Lost And Found And Lost Again…


By Raphael Awen

So I go to grab my passport a few days ago in order to head to the bank, and it’s not where it belongs.


I think back to where I used it last and that would be a couple weeks back when we had to go get our van back from being towed after I parked it where I shouldn’t have. Another anomaly.

I recall producing my passport at the government office to pay the fine, but I recall getting it back. Could I have left it in Pablo’s car? Pablo was the miracle man we had met recently that took us on the tour to get the van back, who had a ‘friend’ at ‘Transito’ at the government office building. I pull out my pendulum to ask it for some help. Is the passport in the apartamento? No. Didn’t think so. Is the passport in Pablo’s car? No. Shite. Where else could it be? Is it at the towing yard possibly? I couldn’t recall producing it there. Big YES! OMG, could it be? I get the phone number from the receipt and call the yard. I recalled a sweet young woman working there. I think I recognize her voice. ‘Hola, mi nombre es Marvin’ I say slowly (my name on my passport). ‘Ahh’, she replies, ‘tengo su pasaporte’. Big relief. Gabriel and I make the trek back there to pick it up the next day. Bingo. Passport is back. All good.

Well, it was all good for about less than an hour.

We went from the towing yard to the mall to do some shopping. We stopped to get something to eat, and I reach for my man purse and it’s not with me. Shite! Only now, it’s the passport AND the wallet! I left it in the bathroom stall draped over the tissue dispenser not 10 minutes prior. I run back to the bathroom. I recalled a bright looking young man entering the stall as I left, but he’d be gone by now. I look under the door to find the stall occupied and so I wait. The guy takes a while, so I wait some more till he’s done. I check the stall and it’s gone. Of course it’s gone. Double Shite!

I take a deep breath as I think to check in with customer service as I head for the bathroom exit, when in walks the bright young man carrying my murse…all intact, relieved to have found me! I reward him with some pesos that he accepts, and walk away not quite believing my good fortune and not believing I could have been so careless? Or was it care-free? What planet am I living on? …redoing my teen phase of life?

I joked to Gabriel when I returned smiling to find him in the food checkout that my karma must be all paid up in this department!

I’m not exactly sure what the moral of all this story is, but it feels like it has something to do with life reordering our worlds through chaos, and through manageable death and rebirth cycles. Jelelle and Kalayna couldn’t believe my story when we got back home saying I’m the last person to ever lose or misplace something. While that’s been true for me historically, it felt like it was obviously only true for a previous version of me. I strategically learned a good survival skill, but life and the universe wants to swap these out for some new ‘thrival skills’ based in trust and abundance, as it gave me an opportunity in this chaotic run of circumstances to loosen my grip on these fear based rigid rules of what being a ‘responsible’ human is.

Can we see that any chaos that comes into our lives is not meant to be a self-punishing cycle, but instead is a beneficial synchronicity of a loving universe? Can we see and feel life wanting to give us what we need even when we can’t see it or feel it as such?

Another question that came for me was ‘Can you imagine a world where losing your valuables would be the last thing to worry about because no one is in any kind of lack?’

Can you and I begin this task of letting-in this super-abundant universe into our emotional bodies as a way to virally infect the human race with this abundance ‘bug’?

It only takes one as we are all one and only one.

Raphael Awen

Jelelle Awen and I, Kalayna Colibri and Gabriel Heartman have our next group call this Saturday if you’d like a taste of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life…it’s a magical portal into a brave new world.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

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