Meet Your Gatekeeper: Multidimensional Soul Aspect & Divine Muse

By Jelelle Awen

Yesterday, I updated our website page about Gatekeepers. This is the last page from our website soulfullheart.org that now has gotten a new update in energy through redoing the colors, text, photos and lay outs…this has taken days/weeks of my time yet also has been quite enjoyable for me! I think the Gatekeeper page was originally created in 2017, so it has been awhile in the recreation. Our analytics recently showed that it was the most popular page on our website where visitors also stayed the longest…that was interesting!

And, doing this brought me again to the Gatekeeper’s realm…the space in which this magical, mysterious, protective, shrouded and usually hidden aspect of our soul lives, who is tasked with keeping the veil down on our remembering as needed. Lost in their mission, alone and isolated, and often the only conscious witness to ALL those intense human lifetimes (esp in the 3D Matrix) of karma and trauma playing out over and over again.

I connected with my Gatekeeper Lucia just this morning and felt her download some pieces with me about the Matrix, ongoing agendas (some of them looming like dark clouds in the horizon), the Great Reconciliation going on (as we are calling it), creative work inspirations such as a new book, emotional digestion of some recent completions with people, service/purpose clarities and more. We had tears together moving some sadness and mourning even as we felt love together, Divine Mother’s love supporting us both, moving into opened out trust and surrender. Lucia (meaning light) lives now in my lighthouse, shining her light beacon out to those who are ready and resonate to see and feel it.

Having met hundreds of Gatekeepers now during sessions and connecting with mine since 2008, I truly feel their existence as very real although beyond the physical…. unique, important and essential to explore during our awakening and Ascension journey. During long-term connection with them many veils are lifted on soul purpose clarity, soul history patterns/traumas/play outs, relationship to the Divine, unplugging from the Matrix and much more.

There’s more about the Gatekeeper here if you feel a resonance soulfullheart.org/gatekeepers

This is the poem on the Gatekeepers page, written by my Gatekeeper at the time…

I am here, waiting for you to see me and feel me.

Waiting for you to get how much I have done for you.

Waiting for you to understand what I am here to offer you.

Waiting for you to remember why you are here and what your purpose is.

I am here, waiting for you to love me as I have loved you.

Waiting for you to pick up on the signals and signs that I am leaving you.

Waiting for you to connect that what you feel in your body is often me causing you pain or illness to get your attention.

Waiting for you to heal your heart in order to let in love.

I am here, waiting for you to love me as I have loved you.

Love,

Your Gatekeeper

If you’d like to meet yours, here is a guided meditation for doing so:

And a 1:1 session over zoom is an intimate space to open up and bridge together to their ‘world’, which is often in a cave-like setting with many tunnels going off of it, representing the many lifetimes/timelines. More info about sessions with me or another SoulFullHeart Facilitator at soulfullheart.org/sessions

Opening To Love With Every Part Of You

By Jelelle Awen

You keep opening your heart to love. You do, because it is WHY you are here. To open, to share, to risk….even, sometimes, to break. So it feels like…..your heart is breaking into pieces and the parts that seem shattered speak to you then, saying, ‘This is me, all broken up. Will I ever come together again?’

These parts of you speak of hurt and loss that runs deep, much beyond this moment and even this present timeline and this current situation or circumstance. They flash you the slideshow scenes of previously forgotten pain that is now acutely aching again so you can understand it better, feel it, BE with it…..eventually help them be FREE from these frozen in fear moments.

These parts of you cry with you their tears that often weren’t allowed, permitted, or felt in the moment the pain was caused and harm received by others. These parts of you…..sometimes so, so young, precious, and innocent….can then be held by your and the Divine Mother’s forgiveness and compassion. They can become pure again under the light of your loving sun.

You keep holding the space for this process….being with what is real, allowing space to feel it ALL with ALL parts of you. You keep feeling because, on the other side of this pain, is the joy that is contained in every part of you.

On the other side of the fear…..is the love that is the essence of every part of you.

On the other side of the shame….is the innocence in every part of you.

On the other side of the judgement….is the acceptance of every part of you.

On the other side of the unworthiness….is the sense of your innate goodness as a reflection of the Divine.

