Full Moon Illuminates The Need To Be An Ambassador Of Love To The Dark

Last night’s full moon drew me out of bed in the wee hours. It was obscured but oh so mesmerizing as always.

I was reflecting on a session I just had with someone in the afternoon, where we met an ‘entity’ that has been in her room for a few months, usually connected to in sleep. It has not been necessarily foreboding, but a bit of a trickster, yet some understandable fear from the inner child.
She was offered to have it ‘removed’ by someone, and that didn’t quite land square with her heart. Nor mine when I felt it. Many times these energies are seeking to be felt and connected with, they just don’t have a good sense of how to make that happen. Plus parts of us get fear triggers and that can distort the need as well.

We were able to feel together how this being was actually a part of another life dynamic that was connected to another Metasoul sister of hers in another timeline. He was actually seeking forgiveness and needed an ambassador of love to bridge to this timeline and her.
By looking through the lens of love and compassion, something new illuminated. Where once this foreboding figure seemed dark, somewhat scary, and mysterious, it now felt very human and very tender.

This felt to reflect so much of how parts of us see and react to the world around us. In fear, we light and dark. In love, we actually see varying shades of possibility, potential, and compassion with curiosity. We get to choose how we want to relate to that which we either don’t understand or that which we have a deep reaction to.

We are creators within the One Great Creator. Ultimately the Creator Itself experiencing Itself through our consciousness. With all the darkness coming to Light, I wanted this to be a reminder of what we can choose to see and feel about everything around us and in us. Therein lies the true north of our deepest desire to be in Love, with Love, as Love.

Full moon blessings and illumination to you.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Biggest Conspiracy Theory Of Them All

By Raphael Awen

There’s a lot of growing conspiracy theories floating around lately.

I’d like to float an even bigger one – that the biggest conspirator was and is love, as in The Divine, as in you and me.

Love became narcissistically and hopelessly focused on itself, as it was all there was. ‘All one’ became ‘alone’, landing in the antithesis of itself, it entered through its dis-ease and unease, a death, knowing that a rebirth would follow. It saw no other choice. In dying to itself, it gave birth to a firstborn, a perceived other, something seemingly enough outside of itself, to open a new playground, with a necessary game of good and evil, a game of masculine and feminine, a mind boggling game of epic duals and duality.

A game that would involve much hardship and pain, all of which could only be justified by the paling comparison to the stunning grandeur it would, if successful, bring about in the process – a perfect marriage of masculine achievement and feminine beauty.

You and I, Jeffery Epstein, Ghislaine, Bill and Hillary are all part of it. We’re ‘all one’ and ‘alone’ in it together. There isn’t actually two of us in the game and that’s why none of us are off the hook. We’re all responsible to the price tag on this endeavor. We all have great remorse to bear and great beauty and forgiveness to let in.

My reconciliation to the Divine is your reconciliation. None of us arrive fully home until the last one of us arrives fully home. The experiment isn’t over until it’s over.

The greatest of evildoers, those seemingly the furthest removed from the light, are actually souls with the deepest trust to take on the darkest parts of love’s mission. To see this any other way, to see an evildoer as an ‘evildoer’ is to leave ourselves excluded from reconciliation, from completing the circle of love’s mission. For if I’m not as bad as Jeffery Epstein or Hitler, then I can only lay claim to that claim by measuring myself on the yardstick of good and evil. My claim can only be a claim of not being that evil.

Perfect? No, but not ‘that’ evil. Sorry, but perfect only accepts perfect.

This leaves the judged and the judge both outside of perfection, and for the duration of that sentence, both in the same jail. This leaves the All One, you and I, alone, somewhere on the same yardstick that measures separation from perfection. Here we are, in our two track reality, perfect beings, in our perceived imperfection, reconciled, but yet, for all intents and purposes, awaiting reconciliation.

This state of relationship between us and other, between us and The Divine, is also mirrored exactly inside of us where parts of ourselves are left in 4D hell of separation, awaiting the love ambassador that you are to show up, and begin a magical reconciliation process.

Love changed everything and love keeps on changing everything. We are that change. Love is just having its own fun, and we are all invited into it, where no pain is denied, no level of hell on earth, but is instead felt profoundly in the minutest detail of hurt and separation for the portal that it is, for what it restores in us and to us, even expanding on the perfect love that originally undertook such a quest, as only infinite love can do.

We are perfection, improving on perfection.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Lion’s Gate Livestream: Energy Update & Guided Meditation With Gabriel Heartman & Kasha Rokshana

On Aug 2nd, 2020, SoulFullHeart Facilitators, Gabriel Heartman and Kasha Rokshana, hosted a livestream via Facebook, sharing an energy update for Lion’s Gate as well as a guided meditation to meet your Sirian/galactic lion(ess) Metasoul aspect. They share about the ongoing process for the collective as well as what is churning individually at this time as we learn to activate and embody our own healthy ‘Roar’ energies within.

