The Giving Season In The Real Age

The holiday season is here in full force. We have many religious traditions, the winter solstice, and the turn of a new year and decade approaching. There is much anticipation of what is to come on so many levels. So many predictions and possibilities. We are awash with potential and demand at the same time.

In all of this it is easy to lose track of our selves. The parts of us that can get buried in it all. This can be a very magical time if we can take the time to slow it all down. What is that you really want if you were to be totally honest with yourself?

Now that may seem counter to the Giving Season. You ‘should’ be focused on others. Your loved ones and those that are less fortunate. It is not the others that I take issue with, it is the ‘shoulding’. That shoulding, if it exists, does not dispense or seed genuine Love at its core.

When you feel a genuine and authentic love for yourself, and all the parts of you that have been in shadow and hiding, then you bring something real to the Giving. You bring something that is not laced with guilt, duty, or obligation. It is free and flowing.

My purpose here is to bring an awareness to our giving as well as our intending, not to diminish it. What I want for all of us this coming year is a personal journey of self-love that can authentically overflow to those we come in contact with formally or informally. It is the internal combustion engine of our heart-centered alchemy.

There is a lot of hope that next year will ‘be the year’. We can hold that intention while we continue to do the work today. Right now. In this moment. That daily promise to yourself and all of your parts is what seeds that global transformation. Send love globally while you give love locally.

May this holiday season be a catalyst for your own personal evolution and arising. May the lovelight of consciousness find all of the places where we all need it the most in our shadow. Only then can the bells ring for the dawn of the Real Age.

Love to you this season.

*****

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

A Decade Later, A Decade To Come: Healing, Integration, and Embodiment Of Your ‘Future’ Self

Completing a decade provides a powerful crossroads of what was, what Is, and what wants to Be.

I have been noticing a lot of people posting pics of themselves from a decade ago compared to today. While there are these noticeable physical differences, what is really happening is an INventory and a chronicling of where each of us has gone energetically, emotionally, and spiritually in the past decade.

While I don’t seem to have any pics from a decade ago due to a lot of movement and misplaced storage, I did feel to tap into the ‘me’ of a decade ago and feel what has shifted and what remained. Not so much a ‘self-improvement’ analysis, but more of a curiosity of things that still need my attention and heart space.

The most apparent thing to me when I feel back to those days is how fragmented and scattered I felt inside. I felt like multiple selves vying for a turn at the wheel of my destiny. A lot of frustration, depression, unfulfillment, and anxiety. I was still drinking but to a lesser degree and partaking occasionally in drug use and smoking. I was obsessed with politics and the threat of the ‘New World Order as a fascist overtaking of Liberty’ while feeling completely disconnected to Spirit and The Divine. It was very lonely and confusing time inside of me.

Ten years later I can feel myself much more unified, or becoming more unified. I have ventured inward enough to reclaim this scattered parts of me into closer proximity to each other and to this being named Gabriel. All of the reactions toward life have become more assuaged and held with care and love. I feel myself looking at the news as if I am looking at grand play curious to how it will all resolve while feeling more resolution within myself. The anxiety has lessened and been replaced by wonder.

Of course there are still threads that lie under the surface of this continued process. They are my going on places. My relationship to transparency, intimacy, leadership, romance, and my galactic amnesia. This is the INventory. The base tones of my intentions going forward. They are my daily meditations. What do I still have yet to feel and uncover to bring these more into healing and activation and less in hiding and shadow? They are my portals into the next decade.

If I were to have set intentions ten years ago, I can say I hit the mark on some but not on others. I looped on some things the last decade but made progress on others. It is seeing it holistically where compassion and motivation intersect. No judgement. Just discernment and activation. I do not want to be the same person tomorrow I was yesterday. This is a path laid with passionate self-love and not desperate self-improvement.

I recommend this exercise. It is illuminating and inspiring. If judgement comes up, then recognize that as a part of you to get to know. To become intimate with as a collaborator and not a conspirator. There is a lot to understand and feel from their point of view and it also helps to move them into the New with a different role. More of a guide. If you can feel the growth and hard-earned transformation than take the time to celebrate that and be grateful for it all.