Your Divine Self keeps finding support to trust this transmutational process. You trust it because it always moves to the other side eventually. Every movement offers the opportunity and possibility of moving on….even if it looks like ‘going in’ or looks like mourning.

You hear ‘it’s time to move on now and let it go’ and so parts of you do, your previously occupied heart now empty, vacated, and ready to be filled up again by love…

You keep feeling the love that life is bringing, holding, offering you and these parts do too until they become more and more whole and integrated.

You keep listening as Life says, “Keep opening UP, BEing with what is real and trusting the process. All that you desire and deserve is here……waiting until you are ready to receive it.”

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Love,

Jelelle Awen

This ground of feeling, healing, and being with parts of you and soul aspects is what we explore with much tender and deep initiation in 90 minute 1:1 sessions over zoom, which range from 55 to 100 USD/Euros depending on Facilitator. For more information about a free intro and sessions, visit soulfullheart.org/sessions

This is our Deepen 2022 meditation series that I recommend for opening up access to many parts of self and soul aspects: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y…

Unplugging From The Matrix Livestream Recording & Guided Meditation (Video) | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

In this video recorded live on November 23rd, SoulFullHeart Teachers Raphael and Jelelle Awen shared about unplugging from the Matrix…a controlled and programmed 3D-based reality that has been kept in place since the ‘fall’ of human consciousness during the collapse of Atlantis/Lemuria. We shared an update on the bigger picture movements of the ongoing Matrix narrative in expression as the Great Reset agenda, False light hijack of spirituality and religion, false med narrative.

We talked about our experience of unplugging from the Matrix and how our SoulFullHeart quantum healing process/way of life supports this process. Unplugging from the Matrix conditioning and programming is a multi-layered process from the inside out in the emotional body, soul/energy field…an unplugging process that needs to occur to allow the soul’s sovereignty and autonomy to be freed up, along with the parts/aspects that are plugged in from this life and other lifetimes with our three way approach to this: unplugging from the undigested emotional trauma experiences of this life with parts of the self; unplugging from the karmic/soul pattern traumas from other lifetimes with soul aspects; unplugging from the Matrix itself including with your Reptilian Self.

We talked about the how you may experience the unplugging process, the signs that it is progressing and the areas that it is challenging such as related to money and relationships. We shared a digestion of the recent documentary about the false med narrative as well.

We offered a brief guided meditation to facilitate an unplugging in the moment for whatever part/aspect/reptilian self is ready for that with Divine support and love.

Here is the meet your Reptilian Self meditation that we mentioned in the video. https://youtu.be/TszIoQ44GIc

Raphael and Jelelle offer a weekly SoulFullHeart livestream on Facebook every Wednesday at 5:00pm Lisbon/London time/12pm EDT, which will then be shared here on our SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube channel the next day. During the livestream, we will respond to your questions/comments, plus offer a teaching, personal sharings, and a guided meditation. We will explore different topics every week related to awakening and Ascension from the SoulFullHeart perspective. You can join us live on Jelelle’s feed to ask questions and leave comments. You can read comments that happened during on the livestream on Jelelle’s facebook feed: https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org. For more information about a free intro call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

Navigating The False Med Narrative Teachings & Guided Meditation (Video)w/Raphael & Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

In this video recorded live on November 16th, SoulFullHeart Teachers Raphael and Jelelle Awen sharing about the false med narrative (as we are now calling it due to censors) and how it has impacted all of us, no matter what our personal choices have been around it. We share a bigger picture context around the larger agenda behind it with ambassadorship to those behind the Great Reset to offer more understanding where it is coming from.

We offered how the false med narrative as it rolls out for a longer period of time is leading to an increasing amount of sudden/unexpected deaths and severe injuries, along with genetic alteration, compromised immune system, myocarditis (many heart attacks), strokes, insertion of and merging with nano tech, altering people’s energy fields, amplifying intense emotional states/instability, and much more. And those who haven’t taken the false med shots are seemingly impacted by the transmission from it, even remotely as we talk about.

This narrative has impacted all of us including those of us who have been clear from the beginning about the control agenda around it and said no to it. Even so, you may have loved ones, mates, clients, family members, and others who have chosen it and are experiencing an ongoing digestion around that too. While it may be tempting to ignore it or bypass it or transcend it, we have chosen to awaken during this time and are here to experience this along with the rest of humanity.

