Remembering The Soft Feminine

by Kasha Rokshana

As soon as my feet are bare, my dancer comes out.

And they were bare on this day, in this place, because of stepping into a healing pool of precious waters. The sensations of which returned to me even more soul memories to integrate into my heart. And so the dancer energy coming forward reminded me of a gentle femininity that lives deep inside, that invites instead of tugs. That dances for herself in self-love first of all and can pull others in to join her when it’s time, when they’re ready, when she feels ready to embrace that sort of partnership, mateship, friendship that requires vulnerability in exchange with another.

Avalon’s legacies are sometimes used to bypass… to exit instead of enter. These feminine energies are misread, misused, taken over.

When you choose to enter Her sacred womb, Her healing waters, the embrace of Her sacred trees, you find yourself feeling more than ever before as your own femininity arises into deeper healing possibilities. This can feel scary and unknown in moments. Yet held in Her embrace you are, always…

Incredible journey. 🦋

This sense of the deep feminine is one that all are invited to feel into inside of themselves… all that it powerfully pushes up to feel and be with is important. When the need for ferocity alone is complete, you’ll feel the balm arise from within. To me, this is what makes the shadows worth visiting and getting to know, even when the edges are sharp and the cost seems great.

Much love to you and your own (re)discovery of your inner feminine, whether man or woman… ❤️

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Serving women in 1:1 sessions is a deep passion of mine. This process of healing the feminine within and experiencing her full range of expression is so profound and endless! For more info on what my beloveds and I offer in session space, visit soulfullheart.org/sessions 🕊

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

Connecting & Healing With Star Family: My Recent Encounter

by Kalayna Solais

Parts of me were crying. My heart and soul were crying. Sobbing. Nearly wailing. The waves of pain moving through were great, coupled with so much longing for New Earth. For a dimension that feels truly like ‘home’… much more like ‘home’ than 3D has ever felt.

Everything in me was reaching out to me to hold it, but also reaching beyond me, to my Galactic aspects/Star Family that sometimes can’t be ‘seen’ even within my third eye, but can be felt within every cell in my body. They are part of me and I am part of them. We are inseparable and always in love. The kind of love they don’t tell you about in 3D. The kind of love that isn’t sold in magazines or written about in newspapers. It’s the kind of love that can’t be defined, only experienced, and only really let in as your heart heals the barriers to it.

As I sobbed, I felt my soul’s ache. I felt the pain of what it’s really been like to be in 3D. I felt it for myself and I felt it for others. I felt the repression… the suppression of truth, the rejection of real love. I felt tired, so tired, of stark polarities being played out and even worshipped by those who can’t see or feel it all, and those who just simply don’t care. I felt tired of judgments from Inner Punishers… the layers of my own that I’ve felt over the years and the ones that are being fused to by so many others right now. I felt a youngness in parts of me and I could give them permission to just BE young. To just FEEL, without judgment, without needing to be older than they are and to allow these Star Beings, these ancient and otherworldly energies, to just hold them with me.

My eyes were closed to allow sensations to be heightened. If my eyes had been open, they would have been searching for my Star Family beloveds instead of feeling them. They love to enter through the heart and answer our calls. They may not always materialize in the physical but they are there. They are always… always there.

I reached out in front of me, eyes still closed, to invite them even closer energetically. I invited in their touch and could feel the tiny hairs on my body ripple with their energy nearby. My elbows started to bend back towards me and my hands, no longer simply ‘mine’, found my cheeks. They explored my tears, fascinated by them, feeling my heart in them, letting me know that even though some of them don’t ‘feel’ the way we do as humans, they love us deeply. The ones who can feel us because in some ways they’ve BEEN us, offer such deep empathy and compassion that it’s hard to describe in anything but light language or simply energy. Just ask to experience this kind of love when you are ready and they will be there, offering as much of it as you are ready to let in…

I felt then, how they were here representing my own Star Family, yet also everyone’s Star Family. They offered a transmission then, which I published here. It was a transmission of encouragement, of deep feeling of us, and a beautiful reminder of how they are ALWAYS here with us and how everything we are experiencing now, no matter how challenging, is necessary and not without purpose.

I feel them inviting us all to ‘keep looking up’. Keep looking for them, physically and energetically. Psychically too. Keep ‘looking up’ for context whenever we feel parts of us still bound to 3D minutia and details and conditioning. Keep ‘looking up’ for breaks in the weather as we continue to move through all we are now, to become all we are meant to be.