Next you can project into the next decade and see what version of ‘You’ comes to your awareness. What would this person look and feel like if this current INventory was healed and integrated? That Self is a beacon and a guide as well. What would they have you do and feel each and everyday to embody them in those moments. Not by force but by care. It will still be challenging because that is when you know you are facing the edges of your fear and it is confronting that fear that transforms you and permits the embodiment of this future self.

As always, there is help and support along the way. I wouldn’t be here without it. So when you feel that need, seek it wherever it feels the most aligned to who you are in that moment. There is a sea of Love out there ready for your courage to take the journey even deeper.

*****

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Energy Update: Moving Through Passageways to 2020 Clear Vision/Living

By Jelelle Awen

Energy Update: The rumblings of 11/11 continue a week ‘after’ the powerful gateway opening. I get this sense of a continuum of gateways with markers starting at 8/8, 9/9, 10/10, 11/11, 12/12 and then into 2020. They form a kind of interconnected HIGHway leading to the HIGHer. Each marker has been a passage, a moving through denser energies in order to vibrate in a higher frequency. This is leading to becoming more porous even as you are becoming more grounded into your body. 
 
You may be settling already into your higher timeline revealed during the 11/11 portal or finding that there are still calibrations and even detoxifications to prepare to embody it more. You may have been prepping for it ahead of time so you could anchor in right away. Or NOW you are being energized by the 11/11 frequencies, they are illuminating what supports your essence and what does not.
 
2020 feels like wide open possibilities, truly anchoring into the New Gaia energies, collectively more and more (at a slower rate of course.) Yet, personally, if you are taking in these words, your rate and pace is ‘ahead’ of the collective. You have chosen to lead and to serve, to show the way, even if it feels murky at times, hard at times, more fear than love at times. That you ARE feeling, that you ARE awakening, that you ARE conscious of the Ascension process that is happening IS your service to others who have not woken up to this yet. In the Quantum field of Oneness, you are holding their awakening until they can claim it for themselves in this timeline.
 
Your willingness to continually feel and heal your traumas from this life and other lifetimes IS your service….not that you are in a perfected, absolute state before you can serve. You being in the thick of it, the process of it, in the transition of it WITH consciousness is showing the way for the rest of the collective, those souls who have signed up to awaken this life especially. You desire to grow fuels their desire to grow and also motivates the rest of your Metasoul fragments to wake up and heal as well (which then leads to quantum karmic healing and completion/resolution of soul patterns.)
 
Your capacity to lean into your own Metasoul, your brothers and sisters from other lifetimes/timelines, and into Divine guidance and love IS your service too. Allowing the unification of your soul fragments to come back together and form a team for you and with you. Letting go of the old way of self sacrifice and tuning into what is actually self loving, comes from self worth, and serves YOUR heart to overflow.
 
We are on our way into 2020….clear vision is possible in deeper ways, in expanded ways, and in ever more embodied ways. These passageways leading up to that clear vision, clear living and clear loving are sacred and important. Allow space for whatever needs to be felt and digested right now….even as tuning into your soul’s higher purpose here.
 
Much love to you as we continue into the prep for the NEW EARTH living in 2020,
Jelelle Awen
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Energy Update: 11:11 Portal Opening Energies Offer BOOST Into Your Higher Timeline

By Jelelle Awen

Blessings and Love to you as we continue in this 11/11 portal! The codes, downloads, upgrades/activations (ALL!) available on these powerful days leading up to and beyond 11/11 provide a boost to awaken, to support, to clarify, to motivate, to inspire, to enliven, to encourage, to catalyze. The degree and depth you let them in is, as always, UP to you and what you (and parts of you) are ready for and wanting.

You may be feeling today, November 12, a lightening up in your heart space, in your physical body, and in your overall energy as well. Prepping to go through this portal felt similar to preparing to giving birth. There was some uncomfortableness, tension, purging, and feeling ‘taken over’ by the process at times. After giving ‘birth’ to the NEW you yesterday during 11:11, you can now BE with the higher frequencies coming in, receiving them into your heart, letting them enliven you.