We share about our experience of this narrative and the sometimes difficult personal choices it has required us to make as we digest it and how the SoulFullHeart healing process helps us to ground into ongoing surrender and trust in the Divine around it with parts/aspects/reptilian selves who need that and also are resources for us. We led a brief guided meditation to connect to whichever part/soul aspect is in the ‘false med battlefield’ as healer/warrior etc. and then brought up into a higher dimension ‘safe’ space in a lighthouse to rest and recover. In this space, you can connect with your inner ambassador/Divine Self/guides for reassurance and digestion.

Here is the meet your Reptilian Self meditation that I mentioned in the video. https://youtu.be/TszIoQ44GIc

Note: Our mics recently stopped working on our laptop, so we are using the laptop mic in the moment with some computer fan noise in the background so you may want to listen on headphones.

Raphael and Jelelle offer a weekly SoulFullHeart livestream on Facebook every Wednesday at 5:00pm Lisbon/London time/12pm EDT, which will then be shared here on our SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube channel the next day. During the livestream, we will respond to your questions/comments, plus offer a teaching, personal sharings, and a guided meditation. We will explore different topics every week related to awakening and Ascension from the SoulFullHeart perspective. You can join us live on Jelelle’s feed to ask questions and leave comments.

You can read comments that happened during on the livestream on Jelelle’s facebook feed: https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

For more information about a free intro call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

Gifts Of Connecting With Your Inner Teenager

By Jelelle Awen

Your Inner Teenager is the part of you representing the phase and stage after childhood and before adulthood, usually between 11 and 18 years old, although that can vary. This is a very important period of life as it is very often when awakening is happening on a Metasoul level with timelines starting to bleed-through into your reality. In many timelines, the teenager phase of life is honored as a sacred time of initiation. It is recognized in these other lifetimes that you are in, as the beginning stages of becoming/identifying your soul gift expressions and purpose. In many timelines, the community provided support for the teenager to mature into that expression.

However, in our 3D modern era, for teenagers, there isn’t usually initiation, honoring, and training in how to follow their soul’s purpose or any recognition of it. Instead, 3D culture overlooks teenagers and often judges them harshly. Instead of receiving initiation in all areas of life around relationships, sexuality, spirituality, and passion purpose, your Inner Teenager received, most likely, invalidation in all these areas. Deep 3D-based conditioning just serves to feed and amplify growing fears, dualities, insecurities, and polarizations inside of them.

The Inner Teenager is often hanging out in the sanctuary of their teenage bedroom and can be connected with there. Your Inner Teenager is often stuck there with strong feelings of angst, depression, even suicidal feelings of not wanting to be on this planet and in their birth families anymore. Instead of a healthy phase of individuating from birth family, there is often push-pull, over attachment, and other unhealthy dynamics experienced by our inner teens. They are hiding from the family dynamics, yet there can be both longing for connection and pushing away from the family vibe at the same time. So often the teenager is torn between the necessity of bonding with their birth family for their very survival and a growing sense of dissonance and lack of resonance.

There seem to be two kinds of ways that this expresses in an Inner Teenager during this very challenging phase of life. Either as overt rebellion and acting out in behaviors that are not approved of; or in nearly complete-seeming acceptance and conformity to the family. In the case of rebellion, more inner truth and empowerment is able to be expressed, even if it isn’t always in healthy ways. When there has been conformity, a conforming 3D Self (almost like a robot self) is created to fit in and the rebellious and angry part of the Inner Teenager is usually hidden away in the shadows.

I have discovered that the Inner Teenager is the part of us that is often responsible for our social interface in life, even as adults. They are stuck in the trauma they experienced in social interactions and haven’t been able to mature beyond it until we connect with them and help them heal. It is often the Inner Teenager’s energy that is leading in romantic relationships, which is why so many of them can be dysfunctional and not as mature in transaction. This isn’t the fault of our Inner Teenager yet rather a reflection of where they haven’t yet matured in their expression of relationality with others.

So much intense rage, depression, and anxiety can be bleeding through from other lifetimes/timelines into your Inner Teenager’s reality. Your soul is starting to awaken and there is more coming through. The veil may be thinner during this time and there is not as much protection being provided by the Inner Protector to keep it out. Later on in adulthood, the Inner Protector and the Gatekeeper are able to create a stronger veil around your 3D Self using layers of densities from undigested traumas.