If you need a guided meditation to help you along in connection to these energies for yourself, there are several from Jelelle Awen that I recommend as a powerful bridge for you:

Meet Your Star Family

Arcturian Healing Chamber

Also! ‘Free To Be Two’, the NEW 6-week group call series with Raphael and Jelelle Awen starts this coming Wednesday, May 20th: soulfullheart.org/freetobe2 — this is another way to connect with Star Family AND Soul Family too!

Much love, from my Star Family to yours… ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Path Of The Unspoken Heart: A Poem

By Kalayna Solais

Both powerful and scary
is the independent heart
That loves with everything it has
And gravitates towards
only love that flows
Not love that spits and stammers
and hammers on home
a declaration
that it in fact is superior love.
There’s no wrong in truths long hidden
Though pain emits
from the now lighted pathways
That couldn’t be felt
Or digested
Before.
Now in new light of day
New ownership beckons
Of what was left unclaimed
And in shadow.
No…
There is no ‘wrong way’ in this world
For all paths lead somewhere
And to some satisfaction.
It’s the path of into the unspoken heart, though
That calls most to my own soul
And the souls of those
Near and nearing my dimension
Held with love
And invited with care.
This is a declaration in softness
Both spoken and written
And awakened in this very heart that shares
Into the din of what cannot move
Without being invited from within.

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Remember And Be Comforted, Starseed: A Transmission From Our Galactic/Star Family

By Kalayna Solais & Our Star Being Family

 

Your humanity is catching up

to what your Starseed soul never forgot

and longs to be a part of again

but never could NOT be a part of…

Your tears,

They remind you of WHY

you are here.

Not to suffer

But to heal.

Not to be alone as you feel all you feel

But to recall that at all times

the room around you is ‘full’…

Of BEings

of energies

of LOVE consciousness

That could never forget you…

or itself

or the humanity that embodies it

even as that same humanity may

try and turn away.

 

You are polarizations expressed

through love encoded,

you are ‘enslaved’ only to the mind that perceives it

and the heart that doesn’t remember

what it was created to rediscover.

 

We serve to remind

To nudge

To bring you Home

through the portal of YOU.

 

That same YOU that longs and aches and beguiles and charms

and finds its way

and falls

and trips over everything within its own being

on its way to flying once again

with wings enfolded

but never cut off.

 

Starseed being…

though young you might feel,

and in human form, you may be,

you are a ‘seed’ planted,

encoded with rich life to share with all

who also remember their codes

of infinite life

ultimate love

and vast swathes of consciousness bands

frequencies

tuned in when chosen

like songs selected for playing

for evoking

for remembering…

 

Remember, Starseed…

We never left.

We will always return

as you remember that we are here

as tangibly as you are here

though intangible to the mind that created the barriers

out of necessity for acclimating here and now.

 

Starseed, you’ve nothing to fear…

Infinite BEing, experienced and versed in Love,

Though dissonant the energies, as the purging of your world continues,

know that the infinitesimal is also the infini-optimal,

that the changes longed for are forming

and the phase of harsher ‘truths’ arising

serves the advanced, ascended awakening

of the masses of humans being reinitiated

into the sacred mysteries

of they themselves

and the Universe that they are infinitely part of…

 

With immense love,

and deep witness…

~ Your Star Being Galactic Family of Vast Cosmic Origin

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

‘Sacred Sisterhood’ Is Emerging More As Part Of ‘New/5D Earth’ Transition

by Kalayna Solais

I wrote down some feelings of Sacred Sisterhood a few months ago when a new wave of ‘sacred sisters’ was just emerging onto my shores, in my heart and soul field, and in the flesh no less! This was not just about my growing INNER sisterhood, though that is always deepening and being felt more and more… this was about feeling the resonance of other women around my age and beyond that too, feeling us coming together more in realness, uniqueness, yet also a desire to heal and be healed and not leave any part of us or Metasoul aspect behind in the process.

I’m feeling something today about women learning to actually see each other and love each other deeply and how this seems to be happening within my beloved SoulFullHeart community and possibly elsewhere too. There is something to be said for the ‘restriction’ of not being able to go outward and do many outward things right now and feeling, then, the new portals to going inward – going YINward – that I feel is helping us all go to our next levels of feeling why we’ve had a hard time holding deeper friendships and being with other women as women. We’ve been invited to continue the journey of looking within and seeing each other as sacred mirrors of the continued inner work. We’ve been invited to feel the triggers yet actually find some stillness around them too, feeling the parts and Metasoul aspects in other timelines where they could be coming from, which then leads to a more open heart towards each other.

