Integrating Our Light And Our Darkness

By  Raphael Awen

Coming from divine bliss and where we knew nothing but oneness with the divine, we couldn’t really know it, for there was no variation in experience to compare it with. There was only one, and so no other to share it with.

The divine needed experience, duality and comparison as a way to know itself and continue to grow.

Divine ‘Mother’ birthed ‘others’ – you and I, with independent identities (egos) who are given free will to go as deep and far as our egos will take us into the world of experience and contrast and comparison.

It’s a troubling thing though, experience. We are called to go deep into this experience of being ‘othered’ from the divine, which in turn creates a yearning to return to the divine. Many channel these energies of yearning to return to the divine (that they are and never actually lost) into more experience and contrast, feeling that that will fill the homesick ache within.

Our cycles of physical death and rebirth are built into the plan to help us reevaluate, and remember, and to ensure we don’t suffer any more than is necessary to the divine’s mission at hand that moves through us.

Those who appear the most separated from the divine actually bear the divine’s greatest yearnings and mission.

How far removed from love can one be in the frontiers of the deepest darkness and never lose connection?

The darkness within you, where things live hidden from the view of yourself or others is where your personal portal to so much more can be found. You’ve been quick to embrace the light, shine the light, and to live by the light and in so doing, you have become false, as light can only be light in its comparison and relationship with darkness. Light needs a relationship with darkness to be what it is.

This has given place to the false light matrix we see around us so prevalent in spirituality today, that purports to be light. It is light, but it is a light that hasn’t reconciled its own darkness, so it is a false light.

The darkness within wants to become a part of your light, and the light within wants to become a part of your darkness.

What lives in your darkness? What is uncomfortable to tell yourself? What part of you has guarded the door to your own darkness?

Can a new you show up now to take the lead into these domains, as a curious and heart open ambassador to reconcile what up till now, has had no way of being reconciled?

If you can explore this within yourself, you also open a portal for the collective unreconciled darkness to find a way to reconcile. The great darkness we are in wants to be reconciled, not destroyed, for no energy can be destroyed.

You are the bright, bright light of the divine and you are the deep, deep darkness of the divine, too. You’d be lost if you were not both. You have and navigate experience itself because you are both, and therein is your homing device. More and more, you get to journey far from home while taking home with you as you do.

Begin by sharing with the divine what you really feel and see in your darkness. Ask the divine to guide you from your deepest vulnerability. Life as you know it will move and shift with a new you captaining your ship in deep relationship with the divine.

Raphael Awen

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

You Are The Royalty That Creates your Own Reality

By  Raphael Awen

We see now how reality is a totally created thing. We sure see it in the main stream, which is just that, a stream that conjures up a reality.

The word reality has a strange original connection to the word royalty. The Royals are the ones who can dictate reality. The secret is that you are the royalty who creates your own reality. And the next secret is that you are already doing this every day, every hour, every minute. When you get real, you get royal!

This isn’t something you need to go meditate in a cave alone for 13 years to attain this super human capacity. You are this by design and always were.

The powers that be have known this since the beginning of time. Time now for you and I to assume our own forgotten power, to allow to arise an ever new reality to broadcast from who and what we are.

There’s never been a more leveraged time like now to face and take responsibility for this creative force that you are.

Got anything else worth doing?

Raphael Awen

(The Pic above is from the area we are camping in, in Portugal this summer)

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

No Return To Normal

By  Raphael Awen

There is no returning to normal from here going forward.

Hoping to return to normal is a big part of what keeps people compliant, asleep and underneath that, very deeply scared.

There IS a shit ton to be concerned about, if not scared about, that is if you’re willing to take an honest stock of what we are being faced with more and more with each passing day.

We are in the middle of a population reduction, medical eugenics experiment in the form of the bioweapon, falsely referred to as the va((ine, being foisted upon us by some of the darkest forces imaginable, who are much higher up than the slime bucket psyborg politicians who are held hostage to be the face of this agenda.

I’ve shared a lot in my recent writings about how love is the ultimate source of everything, including even this heightening duality at hand. It all came from love and it’s all returning to love. That’s the bigger picture and context that all this is happening in, in my view. There is no battle between good and evil that is pending an outcome or a winner. Love hasn’t won, because love never entered any battle.

But the shit is still flying, while this duality drama has its way in consciousness and in you and I. The pending winner or loser here and now, is you, even as you cannot ever be separated from love and ultimately, can’t lose. Both are true.

Your future, your soul purpose, what really matters to you in this life at hand is very much at stake, very much pending an outcome.

