Meeting Your Divine Self – Our Journey From & Back To Source

By  Raphael Awen

The farther we journey from source, the greater is our return to source where we are enabled to experience it for the first time.

This is the homecoming that you and I are now in, even as parts of us feel like the separation is growing.

It’s no longer the separation that’s growing, but rather your awareness of it that is increasing.

This week has been marked for me with another reunion with my Divine Orphan self that was triggered by some arising life circumstances, inviting the conditioned-to-this-life parts of me to feel and see this divine orphan self. I’m finding the beholding of this part again to be so moving and deeply rewarding, that answers the deeper questions at hand about the feelings of separation.

We were all initiated out of divine source into experience itself, and this experience needed to begin with what was not source. All of the fears, anxieties and depression we carry hearken back to our being birthed out of our divine bliss/oneness/source essence.

In this, we all were implanted with a great core wound, a wound that would underlie everything we would come to label as neurosis, things wrong with us. All of our attachments and quarrels within and without stem from this wound. But this pain and burden we carry is not only a wound that hurts, it is also an opening, a portal back, back to our true essence.

Your true essence is not conditioned by the conditionings of fear and lack that were needful for the experience journey. Your essence hasn’t participated here in the hijacked, 3D, matrixed, realm. Your essence remained untouched and protected from all of that.

The godhood you long for, you actually still possess and never lost. You just took on the experience of forgetting and of losing. In experience, you did lose divine connection and it hurts like the hell that it is. In essence though, you never lost a single thing. You are both experience and essence. More correctly, you are essence that took on experience.

You set out not to discover faraway lands, but to leave the land of your origin, so that you could return to it and discover it for the first time. As essence, you couldn’t know or feel or appreciate that essence and bliss. Bliss was left wanting to be known and felt and experienced. It was a risky endeavor, but your soul and the divine’s decided to fund this great discovery journey into reverence, awe and wonder.

As the increasing awareness of this separation rumbles in your life, you feel a fever pitch of everything coming apart at the seams. Everything you’ve worked so hard for to make experiential life bearable or even good comes now at this stage to be found to be not enough. In reaction, you may work harder as I have on gratitude and whatever other host of self-prescriptions to attempt to right your relation-ship with life, only to find they are not at all effective like they were before.

What the hell is happening?

You are beginning the return part of your journey home. You are sailing in the opposite direction. You are returning from where you came and the way you came. The return voyage has been negotiated through many lifetimes and so many experiences and you are ready now, equipped and prepared for the return.

The conditioning of lack and scarcity that you onboarded in your journey into experience is still here, and at times feels strangely and troublingly magnified. But this is all to be expected as you are called to feel and reconcile all the parts of you that are adjusting to returning to source – such a different experience than journeying away from source.

Now, you begin to get a sense of how sacred this forgotten core wound opening is. It is the one thing that would guarantee your return to divine source experientially. Your messed-up-ness is actually your perfection expressing and calling out to you. Each arising pain and ache is an intrinsic part of  the ongoing guidance as you restore to each part of you the pieces of their birthright that they are ready to feel.

Your preferences for pleasure over pain are a key part of your being human and of restoring your humanity with your divinity. You are invited not to bypass them any longer in the name of some kind of medicative spiritual practice. You chose to experience. You chose to want and to need. Those wants and those needs will need to be courageously owned and embraced if this voyage is to be completed successfully and on time (and in time).

As you witness the great fever pitch of insanity unfolding around you, ask yourself if you can think of any greater contribution to such a distress call than that of saving yourself, deeply choosing and embracing your own return journey home.

As you continue your return journey home as one being, you are reminding the oneness that we all are and share of this remembrance journey. Those around you in the forgetting phase will need your example when the time of their remembering comes, just as you needed it from others.

May we each embrace the perfection that we are amidst all that seems and feels so imperfect. May we set up a heart home with a great hearth of the warmth that will allow the fullest remembering.