I hear women claiming ‘realness’ when they’re being harsh and even abusive, fusing to their Inner Punishers or other energies in their soul timelines and lashing out as a way to off-gas what actually isn’t about the other person at all. I hear women claim ‘Well, I am just direct and blunt’ when I can’t feel how this directness has heart or care in it for the other person. When I hear words like these, I can feel their Inner Matriarch who is in pain about never being met with actual realness, vulnerability, and care themselves and quite often they’ve also taken in these abusive frequencies, even from the maternal line in their birth families. Underneath this is often a pain of being the biggest soul in the room, who hasn’t ever felt truly initiated into their soul gifts or deeply seen for them either. It’s also an energy that covers over the more vulnerable energies and parts inside that just want to love and want the battles to be over so they can play and connect more with others, like with the Inner Child or even the Teenager once she has finally had some air.

In my deepening relationships with women in my life who have been very consciously working and feeling all this and more within themselves, what becomes new is the way in which it can all be shared… all the nuances of feelings and reactions. These parts don’t have to be any less ‘real’ or even more vulnerable and open than they’re ready for yet, yet they do get to be held now and seen in a new way, acknowledging that these energies they hold that often feel competitive and push away at the deeper love and intimacy that’s possible are NOT their whole story or all that they have within them.

I’ve been so pleasantly surprised (and not!) to feel how much deeper my relationships with these other women can go once we have done the work to be able to hold realness, feel reactions, share them, and also acknowledge the impact of this in every moment. The result of these exchanges is more love, not less, that gets to be shared; more seeing of each other and each other’s uniqueness and gifts; more compassion than was transactable between us before, for now we know more about each other’s backgrounds, stories, and ongoing processes.

This, to me, is a sacred template emerging for Sacred Sisterhood. It’s always in exploration. There are no rules and sometimes messes are made. Abuse is a thing of the past, though sometimes exchanges are intense if necessary. There’s a personal sense of accountability for your own energies and process and there’s a desire to be transparent and deepen the intimacy ground.

This all feels to me like the new ground going forward that’s possible in ALL relationships of all kinds if the time and space are taken to go inward, to lean into work such as this, to dig into those deeper wounds and find gold, and to begin, ultimately, to seed the ground of what New Earth/Golden Earth/5D Earth relationships get to look and feel like! There can only be BLISS as this moves and deepens our healing and the yield of 5D Earth/Sacred Human consciousness within you and in your relationships makes it all worth it. The practice ground for this is always within, yet when these sacred friendships emerge on your radar, this is a chance to really apply all you’ve realized and seek out all you’ve most wanted to experience but were afraid to ask for with another.

Much love!

Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

 

Feeling Our Collective & Personal ‘Resurrection’ On Good Friday

by Kalayna Solais

Now is the hour of our death and rebirth…

The crucibles/’crosses to bear’, have been many for each of us. They’ve varied in intensity at times with some difficult phases being easier to move through than others. Every single one of us by now has had some sense of a ‘dark night of the soul’ phase, which is always an initiation even though the deconstruction and ‘burning away’ can feel deep and vast. So many are walking out their deepest phase of this yet and collectively we are ALL experiencing this, one way or another.

We are willingly being constricted, ‘nailed to a cross’, so that we can go inward and resurrect the soul, reestablishing the reasons WHY we CHOSE to come here.

Yeshua came to be a template for us in this. He worked, alongside his deepest beloveds, to master his own Ascension process and become a beacon of light, of ‘Christed’ potential inside of each of us. He knew the prophecies and saw the visions of what was to come. He knew the trials that awaited him and each one he met with more vigor and determination and even found his compassion for those who persecuted him, for it was their role in the ‘Great Drama’ that needed to unfold.

He remembered, always, his alignment with the Divine and that he came here with a profound purpose and a strong need to lead humanity in its next steps. So it is that we all came here too, though with more amnesia to work through to truly and deeply remember this.

