By Raphael Awen
There is a strange thing we all do with life… and that is how we normalize our reality. Whether our reality is really good or really bad, or somewhere in between, we have a way of normalizing it in order to BE in it, and to BE with it.
Yesterday at midday, I was on our local resort town beach, with a beautiful woman in a bikini (Jelelle Awen) at my side, with the sun’s temperature and angle just right, with lots of bird and pelican activity, with tea and good eats and I felt in that moment how I felt it all as ‘normal’. This is strange because I can look back to a time where such a setting and opportunity would be pure heaven to me, and here I was, yesterday, in pure heaven, only to find that I had ‘normalized’ it. As I felt into this, I could feel the magic of the moment too, and the stunning reverence for the moment, but I could also feel how I was ‘muting’ the experience at the same time.
We all do this and we don’t just do it when the beauty is more than we can handle. We do it with the routine and the mundane of our lives. More accurately, the routine and the mundane feelings are the result of taking the magical and making it the normal. We find it difficult to stop ourselves from normalizing experience. Experience is the magic of us as essence having awareness. This simple awareness is so much magic that we need to normalize any and all experience as a part of us is afraid we simply can’t handle it.
But I’d like it if I could bear more of the simple magic, and not normalize it so much… How about you? Isn’t this the reason we seek spiritual and emotional experiences? We know there is more to feel and experience than we are currently letting in, more than we are currently able to feel.
Why would part of us work so hard to limit our experience when we consciously want to remove the limits? My truth is that parts of us don’t trust that we can bear the magic and these parts of us have worked hard to energetically seal us off from knowing and feeling simple wonder and magic. Many times the only way for people to get past these defenses is to use a drug or alcohol, or any of the millions of things we can turn into a go-to, feel-good medication. The reason all of these can be so addictive is that they give us experience of what we are really meant to feel. But the ‘side effects’ of these lifestyle medications is that we are not attaining these states of joy in a healthy way, but are instead suppressing parts of ourselves in order to get to a place of feeling good. Not all of us then is actually present to the good time.
I have experienced that when a part of me is normalizing my experience, and thus limiting my experience of the magic of all experience, I can feel and negotiate with that part of me. This healthy process in turn allows a defensive part of me to rest into my deeper trust and immediately a natural ‘high’ of life becomes my experience more in that moment. This is the process we offer to others in SoulFullHeart work and community. As others around us feel and process their own parts of themselves who normalize the magic of life and let in more love, more life, more wonder, this in turn offers all in the community another real life story to live deeper into the same ongoing process for ourselves.
This doesn’t actually feel like any kind of one time ‘enlightenment’ process. We are infinite beings experiencing the infinite love that we are. No wonder then that parts of us reel from all this magic. No wonder then too, that as we experience more love and goodness, that we need to renegotiate with parts of ourselves to in turn let in more love.
I’m out looking for more love. That’s the real and only secret to life I feel. We are love out to experience love. Feeling how this is true for you is the magic you seek. Feeling where and how you can do this more and be this more is fulfilling your deepest life purpose and calling.
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.Visit www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.