There were timeline collapses in relationships, in jobs, in money situations prior to the 11:11 portal, starting even a month before it as well. The aftermath of these collapses, the ‘ash in the air’ reality experience of it, is something you may still be going through. Mourning and grieving ARE important, yet too is moving into more trust and joy that ALL loss right now is serving your higher timeline.

Your purpose of serving love is probably becoming clearer. This is meant to clarify with the 11/11 portal as MANY souls will be needed to support those newly awakening and those already awakening and those even leading too! The most important service of love right now could be to yourself and your own healing, so that you can eventually overflow to others from a place of self love and goodness. You are serving then from a place of genuine and embodied overflow, rather than self sacrifice or burden or over responsibility.

Yesterday, we gathered as a community to feel into the 11:11 portal and what it was offering us as a community and as individuals. We felt there was a clear delineation going on from the previous timeline anchored in a denser frequency (although fairly subtle at times) and what the portal was offering as a jump/boost/movement into the New one. There was a feeling of support for the expression of our essence, rather than our strategic/3D anchored self.

We each four stated what we wanted to ‘leave behind’, what we wanted to ‘take with us’, and made declarations and “I AM” statements for the 11:11 portal, receiving each other’s words into our hearts and into our collective as a group too. The sense of alignment between us, meeting on the ‘other side’ of the portal’s gateway, was very clear. And we felt the souls that are engaged in the SoulFullHeart process right now moving along with us in a deeper way as well.

Then, we went out had a wonderful day on the town together taking in the fall beauty, sharing a vegan meal, and doing some warmer clothes shopping. 11:11 unified us in intention as it feels like that is what it offers us individually and collectively as well.

This is a powerful process to engage in right now with these Infinite Love energies supporting you.

Take the space during these 11:11 portal days to go within. To be with the inhale of Gaia and the outflow of the Universe. The inhale of OM and the exhale of Ma (the Divine Mother) is my favorite mantra to feel connected to All That Is and my own heart too.

Take the time and space to FEEL yourself, your emotional body flowing like a river, and the deeper emotions that rumble and flow that can be harder to get to. Reach BEyond your mind and the content and details of everyday to connect with the Divine as the source of YOU and of ALL.

Let in what is offered JUST to you with so much love from your higher self, guides, the Divine……..and feel yourself AS Infinite Love!

Love,

Jelelle

Our group transmission on 11/9 offered sharings, teachings, and a powerful guided meditation to digest, calibrate and let in the 11:11 codes during these portal opening. You can purchase the recording of the call here if you’d like to take it in as the 11/11 portal can be accessed any time in the Now and I will send you the recording: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/ascension-codes-activation-group-transmission-jelelle-and-raphael-awen
Or via paypal for $15 CAD/$11 USD: paypal.me/jelelleawen

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free intro calls and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

 

Energy Update: Body Detox & Light Diet/Fasting Support 11/11 Light Body Upgrades

Energy Update: As we near the 11/11 portal, the body moves into a need for less food, higher frequency food, and overall more pure, less refined food. The ‘lighter’ you can eat, the more you can let in light. Light foods are those with a high water content, super foods, and not processed or refined in any way if possible. Following a light diet, which means ‘way of life’, supports the 11/11 upgrades that are coming in already.

It is also a good time for fasting and bringing in much more prana energy into your body to ‘replace’ the food. Fasting allows for a complete reboot of your body and leads to heightened states of altered consciousness, connection with the Divine and your Guides, lifted veil experiences, activation of your clairs, etc. Fasting can be about only drinking water for as long as you are guided to do that….or just drinking superfood smoothies and/or juices. Or, just not eating foods that are denser and of lower frequency. Your body will guide you on what it needs to take a break from, which may be temporary, or may end up being a lifestyle change.

There is a pattern of detoxification prior to these gateways as the energies coming through are of a higher vibrational frequency. You may be experiencing detox symptoms in your body already such as light headedness, nausea/stomach upset/indigestion, fevers, body aches/pains. These of course come up if you are also water fasting or fasting in other ways as you start feeling guided to ‘let go’ of certain foods. Common foods to let go are eating any animals or animal byproducts, gluten, refined sugar, vegetable oils, refined salt, etc.