Raphael Awen

SoulFullHeart.org/sessions

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Energy Update: Blood Moon Eclipse Impacting All Wombs/Haras, Stirring Awakenings & Action-taking

by Kasha Rokshana

The collective womb throbs and hums, expands and contracts. It is working to help us through our death and rebirth. It is co-creating with us the world we want to live in, while helping us collapse the one we don’t. It is moving and swaying in time with the music of the waves of collective awakening. It is clearing itself out and making room for what wants to come through…

This week’s Blood Moon Eclipse connects us to this collective womb in an intense way. It’s a harbinger of what’s already happening and the intensity of what’s to come too. The moon, I feel, is not a pure connection, but a hijacked one. Meaning, it has its role in broadcasting the Matrix that is peaking now, which impacts us all, and to the awakening soul that is shaking off what’s left of its slumber, this particular broadcast from the moon this week could be felt in very uncomfortable ways.

The continued push of the v. bioweapon agenda is a scary one. In many ways it’s a direct attack on the womb, on the human heart, on our children, on the physical body vessel and the soul it houses. It’s getting worse and continues to peak. This creates a lot of stirring and shifting in every womb/hara space in every individual, for we are all connected and no matter what is happening and where, we ARE going through it together. 

Within your womb, you may be experiencing cramping, bloating, fatigue, and a feeling of overall physical discomfort. Emotional edges may be peaking, especially anxiety and a feeling of hopelessness or even restlessness. Whether or not it’s directly related to your own cycle, there is a frequency connecting all of our wombs at this time. The hara in men may also be feeling impacted with its own symptoms. 

My own womb has been humming in deep response to everything that’s moving… as I feel her, I feel what she’s been holding. I feel the tension of getting ready for the next phase of her cycle, but also the tension of what’s breaking down and breaking open in the world. I feel my own process of feeling into how to respond to that and also feeling how it connects to some pieces in my soul and my this-life parts too. 

Connecting in with my womb, I feel all of this and the discomfort of the confused collective that is trying to break through the ceilings of a consciousness that has long been held as ‘normal’. I feel my own personal ceilings I’m breaking through as well and how challenging that can be at times. Overall, I feel my connection to Divine Mother through the portal of my womb, which offers me all of this context I’m sharing with you now, even through the physical discomfort and emotional peaks I’m feeling inside of myself. 

It all feels like the energy of death, but laced with hope. It feels like a deep reboot of our sense of what’s true and how to respond to it with love, care, compassion, and when necessary, urgency.

As the collective Dark Night experience intensifies at this time, you may be feeling stirred to take urgent action and make swift life changes that have a huge impact on how your next phase unfolds. It feels important to not over-process or analyze this urgency right now and the intensity you may be feeling about it all, instead offering it plenty of air and giving space to the reactions parts of you are very reasonably having.

As women, sometimes we need our inner masculines to ‘kick it into high gear’ and help us move on and into more personal safety, choosing to follow the flow of the resonance that calls us, even if soul family feels physically far away. With more lockdowns, more shunning of those who choose love over fear, more risk of becoming ‘stuck’ in situations or geographies that are so clearly dissonant to your own values and what your heart and soul believes to be the truth underlying everything that’s happening, it’s paramount to listen to that voice within that encourages and empowers you to find a way out. 

Jelelle and I have led several women’s calls with guided meditations to help you access and feel your womb and also your inner masculine in a deeper way. You can donate whatever you feel to or go to our shop to purchase: soulfullheart.org/shop

Our wombs/haras carry many codes for us of our personal awakening journeys and alchemy. There’s so much we can receive from them when we connect consciously to them and feel how whatever is moving through us is also moving through the All. The Divine womb that holds us all is expressed in each of us and it’s so vital to our wellbeing to embrace and understand that. 