Some of the links shared were:

‘Free To Be 5D’ 6-Week Group Call Series: https://www.soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dgroupcallseries
‘Free To Be 5D’ Book purchase information: soulfullheart.org/books
Autumn Equinox Glastonbury Gathering: https://www.soulfullheart.org/glaston…

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, writings, videos, and information about SoulFullHeart community events including upcoming group calls, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org.

For more information about a free consultation call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen, Gabriel Heartman, and Kasha Rokshana, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

Money donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange to support SoulFullHeart to continue provide free offerings such as those on this channel. You can donate through our shop at http://www.soulfullheart.org/shop or PayPal: http://paypal.me/jelelleawen

Navigating The Unknown Through This Lion’s Gate

Continuing on the next stage of a nomadic, service-based lifestyle with my soul fam. Today I am leaving an apartment I serendipitously found at a very big choice point between going back to the US during the pandemic mess in March or staying here at taking time to let the grand drama play itself out.

Since then, I have been reunited with soul community and have become deeper involved in service and creativity. The reality that I will be heading to the UK with everyone at the end of August is still a trip to the ‘me’ that existed in March. I will be moving back to living with everyone for the month while we prepare.

This whole experience has led me to trust my higher intuition and to also surrender into what the universe and Divine are guiding me to inhabit at each turn. If love is what I am meant to serve, then I trust Love will continue to guide me even if it seems uncertain and unknown to parts of me.

This Lions Gate moment is inviting us to feel that edge of safety and fear. Our heart and soul callings may be hard for parts of us to lean into but if we are connected to this Divine Self frequency we can hold all of those feelings with grace, passion, and compassion leading us to that next step, even if it seems like a leap.

Mother once reminded me that each step will never be longer than my stride. I have learned the truth if that time and time again. My fear and anxious parts have too. This is what being present to our moment and our heart really offer us. Feel first. The rest will find its way.

More digestions and inner-standings to come along the way. Please tune in! Literally and figuratively. 🙏😊❤️

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Divine Self And The Death Of Fear

Fear is a deeply sacred energy. It feels almost encoded into our being to act as veil AND and portal into our essence as Love.

Recently, I had a beautiful experience of feeling an arising, embodied relationship to The Beloved and my Divine Self. A spark of Light and Love that is increasing within. As that expands and brightens, it acts as a poultice for all that is needing attention and transmutation into that very spark.

Pockets of anxiety, doubt, and fear come bubbling to the surface, like a moth that is drawn to a flame. It recognizes the growth, the warmth, and thus the ability to hold and receive love. At the root, Fear seems to be the change agent, not the anchor it once was.

Fear can be expressed in so many ways, both inbound and outbound. We live among a highly energized fear bubble. It is highly compressed and dynamic. With that energy afloat in the collective it can be hard to not pick up on it in our own emotional body.

This is where connecting with what we call the Divine Self comes into service. As I call to mine and connect with it/him, I can feel what my personal fear is about and how, or if, it is connected to the collective in any way. A sorting out process. I can feel how much the fear is centered around Death itself.

And by that I just don’t mean physical death, but that is a big one right now. It is also the death of a system of beliefs, assurances, and patterns that parts of us have grown attached to. They almost feel like us and so the death of them feels existential.

As we continue to be invited to more inner Utopia and less outer Dystopia, we need something to ‘hang our hats’ on while the collapse and shift is underway. The Divine Self is the enduring self. It is the Alpha and Omega. It is the net by which we collect all of the things that are essential and release those that are not.

The Divine Self is the aspect of us that can hold the parts that are fused to fear and create a bridge back to Itself. A feedback loop that doesn’t judge when the fear returns. Just offers more compassion and celebration, as that is just another opportunity to open to more Grace and closer to The Beloved.

Fear is no longer resisted or covered over. It is honored, felt deeply, and transmuted back to Love through the Divine Self. This is the ultimate alchemy of the sacred human. Let’s expand that together and see where it takes us, as one and as all.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Neowise As A Harbinger Of New Earth Wisdom

Photo by Liron Gertsman Photography

What a stunning cosmic display and harbinger of things to come this Neowise comet is. These ‘once-in-a-lifetime’ events are happening more and more in this lifetime! That feels eerily and beautifully significant.

When I saw the name of the comet I interpreted is as ‘New Wisdom’. Maybe new to our current consciousness, but not new to our Essence and Star Family lineage. This cosmic messenger feels like it wants to impart and inseminate New Earth possibilities. Almost like galactic sperm. A little crude maybe but feels true!