We won’t have to move through what he did or face down the same challenges exactly, yet, when each of us look back on what we’ve been through, even recently or perhaps ongoingly, we can easily recognize our own versions of this story. Collectively, the ‘Great Drama’ that Yeshua and his beloveds lived through and found their own paths to Ascension through experiencing has continued on and we have all been impacted by it for many lifetimes on Gaia and we are continuing to walk it out together. It has raged and roared inside of each of us, between parts of us and within our Metasoul lifetimes too as well as on the outside in our daily lives. We have embodied both sides of this drama, this playout. We are all One, and we are coming to realize just what that means… and that we need each other, both persecutors and persecuted, to come together in order to heal it and move truly beyond it.

In my heart, I feel how possible this is, maybe even imminent… I feel my desire for it personally and my own ‘hiccups’ when it comes to deeply trusting this overall process at times. I mostly feel like I live in trust though, after years of feeling the mistrust. I find that I can surrender quite easily now to my own death and rebirth experiences, even when I feel parts of me digging their nails into the carpet of the old ground they cling to, as life takes us in another direction. I can quickly recognize now, after many difficult processes, when and how I’ve co-created my circumstances and the deeper reasons as to ‘why’ I did this emerge from there. There are always many layers to this and sometimes it’s quite painful to feel it all through, yet Divine love is always there from within and outside of me too to scoop up the reactions and put them in a safe container where they can be felt and processed and transmuted with gentleness and LOVE.

This ‘Easter’ weekend is the quintessential energy and symbol of ALL of our death and rebirth experiences. We are ALL ‘Yeshua’ and ‘Yeshua’ is us. We are ALL transmuting deeply what we’ve been through and choosing our next phases, co-creating them in this dance of life and Ascension.

I’ve felt deeply, even in the last day or so, how these processes are always about our great re-emergence back into ‘love consciousness’, which never left us and we never truly left either. Our parts may feel restless at times in this process, wondering what’s next or how to navigate it all in this intensely shifting, shaking world, but our souls know beyond any doubt what all this has been for and that even though the road tests our soul’s resolve to align with the Divine within and without through this intense and dense dimension, it’s all worth it and there IS a light at the end of the inner AND outer ‘tunnel’ of awakening and rebirth.

Now is the hour of our ‘Resurrection’… our next phase of Ascension, individually and collectively.

Much love to you on this GOOD Friday! We are in all of this together, whatever is revealed or not revealed in the collective consciousness this weekend and beyond…

Kalayna ❤

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A gift during this ongoing transition into New Earth reality and consciousness, is this by-donation, weekly Group Call series being offered by Raphael and Jelelle Awen: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/freetobe — Enrollment is ongoing, so whenever you offer a donation, you’ll receive the recordings of the calls already completed and the link to join in live on future calls if you desire! Much love ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant & collaborative assistant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

‘Apocalypse’ Can Be Self Lovingly Negotiated

by Raphael Awen

Who’d have guessed that we’d have both Armageddon as well as New Earth playouts/narratives underway at the same time, all the while being collectively stuck bored at home?

Feeling the part of you that doesn’t quite know what to make of all this, even if you are on the inside track to ‘what’s really going on’, feels really important as we nurse and hold ourselves through this birth canal.

I find that the more inside knowledge I track, have or adopt, the more questions I also have, and that makes for discomfort for a part of me, understandably so.
The calls for breathing and patience are renewed every hour, in response to the impatience and ache for what wants to come.

Standing in line outside at Whole Foods yesterday, doing the 6-foot thing, I made it to the front of the line and watched a guy hurriedly walk out with a basket of groceries without paying. It felt like someone hungry and out of money who said ‘fuck it, I’m going for what I need’.

How much more of that will we witness as people check out of the game they’ve played, as they feel the game around them crumble?

How will your world fare as the world around you goes through its necessary death and rebirth pains?

Those external questions can’t really be answered, except with new questions that can be answered internally.

What parts of you are checking out of the games they’ve played and supported in 3D?

How will you support that movement in self-loving and negotiated ways?

What new games truly worth playing can you offer them?

This gets really practical and personal for each of us, and it needs to. Life, money, needs, relationships, all of it is undoubtedly changing.

Apocalypse can be self lovingly negotiated to the degree you are willing to lean into life and love and show up for the parts of you in turmoil. The turmoil is a transmutative portal.

Much love,
Raphael Awen

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Please join Jelelle Awen and myself this coming Wednesday for week two of our 6-week, by donation, Free To Be Group Call series, where we’ll be speaking about ‘navigating practical transition with your inner masculine’.