How long will you allow others to make up your mind?

How long will you falsely put others before yourself at your own expense?

How long will you create your own suffering in the name of kindness?

Choice fast becomes the real currency and ultimately the only currency that matters, making you agile to respond to this abnormalized world, to take the journey that your soul orchestrated for you to take.

What choices are before you now?

How do you tell the difference between soul guidance and simple anxiety about the future?

I believe that if you ask for divine guidance, you have it available to you. Even your anxiety about the future can be an indicator and a part of the guidance as you embrace a choice and feel how acting on that choice either heightens or relieves the anxiety.

Then what makes the biggest difference I’ve learned is getting to know the part of you who’s holding the anxiety. When you do this, an anxiety problem becomes an anxiety solution, a portal to a much bigger you, and a portal to an oh-so-much brighter universe.

Thank God for your anxiety! Let it tell you of its fears and desires. Let it become your sacred friend. Let it transmute as it gets felt and loved in your heart space.

What else have you got to do that could even begin to compare? What else might you do that would even begin to add up as a contribution to the world around you?

Raphael Awen

(The pic above is from our camp here this summer in Portugal)

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Relationships Provide The Ground For Our Learning And Growth

By  Raphael Awen

Every relationship we have and their unfolding circumstances, whether with another person, or a thing or an institution is the ground of our learning, our growth.

Relationships are our spiritual teacher, that we can either tune into to our gain or ignore to our loss.

We were born into duality, the world of good and bad, desirable and undesirable, and that is what creates experience.

Experience calls for preference and choice. Experience is also the ground of our joy and our irritation. Without experience, we wouldn’t grow, there would be no need for growth as we would be in a world of full attainment, quite possibly bored as hell at the same time.

Would pure joy be pure joy if it was the only mode you are capable of, if there was nothing to compare it to, to help define it as desirable?

The human experience is one of polarities and dualities. Many seek to avoid this by pursuing a ‘nondual awakening’ as a kind of spiritual attainment and making that a medication to help them avoid the feeling and learning that duality wants to teach them. Yes, duality was born out of non-duality, and non-duality may well be our our upstream reality and higher essence, but we chose to be here in duality, so the invitation is to be here now, where we are, receive the learnings and expansions that we could receive no other way.

We find lots of duality right inside of ourselves, one part of us posturing to be seen a certain way and dead scared of operating out of that familiar mode and another part of us desperately wanting to just drop-the-fucking-role already!

Can we embrace this duality within, and become an ambassador to each part of us and get to know them and their realities without making one right and the other wrong?

It’s about reconciling our dualities in this way, not eliminating them.

All stress can be traced to the garden variety of lying that we all participate in, needing to seen a certain way; having it together in a way that doesn’t match the actual reality within. This stress becomes more like a psychosis the longer it is ignored and not faced.

Facing it however, with choice, with love, with curiosity and an opening heart brings us into realms of experience we never thought possible. It changes everything.

Raphael Awen

(The pic above is from nearby our camp this summer in Geres, Portugal)

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Lammas/Lughnasadh Energies Support Feeling What’s Real, Letting Go Of What Was

By Kasha Rokshana

The festival of Lammas was yesterday, which is celebrated at the halfway point between Summer Solstice and Autumn Equinox. It is the ‘first harvest’. And it also, as with all festivals, seems to represent a death and rebirth of its own…

There’s something about letting in all we’ve harvested from life as we once knew it. We are letting old ways ‘die’ now and be cut down like overripe grains in a field. We are being guided by Divine energies that want to help us with this process, which is ongoing, of letting go of what was, being with what is, and letting in what’s now becoming possible beyond the dystopia which is also very real at the moment.

When grains are harvested, they are threshed. It’s a pretty aggressive-feeling process of literally ‘separating the wheat from the chaff’. What was actually artificial in our ways of life and ways of being, interfacing with the world around us, is on the threshing floor and all we can really do in the midst of that is surrender to the process…

You see, this way of life we’ve all been accustomed to of hyper-autonomy and even anonymity afforded us by typical Western lifestyles where we live within concrete and/or drywall, pressing the Gaian elements and surrounding energies as far away from us as possible so parts of us can feel ‘safe’ and ‘in control’, is dying. Parts of us strategizing ways to avoid the lessons of life and even venturing into discomfort to see what growth and healing lies on the other side of it, are the parts being very challenged right now.