Connecting with your Inner Teenager in a conscious way allows them to receive the initiations and individuation that they most need in order to mature in all areas of life. By receiving a bridge to you in your current maturity, they are able to receive a template for who they will become and what their potential is. Like a visit with their ‘future self’ in the form of a loving mentor, they finally receive what they have most been needing and longing for.

Going into the world of our Inner Teenager brings us closer to the passion, imagination, and creativity we had to set aside for various reasons as we became adults. It is about feeling the loss of innocence that led us to so much serious, repressed, and conforming expression. They are the bridge from our youth to our maturity. They are truly seers of new worlds. Healing our Inner Teenager brings a new vision of life that has technicolor rad-ness and infinite vision. It brings a joy and lightness that seeks to learn and have fun at the same time.

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Excerpt From my book Free To Be 5D about the Inner Teenager, with links to purchase as audio, print, ebook, and PDF at soulfullheart.org/books

Raphael and I will be exploring the world of the inner teenager in our group call coming up this Sunday, November 13th at 5:00pm GMT/London/Lisbon…Noon EST. We will also offer a guided meditation to connect with your inner teenager, deepen the healing between you, opening up the bond there that is just ‘waiting’ for you. More info to offer donation to attend at soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions or https://www.facebook.com/events/844061516750636.

You can offer donation ($11/$15 USD/Euros is the usual amount) via our soulfullheart.org/shop or via paypal.me/jelelleawen. If you offer donation via paypal, please include your email.

Here is a guided meditation video to begin the connection to your inner teenager; https://youtu.be/5CMVBgzFypI

More info about 1:1 sessions, group call/in person events in Portugal, writing/videos and more at soulfullheart.org

Energy Update: Total Lunar Eclipse Offers Emotional & Cathartic Release

Energy Update: Total lunar eclipse energies coming through NOW! We’ve been preparing for the emotional illuminations of this eclipse, the deeply feminine frequencies of it, with a focus on shadow exploration with much coming up and out into more conscious awareness now.

During these ‘blood moon’ eclipses, there is an easing up of the moon matrix to whatever degree the sacred feminine lunar energies have been hijacked in the collective and within our wombs especially. The ‘hijack’ itself is going through shifts and changes right now with ambassadorship possible to the Matrix if there has been enough unplugging in your emotional body, soul fields, and relationships. There are big shifts in the agenda and momentum of the Matrix agendas, even with a peaking in the narratives (more on this soon.)

This ‘freeing up’ of the emotional body during lunar eclipses can bring forward intense emotions, sensations of pressures building and releasing from within, even the sense of ‘break downs’ within yourself or those around you. It can be a roller coaster of the highest highs of Unity Bliss and then some unusual ‘lows’ that haven’t been experienced for awhile.

Along with the ongoing pressure, tensions and relationship challenges/completions caused by the consciousness bifurcation going on the last two years, this may be an intense time for you in relationships. It’s like what has been all right to be in shadow or to be dismissed or diverted is coming up to be dealt with and felt NOW.

These catalytic urgent energies can be a bit crazy making unless you are centered into yourself, feeling the parts/soul aspects who are in the churning and need you, discerning what energies are yours and what are other people’s, reclaiming your boundaries as needed. I find these lunar eclipses to be the most intense leading up to them and during the passage between them…and then there is an exhale and release after they are complete.

Ultimately it is cathartic to express and share (even if it needs to come out messy or tense) rather than to hold it inside and internalize, going into a caretaking or people pleasing mode. It is necessary to be current, to be truthful, to share what your heart and soul discernment is…even risking being rejected, hurting others at times (yet not actually harming/abusing). It is especially necessary during these times of death and rebirth. These eclipse energies assist in that process, inside and out.

The 11:11 codes are waiting right there and already coming in, as I shared about yesterday…offering new beginnings, wake up calls, and next movements, connection to your higher vision. 11:11 codes offer a harvesting of the churning, tilling, and planting that has been going on the last month.

You can view the lunar eclipse here from start to finish…8am to 2pm Portugal/WET/UK time….https://youtu.be/hph8JCS2w3c

Love during this intense eclipse and 11/11 passage!