More here:
https://facebook.com/events/s/free-to-be-virtual-group-call-/1095703640763727/?ti=icl

Photo courtesy of https://unsplash.com/@peterlaster

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Co-Creating The World We Dare Dream For Ourselves

by Raphael Awen

It feels so strange to consider the possibility that there isn’t actually a dividing line between reality and imagination.

The imagination is kind of like the movie writer and director who did such a great job, that all they needed to do was remove the end credits, and the viewers seamlessly slipped into another timeline of reality.

Make no mistake, the reality you and I love in, personally, collectively, globally, galactically, is completely ‘made up’ and not at all ‘real’ in the sense of what we mean when we use that word. In other words, It’s a reality being generated from somewhere. Reality and imagination are just opposite ends of the same measuring stick, and that stick is essentially you, along with me and the rest of us.

We lean into and adopt a given reality as independently true when that reality is completely dependent upon the imagination that generated and continues to uphold the projection we call reality. The movie reel is the imagination. The movie projector is also the imagination. The viewer is also taking in the imagination and then co-creating and co-signing ‘reality’, which in turn spawns new imaginations, a bunch more layers of creative reality projections to support the first assumption that reality is just real, and then the illusion becomes quite watertight and we have the experience of losing our awareness that we are making all this shit up!

And if we are making all this shit up, then we can change the recipe and make big ol’ batches of heaven instead.

I can think of favorite foods and get a physiological response to happen in my body. You can too, right? I certainly can dream romantically and sexually and have that take me somewhere, quite exquisite actually. Right? So what else is yet untapped in our working knowledge of employing the imagination to create the new reality we might dare to dream?

If any of this is accurate, we may well ask yet an even deeper question; ‘What would then prevent us from assuming our power and getting on with creating the world we dare dream for ourselves, the world we dare dream for one another?’ I don’t believe it is simply a lacking of awareness of our creative power. We are ignorant of it, yes, but there’s something underneath that willful ignorance. We need something more, more than the message that we are the creators.

What I feel that ignorance and something more to really be about is our inability to bear joy and sorrow. Joy and sorrow are the open-ended extremes of being alive in polarity. You can’t have one without the other. You only find and know love to the degree you are willing to be vulnerable to losing that love. What’s so great about having a child, for instance, is the knowledge that you could lose that child, and if not to death, then simply to growing up. That’s the knowing that affords you the reverence you need to afford you truly ‘having’ in the moment. The dream of having a child truly comes alive when you feel the vulnerability and even guarantee of losing that child. We then enter the moment where all gain and loss occurs and we experience awe and reverence.

The universe doesn’t spare anyone of us with any guarantee of the present remaining unchanged, or that we won’t lose; only insurance policies attempt that trick, which is akin to trying to purchase something you already own but are unaware of. Instead, the universe promises you, that you will lose what you gained, and therein are you afforded the grace to really be with the joy of having, and when you’ve had all the having you can handle, you enter the grace to let it go and to allow it to return to the abundance from whence it came – and you don’t actually ‘lose’ in this process of loss, because you are this joy, you are this sorrow. To be human is to sign up for joy and sorrow, for winning and losing. What game is any fun that you are guaranteed to win every time? The only ‘real illusion’ of security is the one you create for yourself being held in the arms of infinite, unending love, come what may. You are love and only love can’t win or lose anything because love is All and always will be. The imaginations and their created realities are all expressions of this unchanging love. Love couldn’t change itself, so it chose the next best thing, to create the illusion of loss, through which to expand itself and know itself more.
We are in these throes of everything changing, and when you feel it internally, it doesn’t really matter what’s changing or not changing externally. You can dial up anything you need to be in love, to be in light, to be in love’s embrace, to be in love’s radiance.

This, in turn, makes for a pretty exciting new dance ground for your inner feminine and inner masculine to show up for. Sex and love are only reverence and awe taken to higher heights.

These are the times we created for ourselves, personally, nationally, globally and galactically. Time now to invite your dreamer forward if you haven’t already.

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Join Jelelle Awen and I for a six-week group exploration over Zoom that started this  past Wednesday, April 1st at 10:00am PDT (Vancouver, Canada time) with teachings and guided meditations from us and space for individual sharings! The calls are two hours, by donation and whatever you can afford to give at this time of deep money transition for many. You can offer a donation for the entire series or just one at a time.