As the collective ‘womb’ we all share continues to move the energies of what’s burning UP through her, we’re not only being offered a dystopia but also hope… it was our co-creative power that brought in the reality we’re living out and allowed it to seed the way it has. That means we also have the power, which starts individually always, to move into another phase of co-creation now that we’ve learned so much from this one.

I feel how important awareness of these pieces is right now, to be able to digest and feel them. Fear and the parts of you that may feel it is never ‘bad’ or ‘wrong’. Yet, it’s the relationship to fear that is also important to feel and get real about… feeling and holding parts of you and Metasoul aspects in other lifetimes who vibrate in it moves all fears into trust eventually, with dedication to them and to your womb, who helps to hold them all. For more information on 1:1 sessions with me or one of my beloveds, visit soulfullheart.org/sessions

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Arising, Authentic, and Sacred Masculine

In my ongoing journey of accessing and embodying my authentic, sacred masculine, I am finding where I have lived in the space between the Wolf and the Lion. The Wolf represents the more instinctual, primal energy, and the Lion the more kingly, leadership aspect. One with bite, the other with roar.

I have been aware of how both of these aspects have been hidden in shadow. A fear of my power and truth that lay within. The authentic, integrated masculine has struggled to arise for many men. There is a resistance to unleashing these aspects for a variety of reasons. When one hears the call of, “where are the real men nowadays?!”, there is a judgement in that somewhere rather than a heartfelt curiosity, both from those asking and from those of us receiving.

Yes, we are all being called to our power and truth, men and women alike. In that calling, we are met with our own personal initiations into the realm of our bigness and presence. We are sent on a quest through the hinterlands of the Shadow and what we have sequestered there until further notice. There is a veil of protection that lies in between. It is the meeting of this layer where we gain access to our most authentic self, rough edges, defensiveness, weaknesses and all.

We can respond to the trumpet of the call to action, and create an image based on someone else’s version of what it means to be a man in today’s volatile world. That may serve a purpose for some. A part of an initiation and growth edge. There is also going into what is real and authentic for you; your own process of self-awareness and empowerment that is not just about the collective but your own soul’s healing, maturation, and purpose on this planet at this time.

These energies are calling me to reconcile my masculine shadow and power as a sacred union mate, a community leader, a healer, and a teacher. These aspects are not separate from each other but integral to one another. They are also not separate from the feminine principle either. Again, integral. It is being held by this sacred feminine that the sacred masculine can arise with the trust that any shadow can and will be addressed with Love and Compassion.

This is my journey. My evolution into embodying and expressing more of what is true for me and not for anyone else. This is what I feel I am being called to live into and serve. To honor and awaken what has been hidden and forsaken in this masculine heart and soul, for myself and for those that it is meant to resonate with.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Surrounded By Love

By  Raphael Awen

We are so surrounded by love, full of love, made of love, that we needed the ongoing experiences of stepping outside of it, and then returning to it, as a way of perfecting perfection.

Love was willing to create a deficiency of itself, a shadow partition to cordon off some of its overbearing light to afford itself; and you and I actual experiences of this love.

We couldn’t experience love were it not for a deficiency of this love. Love couldn’t flow if love was the all in all, filling all things to the full. Flow and experience required a vacuum, something missing. Love ventured into an experiment with experience, for experience was another thing it couldn’t know, feel or have inside it itself.

Every desire, anxiety, joy and fulfillment that moves and shapes your life is part of this vacuum.

Love ventured into the business of lack and harm and wounding because any step outside of itself would require an opening, a portal, a wound.

We live and carry these wounds. They are our greatest challenges. We carry them personally, in our relationships with ourselves, with every other we’ve ever known or will come to know, and we carry them collectively. These portal wounds are everywhere. They not only remind us of our seeming separation from love, but also invite us to return to love at any moment. The access to this love is beyond instantaneous, for not even an instant is required to make its connection. It just is. You are it. You never lost it.