We’re being supported, invited, and even pushed into really looking at the ways in which we’ve settled within our once sacred cocoons. We’re being invited to recognize where we haven’t really let anyone in deeply or taken the risk for real intimacy within and with others, let alone real intimacy with Gaia herself and what she mirrors for each of us.

On this ‘threshing floor’, we are being shaken of our artifice, layer by layer, and it’s time to take the space needed to truly feel how this is impacting us, feeling what’s REAL, and navigating our lives from there.

Nothing like choosing a camping lifestyle to really help with this process for me personally right now. There is so much I can’t control and there are moments where I feel parts of me very uncomfortable with this… yet also, almost at the same time, I feel my soul awakening and compensating somehow for this, helping me hold space for the process and linking me up to very needed Divine energies within and without. It helps of course that I’m not alone here and doing this with beloveds who I love and trust. That makes all the difference in the world.

Wherever this ‘threshing’ process is taking you now, know that you are so loved, so held, and actually being asked to LIVE even when you feel like you are dying.

Much love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Sacred Choices Before You Now.

By  Raphael Awen

Part of me is feeling glad and excited for the meltdown of life as we’ve known it playing out every day now.

Something in my heart and soul told me something was way off decades ago when I felt pushed reluctantly into adult life. The adults were sweeping shit under the rug on every hand like there was no tomorrow way back then. I tried at times to participate, but felt repeatedly called to something different, as well as just plain shit at participating or succeeding in the shitshow.

This has been one big anticipated meltdown, for such a long time. As a young man, I recall the verses from the book of Revelation about ’no man being able to buy or sell without the mark of the beast in their foreheads or wrist, with the added injunction of ‘let him who has wisdom count the number of the beast, which is 666’.

Eventually, I came to find that my beloved Christianity, that helped me awaken in many ways, was just about as in the ditch and co-opted as anything else.

‘They’ have been wanting to get this show on the road for a long time and now it is truly showtime. The acts are lined up, it’s all or nothing. There is no turning back. We are in a birth canal.

It’s not the only show however on the stage. Great darkness is always contrasted with great light while we are in this phase of contrast. Love is actually funding both sides of this apparent war between good and evil, with a grand agenda at hand.

The agenda is you and I, and everyone around us waking up to more of what we are. There isn’t actually and ultimately a ‘they’ and an ‘us’. Even the sleepwalkers and zombies surrendering to the altering of their DNA in a kind of Stockholm Syndrome response of welcoming and helping their oppressors are all part of this great staging, and are a part of love’s unfolding story.

You can however choose what polarity you’d like to be a part of and cheer on, from wherever you find yourself now, but you can’t actually separate yourself from the other side. There’s only one container, and there’s no compartments or sides.

I’d actually be quite scared right now as events reach fever pitch if I believed that good was raging a do or die battle against evil, where everything good could be lost forever. Love hasn’t actually won or lost. It never entered the battle. It only staged the battle for its own expansion of itself into the infinite awareness and abundance that it is.

It can’t stop itself. It wants more and won’t stop at anything to have this more, not at the expense of anyone or anything, but only at the aggrandizement of itself, to itself, of the ALL of which you and I ARE.

That’s the bigger picture, and It breeds a ton of relief in me. I feel sorry for those posted out on the edges of darkness or the light who believe that life and love are actually at stake. Coming to this realization is where our unity and our forgiveness can come into play. Love is willing to pick up the tab for it all.

But the shitshow is ramping up now every day, and parts of you are forced to make choices. Expecting life to remain the same might be the most debilitating influence upon your wellbeing.

You have sacred and very grounded choices to make that your soul knows well what they are. You don’t need my prescription or anyone else’s, whether you should do this or that. You know. You’ve always known.

It’s time to let go of following others’ prescriptions, unless you are part of the show that’s staging that necessary part of the contrast. You can prescribe your own medicine.

The vaxxed are fast becoming the vexed, realizing the lies they were fed and subjected to, as they come to terms with what is being proven to be lifelong alterations to their well-being. We’ve been vaxxed with so many things and realities for so long, long before the vax at hand. All of those games were necessary to precede the plot the plotters have prepared for this hour.

How much interference do you need to choose your own power? How much playing by others rules do you need to make up your own game? If you’re going to create your own game, what would you want it to be about? How much do you need to lose to take up the sacred power of your own choice, the one thing that no oppressor anywhere can take from you?

Your soul chose to be alive here in this dimension for this culmination of the times. There’s nothing more powerful than you choosing you, your truth, your prescriptions, your yes and your no. It will cost you dearly, but it will pay you back a hundredfold and more.