Jelelle Awen

Join Raphael and I for a 11:11 portal and eclipse energies in our livestream here on FB coming up tomorrow, Wed. November 9th for our weekly SoulFullHeart livestream at 5:00pm WET Portugal/UK/ noon EDT. We will also offer a brief guided meditation to connect to these 11:11 energies. You can join us live here on my FB feed and take in the recording here too. https://www.facebook.com/events/687523919290573

And our monthly group call on Sunday, Nov 13th is focused on connecting to the inner teenager, a part that is often in shadow with much emotional intensity to be processed and soul gifts waiting to be freed up! More info at https://www.facebook.com/events/844061516750636

Here is the recording of a shadow exploration livestream and guided meditation: https://youtu.be/SKZEQbcaIUA

Energy Update: The Powerful Growth Passage From 10:10 to 11:11 to 12:12

Energy update: I’ve been seeing 11:11 in synchronistic ways a lot lately, especially in the last two weeks….as you may have been too. Our minds can’t always track what these numbers mean, yet the codes they transmit interfaces with our DNA, our light body, our emotional bodies, our soul fields.

1 is of new beginnings, fresh starts, rebirth, and openings. 11:11 is an amplified soul wake UP call, a bridge from your Higher Self to receive what is needed to move into your higher timeline and become your higher timeline self.

The passage through 10:10 to 11:11 to 12:12 is not just about marking linear time….yet what I have experienced and seen in others is actually a three month journey through shadow, through completions, through sometimes sudden deaths and lettings go….even while the NEW is coming in.

10:10 can be uncomfortable in that way, the void is amplified, the transition space, the in-between….here and not there. Illumination CAN be painful, to see what you couldn’t before and life/your Higher Self bringing that mirror in different ways.

11:11 is more activation and sense of the New even as illumination of the ‘old’ is still moving through. Starting to integrate what was seen and felt in the 10:10 portal. Reconciling what was revealed into your heart space, self love and acceptance.

In 12:12 we come into more union, the masculine and feminine, the old and the new are resolving together. Magdalene-Christ Consciousness codes come streaming in to support this. All of this occurring inside of us, from parts of us to each other. And in our relationships as well.

The 11:11 energies we are letting in now also offer bridging to energies that previously brought up fear or resistance. Mostly from within yet also with others. To respond with love, to not defend, yet to have healthy boundary. To say ‘no’ to harm without hate or judgement in your heart. To be connected to your vision and sense of what you REALLY want in your life and speak/act/be from there.

Love to you as we move through this deep passageway of growth and learning and becoming,

Jelelle Awen

Raphael and I will share more about the 11:11 portal and eclipse energies (with my favorite full moon lunar eclipse tomorrow!) in our livestream on my FB feed coming up this Wednesday for our weekly SoulFullHeart livestream at 5:00pm WET Portugal/UK/ noon EDT. We will also offer a brief guided meditation to connect to these 11:11 energies. You can join us live on FB feed and take in the recording there or on our SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel.

More info about 1:1 sessions, group call/events, books/writings and more at soulfullheart.org.

Connect To Your Inner Teenager Group Call 11/13 W/Raphael & Jelelle Awen

In a week from today, we will dive into the often intense and always interesting grounds of the inner teenager! We began recognizing and working with this part of us and in others several years ago when it was clear how many sensitivities and gifts this energy within us hold! Hope you can join us and give the gift of your focus and presence to your inner teen.

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An important and often over looked part of your inner family formed during this lifetime is your Inner Teenager. Your Inner Teenager is not just the energy represented by the phase and stage after childhood and pre-adulthood, they also hold the pain and wounding of usually being the ‘black sheep’ of the family.

As your soul consciousness started to awaken in your teens, a rebellion and individuation either began to express or was suppressed….one that was necessary to separate from your family’s consciousness. Your Inner Teenager can often be found ‘stuck’ in their teenage bedroom with strong feelings of angst, depression, even suicidal feelings due the rejection they received in this rebellion.

Instead of receiving initiation in all areas of life around relationships, sexuality, spirituality, passion purpose, etc., your inner teenager received most likely invalidation in these areas…and 3D-based conditioning that fed fears, dualities, and polarizations. Instead of a healthy phase of individuating from family, there is often push-pull, over attachment and other unhealthy dynamics experienced by our inner teens. Connecting with your inner teenager allows them to receive the initiation and individuation that they most need in order to mature in all areas of life. This also helps with healthy social expression in relationships.