Digesting the killing and suffering frequencies that come through when you eat animals or animal byproducts can be particularly difficult during these high frequency portals and gateways. Indigestion can be common as the light body rejects these denser energies, wanting fuel that comes from love, not pain. This is a way to feel into eating only plant-based, from an energetic perspective, along with how your Inner Child feels about it, which is usually a strong aversion to hurting any living, sentient being. These high energy portals can be a good time to make the transition to plant-based, reduced calorie and living on more prana energy as well as the support is there for it. 

Detoxification is the clearing out of your every living cell to make more room for light. What clears out can be years-long behaviours such as smoking or drinking alcohol to excess or eating processed foods. These denser energies are released through the cells, often coming ‘worse before better’ in terms of expressing as flare ups, break outs, etc. Yet, our bodies move increasingly into their own wisdoms, their immortality, and their health. Our glands upgrade, our bones upgrade, our organs upgrade, our DNA upgrades.

11/11 is an opportunity to support this upgrading process, this activation of your light body’s intelligence through a necessary detoxification process. Support is providing the best, highest frequency energy that you can to your body through high vibe foods, sound healing, energy healing, emotional body healing of traumas, soul healing of karmic patterns. Support is loving your body as much as possible through rest, baths, whatever movement/exercise feels right. Support is healing the unworthiness or judgements you may have toward your body so it can arise into the light again.

It is important to hold ALL decisions and choices about diet and food with love, not judgement or ‘shoulds’. As you allow love for your body to lead the way, it becomes more able to receive the adjustments and shifts that you are making. The energy you feel toward and about your body is the most important fuel it receives. 

Here are previous writings we have done about light body activations/living on prana/superfoods, etc.: https://soulfullheartblog.com/category/ascension/light-body-body-consciousness/ 

Join Raphael Awen and I this Saturday, November 9th for support for your light body via a 11/11 code activation group transmission via teachings and guided meditation at 10:00am PDT over Zoom….or receive the recording for $15 CAD. More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/2595514423846711/

or here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/grouptransmissions

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Energy Update: Moving From Afraid To Brave Into Your Higher Timeline Self/Life

Energy Update: These are Ascension love energies coming in now through this 10/10 into 11/11 (and into 12/12 too) portal that call us to discover our own inner courage. They invite us to tap into the bravery of our soul essence. They urge us as a collective to go to our next level together into the New Dawn of a New Age of Unity Consciousness Love. These energies are projecting the higher timeline versions of each of us coming more into our conscious awareness through the receiving of codes and upgrades to our physical/emotional/auric-chakra bodies.

The energies now and moving into 2020 ARE about your higher timeline self and life, what it looks and feels like, who you feel like as you live it….very specific details sometimes and more like vague visions at other times of this higher timeline. There isn’t just one possibility here. It certainly isn’t ‘set in stone’ as every choice you make (whether based in fear or love) moves you closer toward one or another. These timelines are a spectrum, like rays radiating out from your central sun of this Now moment and your current expression of BEing.

Which ray/timeline you will follow is a matter of flowing with life, with love, and with your own joy. It is about choosing the new instead of the known. Risking the safe for that sparkling possibility of the New. Feeling the parts of you that are afraid and resistant to go into the new timeline and WHY they are.

Inner Protectors/Gatekeepers are coming UP stronger right now, along with Inner Punisher energies too. This is usually the more wounded masculine that is feeling its ground of operation being threatened so it is ‘putting up a last fight’ in certain ways. Closing up the heart space, blocking codes from coming in, pulling away from known and previously trusted resources of community and space holders to be alone and isolated. Increasing the voice of judgement that creates cycles of shame and guilt and unworthiness in your Inner Child to keep it ‘safe and small.’

These are denser, trailing edge energies in parts of you that need to come up to be felt and cleared in order to move into your higher timeline self/life. They need lots of love and supportive self space holding to receive forgiveness, compassion, and negotiation to ease their fears. This is their impulse, their fight and flight reactivity born and bred in 3D life…to bring up defenses that slow down and block and pause….rather than move forward.

Yet, these Ascension energies are meant to provide a boost to these parts of you that most need them. They are meant to be a balm to the edges, the pains, the sufferings of the wounded masculine within you so that it can transition to the clear, the brave, and the penetrating energy that it needs to be right now. These energies also support the inner feminine, who is so often buried and layered over by this masculine. The Divine Mother offers a template of an intuitive, sensitive, passionate, and trusting feminine to arise within you.