If there’s anything else out there that feels more appealing for you, then that’s for your soul to play out, for some good reason, and love will hold all of that too, regardless of how much I might cringe to see you walk that out. You don’t answer to me or anyone else. You answer to you.

The green light before you will lead to the next one. The red lights will also be a part of the guidance. You get to choose how proximal you want to be and for what reasons. You don’t have to convince anyone of anything either if that feels like a trap, or simply not your definition of fun. Every soul knows and is playing out their sacred script.

Everything is changing. Love has birthed all of this. It’s unstoppable. The bigger catastrophe was you and I being expelled from the Eden of the divine bliss oneness bliss that we were (and actually still are in individuated form). The ‘catastrophe’ at hand is the coming back together of what has been separated.

The darkness is willing to be passionate it, willing to look maniacal and even plain stupid in their participation. How willing are you to fly your own colors for this coming together?

I doubt there will ever be a drama this big on this planet after this one. This changes everything. It may even get a bit boring. If you want a piece of this action, then choose it, however that looks for you!

Much love to you as you walk out your sacred and profound part of this grand story.

Raphael Awen.

The pic above is from yesterday here in where we’ve been guided to, in Portugal, as part of where we are meant to be and want to be to ride out the birth canal we are all in and share.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Divine Mother’s Guidance On Being

By  Raphael Awen

Are you able to feel good about yourself before and without doing anything to feel good about yourself?

That’s the question a part of me is entertaining today.

It has always felt good to this part of me to be achieving something, moving some kind of index forward. There’s been a bunch of layers of indexes upon indexes that I’ve used in my life, a whole dashboard of levers and dials to monitor, control, respond, and ultimately, receive a reward from.

At one time, it was things like home improvement or business building. More recently, it has been more spiritually and emotionally oriented to something akin to a higher level of personal improvement, attaining a higher level of consciousness. I can see and feel however, where I’ve been still beholden to the old orientation of feeling good about myself because I did something positive.

‘It’s all still doing and achieving’ this part of me says!

Learning how to be centered, in joy, grateful, or whatever other prescription one can come up with is still a prescription, a means to improve one’s condition or fate, and thus feel better about oneself.

Problem is though, now, that efforting in order to feel better about myself is fast losing its appeal and natural seeming effortless energy, and has been for some time. It used to work quite well. It appeared it would hold me for life. It doesn’t anymore. To this part of me, it has felt like a slow and ongoing death. Now, however, it’s beginning to look and feel much more appealing.

What could an alternative look like? And how would I relate to that alternative without trying to ‘apply’ it, as another more sophisticated kind of personal improvement that promises me something, leaving me squarely in this same old predictable, safe and shrinking territory?

What would moving from a life of expectation and knowing to a life of the unexpected and living in the unknown look and feel like?

As this part of me asked Divine Mother this morning more about this ongoing dilemma, the response came back.

‘Doing and achieving was a way that you could justify receiving love in the past. It was all love, but you just couldn’t accept it without giving something in exchange to feel worthy of it. You received the love in the form of some improvement and that always felt good.

‘There was nothing wrong with that, it’s just the phase you needed to go through, complete in order to be ready to enter this next phase.

‘Life is always improving you could say, but it ‘does’ this effortlessly by allowing both death and rebirth. Life allows inbreath and outbreath, increase and decrease.

‘What is before you now is the opportunity to simply let in the love without equating it to any deserving of it, or to any earning of it. It is a graduation that you can’t graduate with, or measure, or set a timer to. It simply is because you are.

‘Receiving this love is akin to feeling worshipped. Feeling yourself receiving divine love and grace, flowing to and through your being because that is who and what you are, in your deepest essence of being. Worthy. Not because you did anything, or demonstrated anything worthy. Not an exchange. Not a transaction.

‘Your sexual fantasies have often had this dream at root of them, being worshipped in this way, where an other can convey onto you sheer joy and pleasure simply because of love and life. In this you can recognize your wiring for this kind of experience.

‘Life and love wants to dance with you, play with you, focus on you, share with you, draw you into pleasure, into its more. This is the new phase before you.

‘The old lays dying all around you. The new arises right in the midst of it all. Allow it to greet you and usher you into the life you’ve always dreamed of, and into who you always were, are and will be.

