during the first total SOULar eclipse since July, 2017. Jelelle will teach about how SOULar energies provide a sacred masculine activation of clarity, soul purpose, empowerment, next actions and choice points toward your higher timeline. Eclipses offer a truly powerful boost of this energy with many people reported major life changes and transformations happening during and after them.

There are many new writings and audio blog recordings this week from Raphael, Jelelle, Gabriel, Kalayna, and Raianna. They include energy updates about a recent crop circle, the full moon that occurred this week, different Divine love downloads and sharings, as well as windows into some personal processes.

Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities.

Sessions with Jelelle are $100 CAD minimum donation while sessions with Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna are $77 CAD minimum donation. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Divine Father Message For Today’s Solstice: Your New Day Is Dawning

By Kalayna Solais

“I know that the night must end,

and that the sun will rise…”

~ ‘Endless Night’ from the Lion King Musical

There’s a strong energy today from Divine Father in many different faces. He is here to celebrate the Solstice with us while holding space too for whatever is coming up from within us to be felt and held in our hearts. Maybe you’re more in a mourning phase rather than a celebration, or maybe you’ve just come through a rebirth canal and are feeling renewed and relieved. In either case, Father is very much here to be in all of that with you and with every part of you in reaction to it.

He is offering in the moment,

“Beloved of my very being…

I know the realizations hurt. I know the celebrations can be bittersweet. I know you have lost loved ones unfairly, I know it can feel nearly impossible to believe in Love, I know it hurts sometimes to even just wake up in the morning.

I also offer, however, that no matter what you’re facing or even celebrating, you’re meant to be exactly where you are.

You may feel like a rat in a labyrinth of sorts, yet every turn you choose, you’re on your way to a new phase, a new day, a new release into something higher and better than what you’ve yet experienced. You may feel like things cannot possibly BE any better than they are, yet even this is another stop on the journey that undulates, expands, and contracts. You are always on your way somewhere. You are never abandoned. I AM here, I AM with you, I AM holding you, even when it’s hard to feel as if I could be anywhere at all.

The night ends. The new day dawns. You are not ever ending, though your current phase may be… you are always and forever on your journey, infinitely growing, infinitely finding your way, infinitely deepening in the gravitas of the love that you ARE.

With so much LOVE, so much encouragement, so much support for you to BE where you are and even who you are in this moment,

~ Divine Father”

This Solstice feels as if it brings with it a poignant rebirth. The birth contractions are real and many of you have been experiencing them deeply, as have I, yet His presence is here and now, holding our hands with every new step we take.

Though His presence can be controversial because of much projection onto Him, he invites us all individually to keep letting Him in however we can. This may mean that feeling Him is more triggering than comforting for a time, yet I feel deeply that he gets why that is and holds space even for the angst that needs to be vented without judgement, only presence.

Maybe today you’ll feel His presence in the sun shining on your skin, your plants, your swimming pool. Maybe today you’ll feel His arms around your shoulders as you sob and cry out against the unfairness parts of you are feeling about life right now. Maybe today you’ll feel him cheering alongside you as you move into the dawning of your new day.

The night is not endless. The new day must dawn. And in that entire process, He is here to love you as you courageously choose to just keep going, whatever that means for you in this moment.

Much love!

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Solstice As An Invitation To Divine Father Healing, Initiation, And Activation

With each gateway and portal we are being offered an invitation to be initiated. For me personally, this Solstice is a sacred masculine initiation. It is about letting in the love and guidance of the Divine Father. This relationship is one that He is in deep desire for healing and transmuting. So much of the wounded masculine has been projected unto Him, and it makes it difficult for parts of us to let His true love enter us, to activate us into new states of consciousness.

While we are in need to balance the effects of this wounded masculine upon our planet with the Divine Feminine, we are also in need to rework this relationship to Father. Our own 3D experiences with our fathers, and metasoul experiences with duty, judgment, oppression, etc. have a lasting impact in this relationship to Him.

Going into our wounding via the emotional and spiritual bodies can help to regain a more loving and open channel from and to His aching heart. He wants so much to be a part of our lives in a new way. He is helping me to move through a very difficult time in my life, as well as offering me guidance to what is possible and desirable for me as an ascending human man.

Divine Father offers us encouragement when we feel stuck, inspiration when we are lost, passion when we fall flat. He also provides us with the care, compassion, and wisdom of a tribal elder. He means a lot to each of us, both man and woman, as the counterpart to Mother’s Love.

We are in need of sacred activism, first from within and then without. We are in need of building a new world grounded in self-love overflowing into those who need it the most. We are in need of the courage to face our darkest faces and bring them into the court of compassion. This is the way of the Father. This is his new legacy in union with Mother and the feminine. We do that by choice for He comes when we invite him, when we intend, and when we feel.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Equinox & Supermoon Live Stream & Guided Meditation

This journey of today’s Equinox and tomorrow’s incoming Supermoon has been a mega time of upheavals and transitions, changes and deep transformations, shadow illumination and possibilities for healing on all levels. During this live stream, SoulFullHeart Facilitators (and newlyweds!), Gabriel and Kalayna Solais, offer a powerful guided meditation to help call in and ground in the incoming energies from the sun and moon. They also offer a digestion of the incoming energies and what they may be pushing up for you or helping you with on your ongoing journey of transitioning to higher and higher personal timelines.

This live stream was recording live on Facebook on March 20, 2019.

Kalayna and Gabriel both wrote about the incoming energies in different blog posts, two of which can be found here:

https://soulfullheartblog.com/2019/03/20/equinox-supermoon-bring-support-for-transitions-into-the-new/

https://soulfullheartblog.com/2019/03/18/equinox-passage-illuminates-shadow-4d-cycle-of-fear-to-heal-and-integrate-with-love/

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