The duality we find ourselves in is the way home. I am, therefore I want. I am, therefore I am vulnerable to not having my genuine needs met or fulfilled. I am, therefore I am afraid. I am, therefore I need.

To not have need is to not exist in this experiment of experience. You get to be needy. You get to admit your vulnerability. You get to feel how deeply you yearn for fulfillment. You get to admit what you like and what you don’t like.

You get to return fully to the love that you are, where all the costs and outstanding liabilities on this balance sheet of duality will be reconciled.

You and I literally are this reconciliation, as well as the separation, both.

Love to you and through you,

Raphael Awen

SoulFullHeart.org

Pic above: Jelelle and I got to enjoy 3 magical sunny days on the coast here in Portugal last week, while making the trip to pick up Raianna Shai from the aeroporto.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The Courage To Align In Heart And Soul

When the soul and heart do not feel aligned, it becomes noticeable to us in many ways. There is a struggle to remain in joy and even in physical health. The lights dim and the clouds roll in. There is a feeling of loss and disempowerment. This can even fall into the neighborhood of victimhood if we really let it. Lots of evidence to convince ourselves otherwise.

There is a cloud that is setting over the collective. An ongoing war of the Mind, the Heart, and the Soul of humanity. A truly epic time to be here. Each of us are affected by it differently. For some it is part of a karmic recapitulation, for others it may be a soul awakening and unification. A stark reality that illuminates what are the most important things to us. What is it that we truly need and want, and well as what is our deeper purpose?

We may not fully know how all those things align in time, but going into the Heart is where we find your truth and your deepest need. This will inevitably bring you to a crossroad and a precipice. It is where we have to “screw our courage to the sticking place”, though hopefully not in the same Shakespearean use of the phrase.

It will take a lot of collective courage to turn this ship around. For each of us to find our voice, our purpose, and our power. This is a time where social ties are unraveling and resorting themselves. This comes with a lot of grief yet can be transmuted into gold when it is felt through with each wave, even when we may doubt at times we have made the ‘right’ choice.

That choice can only come from deep inside. From a place that is found in the dark and the unknowable, but infinitely felt and held by Love. If we want to truly arise in that New World, we must go through our own inner ‘hells’ to get there. We must also connect ourselves with those that are doing the same in resonance. With all the energies that are out there we can use all the support we can get.

So this goes out to all of you that are finding your way back to your truest and bravest selves. You are paving the way for others to follow.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Mining For Love Coin

“Those who have the gold, make the rules.” I heard this a lot growing up. It was just one of those hard realities that I was told I had to accept (according to my early influencers) in order to have the life I wanted. The question was, whose life was it that I was wanting?

Later, I realized I wanted the Philosopher’s Gold. That prized possession of sacred understanding that could lead me out of the doldrums of my inner struggle for outer need. If I could find that ‘answer’, then that would be worth more than all of the physical gold in the world.

Yet, the quest for that Holy Grail of Knowing was like a dog chasing its tail. Then, there was just Feeling. Going to the heart of the matter, not the mind over matter. It was in this place that I came upon a world full of hidden treasure that had currency. It had a stored wealth that led to more health. More power of Presence and of choice. I got to choose my reality by simply feeling my reality in all its shades and hues.

In all that is currently happening, the most valuable and sustainable wealth is not gold, bitcoin, information, or righteousness. It is the brave, real, and healing heart. It is the way we see and feel ourselves outside the deluge of dissonance. It is about connecting to the Lover’s Gold. The raw material of our humanity and our spirituality.

While the physical, material economy is being shaken up like an Etch-A-Sketch, our emotional economy is searching for a stable place to invest its reality into that which is not dependent on external forces, but rather inner guidance and Divine holding. It seeks a Sacred Trust Fund to deposit all its fears, its doubts, its rage, and its power.