This is a guided meditation with me to bring in Ascension Codes (Infinite Love codes) into every chakra…powerful, courage building energies for your inner masculine and your inner feminine: https://youtu.be/2IlAAdIvLuU

Your Higher Timeline life/self is waiting for you….trust and surrender to the Divine to lead you on the way there as you become Infinite Love in human form!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Join me this Sunday at 10:00am PDT for a sacred feminine women’s group call exploring the process of connecting with your inner masculine in order to arise your sacred feminine essence. More information about joining us live or to receive the recording for $15 CAD here: https://www.facebook.com/events/939184226480490/

or here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/womengroupcalls

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Ascension Codes Chakra Activation Guided Meditation W/Music – W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

By Jelelle Awen

This guided meditation video has been in my heart to do for quite awhile and is per request from people who wanted a longer meditation with me set to music. It is over 40 minutes of pure guided meditation, just my voice and high frequency music in the background. Like taking a sound bath for the chakras, heart, and soul!

One of the important aspects of navigating the ongoing Ascension process can be to actually bring in the codes that are becoming available to you through Solar, Great Cosmic Sun, Lunar, and Galactic sources. Bringing them into your chakral and auric fields allows for smoother experience for your body and fewer Ascension body symptoms.

All codes contain frequencies of Infinite Love from Divine Source. You are more able to receive these codes when your vibrational frequency is higher, unanchored from the 3D matrix, and your emotional body is healing and transmuting out of undigested trauma and pain frequencies. These codes are personal to you and meant to facilitate your ‘next level’ embodiment of higher vibrational frequencies. Codes can be in the form of sacred geometry, number sequences, keys, infinity and yin/yang symbols, and many other visual shapes. They can also appear as colorful rays of energy.

In this guided meditation, I lead you through connection to each of your Ascension Chakras, including your Personal Sun Chakra (two feet above your head), Soul Star Chakra (one foot above your head) and your Causal Chakra (behind your head.) Connecting with your Ascension Chakras can facilitate next level activations and upgrades as much of that is ‘going on’ in these upper, upper chakras. We then move to each of the seven main chakras (Crown, Third Eye, Solar Plexus, Sacral, and Root).

You bring in the Ascension codes ready and waiting for you into each of these chakras. You also activate these codes with declarations and affirmations with ‘I want’, ‘I am’, and ‘I desire’ statements. These statements are made to your Higher Self, the Divine, and Your Star Family as confirmation that you are ‘ready’ to receive, let in, and integrate. These statements are intentional waveforms that activate your Metasoul’s Quantum Field.

The musical track in this meditation is called Awaken The Power Of Love/Manifest Miracles With Gratitude/444HZ Vibration Of the Fifth Dimension. It is used here with much gratitude from me! It is from the Lovemotives Meditation Music You Tube Channel, my favorite for high frequency sound healing! https://youtu.be/StiGAEl_RV4

INJOY and may you experience yourself as Infinite Love!
Jelelle Awen

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Conversation With 10: The Edge Between Clarity And Uncertainty

Today for 10/10/10 I felt to connect with the number Ten as I did last year with number Nine. I always like to feel how these numbers live in me and what they want to impart to me and those that are reading this. It is a fun and more intimate way to derive meaning and personal understanding. I highly recommend it to any of you that are inspired and interested in seeing what it means for you. 

Me: Good morning Ten. I wanted to connect with you today to feel what messages or insights you could offer me and those that are reading this. 

Ten: Good morning to you Gabriel. I am honored to be here. I feel like I am on tour today. Pretty prestigious event. I forgot my coat and top hat at home. 

Me: Lol! I felt the same thing today. You have a lot of fans! 

Ten: I guess so. I try not to let it get to my digits as I have all the others inside of me to give gratitude for this occasion. 

Me: The others inside?

Ten; Yeah. All the other digits that have come before me. They paved the way here. Each one represents a part of the journey of completion and integration. 

Me: Hmmm…I like the feeling of that. I did have quite the conversation with Nine last year and It was feeling how existential being a Nine can be. On the cusp of great change from one digit to two. 