With these possibilities come responsitivities. I felt not to say ‘responsibilities’ because that can have this punishing edge to it. We are being invited to respond. To make choices that are in alignment with our Highest Calling and Being in the world. This invitation asks each of us to feel how we are responding to the energy around us. What are we choosing to allow into our temple of Light and cause static to the Love that is inherent in us all?

This comet raises our heads, hearts, and souls to the skies so that we can look into the mirror we have forgotten was a mirror. The Universe! The Infinite Expansiveness that is Consciousness itself. It is like a timely reminder for each of us to do the work necessary to clear and upgrade our physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual bodies.

We are part of that process. We do not just receive the upgrade. We must consciously work with it to integrate all that comes up in the process. Ascension is not a passive process. It is contingent upon us to show up to the very things that are in the Shadow and Fear Body so that we can make room for the expansion and the Love that is at our door step. Literally!

As a path or a means to this work, I encourage anyone to join the current SoulFullHeart six-week group call series, Free To Be 5D with Raphael and Jelelle Awen. You can join live every Wednesday or via recording for a donation of your choice. For more info visit:
soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dgroupcallseries

The first call was a great overview of the context of the work. The remaining calls will focus on the ‘nuts and bolts’ of the process and how it is connected to the greater context of Ascension.

I also offer a free consultation call for those that feel they want to know more on an individual level and how the process may resonate and support you in your next steps. You can visit soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info as well.

This is a time for bold choices and self-loving action. Neowise is meant to deliver each of us a message of our own ‘things to come’. Closing the eyes, opening the heart, and tapping into the soul is the portal to all of it.

Much love to you on this epic ride towards the Lion’s Gate.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Initiation As A Rite Of Embodied Self-Realization

We are always in phases of initiation whether we consciously choose them or not. The cycles of initiation lead us to Realization. We may spend years in a cycle until we are ready to graduate and move on to integration, only to be met by another cycle of initiation.

The Initiations are varied, specific to your soul needs and wounding. Crucibles arise when we are ready to fully embody the lessons of the initiation itself. We face intimacy initiations, leadership initiations, truth-telling, boundary, and courage initiations. All of them meant to challenge our way to the next level of our growth and maturation as an ego and a soul.

Sometimes we choose our initiations and sometimes they choose us, all orchestrated by the soul. These are meant for the parts, or Metasoul aspects, of us still stuck in a suffering loop or pattern. These loops are centered around something usually very traumatic which makes it that much harder to go into to heal free from.

The emotional body is where you may find the biggest anchors, the largest obstacles to these graduations and self-realizations. We can all achieve temporal states of bliss and Oneness, but the bigger plan is to fully EMBODY Samadhi in the physical. To be walking, conscious Divinity in the Now.

So from here to there, we have work to do. Things to feel, trauma and fear to heal, desires to express, and dreams to manifest. We have initiations to attend to, graduations to celebrate, and integrations to soak in. This is a journey, not a rocket launch. Yet the more you let in what the heart and soul needs and wants, and walk out those initiations with self-care, the faster the healing and shifts can occur.

As has been said many times, it is not the product but the process, and that process is Initiation.


For more about the SoulFullHeart Process and Paradigm, I highly recommend Jelelle Awen’s new book, Free To Be 5D. Visit soulfullheart.org/books for more info.

There will also be a 6-week Zoom call series about the book beginning next Wednesday, July 15. For more info go to soulfullheart.org/freetobe5dgroupcallseries

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Ahimsa: Healing The Inner Violence To Feel Our Non-Violence

Ahimsa. It is a Sanskrit word that means “non-injury” or “non-violence”. In my recent process of diving into sexual and emotional trauma as a young boy and teen, I have been able to access the more innocent and essential aspect of me.

This In-Essence, I am calling it, is so very sensitive yet strong and enduring. When I tap into it, I feel how much violence I have learned to be with this life, and many others. This is true for all of us when we get to this very kernel of our Being. When I go outside, I am aware of the violence all around. Things that I would not have deemed as violent before. Sounds, words, actions, thoughts, energies, etc.

Now, going down that awareness road could lead me to just hold up in a cave somewhere and never come out. Of course, that is not what I want (well, maybe a part of me would be okay with that for a short time). What I want to feel is how I can practice Ahimsa in each moment with myself, with Other, and with the World.

The first thing for me is to be aware of the violence within and hold it with compassion. From a SoulFullHeart perspective this violence can come in the form of an Inner Punisher and/or our inner unworth. One parcels out the violence the other acquiesces to it. Holding space for both brings them into relationship, into forgiveness, and into healing.

The more we can heal the violence and unworthiness within, the more we become aware of what is not Ahimsa for us in each moment. That which did not seem violent yesterday may seem much more so tomorrow. The thoughts we have, the things we eat, the way we eat, the way we have sex, the way we talk, the things we say, the feelings we have, the expression or suppression that ensue. The list goes on.