This is what many of us are being guided to focus on. Mining for Lovecoin. That self-generated and soul-seeded gift embedded at the core of our birthright. We are born with the power to create, to destroy, and to Be this very brave and powerful kind of Love. What we see and feel in front of us is what leads us to that very gateway of vulnerable transformation, conscious responsibility, and a transparent exchange of our gifts with the world.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Energy Update: Shakti Fierce Feminine Energies Provoked By Full Moon

By Jelelle Awen

Energy Update: The full moon wakes something up from within us. It has a broadcast frequency of the Matrix to some degree, so long ‘hijacked’ by those forces. Yet, also, there are the ways that we have related with the moon in so many lifetimes of worship and ceremony that somehow calls on us to allow the lunar energies to hold space for us. For those of us with many lifetimes of being a Priestess, the moon has long been our companion for magics safer done in the dark.

As we deepen into Autumn and approach Samhain/Halloween soon, the veils thin always at this time of year between dimensions. I am reminded of the Day of the Dead/Dia de los Muertos celebrations when we lived in Mexico. The entire culture embraces and acknowledges the thinness of the veils between the living and the dead during this time. Spirit would be invited to have a more solid place at the ‘table’ of the living led by the heart’s reminiscing memories and the soul’s enduring connections that go beyond physical body death.

There is a provoking of energies to come out from the shadows during this time…that we have put there because they are not ‘safe’, or deemed appropriate or have been suppressed for many lifetimes. The energy of the Fierce Feminine and Her Shakti rumbles are coming through. Sometimes it is a fury that allows her to express herself, a self advocacy that makes other parts of us very uncomfortable. Shakti is not polite, controllable, or predictable. She destroys even as She gives life.

It is this alchemical feminine that has so long been neutered in our Matrix-controlled patriarchal culture. It has been hijacked as well, making those of us who have the self permission and qualification (after MUCH healing work) to express it feel like we have ‘temper problems’ or are ‘losing it’ when it comes through. What we are losing when Shakti comes through are the control mechanisms and implants and conditionings that program us to feel that it is NOT ok to be powerful, to be wild, and to be truthful….especially if it shakes up others, even if it hurts others too, even if they judge us as a result and reject us. And there is an equivalent in men that feels like it is even more resistant to this fierce feminine coming through as so much harm has been inflicted by the wounded misuse of these energies by the patriarchy.

This energy is not about abusing in the toxic way that the hijacked feminine can…which I have come to call “Ursula”, named for the Evil Sea Witch character in the Little Mermaid movie. Ursula is a hijacked construction of the Matrix that has made evil and wrong feminine magic and sorcery. Ursula is bitter, manipulative, competitive, and without any vulnerability at all. She is also undeniably powerful. Yet, she uses her power not to empower herself and others ultimately, but rather to take, own, and possess.

I share more about Ursula consciousness here and there is a link to purchase a women’s group meditation call to unplug your womb from the matrix: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/unplugging-from-the…/

I have experienced through our SoulFullHeart process of connecting to ALL energies/parts/aspects within that unplugging from the Matrix Ursula allows for the healing of the inner one. She is then free to access the Universal life (and death) forces of the Divine such as Shakti and also Kundalini.

The energies right now are confronting these places within us that hold our power. Lifetimes/Timelines can come through now for us to feel how being persecuted leads to being afraid to express them. This fear of powerful expression is occurring even now in our lifetime with the V. narrative and an agenda of censorship, restrictions, and control of free speech/free movement/free living. The Cabal Matrix patriarchy is tightening the reigns on the Fierce Feminine, along with the Compassionate Feminine….as both energies threaten the Cabal’s dominance because they are key to ushering in the death of the Matrix to allow the birth of New Earth.

Feel the flows of these intense energies, allowing them to take you where they may. Divine Mother has a face and form that can ‘match’ these places within you and never make them wrong. Go through the portals that they offer, bringing light of non-self judgement to the shadows, so that much may revealed during this magical time of self discovery.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

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What We Think We Own

By  Raphael Awen

When we fight, push and press to own something, that thing possesses us. What was gained by force must be maintained by force.