Ten. Oh, my. I can only imagine. It does feel like a lonely place yet full of possibility. I am fortunate enough to have two parts of me. It’s like I get to have sex with myself. 

Me: What?! Um…Ten, this is a family show here. 

Ten: Oh, for goodness sakes. Lighten up Gabriel. It’s all part of the fun! Look, if you look at me I have a lingham and a yoni, right?

Me: I think I just got cancelled. Yes, it certainly does. 

Ten: So I represent the balance and INtegration of all that has come before me. It is like a giant number orgy in here. 

Me: 

Ten: Gabriel?

Me: Sorry, I am just looking at the Want Ads right now. Integration, balance. Yes. Completion. Oh, this just keeps getting thicker and thicker. My agent isn’t returning my calls. Okay, so we are going rogue here now. 

Ten: Yes!!! Going rogue, man! Let’s find our way into a new dimension of possibility! Let’s move beyond the single-track consciousness of this OR that and move into this AND that. In that inclusion you see a much bigger picture and can let yourself have it all, man! I feel like I want to be like Tom Cruise and jump up and down on this sofa here.

Me: Hmmm…not sure about that reference but I get what you are saying. You are excited. You want to do things that are not predictable and yet you are very predictable as the base of our number system. We can rely on you to be constant. What about that?

Ten: You need to smoke some pot, Gabriel. Get loose. Be free, man. I can do both. I can hold the fabric of your mathematics  as well as I can get jiggy with it. 

Me: Okay, who are you and what did you do with the real number Ten?

Ten:  Lol! Look, I want to unshackle from my current role as some perfect number. Fuck that. Let’s go into the Mystic and see where this rabbit hole takes us. Close your eyes and just imagine ones and zeros. Let them rain down upon you and into you. Let them be like sperm and eggs of consciousness seeding possibility, vision, creation, meaning, direction, and completion. Let those little guys help make big changes. It’s all made up, man. All of it. The Joy and the Suffering. I know that is hard to let in but it’s true. It is all part of this crazy ride we are working out together. It’s not all good and it’s not all bad. The question becomes what is it that you truly want from this existence, for all of humanity. Imagine that and birth that baby, man! 

Me: Whoa….I think I took too big of a hit there Ten. I feel what you energizing and it is working its way through me. I can feel how I have had parts of me feeling like they can’t have what they  want because others don’t. There is still suffering in the world and I can’t be in full Joy and Abundance until others are out of it. That is a cycle that just doesn’t end. 

Ten: Now I think I am feeling that bong rip too. Whew! Yeah, there is a way that each of us need to leave an old paradigm behind in order for others to cross that Rubicon. How do you create peace when you are always preparing for war? I think I am going to cry. Seriously. I am not just being a punk. 

Me: I feel you, Ten. That went deep really fast. I want to let digest a bit. Let the smoke clear a bit. I have no idea what you just brought in the room here, but it was like a tornado. I wasn’t expecting that. 

Ten: Awesome. That is my job. To expect the unexpected. To want the unexpected. To open up to possibility through vision, heart, and guidance. Dance on the edge between Clarity and Uncertainty. The One and the Zero. 

Me: I think I need to go eat something now. You up for some granola and berries? 

Ten: Now who the hell is the Hippie here? Nah, man. I’ll take the eggs and bacon. They look like me. Lol! Don’t worry, hippie. It’s all organic and free range. Don’t get me started on factory farming. 

Me: I have no idea what planet I am on. Okay, sounds good. Thanks for being here with me and I am sure I will have network exec at my door soon. 

Ten. Don’t worry, I will handle him

Me:

Ten: Gabriel?

*****

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Journey To Feeling Genuinely Blessed

By Kalayna Solais

Feeling quite blessed and surrendered this morning…

If you’d known me personally even just a year ago, you’d probably be amazed that I can get to a place of really feeling this deeply… so much restlessness, so much pushing and pressing, and I’ve had to love it all from roots to wings.