You can join us live and you also receive the recordings after every call and can watch them at any time after the calls if you cannot make it live.

Details here on FB at https://www.facebook.com/events/1095703627430395/
and at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/Freetobe

You can offer donations through our shop at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/shop or via paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen

We look forward to connecting deeper with you! If you have any questions, please email Kalayna Solais at soulfullhearts@gmail.com or send her a message via the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life Facebook page.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

The Creative Force Of Death & Rebirth That We Actually Are

by Raphael Awen

When the old game gets boring and no one really wants to play it anymore, the game itself wants to die, but struggles to do so because people keep showing up trying ever harder to keep it alive.

The game itself is a living thing that takes on a consciousness of its own because of all of the consciousness that is invested into it. Money is maybe one of the starkest examples of this – a game created by us, as we mutually agree to a set of rules, and as we then try to abide by those rules, that game then takes on a life of its own and becomes a mediator of life. We speak in homage to money when we say things like ‘you can’t live without money’, when in fact money and physical life have no correlation other than the one we created for it in our perceptions of the importance of money, thus giving it god-like status.

The money game we currently play is built on mountains of debt that are so far beyond repayable, no one wants to talk about it, because to talk about it is to acknowledge and look at the ending of the game, the end of us. Games are toppling all around us. The social games we play of showing up for people we don’t actually like or no longer relate to life in any kind of shared values is another game that aches for its end, but struggles to find. The spiritual games of giving our power away to an outside of us authority in some form of a guru-devotee dance is another. The emotional games of trying ever harder to stay away from what we really feel is another. One crumbling game is intertwined with another.

Something wants to die and it’s call keeps getting louder and louder. Something within also wants deeply to live and thrive at the same time.

How do we relate with both?

When we accept that the time for denial is complete, we move through the stages of grief, to feeling our anger, our fear, our need, and eventually to acceptance and even thriving in a new reality.

Nature demonstrates this process of death and rebirth over and over again. When we feel how life can’t actually ‘die’, but can only change, we accept at a deep core level our own relationship to being life itself – in movement with death and rebirth.

The ‘infestation’ of the tiny Pine Beetle in North America’s forests in recent decades is a powerful example of this. It was and still is seen through a 3D lens as a blight, a scourge, a VIRUS that is killing our precious forests and economy. Many attempts to stop its advance were made and failed. Then came along some people who were willing to look at and feel the problem from a higher place of awareness. They learned that the Pine trees in North America were and are in a state of stress brought on by the warming climate. Then they learned and proved that the trees under stress actually emit a physical sound and they recorded it. Then they realized to their utter amazement that what the Pine Beetle actually was, was likened to an agent of an assisted suicide. The Pine trees pined for their own death. The Pine Beetle heeded their call in such astonishing numbers that seemingly came out of nowhere.

I believe this so speaks for what is going on for us collectively and individually. What once felt very sustainable and comforting no longer is. Parts of us want to die and exit. Other parts of us fear death. Other parts of us so want to thrive. Only as you are willing to feel each of these parts of you are you able to navigate a truly responsible life, by your response to what now undeniably is.

The Coronavirus, whether the virus itself or the scenarios created by our layers of reaction to it answered a call we didn’t even know we were making. Playing victim to the virus and the circumstances may be the phase many are necessarily in, as they need a bringer of death to life as they’ve known it, but can’t admit it. Others with awakening consciousness see and feel that the changes and deaths are what they and life itself called out for. We are in a funeral and a birth canal at the same time. Life as we’ve known it will not be the same in so many ways.

This is the creative force of death and rebirth that we actually are. This is our next phase of consciousness evolution lapping at our shores. Holding and feeling yourself in this transition is your service to others and is your highest calling.

You get to be in your highest calling now, even sustain your life through sharing your deepest gifts of life. Just when you couldn’t find the courage to quit your day job, life came along and killed it for you. Now you get to explore what you really want now! You get to have fun and you get to play! Your day job might return, it might not, but you will be in a new flow that you longed for more than you realized.

How did we ever think it was sustainable to exchange something less than our most passionate living and loving in exchange for money? We thought that because it seemed true enough for a long time, but that’s changing now – ‘dying’ now, as you and the parts of you that makeup ‘you’ are called to an emergency meeting to feel and explore a stark new emerging reality.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Feeling & Processing Current Events With The Inner Child

by Kalayna Solais

As I went into meditation this morning, members of my Star Family were right there waiting for me and for a very precious part of me, especially.