In a two-hour group call for men and women on Sunday, November 13th at 5:00/17:00pm WET/Noon EST/9:00am PST, SoulFullHeart Teachers, Facilitators and sacred union mates Raphael and Jelelle Awen will offer an activation for you to connect with your Inner Teenager. We will share about our most current personal processes as individuals and as a sacred union pairbond related to these inner teenager energies and how we have experienced the healing of them. We will also share about how our SoulFullHeart process can serve to allow for more integration, digestion, and receiving of the Inner Teenager energies.

In the guided meditation/transmission portion of the call, we will create a bridge to connect with your inner teenager in your childhood bedroom. We will offer them love and support from Divine guides and a reparenting energy of initiation and validation. We will also tune in as a group to receive codes to your and the collective inner teenager maturation and awakening process.

We recommend this guided meditation to meet your Inner Teenager prior to the group call: https://youtu.be/5CMVBgzFypI

You can receive these frequencies live with us (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us about what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from us (this is totally optional). Plus, you’ll be able to take in and receive sharings from other souls (both women and men) in the call, which is a powerful activation of its own! More info at soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

This group is open to the public and to anyone over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy/money exchange of whatever donation you feel to give ($11-15 USD/Euros is the usual amount people offer us.)

You can offer your donation via our shop at soulfullheart.org/shop (Credit or debit) or paypal.me/jelelleawen and we will send you the zoom link to attend and the recording afterwards. If you purchase via paypal, please include your email and what you are purchasing in the note section so that we can send you the zoom link and the recording afterwards.

Hope you can join us for this powerful exploration into your inner teenager energies!

Love,

Raphael and Jelelle

Divine Ambassadorship During The V. False Med Narrative

By Jelelle Awen

I haven’t written about the current mainstream false medicine narrative in awhile as my focus when sharing has been in other domains and with other energies. Yet, this narrative is pressing into all of our lives, even those of us who consciously anchor into higher frequency energies inside and out most of the time.

For me, it is showing up in serving women in sessions who have been involved in the false med narrative in one form or another. Within their relationship as their partner has chosen it and they have not. Or, as a healer serving those who have chosen it and feeling impacts from it physically, emotionally, and energectically. Or, those who have chosen it, feel remorse, and want to detox/heal/upgrade from it.

If you are uncertain or unclear about the very true and real dangers of the false med and the growing number of severe injuries and sudden deaths from them, there are many very good and reliable resources out there (including a growing number of awakening medical doctors) who can share more about that. Disclosure of the sudden and ‘unexplained’ deaths and injuries is increasing as a rising wave of them occurs from those who chose the false med. The stories of loss of life, vitality, and loved ones are truly heart breaking and coming out everywhere now.

As I feel these souls drawn to me in session who have been impacted by the false med narrative, it becomes clear fairly quickly that there is a deeper soul choice going here on a higher level. The false med ultimately represents a bifurcation, a means to illuminate those who are moving forward with humanity’s ascension and those who are preparing to go or even choosing to leave the Earth Plane using the false med as the means.

On a higher level, there is much Divine love, grace and acceptance for ALL choices around this. ALL are sacred and very very unique to each soul. Humanity, Consciousness and the Divine ultimately has all this orchestrating a higher timeline.

Yet, from a human experience level and especially for parts of us such as the inner teenager, inner child, inner protector, etc. it can be a very challenging and even devastating feeling experience to go through the death and rebirth process going on here, especially as so many souls fell under programmed pressure around it and aren’t conscious of the harmful aspects of it or their soul choice around it. And even when experiencing debilitating and long-term symptoms from the med (and many now losing loved ones from it), parts of them are still in denial around it.

Relationships (from birth family to romantic to long-term friendships) have been greatly impacted by the illness and false med narratives over the last two and a half years, in ways that have both illuminated/fractured them and unified them. Polarizations that were once able to be ‘made nice or polite’ have surged up and sudden conflicts, judgements and shame, rejection and invalidation energies have all come forward. These energies were often underground the relationships to begin with as those who are awakening find their voice, their advocacy and their desire for resonance in a process that often requires opposition before resonance can be truly let in and advocated.

