W: Hey Divine Father, I’d like to connect again, I’m feeling some kind of an ache inside of me today and I think it has to do with where we left off yesterday.

DF: Sure, Wayne. Say more.

W: Well, I’ve been feeling it all day today as a background wanting of something. When I check in with the feeling, it comes up as dissatisfaction, a wanting of something that I don’t have, and then the feeling goes to imagining what it would be like to have a momentum of new people and new intimacy in our lives.

DF: Okay…

W: But then, I, or some part of me, wonders if I’m resisting letting in the goodness that I have right now, by looking outward for something else. Appreciating what I have always feels like an area that I can grow more in.

DF: So, why don’t we try something?

W: Okay.

DF: Let’s put the question of whether you need to just learn to be happy with what you have aside for a moment, if that’s okay.

W: I’m okay with that.

DF: Good. Now, I want you to feel and say more about what, what did you call it? ‘a momentum of new people and new intimacy in your life.’ Imagine that, feel that, and see if you can put picture and feeling words around it.

W: Well, it’s an exciting feeling of being wanted by others, who we are as well as the life we’ve chosen, people like us wanting to be around us, to create something more that we and they, can’t create on our own. It’s deeply sharing the choices of ‘where to live’ and ‘how to live’ together in relationship. Somehow, it’s the opposite of the separate self our society has engendered who perceives they don’t need anyone or anything to large degree.

DF: Don’t stop for me.

W: Okay, what else? It’s feeling life together, all of life, needs for security, food, shelter, sex, culture. All of that takes on a new dimension when you add one more person, and it loses a dimension when you lose a person. I recall being single and how momentously my life changed to not just have someone new in my life, but to give myself fully to that intimacy. Life went to places, and fulfillments along with challenges that I hadn’t dreamed of. Well, actually, I had let myself do some dreaming, but the reality was still way beyond that, and still is.

DF: Wayne, when you feel this in light of mate ache, that growing ache a single person feels that moves them and the universe to manifest their mate, why wouldn’t that also be true around larger community?

W: So you’re saying I’m feeling something natural?

DF: Couldn’t be more natural if you ask me.

W: I am asking you.

DF: Wayne, I like that you hold the question of where your dissatisfaction is coming from, if this is just something that you need to find deeper fulfillment with what you have now. But to me, it isn’t what’s real and alive here. You have found and lived your way into something truly alive and real and it couldn’t be any other way than for there to be an arising dissatisfaction with keeping it to yourselves. You’re meant to feel a missing, an ache for something that isn’t here yet.

W: That feels true.

DF: Wayne, it is true. Something alive that isn’t shared dies. Not that death itself is so bad, but this something dies before it’s time, triggering an ache and a sorrow for what could have been, but wasn’t, in the hopes that it will manifest next time around.

W: I got to tell you a story, father.

DF: Okay. Please do.

W: Yesterday, just before bedtime Father, there was this swarm of bugs outside and so we closed the shutters to keep them out of the house. I took a walk outside to see what was up and to my shock, it looked like the house was on fire with the thick swarms of bugs hovering all over the red tile roof. It came up in minutes, a kind of bug I hadn’t noticed before. We just had like our first week of the rainy season and of course that had everything to do with it. We were first a bit scared as well as annoyed, but as I felt into what message might there be in this, I felt some things.

DF: Such as…

W: Well, here was this little army of bugs, suddenly born out onto the scene of life, previously only existing in potential form and completely off the radar (of us humans at least). I was told they were termites, they had 4 wings, which I they seemed to shed and go to a wingless life…because the ground was littered with wings and the bugs were later crawling instead of flying. Then everything went back to normal overnight and we had a big house cleaning session this morning. All of that speaks of deep and sudden transformation. It existed first in potential larvae form, then baking in the clay tile ovens of the roof tiles and the dry season for who knows how long, then life takes a turn and voila. It was hard to think of anything else. A new time had come. And it felt like the universe was wanting us to feel the potential for sudden change, even as we have been holding and desiring that. The change feels related to the expansion of community.

DF: Wow, Wayne, nature itself showed you the naturalness of deep and sudden transformation. First, it existed in potential and hidden form, ‘baking’ until the cake was ready, and boom, all of life suspends, as a birthing takes place, chaos and then an integrating of that birthing. The insects are powerful totems wanting you to feel with them, and them wanting to feel with you, the energy that the universe is pulsing with, and how it resonates in both you and them.

W: So could community come out of the woodwork that quickly?

DF: It’s a native to the universe desire Wayne, that you are feeling and so are the many others who are drawn to and ache for community. Also, you are entering a time where the old story of separation and independence is crumbling fast. For many like you and others, it’s well beyond crumbling, and the pillars have caved in. You will soon see a surprising coming together of likeminded hearts and souls very ready to explore what a relationship might look like.

W: Wow, I wonder if all of me is ready to feel that. I mean, it’s been so long of not having that, trying to learn to live and be fulfilled without it.

DF: I get the challenge Wayne in that, but all you need to do is feel your desires, as well as what it feels like to try and keep the lid on these desires and I think it deeply and feelingly answers your questions. A new time is coming, and you are actually getting ready for it, fast.

W: Okay, I want to let in those words and feelings Father.

DF: Yes, you worked hard to choose and to be with the comparative isolation of the past. That was the baking of the potential into the cake of what is manifesting soon. I mean, you don’t need to believe me, just take note of what comes next as it does, and remember us feeling all this together. You’ll need that when the chaos shows up.

W: But a good kind of chaos…

DF: The kind you wanted for a very log time, Wayne, more than just this lifetime. And the kind that life and the universe has been preparing you for, for a long time.

W: Thanks again so much, Father.

DF: You are Welcome, Wayne.

 

Wayne Vriend is a healer and author of 90 Days With Yeshua. Visit soulfullheart.com for more information.