It is Consciousness loving Itself in the most subtle of ways. Compassion is the bridge that takes us there. We cannot find ourselves in a vacuum devoid of violence but we can choose what we are a part of and/or how we respond to situations. Ahimsa becomes a momentary mediation on Love, just as much as holding the part of us that doesn’t feel it has ever really known it or deserves it.

Take a moment to be still and feel Ahimsa. Feel what is not. There the healing begins.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Loving The Spiritual Warrior Into The Spiritual Ambassador

Since the Solstice/Eclipse I found myself flying high in the sky to then falling toward the ocean like Icarus in the Greek myth. An outer trigger that constellated another layer of my wounded masculine and feminine.

It illuminated the ways in which they are both still working out their relationship to each other. As my own ascension and maturation process continues, I reach more subtle areas of my wounded and shadow selves. Then the subtle becomes more obvious and like an elephant in the room.

The awareness I felt was that parts of me still look outbound for validation rather than inbound and from me and the Divine. Before this SoulFullHeart work, I would respond to this awareness by trying to ‘improve’ myself or take care of my ‘shit’. This only brought in more frequencies of self-judgement rather than self-compassion.

Through connecting to my inner world of parts and Metasoul aspects, I have become more clear about who I, Gabriel, is as the ‘eye of the storm’ sort of speak. I am becoming more clear of my Essential self, that Me that is the spark of the Divine.

As I connect to that energy more, I can start to see the architecture of my wounding more and be able to hold the parts of me in vibration and pain. I am the Ambassador of my own ascension. My trailing edge wounds are a part of who I am. I cannot go very far without them. Their ascension is my ascension.

So in I go. Feeling. Reflecting. Compassionating. Loving. Owning and Growing. This is the path of Spiritual Ambassador, not the Spiritual Warrior. Even the warrior is held in Love and not in spite. It has enumerable gifts that are the fuel of our devotion to Love for all humankind and for ourselves as human souls.

For more on this topic of 4D Warrior to 5D Ambassador I highly recommend today’s call with Raphael and Jelelle Awen. They will be bridging these energies through teaching and a guided meditation to bring in more compassion, forgiveness, and self-love. It will be available as a recording as well. To get the details go to soulfullheart.org/freetobe2.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

The Alignment Of Love And Light Within The Shadow

There is no doubt we have reached a new level of awakening. More Light is coming in and we will be going through an alchemical portal the next few days. What happens during these times can be conscious and unconscious. That which we are conscious of we have the ability to meet it with courage and intention.

Light doesn’t always look or feel loving. Light is meant to show. To reveal. Activate. Awaken. Our Shadow, both collectively and individually, is being brought into more consciousness. You can run, but you cannot hide from it. You can fight it, but you cannot defeat it. It can only be confronted, embraced, and loved.

In The Shadow are all the things that have been packed away, repressed, suppressed, and forgotten for very good reason. We even pack our bigness and truth in The Shadow. Pain and Pleasure both. It is a bubbling well of death and rebirth. Destruction and Construction. You can hold the course the best you can, but this is usually a part of you that is navigating the chaos by just getting through it. Or there may be a part that thrives in chaos to the detriment to the parts of you that are not too thrilled about being on the rollercoaster.

Social relationships and body reactions are big indicators of whether Love and Light are in cahoots with each other. Love without shedding Light on what real is Transcendence. Torching the Light without Love is Violence. In the middle, is sacred humanity.

When you take time to breathe and feel yourself in the midst of the Fire, you may feel many conflicting energies that can create a multitude of emotional and physical reactions. The Heart and Body never lie. The question is, are they talking to each other?

If you feel a wobble and procession with these energies, it may be time to find a source of stability where you can grab hold of a center. This can be done by accessing the parts of you that are in pain, reaction, and dis-ease. By relating to them as a part, you increasingly become the center pole, capable of more than just weathering a storm. You are transmuting and reclaiming the Power and Lovelight that you are at your core. The weather patterns begin to calm with each movement and your outer world can’t help but to need to reflect that.

I have been through many of these deaths and rebirths in my process during very intense energetic times. I offer my heart and experience as that center pole for a time until you feel more of yours. I am a part of a community of others who are doing the same, so you are not on your own on this. You get support and recognition for who you are as an emotional, spiritual, and physical being.

If that sounds like an interesting invitation and would like to explore more, please check more about our free consult calls with myself, Raphael Awen, or Kalayna Solais at soulfullheart.org/sessions. There is also Jelelle Awen’s new book Free To Be 5D that lays out the whole paradigm and process at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books. There will be a group call series about the book beginning July 15. More info at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/freetobe5dgroupcallseries

Many blessings to you as we continue this continued ascension and maturation process.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartorg.com for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.