Much love,

Raphael Awen

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The pic above are part of the the view from the campsite where Jelelle and I seem to settling into for the summer, living into adventure and unknown and new things to learn and feel, along with old layers to shed as well. Our beloveds arrive later this week and next! Gabriel Amara Kasha Rokshana Bianca Gieber

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

V. Bioweapons Are Targeting Our God Gene: Message From Anna, Grandmother of Yeshua

By Jelelle Awen

From Anna:

You cannot underestimate the threat that you live under and have been programmed by your entire lives. I say this not to bring up fear within you (unless you need to feel that) yet rather for you to feel with compassion ALL that you are living with and under. This threat has become more apparent to you now…over the last 18 months, with their C. and V. agendas, fear propaganda programming, and intense pressure to conform and obey.

These same Dark Ones ruled through the Roman Empire that persecuted my family and my beloved son Yeshua, who also chose to teach the lesson of forgiveness of those who would persecute you….and the wonders of resurrection that can come out of the harshest seeming endings. He arose out of the violence and ‘lived’ many years after his crucifixion in between body and spirit, setting a template and seeding for 5D consciousness living within the body.

We lived as a Magdalene family under a constant threat of being invaded, being persecuted, with some loss of life and violence experienced by us. And yet, still, the Divine would invite us to hold in our hearts a compassion for our ‘persecutors’ and to understand that there were no true victims or abusers in the eyes of the Divine. Each of us being a child of the Divine, EVEN those who seem to be so polarized to the dark, was a deep invitation that we were constantly learning to embody.

So, you are challenged now. In your lifetime. In this time of heightened polarity, segregation, and persecution of those now who have taken the V. and those who have not. Understand too that they have targeted the “God Gene”, as it is called, within your human bodies with these V. Bioweapons. The God Gene is your soul consciousness, your connection to the Divine, your capacity for multidimensional experiences beyond the 3D and 5 sense filtering that they would prefer you stay at. We didn’t see it in our lifetime as they didn’t have access to those technologies then, yet now it is clear that disabling the God Gene is to disconnect what makes humanity sacred as children of the Divine. That connection is your source of empowerment, your source of hope, your source of compassion and forgiveness and compassion. Your source of love. Without this connection, you then become susceptible to their fear-based programming even more than you are already have been.

For those who have not CONSCIOUSLY unplugged from their control Matrix (and for many years as it is a very arduous initiation process chosen by the soul and Higher Self), they are already very vulnerable to the transhuman, remote-controlled technologies that these V. bioweapons infuse into the body along with the 5G grid, chem trails, and poisoned food/water sources. Even many spiritual teachers and seekers may be compromised here as they are still operating within the False Light Matrix programming rather than outside of it. This is how the Dark Ones have ‘dealt’ with those whose souls would awaken during their lifetimes. They would hook into their karmic wounds, trap them in karmic incarnation cycles, and a pattern of the same soul theme sufferings over and over again with unworthiness, disconnect, guilt, dominance of others or suppression of self, etc. to cap them from rising into their OWN Divine connection embodiment.

Unless you have unplugged CONSCIOUSLY from this False Light Matrix AND the previous mainstream 3D one, you are still operating under their agenda to some extent. Those spiritual teachers/healers who are not very directly talking about the V. agenda and offering guidance/support to refuse it are still plugged into the False Light Matrix. They are in a ‘love and light’ bubble or a ‘guru/devotee lineage’ bubble or a self image/ego-based frequency to their spirituality that becomes very obvious to you once you have unplugged from it.

Now, the Dark Ones are hijacking the God Gene directly (which they have spent years trying to isolate as they know it is part of the ‘problem’ of why humans rebel and kept trying to awaken) and then they are hoping the False Light Matrix won’t be necessary as the soul’s drive to awaken will extinguish. Much of spirituality and religion will fall away then, as you are seeing already the collapse and upheaval of some of it. This is yet another reason to not inject their V. bioweapons into your precious human body vessel. Your God Gene, the hook up to your Divine parental source, is so important and vital, esp during this time.

The pressure will keep building to get the V., with many more freedoms taken away, as the Dark Ones shift rapidly from the ‘carrot’ of incentives to the ‘stick’ of punishment and peer pressure policing.

Your trust in the Divine will be crucial during this time to navigate through this. Within your primal Divine nature, ALL the resources you need to survive this lay dormant. From many lifetimes lived BEFORE the Matrix reality came to be after the Fall of Atlantis. From many millions of years in the Golden Age of Lemuria. From 5D other planetary experiences.

You have access to SO MUCH within your soul field that can help you now. And you came here now to remember, to wake UP, to truly be free of their Matrix. This lifetime offers that opportunity. If you choose it. The biggest challenge is to let go of those who are still within their Matrix programming and are choosing to stay there. You cannot fight their soul choice here, as they must still have growth to experience within it. Nor fight the choice many will make to leave their bodies now rather than ascend with Gaia.