The process of learning to land more and more in love, especially within, is no joke at all. It’s nothing that can really be expedited. This over-arching process of Ascension certainly takes the time it takes, doesn’t it? It reminds me yet again that the destination isn’t the goal, it’s the journey itself. And the journey, for me, as been continually dropping into feeling, to get to know my parts and my Metasoul deeper, to have a more fulfilling and enriching relationship with the Divine that can only come from taking conscious steps and making choices that do actually serve your budding self-love and desire to love others more and with more compassion. For that is where the Divine can be the most deeply felt and experienced, as well as invited IN.

So why in this particular moment do I feel blessed and surrendered?

It’s not like I have “all my ducks in a row” right now. It’s not like, in the most typical 3D terms, I have the “perfect life”. It’s not like I don’t also have some rounds of sadness move in and out of my field as my ache to share my space and my heart with others and eventually a mate continues to live inside of me.

But… what I do have, I have in spades. I have growing self-love. I have a community I’ve earned my way to drawing and being a part of. I have more resonance around me than ever before, geographically, in my ‘jobs’, in all of my relationships that I choose to keep close to me. I get to live with so much resonance that parts of me sometimes resist or create problems because they are so used to living with a baseline of “something is always wrong or about to go wrong”. This was a survival instinct, actually, that I don’t need anymore. And that is still very much landing in my heart AND soul!

I’m sharing all of this because it’s a message of what’s possible for you, too. For you and those parts of you who ache and long and sometimes fight to stay afloat in the world you’re living in. For those unbelievably courageous, beautiful parts of you that sometimes feel the opposite because that’s how much they have to shrink in order to fit into a life, a job, a relationship, that doesn’t support their bigness and especially YOUR bigness.

I’m also sharing this because it helps me really land in what I’ve earned, what I’ve done all of this inner work for, and to embrace the overflow of it all that wants so much to share this inner abundance with others. I can’t hoard it away, nor am I meant to. Nor are you meant to, when you feel blessed too… 🙂 So much pain and fear and angst sometimes is the default of what you share, perhaps. And to be in a place in your life but more importantly in your very BEing where this isn’t what is overflowing from you anymore is the invitation, always. No matter how many tough choices you may have to make along the way. The support and validation are waiting in the wings for you to go there and the healing is too.

I’m available for 1:1, 90min sessions for women of all ages if you feel the need for more support for your own next choice points and to start feeling your own parts/Metasoul aspects and their hard work, their pain, their desires too: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Photo taken on beautiful Salt Spring Island… another geography I feel incredibly blessed to have access to! ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

From Nine to Ten: Completing The Cycle Of Suffering And Moving Into Trust

Moving from 9 to 10. The end of September. The beginning of October. I felt something significant move into my body yesterday. After my past 9 year, 9 month, 9 day cycle had completed with quite a bang through the body illness, it filled with a renewed sense of being. Of purpose. Of clarity and above all…Trust. I was filled with 10. It is like I have been a 9 for so long that I can’t even remember anything else. Always on the edge of completion but never completing. Suffering over the suffering of feeling out of reach of this new world of 10. 

When I look it up, I read the characteristics as 

*Independence

*Infinite potential

*Wholeness

*Self-determination

*Exploration

That all seems to align perfectly with what is moving through me. Now these are not absolute. I still feel parts of me that have doubt, anxiety, and fear but they feel less ‘up front’ then they used to be. My Service to Other has grown over my Service to Self. A tipping point has occurred and I feel the Divine gracefully guiding me and supporting me in my next steps as a healer and a leader. 

I needed this last round of Dark Night to get me here. It may not be my last but it is getting awfully damn close. The Dark Mother has always been a gift to me, even though parts of me just couldn’t see it that way until they could. 

I feel many of us are in this phase of moving from 9 to 10. Getting swept up in the brevity of its chaos and intensity. I have traversed these waters for a reason. Not to just move on but to assist others as well to the other side that want the support and guidance. I feel clear about that as the Sun shines behind me. 

How that service and support manifests is up to the Divine but I am Here. I am continuing to love myself and to offer Love to others in any way that it is meant to land, whether by my word or through space-holding. I am excited to see what unfolds for myself, you, and the world at large as we move into this new phase of our INvolution. 

Love to you all that have been with me on this journey. Thank you for your witness and love. I offer it back to you in spades.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

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