Nothing can really be owned in this way without it owning us. The energy of the currency we used to buy it, is then the current that flows into our relationship with the thing. We possess the thing and the thing mirrors that possession back to us.

It breaks down and demands maintenance or it refuses to work. It threatens us with being stolen and calls for more time and energy to protect it. It gets neglected and then shames us for spending all that and not using it like we intended too.

How could something be called ours and not be owned in this way?

It begins with realizing that you already possess all things. You are the thing. You can’t actually be separate from anything. The vendor and buyer are playing a game of forgetting, thinking that one can rightfully own something at another’s expense and that this other must pay a ransom to transfer that ownership. Many others join so deeply into the game that it becomes a reality of its own. Thieves, police, prisons, security systems and so much more support this illusory game.

Then there’s realizing that any material thing is in its essence matter. It came from Gaia, our matter/mother. Our mother provides all things necessary freely without price. All matter is mother. Gaia is the original and only rightful owner.

Grasping to own Mother Gaia doesn’t work. It’s like trying to own love. Love can’t be owned, only let in and received. The one who receives her does just that.

And if something came from Gaia which is conscious, then a thing formed and framed from different bits and pieces of Gaia, retains that consciousness.

And consciousness wants to be experienced, known and felt. There’s no such thing as an inanimate object with this deeper awareness of what life and matter is.

All of this invites us into new feelings of reverence and appreciation, feeling how provided for we actually are, how our grasping is a resistance to that infinite and quite scary provision.

It invites us into feeling how ‘things’ want to be held in our open hands and bring their goodness and abundance to us. Things don’t like being passed on from rightful slave owner to rightful slave owner, they want to be free where they can be and express all they are.

Owners become stewards of living things and nothing more, being gifted with the relationship exchange of care, blessing and goodness (god-li-ness, god-like-ness) that the thing brings.

I’d so like to keep experiencing this more and more, letting go of chasing money, chasing things, chasing more spiritual sounding practices of ‘how to attract abundance’, when abundance is trying its best to find a way into my heart and life.

Raphael Awen 💚

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Emerging, Renewed, From Retreat & Recovery In Gaia’s Arms

by Kasha Rokshana

This retreat to Nature has been a retreat into myself, collapsing and letting go of so much that I didn’t realize I was holding, that I didn’t consciously realize I wasn’t letting the Divine in on, and that I didn’t realize was creating a widening chasm inside between what I felt I needed to do or become and what I wanted to do and become. I feel more ‘awake’ now in a soul sense and yet in deep sleepiness too as the rest and recovery from what has been true about life and service for parts of me continues to heal and transmute.

Over the last 5 years I’ve shared many words of poetry, offerings of Divine love as I’ve personally experienced it, and many transparent writings about my personal process. In the beginning of that, there was tenderness about sharing. As the years went on it became about something else though, maybe more ‘ego-based’ at times, but always with the intention of helping, supporting, offering love to others in the mix as well.

It’s humbling to take a step back and look at all of this, especially while also feeling the pain of what’s moving in the world of shadows and light known as ‘Gaia’. It’s humbling to let nature hold you while you feel it all out with the heart rather than figure it all out with the mind, wonder what your place of contribution to the NEW truly is, and remember that absolutely every piece felt on a heart and soul level IS the contribution.

The yelling-matches, virtually and not, can do something but won’t do everything. The self-righteous energies catalyze something, but eventually run out of ground as they don’t truly let the Divine/love itself in. Conflict has its place but also has to find its resolution through curiosity. Truth revelations are inevitable. The acceptance of them in the mainstream is not. The only way that I can feel we can move through these humbling times is to truly be with ourselves in them, surround ourselves with resonant others, and explore the themes emerging in the world from within our own inner worlds where we can take responsibility for our part in the play out of the current human shadow show.