Gaia holds the 5D template now, you can tune into in the wild natural places that are left on the surface. She activates your God and Goddess Gene and provides a groundedness to your spirituality that helps you unplug from the False Light matrix. She broadcasts the beacon of ‘home’ to you so that you can remember, you can chose, you can love….you can truly be FREE.

So much love to you during this dark time for which so much is possible,Anna, grandmother of Yeshua, Magdalene Elder Priestess and Wise Woman with Jelelle Awen

We are offering powerful healing 1:1 sessions to support you during this intense time to connect with your God Gene consciousness/Higher Self and unplug from the False Light/3D matrix. I am working with those women who have previously met with me, Gabriel and Kasha offer free intro calls plus 1:1 sessions, and Raphael 1:1 sessions as well to those new to our work. More info at soulfullheart.org/sessions

Photo is of Gaia transmissions here in this beautiful mountain vortex Lemurian hot spot in northern Portugal.

The Courage To Feel It All

If you’re willing to feel into the source of your depression and anxiety, rather than medicate it down, or cover it over, you are a rare and brave soul.

You are choosing a very courageous adventure and journey with some difficult pieces and some very outstanding realizations and embodiments that even most spiritual people are adverse to, whose spirituality is part of the necessary ‘management’ of their ‘condition’.

Where did we get the idea that one who has depression or anxiety has something wrong with them? Your humanity was birthed out of your divinity and then veiled from that divine source. Of course, you would feel something about that; a loss; a trauma at a deep core level. Of course, you would have attachments and traumas to things and relationships in your past.

Feeling into the deeper source of loss is entering a portal that feels very scary, like you will be swallowed whole, made completely powerless, unable to even effort the pain management scheme any longer that has sort of worked up till now, back into total loss and darkness.

Why would anyone choose such a journey?

Short answer – simply because it’s the next piece of growth for you, where nothing else affords any growth or meaning.

Many, and by far most, are nowheres near that place. If you are, it’s going to feel like going it alone, which is a big part of the initiation and your personal individuation.

It is your deepest service to the collective, as an explorer of consciousness, as a lover of love.

You are this big of a soul. Time now to build your sanctuary of deep personal and divine connection.

What else is there really and truly worth doing, especially at a time such as this?

You are the bright, bright, bright light of god.

*****

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

The Great Disillusion Before The Great Awakening

Before any Great Awakening there is a Great Dissolving of Illusion. The things that used to be the stalwarts of our ‘reality’ suddenly show themselves to be nothing more than the tools of the magicians and strings of the puppeteers. The shadows of Plato’s cave are seen as nothing more than projections of the spell-casters.

This Great Disillusionment is met with varied responses somewhere among the spectrum of Grief. The collective, as a whole, has been duped, doped, and dehumanized. The clear awareness of this must be felt fully in order to respond truly, with courage and purity of heart rather than visceral rage or righteous indignation.

These only lead us back to the beginning even as it makes parts of us feel better that they ‘did something’. It is about fully feeling all of the stages until we get to the core of our humanity…our Compassion and Forgiveness. This does not throw out Justice but rather humanizes it.

We are all being herded into camps with different labels. Vaxxed, unvaxxed, masked, unmasked, conspiracy nut, or sheeple. All of this is a way to dehumanize us into this or that. When we categorize and classify ourselves we have separated ourselves from each other.

That doesn’t mean that we just deny our own truth and needs. We may have to no longer be associated with people that do not align to our deepest clarity. That can be done with compassion for oneself and for others. We can hold unconditional love while holding conditions for our relationality.

I have been guilty of this righteousness in my past. I understand it. I fall prey to it at times when a part of me needs to rage or feel better about itself. But I do hold it as a part, and not as my whole. I go back to it and feel where it’s truth lies and where it needs love, not judgment.

This is part of our own humanization process. To feel ourselves as a basket of parts that have all sorts of feelings and judgements. These parts and aspects need our attention, not just our projection. It is hard because how we may feel about others is reflected in the way we feel about ourselves. This is the Greater Awakening. The one that happens when you look in the mirror and into your own darkness and fear.

My purpose here is to help us all remember that we are Human. We all have shit buried in our DNA, in our past, and in our soul history. We are scared, frightened, and confused. We are also powerful beyond what we have been conditioned, programmed, or veiled to see. It is that humanity that steers us out of this sacred mess and into a world we have long forgotten we came from.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

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