These are painful energies to feel within us and in our relationships. These polarizing energies are supported by the same Matrix systems and programs that offer these narratives. They run on these energies, even though I have long shared that the ‘original programmers’ of the Matrix and the narratives seem to be gone (when I go to connect with them in ambassadorship). The human elite/cabal members are running on inertia and hugely plugged in with personal ego gratification into these programs through their family blood lines. They are seeing it out as their Great Reset agenda, fused to it in the same way as any one who cannot conceive of going against it or rebelling.

It has been a challenging time for those of us who have seen the narrative for what it is from the beginning. Challenging at times to find the peace, to hold it in forgiveness, to feel compassion for ALL involved, to understand the soul choices going on….of course that is what the Divine is offering us. And sometimes that is accessible. And sometimes parts of you may go into conflict, rage, shame and blame, feeling very hurt and rejected and just plain terror or fear.

To feel the parts of you (and soul aspects) who have been on this particular battlefield and how this has felt for them is a big aspect of the healing and moving into more inner grace. There are often deep tears to feel and shed with this part of you and a rescue of sorts as you invite them off the battlefield and into a peaceful (inner) setting where they can rest and recover surrounded by Divine love and light. The wounded healer can particularly get hooked here, thinking they need to ‘save’ people from the false med in some way and sacrificing themselves and their own health in some cases.

As this recuperation happens with the part who most needs it, then your Divine Self can more be felt, more step in and more lead the way forward to respond to the next choice points and decisions needed by you, setting boundaries too as needed.

There truly is no ‘good versus evil’ in the polarized way that we’ve been conditioned to feel it. There are agendas running behind the false med narrative who aren’t disclosing their full purpose and means, which is ultimately a controlling and manipulative energy that wants to heal and move out into transparency…feels like the ultimate result of this narrative as more souls awaken to it.

Continuing to battle only brings more polarization and pain. Becoming an ambassador to the shadow and parts of you who are most suffering around this, as your primary focus, offers so much healing and movement. And, if you feel guided, to offer ambassadorship to both those who have been plugged into this narrative and those who are controlling it as I have often been guided to do, there is quite a service there in that as you offer an alternative and bridge to the Divine.

I have been guided all along that this is a necessary dark phase some souls are moving through as an important aspect of our Ascension process and to surrender to the Divine even while feeling into each personal decision around it with Divine guidance. Yet, darkness is always temporary with often immense gifts even with the hard and painful experiences.

We truly ARE love, are light, are vitality, are sacred. The rest are programs that will run their course, run out, and eventually no longer exist in human experience.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

More writings about this false med narrative at soulfullheartblog.com and info about sessions at soulfullheart.org.

Shadow Exploration: SoulFullHeart Livestream Recording (Video) | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

In this video recorded live on October 26th, SoulFullHeart Teachers Raphael and Jelelle Awen explore the shadow and how it expresses in your life through suppressed/disowned feelings, parts and aspects. This is especially triggered during the current eclipse window and Halloween/Samhain passage.

We share about our experiences with Shadow exploration and how our SoulFullHeart healing process responds and bridges to whatever energies are in shadow with the light of love. We also offer a guided meditation to connect with a part/aspect/feeling in shadow through a brief visualization journey and bring in illumination/light/love to begin a bridging to them.

We welcome your questions and comments, even after the livestream here on this post. And your sharings of what you experience during the meditation as well!

My women’s group call with Kasha exploring the shadow feminine is on Sunday, October 30th at 5:00pm Lisbon/London- 1:00pm EDT. You can join by donation with more info at ttp://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

Here is the popular shadow guided meditation video with me that I mentioned:

Raphael and Jelelle offer a weekly SoulFullHeart livestream on Facebook every Wednesday at 5:00pm Lisbon/London time/12pm EDT, which will then be shared on our SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube channel the next day. During the livestream, we will respond to your questions/comments, plus offer a teaching, personal sharings, and a guided meditation. We will explore different topics every week related to awakening and Ascension from the SoulFullHeart perspective. You can join us live on Jelelle’s feed to ask questions and leave comments. You can read comments that happened during on the livestream on Jelelle’s facebook feed: https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others engaged in the series: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

For more information about a free intro call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions