It is the busy season here where I live in the resort town of Puerto Vallarta, Mexico. It is my first season here experiencing this as I spent the last two winters in Mexico at a remote ranch about three hours from here. I haven’t been to the ocean to swim in awhile as my focus has been very inward, lengthly periods of meditation, and then expressing and serving SoulFullHeart outwardly mostly through writing. Today, Raphael and I both felt a desire to take in the detoxifying ocean waters, float on our boogie boards while meditating, soak in vitamin C in the form of sunlight.
I was amazed as we walked along the main beach in town, Los Muertos Beach, how many people there were located in such a small space, clustered tightly together in beach chairs in front of Oceanside restaurants and beach clubs where you spend a certain minimum amount of pesos in exchange to sit at the ocean, have food and drink delivered to you while vendors come along every few seconds to offer you items to buy.
The intensity of the energy of all these people about blew me over. Every person I made eye contact with felt as if they were suddenly inside of my skin. Not only could I feel them (which as an empathic healer is the norm) I felt like I WAS them. I admit that it scared part of me because it was intense. I could feel their emotional reality, like I was looking out of their eyes at the world. I could feel their pain, I could feel their desires. Oh, and they seemed to be so full of both! They are here on vacation, so much desire for goodness and wanting to experience the best things in life for them: ocean, fun, sun, food, drink.
I pulled my aura in as tightly as I could to my body, which can help when feeling a lot of intense energies around you. I turned my focus to the aerating energy of the negative ions in the air and the rumble sound of the waves crashing on the shore. I sent as much love and light as I could to every person that I became joined with.
We walked to the very end of the beach which is our favorite spot as it is cut off by hills on two sides and the energy is good there, the water is clear, and the waves are sometimes mellower. Plus, there were about 95% less people there and only a few vendors. My heart opened up as I had some space to breathe, go in the water with Raphael, soak in the sun, watch and feel people from more of a distance on the shore.
It was amazing to me to see how many people felt comfortable in high density frequencies, literally crammed in with so many other people. It seemed to be more comforting to be externally focused and surrounded by distractions. This, to me, is a good, relatable example of third dimensional or 3D consciousness. It is the sense that going along feels better than being different. It is more comfortable to go outward then go within. It is reassuring to be in crowds of people. The energies that were very overwhelming to me were acceptable to their 3D selves and even comforting.
Fourth or fifth dimensional consciousness (4D and 5D) is represented in the desire for physical and energetic space. Being drawn to spaces that offer some ‘breathing room’ where you can be with your own energy and check in with yourself. The choice of where to sit on the beach seems so simple in one way but it also can be telling. I have sat in the beach chairs by the restaurants before and I probably will again, just not when it is so busy and also when I am less sensitive and opened up as I am right now during this time of intensifying energies that are integrated and vibrational frequency upgrade into deeper 5D realities. Or maybe when more of these energies integrate and I can beam out love without feeling overwhelmed.
I am not judging without love any of this or the people as I offer this example to illustrate the difference in the vibrational frequencies of 3D, 4D, and 5D. I wanted to weep at both their desire AND their pain. I wanted to weep with compassion for them and for myself and even as I felt different from them I also felt deeply connected to them and KNOW that we are all ONE. I am not an elitist about ascension. I want the entire human race to all raise up together our frequency to compassion, peace, love, non-violence, embracement of our soul gifts, etc. I often feel as if we cannot if even one of us is not and yet, also, I feel at the same time, how it just isn’t what some souls will choose or are meant to choose. And, their journey and choices are as sacred as mine or any one else’s.
Being inside of others and them inside of me like I experienced today is an aspect of the awakenings into Oneness that are happening for me more and more. I admit that it is going to take time to get used to some of this even as it has been many years of this process. I also feel, as many others do, that the energetic frequencies of Gaia, the sun, and even the solar system are amplifying everything immensely, which has an impact on our sensitivity and capacity to feel others too. Overall, I feel grateful for the experience as it allowed me the opportunity to truly feel how connected we all are even with our individuality and the opportunity to teach on the dimensional frequencies from a relatable place. I’m left with a sense of the connection that all of us have to each other even as we can seem so separate in other ways.
Jelelle Awen is a writer and co-creator/teacher/group facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.
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