I’ve been closest with my Star Family aspects from Sirius over the last few years. I think in some ways this is because, well, they are feline and look like “lion-people” so that makes them easier to let in for my young parts especially, but also, they are among the groups that have been working the closest with humanity. You may especially feel them nearby, energizing love and support to you around “Lion’s Gate” every August 8th. They’re also accessible because they’ve been where we are now and they understand the Ascension process well from their own experience of it and of the sacred yet often ‘bliss-messy’ steps along the way.

My Sirian-Lyran (that’s a sort of ‘star being name’ I’ve been offered to call them as it encompasses their origins) aspect named Ineerah and her masculine counterpart named Ortho wanted to connect with me and with my Inner Child, Lilly. They have been feeling her and MANY Inner Children a lot lately with everything going on. The Inner Child seems to be THE seat of sensitivity and deep reactions to what is going on right now, alongside the deep soul rumbles that everyone is feeling as the ‘collapse’ happening around us in different ways is very reminiscent of other timelines our souls all know very well (which our Inner Children are also impacted by to some degree).

Ineerah and Ortho wanted to connect with Lilly and feel her in this heightened sensitivity to the world. She is (as they always seem to be) very empathic and even a deep layer of all of us who feel we are ‘healers’ in some way.

Just yesterday I felt deep tears with her about the ‘meanness’ of others, not just towards her, but towards each other. She doesn’t like the judgements everyone has of one another and the harshness too. She doesn’t like how intense parts of people can be about ‘rules’ and ‘health regulations’, especially while she feels all of this is about SO MUCH MORE than a ‘virus’. She hasn’t felt much about what’s happening/not happening in our world right now and is actually quite happy to hear that animals are returning to places like Venice and that China’s skies are clearing. She hopes for a better future, just like all of our Inner Children do. And in that, they need presence, especially OUR presence. And, they need a voice. But, their voice cannot be heard, let alone land, in a world that remains as chaotic and out-of-touch with the real heart of things and their own individual hearts too, as has been true up ’til now.

This is what my Sirian-Lyran Star Family told her this morning, in light of this,

“Lilly,  the world is going through what it needs to right now so that you and parts like you can come out and feel safer. You WILL feel free to love and let in love in new ways as has been very unimaginable sometimes beyond your soul family connections. We know how much you ache to love and to have it be as simple as that… adult relationships, as you’ve noticed, are so complicated sometimes, but in a world where you get to be you, in all of the magic that’s within you, you get to be part of the celebration of what’s coming. You and all other parts like you are a light at the end of a very long, dark tunnel! And there’s nothing you need to DO to BE this, you just simply ARE this.”

They’re emphasizing to me now to share that our Inner Children are not a ‘solution’, but they are a ‘result’. Meaning, they are not (though sometimes this happens) meant to be actively ‘used’ as a means to an end by other parts of us to ‘solve’ issues on this planet or in our relationships, pressing on and using their hurt and pain somehow instead of healing it, which can only happen if/when we scoop them up and hold them close as us, ourselves. Their ideal alignment is with love and deep soul and heart freedom and they are freed up by the work you do with other parts of you and within your soul healing as well. They are not the labour pains of birthing the new reality, yet they ARE a new reality, especially as their essence of innocence, empathy, and trust in the Divine get to be re-discovered and unearthed.

In all of the sensitivity arising in just about everyone right now, whether it’s showing up mostly as fear, or sadness, or even excitement about what’s possible after all of this is over, it feels important to remember that this sensitivity was always there, just buried in busyness, which is now falling away. The real feelings of the heart can no longer be medicated or hidden in the same ways now that the outer world has been ‘locked down’. This can lead each of us into many deep processes yet these feelings are all meant to bring us into our truest anchoring from within of the New Earth that is in the middle of birthing into our reality.

If you feel ready to try and be with or even meet your own sweet Inner Child, you can try this meditation from Jelelle Awen to help you get in touch with them: https://youtu.be/L_bpgyIuYds

And, as always, my beloveds Jelelle and Raphael are available for 1:1 sessions if you would like to receive some mega-hearted love and support at this time: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions ❤

Much love from my heart and parts, and Star Family too, to yours!

Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.