I feel so grateful for these months immersed in beautiful Northern Portugal, for the clarifies that are still dawning and moving through, and the rebirth of the grace within to hold it all.

I’m sharing a photo from a hike with my beloved Gabriel, where we took in the vast expanse of the valley we’ve been camping in for the last couple of months. I felt the hugeness of the beauty we’ve been surrounded by and the Divine love codes downloaded through the mountains, trees, and flowers.

Really looking forward to experiencing what emerges next as we move on from here and feel into what SoulFullHeart, and all of us, become next.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Living In A Deeply Altered Reality

By  Raphael Awen

We all live in a deeply altered personal reality that we have needed to normalize to a large enough degree to make it bearable and doable.

We added a balm layer of amnesiac forgetfulness to help this altered reality hold together.

The specific location of this altered reality does have a location and coordinates on the larger map of reality, but even that larger map is yet another altered reality.

All realities are sub realities/royalties of love. Love created infinite number expressions of itself in a bid to know and expand itself.

You and I are one infinitesimally small expression of that, while at the same time holding all of the infinite fullness of that grand endeavor, being and expression.

As awareness of our origins arise for us in felt, feeling toned experience, we make more and more conscious reconnection with that origin. That is coming to know and feel our divine love essence. This is the update of love that is experiencable and felt, a ‘to:’ and ‘from:’ kind of love, like in valentines, not just a love ‘isness’ that just is, but can’t be transactionally known outside of itself. Love stepped outside of itself to know itself. You and I are that outed love kind of reality.

Even though we were outed from love, we never lost that connection to love, nor did we lose our essence of being love, for it was impossible to lose. So impossible was it to be lost, that love needed to go to these lengths to create make-believe realities mixed in with so much forgetfulness to allow for these places of experiment, discovery and expansion.

In it all, we all suffered from feelings of being cast out, of falling from grace, of assuming a personal guilt for such a felt tragedy.

These were experiences the divine was unable to have within itself were it not for you and I as modified expressions of the divine capable of this layer of creativity, forgetfulness and even suffering. But what is the point of this suffering, if not as the spiritual texts refer to, ‘a greater glory to be revealed’ in us?

As all of this is coming into our awareness, we are invited to reopen our quest and questions from a new place of childlike reverence, awe and wonder.

We can certainly see when we look at one another, or look at divergent parts of ourselves, how each of our personal realities is a specific sub reality, and all of that within a larger shared reality layer here on Gaia. But what if this Human/Gaian/Earth reality is only yet again, one of innumerable other realities, and other locations?

We can also see and feel how this ability to create sub realities is so embedded in each one of us, and how we do that from moment to moment, or from phase to phase in our lifetimes, and soul history.

If any of this feels true, then it really invites us in our awakening to humble ourselves to this background reality generating dynamic within to become reverent and curious about what it is doing and why.

How could we possibly awaken to its workings and invite it to go into new directions that our heart and soul wants to consciously take instead of living out the realities dropped on us from our environment or past conditionings?

How could we love, feel and bridge to the past conditioned realities in a way that completes them, and moves them from fear to love?

Are there ‘portal moments’ where we are ripe and ready to shift realities? How do we recognize and embrace those kinds of moments?

How do we relate to those who we have so deeply shared and created a reality with when they don’t seem done at all with the reality like we are?

Is the asking and living out of these questions possibly the return trip back to love, the completion of love’s experiment and expansion?

You are love where you are now, where you were, and where you are headed. Try as we may, this is one essence we can’t shake, for it is the only essence from which all other essences arise.

Even your shame, fear and anxiety are all a part of this expansion, experiment, experience, seeming departure and return to love. So is your unbounded joy, desire, delight and love of life, the divine and one another!

Deep, rich, unfathomable love to you,

Raphael Awen

Please join us for our 10:10 Divine Love Transmission Group Call on Sunday, October 10.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.